>Be me, a year ago. 21.
>Girl joins the same rocket jumping server I'm on in Team Fortress 2
>Within two sentences of conversation we're already talking like two hopeless flirts in high school
>Play for hours on my private jump server just casually talking about anything
>I felt no attachment to her at the time; I was at a point where I had given up dating and women entirely
>Was just nice to have someone to talk to, shared common interests
>We add each other on Steam, say good night, and both log off
>Fast forward six months. We hadn't spoken since, but remained on each others' friends list
>See her start playing Grand Theft Auto V
>"Hey, shit I didn't even know you owned that. Sup"
>Like we didn't even skip a beat. We just immediately started talking again
>I let her know I'm strictly against any online dating; we may like each other but that's all it's going to amount to if we don't actually meet face to face
>She agrees, and we continue our friendship
>Fast forwards several more months
>She pays for her own plane ticket to visit. We get a hotel room (for privacy; I live with 3 other people)
>I take her virginity. Her hymen ripped, and she stops mid-sex to go into the shower, crying
>She comes out 45 minutes later, still crying. Says that it scared and hurt her
>I try to explain that's what losing your virginity is like (I've popped many cherries. I was 6'5'' in high school)
>Ignores me, but is still very affectionate.
>Round two, she endures it. Ends up enjoying it
>Turns out she really likes sex. Likes being choked, being pinned, etc.
>Plenty to be had, but all good things must come to an end.
>We're fucking gay as hell towards each other, unable to stop holding hands/kissing, etc.
>Every day we're in Discord chatting. Already have another trip planned for a few months down the road when we have money saved up for the hotel
>Fast forward to the trip itself. Nearly 11 months have passed since we first began talking in Grand Theft Auto V
>My birthday is 3 days away.
>We have sex the first night
>She seems very into it
>Blood on the sheets & blankets because she's still rather new at this, doesn't even use a dildo at home. Barely uses her fingers
>Afterwards, she tells me she had to force herself
>Doesn't want to have sex if all that accompanies it is pain and discomfort
>Try to explain to her that she's barely had sex half a dozen times; it's not like the shit she reads in her manga or in porno where the girl is wailing by just inserting the tip
>She has none of it
>Whenever I confront her about it, she simply proclaims that she's "content" and that I'm just living in the honeymoon phase
>"Sex isn't all it's been cracked up to be. I just don't want to have any"
>She was still all over me the last time this happened, with the first time being a much worse, more painful outcome
>No direct answer, just shrugs it off or changes the subject without every answering me about why she's lost interest in our relationship
>Becomes even more distant. We're a week into this trip. On her phone 95% of the time. I chauffer her practically everywhere, taking her on dates, trying to spark conversation like we used to have
>None of it. The conversation dies within a paragraph.
>No kissing, no holding hands, no physical contact whatsoever.
>Might as well just be back on Discord, it's practically equivalent of just mutely being in a call with her.
>Confront her yet again, tell her that if there's not going to be any sex nor physical contact whatsoever, then it'll never work.
>Blames me for "ignoring her" for the months leading up to the trip.
>I didn't, was in a call with her 5-6 days of the week, for hours at a time
>When I couldn't call, I was texting her nonstop. I was working overtime to help pay for the trip expenses and the dates.
>Scoffs and shrugs it off again
>I let her know my stance. I don't care if there's not going to be sex on this trip.
well you said you weren't into online relationships. this is the reason why. just talking online isn't the same as really getting to know someone. that being said, you fucked her a few times and tried. just give up trying be with her obviously she's not into it and it sounds super awkward.
>(I've popped many cherries. I was 6'5'' in high school
If you made a bunch of girls bleed then you gave them a lot of shitty sex because you're a big lumbering nerd who doesn't know what he's doing
Yep. She doesn't look it, but she's actually hot shit at the vidya. Masters in Overwatch and is on an invite level in Team Fortress 2 competitive.
Pretty sure it's the latter. S'why I'm posting this overlong greentext bullshit.
>"I get it. 'Moods' happen. Periods happen."
>Reminder, we're nearly 9 days into this trip at this point
>"But that's no excuse when you blatantly ignore me and give me the cold shoulder for over a week."
>"This is the small window we actually get to physically be with each other, and you're pissing it away by feeding me bullshit"
>Zero change in emotion
>I remain silent. I'm almost certain she's cheating at this point. I want to trust her, but at the same time I don't want to risk accusing her of anything. I still haven't
>Decide to just leave it alone, with one closing statement
>"Look. You know my stance on things. I'll ride out the storm, but I can't do it forever. Just know that if this 'mood' of yours permanent, I'm breaking it off. Even sooner if I find out you're cheating. Permanently"
>Carry on for the remainder of the trip (~5 days). Still chauffer her around, take her out, show her my hometown, try and make conversation, etc. None of it works.
