Welp, I'm probably at the end of the road now. I'm
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Welp, I'm probably at the end of the road now. I'm just here to ask a couple of questions, if ya'll could be kind enough to help me out here.
So, I will probably just buy a shotgun if nothing else works out, but I'd rather not leave too much of a mess behind. I don't want to traumatize whoever finds me TOO badly. I figured hanging myself would work out well enough, but I am concerned about failing. What could I tie the rope to that I can be sure won't give? Ceiling fans and such can't hold much weight.
Thanks.
realisticly a thick tree branch :(
hope u change ur mind tho anon
>>767442138
dun do it
>>767442138
How old are you?
>>767442228
Fuck. I was hoping there'd be something in my house that would suit it well enough. Well, thank you.
I just don't see any other option. Thank you for the kind thoughts, though.
>>767442138
You don't know what you have. Don't throw it away.
>>767442305
22.
>>767442325
Thanks, but I don't have shit.
>>767442138
A tree a balcony. There's Heep's of options. Walk into your local piggy stop with a knife and just go for it.
>>767442357
I bet you have more than me.
>>767442362
What's a piggy stop?
>>767442313
Did you look up helium mask method?
>>767442332
you havent even lived long enough to have a judgement about how good or bad life is
>>767442138
honestly anon, don't fucking do it. shit can change.
stop setting unrealistic standards and goals. start off small. like brushing your teeth twice a day if that's a problem. find a job, or if you have one, challenge yourself to build your resume. lie a little bit that's okay. and move on from there.
but if you really, really want to off yourself, that's your right. i will give you advice.
buy a surange, fill it with air, shoot it into a vain.
that's it. 3 bucks off amazon or w/e. no trauma for whoever finds you. just a lifeless body.
but think about it for some time, anon. 3 day threshold.
>>767442138
how do you feel about the high chances of fucking it up and surviving but with a serious intellectual disability?
https://www.areason.org
This is where I go whenever I think about doing it
>>767442401
Doubt it. I'm trans (haha, mental illness, whatever) and I just look like a fucking guy. Started getting male pattern baldness really young. I didn't start college for a few years after high school and, despite having started back, I quickly lost the energy, nearly failed several classes, and didn't even bother to take any classes this past semester. I am broke -- just barely have enough to buy a shotgun -- and all I can ever think about is how pathetic I am and how much I hurt people. How much I hurt myself just by existing. I have had a shitty life, but I won't even bother getting into that.
>>767442452
That will kill me? How likely is it to fail?
>>767442472
It terrifies me, but a shotgun to the head is not likely to fail, at least.
>>767442764
like zero percent? it's an air bubble in your blood stream. if a heart attack doesn't kill you within a minute or two, then a stroke will. And just keep doing it.
I really fucking hate helping you killing yourself, but at least try to live a life anon. even if you're a bum. buy or steal a bike and live off the streets, scavenge even. then again it's YOUR right to decide whether you live or die.
Godspeed either way, anon.
if i were to commit suicide, i would overdose on heroin. ive put my 12g to my head far too many times the last several months but i just keep hoping tomorrow will change and be better, something amazing will come along and make me feel so happy that i am still here.
or it'll just keep aching and hurting and life will just continue to be a roller coaster of suck.
ya never know. stick around and enjoy the misery with us.
>>767442903
Life is only painful to me and I end up causing pain to everyone that I care about. There is no reason for me to live. But thanks
/b has really changed, wtf. Years ago people would have just been telling me to stream it.
>>767443055
If that's how you feel, then I will leave this thread as I've given you enough advice.
Farewell, anon
>>767442411
Police station. He’s suggesting you try suicide by cop. Only works if you’re black though.
Dear OP, why not adopt a cat instead? There are many cats who live shitty lives in shelters, and I'm sure one would love to come home with you.
>>767442764
You have control over your own life, and that's more than I've ever had.
>>767443055
Hate to ask and it's alright if you don't want to say, but how do you hurt others?
>>767443357
Not black, and I have hurt enough people just by living. Not gonna make someone kill me.
