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Hey /b/ have you ever killed someone or something? If so, why, how and how did you feel afterwards?
>or something
Sure, I kill things all the time for all sorts of reasons. I usually don't feel any sort of way about it, though when I kill a pest I guess I feel accomplished.
>>768580321
I spent 8.5 years of my life in prison for accidentally killing someone (vehicular manslaughter) and for a long time I felt like absolute shit about it.
https://vocaroo.com/i/s0RZ51BVHKai
Felt better to say the story rather than type it
>>768581589
I appreciate you coming forward man.
>>768581339
Damn.. are you okay about it now?
I killed a fly the other day because it was pissing me off. Felt indifferent afterwards.
>>768580321
I almost killed a classmate when I was around 13, I'm not proud of it and I hope I didn't cause any damage that would fuck him over later in life, I had at the time an undiagnosed mental problem.
>>768580321
>be teenagers
>Friend catches a rat.
>starts torturing it, burning it's whiskers with a lighter, poking it and shit.
>puts it in a cage and bashes the cage againt a rock.
>starts talking about how he's going to cut of it's legs and keep it alive for days in pain.
>we're drinking so he goes to take a piss.
>as soon as he walks away I submerge the rat in a sink full of water and hold it there until it drowned.
>friend came back and was furious.
>>768582166
https://vocaroo.com/i/s0dyGbUQZeTc
>>768581589
Picked up my cat who was out on the balcony when I was a kid, kept squirming to get away and when I did she kicked off me and flew off the edge. Lived on the 12th floor then.
Blamed myself and felt like shit immediately after.
>>768580321
I killed a wasp yesterday. It was either my life or his, and I chose mine.
>>768582809
At least you put it out of its missery. What happened to your friend tho? He is 100% sociopathic
>>768582876
https://vocaroo.com/i/s0T0au9V58Tk
>>768581589
Didn't listen, what did this anon do exactly? Or is this a troll
>>768583299
Not a troll.
Just an anon talking about killing their cat on accident
Was deployed to Somalia, bored as fuck for 2 months when we get the ring
>get told to get ready
>briefing with 3 encircling teams and the boarding team
>arrive at vessel
>encircle it with 3 boats mounted with MAGFN’s and a bunch of C7’s we personally use
>buddy gets shot out of nowhere (twilight, niggers, about 100 meters distance so it was a random lucky shot by a nigger)
>shoulder so it’s alright after initial check
>see flare where gunshot came from
>take 6 shots, semi
>every rhib starts to fully unload everything afterwards
>boarding team goes to area of hostiles
>finds a bunch of dead skinnies, place was a mess
>tfw no one from the rhibs shot at that direction
>it was physically impossible, except maybe the MAG gunner but their caliber is bigger than a C7
>wounds on corpse indicate no MAG caliber
Fees pretty alright with me tbh senpais
>>768583280
I'm the same way, still tear up a bit when I think about what happened. Crazy how much stuff like that fucks you up. Human brains are so fucked lol.
I was sort of a serial killer
>be me
>be 13
>lots of frogs around the neighbor hood
>see frog
>have the urge to kill it with knife
>completed.gif
>start cutting up the body open but in a perfect way
>like I was a surgon
>do this to 22 frogs in 5 months time until a kid finds a few if the frogs bodys
>i immediately stop
all the fun ending because someone found the bodies
bump
I'm directly responsible for the death of 3 people. I almost did it again last night.
>>768585750
goddamn, are you a serial killer?
>>768586025
well how did you kill 3 people?
>walking to my apt in LA
>cholos hanging out on corner
>cholo say sup blud wat u need
>sup blud? sup blud?
>say nothing keep walking
>cholo kick me in the back
>fall down on ground
>cholo trying to run my pockets
>roll around and try to get up
>cholo hits my back hard af
>think he is trying to stab me
>panic roll around and finally get on my feet
>run away
>2 days later
>walking home late night from work
>same fucking sagging cholo
>talking on phone leaning on street pole
>gonna beat his cholo ass back to the border
>run up and kick him in the back
>like he did me
>cholo falls and does a roll
>gets ran over by a metro transit bus
>run home
saw on the morning news cholo is dead, married construction laborer father of 2 kids, police are looking for the person that did it..
>>768581339
tell us the story
>>768585312
>angry drunk walk alone in the night
>its mating season n shit loads of toads n frogs outside
>make a kick full of hatred.
