Anons post how truly fucked up things are rn either for them or for everyone.
>I wake every morning considering if its more painful to go to work than it would be to live on the streets again.
>>767955163
If I stop getting drunk every 7 hours I will end up in the hospital.
>>767955163
I straight up play with my gf's doo doo to nut
>>767955163
I started to enjoy working and I can't be bothered with all the problems chicks bring now. Every time I consider a relationship they remind me why I don't.
Eternal sadness is in my future.
>>767955163
you made me realize that i apparently have a stairs folder
>>767955636
i havent seen these since i saved them in 2010
>>767955623
Those stairs would trigger anyone who is right foot dominate.
>>767955623
The absolute degeneracy
>>767955708
the images are so small on my 4k monitor
>>767955684
nice stairs
>>767955623
Those stairs are shit. It forces you to only move in a certain style. What if youre one of those people that keeps their feet together and goes quickly
>>767955163
Ive decided to pick streets. But Germany because its safer then my country and I won't be recognised. Leaving this month.
>>767955815
some stairs are more dangerous than others
>>767955850
They give me shivers just looking at them
>>767955787
Dude you'd fucking break your legs on these things.
>>767955914
dunno why i saved this one really
>>767955808
>keeps their feet together and goes quickly
>>767956010
that's my stairs folder folks!
>>767955163
I stopped taking my blood thinners in the hopes that a clot forms, travels to my brain and kills me so that I don't have to deal with anything anymore. Ticking time bomb comes to mind.
>>767955163
I can't sleep anymore from the things I've seen, experienced.
The schizophrenic side effects of long term insomnia is a bitch. You can feel the madness creeping in on you. first it's subtle visual halucinations, then the auditory ones start.
After a while reality starts cracking, bit by bit. paranoia kicks inn, that cold lump in your chest starts to stick around longer then you'd care for. It's all downhill from that point.
>>767955808
>feet together and moving quickly on stairs
That's falling dude
>>767955163
What's your job? Like how bad can it be? Are you that lazy? Is it that hard to find an okay job?
>>767955600
Maybe you just dont want a relationship right now
there's other ways to have fuck
>>767956170
The job itself is fine, i work as a software test analyst. The people there are okay too and if my quartlery 121s are anything to go by im doing well. Nothing's awful about the job it's just i genuinely despise having to get up and go. It's a sense of dread and i have no idea why its there.
>>767955838
to where?
I've been alone so long I've forgotten how to talk to people
>>767955838
Try Sweden its also very safe for homeless and easy to make money busking
>>767955290
Siezures?
I'm am become meme
>>767956611
god damn it no, we dont need more of them here
everybody fucking hates these beggars and i dont even know how they get any money because nobody in this country actually use cash so nobody have change
>>767956615
Possible seizures, but mostly the uncontrollable vomiting, hallucinations, diarrhea, anxiety, heart palpitations, loss of motor function, confusion, etc.
>>767956709
>2018
>begging without an android credit card scanner and paypal NFC
>shiggydiggy
>>767956511
Leipzig. Revisit fond memories of when my life was better. Then when it get to be too much - an hero.
>>767956709
I feel too bad for Sweden. They have enough problems. Don't worry I'll stay away from your once noble land.
>>767956709
Yeah so people in Sweden take notes out and give them to buskers (I mean actaul street performers not Beggers but apparently they must get money somehow or they wouldn't be there) also im guessing you are well off because of your conservative attitude so for all you know poorer people use cash more and are more likely to give change cos they know the struggle
>>767955694
It's triggering me just thinking about it.
Fuck, I'm raging right now.
>>767955290
Please research the kindling effect if you haven't already.
>>767957319
thanks, we're working on fixing it
>>767957356
i make 700 USD per month, im broke as shit nigger
>>767957405
Biked through your country in better times. It was a nice place.
>>767957405
Thats about the same as me and I dont consider myself poor
>>767955163
Well my parents have both commited suicide, i had a half brother that had muscular distrophy and was basicaly a vegitable his hole life until he passed 2 yeats ago, i weigh over 350 pounds, love with my grandparents on gov money, never had a girlfriend, "friends" who backstab me every chance they get but i always forgive them becuz i dont what to be called friendless. Socialy akward and hopless. I consider killing myself on a daily basis and that im also a weight to everyone around me both literaly and metaphoricaly.
i work 60 hours a week and myake almost 3000 a month and im hardly making rent in my area im living out of a bed room and im considering living on the streets so i can at least afford food
>>767956048
>comes to mind
kek
>>767957230
based.
I miss my hobo days a bit. but most of the time i'd just get bored. You learn a lot about people because you see so many of them constantly in a state in which they don't want to be seen but have no choice. You learn what the locale really think of the poor and how they interact with them.
>>767957405
what are those those look amazing
>>767957487
it's not as bad as 4chan makes it out to be tho which is fine by me since it makes less foreigners try to move here
>>767957513
maybe 700 bucks is a lot on your country but over here you need 500 just to make rent and 1 package of milk is 2 bucks
>>767957751
kanelbulle, common fika here in sweden
My brother is a rapist, thief, liar, and most likely a sociopath and I live with him but if I disown him everyone I know disowns me.
