Hi /b/.
I have a problem and I need your help.
I am in every aspect a pretty normal, functional human being. I have friends, I had a long-term girlfriends for almost 10 years, I have a great family, and I have a high-performance job that I really feel I can do for the rest of my life and that will probably support my every financial need. I had a normal life growing up with both my loving parents and siblings. I watch some tv, I play vidya, I fap to normal porn, I enjoy having a beer now and then. I really enjoy all of this.
I am a completely normal person, no one would say otherwise.
But I can't put my finger on my problem. I can't even begin to describe the feeling I have. I don't feel depressed, no anxiety or anything. I'm not sad, I'm not happy.
I just feel like something or everything is wrong.
Can anyone of you understand what I'm trying to describe?
Also, have some tits.
You ever do drugs?
>>768126464
Not really, I have smoked some weed when I was in school but nothing more. I don't enjoy smoking anymore.
Sounds like anhedonia to me. You sound like you have a good life. Maybe go to a doctor? Or you could take some psychedelics, they can help with this sort of thing. Shrooms or lsd
>>768127359
>anhedonia
Googled it, makes kinda sense. I have no reason to not enjoy good things, I just don't.
I have thought about going to a psychologist, but it feels so fucking retarded. I mean, there is nothing wrong with me, I just don't enjoy things anymore.
Psychadelics is interesting, but I would never actually do it. How would that help?
>>768126216
Kinda in the same boat as you OP, im just not as emotional as other people which is what i think is wrong
>>768128223
I see what you mean. I don't react strongly to emotions at all, I simply don't get mad or happy.
The closest I get to a strong feeling is feeling contented.
>>768127891
They may help you enjoy things again. See things from a new perspective. There are scientific studies on them and they can help with depression, ptsd, etc. It will open your mind in a way you never thought possible and may help you, or not. I suggest researching it. "I would never actually do it". It sounds like you already made up your mind. Is this from the bad stigma drugs get or another reason?
>>768126216
Forst world problem. Dont be such a pussy
>>768128589
I second this. Every time I feel the way OP does, I’ll take a few mushroom caps and feel refreshed.
>>768126216
You are bored.
Maybe you need some autonomy and direction in your life. Perhaps start a passion project or hobby?
>>768128589
I don't really care about what people think of drugs or drug users, I'm very liberal when it comes to drugs.
But I don't want to open up my mind. I'm fucking terrified of somehow going through my mind without any sort of safety net or filter.
Hard to explain and english is not my first language, but I'm not sure I want to know the reason I feel the way I feel.
>>768128819
Perhaps. My main problem is I don't seem to have any dreams or things that I'm passionate about. If I really got to choose anything in life, I would probably still sit here and shitpost about frogs and do the same shit every day.
I have never understood how or why people are very passionate about things. The concept feels very alien to me somehow.
>>768128588
And the thing is that it gets worse when your life gets into a routine, my body just goes into autopilot and i zone out til the routine is broken. I become completely void of emotions no anger no happines just the shitty kinda feelin Thats why ive been trying to find new stuff to do and new ways to do old stuff, and i think its helping but time will tell that
>>768129189
How old are you?
if u r genitally mutilated (aka circumcised) that could explain it
>>768129277
I feel exactly this, my problem is that I don't even know where to start. I don't really like anything.
>>768129286
34.
>>768129440
I am not circumcised. I'm no racially impure jew.
I recommend the psychedelic drugs as well anon. If your life is simply boring you, and you're fed up with mundane same shit different day, psychedelics spice things up, make the world fresh again and provide you with a bit of a break from the perspective you lead your whole life having. I am late 30s, just came back from a very wild party weekend and feel completely refreshed and confident, with a real zest for life again. I'll have another one in mid summer. Generally 4 or so a year works for me.
maybe just watching degenerate hypocrisy overwhelm the world is taking it's toll on u like so many 4chaners
>>768129718
This. Lack of spiritual connectedness and fulfillment. Symptom of an American lifestyle so the speak. Take some sacred mirrors and reflect on the next step. The simple needs are met... now go deeper.
>>768129189
>Perhaps. My main problem is I don't seem to have any dreams or things that I'm passionate about. If I really got to choose anything in life, I would probably still sit here and shitpost about frogs and do the same shit every day.
>I have never understood how or why people are very passionate about things. The concept feels very alien to me somehow.
It's hard to IMAGINE yourself enjoying something new, since it's impossible to know in advance how will it feel like.
My advice would be to make yourself try new things for a while until you find something you enjoy. The passion comes afterwards.
>>768129718
Thanks for the tip. A wild party weekend sounds really horrible to be honest. I could do that when I was a kid and get the feeling you describe, but it would just fuck me up completely now.
>>768129932
Maybe. The world is fucked and there is nothing we can do about it. Just watch the fucker burn to the ground and try to enjoy the scenery.
