Hi /b/ > been single for 6 months now > hasn't been
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Hi /b/
> been single for 6 months now
> hasn't been a day I haven't thought about her.
> Baww thread.
Post ur best baww songs,
tell me your baww,
dump ur baww shit,
i will dump my baww folder
Got put on a break yesterday for two weeks, was told "we r not breaking up"
But it fucking felt like breaking up.. and I guess in 2 weeks it's over.
Cried for about an hour and throw up for 15min after we talked about it..
Crying right now as I write it down
>>769210236
One of my favourites is
Muse - Undisclosed Desires
Normally i don't care about Muse but this one fucking song is tearing me apart. It sums the feels I have for her.
I want her but all the time I know I can't have her back. She's better without me and that fucking breaks my heart
>>769210236
Same here bro. Single for about same time... I talked to her one time at facebook at 5 am while i was drunk. She never replyed. Things didnt work out with her... i know i am better without her but fuck sometimes it hurts to know that it could have been another way.
>>769210623
dude. Let it all out. It helps a little.But it's something.
huh.
Judas Priest - Here come the Tears
Great song, not so great after a breakup thought.
It just hurt's so fucking much. Considering suicide but I know I'm never brave enough.
>>769211021
Gotta check that out. Once i've slept. once i've been awake less than 17h
Juice wrld- all girls are the same
It doesn't stop hurting, Anon. I wish I could say it does, but that's just a quaint lie they tell you to make you feel better in the short term.
One day, you'll find that it's not such a fresh wound, though. One day, you'll realize it's less a gaping emptiness and more just an ache you feel nibbling at the back of your consciousness except in the darkest of times.
There will be other loves, it may not seem like it depending on how long you spent with her, but you will love again, no matter how hard you don't want to.
In truth, there is a certain quality a man who has found and lost true love carries that others will never be able to emulate. In time, you'll figure out what you really felt for her, and even if it wasn't the genuine article, you'll grow for it. You'll grow as a person, as a human worth knowing.
These are just disconnected bits of encouragement I know, but I've been up for three days working. Like I said, there'll be other loves, Anon, sometimes those loves aren't people, if I'm fully truthful; most will say that's not healthy, but if you're happy with it - truly happy, on the inside - then there really is no problem.
I lost her five years ago, I've had other women in my life since, but I didn't really feel anything for them, they were just bandaids if I'm honest, distractions to keep me sane while I figured myself out.
But figure myself out, I did. I'll work this job until I die, it's my calling. I didn't know I wanted to teach when I set out in adult life, but by whatever divine powers there may or may not be, it's what I was meant to do.
I still think about her sometimes, I do, Anon. But it's not tear-welling and bitter-sweet memories anymore, it's more a reminiscence of when I found my first true love, a person, and found out for the first time in my life that love does not really need to be requited to be true. She pretended, yes, but I respect that she thought she felt the same about me, at least at first.
>best friend had cancer
>been taking care of him since november
>gets better, gets worse, gets better gets worse
>he finally passes away last thursday
>mornings are okay, but by nightfall im crying like a baby
>just wish someone would hold me through the night
>when someone hugs me for a few moments i feel better but no one hugs for more than a few moments
>>769211332
be strong fren
Book of love - peter gabriel (this one was particularly powerful to me. memories flood my mind when i hear it still. slow motion scenes of my favorite moments..)
put me back together - weezer
i dont want to let you go - weezer
here without you - 3 doors down
>>769211519
Shit that's deep
>>769210845
same..
>>769211603
cant say i know that pain. not gonna act like i do, but im sorry for your loss. hope someone hugs you soon
>>769211847
i just wish someone would stay the night in bed. but all my friends are dudes and thats 'gay' so its not happening. one friend help me for about 20 minutes while watching anime though and that helped a lot. just feeling the warmth of a person, even if its just their arm against your back changes a lot.
i feel so stranded and alone all the time, even when surrounded by people. i know its just part of grieving, but it seems so easy to be comforted if someone would just wrap their arms around me.
>>769211768
Shittiest part is I love her and I know she loves me. We were just not made to be. We didn't help each other but hurt. And that just breaks my heart.
You want a baww song?
https://youtu.be/UYPoMjR6-Ao
But ey get over it and shit, yo.
