Hey /b/, ask someone who has Depersonlization Disorder anything. Currently experiencing an episode so strike whilst the iron is hot
>>767827072
>Depersonlization Disorder
Go read/listen to the Bhagavad Gita.
That's the ideal state if you're educated enough. Otherwise it might be hell.
>>767827176
What's it about?
>>767827072
Your opinions on cookies?
>>767827072
what does the transition into the episode feel like?
>>767827072
do you fap`?
>>767827263
Usually? Awesome, I like chocolate cookies a lot. Currently? Nothing. Cookies are just processed wheat and sugar and I have no idea where those ingredients could have even come from or who eve made it. Also why are they round? It makes no sense
>>767827270
Trippy as hell and typically very quick and overwhelming, then I get really into it (not that I have a choice). And the fear goes away along with anything else
>>767827341
When I'm in the mood
>>767827072
>Depersonlization
*Depersonalization
>>767827478
Spelling is almost as inconsequential as the words they make up, I don't even know why words are why they are. Why did we specifically create the word specifically to mean what it means, why not use the word "car" to mean "specifically"? Words are interchangeable if we decide they should mean something else. Also yeah I noticed the spelling mistake after I posted
>>767827072
How do you /feel/ whenever you're in an episode? Is it severe? Does it depress you or just make you feel 'voided out?' Do you observe yourself? Do you feel like you're just not there or like you're controlling your body? Does it scare or calm you?
>>767827597
The answer to all of that is "depends". Sometimes it's so severe I wonder if I'm actually in a tv show, I once spent 15 minutes talking to the "audience" because what if I'm right. Typically it just is voided out, not too frightening, other times I worry that death is going to feel like this
how often do you experience an episode?
>>767827072
what kind of music do you like?
>>767827746
Roughly maybe 3 times a week? Sometimes less if I've been particularly busy, however whether I'm busy or not does not affect the severity
>>767827796
Right now? None. Music just reminds makes me feel like I'm going to float away. Typically? Not a specific genre, I like a bit of everything from Kendrick Lamar to Micheal Buble
>>767827588
>>767827736
Awww did someone get into daddy’s weed stash again? Go get the GameCube fired up anon, I’ll get the oven started.
>>767827072
I swear this isn't a real thing because I've got all the symptoms and I'm perfectly healthy in my brains.
Everyone gets this probably.
>>767828027
No, I've only tried weed once and it was meh. Also my father doesn't take drugs unless he's hiding it. I don't have a Gamecube but I do have an Xbox and a Nintendo Wii, also what are you going to prepare? I recognize the bait but you'd enjoy a reply and I don't currently have enough feeling to really mind that it's bait. Enjoy.
>>767828172
No, it currently is a registered mental disorder, most people do have experiences however I personally have these frequently and sometimes quite severely. It's convenient that you have a healthy brain though, good on you
>>767827256
>Hindu scripture recounting the conversation between Vishnu in the human form of Krishna and Arjuna, his dear friend on the battlefield of Kurukshetra
Chapter 15.5 - Those who are free from false prestige, illusion and false association, who understand the eternal, who are done with material lust, who are freed from the dualities of happiness and distress, and who, unbewildered, know how to surrender unto the Supreme Person attain to that eternal kingdom.
Bg 15.6 — That supreme abode of Mine is not illumined by the sun or moon, nor by fire or electricity. Those who reach it never return to this material world.
>>767828456
I recognize your gesture is sincere but I don't have any religious affinity, however if I do achieve enlightenment I'll let you know. For now I'll continue to sit in my room at almost 4 am and talk to anonymous people online until I'm convinced that I'm real again. Thanks anyway
>>767828172
You can achieve a similar effect using Xanax, Valium, Shrooms, Marijuana.
Some people just get thrown into the effect naturally.
>>767828653
We lucky few I guess
>>767828567
No prob. It's a decent read tho.
If one were to sensibly imagine a supreme deity, it would definitely be along the lines described in the gita.
>>767827072
i wasnt aware that depersonalization was a seperate disorder than schizophrenia. I suffer from both and now its even scarier that both separately have gotten worse. how far do you go man? Do you even feel like yourself at all?
>>767827072
Have you ever tried Psychedelic drugs? They have any sort of effect on the depersonalization/derealization symptoms?
>>767828456
i like this . how does the bhagvita discuss suffering and personal pains that are gone but always lingering?
>>767827072
Hey dude. I suffered from this for years thinking I'd never make it out, and I eventually did. I don't even wanna think about the hell you're going through right now.
Shit gets fuckin better. It gets better
>>767828972
Sometimes I go far enough that when I feel normal again I get pretty afraid. Like I said to someone earlier I once spoke to no one in my house alone because at the time I was so detached that I wondered if I were in a tv show, so I tried communicating with "the audience" only to of course realize afterwards there never was one. I don't feel like myself everytime though, including this time. I just feel like I'm in my own body but it's not me doing anything, I'm just giving commands that "my" body is following
>>767829031
I haven't, and whilst I have nothing against those who do I have no interest in it myself
>>767829247
i wish i didnt sympathize with this. this hurts. how old are you, how long has this been going on.
