So the secret is I was abused as a kid. Not that big a deal for a btard plus I've told you my story before. Not gonna bore you with the details.
So I thought I was doing ok with. Hate being touched, haven't had sex in over decade, no interest in it and comfortable with the fact I'll probably never touch another person ever again.
So tonight, at a party a couple started getting it on. No idea who they were. One minute they were kissing in the kitchen, next minute they we're fucking on the sofa right in front of everyone. She was fucking hot and had awesome tits. Lots of people about, strangely enough not many we're paying attention. But it really freaked me out, it actually triggered me. Instantly took me back to my childhood and I just crashed. I wasn't turned in, just had to get out of the asap.
Fucked off real quick and now feel really weird. All this shit from my childhood has coming flooding back. I feel cold. Seeing them has really affected me more than I thought it would.
I've tried to have sex as an adult. But I can't. I can't stay hard, I hate the smell and feel of skin. It just seems completely unnatural to me.
I've been told I'm good looking and a female friend said to me just last week 'you could get any woman you want', but I just don't want to go there.
I know it's all related to years of abuse, just don't wanna try unraveling it.
I am a proud pacifist. Unlike the wussies who identify with me, I am a naturally violent person and a skilled former fighter. Years of peace made me a marshmallow but I still have the skill to hurt people badly. As my body degrades, I put an infinite level of violent "what if" situations through my mind. I kind of hope to hurt someone badly as a pacifist and shocking everyone while, in shame, breaking my peace streak.
The anti-depressants don't really work, but they make it feel nice when I yawn, so I keep on taking them.
Also I sometimes wonder if my wife would leave me if she knew I am taking them.
>not cum inside....
>not cum inside...
>finally not cum inside.
>cum on pubic bone.
I sometimes imagine being in a relationship with another woman I met on here despite being in a loving relationship already. Shes absolutely gorgeous, they both are, but the fantasy girl has looks that drive me wild.
This all happened when we ( me and female cousin) were 14. She stayed over for a night, became a regular thing after a while, like twice to three times a week.
One night a thunderstorm had her whimpering in the living room (sleeps on couch) and I went out to calm her down (parents slept heavy, room on other side of house). I was in a beater/boxers, we turned on the television to take her mind off storm, after cuddling for a while, I relaxed and with her pressed against me I got hard pretty fast.
A few moments of awkward bad jokes later we ended up in a 69, finished with her facedown/ass up and me dumping the heaviest, most satisfying load in my life into her pussy.
We banged for about a year like I said until it came out that her uncle-in-law was molesting her. I feel bad that she went through it but we were insanely close and that went ten fold when we started fucking.
I feel bad but a perverted part of me was glad she got to have consensual sex with some one that actually gave a fuck about her.
I'm in a long term relationship and I've been dreaming about fucking other guys. None of them are any men I've ever met and most are celebrities.
It's not like I'll cheat or anything but I've been head over heels for my bf for years so these dreams are stressing me out and making me wonder if my unconscious mind is trying to tell me I'm uninterested In me now...i don't feel that way but the dreams disturb me
In him now*
Also started to notice that I've initiated sex less. I've never once denied any of his advances but I know i used to be the one initiating more and he was the less active one...now I feel like it's suddenly turning.
It's all freaking me out. I adore him and I'm terrified that my own mind and body is trying to pull away from him
I know that is never cheat on him though. If it were to come down to it. Is rather break up rather than stay and do shady shit. I respect him way too much to insult him like that.
Buy even then the thought of me having sex with another guy (not dreaming) makes me grossed out.
And the thought of leaving him basically makes me want to throw up
Lol you can keep saying "whore" all you want but like i said...its not gonna make me magically feel like one. I'm not and i don't feel like one at all.
Now if I had questionable actions in my waking moments then maybe "whore" might be the right word.
But in the waking world..for all the years I've been with him, I've never even flirted with a guy nor had thoughts of other men and I know that's not changing.