>>769211731
Gona check those out
>>769211603
bro.. my dad just died of cancer.. i have few close friends but none of them ever spent time with him like my ex did because we brought her on family trips and shit..
i was seeing this new girl during this time and i just saw her for the first time in over a month and we were talking but i didn't feel the desire to cry in her arms even though she was kind of inviting me too.
i wanna see my ex so bad now.. shes the only person i want to vent in front of.. she has seen me at so many low points that its the only person i'd be comfortable enough too... but at the same time idk..
>>769212045
rly fuck that "being gay" shit. Guys need also to be touched. guys also need comfort
Bed a new one
Hey anons. Just found out a week ago my ex is expecting a daughter with someone else. I know this may seem like nothing much but this is the girl who changed my life for the better. I was in a pretty shitty time when she came into my life, on the brink of suicide and she turned that all around. I felt loved and appreciated like never before. She truly loved me even with all my imperfections yet I was too fucking oblivious to not see this at the time. I had been in other relationships but to this day, I feel no one understood me like she did. My severe anxiety bought in by past relationships led me to suspect that such exuberance wasn't real and that this relationship, like the ones before it, was a ruse by life to destroy me. It infuriates me to no end when I realize now how fucking delusional I was for allowing myself to be led so blindly. My anxiety eventually ended up costing me my relationship and I just can't get over how she could've still been with me if I hadn't fucked up so stupidly. For the past three years I haven't been in another relationship and I have had this false hope, this unrealistic expectation that maybe one day, fate would reunite us again. But now, I realize that was nothing short of a fantasy. There is no second chance, at least not for me. At the same time though, I'm more than happy for her and hope she finds true joy because she truly deserves it. She deserves someone better than me, someone who won't fail her like I did. What I felt for her was nothing short of love. I still feel her, albeit considerately killing me.
>>769212314
its a hard thing to get passed in todays culture and i can understand it. i frankly dont care even on good days i love hugging my friends and they're doing a good job with that, but its sad that i have a friend sleeping on my floor 2 feet away from me, but if i asked him to sleep on my bed thats suddenly 'gay'. im just glad the one friend just wrapped his arm around me for a solid half hour. it just felt warm.
>>769212304
i dont really have any exs that im close to or like all that much. i considered trying to date right now but it seems like a stupid reason to and even before he passed i was struggling with dating just because it was hard to 'play the game'. every day was hell taking care of someone with cancer and it just made it hard to connect.
>>769210236
Your self-loathing is keeping you single, idiot.
>>769212621
fuck off buddy. he claerly isnt looking for someone atm
>>769212226
lmk if any help/u want more recs
>>769212145
sorry to hear that. i cant understand why/how that sort of thing happens. i thought my ex and i were destined to be together but things change i suppose. its been almost three years since its ended and no matter how hard i try i can't let go of the insane dream that we'll somehow end up together again. i know how impossible it is, but at the same time i always ask myself "what if" and maybe someday. pretty shitty
>>769212538
its better for your mental health to get rid of any contact/connection.
you need to snap out of it. 3 years with that delusion? a girl wouldn't want to goback to you if you lived your life expecting fate to bring you back. she'd want you to be a stronger better you.
that girl was 1/1000 at best.
1/100 most likely.
time to find the next one.
>>769212538
This pretty much broke me.
>>769212893
Really, really, really, come on man this killed my sad vibe
>>769212183
lol. classic. "you know that she'll break you in two"
>>769212538
>My anxiety eventually ended up costing me my relationship and I just can't get over how she could've still been with me if I hadn't fucked up so stupidly. For the past three years I haven't been in another relationship and I have had this false hope, this unrealistic expectation that maybe one day, fate would reunite us again. But now, I realize that was nothing short of a fantasy. There is no second chance, at least not for me. At the same time though, I'm more than happy for her and hope she finds true joy because she truly deserves it. She deserves someone better than me, someone who won't fail her like I did. What I felt for her was nothing short of love. I still feel her, albeit considerately killing me.
This right here. I can relate 100%. i too failed my ex, and believe she deserves better. all those damn movies and those fantasized second chances. sometimes when i dream its as if we're still together (three years after the fact). its honestly amazing how elated i am. waking up is terrible though
>>769212901
It's always the "what if"...
That thing breaks me. It's like a devil on my shoulder whispering all the time "what if you could be sane? Then you could be with Her. What if time passes and you could just be?"
>>769212965
Working on it.
>>769213097
>>769212986
I feel your pain.
I just fucked up bad. I cheated on the perfect woman for me.