>>767829182
thanks for the support, I'll appreciate it later when I have feelings again. First started experiencing at 15, now currently 18, you can imagine I'm a blast at parties. It would be more convenient for it to stop soon, yeah
>>767829318
currently 18, first started around 15, so almos t4 years aprox 3 times a week
>>767829377
oh you're only 18. hell man. Get control of it now, because unlike what anon said, it gets worse. so much worse.
>>767829470
I can imagine it gets worse if I allow it to, however as Anon said it will get progressively better if I act accordingly. You're both right. You're arguably both wrong. C'est la vie, I'll try
>>767829377
Let me tell you: I did not come out of it the same person. I chalked it up to my brain saying "fuck your decided way of doing things". Taking charge is what tipped things for me eventually. Developed a bit of an anger problem but man was being angry better than being apathetic.
Are you largely sedentary? Smoke herb? Both of those things will keep you in that hole from my experience.
>>767829470
Why are you talking to him like he's an idiot? As though he hasn't experienced it getting worse already? Catastrophizing things never helped you, did it faggot? I thought I was never going to get out of it alive. OP needs to fuckin hear it's possible. Get the fuck out
>>767829802
Nah I don't smoke and I attend Uni full time as well as being busy on Saturdays so I'm up and about every day bar Sunday. I have that as a "me day"
do you feel empathy
>>767830181
Usually, yes definitely. When I'm experiencing an episode, no. Not to say that I could just sit and comfortably watch someone murder a dog, I would probably just wonder where the dog would be going afterwards and consider it's death a waste that should not have happened
>>767829802
im 28 years old and dealing with this since i was roughly 16 as far as i recall. it gets worse in my experience.
>>767829144
> Chapter 13.21 — Nature is said to be the cause of all material causes and effects, whereas the living entity is the cause of the various sufferings and enjoyments in this world.
If I were to oversimplify: being conscious and interacting with nature/life presents us with the grand opportunity to suffer greatly and to enjoy 'things'.
> Chapter 18.12 — For one who is not renounced, the threefold fruits of action – desirable, undesirable and mixed – accrue after death. But those who are in the renounced order of life have no such result to suffer or enjoy.
Again confirming that action(which you are forced to do by the very nature of being alive) causes suffering and enjoyment.
However, the balance of suffering and enjoyment is skewed to suffering, almost at a default. So, conscious action must be taken to mitigate the level of suffering; renouncing.
The renounced state, oversimplified, is the frame of mind where you're concerned with acting 'correctly' and not concerned about the results.
Chapter 18.23 — That action which is regulated and which is performed without attachment, without love or hatred, and without desire for fruitive results is said to be in the mode of goodness.
>>767830283
You just said that. Repeating it is only stressing you and him out. It's thought processes like the one you just went down that keeps you in the hole anon.
It's irresponsible to give advice on this if you haven't figured it out for yourself first. That's like asking a lifetime meth addict how to quit meth. Does not compute my dude.
>>767830000
If you don't mind my asking are you passive in nature? I'm trying to find parallels to maybe give insight
>>767830734
Define passive
>>767830589
you know what, you're right. My advice isnt advice, for me its just a reality that i live with. I had every opportunity, but never once was pushed into it. My help told me i didnt need help, but i never realized how depresseive and shitty my situations were. Now im a psychotic mess and i cant even understand how i got to this point, and there is no help for me now. so excuse me if i speak out of turn
>>767830779
Non confrontational. Self deprecating. Brushing off attacks on you.
>>767830996
No, I don't seek confrontation but I'll do it, I make jokes about everyone and myself equally and I don't let people walk over me.
>>767831082
It's gonna take more than a quick 4c post to get to the bottom of this /:
I was never diagnosed myself but looking back god I wish I had gone to therapy. Are you certain what you're dealing with is depersonalization?
>>767830972
Don't give up anon. Ego is good when you don't have one. You're absolutely catastrophizing things because you've got something akin to depersonalization shellshock. I do the same thing and it's because of my anxiety.
I'm afraid I'm the one being irresponsible by suggesting anything other than therapy to both of you guys as my experience is anecdotal. I wish you both the best of luck. Sincerely
>>767827588
Yeah, from now on we can use the word "car" to mean "specifically" between the two of us, but if we want anyone else to understand us, we need to use the popular words.
>>767827380
they're round because when poured, the liquid wants to fill as much space as possible, but due to thickness, stops at a certain point. the liquid pours out in a uniform fashion, giving it a round shape.
>>767827072
Can I please get your input on this:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zqIt93dDG1M&t=258s
Were you abused?
