What feels are keeping you up anon?
no where comfy to sleep
>>768171548
this x 1000
>>768171466
Got too twacked last night. Now I'm laying here awake wondering if I'll ever have an erection again.
I check my ex's facebook page everyday to see if she's still single.
only dated for 6 months and it ended 2 years ago. Coincidentally I haven't gotten laid in 2 years.
When I get to know a girl I obsess over her but I know that if I do it won't end well so I get depressed and hold it but I starts a cycle of me no longer doing my hobbies and shit because I'm beating myself up resulting in my obsession and depression
Girl I like is suddenly avoiding and ignoring me
This has been going on for weeks now but it's on and off like sometimes she'll text me like everything's fine and then the next day I say hi and never get a reply.
>>768172016
drop her.
if she's not willing to put in the smallest amount of effort now, then it'll only be worse when things matter
I broke up with my gf of 4 years just a few months ago. she was abusive, she would hurt me, bully me, and threaten to hurt/kill herself if i didnt do what she asked.
I know im free now, im dating a new girl and moving on with my life.
But I feel like shit. I feel like shit because I know her mental illness turned her into a monster and deep down there was a girl that I used to date, but shes gone now.
At some point, her mental health got so bad that the girl I loved died. I never got to say goodbye to that girl.
jews
>>768171742
It will feel like forever, but if you stay off that shit youll get boners again trust me.
>>768172104
I'd love to but I still like her so much
the months of us being close and talking/texting/seeing each other before this also stops me from moving on. I just can't understand the sudden change.
I fucking hate myself
everything annoys me
counselling later today to talk about dem feelies
i feel broken, you know?
the person i used to talked almost everyday, has stoped talking to me
she used to take me for granted, but, for some reason, even after i tell her we couldn't talk as we used to, i can't stop feeling bad, you know?
it's complicated, i mean, i did everything to asure she was okay, and after that, she went with other guys, and i don't blame her for that, but, you know?, at least she shouldn't tell me that she loved me, or she cared about me
it's unffair, i'm really sad, and now that she's gone, i miss her.
what should i do? :c
>>768172189
familiar feels. hang in there , time wounds all heals. i mean time, nevermind it always kinda sucks.
>>768172338
yeah man I know
but I can tell you it is most likely not worth pursuing if she's this flaky before y'all are even a thing
>>768171466
I've lost feelings for the girl I'm dating. A long time ago she was a nice girl but now I realized that she's really manipulative and the sex is horrible. Every time I see an attractive girl I get depressed thinking about what I have and the fact that I can get a new girl. I still feel like I have some obligation to her but I don't know what to do
>>768172473
Youre totally right though.
Its not the feeling of being foreveralone, I'm not worried about that, I've dated a few girls since and actually really like the girl im with currently.
Its that weird haunting ache, that I had to choose to stop loving someone for my own safety and happiness. Never thought I would break up with a beautiful girl for a reason like that.
>>768172658
I've been in the same situation man. i was 19 when we started dating, but by the time I got to my mid-twenties i realized i wanted someone different, and someone who wasnt aweful to me and the people around them.
You gotta live life for yourself, trust me.
There is no obligation (unless youre married, then thats your fault)
>>768171466
I've been picking and eating my scalp scabs and I realized it's gross but cant stop. I'm on anti anxiety medication because of it.
>>768172938
the thing is i dont know what I have now until i lose her, but to be fair some of the shit she has done is absolutely untolerable.
couple months into us dating she told me that she sends nudes to one of her guy friends for his approval. she said it was okay because they aren't attracted to each other and it would be just like if she sent it to another girl. I suppose it was my own fault for overlooking some of the obvious warning signals but i think im actually going to do something about this girl and my unhappiness
This.
>>768172552
I really don't know
I'm still holding on to a small chance that she's gonna go "back to normal" after a while.
Not to mention we're neighbors and friends since highschool so I'm afraid of losing a really close friend.
It's almost like I'm begging that I'd rather she becomes my old friend again than be the girl I like now.
i was never welcome
Me and my ex. We've both hurt each other. And we both feel bad. And it's hard for us to get the courage to get back together. We both want to. But we both have our qualms about it. It's been like this since March.
