How are you holding up /b/?
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How are you holding up /b/?
>>768248052
Christ, just barely. Could fall to pieces soon. Unsure what law of physics hold me together.
>>768248201
Heisenberg's uncertainty principal?
>>768248052
Broke and sober for 4 days so not well
>>768248052
Perfect. And perfectly suicidal.
>>768248735
I wish I could be sober for 4 days.
>>768248534
Perhaps more like... quiet desperation
>>768248865
Aren't we all
Fell in love with a girl I can't have. So I'm just peachy
good tonight.... tomorrow may not be so well.... but i bet i get through a full 8 pack of tall boyz on top of the 2 4lokoz i done drank
>>768248052
Isnt this like a Schrödinger question?
you are both fine and terrible, until you ask the question.
>>768248052
guy/surrealist/chemical life here
din't go ahead with posting that OC last month.
made me lose my power to speak to the internet
afraid I'll go sober and return to the original dimention on placid life.
where self-destruction doesnt lead to material gain.
Im a 7 and its destroying me.
I want to find a job and get plastic surgery so my thirties are a smooth ride before an-hero.
no desire for family.
>>768249352
this is the best gawddammmm millennial answer ive ever herd in my fuckin life
Hasn't been good in 3 years. Everybody is disappointed in me. Don't know if it will get better...
Pretty poorly. Stuck in a revolving door between being drunk 24/7 and alcohol withdrawal. Haven't been sober for more than 10ish days in a row since the beginning of this year.
>>768249538
ciccadian rhythms.
you're in a victim to a random mind lock.
enjoy being powerless
>>768248052
Made it through another week, OP. Holy fucking hell though, I haven't gotten good sleep yet this week, though; I'm about to crash, and I pray to Pelor that I get a solid 8 hours for the first time in forever.
Got a new boss at work. It has had its ups and downs. She seems ready to negotiate the transition with me smoothly, but she has a markedly different approach to our organization than her predecessor. I'm the only member of management still left after a year of frustrated coworkers stepping down after disagreements with our ED, and I really feel like the last of the old guard. Change is probably good, but never much fun.
One more week sober though, and every week I worry might do me in.
Got to paint minifigures at the local dice shop tonight. That was fun.
>>768249538
Whose fault is that?
>>768249664
how's sex 'life"?
I want a shotgun blast to the roof of the mouth but I want to be drunk one last time before I do
Not well tbh. At a 4 way cross road in life, and 2 out of the two are the best answer, but will drastically change who i am, and take a long time to pan out. The other i keep banging my head against the wall in this dead end town and just slug it out. The 4th is to move in with one of the exes that played me, and both have kids no with their abusive exes they picked over me, and just bite the bullet there for a while until I can get out of that situation.
>>768249835
You and me both brother
>>768249788
Had sex once and it was shit. Has been 4 or 5 years since.
>>768249664
I know that feel, man. What stage are you in right now?
Is it on purpose or do you just keep running out of hooch?
>>768249990
nice try.
I assume ur married
>>768249846
Pick the second one
>>768249990
Orgasms are overrated.
>>768249990
Womens are trash.
>>768250137
Too right
>>768249846
Motherfucker, you better be kidding.
Hang yourself with an extension cord, maybe, but don't go groveling back to your exes like a worm.
Pick the hard options that will drastically change who you are, because you sound sort of pathetic right now.
>>768248052
I'm at day 5 binge without sleep. Shadow faggots is literally everywhere.
>>768250009
It will be the end of the 4th day sober in half an hour. When I stop it's a mix of trying to stop and running out of booze/money. I've taken other substances this far before but never booze. Started drinking myself into oblivion every day around the beginning of this year to deal with intrusive thoughts that were driving me crazy. It was a huge mistake. Alcohol is so much easier to get on a whim than the other shit I have done. I decide fuck ii and get fucked up one day, wake up the next with a hangover and decide to cure it right away with more alcohol and then the binge is in motion.
