not sure if this cheers you up but
>be 911 emt
>got a pediatric full arrest call
>it's a little girl
>get there as fast as possible, do cpr and use the aed
>heartbeat began again
>get to hospital where the family was waiting
>but girl destabilized and declined rapidly
>died 10 minutes after
>family thanked me for giving them a chance to say goodbye
life isn't fucking fair
could be in my boat, unemployed with a child. feels lovely knowing you're the parasite you grew up hating. at least you're only responsible for fucking your life up, I've let everyone down around me and can't even kill myself now.
Theres only so much you could do. Cheers mate.
most days are bad days for me lately. having a hard time and not getting a lot of support lately.
>i keep closing my eyes and imagining what it would feel like for someone to hug me and comfort me
>open my eyes to see that I had subconsciously started hugging myself.
>cheer me up
Well I don't think you have the urge to masturbate 24/7 while having a significant other to fuck because that person casually stopped giving a damn about your needs and even started to get shady on her movement outside house and work
The beauty of a shitty day is some day very soon, even the very next day, will be far better. Good days feel so much better after a shitty day. My first time walking after being stuck in a hospital bed for 6 weeks felt amazing. The day my friend's murderer was sentenced to 40years in ram-it-in-the-ass prison was cathartic. Later in life when I lost an ugly multiyear custody battle of a family member, even though we lost, the sleep I got that night and the relief from burden made me feel rejuvenated for weeks after.