Feels thread continued from yesterday
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Feels thread continued from yesterday
Good feels, bad feels, everyone is welcome.
How's everything going anons?
i can see you are feeling lonely there op
>>768530308
I'm feeling a little better now but yesterday I was in a really dark place. To give you context, the girl who's said yes to being my girlfriend last night she said that she isn't so sure about enter in a relationship now. I was so depressed that I cut myself to just feel something.
But today I'm feeling better, how are you doing my man
>>768530722
You're that much of a faggot?
Just move the fuck on. I swear the beta-male epidemic coupled with every faggot having "anxiety and depression" is what's ruining our societies.
"I'm sad because some girl said no to me"
That's her choice. Respect it and move on. Don't cry like a fucking twink.
Like what do you have to complain about. There are children dieing in shit living conditions and they persevere and try to succeed and not give up. Meanwhile you're crying over something soooo fucking insignificant.
My generation makes me sick.
>>768531497
Oh fuck you man I'm feeling like shit here
>>768530169
I'm finally moving on from my ex, and it actually hurts more than when I was still holding out for her.
>>768532054
Vent here my man, tell me the story
I'm starting to feel happy. I'm improving and mastering something that gives me recognition in my city and it just feels very great.
>>768532054
Same man. I'm pretty sure it has to hurt more before it can heal. This is good.
>>768532230
It's been almost six fucking months, I've finally met a girl who I really like and think she might feel the same. But I still have the old pictures on my walls and in my wallet. I told her I would never stop loving her and I feel like if I move on I'll become something I don't want to be.
I don't want to get calloused, I want to be the type of person that can love someone forever no matter what. I don't want to be a quitter, you know?
/b/rothers, how do I move on from a girl I've loved for a long time? And how do I do it when I have to see her everyday?
Pic related, that's me
>>768532251
I'm very happy for you man, I wish that every single project you have to work out fine.
>>768532766
Thanks famalam, felt like sharing a little bit of happiness in this place in which me myself spent so many time while down or sad.
>>768532494
Doing something once doesn't define all past and future actions you take. If you have to quit something, it doesn't make you a quitter in all you do.
>>768532494
I hear you my man, I'm in the same exact situation.
How I post above, the girl that said yes to being my girlfriend now isn't sure anymore about a relationship and we still talk and text every day (I guess I like to suffer) literally minutes ago said this:
> OMG anon, two very handsome guys messaged me on Facebook
Then I told her I don't like when she does this stuff to me.
I want to die bros
>>768533158
She's playing you man. Telling her to fuck off will hurt, but getting treated like that will hurt way fucking more in the long run. Some things have to be broken.
>>768532972
I'm truly happy for you my man, I feel if a fellow bro can find a little bit of happiness in this fucked up world it's not imposible for me, godspeed my man
>>768533020
I know, and I know I'm being a dramatic little pussy. But I feel like if I abandon someone who I made a commitment to, then I'm no better than her, you know?
The thing that pisses me off most about life is that anybody in your life, on any day, can wake up and decide you're not worth shit. And it can be the person that means the most to you in the entire world. And there's not a goddamn thing you can do to force them to change their mind. It happens like the flick of a switch.
>>768533329
Yeah I think this is exactly what is happening, but I really love this girl bro.
Tell me that I'm a faggot or a pussy but for this girl I let all my walls down to love her but this left me totally vulnerable and then she just got bored of me I guess
>>768533675
Holy fuck anon, this is the real shit.
>She did woke up one day realizing I'm shit
>She did left me
I'm still hurting, even more than the last time
>>768533686
Bruh if she just said she'd be with you yesterday, then today already had second thoughts, she didn't care about your walls. She didn't care to see what was beneath.
Someday you'll meet a girl that really cares to find out what you're hiding. Really wants to help ease your pain. Spends three fucking years with you as you both start to unravel each others fuckedup souls. And when she finds herself disgusted with what she finds, and tells you she just can't deal with the mess she's found? That's real vulnerability, and that's real pain.
