General chat/advice/feels thread?
Vocaroochan here
Might not be a good time to post but I really need the distraction and I thought this might help.
Might be a bit morbid of me to ask but tell me the biggest problems you got right now.
I'm in a dark place and I just want to know that my problem isn't the end of the world for me. I need a reality check.
As always I'll answer via vocaroo and I'll try my best to help you all out too even though I'll probably suck at it right now
Hey vocaroochan!
I feel like it's been a while since I saw you on here.
What seems to have gotten you so down? You've always seemed pretty upbeat so I'm thinking it might be a big deal for you.
>>768576602
I'll reply thru text on that...i feel like if I talk i might cry.
My dogs not doing too good. I'm just terrified he's not gonna make it
>>768577316
Ah, fuck.
Not the anon you're replying to here, but I'm sorry to hear that.
at this point, what happens happens. I lost a dog in the last year and it's hard. All you can do is try to make their life as good as possible, hope for the best, and try to accept what might happen.
I'm rarely around when you post but we're here for you.
>>768577316
Aw man I'm sorry to hear that.
You've talked and posted your dogs quite often so I know they mean a lot to you.
I hope your dog does pull thru. Is it the German shepherd?
>>768577643
https://vocaroo.com/i/s0kceOFqQfWp
Also thank you anon for saying that.
I've been kind of bottling this to myself because I've been trying to be so positive for my bf and trying to convince him it's going to be ok when I feel like it's really not gonna be ok
>>768575929
What do you need help with again?
>>768575929
Biggest problem is that im 18 finishing middle school, and now i have to do this big ass test that will determine which university i go to, im aiming for the 2nd best one we have in Serbia, im just a bit anxious and scared of the results
>>768577983
There's only so much you can affect, and that's all quality of life stuff. Do your best to help him be happy and see how it goes
Also I can't listen to the cockatoo because I'm lurking from behind a locked door in an emotionally abusive where if she finds me interacting with other people a week of my life gets written off, but I'll assume it was something positive!
Gotta run vocaroochan xx be strong for us
>>768577672
https://vocaroo.com/i/s0qZKG1oun4S
>>768578069
Read thread.
She mentioned it already
>>768578210
Cockatoo == vocaroo thanks to autocorrect
I mean, my biggest problem right now? Is that I'm trans. So it's not really that big of a problem. So I'd say I have it pretty easy? Though it's pretty tough to deal with certain things.
>>768578210
That sucks that your girl acts like that dear. Social interaction is so important :/
>>768578330
I live in California near Hollywood.
Trans is more than accepted in my area. It's good that you don't seem too much issues with it
>>768578069
https://vocaroo.com/i/s04nmm30lVuj
>>768575929
I can't get no satisfaction you guys.
My life is such a clusterfuck at a fairly young age. I don't really have a motivation to do anything, I should study more, but nothing really interests me, which makes me feel confused, I get that "fuzzy" feeling in my brain a lot (don't have a better word to describe, it really is just confusion).
I should be studying for a master's entry exam right now but I just couldn't care less. Mainly because I don't really care about this field, but this might be something I could actually finish (I'm really, really dumb btw)
I procrastinate a LOT, and time goes by real fast..
So all in all I just feel stuck and trapped,like I'm in a room with closing walls. That was my half-drunk rant, peace guys.
>>768578440
^_^' I try to just get on with it, I'm still young af so it doesn't seem to bad right now :) but in the future it might get a lil tougher to get stuff done but im glad it seems accepted in a lot of places
>>768578646
What is your problem , can it be fixed?
>>768578663
you know i somewhat feel the same about my studys in university but there is on thing that really motivates me the thought of reaching a goal.
if you are just bored with studys why not pick up a practical job like becoming a car mechanic youd learn something usefull for the rest of your life and can still go to university afterwords just find something that means hard work instead of raking your brain abot boring stuff
>>768578700
https://vocaroo.com/i/s0KtDP5ogcjC
>>768578646
Read some posts dog is dying , or about to die , or in some threat that puts its life in danger.I advice to detach emotionally , if its certain that the dog dies you should make your mind about it , or wait it out and maybe it will live , because of the lack of information I assume that its only hurt , moving on , if the dog doesnt die now it will die later.
