Tell me about the closest you came to suiciding.
>age
>reason
>what stopped you
>>767397289
I don't know what stopped me, I just stopped, but the closest was 6 months ago. I deeply considered driving my car into a lake
>>767397289
I'll tell you how close I came to these double digits...Check em
12
no friends
I was too chicken to do it
>>767397465
Can you not swim?
>>767397289
>25
>left over trauma from having been raped through my pre-teen years
>lizzy
>>767397634
>off by one
>>767397289
2 weeks ago I got banned for 2 days
the worst 2 days of my entire life
one time I rolled singles in a dubs thread and almost killed myself over it. Luckily, I got dubs later when I shitposted in a log thread
20
robot
planned ahead a week and, well, fuck, it got better
>>767397993
thank Jesus for log threads
>Be about 15
>Mom threatening to take me out of the homeschooling thing I was doing (only school I ever felt happy at) and put me into a boarding school unless I focus more on school.
>Say "okay let me think about it" and go for a walk, take my pocket knife with me.
>Fully intend on walking to a nearby grassy area and slashing my wrists and just waiting for them to find me.
>Get to the area, roll up my sleeves....and I couldn't do it. And that just made me feel even worst.
>Went home.
>
>>767397289
>17
>realized I was a closet faggot with limited pool of friends
>my girlfriend turned out to be into me crossdressing and has since changed my life accordingly
When i was in the shower lightheaded from bleeding, I realized that I shouldn’t give a single shit about what normies think about me. Life got better since. Im still a half faggot though.
>>767397289
19
Few friends a weird one (even for my standards) and a half weeb half weraboo, depressed, shit grades and with no hope of finding a girlfriend.
Two things stoped me from throwing me off a bridge, the first one is my idea that suicide is for cowards who chose the easy way out instead of keep on going and the second one was my qt professor of principles of flight (I've got no picture before you ask).
Be me, 29
Found out that my wife was sleeping with my neighbor while I was on deployment. I got my gun and some beers and was waiting for him to get home from work. I was going to kill him and then myself. Not because of what happened but just because I was waiting for a good reason. He had access to my security system and saw what I was doing from my doorbell camera. He was too pussy to show up. I just drank beers on the porch all night and waved at the neighbors waiting for the old murder/suicide trick. Pic somewhat related.
19
depression, been feeling suicidal for years
I felt nothing putting the noose around my neck
When I was 17, I had reached the lowest of the low in depression and was ready to die by burning charcoal inside my room.
At the time, therapy and medication saved me.
But now I'm 25 and I'm almost reaching as low again. I don't think I'll live past this year.
20, a lot of shit was happening in my life. Tried to swallow a whole bunch of pills but later I spilled all of them because I remember who my mom tried to kill herself and it was so fucking pathetic. So yeah
>17
>Drunk as shit
>Got rejected
>My friend walked me home and I told him that I will never open my eyes ever again and other stupid stuff
>Tried to run under a car
>Friend stops me
>I made him cry
>>767397289
fixed pic for you
Thought about jumping off my uni's stadium. Only reason I didnt was because of my girlfriend. Age 18
>>767397289
>13(ish?)
>Depressed, generally shitty social life
>Blade I was gonna use to slit my wrists wasn't sharp enough, gave up, things got a lot better later on.
>>767397844
Who was lizzy?
>>767399917
my anus
>>767397289
Early 20's.
Thought there's a slight chance it would enlighten my parents.
Gun wasnt there.
>>767399472
You can make it through, anon. Happiness will come again.
>Like 10
>I had shitty "friends" who used me for entertainment. Punching bag, person who takes the blame in stuff they did, etc.
>I shit you not, my safe space were video games. Sonic was my favorite growing up and Sonic Unleashed was announced and it looked awesome and 9 or 10 Y.O. me wanted to wait on jumping off a bridge to play it.
>Get made fun of for liking Sonic games.
>doesn't affect me as long as I had fun
>Sonic colors gets announced and now I gotta stay alive for that one
>life gets better by the year sonic generations was revealed so I didn't need to worry about suicide
>Sonic the Hedgehog saved my life.
>Sonic
>the
>Hedgehog
>But hey I mean Sonic Mania also helped in picking me up in some sad parts of my life.
And before any of you decide to try and do the math, I'm 18. I can't exactly pin point where the games came out. All i care for is that their fun.
>>767401157
Stop saying this. U are the reason ppl commit suicide. What if you told ppl its ok to be sad? No. Everybody has to be happy.