We've broken up and still she doesn't know
She we're my everything
I had the end that relationship just because i couldn't deal with myself
>be me
>be anon
>be single for 12 years after gf moved to Aussieland and lost contact
>don't complain about it
>slowly become sidechad
>help every poor fucker I meet get a gf by getting myself freindzoned & then getting them into a random loveless beta
>mfw im basically the irl equivelant of a charisma boosting sidequest
>mfw I'm also a lazy piece of shit who can rarely be bothered to un-beta a fag
Ask and ye shall receive, but at the same time fuck that noise b/c I couldnt give a fuck
>>769210236
Took me about 2 years to move on. It still hurts when I think about her, but it gets easier to not. I know it's cliche, but it just takes time, and new experiences. I know you don't want anything new, you just want her. I been there. It doesn't go away, it just gets easier to distract yourself.
Eventually you won't think of her until you stumble across an old fragment of what you and her used to be. And you'll just put it away.
Brand New - Daisy
https://youtu.be/mV6FMXClArU
Op here. I'll just dump a few baww and then go to sleep. I haven't slep in over 24 hours and now it's taking it's toll.
>>769213637
Now good night anons. I'll do my best to wake up in the morning. Not for you but for her. I still doubt it.
>>769210236
It Only Gets Much Worse by Nate Ruess
https://youtu.be/MvTm3FG_vKs
It's been seven months since she was gone; this is one of the songs I listened the most when it just happened (not the best idea but, I love that song).
The first month, it was the worst Christmas I've ever had, I cried almost every day, at every moment I had that tangle in my throat, and I was contemplating ending myself even more, I've never felt so low in all my life, but still the end, I survived.
Months keep passing while I am inside and emotional rollercoaster, full of highs and lows; one day, I can feel I finally got over it, other, well, I just feel my heart was ripped off again. Because, I can't do anything about it; once it was over, I took some time to let it out, after that, we could peacefully talk to each other about it, we decided we shouldn't get more distant, we decided to start again, as the great great friends we were. I was mature enough to handle that break up and start again in a good manner, I had good intentions. But, the cold truth I had to swallow is that she hates me now, she decided to erase me from her life, and now, she's gone forever and there's nothing I can do, her obstacles were stronger.
Since then, I've had to carry on by only myself, I'm not gonna deny I'm way way better now, but many scars refuse to heal. I don't dream very often, but when I do, now it's always about her, those are cold reminders of how such an important part of my life is now gone forever, and how this is actually still affecting me, even if I've been recovering.
And all that it only demonstrates one thing, it still hurts like the first day.
I can't say I still love her, but one thing is for sure, I miss her so fucking much.
>>769214170
Oh shit, damn typos
>>769210236
I lost mine a year ago, almost exactly a year ago now. The first couple months were the worst - I couldn't really function, and my nights were always full of memories of her. I'm ashamed to admit it, but I break down every once in a while when I'm alone and no one else is around. I still think about her all the time, you know? I can't not after spending so long with her. The way her hair looked in the wind, the corner of her smile, the way she liked the colour of new leaves brightened by the sun...
I don't know if it goes away ever, but I'm sure one day it'll be more okay. I have a girlfriend that I don't deserve that loves me with all her heart, and I feel like such an awful person for not being able to return those feelings yet. I hope I"ll be able to soon.
Good luck, OP. You'll be okay one day, friend.
>>769211519
kudos, anon. I hope things work out for you.
I have a lot of respect for teachers, and especially for teachers who but their everything into their work.
Oh boy, here is a fun one
>be me
>17 year old loser
>summer before senior year
>just ended two relationships, 2nd one was meaningless and was to make previous one jealous after breaking up with me(worked)
>2nd one ended because legitimate Nazi
>Was friend with the Nazi's 8/10 Russian friend/ex gf
>Start talking to her more, have a bit more in common than I thought
>Eventually start flirting with each other
>Blossoms into full-fledged relationship
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>Talk to her everyday, feeling happier than I've ever been
>Her father gets job in UK, has to move
>Still talk every day
>Eventually she gets sick
>Really sick
>Scared she was gonna die
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>gets hospitalized
>talks a lot less now
>understandable
>eventually starts getting better
>starts talking more
>gets sick again
>month goes by without even a peep from her
>ask mutual friend over there if he knows anything with what's going on
>tells me she was just talking to some friends yesterday
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>choose to believe she was just trying to talk to friends she hasn't been able to talk to since getting sick
>another month goes by without a word
>messages me on Skype and I get excited
>she's drunk
sonofabitch.mov
>get angry, but try to ask about what's going on
>turns into heated arguement
>appears like we broke up
>try to message her the rest of the week
>nothing
>give it another month, finally decide we actually broke up
>get new qt 7/10 German gf
>Russian girl messages me a month after that
>find out her family threw a small celebration due to her recovery
>find out her phone broke that night
Before anyone asks if she had a computer, she used to. Family shared it, but she got a virus on it from pirating ARMA 3 which broke it lol
>She thought we were still together
ohfuckohfuckohfuckohfuck.mp3
>still wasn't over her
>still cared immensely for her
>knew I couldn't lie to her, and if I did I would always feel like shit
>tell her what I thought happened and what I did a month afterwards
>>769210236
Been single for 13 years now. Feels good actually
>>769216080
Part 2
>I have never heard a more heartbroken girl in my life
>I have never felt shittier in my entire life
>called me a cheater, apologized for not talking more, insulted herself, insulted me etc.