I'm just worried that my subconscious mind is trying to tell me that the relationship is dying...granted I don't feel like it is but I've never had these dreams before
buddy, you have seriously misplaced emotions about that femanons plight. they're only dreams and they're actually worrying her that she may be losing interest in her boyfriend and the first thing your mind jumps to is "whore"?
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>I dream so much about cheating on my boyfriend but I'm not a whore
Okay cupcake, whatever helps you sleep at night.
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>Yea once again. Dreaming of cheating on him would be me in the dream knowing that I'm in a relationship with him and having sex with men anyway.
He doesn't exist in my dreams so I'm not cheating on anyone lol
You try too hard to insult a girl online haha. It makes you super cringy.
hehehe you can't fool me ;)
honestly though, I would but last she and I talked was on good terms and she may lurk from time to time. if she somehow found out, that would suck. she got nicely sized tiddies too. slavic as well.
I have had so many Long distance relationships it's crazy... I'm 21 and I haven't really had a serious relationship with anyone in person, but I might meet someone soon, and I might fuck someone at the end of this semester hopefully. Currently talking to a couple females but not as much as before. I'm getting one girl to break up with her baby daddy of 3 years because he treats her like shit.
One female talks to me because shes into my whole Dominant thing
Another girl (Asian) is 27 probably my oldest bad ass female actually said her brother lives like an hour from me so I'll be meeting her once she goes out to see him.
I have major issues...
I used to anonymously "invite" a bunch of ghetto guys to my friends (who were girls) parties back in highschool, They never knew how these guys knew about these parties but once in a while some girls went to the bed room with them, I used to jerk off thinking about how all these white girls I knew were turning into BBC sluts
I screenshot my sisters snaps and post them in hopes of people saving and fapping to them.
>at a party a couple started getting it on. One minute they were kissing in the kitchen, next minute they we're fucking on the sofa right in front of everyone.
I've never been to a party where anything remotely like this would happen, and I'm sure I never will. And I'm glad about that. It's completely degenerate. I don't think I've even seen a prolonged kiss at a party.
I suppose if you are young or poor or both and there's nowhere else for you to be intimate, you have to do it at parties? idk. Just fucking weird.
what kind of wife would leave her husband because he was taking anti-depressants?...I guess if they weren't prescribed for you, but otherwise, wow, if she's really that kind of person, it's no wonder you are depressed.
Different anon chiming in.
I've been to a party where basically everyone started making out with each other and feeling on each other.
It got weird we had a chair that if you say on it basically almost everyone was kissing you and running on you.
I was pushed into the chair and had guys and girls all over me. I was buzzed and everyone at the party was attractive so I didn't mind too much except for one UGLY ass dude that wa desperately trying to kiss me and shit and I was turning away from him and I remember the other chuckling about it.
Some people even went upstairs to hook up and I headed upstairs with a friend of mine and this girl to (what I could only imagine might have been a potential 3way) luckily there was no room to take.
I'm actually glad there wasn't. I was drunk and part of me knew I was being pressured into it when I knew sober me would not have been cool with it.
Parties can get weird sometimes...
3 days later I got super sick from making out with a random bitch there.
Yeah it was weird. I've never been anywhere where that happened out in the open. You know people fuck at parties but always in a bedroom or a quiet part of the garden.
They were just brazen about it and funny thing is when it was happening I thought they would probably post on /b/ later tonight about how much they like to fuck in public.
I don't think there'd be any kind of sexual component to it. A completely shallow person, for sure, but even then it would have to be a combination of shallow and dumb, or shallow and callous, or something.
Anyway, no being supportive of your spouse who is clearly in a state of need, is pretty fucked up.
When I was single I'd casually hook up with guys. It was never a big deal for me. I never really had much emotion towards them let alone love and it was never like I NEEDED sex. I just had it when I felt up for it so I never considered myself "sexually driven"
Though meeting my bf years ago changed all that. I don't know what it was but he really got me hooked on him and I've been loyal to him all these years later and I'm extremely affectionate to him even now.
