today, was able to see my dead grandpa the last time and had to hold my mom and grandma while they sobbed
when i smoke too much weed and listen to evocative songs I'll get weepy
off top of my head, NIN "Right where it belongs" uhhhh Gojira "Born in Winter" and that STUPID FUCKING cats in the cradle song, you know the one
13 years ago. Too much stuff being held in already, and throw in a verbally abusive stepmother to tip me over the edge one night. I was on the verge of offing myself - like, knife in hand - but I put it away and sobbed for a bit. Then I shut down.