Probably reading that made you feel worse , now what is the dog suffering from?
>>768578826
https://vocaroo.com/i/s0PaGKWTcVk9
>>768579123
https://vocaroo.com/i/s0l1K9E7hGTt
>>768578958
Thanks for the advice, I'd say that's how I am and I'd always want to just do what I would want not what other people would want from me. So you saying that has kinda helped my brain feel like, yeah thats totally fine. I mean I used to look up "can you be trans but still a tomboy" or like video games etc, because i was scared of it and wasnt sure what was going on. And no worries, we all have our own views and opinions <3
>>768579443
https://vocaroo.com/i/s0Zh810Nanyt
>>768579167
I see , so there is no hope to very little for the dog to live and any action could lead to its death regardless , I would advice to do nothing; Thats what I wanted to say but your dog doesnt seem in such of a bad situation from the last audio , a solution might be force feeding him , he might not like it but he will live , I would wait some more before abandoning all hopes , well all hopes should be abandoned but according to your data he has a decent chance to recover given more time , not a doctor but thats what i conclude .Buying a new dog and attaching to that one , I recommend this in case the health of the sick dog gets worse.
I was here some time ago when you made a thread, doubt you'll remember, I was asking for advice about this girl that just got out of a relationship but somehow kept coming back to me.
Well, I've got another one. We went on a night out and we were supposed to come together, we did, but shortly after we sort of split up and she ended up with a bunch of guys, our mutual friends. She was fairly flirty with them and a bit touchy, more than she ever was with me and she seemed to ignore me even though I was there all the time. Later some girl was coming onto me and she saw it but I couldn't do anything with her, she was blackout drunk.
At the end of the night, the girl I came with came with me and walked home, I mentioned the girl who was coming onto me and she called her ugly essentially, I think she was jealous because that girl was pretty good looking in my book. The day after she would message me asking if I want to hang out with her, I know her friends were around, even the guys that were flirty with her but she asked me if I want to spend the day with her.
I guess my question is, why would she call the girl ugly? and why was she flirty with other guys in front of me? was she trying to make me jealous? and lastly, why ignore me first and then ask if I want to spend the day with her? sorry for the wall of text but its been kind of fucking with my mood lately and I can't figure it out by myself. Hope you're doing well yourself btw
>>768580785
https://vocaroo.com/i/s0HSHt8u9qKh
>>768581195
thank you. She is that innocent kind for sure, she told me she would never hook up with a guy after a night, she only had one bf in her life and I always had a feeling that she just needed attention right now. Thats why I didn't want to attach myself to her too much because I fear I might be just another guy she wants attention from, but its the fact she always wants to spend time with me in one way or another and not with the other guys, who I'm sure she's friends with, at least with some of them. We have a similar way of thinking and we're essentially the same "type" of a person so I think she relates a lot more to me than the other guys, she also remembers a lot of things about me and sometimes shares her personal stories/things with me. If she does like me then I feel like the whole "I want attention" thing in front of me is kind of a turn off, but in case she does actually have a thing for me, I can wait to see what happens, but I told myself to keep my options open just in case she doesn't
>>768580785
Hey anon, not OP.
She likes you man, those are just women's shit tests. She was trying to see if she could fuck with you, and you didn't pass.
If she's like that with other guys, just ignore it. She was just trying to make you jealous.
She was super jealous of that girl, too. That probably saved you anon. Since that girl came onto you, she got jealous.
Honestly if you're not gonna be fuck buddies with her I would just ignore her.
>>768581704
https://vocaroo.com/i/s0g9ElVA5bAj
>>768581704
I think she is giving you room to initiate. She is doing the same thing you are “keeping her options open”, until you make a move, it probably won’t progress.