So that's why I'm sure cheating on him wouldn't even happen. Not only do I have undying love for him...im just not sexually driven in the first place
>tipping evolves to slamming the fedora on the table
Careful, you're out of breath already, you may want to calm down before you stroke out.
It means put the fedora down
Everyone is whining, just look for the signs - I couldn't care about the light beer, the frosted tips, or the no-doubt exclusively missionary lovemaking that took place, sounds like a phenomenal time... maybe...
Yeah! If he's not drinking beer and hunting for their food he is nothing! He should be waking up at 4am to go chop down trees to keep her warm, shooting guns in the air because that's his right, he's a man, he was a Marine, so he's on a higher plane of existence than the rest of us, if you can't dismantle a truck or punch a bear in the face you're nothing, if my flag touches the ground I'm GOING to kill you
If you come to take my guns I will end you, in my lifted Ford F-350 I'm coming for you, with a double barrel shotgun in one hand and a chicken-fried steak in the other, the last sound you'll hear is the Zac Brown Band, I'm a nationalist, that's what I do, I build doublewide trailers and beer coolers with my bare hands, that's the kind of man I am, I was in the military so you should be scared of me, the only things in my house are Bibles and boxes of 5.56mm ammunition
Oh I'm not whining about the party I was at. Anon stated how he had a hard time believing stuff like that happens at parties so I just thought I'd chime in and tell him that shit does indeed happen.
I'm not saying it was a horrible experience for me but it certainly made me feel a bit dirty...which honestly is sort of hard to achieve
My mom is a cougar and started showing it more in the last two years, ever since I am 18. She brings over her young fuckfriends and doesn't give a fuck about if I'm home or not. Tried confronting her about it but she told me I can simply move away if it bothers me
had sexual relations with both of my younger sisters one when we were very young which lasted 5 or 6 years. From when I was 12 and she was 9 until early puberty.
The other was 14 and I was 21. I didn't fuch the 14 yo because it went too far for me but she did ask me too back then even wrote me a letter asking me to fuck her. Which actually saved me going to jail because she years later claimed I raped her. True story
Im really slutty, i love thinking about sex and id probably fuck half of my town already if my pussy weren't looking so gross
I don't have sex only bc my pussy. Bf thinks im a vigrin bc i m waiting for the right man etc but the truth is i just don't want anyone to look at it
My bf told me that he only wants pink cute pussy, so i don't wanna disappoint him. I love him and i wanna have first time with him but i feel really unattractive bc of that. Im savings money for surgery. Also, i broke my hymen when i was masturbating for the first time (or trying to do it) but he thinks i will bleed and he will feel pooping it
In a relationship for 18 years married for 15 - 2 kids - wife bipolar not fully coming to term with that, not taking her medicine regularly, bery abusive towards me when in high gear. Helped her first times - now i'm full a her shit. Never cheated in 17 years although she's not good in bed. For last year I had 3 other relations - i've been with a married women, her husband knowing that I was at their home - fucking his wife, I have been with another one who cried from the orgasms I gave her and last one still going who's the best sex partner I ever had. Give me a reason to continue the home psychic abuse. I hate myself for becoming a cheater and for accepting the verbal abuse for so long. So here it is
Are you a troll or just underage?
I'm asking because no girl is this stupid about her own vagina.
If you are...you and your bf need to pick up a book and learn a bit abo it how vaginas look and work....
Thanks anon. Appreciate the advice. Honestly with what I saw tonight and my reaction to it, plus your suggestions to get therapy- I think I have to. Don't think I have a choice.
I will honestly make enquiries on Monday. In my country if you get raped as a kid you qualify for free counselling. Probably time I maned up. Just not looking forward to sitting on a couch telling some lesbian about my feelings and shit.
here, she's 45
I do, quite often. as said, she doesn't even try to hide it a bit
How im stupid about it?
Maybe i can explain it to him, but i don't know if he is going to believe me. I don't want him to thinks that i fooled him for the rest of his live.