I constantly think of her
>>768171466
Large stressor in my life rn, gf is not helping situation at all, so that's shit
>>768173119
Thats good, honestly most guys from such a young age are raised to be "gentlemen", but what can happy is we dont stand up for ourselves.
My ex would always accuse me of cheating, anytime i said I couldnt hang out or was busy she assumed I was sleeping around. Ends up she was in love with a classmate for a really long time, probably projecting those feelings back to me as if I had a mistress somewhere.
Let me warn you that girls like this will try really hard to hurt you when you stand up for yourself, my ex went and slept with some guy she met on tinder within 24 hours of me telling her I was done with her bullying me and manipulating me. It broke my heart, and yeah i miss her.
Its totally healthy to miss someone after, youre allowed to. but know that she is such a small little slice of the rest of your life, do NOT give her any more control. You will be much happier.
>>768173632
Carol?
>>768171466
A girl i loved started talking to me only to disappear shortly after. slightly believe shes fucking with me, also think shes too stupid TO be fucking with me
>>768173748
Sorry anon. Not Carol. If Carol means something to you I surely hope the best for you and her.
>>768173952
tbh Im better off without her.
She lurks though so I always wonder if shes on here
>>768173715
damn dude, thanks for dropping this knowledge. not sure if you understand how much this helps me through my situation. its true, i was raised being a gentleman but blindly giving in to a girl's needs isnt what should be done. thank you so much man
How would I know if I'm a robot
>>768174240
run magnets over your body, and if you're fine after that you're probably human
>>768174273
These fucking captchas
>>768173491
well then focus on other girls in the meantime for romanticism, but don't totally drop her as far as being her friend because it sounds like yall are closer than I thought.
Just probably not gonna be a romance thing.
>>768171742
Good old shard dick I feel ya mate
>>768174133
No problem, it sounds like youre in a similar situation that I was just in, so it means a lot to know i wasnt alone in feeling trapped.
Im not telling you to break up with someone if you want to make it work, but do know that youre important in the end.
Add me on Steam if you ever wanna talk: Gussette
>>768172296
Thanks anon. That's encouraging to hear.
Im laying next to my lover of 8 years, feeling the warmth seep into my skin, but it doesn't Pierce my heart like it used to. And the other person I was fooling around with told me today that we should stop. So I'm at a loss for how I should feel or what I should do.
>>768174042
That ain't healthy, bud. I promise she doesn't give you the same consideration.
>>768175179
>So I'm at a loss for how I should feel or what I should do.
you should stop phoneposting
My feels aren't keeping me up because the girl that I enjoy hanging out with is doing it instead.
I moved away from all my friends and graduated. So I got a job where im all alone (No managers or coworkers just me).
Im fucked for friends.
Pls help.
>>768171466
The feels of developing insurmountable feelings for a girl, knowing that we are literally perfect for each other, getting rejected by her multiple times, her still wanting to text you and be friends
>>768175243
ಠ_ಠ....
Lol!
╮(─▽─)╭
>>768175397
This but the opposite sex. And knowing that it'll never happen.
>>768172402
Tell us how that goes. Im in that boat aswell but its sinking quick.
>>768174417
Ive always called it stim dick, nice learning new slang
>>768175587
been going since november, it's alright I guess, thinking about talking to a doc for pills or something as I still feel pretty shit
>>768176519
antideps just make it worse. Struggled bad for a couple years and then psych prescribed zoloft. took it three days before I couldn't anymore.
did acid 3 days later and never been depressed about much since. mushies too, prefer them but each is interchangeably hard to find depending on your location
>>768176689
I'm just constantly stoned and I don't feel as mad. Still hate myself though. I worry that i'll make all these changes and still feel the same, I have done a few things, going out more and stuff but still feel the same.
>>768171466
I fell in love with a co-worker, who takes my love for granted. I have to quit this person completely.
>>768172189
Bruv, I am in the exact same position. I miss the old girl, and it hurt to watch her get taken away.
I wonder if the old girl will ever be back, but I gotta block that thought out and get on with shit
>>768176902
what honestly changed for me was being noticed by my crush. you'd be surprised how much pussy can impact mental health.