U are a fucking asshole
>>767401626
tumblrfag?
>>767401626
I've been through very rough depression, anon. I know what it feels like to want to die for months on end. I still have episodes, though not quite so bad. I've found that people were right about what they told me. I kept moving forward and eventually felt much better.
Don't mistake me, it's absolutely okay to be sad. We all are sometimes, and it's an important emotion to have and recognize and to recognize. It's certainly okay that you or anyone else might feel sad now for whatever reason. But when you're in the pit of depression it's nearly impossible to see that things can eventually improve, so it's important to have people to reassure you of it; I know I'm glad I had such reassurances during my dark times.
But I won't stop saying it. Things can always improve, and they do. The only problem you can't fix is death.
>>767402080
>and recognize and to recognize
Hurr, pretend I didn't write that twice.
when I saw this
>>767402080
So what is "depression" and how do u fix it? Apparently "moving forward" hasnt fixed your problems
>>767402038
Whats a tumblrfag?
>>767402516
*how do we fix it.
Lets get an open discussion and throw some ideas around
>>767402516
There are different types. For me, most of it was unhappiness with my life. I was very lonely, didn't have any close friends around me, and felt immense pressure with my studies and the personal developments that I felt I needed to make but didn't know how.
I worked on it by thoroughly examining what I felt, and why, and made plans and took steps to begin fixing them. The best thing I ever did was recognize an opportunity, muster up all of my courage to try to be sociable, and offer someone in my class to show him the way to somewhere he didn't know how to get to. He became my best friend, and through/with him I met many other amazing friends. "Putting myself out there", as my dad always called it, finally worked and absolutely turned my life around, for the better. It also made me passionate about my degree and allowed me to land a very nice job out of college.
Of course, problems in life still crop up and bring me down every once in a while, but that's perfectly natural for anyone. And now, when I'm down, I know that later I won't be; things will get better.
>>767402979
>unhappiness with my life
And when I say this, I mean that there are recognizable and addressable causes to a lot of depression. It's not always some chemical imbalance in your head, it's often something you can work on without any drug whatsoever.
>>767402659
Never seeked help for depression. But lately, I have come to terms with it. I accept it as something that may or may not ever leave me alone but that's fine. A year or two ago I was an absolute shitshow however I have found that the greatest thing to battle depression with is self improvement, doesn't matter in what form - be it working on your appearance by working out or getting into style, social skills, studying/work habits etc. It doesn't matter as long as you're improving yourself. Doing this has helped me in more ways than I can put into words. It truly is worth pushing forward, not pushing forward by just lying in bed doing nothing hoping for something magical and great to happen, but pushing forward through effort and dedication, by taking action. We can all make it /b/ros don't ever lose hope.
>>767399144
Thank you for your service
>>767403527
Im.slowly coming to terms with mine to. Like why should i sit at home and be depressed. I can go out with it. Maybe this is just who i am
>>767397289
Got black out drunk, when I woke up I had my auto 5 in my hands and a foster slug in the chamber. Turns out I pulled the trigger but the primer didn't go off. Never buying Winchester ammo again, tbh, though I'm glad they have horrible QC. This was like a month ago.
I tried killing myself when i was 16 my mom had tried to kill herself that day my dad was acting like nothing happened so i got into my moms pills i took atleast 11 narcos and like 10 sleeping pills my dad and brother found me passed out on the floor in the bathroom (i took the pills and hoped in the shower) ive been suicidal ever since havnt tried again because i just dont feel like it and i know if i do it again I'll succeed
>>767403527
>>767403872
Oh god i know exactly how you guys feel ive been drowning my self in my work and going to the gym at night just to occupy my time, i was doing ok till i turned 21 last week went to a bar met a hot older chick we were flirting having drinks i even got her number. But now im stuck with the realization that she wasnt into me she was just drunk having her fun with some naive kid all that talk about us going out sometime getting to know eachother better maybe be bf gf was all just a game she was playing. I hope she had a good laugh about it the morning after ive been feeling miserable ever since
>>767397289
<25
>life
>activated charcoal
>>767404405
What on earth makes you think that? You got her number, she was interested. Women don't just go out to fuck with guys (at least if they're not genuinely sociopathic). If she flirted with you and gave her your number, she's interested in you, bro. You'll never know how things might work out if you don't try to follow up with her. Whether it works out or doesn't, you'll have gained a lot of experience and grown as a person. Don't defeat yourself, anon. Put yourself out there.