>>768582073
I think, she thinks, that you don’t think of her “that way”, and you need to make it apparent. You need to assert it. Be honest about how you feel.
>>768581922
I didn't show I'm jealous, thats the thing I believe made her continue on. I felt like being jealous at this stage would be kind of a turn off for her since it makes you look clingy no? I felt shit inside tho. But yea that other girl I think made it somewhat obvious she might be jealous.
>>768582073
I asked her out to see a movie with me, she was initially down for it, but closer to the day she started getting anxious, I could tell so we ended up not going. I think its her recent break up thats fucking with her still, so I backed off a little bit. Then she came to me asking if I want to go somewhere with her, but brought a friend, and then we actually went to see the movie. I think she might not feel comfortable alone with me yet. She must've known my intentions when I asked her to go to see that film, I made it fairly clear
If I can be completely honest, I've since 2014(I think, I've had the most horrible of memory as of late... Being for since 2014) have been a depressed mess. Not like full on entirely clearly visibly depressed but more like just subtly to others depressed. I've had dreams where I've killed myself through various means, all since a girlfriend I had before the last(recent) one had died. From around about 2014 to early 2017 I stayed this way, up unto I met the girl I was with then I was somewhat slightly happier. Though recently as of late she left me, I think for another guy, not entirely sure. But anyway my depression's gotten somewhat worse where I've not just been dreaming about killing myself but at some rare times been thinking about it in my day. ...So what should I do? Also to finish, I've never really even being with someone had never really been happy. Though before everything I never had such thoughts, just been miserable and able to tolerate it. Though as of late, as I said it's been worse.
>>768582268
Yeah, it does certainly sound like she’s just not that into you... all the more reason to be more up front about how you feel tho... women tend to move more quickly than men...
The shit i've been dealing with for years that I'll probably always have
I grew up a Jehovah's Witness. I was isolated from the world, I couldn't make friends with kids at school because they weren't part of the religion. I had a lot of my family in the religion though, so I would typically just hangout with them if at all.
But my parents were kind and loving, and they got me a pc and I was content. Life was good I guess till high school.
Shit I wanted to make friends so badly, god I still feel the ache to make everyone like me. I just want friends.
End up in the wrong crowd, doing drugs and what not. Graduate from high school, but then my parents kicked me out.
Because I was baptized in the religion, and kicked out, anyone who is currently a Jehovah Witness will not talk to me. My entire family will not talk to me, at all. My whole support system, ripped away from me.
I just want to talk to my grandparents man, I love them so much. God I miss my family.
I just wanna be happy.
Why can't I stop drinking?
Why can't I stop smoking?
Why can't I be happy?
>>768582424
Tackle the real issues that are making you depressed. You do you.
>>768582505
If people can’t accept you, feck’em. Find better people.
I have a paper overdue and I haven't finished it and don't know when I'll be able to turn it in. I haven't even finished the book, and whenever my parents ask I say I'm further than I am because I don't want to worry them. I know I also have some assignments I'm trying to get make-up work for, and I have accomodations (depression, anxiety, and Asperger's) but the person at the disability office isn't answering emails so far, the book is due in June, and I have to leave for Bermuda then Italy in like four days.
>>768582491
Like I said, she must know how I feel since asking someone out on a date shows my intentions very clearly. If she didn't like me at all I would say she'd either give me the "I just see you as a friend", ghost me or avoid me all together, she didn't and it felt more of a "if you give me time to figure my shit out and ask me later I would say yes". She told me her reason for not wanting to go was that she had a lot of things to think about, initially she would even remind me if I'm still up to see the film, just on the day she panicked. I think being up front now may actually push her too far and she'll reject me, but if I give her some room first and act when I feel she's ready it might be a different story. She doesn't seem like the kind that would jump into a new relationship so soon after a break up, especially since I believe he was her first and only bf
>>768577316
I can relate loosing a close friend is hard, but get through anon.
You're not having a bad day/week/whatnot, you're having a character building day/week/whatnot.