You gotta figure out what is making you feel that way. Some insecurity? some lack of accomplishment? everyones different
>>768177341
all of the above
except the pussy bit
My quiet desperation of a long life with a slow death is ruining the lives of those who love me. I cannot stop them from feeling emotions but I wish I could erase myself from their memory. Everyone wants everyone to envy them because we all envy a certain life ideal. Nobody cares about being who they wanna be not even me. Everyone just wants to be someone that everyone wants to be. This mentality is like a cancer, I keep trying to escape it but it grows on me too, almost like it’s human nature. Destined to feel sad because you didn’t succeed, most “successful” people that humans write about were fulfilling an ideal they learned from birth not necessarily making themselves happy. We are born and we absorb information then change it we do not create our own info.
In the near instantaneous moments that follow, when I pause from my manic attempts to cast order unto the universe, the universe will plunge its vast, lonely, chaos unto me, with unparalleled force, crushing me back into existence, reducing me back into the animal I am. Maybe I care too much? Maybe I may not be able to understand the chaos, but I can try, that is what chaos gains from the ordering of my energy, a tiny perspective different from itself. Me and the universe can dance together this way; me as a being and my environment. Maybe that’s why I’m always sad because the universe is vast crushing darkness with empty space, this is what I feel when we dance together, and as we dance we understand more and more about each other, which is just understanding more about ourselves. I am nothing too? I am a vast dark empty void with pockets of immense chaos? Or I represent that. The universe is a forest, it feels a certain way, but it wants to see itself. I am a bird, born from the forest, in the forest, with the same energy, and I fly above it and percieve its edges, it’s beauty and it’s cycles.
>>768171466
>$0.00? why??!!!?????
Maddison... I've been with 3 girls since her and I still think about her constantly. Mostly hateful thoughts, but thoughts nonetheless. Current g/f is about to finish nursing school - is smart, loyal, gorgeous, hates partying and loves sex... I literally have no complaints and have to constantly reassure myself this is the best I've had or ever will have. Yet Madison is still in my head, we only hooked up a handful of times and I broke it off after I found out a guy she said had "raped her" was still plowing her inbetween our hangouts.
Idk it just fucks with me I guess. Thanks OP, I have no one to vent that to.
>>768177521
tldr
>>768171466
Somehow just got my nihilism back again. I've been working nonstop for a couple months with no depression, but boy do I feel meaningless right now
>>768171466
Waiting to go to MEPS
>>768178071
Right there with you, life just kinda sucks once you realize how much time is wasted.
>>768178141
It hurts man
Keep it reel
Everyone wants me dead and my dad, the only person that was helping me out of my hole, is making me out to be some sort of err in judgement ( of course im 30 but the details are sound and secure the idea that i didnt end up here by choice) which is making it difficult to want to stay alive. I have an imaginary japanese girlfriend, another one in pennsylvania that posted a pic of herself here earlier talking about how she was going to be in a train collision or something and another one down the way a train ride away that doesn't exist. I say imaginary because while we talk i have to do it as if no one can know. Im also broke and handsome. Its all too conflicting and I'm nearly crying. I'm not dumb either and if you felt that you know I mean business. Please hold off. I'm a beer in amd I have another. Save it for later when I'm ready to go to school. The one that posted a pic of herself cjugged abeer bc she heard some big news was coming and wanted to hear it half way in. That i had only had sex unprotected like 30 times. And i have a child from it. She's excited.
>>768177308
Is she over 18? I want to save this.
The consistent hole in my heart due to the fact I’ve never been in a relationship or even experienced love at 21 years old.
31, never had a job and have no explanation as to why that anyone would accept, they will pick someone else every time because it's honestly the rational thing to do
Father killed in a home invasion in 2016, killer was 17 at the time and will likely be treated a child despite the fact he shot an unarmed person until his mag was empty like a deranged little hate demon. I've just accepted he'll get away with it and I am encouraging my family to do the same. If the state wants to "decriminalize african americans" it can, it can do whatever it wants, it can do it whenever it wants and it can do it to you and your family
these two facts in hand I think it's time everyone just accept my argument that he is dead because I went outside, oh and now I'm having a lot of trouble going outside
then I got a DUI, I can't drive and don't know if I'm going to jail, so yeah, apparently I'm welcome to just sit here being victimized, that's all the state wants from me so that's all I get to do. Some SJW will just sentence me to a year in prison because they can get away with it. I'm starting to think life itself is just what you can get away with.
i should just drink poison
>>768180966
It's better to not experience it than to experience it and then be disappointed or have your heart broken.