Its not his fault that only nice pussies are getting him turned in
I'm dying soon because of all the alcohol I drank over the years! I don't want to go to the doctor anymore because I want to die! I can't tell this to my friends...
Many sorts of depressions and stuff all the time! Lost my job because of the depressions! I'm not allowed to work anymore! Doesn't matter what I do, it's getting worse and worse in my life!
I know my friends will understand why I don't want to live anymore, but they won't accept it
Your boyfriend sounds like a grade-A dick. Dump his sorry ass, and find someone who loves you for what you are. You don't need surgery, you need a guy whose standards for what a pussy looks like isn't formed from browsing /b for lolicon.
Oh fuck right off. I'm in a happy relationship, I'm not here to suck up to anyone. Stop trying to blame your failure to pull a gf on society. It's nothing but your own dipshittery that keeps you from getting laid.
She's mediocre. She hasn't spread much which is disappointing but also probably good
Ever acted on it or seriously considered acting on it? Where do you think yours stems from?
I'm on the same boat. Grew up with a cute young girl, me being a kid but a few years older. I'd play doctor with her and do things. She'd be rambunctious as well and initiate tongue kisses and such. She was probably abused or at least saw her parents going at it. Never really grew out it entirely. I wouldn't identify myself as a full blown pedo since that isn't the only thing that gets me off, but I have tendencies.
I've wanted to fuck my adopted sister for years. Pic related.
Damn straight anon, small and tight is my jam for sure. Did you ever try anything on her? Ever creeped on her or stole nudes?
Is it also safe to assume you're not Asian? Just out of curiosity.
I've never acted on it. I think it stems from two different things tbh. 1.) My Dad's side has a history of pedos. My Dad is a hebephile and my grandfather is a pedophile. The reason why I know is because both of them have acted out on their desires and were caught. 2.) I used to be really close with this girl from preschool to 2nd grade and when our friendship ended I never really got over it. I was the one mostly at fault because I acted like an idiot and I would annoy my class and my teachers. What ended up breaking our relationship was when she started hanging out with this one guy who clearly liked her. Once I confronted her about it we stopped talking and I haven't seen her in years. To this day I can't stop thinking of her.
I have a gf, and I really, really love her. but I still go to gay places because I live to suck some dick and also I love when my asshole get stretched and fucked really hard.
sex with gf is nice, too... but I need these as well in my life, for now.
Im white. We kissed once. Never talked about it again. I beat off to that kiss more than anything else. Pic is us.
Interesting to see some similarities. I wonder if simply "not getting over it completely" is common amongst pedos/hebes. Would you consider yourself full pedo or does other stuff do it for you too?
That's weird hearing about it possibly running in the family on your father's side. I wonder if there's some real chemistry going on there or if it's just a fat coincidence. Maybe you hearing about them triggered something inside of you and it doesn't necessarily run in your blood...?
I think I'm lucky being that pedo isn't all I am. And I don't really find kids attractive. In the rare occasion I'll just notice an especially cute girl or something.
Well Godspeed man. You've got one hell of a cute stepsister. You should really consider that creep/hidden cam stuff. It's pretty much the only way, besides possibly ruining yourself doing it the old fashioned way, of seeing her naked.
Are we talking full on passionate kiss or just a quick family peck? If the first option, what brought it up?
Dated a girl who had a 9yo daughter. They shared a bed. One night while we were fucking, she pulled my dick out for a money shot. It ended up in her daughter's face. I was embarrassed, but then my gf kicked the cum off her daughters face while she was still asleep. I broke up with her the next day.
In the summer, I go on to crowded buses, find some teens with big asses and grope them. I get turned on by the fact that they are probably to embarrassed to react and are not enjoying it at all.
My wife's little sister visited us last weekend and after we got home from a bar my wife went to bed. me and her sister stayed up to drink more. We ended up kissing and then things escalated. She sucked my dick. I ate her out. Then we fucked. She left a few days later. We have spoken about it. My wife has no idea. Pic is from the bar. Wife on left her sister is on the right.