Have faith in your friend, and have faith in yourself for giving him a happy life. My thoughts and prayers are with you.
>>768583222
https://vocaroo.com/i/s01oXhkNsDFY
>>768583564
Thanks anon.
I feel like right now my bf and I both are going thru regrets...
Like we should have walked him more, should have disciplined him less, treated him to people food more....
So I'm trying to convince myself we gave him a good life but ultimately we feel like we could have done better
>>768583644
she was 16 when they got together, 19/near 20 when they broke up. As far as I know they're still on good terms and I believe she broke up with him. They're still talking like. I'm not 100% about the first and only but I know she only had sex with one guy and considering the way she is, I'd say if there were other guys, they were not relationships that involved sex. Anyway, its recently that she told me she would never hook up with a guy, might just be the attention that she wants. I don't think she's hurt by the last guy, I think she's just not sure if she wants to get into another relationship so soon and just wants to enjoy the attention atm. I'm only going by what I know about her and what she's saying but I have no idea how girls act in a situation like this, I only say what makes sense to me but I could be wrong
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OP you around? I've a question since its been bothering me recently and I'm clueless so I figure you could help.
I noticed her staring at me a few times in college, the other day I looked back and she smiled and waved. We hung out a few times and she'd make indirect compliments about me, like describe something attractive about a man and use me as an example of that. But when I talk to her she barely listens sometimes and doesn't seem to show any interest, its just the staring and the occasional "compliment". She's also been moody/upset lately and some days she's very talkative, some days she gives me vague single word answers when we speak so I don't know how to act around her
>>768577316
My dog was recently brutally murdered by pits...
Feels bad man, I even saw the vet pics.
I just hope he wasn't in pain for long.
Just got out of a mental hospital, scarred gf for life when i tried to kill myself, want nothing more than to have her back. How do I do this?
>>768586041
Are you recovering okay?
>>768585768
https://vocaroo.com/i/s0gnbFClCJ6S
>>768586110
It's a struggle to stay focused on positive thoughts and improving myself, but I'm doing well, thanks for asking
>>768586428
Oh no I do understand girls like if you ask them questions and I was actually referring to her talking about herself, sometimes if I ask her a question she'd go on about it and I'll try to actively listen, but then theres days where when I'd ask her something she'd pull out her phone and give me dismissive answers. She's not very outgoing and has some anit-social characteristics so I don't know if that doesn't link in somehow. The staring would sometimes go on for a good few minutes until I feel like its not an accident she's looking my way. Around here its not very common to do the sort of thing she does and it came across as flirting to me, because she'd smile and wave only when I'd look back at her. I don't know her very well either, maybe hung out twice? spoke 1 on 1 maybe the same number of times. If it helps, the first night we met, she wanted me to add her on social media, I took her phone and my name came up after the initial 3 letters, she also said she likes the fact I'm not from here, that was the indirect compliment, she'd mention what parts of me are different to the locals and how she finds that sort of thing attractive about foreigners. I'm not that much different to the locals tho, been told I look similar to them in fact so I felt like it was a "compliment" that was a bit forced, she also sounded like she didn't mean it as a compliment but more of an observation that I found flattering. Sorry for so much text haha but I kind of like her and I'm shit at reading women, especially when they're so indirect
Broke up with my girlfriend i had since high school. im 25. only started to notice the pain without her recently.
>>768583907
You should feel like that. That makes you empathetic, human. But you did all you could, I hope he got proper and timely walks, and you did your very best to not OD him with human foods (they're bad for him, you knew that, hence your decisions. There is no shame/regret in that).
You did your best job you knew how to do.
>>768587087
https://vocaroo.com/i/s0Z6q3Yzpv6R
>>768585768
Not the OP, but I'll try.
Maybe she's got something on her mind, everyone has their fair share of problems. If you feel like she's talking less than normal/seem indistant, maybe you should try talking to her about herself, ask her what's going on, ask her where her mind is.
Maybe she's a bit reserved, scared of commitment, or god forbid, looking only for a good friend.