Never felt lonely in my life and was perfectly content by myself until i met someone i truly loved and they threw me away after about 2 years.
For the first time i feel alone and like i'm missing something.
>>768173334
> Becoming a typical street nigger tutorial
>>768182010
Live off the governement, all the mongoloid illegal beaners and niggers do it. Save a bit every month till you can travel somewhere. Buy some young prostitute in a 3rd world country. Then off yourself. No reason to not go out with a bang.
The feeling of not being able to breathe through my nose. Just had a surgery.
>>768182010
kill the bastard that killed your dad
ill help you. My life is meaningless and I want to murder someone who deserves it.
2/?
4/?
hunger and a weird sense of loneliness/nostalgia after seeing someone post my childhood crush here earlier
9/?
10/?
Both my close friends passed away and now I am alone, the yugioh duels and travels we did is all I have to remember now.
I'm too much of a pussy to tell someone I like her and it's been driving me mad
I wasted my chances from three different girls already in my life and I don't want to do it again
How do I toughen up for this?
I mean everyone usually says practice and keep asking out girls but I have this weird oneitis shit where I'm never interested in other girls whenever I'm in love.
At this rate I might have to pretend or actually get drunk and tell her the truth.
I hate my job, but I know there is nowhere else to go. I have no references and no skills, so changing jobs is impossible. The only ways out are winning the lottery, start living in the woods, or humanity dying from some extreme pandemic.
i just wanna be a girl so badly
my gf is bi but idk how she will feel about it
even when we have sex i always have to imagine that i'm a girl and focus on her
i guess that just makes our sex a bit better but ugh i really just wanna be lesbians
i just wanna be pretty :(
>>768186484
go live in the woods or something sheesh
save some fucking money
make smart investments, save your money from your shit job then when you have enough stop showing up and get on a train
>>768182010
yeah dude just end it at this point
like if you weren't being a complete and total incel about it it's one thing but no one wants to hire you because you're lame and not fun to be around
sucks about your dad though, why do you have to bring race into things though? You don't think white people do the same dumb shit? You act like you're being victimized by SJWs, but in reality, you're just not doing anything with your life. I'm lazy too bro, don't worry.
Look, if you're going to be an incel, off yourself ASAP. There are enough of those in the world, and all you do is make SJWs arguments gain weight. But actually go out and get a job. Apply at McDonalds. Come on. Anything. Fucking anything. Don't be an incel, stop trying to play the victim and accept that you do not know everything.
>>768172338
she thinks you're clingy
stop annoying her bro x3
some of you guys have it rough but some of you are just faggots
>>768186336
if you're too much of a pussy to tell her how you feel then perhaps you dont lie her as much as you claim you do.
grow a fucking pair and ask her out, it's not that fucking hard. Besides, what's there to lose anyway, your friendship? fuck that shit. if you two dont end up together, it'll happen. If you do end up together and it doesn't work out as you hoped it would, it'll happen. Just fucking take the risk anyways.
dont let this little shit be something you'd always look back to and regret. I have a few of things like these, it feels worse than being too much of a fucking pussy to take a leap
Not feels, but thought i had to work tonight, and when i got there i learned i'm off until Sunday. i slept all day since work night shift and now cant sleep.
>>768186511
oh fuck I wasn't ready
>>768171466
untapped creativity
>>768171548
got a comfy place, just it's either too warm under the covers, or too cool above.
That and insomnia.
>>768171466
The sun, it's 8am where I am so
>>768189157
I went on a suicidal rampage two weeks ago and ended moving back in with my parents after my roomate kicked my drunk ass. I’m healed up now and on antidepressants. Sold my car to a scrapyard for 200 bucks yesterday and got a pretty good paycheck from a job I quit. Said job accused me of sexual harassment which I didn’t do, it’s what set me over the edge to begin with.