We made out. We were both getting home late from our flights going home for Christmas. I waited up for her since I got in late anyways. She got in. I helped take her bags to her room. We hugged. Then we just looked at each other. Felt this strong tension. And kissed for a good minute. Then she said she wanted to go to sleep. Next morning acted like nothing happened. We never brought it up again. That happened this past Christmas.
My age of attraction ranges from 4-35ish but my preference is girls age 8-12. I've also thought about looking up cp but honestly I'm too scared that I'll get caught. I want to see a therapist but I'm scared of my parents finding out or some other shit happening. I've met some other pedos before in an online group but I left after I felt like something strange was going on.
Damn, that sucks man. You probably had a decent chance to slay her if you took a little more initiative that night.
Clearly, there's at least a little something there in her about you.
I think it was worth it. My wife is 30 I'm 32. Her sister is 23. Her body was fucking tight. It was incredible. I came really fucking hard because she was so fucking slutty and tight. Her body is really fucking nice. My wife is beautiful but I'm also used to her.
I was raped by a close friend at 15. The experience was fucking horrible and I still have PTSD from it but what's so fucked up is that it was the wettest I've ever been and he made me cum harder than anyone I've been with consensually. I still think about it when I masturbate.
This is going to sound awful but DO NOT seek professional help, at least from a therapist. There have been a handful of posts over the years of pedos saying they sought help only to have their lives ruined when the therapist reported them to the police. There is no law preventing this, patient confidentiality gets thrown out the window when they feel serious about what you're talking about. I don't remember the specifics but somewhat recently someone posted here about that. They claimed to have a happy middle class life with wife and kids. Got arrested, lost his job, and wife fled with the kids and probably got a divorce. This happened in the US so your results may vary.
If you need to talk to someone about it, I recommend venting online. Anonymity is a powerful tool my friend. And for the love of humanity don't act on it. The last thing you want to do is fuck up a child's life over some urges. If it gets bad, look into getting one of those loli sex dolls or at least an onahole or something.
My gf is great. She's loyal and I took her virginity.
But she's also a SJW and Hispanic. It's always minority this and minority that. It's really annoying. I wish I could leave and just date a white girl, someone with a similar upbringing that won't make me feel like shit simply for being a white guy
I feel like I will end up in a marriage I don't want and kids I resent because they will be a "minority" instead of normal, White all-American kids.
I hate my life sometimes
There's a reason why women having rape fantasies is a thing. Taboo mixed with primal urges of getting stuffed my unknown men, or something like that.
How old was your friend? Are they still a part of your life?
I didn't want to be raped or ever want it to happen again. I've been through enough therapy to know now that your body reacts in certain ways to protect you and one way is extremely heightened arousal. I fucking hate my attacker but psychologically I can't get how good that feeling was out of my head. I know it's hard to understand for some people but that's what it is.
That's some grade A garbage they fed to you.
Enjoy the bills but they only gave you psychology mumbo jumbo to help you mask that it was the best you've ever had and you can't accept it.
He was 17. We stopped talking and hanging out. Of course everyone blamed me for being a bitch and cutting him out for no reason because I never told anyone the real reason I stopped talking to him. Everyone called me a stuck up bitch. I was suicidal. It was really fucked up. I did a lot of dangerous shit after all of that.
You have the rest of your life ahead of you man. Do you realize how long that is? After this, you'll be in a void of non-existence. Don't ruin it by forcing yourself to stay with someone who you not only clash with ideologically, but looks down on you because of your skin color. If she's serious about her SJW bullshittery then she'll have you on a leash of disrespect.
Along with that, do you really want to breed with that and make more SJW problems?
I mean, hearing her used as a slut makes me hard as fuck even though I disapprove it. hearing a guy my age taking her is weirdly hot
Good for you anon, get that white pussy and make some beautiful white babies with her. Fuck the kike paid shills here telling you are bad for wanting white kids.
White babies are best babies
Similar thing happened to me in college when I was 19. I was raped by two guys at a party.