If she says nothing's bothering her, but you know her enough to figure out there is, tell her that. Tell her why you feel something is bothering her, she may not talk about her problem but it's sure to spark up some conversation.
>>768587159
https://vocaroo.com/i/s0h6WK3KgioC
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>>768587820
That sucks.
I can feel your guilt.
I feel like you owe him a ride somewhere, one last time. You owe him that for the walks he's missed, and for your own closure, maybe that'll help. I don't know what condition he's in, but try and give him that. Everyone needs their 'one big day'. Tell him he was the best-boye everyday for the rest of his days. That's all he'll be needing from you now. Stay strong.
Can a relationship with a gril develop from friendship? I'm too much of a pussy to make a move sooner and I usually regret making one because I always find out the girl isn't what I thought she was at the start so thought being friends first would be a good way to avoid that, but I fear friendzone...any hope for autismos like me?
>>768588802
https://vocaroo.com/i/s1Fgy2ecCBaR
>>768575929
After not wanting to get better nor have a future etc, I cleaned my room for a female friend. I hadn't cleaned my room that much in about 6 years because OCD. Her mom was abusive and her situation was getting worse and worse. Eventually we started dating. I helped her feel so much better, was always ready to drive fucking anywhere to pick her up and help her through rough times. I drove to a fitness center in the middle of the night so she wouldn't stay there all night (ED much).
She made me see a future again. One with her and everything she told me she'd want to do with me. She made me feel slightly better, more than anything ever did. She had the flu on and off for about a month or two, so I needed to have a lot of patience and take care of her.
The day before valentines day I switched medication, as I've been on my current one for more than a year now, tried out different doses. This was quite heavy on me. The first 4 weeks were rather rough as I was one of the shittiest antidepressants to get rid of. It made me less talkative, short tempered and easily agitated. These symptoms got a bit less, but persisted. My doctor and the internet confirmed this was because of the medication itself as there are plenty of other people who have the exact same issues, and some even worse. Me being like this wasn't really great foe my gf either, as her ex was really abusive, which makes me raising my voice feel rather nasty.
My gf left for a birthday/sleepover at a friend's, she never returned. She dumped me because I was "toxic" for her. She has to put her own happiness number one. Tells me she's no longer in love with me, how happy she is and feels like she can finally be herself a 100%. Also that she now likes someone else, like a lot, and thinks they like her back.
This is sort of a tl;dr, but a lot of stuff has happened between the day she left and now (about a month later).
Tbc
>>768589281
I'm completely broken, in a constant state of anxiety, afraid she'll never take me back. And what she did seems so unfair. I just don't understand as to why she'd do this to me. I'm back to how I was before I met her, and way worse at that. Especially in combination with the new medication the anxiety is so fucking strong its causing physical issues. My doctor got me some meds to counter those, but they don't really help. I failed three classes of uni because of everything, and am not sure wether I'd be able to even finish uni.
Also my sister is being really fucking gross with her bf all the fucking time and it's really pissing me the fuck off.
I want either her, or nothing.
>>768589022
Yes it can, however you must be sure beforehand making any sort of move.
Know the consequences, sometimes poping the question may change the dynamic in your relationship.
Know that opening up about your relationship doesn't make you into a pussy, it makes you a man.
Would you rather waste time with someone who doesn't love you; waiting for affirmation, or would you rather move on?
Also know that not doing anything may turn into regret. I can tell you this, regretting something is one of the worst feelings ever.
>>768589344
https://vocaroo.com/i/s1N26iRXHatY
>>768589251
I really hope it's just his medications that's behind these complications. I'm sorry you have to go through this. You need to be strong and take care of him in times like these. I know it's hard and heartbreaking, I went through something similar with one of my grandparents when I was little. Be strong for him.
>>768589870
Thank you so much for your reply, I really appreciate it.