>>768249846
Go back to your ex?
Cuck alert
25 year old virgin, shitty job, living at home, obsessed with a girl that basically hates. Havent been doing so good but really going to try and change it just got to get out of town.
>>768248052
good
>>768250454
We know where you live.
>>768250454
What's your stim?
>>768249538
Then stop trying to please anyone else, leave society and start a tribe like I plan to do
>>768248052
Pretty damn well tbh. Got a job that pays very well for the amount of work that I do, live in my own apartment in a nice area, have hobbies and passions that keep me from depression, and because of my low time preference, I have my distant future to look forward to as a father of attractive, smart, white children.
...so long as our greatest ally Israel allows it.
>>768250576
Happy for you
>>768248052
Pretty fuckin' good actually, thanks for asking. Took a near-death experience, but I am pretty happy and in control nowadays. Still alcohol dependent, but nowhere near suicidal alcoholic. I only have a couple brews a day aside from Fri., Sat. and Sun I allow myself some leeway.
>>768249341
>4lokoz
My cousin drinks the 4loko gold cans and all I gotta say is, pic related.
>>768248052
anxiety has been a bitch recently, but otherwise fine. booze helps calm that down nicely
>>768250454
>we know your name
>>768250516
Don't let fear stop you from getting out of town
>>768249164
This
>>768248735
I relapsed last night and did a shit tonne of blow. Gunna try and kill myself this month. Shits pretty gay right now.
>>768250382
That was the last option. They have their shit together for the most part, and I was only going to use them to get out of the state I live in and use them for a while until I can straighten myself out. Long term ones were going to be either join the army or the muhreens as a cook, get paid for the experiences, and open my own bar and grill once I get out with the money I’d save up from my service.
>>768250657
Booze is nice innit?
20, most likely going to get kicked out of college, can't get out of bed most days, think about killing myself daily. Only time I feel decent is when I'm shitfaced.
>>768250830
its necessary
>>768250582
>>768250694
FFS
>>768250592
Just simple amphetamine sulphate this time. That's quite hard to find meth here.
>>768250498
> Alcohol is so much easier to get on a whim than the other shit I have done
It sure as fuck is. Well, at least you're trying. It took me about two months of stop-and start sobriety, one full blown DT episode with crazy ass hallucinations, and a final episode of feeling like every flu I'd ever had came to collect before I got over it.
These days when I think about picking up a bottle after a hard day I only have to think of the smell of my sweat during that final round, and its enough to back me off. FUck if I'm doing that again.
>>768250960
Have you ever tried to sleep sober? It's fucking impossible
>>768250802
>They have their shit together for the most part, and I was only going to use them to get out of the state I live in and use them for a while until I can straighten myself out.
No you aren't, you sack of shit. Get your act together and stop embarrassing yourself.
>>768251365
Fucking THIS
>>768251283
i sleep fine thanks to sleep meds
>>768249164
Me too anon.
Told her I loved her after knowing her for about a year. She in Europe rn, said she wished she was in states so we could talk about it ftf
Pretty sure I fucked up tho
>>768251660
Beer is my meds
>>768251283
It gets easier. Eventually.
My recommendation: do NOT try to compensate by taking 16 Tylenol PM and 4 Unisom tablets every night for four months after going sober. It will fuck you right up.
>>768248052
I don't know what I'm fighting for. Everyday I feel more like an empty carcass. Every day the darkness grow stronger. I don't want to fall again, but I've run out of things to hold to. Lost my dream, my girl, my friends. I just want to get off.
>>768251365
How do you figure?
>>768250516
Are you employed? What's stopping you from moving out of your mothers house?
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zWCBghizQUs
>>768248052
Ready for another bottle. Only to keep away the withdrawals and anxiety.
I hate my life. My wife hate me. I don't blame her at all.