>>768533850
You'll get through it, anon. When that happens you always leave a piece behind, but you take a piece with you too. The memories add to both of your souls.
>>768534152
Thanks anon, actually the both responses were me. I guess the good memories with her will have to be enough for a while, man it's just fucked up that a person can fuck ypur shit up real good in such ways, I literally just want to die.
But I'm going to just hang on until this shit pass
>>768532391
>>768532737
Have you talked with her about the fact that you can't get over her?
>>768535214
No, because if I did that it would ruin our friendship. I need her in my life. She's the reason I get up in the morning. I just need to stop seeing her a as love interest and I can't
You guys are all fucking sad sorry losers and I hate it. A long time ago I posted an all-encompassing guide to basically everything you fuckers need help with that took off, but I’m on my phone now so I can’t provide the link. Ask me for advice and I shall supply
>>768537327
>mfw i'm currently attending free university
>>768538131
Must not be in the good ol’ U.S of A
https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=tpAnkth8h6E
>>768530169
Ive been single for the past 3 years of my life, every day is agony, every day is a new set of torture. i cant seem to find anyone. they are either too good for me or they are taken. this life cant get worse. i feel like ending it all if nothing happens soon.
>>768532494
>I dont ever want to change, move on, or grow as a person
Your call
>>768538529
Fuck no. I'm so happy I don't have to live there. Sounds like a fucking nightmare. You either have to live like an uneducated fucktard who works in construction your entire life, or sell your organs to be able to afford basic education, and be in debt for the rest of your life.
>>768539258
Basic education is free, college education is not. It’s crazy the ideas that foreigners have about the U.S and the ideas we have about everywhere else. All the “problems” that are shown to the world like gun violence and healthcare are very rarely actually problems, it’s just the worst of the worst that gets shown to the world.
>>768539690
college education is basic education.
It’s too late for us
>>768541854
You think so?
I'm here cutting myself trying to not think about her but the very reason I'm cutting myself is bc of her so yeah you might be right
Welp I had a gf for 2 years cool years, nice interactions(don't find the word to describe it), but in the third one she swaps college and goes across the country every time we try to see each other was hard since we both prioritize studies lets say I started or was about to star exams and after I finished she was about to start or starting exams and when she finished I had tons of work and when I finished she had recital practices or tons of work and when she finished I was going to start exams( guess you can follow from there) going to her house was a little expensive and somewhat dangerous, we barely saw each other once a month, couldn't be in each other's birhtday and after a couple of months of barely seeing each other and just talking via WA we stopped doing that, the only moment we talked was for going out or planning to go to a house but we only go out together once per month, time slowly passes no talking lose interest little by little and the next time I see her 6 months since the last time I just feel empty, without a reason to do what I was doing
Stupid? yes, but whatever
I'm pretty sure I've just lost 2 more friends, with a possible third. They don't bother to see things from my point of view, and the minute I say anything relatively 'human,' I get shit on by them. This time, I didn't just accept it; I let them know how I really feel, and have felt for quite a while. Now, they won't talk to me (yet still won't unfriend me entirely), and have generally cut me out of their lives. I already don't have anyone to talk to or let things out (other than /b/), so the isolation is starting to really hurt.
Really thinking about just cutting it loose my damned self, and removing ALL of them.
>>768542832
you’re fucking pathetic
>>768530169
I just got a bj from my girlfriend a few minutes ago. Feeling pretty good right now.
>>768542832
cutting is fake and gay
>>768542832
lookatmeimanattentionwhore.png
so i have a story if you guys are up to hearing it, but it's a bit of a downer.
>>768542832
cutting yourself is weak bullshit. Seriously, I have been to dark places. everyone has, but cutting yourself is just a bullshit cry for attantion. Stop it, I does not help anything. Plus it will fuck your skin up and always mark you as a loser. Stop that shit now.