Sounds like your boyfriend is to you what I was to my ex. I'd do my best to help her anywhere I can, and managed to make her feel so much better. She kept saying I made her feel things nobody ever made her feel before. I really want to do anything in order to help her (except for breaking up of course duh xd), and still do. Despite everyone telling me she just used me, I'm still working on a very personal well thought out present to hopefully make up for giving her a hard time (even though that was kinda out of my control). I already started on it before I knew she broke up with me, and want to finish it, hoping to either make her feel bad about what she did to me, or make her want me again. Might be a stupid idea.. But I really want to try everything.
I have only been depressed for about 6 years. Went through the standard CBT, antipsychotics, SSRI'S, SNRI, now tetra cyclic. Around when I first met her I was signing up and starting uni. I purposely tried not to make any new friends so I won't pull them down, and won't have to feel guilty for them if I got to the point to hurt myself. Thinking about how pointless life actually is creates an eerily feeling of peace/motivation in the back of my mind which jumps to the front now and then.
BTW, did you also have the feeling of partially breathing in water all the time? I recently had my first bad trip on DOB which lasted for 24 hours where I had the same. I'd rather be stuck in a bad trip of a few months than having to lose her over something that is supposed to help me.
>>768590812
https://vocaroo.com/i/s1TV6ntNaFTL
>>768591429
Wow. I got goosebumps. She does say how much shit she does for me and how she has to put up with everything. She told me before all her friends told her to leave me, but they don't know the full story. Only her past of abusive exes. It's a transgirl she met on tinder (someone to go to concerts with, as I wasn't really into that stuff, but do really want to go now). She has gotten angry with me a few times and told me she was done with me and all my shit. Shit outside of my control (meds) :/. Do you reckon there'd be a chance to get her back? I'm kinda sure (probably sure but Muh OCD) the present will press a decent amount of emotional buttons. Would that be a good or a bad thing?
Also, I went to a barbecue last Thursday, and one of the guys there invited us to his houseparty this Saturday. Right before the barbecue I had extreme anxiety and wanted to head back home, but as soon as I arrived I felt too guilty to do anything. Still felt shit for the whole barbecue, and am feeling guilt for going there. Should I get in touch and join the houseparty? Still have to do about two weeks worth of work for uni too, but my concentration is about zero and I keep bursting out crying xD.
>>768592399
https://vocaroo.com/i/s1QgQXFkzNfM
>>768592861
Well, around the start of me being a shit person (meds) we weren't too sure where it came from iirc. And she only brings that up when I'm being insensitive or get unnecessarily angry again. Which I do kinda get, as raising my voice triggers her flashbacks to her abusive ex. Usually when I feel bad she does try to be there for me, but sometimes when I'm really sad, and she's really happy, I pull her down. And then she feels like she's not allowed to be happy.
I have an Arizer Solo 2 (herbal vaporiser), so I use weed regularly. We used to do weed together for about 2 months every evening. Then we switched it to only the weekends, but since she spend our last weekends at her friends' we didn't do any weed. So I didn't vape for a bit more than a month straight. Now I vape every few days, or a few days in a row and then some I don't. Problem is, I feel terribly guilty for using weed, despite it helping me push anxiety into the back of my mind and helps me sleep so well. The worse I feel, the better I could use it, but also the worse I feel for considering using it.
Today I made quite some progress by buying things I need for her gift (buying things is *really* tough for me as OCD, especially when I'm feeling this down) so I thought of rewarding myself with a smonk. But now I feel guilty for even considering it lmao. Should I?
Something I just thought about I also wanted to tell: every morning since she's gone, whenever I wake up I cannot fall back asleep because I feel too sad, guilty or anxious. Have you had this too?
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>>768577983
I just started reading/listening the beginning of the thread. I'm sorry you and your boyfriend have to go through all of that. I'd say you shouldn't be "acting" positive *all* the time, but also spend some time talking about your problems or showing your emotions. If you were my gf I'd never want you to hide your bad emotions and feels from me. But then again, I'm quite different (or so I think), and would probably be acting positive too (if I got her back), and probably for the wrong reasons.