>>767443400
I can't even take care of myself. Definitely couldn't take care of another thing.
>>767443415
I'm sorry to hear that. What's your story?
>>767442138
This pretty much saved my life, give it a watch, see if it helps https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wqEsTPaUZF0&list=FLy0ugXvpng7fmV_wv_CF8cw&t=0s&index=2
>>767442138
Stop being whiteknight faggotd
thats not why people come here
>wants to hurt people by killing self because sick of hurting people
>>767443458
I just do. I always do. Just by knowing them. Or disappointing them. Like, I stupidly came out to my mother only to have her relapse (alcoholic, woo) and sob to my sister about it. She tried driving while absolutely shit faced... Probably would have died or killed someone else. And then with friends or girlfriends, I always find a way to fuck something up or hurt them. Jealousy, doubts, even just telling them how I feel. It hurts them. But I still tell them how I feel... I'm a selfish piece of shit and I still haven't learned my lesson.
>>767442138
you could do what I plan to do in a couple of months.
I plan to take my last check, and drive over to Colorado.
I will proceed to take my measly amount of money and use it all on weed, beer, and the best damn meal I can think to purchase while I am there.
when I have had my fun, and my money runs out. probably a day.
I will go out to the field of some unlucky fuckers place and use my shotgun to end it all.
hopefully some wildlife will take care of the corpse before anyone finds me.
>>767443055
You're talking like killing yourself would just make everyone feel relieved
>>767443674
Well this may not matter much to you, but allow me to tell you something I usually tell my friends: you can't and don't control people's reactions. They make the decision to act the way they do, not you. You may be thinking that what you said to them is the reason why, but you gotta remember that if your mom wants to be stupid enough to drive shit faced and such, that's her own fault. Not yours. And out of curiosity, do you have online friends?
>>767443907
I don't smoke or drink and I can hardly eat these days. If I bought a decent meal I'd probably throw it up afterwards and not really enjoy it even before that. Might take the plan to go elsewhere before offing myself, though. Less painful for the people left behind. Thanks
>>767443983
No, I realize it will hurt them when they find out. But that pain will quickly fade. If I live, I will keep causing them pain.
>>767444000
Nice trips. haaaa.
Well, I may not control their actions, but I can be the cause. Me telling my mom that I'm trans... I should have known. I was "the good kid," so of course she would be hurt. And that is the general trend. Yes, all of my friends are online, actually.
>>767444053
well, here is something for you then.
if you take anything from this, then the only thing I would suggest is whats stopping you from trying new things?
hell, you are going to die anyways? why not try some weed. they make edibles. drink a fucking beer. eat some fucking food and puke. who cares. you sure as hell don't!
so, I say you treat yourself like a fucking king on your last moments on earth.
find a woman and fuck the shit out of her, or a man if thats your thing. don't worry about condoms because you wont be around to get the STD, or the problems afterward. read the image I posted. it has helped me in the past, but the world has been my oyster long enough.
hey /b/ i'm 22 too and my story is quite simple: stage 3 testicular cancer, metastasis on lungs, orchidectomy complicated to pulmonary embolism, had to take a painful injection twice a day for three months and after all the painful side effects like GERD, finished chemo on december last year. on february, my scans and tests showed that my cancer was still alive and spread to my kidney, brain and lymph node. was hesitant on operation until an epileptic seizure had a medical team fly me halfway across the state just to get a gamma knife surgery, i had radiation therapy and a harsher chemotherapy which i'm currently taking. AMA but i did learn two things:1. my pain cannot compare to the financial/emotional burden i am to my family. and 2. i do not belittle others for having less expeiences than me or see myself as something less due to my condition but i do respect everyone because everyone has a story to tell and their stories can be worse than mine.
>Make noose out of piano wire
>Place noose around neck on a high building
>Tie end onto something.
>Superglue hands to sides of head
>Wait until dry
>Jump, when someone finds the body it'll look like you jumped off a building and tore your own head off.
>>767444408
I hope everything works out for you bro.
keep fighting, there is good waiting for you through your struggles.
tits for you, because nothing but respect
>>767444185
>mfw I get trips while giving advice to a suicidal anon.