>>768250454
How much speed have you gone through?
https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=tpAnkth8h6E
>>768251896
>>768250635
You’ll graduate from near-death to dead soon. Good for you.
>>768248052
2 months sober
Was homeless with nothing at the start of this year, it does get better. You have to be the boss not the booze. I think about drinking everyday, smoking helps
>>768251987
lol
u r a sad
>>768248052
lonley
>>768248534
Nice one
>>768248052
Suck two fat cocks cuck
Thanks for asking. Honsetly, I feel like shit. I think most of us do. We are all fighting our own battles. I hope you all find a light at the end. Today is thurday and tomorrow friday. So the weekend is close my friends. Stay in there, heroes n heroines. Its almost over for this week.
>>768248052
23 yo, constantly want to die. nothing brings me happiness. ive tried several anti-depressants, but they barely do anything. currently taking cymbalta, xanax, and vyvanse everyday just to stay alive. get blackout drunk every night because all the meds wear off by then and i can't sleep without alcohol at this point. no friends, gf of 4 years left me a while back and ive never been more alone. live at home with my parents, but we're not really close. just graduated college and now i have to figure out how the fuck im going to get a full time job when all i wanna do is kill myself. so things are going pretty great.
>>768251987
Keep masking the real problem, and life gets even worse. Rinse, repeat.
>>768252219
We're all lonely buddy
>>768252279
Nothing is almost over except for the week.
I thought drinking was my problem but I been sober for a little over a month now, longest I've been since I began drinking on a regular basis. I took up a few hobbies but I still feel an empty void that I can't seem to fill. I have a girlfriend and family that love me but seems like nothing really brings me joy anymore...
>>768252043
~5g. But there is one thing that snorting just don't work since day 3 so i'm just eating it. I hope my nose will regenerate one day.
>>768252459
have you tried any meds?
>>768252294
That's quite a med cocktail you got there. Wish doctors would prescribe me benzos and stimulants but my current one won't even put me back on the only effective antidepressant I've ever been on because I had one seizure like 2 years ago. I guess that's what I get for being open and honest. If your doc will give you those meds then I'm sure you can get ambien. There's no reason to get tanked every night if you truly are only using it for sleep. Alcohol alone will fuck you up man.
Not great. I've been suicidal for months now. Had a failed attempt over a year ago. I won a lawsuit settlement, still hate life. Developed feelings for some gorl who sees me literally out of pity. I haven't been sober in weeks. Idk what do anymore
>>768252219
But hey, at least you have a board full of abusive and insensitive assholes to be your friends.
>You misspelled lonely you retarded shit shat out of a retarded badger.
>>768252459
>but I been sober a little over a month now
Well shit, son, you barely even count as sober at this point. Listen, I know that those first few months drag by forever because you suddenly have so much time on your hands, but you are not accurately judging your current situation. I know that, because you can't adjust to any life change of this magnitude in one month, especially when it affects how you interact with existing.
Drinking really was your problem, or at least a problem. Just keep it up.
>>768249061
I know right? Maybe this'll be our last summer.
>>768248052
Like Kanye's career
>>768252716
yeah my psychiatrist is female and fresh out of school, so she loves to push pills. they get me through the day i guess. i really wanted to kill myself after my ex left me. i've lived with depression for ~8 years and had suicidal thoughts, but that was the first time i actually wanted to act on it. so i decided to get help and see if it works. anti-depressants and xanax just make me numb pretty much. i've been drinking heavily for 3-4 years now and tried quitting several times with no success. i go through a handle of whiskey in 2-3 days now. i fucking hate it.
>>768253224
I have no regrets. Do you?
>>768253291
A meme?
>>768253421
Nope. I blame fate for every evil thing in this world and in my life. So, seeing that there's no way I am really to blame for anything in such an intricate system such as this which must be engineered, even my inevitable suicide must be fated. Such as... Like a higher voice might say to an NDE: right now I am where I am meant to be.