Parents are driving me crazy. I love and appreciate everything they’ve done for me, but they are too controlling and overbearing. My stepdad is anal retentive and gives me hour lectures everyday over everything I do and I just want to blow my brains out.
Good news is I got a good paying job interview in a few hours. I’m going to fail my drug test though. I have 300 dollars in my wallet though and I’ve been broke for quite a while so at least that’s going on.
There’s a girl who I’ve got a long history with I’m talking to again. She and I have been on and off for years, hadn’t talked to her for 5 years since I head butted her in a squabble, dark times. All is forgiven. She had a fiancé of 3 years and me and her fucked around a few times while she was with him this year since we reunited . Caught hardcore feelings. We tell each other we love each other. I really did but my love all got ruined when I realized I probably wasn’t the only one she does that kind of thing with. Fucked up feelings inside twist into lustful jealousy, obsession. I wish I was naive again.
She’s invited me to live with her as she broke up with her fiancé this weekend. She’ll come get me and I don’t have very many things so it will be an easy move. She has a job and will take care of rent and things until I find a job where she lives 2 hours away. I’d really like to do it to get away from my parents, but it will break my mom’s heart. This close to Mother’s Day too... They hate her, and have no reason not to really. They’re right but this is what I want to do. I’m torn.
the thought of not getting what you want out of life
>>768189955
Wow what a fucking train wreck
>>768173414
the reason is obvious: the premise is that they're white. honkeys are racist
ITT incels who need to man the fuck up and stop worrying about women and focus on improving themselves more
>>768190619
You’re telling me. I wanted to kill myself but I’m still here. Everything gets crazier with each passing day
>>768172189
SAME.
Except the new gf, still 2 much of an emotional wreck lul.
>wanna go see a movie with me?
>yes
>is the movie still on today? she asks
>yeah tomorrow
>"I don't really wanna go see the movie"
>ok we don't have to go
>"its ok, but I really wanted to go see it"
haven't talked in a few days now and I don't know what she wants from me. She always agrees to come somewhere, then doesn't want to come or if she does she brings her friends over, then they leave and we're hanging out together, everything is fine, then after a few days it isn't and now when I see her I just feel awkward. We've only been seeing each other for a few weeks and I feel emotionally drained so I'm trying to detach myself from her for now, its been fucking up my days with anxiety because I can't stop thinking about what she wants or if she thinks I did something wrong. Its fine now but I really had high hopes for her. Its back to being alone, but at least I can get some sleep now
>>768191011
>I wanted to kill myself
Do you need instructions?
Still think about my ex sometimes , broke up a year ago...
Did so much for her it annoys how stupid I was for taking a lot of the blame for things and it always made me look like I was a bad person.
Even tho she hurt me im getting over it...
But since then no other girls interest me that much, and I often compare them to my ex...which annoys me alot. Tips?
>>768173414
Okay as a black man I can honestly say that yes sometimes it is us with the problem. And while not all of us have this mentality at least 80% of us do. I noticed it in my day-to-day life. A lot of my people have this victim complex where everything is Whitey's fault. Oh I can't get a job because white or i can't go to school because whitey. Or I'm poor because whitey no dummy it's because you dropped out of high school,.got pregnant at 16 or got arrested so many times that nobody wants to hire you because you so busy" keeping it real". And What hurts the most is that my own people get mad at me when I get ahead. Oh you ain't a real black or I'm an Uncle Tom or I'm a race traitor even though I'm the darkest motherfuker on the Block.
My coworker showed me the song "HELP" from pink guy, the saddest thing is that I can relate 100%. I am just a piece of human garbage with no redeemable traits. I forgot how to make friends because I thought that solitude was good, but now it fucking blows. I can't stop beating myself up for things that are already in the past. I want not to have close friends or a partner, for their lives would be tangibly worst by association. I've lived with the constant thought of suicide since I was 16, but I haven't worked the gut to do it because I know that after the emotional dust settles, the only one that cares is me.
Everyday is a major struggle, since I just crawl lazily and painfully from day to day. I know the only one that can help me is myself, but I can't even do that.