>fat toad goes flying 15 meters
>sound when landing, like a sad ball sack
>i morn till this day.
also shoot some frogs, snails n birds whit soft airgun as a kido.
>>768586785
Links or it didn't happen
>>768580321
i made sure that those ants in my bathroom died slowly by my hand
>>768586947
wtf is wrong with you kek
>>768580321
Yes. Because it was my job to protect the innocent and shoulder sin for the greater good. I stabbed them all in the heart while they slept, indescriminantly, as some were vampires. I didn’t feel great about it but it had to be done or innocent people would have been slaughtered.
>>768587937
His dad slapped him in the face with his sad ball sack when he was younger.
>>768586947
this reminds me of a story
>be 17
>make friends with a bunch of redneck teens
>decide to go to the suburb over to steal shit for no reason
>my friend brings a slingshot
>we find rocks and shoot cars with them while chain smoking cigs
>find a tree frog
>we fuck with it for a while
>look at my friend and tell him to shoot it out of the sling shot as a joke
>i like frogs there chill we have had the same family of toads chill on our door step for years
>he without thinking loads it up and shoots the tree frog at a garage door
>it sounded like a huge dick ploped on a tin roof
>>768581589
>>768581589
I dont know if this help you but at least you feel something. A close friend of mine killed himself by jumping of the roof of the school the whole school was pretty fucked especially those who knew him except for me. All i thought was... well fuck i guess we wont talk anymore... and i hated people who mourned but didnt know him... honestly i might be a psyhopath
>>768588478
Just immature
>>768588606
Do give your reasoning
>>768588478
https://vocaroo.com/i/s0sVJmWp0ixv
>>768588665
Quick to judge. No reflection. Hating people who felt more remorse than you did? (Jealousy)
>>768588665
People cope with death differently. Not to imply that these people cared more for the person, but you seemed to care more about the idea of knowing this person that the actual fact that he died...
I’m the original god. I’ve killed lots of people for many reasons. I feel terrible about it...
>>768588725
Granted saying im a psychopath is a strech however i just lack being emotional all the time
I doubt my grief will kick in at a later date because that happened a month ago.
>>768580321
I'm pretty good at killing flys...annoying bastards. Quite frankly, they are filthy animals who live a filthy existence. The fact is that they are so incompatible with humans that I couldn't give less of a shit.
Have killed other insects but I have a little more respect for the predators, such as spiders, because they kill other insects and generally hide in dark corners when you are near. That's not to say that I don't kill them at all, if I'm too tired to capture and release a spider before sleeping I wil just kill it.
That's pretty much it. I've been fishing and hunting before so I guess those count. I don't care for a lot of humans very much either, dumb mouth-breathers who spend my tax money on their fourth abortion this year.
>>768588757
I hated it because its hypocritical. If you dont care about the person when he was alive you dont get the right to mourn when he is no longer alive. A person should always stick to caring about a person equally no matter the state they are in.
>>768588478
I feel somewhat similar. I've had family members die and have felt very little. I could just be suppressing it for my own sake but I don't know.
>>768588900
No we were pretty close friends i disliked the mourning of people who didnt know or care about him when he was alive
>>768580321
i tried to kill my brother (who had Asperger) when i was a kid
>>768580321
hunted some deer and bird before wasn't bad. and i dont really feel anyway about it
>>768589708
Greentext?
>>768581339
How do you live knowing that 8 and a half of the most youthful years of your life have been stolen away from you?
I think even if I killed someone accidentally like you did and took all their years I would be able to forgive myself after awhile. Couldn't forgive the ones that stole all that time from me though.
>>768589829
first some backstory
>when i was a kid, i used to fight a LOT with my brother (who is 3 y older than me)
>the attitude of my brother, sometimes got onto my nerves
>I was a little ignorant brat, so the fights used to start pretty easy,
>my parents constantly told me something like "if you don't give him attention he will stop" or smth like that.
the first time I tried to kill it
>that day we were alone in our house
>brother gets out of room, goes to my room
>sits in my bed
>starts mumbling and doing weird stuff
>"get out of my room"
>he says nothing..
>continues doing that stupid thing
>"GET OUT OF MY ROOM"
>nothing...