>>768253992
HAVE YOU CONSIDERED THAT THE GOVERNMENT IS CONTROLLING YOU VIA FLOURINATED WATER
>>768254203
Who hasn't?
>>768252206
Smoking weed? I am thinking to try and convince my wife that I do it.
Either that or I die.
>>768252199
Well yeah, we're all gonna die, who gives a fuck? Enjoy your yourself while you can, pussy
>>768252638
You're eating speed? That must be delicious. Why not just go to the nearest slummy convenient store and buy a rose stem?
>>768253202
I actually find comfort in this. I haven't told anyone about my situation, I've always masked it. I'm not one to open up, that includes family, friends, and girlfriend. It's always been hard to do. Thanks anon.
>>768252655
No meds, friends have recommended smoking weed in the past but I tend to have anxiety attacks once I'm high. I use to smoke on a regular basis when I was younger but now I can't, don't remember the last time I did and besides I don't want to change one habit to another.
>>768248052
I've been unemployed for 3 months since getting fired.
Only 2 fast food companies have called me in for an interview recently.
I overheard a girl going through her interview as I was waiting for my turn.
She mainly talked about how she liked video games, manga, and someday moving to Korea; she never mentioned any job experience, and they hired her on the spot.
During my interview, I mentioned how I had 5+ years of fast food experience, and they told me to wait for a phone call.
This is complete bullshit.
>>768256375
i need sauce on that brother
>>768255677
You're depressed anon, weed doesn't help, it just makes your anxiety a bigger problem, try meds man. Even if you don't like it, that's the way sometimes.
>>768248052
Not great.
In fact I think the only thing stopping me from ending it right now is the idea of putting my family and friends through something like that.
>>768256622
google search the filename with quotation marks. sometimes adding the word nude helps. learn2google
>>768248052
Really fucking bad, drank heavily and self harmed for the first time in months. All over pretty much nothing. I hate myself so much
>>768253992
Fate and Destiny huh?
They can both suck me.
>>768248052
Not well. I had two brain aneurysms. 1 ruptured and 1 clip.
Surprise to be alive.
Unfortunately everyday I suffer bad headaches, neck tension, muscle spasm, twitching, numbness, and cramps.
Face cramps suck.
Waiting on disability.
It's killing me.
On the verge to being an alcoholic...again.
Don't want opiates.
My small town in texas has no weed.
This state hates weed
Why am I alive, famz?
I can see my self pulling the trigger if disability denies me.
I need all the help I can get.
>>768257230
move to cali. marijuana is legal, and being a beach bum in san diego isn't half bad
>>768257487
Wtf is this?
>>768256880
thanks man
>>768257369
If i get this disability in the next month.
I'll go to Colorado.
Not sure where in CO but I'd like to stay close to Texas cause of family.
>>768257230
have you ever used opiates? cause if you're not a recovering addict or anything you should really just use opiates you can probably get good pain control on a fairly low dose fairly safely
I'm doing OK but tired all the time, working 6 day works trying to pay debts and save money, gf was cool funny and a 8/10 but now is lazy fat and a solid 4, I can dump her but I've been with her 2 years and half of me wants to save our relationship the other half wants to end it problem is I'm stuck in a car payment and she's borrowed $5500 from me she said she'd pay back but I don't think she will I supported her when she didn't work for 4 months and this is how she repays me? She gets may when I stay late at work or goes out with friends but I can't stand her and her childish ways sometimes. What the fuck do I do?
>>768258242
Kill yourself?
>>768256880
>>768257759
>>768256375
I can’t see the filename on mobile FML
HEY if you all feel sad, "woe is me" yada yada yada
I have a suggestion; CAUSE A PROBLEM FOR SOMEONE. Hurt somebody mentally, physically whatever!
>>768258364
Motha fuckin' this.
>>768258333
>>768258333
Checked
While most people can't stand the thought of a dry spell, I don't mind at all.