What a time to be online. But anyway on to a more serious note, I can see where you're getting at, but I would counter argue that she should've been more open minded about you being trans. But that's more two cents. I still personally believe that a cause shouldn't always be blamed. So my next question is are you decently close to your online friends?
>>767442138
can I fuck you before you an hero? Not like you got anything else on your plate, and maybe I'll be the one to send you to Hell too.
>>767444384
Did I say I haven't done either of those before? They make it all worse. They make me feel worse. And I just have no interest in food. Sex, ehh... Was never all that interested in the first place, but HRT really killed my sex drive (despite only being about a week on it). I might be able to do whatever the fuck I want, but I don't want to do anything.
>>767444408
You sound like a pretty awesome person. Sorry you've been through so much.
>>767444603
Yeah. I have a girlfriend, actually. LDR kind of thing, and poly to boot. I seem to make her suffer more than make her happy. The other friends, yeah, I'm close enough to. why?
>>767442138
Dude just put a belt around your neck attach one end to the door and sit down, KYS hero.
>>767444693
if he hangs himself, then you will have a whole corpse to yourself.
He/she isn't using it anymore, so its public property now isn't it?
>>767444560
funny part is, since my outlook in life and drugs affecting my testicle and in turn hormone reaction, or some other voodoo reason, i have no sex drive and currently consider myself asexual. i am indifferent to sex(so no disattraction or attraction to sex) but that is only a mask to cover my fear that i might just see sex as something casual and i do get aroused by certain fetishes.
>>767444693
Doubt you live near me, and I have no idea why you'd want that. I just look like an average dude that doesn't give a shit about his appearance (despite maintaining that I'm a girl because mental illness wooooo)
>>767444802
She, if it isn't too much trouble. But I can't really make myself give a shit atm
>>767444802
I'm no necrophiliac, but as long as they're no one important.
I've gotten pretty far with a couple robots and anons, but none wanted to go all the way through. I've even offered to buy their travel and brazillian waxes for their hairy asses.
>>767444886
you've got no reason to say no. Two birds one stone, the stone being 86'd down in my local woods under two dead dogs.
>>767444758
well, I am not talking you out of it.
clearly you have made up your mind.
I wasn't even talking you out of it in the first place.
its just a damn shame to go out like a pussy.
might as well do something before you die.
you are 22. you haven't even lived yet.
>>767444758
Well I'd say maybe talk to them, see there thoughts on the matter. Or at least just give them a thanks before you... ya know.
And uh, maybe this is just me being a total fag and loser for doing this towards a completely random person I have never met, on 4chan no less, but *hugs you* sorry to see you go if you really plan on doing this. I'm glad you could at least see where I'm coming at. That's at least the most I'll ask of you, since I won't try and force you to live, even if I want that.
god i'm such a fag lol
>>767442138
Hey anon, I think this is bait. But I still care enough about a human life to humor you, so if you really mean to kill yourself, please, let it out in this thread. You've got nothing to lose. What's happening?
Message me on snapchat, KingKawaiii. I'm drunk and sad as well, maybe we can help each other.
>>767444758
if you meet someone in my shoes don't say sorry to them, instead compliment their perseverence and the little victories they've gone through. cancer is a long battle and often a lonely battle, the least they'll need is someone's pity.
>>767442138
man, why? Two weeks ago I had skin cancer cut out my face and today I discovered more has to be removed from other places.
Been fighting this shit since I was 15. I'm 22 and today was the first day I've truly considered killing myself. Never broke or caved in before like I did today and goddamn it was I actually scared for once. For once.
>>767443478
This is probably going to sound really pathetic.
Growing up, I always tended to keep to myself, and none of the adults in my life really seemed to understand that. So, they set out to "help" me, which to them meant constant hand-holding, and never allowing me to explore by myself. By the time I turned 18, I had no idea what to do on my own, and since everyone seemed to expect me to just magically figure everything out myself, I ended up going nowhere.