>>768544599
Dubs checked. Tell us your story
>>768532054
"You'll start hurting a little less every day, until one day, you realize you didn't think about her once for a whole day. And then you'll start hurting again."
>>768537327
this kids a faggot tbh. He smiles in some dudes face only to talk shit when all is clear. Im not a bernie supporter at all fwiw.
>>768544905
i'll start writing. it'll be a minute
>>768532494
Being calloused is the only way that you can start again. By being calloused, you're being level headed enough to know that if you get into something new, you're not going to fall hard immediately. Love is gradual, not a first sight thing. Little by little, you'll start falling for the new one, and you'll realize that you love them for them instead of an initial drop. Trust me.
>>768531497
>enters feels thread
>whines about the feels
that's pretty shitty. Not saying you're wrong, but that's a dick move
>>768532737
Don't go cold turkey. Do the opposite. Expose yourself to them as much as possible. It'll hurt like hell, and you'll wanna scream heartfelt things to them. But, just like any other pain, the more you feel it, the less it affects you. And then you'll be able to see them as just another face in the crowd. "Pain is only a pulse if you just stop feeling it."
>>768543973
Slammin ass and smokin grass, yea boi.
>>768543705
Well... this is b. So what seems to be bothering you? Here to listen .
>>768530169
this song reminds me of my mother. it's the kind of thing she would tell me when we were growing up and things got hard. that things would be all right; that however hard life was, eventually it would be easy. that even though sometimes it was so frustrating, so awful, it wouldn't be that way forever. we were hungry, but one day we'd be full. we were cold, but one day we'd be warm. we were poor, but one day, maybe, we'd be rich.
we never got rich, but we got full, and warm. she told us that everything would be all right. and eventually, it was.
i wish she could have seen how good it all turned out.
i really miss her a lot.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=h0K9jxmFMNo
>>768545689
Well, about this in particular...I guess the more I think about it, the more I realize those 'friends' see me as nothing more than a loser who can't/won't achieve shit in life (which is ironic, because they're certainly not CEOs themselves). It's just that I often talk about politics and such, but I've been wrestling with severe depression for the last few years, with no one to talk to and no real solace other than memes and resorting *to* politics.
Well, last Monday (right before I went to work on my off-day), they decided to assault me on my own FB wall. Completely unprovoked, as my post (one about a Korean firm looking for programmers, and me talking about how such a life was taken from me because I trusted/listened to the wrong people when I was living *in* Korea, resulting in me having to leave it), and they just let me have it. Long story short, the conversation with them ended with them both swearing at me almost non-stop, calling me names, patronizing me, and basically telling me to go fuck myself, and that they'll 'never bother me again.' It hurt. It hurt more than I realized at the time, because I've already lost so many other friends and opportunities for reasons I can't explain and don't understand. Even my own 'family' doesn't talk to me anymore.
>>768530169
About one year ago, the relationship with the girl I intended to marry, ended. This is not a "I want her back!" story, I don't.
We had been together for almost 10 years, but we were both unhappy I guess. She started to cheat on me, I found out about it and that was it.
One week later, I started fucking others girls. I fucked 4 girls in 4 weeks, then went to a festival with my friends. Fucked a girl on friday, fucked another one on saturday.
I really liked the saturday-girl. Went home, started fucking another girl but texted saturday girl every day. Fast forward 10 months:
I moved in with saturday girl, she loves me I guess, she wants me to marry her. I don't know what I feel.
Things just don't feel like they used to. I get no joy out of making money. I stopped working out, stopped playing my guitar. I don't enjoy videogames any more. For the first time since I was a kid I catch myself feeling bored.
When I am alone, I sometimes cry really heavy and I can't make out why that is. I do stupid stuff like not opening mail so I end up paying fines for paying bills late and so on. I somehow just don't care anymore. There is a sadness to every day that does not go away.
>>768531497
>thinks because other people are having shittier times means you can never be sad
gatekeeping at it's finest. quit being a little faggot.