I was diagnosed with autism at a young age so I guess that plays a part. But social interaction in general is exhausting for me. I play a role all day just to get along with others and hide my true self. Taking the effort to spend my time with someone and try to keep them happy is even more debilitating in my experience. Don't get the wrong idea I like people, and there are great women as well as terrible ones, same with men. Sex is also great, or maybe because my slim body count I've come to appreciate the act itself, but it takes a whole lot of effort on my part just to talk to people in the first place. I'd say all things considered, as long as I have a place to sleep and no one is bothering me, I'm great.
>>768258333
Nah I'd pack up and ditch before I did that
>>768248052
I feel like I have to say it. I'm totally lost, times goes by and I don't do shit. I feel like a waste.
Had a amazing job abroad.
Was runing a new project. Big office and shit.
But was on the other side of the world.
Had to drop the job and get back.
Cant find a job for 6 months now. Depressed as fuck.
Started playing browser games for cash.
http://www.dungeons-treasures.com/index.php?p=181304
dont know if ill ever find a job -_-
>>768257949
No.
I'll probably be paying a lot tho.
No insurance and i can't work like I use to.
My gf and family basically pay w.e. They can to help me.
I live in very small town and no idea where to go to buy off street. Everyone here are either drunks, meth heads, or both.
Till than I'm gonna have to suffer.
I'll probably die soon anyway.
I have a bottle of whisky hidden when the day comes and I jusy say fuck it.
I probably be numb which will be nice with sky high bp, than stroke out and die.
>>768258885
So do a thing?
Adopt a dog /an/ will tell you how.
Now you have something to live for.
>>768248052
My sources say that waifubots are on their way. I need you to stay excited.
>>768260333
Trips confirm
>>768248052
Not too well atm.
Graduated college a year late, been applying to programming jobs and getting interviews but never a call back or even feedback. So i just try to stay busy, wake up early, program or learn new things, play some runescape, and pokemon go with my mom. I really hate that i can't go out much because im broke and being alone does get to me, but im able to get over it for now.
>>768248052
Pretty good, broke up with my gf which kinda sucks, though we ended on good terms. Excited to see what the future holds, because this relationship taught me quite a few things. The reason why we broke up is because the immense amount of stress it was causing me, we didn't click as a couple but as friends we would be great. I just hope I made the right decision that will make me happier
>>768249352
I hate you brainlets so much. He made his famous scenario to point out how silly the Copenhagen interpretation seems. Relating it repeatedly with other contexts just infuriates me.
I go from totally sober to fall down drunk. I have 6 missed calls from people. why the fuck do I do this?
>>768249164
its the same situation with me, but with a guy. Inb4 fuck off fag, I am bi and that is who I am. I make sure people are clean and get to know them before anything. Inb4 fags are never clean. Nope, I just need a better side income to be able to do more.
Pretty alright almost outta highschool parents think im suicidal...sooo the usual
and he looks like this. We hang out and all, I just have bills and cant chill as much.
I'm good
>>768248052
just try to ignore all the bad stuff and focus/indulge on the shit you like
not well, I dont know how to relieve my stress and I stay up way to late and wake up at 6am. I feel like Im in a cycle like a fucking ai simulation
I ain't but the vodka I bought ain't hitting me. Feel lost and shit. Just want to move out and live alone.
>>768257114
Fuck yeah bro same here, I'm my own creator.
Pretty good. Shit Nigger. Tonight was awesome. I got shitfaced, booked plane tickets to Denver to see a friend's graduation and see my family, booked tickets to see The Offspring play this weekend, and we are shooting guns on Sunday. I get to try out an AK47 I want to buy.
Shit Nigger.
Life is pretty good.
>>768248052
i need a fucking job anon, shit has been hard in the last 3 years
>>768267635
really? Denver, offspring and redneckery, sounds pretty fucking bad mate