>She flies home
>Here I am, now. Had sex once over the course of two weeks, not once on my birthday (Apr. 28th), and neglected the remainder. I don't care about the sex, just the connection. I'm a faggot, I know, but shut your cunt mouth, fucker.
>She's in Team Fortress 2 with her "friends" right now. Won't talk to me.
Probably going to. I'm giving some thought as to how I should go about it.
We did. For nearly two hours. She *says* she loved it, and that it helped. We used lube. I'm not a porn star, but I know my way around a woman for the most part. She was plenty wet, as well.
Fair point. But that's what high school is for, learning your way around.
Also, I'm not hung, but I'm not small either. I've had plenty of virgins bleed, even with significant foreplay.
Pic related, her again. Roughly two weeks before she visits.
I'm a faggot and still have her profile in my description with a gay-ass little heart.
I'll stay anonymous for this. Otherwise a bunch of cunts will start adding her and posting screencaps of this thread.
Nah. One of our first conversations was about our sexual preferences.
I don't fuck with bi or trans. Mental health issues are a turnoff.
Seconded, but she's genuinely the first girl that shares my interest in vidya. Seriously, I have 2,400 hours in Team Fortress 2. She has 3,500.
I've got to get some sleep, but I'll post a few more pics before I head off.
she's obviously autistic. just be happy you took her virginity. online things never last or end well. but to get them to fuck you that's an accomplishment. requesting more pics.
She's 34DDD. Triple D.
Don't have any. Only screencaps of our Discord calls when she got on camera to tease me.
I didn't record any videos while we were fucking. We were fucking, and I need both hands.
One to choke her, one to smack her ass/hold her in place/grab her tits/play with her clit/etc.
Nope, not her.
Just typing all this shit out makes me pissed as hell. I'm betraying her trust by posting these photos, while simultaneously complaining about how she's (maybe) betraying mine.
I love her, as gay as that sounds. Especially after all that I've said about her and how she's being a cold-hearted bitch about all of this.
If this doesn't work out, it'll be a long-ass time before I find another girl like her.
Here's one last photo before I knock out.
>letting her pay for her trip
>was working overtime to help pay for the trip expenses and the dates.
There you have your error. As soon as she knows youre reliable to push her efforts towards you she got you.
First off, my condolences. It sucks when you actually have some connection (more than just sex), but something fucks the whole thing up.
That said, this is why I hate virgins or newly deflowered girls. If I find that they're new to the game, I'm out. Seriously. The few virgins/nearly virgins that I've had were terrible. Having a girl that knows what she likes and has moves that make your eyes roll back in their sockets is the best.
So (and sorry to be an asshole), my advice is simple. Cut it off now and don't look back. Even if she starts showing signs of affection, you'll be wondering if it's honest or if she's putting forth a "brave face." End it, don't go through the training and the second-guessing.
You're right. There never has to be blood and if there is then he fucked up. Problem is this site is loaded with virgins or guys with little to no sexual education. They just listen to older generations. Keep fighting the good fight though.
I feel like if we go any further on this it'll be a circle jerk but yeah. OP sounds like he hasn't learned a damn thing from all his "high school experience" and in all likelihood is a two pump chump who rolls over after he cums and doesn't know fuck all about a womans sexual needs.
On a quick walk.
She paid for the plane ticket & hotel. I paid for everything else.
Dates, shopping for dresses I'd hoped I'd fuck her in, jewelry, candy, shitloads of sushi, several dinners, gas for chauffering her around, etc.
I just might have to. I'm going to give it more thought, though.
Endurance isn't my issue. It's usually the height difference; a lot of positions are difficult to manage without one party being uncomfortable. I also have a tendency to hurt the girl during sex (throwing her around, up against walls, pinning her, etc.). I've left bruises on many of my partners.
I main Engineer but usually play Soldier or Medic. Funnily enough, she actually knows Uncle Dane as a personal friend.
She mains Roamer (Soldier/Scout) or Medic. She's played with b4nny many times.
It's mostly for the RGB bullshit and macros. As for the botnet and NSA's operating system, I couldn't give a damn.
First of all, that sucks. Secondly, I would really say just kind of break it off at this point, man. If she's not putting in any effort to even SPEAK to you then it's not worth worrying over. If you were to keep trying I'd say you're really just dragging her along.
It takes two for any relationship to work, even if it's just a friendship and she's for whatever reason no longer interested in making it work :/