>be me in middle school
>in small class
>mostly boys (10 boys, 4 girls)
>3 of them have bfs in high school
>the other one is a tomboy, like one of the guys
>and like one of the guys, she gets bullied mercilessly
>She wasn't even bad looking
>One day they're bullying her particularly bad
>I say "whoa maybe we should take it easy"
>someone jokingly says I should date her then
>Think for a second
>see a glimmer in her eyes as the bullying stops
>I say "NAH!" and we all laugh
>she gets really red in the face and storms away
Whenever I feel bad about being a kissless handholdless virgin, I think to that day. I fucked up bad and really hurt her, I'm convinced that having no girl interested in me before of after then is karma. I don't have the right to feel bad about being lonely. I'm pretty good at masturbating though, so no big deal. I just feel like it would be nice to be emotionally intimate with someone.
so a few years ago i met this girl, and i started taslking to her. we became really close but she had a boyfriend. i just got closer, and we told each other things we'd never told anyone before. we got super close, bitching about everything that we needed to. she broke up with her boyfriend of a year and i told her how i felt. she said she needed time to think. next week i see a pic of a guy from one of our classes as her phone wallpaper. i bring it up later and it turns out theyre "talking". i decided to fucking let it go but i couldnt this girl was my fucking drug. i hated myself for not ever being able to let it go. i began to drink and pop pills and smoke weed. i told myself at the time that it was for fun but i was having serious emotional problems. looking back there was likely an escape factor. igraduation rolls around, and she asks me if i can take her to the grad party because her bf is out of town and she doesnt have a car. i take her, lose track of her at the party, an get a little drunk. half an hour later she finds me and she's so fucked up. turns out she did coke at the party. i take her home and we lay down, she stays in my bed with me because shes so scared shes gonna die. she's epileptic, and has seizures sometimes, so i was freaking out every time she's twitch or something, thinking she was gonna spaz out. she never did but it made us stay up really fucking late. she's always kinda flirty and weird. for some reason she nips at my neck and i kissed her. we made out a lot that night, and she kept rubbing up on me and putting my hands on her tits. she wanted to fuck but i didnt, she was beyond sideways. we eventually pass out. next morning she says it's all good, and she goes home. 1/2
>>768546162
Just looked her up on facebook. Pic related. I reeeally fucked up.
>>768546162
You give way to much meaning to that event. Your current life is not punshiment for that, nor is it karma. Everyone has had moments like that.
>>768531648
You should feel like shit if that's all you got to cry about.
>>768546054
Damn. I'm sorry to hear that. Most ppl don't like talking about that sort of thing but they were wrong it attacking ur shit like that.
That, and if they were really ur friend and had a problem with u or that stuff they should have approached u like an adult about it.
But on the other hand if ur not good with confrontations and don't actually listen when people come at u with a serious but soft confrontation but go off on them then that's not cool either and it just makes u unapproachable.
But I still say just fuckem. U don't need that negativity or ppl like that in ur life that'll just tear u down
Strange at times when I go through these threads, I sometimes get the feeling of wanting to be super depressed, want to be alone. But then I realize it's not worth it.
>>768546733
Why not?
>>768530722
>I was so depressed that I cut myself just to feel something
Holy fuck you are such a faggot. I stopped being so melodramatic over girls after 9th grade
>>768546231
she starts acting weird and when i confront her, she says she's mad at me for 'taking advantage' even though all we did was kiss. she cuts me off after a few hours of yelling at me through my phone. for 3 months i'm emotionally fucked. crying myself to sleep every night, drinking on weekdays, etc. got into pills again, this time straight up for escape. i'm in arizona for the summer. missed all the parties and great hangouts with my friends. they talk to me less and less over the summer. i have to text first or they never talk to me. i hated my life. cry all the time. got home and not a lot changed. slowly began to forget the girl, or at least get over it. get closer with friends. this goes on for a few months, get prescribed zoloft, helps a little. got held up on a few other girls in the months that follow but none too bad. 6 months later. girl texts me again. her and her boyfriend broke up. we go out a few times and make out a few times. all good. i was planning on going to cali but was about to cancel them to stay with her. my feelings came back. i was happy, really. long story short she fucks me over again and i'm not even sad or mad. i'm devoid of all emotion. i havent felt anything in weeks. back to drinking, not pills this time. picked up cigs. back to weed too. but even with that, no emotion. just a haze in my head. i want to not exist but i'm afraid to kill myself.