I never kept contact with any of my friends from school, and by now they've probably forgotten all about me. My muscles are withering away due to lack of exorcise. I'm still dealing with a shoulder injury I got eight years ago that never got treated because my parents both believe in a type of faith healing. I didn't even get to go to college, or finish high school, or attend a real high school in the first place. And the worst part is, I could have avoided all of this if I had just done even one thing differently in the past, but now it's too late.
I am the definition of worthless. A leech on society. I've tried to end my pointless existence before, but I was always too squeamish to go through with it. I'm stuck, and I'm afraid there's not much I can do about it at this point. I dug a grave for myself, now I live in it.
>>767445047
*hugs* well, thank you. You seem like a really sweet person. I planned to leave everyone with a few nice words before the end, so don't worry.
>>767445048
Bait? This would make shitty bait, but alright, I can respect the skepticism. Just, I'm a shitty person and hurt everyone, including myself, and life has sucked for as long as I can remember.
>>767445054
No snapchat, I'm sorry. I wish you didn't feel sad.
>>767445123
You're right, sorry. Apologizing is just my first reaction to everything. Guilt complex and all that.
>>767442764
So you're an ugly tranny. So what? Yeah, I don't like trannys, but I don't want to see people miserable. So make up your mind and finish or stop your transition. Image isn't everything, nor is gender. What are you doing to feel valuable? Do you volunteer? Visit your family? I tell you, I'll take a civil, well-mannered tranny over a white upper-middle class snot any day. Your life is worth something, but only if you wake up each day and make it so. Hold off on the suicide and just give yourself a reason to live. Give it some thought. Figure out how to enjoy life. I'm 32, balding, type-1 diabetic, getting fat, alcoholic, living with family and I don't feel worthless enough to kill myself. Get up and find a reason like other human beings do. You're in a rut, everyone is at some point. Killing yourself is a permanent solution to a temporary problem that YOU can solve.
>>767442138
Yo thug. B4 u pew pew urself with lazers--I strongly advise you try a ketogenic diet with no more than 10 carbs a day. Shit being cancer relies on sugar. Its like "fuk that oxygen shit".
If u do alluah ahkbar. I strongly advise having the hosses you love set up a trust thats going to short a stock then alluah ahkbar inside the company to short that stock so niggas make bank. But I am just a b-tard so u yolo ur life bro.
>>767444408
Not gonna sugar coat it, bro. But I hope whatever days you have are awesome. Make the most, go nuts, have fun. You deserve it. Live and die with your chin up.
>>767442138
What pushed you to make this decision? At least share it out and just a little more brains working to see if there are any other ways to solve the problem
There are three main considerations: 1) likelihood of failure, leaving you in a worse-off state. 2) ability to "back out", ie: if you have a sudden "moment of clarity" or simple fear, will things be in motion to the point where your rational-minded decision is able to run to completion. 3) how horrible a time you'll have. ie: not having your last moments of life be the worst ones.
(1) rules out guns, hanging, and cutting. It is really easy to screw those up.
(2) rules out "more effective" forms of cutting, most jumps, walking into traffic, putting a bag over your head, anything "obviously fatal, to your hindbrain", anything you can get out of, need to time right, or need to go to a specific place to do.
(3) rules out all other jumps, immolation, "suicide by murder", starvation/entrapment, anything that will "definitely kill you, eventually"
Don't bother
how about emailing me at [email protected]
>>767445313
read your story. if i had to fit it into a song it will be time by pink floyd. listen to it. just like the song, the best answer would be to find a place to call home, so even when you come by cold and tired, it'll be nice to warm you feet besides a fire. so try to find your little haven, it could even be a place or person, just make finding that your life goal.
>>767445313
So you're a shitty person. So am I. A lot of life has sucked, but that's only a small part to focus on. I don't like to compare myself to other people, but you're not Josef Stalin here. If you've shot up a school, sure, go ahead and kill yourself. If you've just disappointed your parents because of a sex change, or something equally trivial, stop for a moment and consider all the good your life can manage.
>>767442138
>Welp, I'm probably at the end of the road now. I'm just here to ask a couple of questions, if ya'll could be kind enough to help me out here.