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>>768592861
I'll probably profit from the liquor and get drunk. Alcohol fully kills anxiety and bad feels. It makes me feel neutral, no more fog in my head, just quietness. Too bad the day after I'd have a bad hangover all day xd. Also, this medication is said to cancel the sedative effects of alcohol, so all alcohol gives you is a hangover lol.
>>768582949
Anyone have advice for this? It's gotten to the point where I feel like running into traffic or swallowing pills. I'm tired of living.
>>768593877
https://vocaroo.com/i/s1vfmsz5rIa0
I love my gf and plan to marry her, but I'm a pervert who never got to fuck many chicks and I feel like if I had half a chance I'd fuck a slut without her knowing, and that severely depresses me
>>768582949
Aspergers can be rough. Are you in high school? Here I didn't read most of the books either, mostly just used summaries and YouTube videos to write something that was just good enough. Also, I think it's better to get help higher up. Be sure to mention that the tard guard is ignoring your emails, and tell them you really *need* help. I sent the coordinator(?) of my study an email, had an appointment and I can continue uni. Just need my doctor to sign some paperwork as proofs I'm having a shit time that interferes with uni.
Everyone already moved out of town since we've finished our final exams and I'm stuck here for another 2 weeks, on my own, the loneliness always gets me at this time, its nearly 9:00pm here. Chill out with me anons. God and to think I used to be able to sit on my ass, alone, all day, every day for years, now that I've realized I need people in my life and they're all gone shit gets real. How's everyone doing today?
>>768594717
I'm in college and it's summer. I'll try emailing the professor and explaining. She seems understanding. What worries me is explaining to my parents that I am not as far ahead as I said.
>>768575929
Is this Hyouka? I really like Hyouka
>>768595370
Perhaps you could ask your professor or higherup if they could have a talk with your parents and you. That might help your parents understand your situation better. I'm sure the Prof has dealt with plenty of students with similar issues, so they could possibly shed some light.
>>768595619
I have no idea honestly.
I just took the pic from google
FUCK. MY EX JUST CALLED ME AND I COULDN'T PICK UP BECAUSE I'M TOO SCARED. I don't know what to do, my heart is racing and I'm shaking. What if its good news? What if it's bad news? I'm feeling so horrible right now
>>768595634
My parents usually understand. I just feel terrible about having been dishonest and worry about what they'll do when they know how much less I've done.
>>768595978
I read her twitter and there she tweeted the 10th of May she's starving herself again and that it feels better than it should. She also retweeted "being able to find someone u click with naturally is the best feeling. u feel like you’ve been best friends ur whole life, ur so comfortable with them. maybe that’s what a soulmate is. not someone who shares every single thing in common with you, but someone who feels like home.". I really hope that points to us not sharing everything in common, as she has complained about that too. Should I call back? I'm so afraid it's something very anti climactic like "why didn't you open my messages yet?" or "are you coming to my birthday party?" (she's gonna recelebrate it)
>>768596568
Or perhaps about some stuff that's still left in my house... I really can't handle any more changes here. I'm shaking so badly I don't know what to do.
>>768595619
yes yes it is im curious too
It's really hard for me to express my feelings and especially keeping it short, don't judge me, I'll try. I'm finishing high school, I'm alone my family is in ruins, I don't have anything that could help me. But the worst thing by far is my that I can't find any meaning or purpose in my life. I'm struggling with depression for more than a decade now, can't tell it to anyone. I'm tying to think rationally about everything, but I know I can't be happy and I feel hopeless. I'm trying to keep it cool and think everything through but my emotions are killing me.
>>768597466
I can't help you with the depression since I still struggle with that myself at 23. But I can help you find out your purpose if you want? I did some research and wrote down ideas of my own that seem to have worked for me, so they could work for you too. Just keep the thread alive
For the most part I've dealt with a lot of my issues that held me back for a long time. Right now there's nothing really going on and maybe that's the only problem I have.
Hope you can figure your shit out in the near future, friend.
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*sucks COCK*
>>768600792
Yes boi
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