>>768546723
That's the thing, too: they ONLY talk about themselves (or sex) 90% of the time. Nothing else. One of them is an incel who will post meme after meme after meme about sex and why he isn't getting any: instant likes, heart and laugh reacts, etc. Then when *he* posts something depression-related, his friends actually try to cheer him up and talk to him, even inviting him to things. The other friend claims she has 'such a problem' with the way things are going (politically and socially), yet all she does is post about pizza, Harry Potter, and her own 'art' that's mostly computer-generated anyway. Neither of them treat me as a true friend, yet if *anyone else* posts something, they're more than happy to talk to them like adults, with NO condescension whatsoever.
I'm thinking about straight up removing them. I've had to do that with friends before who had become toxic, but I don't want to seem like I'm the weak one here by doing it again.
They're only 'comfortable' when I'm talking about stupid things like anime and video games, and I called them on that. They never approach me when I want to talk about something serious.
Feeling really numb tonite.
Past two nites have been wanting some actual meaningful conversations and not just small talk.
But can't seem to get that anymore.
Just been bummed.
Idk where my life is going and I've given up trying or making an effort with the ppl I care about cuz I get no recognition or appreciation anyway....
Just wishing I could disappear for awhile...
>>768546704
Yeah I know you're right. It's one of those weird things that stayed with me, you know? It might be the reason I don' t actually confront the flaws that prevent me from forming intimate relationships: My mind automatically goes to that event, "it's karma", "you didn't have the balls", and dismissing it as a lost cause, instead of actually bettering myself. Thanks for the couch, anon.
I fucking hate everything around me.
>>768538904
3 years is nothing,lad
>>768547418
Nailed it. I wish you all the best anon.
>>768538904
If you are older than 20 you should get some help.
best friend has terminal cancer
>its kind of a 1 step forward 2 steps back kinda deal
>gets a little better, than gets really worse, then a little better again.
>he had internal bleeding last week.
>doctors guessed he had a few days if were lucky
>the bleeding slows to a trickle on its own
>he starts requesting more and more food
>still has like 4 lucid hours a day
>can't shake the feeling hes going to be around for a few more months, that the good will mkae him better
>wake up today
>he hasnt stirred at all
>go to visit him
>his kids say he still hasnt said a single word
>he just sits there barely awake at best, not really reacting with more than a smile or shake of the eyes
>when i lean in to kiss him on the cheek he manages to give one back
>smiles at me
>I have to leave
>pretty sure hes not going to wake up tomorrow
i keep thinking im ready but im not im scared
I want to die, but I can't commit suicide because literally the only good thing in my life is my family and I know that they'd be sad if I was gone. But every single day is torture. I don't know how much longer I can go on for.
>>768548338
>i want to kill myself but im too noble
oh poor you go fuck yourself.
>>768548470
Eat shit you disgusting miserable pile of trash. I hope you have to watch your entire family die.
>>768548660
just my friend this week unfortunately.
>>768548253
>>768548338
You've got to do something to make your life better. If you love your family it means they love you back. It might be hard, but I assure you they're willing make a small sacrifice for your happiness, anon. When I left college, I joined the army. My dad was vehemently against it, and my grandma was deathly afraid I would get killed in a war. Many tears and shouting later they realized how important national identity was for me, and we're fine, like nothing ever happened. This is part of living in a family: you're not gonna make them happy all the time. But things can be worked out, and in the end you and they'll realize how trivial the situation was. My dad is happy because I have a very well paying job in the chair force (I payed back my student loans and helped my parents pay for my sisters upper education). My grandma is relieved that there's very little chance of me seeing active combat (but damned if I don't want to). Nothing is inescapable not even family.