Ennui
>>768126216
So you have no goal anon. Lost purpose of time. Find a hobby
>>768130095
Doesnt sound like youre too keen on the psychedelics. Dont knock em til you try em tho.
The other thing that gives my life some meaning and purpose is my kids, corny as I'm sure that sounds. That said, I still really feel the need to get away for a weekend of psychedelic craziness, prolly more so with the kids, as life just gets more busy and crazy with those fuckers running around. But maybe that would scratch your itch. It would most definitely disrupt your current rut.
>>768127891
"There is nothing wrong with me"
There u go. Theres your answer. Why waste your time making a thread saying theres nothing wrong with u?
>>768130328
>>768130095
Oh, or a sick vacation with your wife could do it. That always refreshes me. Go somewhere you've never been, see how people from a very different culture live and all that shit. really try to connect with people and learn how theyre life is different than yours. That also gives perspective in my experience.
>>768130052
But how do people find new things to do or come up with something to be passionate about?
I don't have the patience or time to try a lot of new things.
My ex gf wanted to try new things, travel and activities. I always did everything she came up with, but nothing stuck with me. I didn't dislike it but I didn't like it either. I was neutral.
>>768130328
My brother has a bunch of kids and my coworkers all have kids in all ages. The more I hang out with them or hear them talk about their kids, the more I dislike kids. I'm seriously considering getting a vasectomy just to never have to experience having kids.
>>768130437
I mean theres nothing seriously wrong with me, I would just feel stupid taking up their time when I can function in society.
>>768130514
I don't have a wife. Or anyone else to travel with. And I have travelled and met a lot of people from a lot of different cultures and seen the things I want to see in the world. It gave me nothing, unfortunately. I just don't care about what other people think or how they experience the world.
Every time it ended up the same. I got distracted while I was away, but when I got back the entire trip just feels useless.
>>768130940
Fuck man, I dont know what to tell you. Maybe you need some strange pussy. Thats always pretty uplifting. I had figured you were married, the way you made it sound like you were stuck in a rut.
>>768126216
Do you feel tired?
This can be the start of clinical depression. It's uncool.
>>768131203
Oh, sorry to disappoint. I'm not stuck in a rut, I don't want to do anything else or want my life to be different in any way. That's the thing that worries me, I have no reason to feel this way.
Pussy, or cock for that matter, doesn't really interest me. At least not outside of a genuine and loving relationship. I would never even think about having a one night stand. Doesn't matter with who.
>>768131353
I have felt tired for as long as I can remember. Or not tired, but being tired of everything.
I genuinely have no recollection of when I last felt real happiness. Or any other strong emotion for that matter.
>>768131751
How long have you been feeling like nothing matters, for me it comes in waves and usually passes after a few months
>>768132036
For as long as I can remember.
You need to find meaning in your life. You are comfortable but unfulfilled. Art, love, travel, psychedelic experiences, raising kids, these things all provide this need for me. Religion or spirituality works for a lot of people. I think you need to find what is going to give your life meaning. Good luck anon.
>>768127891
Psychologists aren't psychiatrists OP, you're not going to be treated like some research specimen. All jokes aside if this is seriously bothering you, speak to someone about it.
The immediate conclusion I'd jump to would be depression or some other depressive disorder, but you've explicitly mentioned not feeling depressed. Can you clarify any more what you mean by "I just feel like something/everything is wrong"?
>>768126216
this is how i found out i was a sociopath, is when i started to get feelings like this.
>>768132470
(contd.)
You mentioned that you don't recall the last time you felt real happiness, or any other emotion, in one of your recent responses. But in your OP you say you derive genuine enjoyment from some things; which is correct? Is the 'enjoyment' just superficial?
>>768126216
Does it feel like you're living after finishing a very interesting book/game/movie series? Like nothing brings you joy because this one did, but it ended.
>>768132368
Thank you anon. I will find happiness somewhere.
>>768132470
>Can you clarify any more
I can try.
It's like you laid a puzzle and every piece is correctly placed but the image is still nothing like the artwork on the box. Or it is basically like the artwork, but not really.
You know when you see something and your mind immediately reacts. Like one of those things where you have to compare two images and find the differences. You can see that it is the correct image, but something is off.
I don't feel like something is wrong, but more like something is not right.
>>768132774
The enjoyment I derive from all the things in my life are in themself enjoyable to me when they happen, but they do not contribute to my overall enjoyment of life. They don't give me enjoyment the way you mean it, they give me enjoyment in that they momentarily makes me forget the feeling that something is not right.
>>768133035
I feel like running around in Skyrim after having completed the main quest and every single faction quest. Yeah sure it's fun to kill a dragon here and there and maybe install some nude mod for fun, but you just run around and do all this because you have nothing better to do.
Yeh, those tits don't belong to you. You're a dude.
>>768126216
Do u have some pussy?