>she almost went back to snorting cocaine because of this
>didn't talk to me again till the following May (was January at the time)
>break up with qt German 2 weeks later because she also turned out to be a Nazi
>Give up for a while, saw myself as a monster
> following June, get current girlfriend right before I leave for the Army
>helped me feel a lot better about myself
>almost the same feeling with her as I had with the Russian
>can honestly say I'm happy again
I love my current girlfriend to death, she means the world to me, but I find myself often thinking back to the Russian girl. I still love her and care for her greatly, and ponder what would have happened had I just been a little more patient. I've currently started trying to get back in touch with her to see how she is doing.
I'll be honest, if my gf broke up with me and I could get back together with the Russian, I'd do so in a heartbeat.
I wish for something to happen. Something to finally make me change. Something to either wake me up to become a better person, or to kill myself.
I know nothing will happen, and that the only one that can change me is me. But I know all I'll do is stagnate in mediocrity.
I know, because that is what I'm doing
>>769212575
thats a great album for this kind of feel, imo
>>769210236
>1
>be 28
>going to a restaurant
>ordering a pizza pie
>i said no ansjovis wtf
>girl says sorry i say is ok
>eat pizza pie while lying
>go outside wait till restaurant closes
>walk up to girl call her a bitch
>yelling I SAID NO ANSJOVIS CUNT
>punch her repeatedly in the left eye
>shit stars bleeding she yells "whyyyy whyyyyy"
>take her head and place it above my cock
>let blood pour on cock
>shove it in her mouth NOW SUCK IT
>manager comes out yells WHAT THE HELL ARE YOU DOING
>grab my pistol and blast him twice
>then blast girl in skull with my cock inside her mouth
>let blood pour all over my cock
>feels good man
>escape and go home
>masturbate with her blood still on my cock
>>769210236
dated a beautiful girl for a little over year, had known her longer. took it slow, it was really nice and we were truly in love until I fucked everything up for no reason
That was like 7 years ago now and I've been with lots of physically as hot or hotter girls now, but I still think about her every day
Shit fucking sucks
>>769211519
this guy actually sounds like he knows what's up from my experience at least
>>769211332
Suicide is for cowards.
Dying is easy. Living is hard.
I was basically my whole life single. Ever since I was the only guy in school and uni who did not have a gf. During my uni time I was so obsessed with getting a gf that I scared off all the girls I was approaching. So I stayed alone but was instead always imagining how much fun it would be to have a gf. I was dreaming about cuddling with her, going to a nice restaurant with her and just loving her so much for what she is. I basically got into a relationship with an "imaginary gf". This was the first time in my life I didn't feel alone anymore as I had someone who I truly loved and cared for. As time flew by I got older and was heading towards graduation. I began to loose interest in her and steadily dreaming less about her. Then one day she suddenly disappeared out of my mind. I couldn't dream about her anymore. It felt like she took my heart with as she disappeared.
I was devastated for weeks before steadily healing. Then I realized that love can be the most sweet taste of woman lips on a rainy night the one day but it can also be the most painful emotion you can ever experience the other day.
I finally recovered and accepted that she will never come back. But that's ok because she gave me something I was missing throughout my whole life: love.
To all the anons out there don't let yourself down. It'll get better.
Peace.
Could somebody help a bro out?
I broke up with my ex girlfriend for almost 3 months now cause I thought I might be a faggot. Thing is i'm pretty sure i'm one. Still this fucking girl, she made me happy, now I know it. I wrote her last night don't know what I expected. I might just kill myself I don't know anymore