>>768530169
sauce on comic?
>>768530169
i want to die, but i dont want to kill myself. all i can do is drink and hope i die of disease.
I don't even know what this is but I wrote in in an hour so I doubt it's any good. If it is any good... I'll be pretty surprised.
"I Am an Overconfident Train"
My overconfidence, barreling down the tracks
I can ignore the brakes, I must ignore to relax
When the rails run out and we careen off course
Forgo guilt, feign ignorance, show no remorse
Because if one were to look back and analyze one’s error
Learn from mistakes they made, could they stomach the terror
The shame, the rage, the hate all aimed at the accused
Could you embrace repentance or would you light your own fuse?
I didn’t make a mistake.
Only tried to give you the moon.
I did it all for your sake.
Forever ended too soon.
If you just spend a few more seconds looking into my eyes
Then you’ll see I mean well, you’ll discard the pile of lies
A little pain means nothing if I can to prove I can care
So I stripped off my mask, the darkness behind I will bare
It’s not what you’d expect, nor something I was proud to share
But what you wanted was truth, now why do you look so scared
There are no scars, no blemish, just my mind as it was born
It’s imperfect but pure, you needn’t shed that tear, nor mourn
I did suffer, just look.
I tried to give you the moon.
I didn’t have what it took.
Forever ended too soon.
>>768550863
it reads like a first draft, but its everything you need for a good poem man, i dig it, great imagery.
particularly the fuse, the moon, and having what it took. but not a single stanza id remove, just redraft.
>>768551463
As far as improving it, it would help if I knew what it was about. I think it's about myself, and I was thinking about things I've done (and failed to do) when I wrote it, but as a whole it doesn't add up. Like, I hadn't reached the point where I was called out for making terrible and selfish life choices until the day after I wrote it, and there's a few other parts that mention other stuff that hasn't happened yet. I'm kinda scared I just predicted my own horrible future.
>>768551939
visions or fantasies?
Today is my birthday.
Its not like other days, this one is a special one. Every birthday is, but particullarly this one is very hard.
Last year's bday was the best I've had because I came back with my ex gf. She cared about wishing me happy birthday as soon as midnight and we went out for some drinks. We got drunk and ended having sex in my home.
She left me the 1st of july. That month and a half was the best I can remember from my 24 years of grieving existence.
Last night I missed her so bad. I missed her text at 00.00 hours, I missed her saying to me that he missed me,I missed her kissing me in my bed and having sex with me.
I cant do this anymore /b/ros, I can see the end of the road close.
Feel pretty fucked tonight boys, but I turned to the liquor which will make it right for a while
>>768552676
if the best time of your life is just a month and a half of dating then its because you arent living life properly. you got your head up your own ass wtih teen romance fed to you in your youth and you gotta realize there is happiness outside of romance. people who think friends arent enough simply arent investing in their friends
>>768552070
"could they stomach the terror;
The shame, the rage, the hate all aimed at the accused"
The words just kinda happened as I tried to come up with ryhmes. Next day, 2 people close to me called me out for a bunch of stuff I have and should've done, and I was faced with the dilemma of actually facing the issue or just ignoring it again. Got sick to my stomach just from the stress of the decision.
"There are no scars, no blemish, just my mind as it was born
It’s imperfect but pure, you needn’t shed that tear, nor mourn"
I don't really have any emotional trauma weighing me down, I'm not retarded or even crazy (I was tested, genuinely surprised when they couldn't diagnose me with ANYTHING). And yet, I just don't have a normal persons brain, I lack almost all sense of self preservation and motivation, and I have extreme difficulty caring about myself or others. But despite the lyrics, I never truly told anyone what goes on behind the curtains, but I was planning on doing it. Now I'm scared that if I do, they'll be terrified of me. I don't want people to be scared of me. I'm scared of people, and it's a terrible way to live.