Feelsthread existential crisis edition
What form of dread are we experiencing today /b/
Well I mean every day I contemplate the fact that I'll one day die but it's something I'm okay with at this point.
>>768178812
What's the point?
I can't be the only one on feels rn, get in here sad friends
Quick thought:
If you get in a car accident at 35 and lose your memory from 25 to 35 you'll go to bed one night at 25 and wake up in a hospital room right?
>>768179060
DUDE WEED LMAO
>>768179094
no need to be a cuck but okay whatever helps you feel better dog
>>768179060
Would giving myself amnesia cure my depression?
>>768179060
With that line of thinking I was figuring that if we die and nothing happens you wouldn't be conscious right now.
In order for you to be conscious now you would have to be conscious 10 years from now 20 years from now and so on.
So an afterlife would make sense in order for us to be aware now was even now.
>>768179266
Only if you hit yourself hard enough you have no chance of recovering your memories
Feels thread? Ok, I'm in. Just feel empty and like shit, been fapping too much to try and achieve a natural high and forget about my pathetic life. And this is pretty much my every day....
>>768179401
Alright anon, I didn't think anyone was gonna make a more retarded case than >>768179060 in this thread at least
I'm far too lazy to ever succeed. I'm 26 years old failed college twice and gave up on the Army after 4 years when it was the only job that gave me purpose. So now I'm just going to become a welder and melt into the anyominity of the flock. I'm not special. I never was. I'm just another worker bee forced to continue to exist and strain for the colony.
I wanted so much more than this but I always fail to follow through.
>>768179616
Listen man I'm just trying to justify a God for myself
>>768179620
Hmmm you're about 10 years ahead of me why not end it all?
>>768179620
Clearly your problem is that you didn't have a chest bag
>>768179594
Got some nihilism? Spread it around!
>>768179594
And I'm back to considering suicide. I'm really just a broke, unattractive, lonely, loser piece of wankstain.
>>768179651
At least follow a coherent line of thinking then maybe you could justify one for us all
>>768179741
Age? Job?
>>768179752
I just figure that consciousness has to be a constant in interrupted stream in order for it to exist at all.
Explain why I'm wrong
>>768179808
>in interrupted
Uninterrupted
>>768179791
I'm 21, recent hire as a Denny's dishwasher. Not that it matters.
>>768179679
I had a friend who's child killed themselves and it drove his whole family into different kinds of psychosis. I have never valued my own life, but I don't want to harm my families. Which sounds fucking stupid in this place, but they are the only people who have ever been loyal to me.
>>768179808
That's not how it works. We don't have to explain why you're wrong, you gotta tell us why the obvious answer (ceasing to exist when you die) is wrong
>>768179895
Im not saying i'm right I'm asking if I am and if not why i'm not
>>768178989
I'm here buddy.
After 6 years of being depressed, 5 years of OCD, plenty of medication and therapy later it's still getting worse. I didn't really want a future. Gf gave me one, I got myself to trust her a 100%. Then she randomly left, dumped me, and told me she really likes someone else and thinks they like them back. Breaking her promise we'd try to fix it.
So now I feel absolutely horrible. Continuous waves of anxiety, feel like I'm partially breathing in water and plenty of other stress-caused physical symptoms.
There's more to the story tho, so if anyone is interested.
>>768179939
>Didnt even bother to tie a real noose knot
>>768179852
I'm 19 and I started this thread. Figure since we're young may as well see what happens in the years to come
>>768179870
I feel the same. Could never bring myself to the task because of the 5 people that care about me
>>768179939
What keeps you going day to day mate?
>>768178812
>turned 34 today
>high
>alone
>miss my old life daily
>feel stuck
>everyday is the same shitty day
>been here 5 years...
>>768179992
Same man. If it weren't for my family and pets I'd be an hero by now
>>768179939
never place happiness in someone else anon.
first love is always the worst. I was literally cucked and cheated on.
graduated and she is begging for me back
of course I don't go back, did before and got cheated on again so I blocked her.
I'm on SSRI, do pain killers, and Xanax to stay happy.
I recommend LSD though
>>768180055
I'm off way worse than before I met her, like this feels worse than what initially made me depressed, but I can't just end it all. See >>768180157
>>768180189
more of this
>>768180156
I can feel the dread emanating off this post. How to carry on?
>>768180274
see your post above anon.
listen to move along on youtube.
>>768180200
I haven't experienced happiness for years, so I can't place it in anyone else. I tried LSD and weed to enhance it, but the SNRI I was taking at the time fucked with the experience. I did feel rather okay using it tho, even the next morning I'd feel kinda okay.
I can't use LSD for a while anymore unfortunately. Reminds me too much of her. And anything that we used to do together, or would be going to, I just can't anymore. And if I do I'd just feel extremely anxious, OCD is a cunt.
>>768180274
>>768180200
This anon's right if you only confide in another your happiness will feel fleeting. People are shit and only care about themselves so be a self-promoter and find new sluttier tail
>>768180337
couldn't put my mom through it
Alright everyanon OP here, thanks for the feels, but I'm calling it a night. Still have my day job to not look forward to in the morning.
>>768178812
ok
>15 years of music experience
>10s of thousands of hours in practice
>about a years wages worth of equipment
For what? Covers of has-been bands that only I will listen to.
Also I haven't spoke to anybody in a social context for about 14 months. Should I KMS?
>>768180399
time will make you feel better anon.
get back on an SSRI . recommend Zoloft.
helped me with panic attacks and anxiety.
also still do LSD , try it with nitrous oxide
>>768180727
Goodnight OP, hopefully you'll get a good night's rest and some sweet dreams to go along with it. Good luck at work tomorrow
>>768180795
Thanks anon, much love <3
>>768180752
Isn't that what music's all about anon? Make it for yourself and let other people like it if they like it. Don't even trip, no matter what music is an amazing skill to have. You could probably do side gigs with all your experience and focus on yourself otherwise
>>768180778
I've been on Seroquel, Seroquel xr, Prozac, Zoloft, Venlafaxine and now on Mirtazapine. None did anything. Seroquel made me a zombie, the others nothing, and Mirtazapine makes me a short tempered insensitive cunt (which caused the breakup. Something fixable. Something confirmed by my doctor and the internet..)
I'm afraid the intense anxiety caused by OCD would send me into a bad trip. The bad trip I had on DOB before the breakup is literally nothing compared to what I'm going through now. Scared a bad trip+all these bad feels would be even worse
Living happy and care free. Fuck you sad fags.
>>768180752
I also have massive stage fright/performance anxiety. never been able to play live without bottling it.
>>768180953
well may be you are gay?
want to jerk off together on Skype, watch porn and cum at the same time
The consistent hole in my heart due to the fact I’ve never been in a relationship or even experienced love at 21 years old. I just never experienced it when I was younger and I fear I’ll go through college without experiencing it too.
>>768180924
thanks anon. maybe one day.
