Why do rape survivors often have a rape play fetish or are into rougher sex?
I'm a survivor myself and it's a kink of mine, though I'm usually like super domme borderline sadist, but i feel so guilty about it afterwards...
One theory is that it's a psychological response, trying to regain control of something you had no control over, if that makes sense. My explanation could be better but that's the gist of it.
The animal brain is stupid. In terms of fucking with kids thats their first sexuql experience, thats whqt their brain ends up thinking sex is supposed to be. Which is why the molested turn into molesters and why you can tell if a kids been "consentually" molested from a glance because they become hyper sexual. Intense sexual experiences do the same thing, rewrites what sex means to the animal brain. You get violently raped up the ass until you have the hardest orgasm of your life well guess what the filthy animal brain inside you is now conditioned to think sex is being anally raped.
Unfortunately porn watching from a young age does the same fucking shit to a person and can fuck you up sexually hardcore. Ive watched porn since i was 10, more than a decade later and my fetishes are extremely dark. Still average among women fetishes but as a man im pretty much rock bottom as a degenerate.
>but i feel so guilty about it afterwards
when i'm horny, i fap to all kinds of reckless fantasies, then after I cum, it all seems a bit or lot less compelling.
we are animals, choosing a scene isn't about what we want in life, its about what we want NOW!
no worries, Anon