>"CAN YOU GET THE FUCK OUT OF MY ROOM" i push him out of the bed
>"what are you doing" he says
>he now pushes me to the floor
>i push him again
>he punches me
>I punch him
>he grabs me by the hair
>my adrenaline starts kicking in, heart beating at 150% of capacity
>go to kitchen grab knife
>brother goes to his room
>call parents saying that I have a knife
cont?
>>768580321
Accidentally killed a bunny that my ex's cat had gotten ahold of. We brought it in after it was attacked to try to let it recover, and I tried taking care of it and scared the poor thing into having a heart attack.
hey lads russian guy is here
i used to kill a person, he was a homeless bum
didnt feel anything except disgust
>>768580321
When I was younger I spent the night over at a friends house. He had a pet rabbit. Well for some reason this overwhelming feeling of aggression took me over. Just knowing this helpless animal cant do anything to defend itself against me made me feel powerful. Like a God. I controlled whether it lived or died. After my friend was well asleep, I tortured it until it died from its injuries and played stupid the next day when they found it.
To this day, I have regretted hurting that rabbit. Absolutely disgusted with myself. I hated myself for years and years and never ever dared to hurt another animal ever. Now I love animals and I still sometimes think back in regret as to what I did. I still do not know why I did those things.
>>768590964
Pls do
>>768591522
I once set a kitten on fire with a lighter, it didn't really hurt it, just gave it a bald patch. The last time i felt a sadistic impulse towards an animal.
>>768588326
youre a fucking asshole
>>768592090
I still dont know why I had these impulses though. I should have said that I was around 7 or 8 I think. It just blows my mind why out of fucking nowhere I just felt like hurting an animal.
>>768592349
Shit happens bro, deal with it. It could be worse, you could be an active pedophile.
>>768580321
A few years or so I cought a mouse in a trap, it was still alive so I started fucking around with it and dropping a ball on the edge of the strap so it pinged across the room. After a while I was a little more bored than I was but it was fun for a while. So I came on /b/ and whoever got dubs decided its death, dubs said decapitation so I did that. It was interesting
Don't think that was the first time I killed one, had plans to move onto a cat but I've since just abandoned doing stuff like that because I can't be bothered
they say people that hurt and torture animals have commonly been sexually molested as children.
>>768592545
I suppose you're right. It could be worse. I suppose I could say I am very happy that I've never felt that urge ever gain after that and I'm 23 now.
>>768592564
You seem like the guy that stockpiles mouse torture webms
>>768591522
That overwhelming feeling of power you talk about i know that feel.
Its like a warmth traveling up your arms and legs to your core, almost intoxicating, then it cycles back out into the very action you perform.
>I use to torture cats
Now ironically I save cats and kittens and nuture them i think it was a phase I grew out of.
Guilt probably also led me to be a caretaker for cats and kittens, shelters etc.
Kinda internally swore to right my wrongs.
>>768592802
Hey, we the same age.
>>768591786
>parents arrive
>I go fast to the kitchen to leave the knife where i got it from
>start to frak out
>I go to my room
>start to cry alot, out of angery
after that moment, my parents, and I went a lot of fcking times to psichologists.
But despite that there is another time i tried to kill him, here's the "second time"
here comes the "second time"
>one summer, we go to a town in the middle of nowhere, we used to go every year since I can remember.
>the town has only 1 pool, and there are no much thing to do there besides playing with imagination.
>well, in reality there was, everyday, after 3 hours inside the pool, we used to go to a cybercafe where we played cs 1.4 with my cousin (good old fucking times)
>one day, my brother and I were discuting something wile walking towards the public pool
>my brother pushed me for no reason
>ragingintensifies.gif
>I sight a car coming towards us, the car is on the road but we are on the sidewalk
>push my brother towards the car
>he falls
>BUT he is 2 inches from the car
>with the speed of the car, it would have killed him
>brother gets up from floor
>and runs to my grandma's house (opposite directons from the pool)
>I am left by my brother there
>I started to walk to my grandma's house, with shame in my face, knowing that when I arrive i would have to talk to my grandma face to face
knowing that I pushed my brother to the road
After that more psychologist came, now i'm old enought, to realise how serious this is, those psychologist more than making me realise, they left me in a very bad mental condition, knowing the consecuenses of my acts, made me very afraid of harming other people.
>>768593985
I took a knife to my bro a few times but he was proper tormenting me and the threat of the knife was enough to stop it everytime.