>if murder was legal
>>767955163
I just moved back to Vegas, was homeless for the last 4 days, i got in contact with one of my old friends and he is at least letting me sleep on the floor thank fuck. I'm going to start looking for work tomorrow, and if i can't find anything in the next few weeks im going to turn myself in for warrants.
>>767957780
Fucking would love for snus to just be a trip to the shops away.
>>767957838
can't say no to free food.
>>767957780
Im in Scotland m8
>>767957780
Also doesn't Sweden have really good government housing and social security?
>>767957855
never tried it actually, my dad snusade and he's teeth is pretty yellow. i think biggest reason is that it saves money though, 1 snusdosa is around 7 USD i think
>>767957936
you can't compare yourself to people in some sand land, we're not rich where we live.
>>767958035
they dont buy me a house but yes if you're too poor to afford a place to live you can apply for financial support
>>767958052
Who said anything about sand land?
>>767958225
you seem to think you're rich so i assumed you compared yourself to someone in the third world. compared to people living on 2 bucks per month we're very wealthy.
>>767958142
Yeah thats what I do I get my rent pretty much paid for and all the money I have is social security because of mental illness
>>767958350
No im comparing myself to other people in glasgow compared to the rest of Europe and the uk my city is basically a 3rd world country
>>767955163
Im just suicidal nothing is wrong I just dont wanna be alive
>>767955850
Imagine moving something up or down those stairs...what the fuck.
>>767958485
ok i see. in sweden a common salary is 2250 USD after taxes
>I haven't ever worked in my life.
>I am too anti-social to seek work now
>I'm too poor to try to study something that would get me a job at the end.
>I can't get disability checks because my country doesn't believe mDID is a handicap at all
>My family doesn't believe I have it
>I don't take my pills at all nor visit my psychiatrist anymore, I smoke weed instead
And it could be worse, I guess.
I mean my mother could die tomorrow and I'd become a literal homeless while 26.
Yay me!
>>767958801
actually come to think about it, now at my age it's probably more common to be around 2750 USD. haven't really looked up any statistics
>>767955163
Fucking hell... no matter what site I visit to night, i some how stumble across pictures from last night's nightmare.
The lanky man inside the narrow staircase, telling me to continue walking up and hold his cold brass hand but to never touch the old woman in the wall.
A picture of an old japanese mask, appering at every level and always with a new more sinister expression, whisoering louder and louder.
The gaunt and huge dog, straight from a sadistic cartoon from the 40's contorting his limbs slowly following me, sometimes making eye contact,
telling me he is the bringer of vengeance from past souls.. No sleep for me I guess...
>>767958801
Fucking hell thats a lot of money,
Life hack; move to a poorer country to feel ritch
>>767959091
Its basically what Eastern Europeans do when they move to countries work for shit wages and then go back to their country with their savings and feel rich.
>>767959091
it's probably double in Norway. those lucky bastards and their oil and trillion dollar national fund
>>767959302
If my health ever improves so much that I can work im gonna save up enough money to buy a house here but fly to south Africa and buy one there and open some bars with the rest of the money
>>767959345
I should marry a cute norweigan twink then live off of him + social security
>>767955163
Im on a bus 6 literal landwhales got on and they all smell of feces
>>767955600
But is it? It might get lonely sometimes, but at least you can do whatever you want without getting attitude at every turn or living constantly subjected to passive aggressive abuse.
>>767959345
I was there. Nicest people I ever met but I could barely afford to breath. They were almost creepy they were so friendly and helpful.
>>767958871
Dude just get into some easy retail job, it will be reasonable income and force you to interact with people (but in a polite setting where you have to engage with them), you will become more professional, and it will be experience on a resume. Don't let not having worked hold you up, just start now you could be a manager by mid-30's trust me.
>>767960050
sweden have shielded them for too long =( they do not know the weight of the world!
>>767960024
If your ever lonely watch 90 Day Fiance. 5 minutes of watching those couples and you'll feel just fine being single.
>>767960099
Same fagging to say double dubs of truth.
>>767960099
If it was that easy I would have gotten a job before getting diagnosed with mDID, anon.
If I needed luck before that now I need a literal miracle, as Spain is heavily stigmatized against chronic mental issues.
Im not really as fucked up as most of you but I do think about suicide several times a day and have so for the last few years.
Mark 8:36
36 For what shall it profit a man, if he shall gain the whole world, and lose his own soul?
>>767960783
My advice to seek a real and heavy intervention now or prepare to just give in and end your suffering because the longer it goes on the more deep rooted and impossible to escape it will become.
>>767960622
Why be several people when u can just be anon
>>767961169
Im going to the doctor after this semester ends. Its the first time I've ever done anything about it.
>>767961359
Who is "Me"?
This me, or that me, or that other me...
At the end of day I'm just another thought process, so...