>So, I will probably just buy a shotgun if nothing else works out, but I'd rather not leave too much of a mess behind. I don't want to traumatize whoever finds me TOO badly. I figured hanging myself would work out well enough, but I am concerned about failing. What could I tie the rope to that I can be sure won't give? Ceiling fans and such can't hold much weight.
>Thanks.
>>767445313
Thank you. I've dealt with a lot of suicidal friends before, including now. I'm always trying to help them stay alive. So I always feel the need to at least grant some form of comfort or advice. Even if I don't know you at all. And I've been in that position of wanting to die out of raw guilt, so I know the feeling. I just think everyone deserves a chance to be happy. And if I can't make myself happy, dedicate my life to making others happy, y'know? Least give that idea a minute of a thought. And I'm glad to know you at least plan to say goodbye. Well, bittersweet glad.
I'm definitely not an expert on life, but I'm sure there's more to it than what you've been through so far. If you throw it all away now, you'll never get to find out if it could have gotten better.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ByC8sRdL-Ro
This always helps me feel better.
>>767442138
>So, I found who was behind of it...
Well, I'm gonna leave it here. It's really late and I'll have to wake up in time to go buy a gun.
It went surprisingly well. Ya'll are some pretty decent folks. Only had one slur used against me and most of you tried to make me feel better. I appreciate it. Sorry I'm such a mess -- sorry I'm a lost cause. I hope each of you can manage to find some joy through all the pain.
>>767445919
I hope you turn out to be as squeamish as me.
>>767445919
Well... I guess all I have left to say is see you on the other side if there is one, anon. It's been both an honor and pleasure talking to you in your last moments. I hope you will find joy somehow through any means, pre or post death.
>>767445919
make it quick, and aim for the nerve cluster in the back of the head.
enjoy being worm food.
I will be there in a few months.
>>767442138
Honestly don't do it but if there's no stopping you then tons of drugs.
>>767442138
Make your noose take it in a bag, go outside look for a horizontal bar you can hang yourself with. Rope always work.
>>767443114
It's a blossoming flower in a desolate wasteland. You may not still be listening, but I hope you know that there usually is one.
>>767446127
I agree.
if there is no talking them out of it. then find the quickest and most painless way for them to suffer.
give them advice to help them swiftly to their goal.
>>767446245
help them not to suffer....
>>767442138
Do what you want to do, but suicide is a very permanent choice. If you don't have dependent children/animals, it's fine. If you have kids at least make sure someone else has full custody or the pets are re-homed.
But I firmly believe everyone should be allowed to exit the stage of life when they choose. If you're not even free to die, you're not free at all.
But if you want to do it, get it done and do it right. Shotgun with 00 buckshot. Wedge the buttstock against the ground and hold it with your feet. Put the barrel in your mouth and aim for the medulla oblongata, right between the ears (instantly stops consciousness, the heart, and breathing). Should be insta-kill. DON'T use a small caliber. Don't put the gun to your chin (many people lose their faces or become retards this way)
And whatever you do NO cry out for attention bullshit. Don't cut yourself and call it an attempt to scare people into caring more about you. That's some cowardly faggot shit. You're gonna do suicide, do it once and do it right.
But you really first should be asking yourself if you really want to die or you just want a better life. Life is hard for a male coward. But good things will come to those that *try*, sure there will be small failures along the way but you can't be broken by that. I got very very close a while back too, but I decided maybe I should try *trying* before suicide.
>>767445919
if you pussy out, still looking for a human cocksock. I'm always watching
>>767446310
This!
THIS IS EXACTLY WHAT I HAVE BEEN TRYING TO SAY THIS WHOLE TIME!
fuck, I am just to autistic to put it into words.
You can put a plastic bag on your head and tie It by your neck. Eventually, you will run out of oxygen
>>767442138
Are you religious?
>>767446581
then suck your breath through mouth so little piece of plastic is pressed on lips. suck harder so a small hole gets poked on plastic. you now have a breathing hole and failed. if you fail this, you succeed on suicide.