They got me alone and took turns holding me down while the other raped me. I fought really, really hard, but they were both stronger than me.
The worst part is they noticed I liked it. I was super wet by the time the 2nd guy had his turn. He noticed and told me I liked it. I was really ashamed.
About a week later I masturbated to it and came harder than I ever had from masturbating. And like you, I still do.
>look into getting one of those loli sex dolls or at least an onahole or something.
I wish I could get one but I still live with my parents and I'm probably going to stay with them for a good 8 to 10 years until I finish college. I have to tough it out for now. :(
What's stopping you from trying your luck and straight up telling her that you find her attractive? Tell her you want to take her for a spin. Surely it'll be easier for someone like her to actually consider it due to her bringing in guys your age.
Along with that, you have the ability to set up cams any time you want. Why haven't you at least explored that option? GoPros are cheap, can be activated remotely through wifi, and can be ready to record on standby for hours if you hook it up to an external battery pack.
I don't care what you call me. That word as lost all meaning in today's world. I don't think there's anything wrong with wanting to be with people like you.
>you'll be in a void of non-existence
This is exactly what I see when I see my future. There's nothing more depressing.
>do you really want to breed with that and make more SJW problems?
No, I don't. I worry she would push their minority half identity on them way more than my half.
Because you're just saying the first stupid shit that pops in your head that has been fed to you by other dumb fat fucks and I think you're all dumb for thinking you're somehow more knowledgeable than people who study this shit professionally you cuck bitch.
Wait till she is tipsy one night and try your luck and bang the fuck out of her. Next day fuck her again. Impregnate her and make your own people. Fuck them too. Build an army of people you fuck and conquer the world.
i've cheated on my gf 4 times, though not full sex.
but caught her messaging a guy, not even dirty just kinda flirty. been using it as excuse to violate her daily, she used to whine about being facefucked. and slapped around, abused.
now, it's whenever i want, however i want
I bought these for my gf because I enjoy watching her cum on huge cocks. As a result, she's now as loose as someone who has given birth. And she's 20.
I have month long periods where i don't experience emotions. I do alot of really weird shit like once i put a cat in a garbage can and left a rock on-top of it. One time I kicked a homeless guy as hard as I could in the face and ran. I told my depressed friend to kill herself. I beat a nest of baby birds to death with a stick. Sometimes It's like looking behind a mask/lens. Then One day I wake up and feel immense guilt, and i'm talking like I literally cringe up and writhe around like i'm in physical pain. I can usually go almost 8 months as a "normal" person then i just sort of fall away into that weird state of mind for like 3 months+
I'm 23. I haven't told anyone buut i think my mom knows.
You're going to think I'm awful, but I don't actually hate them. I know I should, but the fact that part of me liked it, I would say more than other sex I've had, which I know is fucking awful, makes it hard for me to hate them.
I've also tried to push the thoughts out of my head any time I get turned thinking about it, but it doesn't work. If anything it makes it worst.
Fine. Maybe not a sex doll but get yourself a loli onahole. Any modern online shop worth it's shit charges money and ships products discreetly. All of my onahole purchases have been sent in completely inconspicuous packages.
Don't tell me your parents open your mail. If you don't want to make it suspicious, get them accustomed to you getting mail a lot. Start ordering a lot of shit online, maybe even cheap random Chinese junk off of eBay. Then slip in an onahole purchase after a while. They might notice you getting 1 random box showing up one day but they won't notice a single box in a sea of boxes.
/jp/ has onahole threads. Tons of people give advice on what to get and where to buy it. They're good people. Give it a look when you get the chance.
Do yourself a favor and get yourself some sexual relief now, before it comes a problem and you actually consider harming a child. I'm not saying you will, most don't. But some so and you never know what the future will bring.
Or get disgustingly rich and take trips to Thailand frequently. Up to you.
there's nothing wrong with wanting to be with people that look like you. The problem is the fact that you seem to see skin color before the person and thus you judge people by it. Also there are problems that minorities face that are caused in large part by rich white people. I'm not going to say that whites aren't affected by rich white people as well because they are but it seems to be that minorities tend to suffer the most as they have a higher tendency to be poor.
I've cheated on people multiple times. I'm a serial cheater. I should stop getting into monogamous relationships. I've been stripping and camming secretly for years now. I'm not even 18 yet. Lots of secrets.
Your reaction speaks louder then the thousands you wasted for lies from some tuck-shirt. They gave you lies to bury the truth but you know they're lies, so you're this easy to coax when confronted by some one not trying to white knight you.
That sounds like one hell of a bad case of bipolar disorder. Seek help man. If you ever want to live happily in some part of society you'll need to get it under control.
I'm not saying to stuff your face with whatever meds the doc tells you to have either. Counseling actually helps.
No pics, can't waste a hand on holding a phone at those times lol.
A few times I stood in front of a girl and touched her tits. Not really squeezed though. Only when I can see she's not wearing a bra though, if she is, I see no point in doing it.
I don't know, probably not. And I sure as hell hope not lol.
God no. I didn't know either of them. Everyone was just hanging out and drinking.
The worst thing I did was I found out one of the guy's name, looked him up, saw some shirtless beach pics and masturbated.
But I wouldn't want to talk to them. Because A) regardless of how it felt, they really did rape me. They knew I didn't want it, that I was fighting it, but they did it anyway. And B) It's sad, but my guess is consensual with them wouldn't feel as good
You're definitely a loser with no friends and have no girlfriend and will never have one because you're so fucking "enlightened." You have community college drop out written all over you.
The problems minorities face are caused by other minorities.
It's weird that whites, a group of people so not racist that large groups of minorities can live in their countries get blamed for so many of the worlds wrongs.
Ooh, any idea on what type of Asian? Is she attractive?
You might want to consider taking her up on her offer for the free fuck. But DON'T get seriously involved. In fact, tell her up front that you aren't looking for something serious. An ex bar girl with 3 kids sounds bad for a reason.
I did the same with my friend. I'd look him up and think about him. I'd cry. But I'd also have crazy good orgasms. Its so confusing. I hooked up with a lot of strangers too. At 15 telling them that I was 19. I was driven crazy and doing such dangerous shit.
>Also there are problems that minorities face that are caused in large part by rich white people
Fuck off with that. It's the same shit she says, and I don't want to hear it. I have played no role in that, I'm just average guy living an average American life. Besides, all the shit you mentioned has to do with wealth, not race.
Also I never saw skin color, otherwise if I was really so racist I wouldn't have started dating a Hispanic. She never used to be like this, but she went full SJW during the election and Trump coming in.
My best friend and I get blowjobs from each others wives when we go to visit each other, the secret is neither wife knows about the other one, friend was cuck and wanted his wife to fuck me but is shy about her body after having a baby but she agreed to a blowjob and I eventually talked my wife into doing it for him about a year later. Going to his place today to get my BJ and when I come home I hope to get another one, life is good.
Yep, I felt super guilty about it. Like you said, confusing. Even got to the point where I would question if I was even raped, or if I brought it on myself.
I guess we cope in different ways.
I hooked up with strangers too, though I never really saw it as a result of what happened. Then I realized I would always do this at parties, the same situation of my rape. I think I did, because part of me felt like if I have control and want it, then I can never be raped.
But then I thought well if I'm only doing it because I don't want to be raped, isn't like I'm being raped over and over? The first time I thought of it that way, I ended up crying in the shower for probably an hour.
I'm fucking my neighbors wife. It's great. I'm also married. My wife has no idea. We went on an overnight trip to a lake last summer with them and me and her fucked every night on the beach.
Somebody hacked my daughter’s Google account and then changed her bf password and security settings. Posted nudes from her Google photos on her Facebook and they were up and visible for hours. I secretly saved all of the pics while trying to help her get back in. One of the worst nights of her life and I get off to them constantly. I’m a terrible dad.