>>767403788
This
Also hope you get your life back together.
I was 45
My mum died. And I was lonely and miserable. Got in trouble with police.
Took lots of my insulin, hurt like fuck, so I called ambulance.
>>767404669
Im fucking scared man im a 21 year old loser i live at home with my parents i gotta job yeah a bullshit one i got a vehicle a 2000 ford f150 she's 29 and hot as hell she works at a hotel im afraid im not good enough for her im afraid i dont have anything to offer her you know shit man all of this happened on sunday im afraid that if i txt her she'll just tell me to fuck off and if she does like me im afraid i wont have what it takes to please her no fancy car i dont have alot of money i dont have my own place im chubby im a fucking geek and i wish i had never met her because now i feel like killing myself
She let me take a shot out of her tits thats the only good thing
>>767405000
What military branch are you in? I got a brother in law who was in the air force
Im tryna lose weight so i can join the army
>>767397289
i've put a gun to my head about 4 times now and cryed for god or any one to pull the trigger for me the last time i did i had a mental break down i didn't know i did at the time but i took the day off work for the first time ever that's a big deal to me and i went camping in the woods and i had full intentions of killing myself but instead i started writing poetry and it really help me
>>767405609
Thats good anon ive been down and out staring at a bottle of hydrocodone tellin myself if i really wanted to kill myself all i have to do is drink the whole bottle i came close one night but you just gotta push through that shit man dont give up on yourself
>13
>Parents hated me, father held gun against my head and threatened to kill me, stopped being able to sleep after
>had lots of friends, knew people I cared about would be hurt
>>767405218
She sounds like a girl who's looking for some fun, anon. Who knows, she could be into shy and inexperienced people. She could be into nerds. You could be her fantasy. Tell me, anon, what's the worst that could happen if you ask her? She says no, or doesn't respond. I guarantee you she won't ream you, especially considering she let you take a shot out of her tits. She could be an invaluable learning and growing experience for you.
I understand your fear of inadequacy. I didn't have a girlfriend or sex until I was 24. I was the same way as you - I thought that there was surely no way I could ever be good enough for a cute girl. But eventually I decided "fuck it", that things could never improve if I didn't try, and so I gave it a shot.
It took multiple tries before I found someone who was into me. I was politely rejected (I assure you any girl a guy could ever want will let a guy down easy, they have to do it all the time) multiple times, but each time I learned more about myself and how to better my social skills with girls.
It was extremely scary and I was nervous as hell. But I kept at it and things got immensely better, and any time I was let down I realized that it was far from the end of the world and that I would be alright. And I was. If I can do it, you can sure as hell do it too, anon.
I would never do it because life is too interesting and I’d like to see where it goes. But I’ve never felt more lonely in my life than lately. Got a gf and after a year or so it ended like a month or two ago. I kind of took it for granted but now I miss it uncontrollably she was cool as fuck. Not even sure where to look for another now. Not the kinda person who just makes friends and has the confidence to meet new people in bars and places like that. Kind of feel hopeless now. And yes I know everything I’ve said here is pathetic and lame but it is what it is
>>767405609
I want a gun so fucking bad to kill myself... It looks like the best way to do it.
The fear of giving myself permanent damage by not killing myself good is the only thing stopping me.
>15-16
>Lack of life meaning
>Didn't wanted my family to be sad
You know, the classic one in teenagers
>>767405218
Just talk to her man make her laugh and have a good time that’s what it’s all about. I had an older gf too while living with my parents. The majority of girls (the ones worth being with) just want to find someone who makes them happy and can make them feel up. Give it a shot if she enjoys talking and being with you you have more to offer than anyone else. It’s not about conventional rules or any of that shit it’s abojt two people enjoying each others company
>>767404405
>>767404405
Push it. Go for her. Whats the worst that could happen? She says no and makes you depressed?
Dont expect a woman or any outside force to fix your depression tho
>>767406032
Same for me. I fucking loved my girlfriend and took it for granted. Ended 2 months ago.
I take anti depressants and still want to kill myself fulltime. I don't know where to find a new better girl. It hurts me seeing her going further in life on facebook, flirting with other guys...
I fucking hate my life rn... :(
>>767406131
Fear...
Do you realize you fear your thoughts and emotions so bad you wanna kill yourself?
>>767406357
Cry it out. Mourn your loss. Depression is what u get when u deny your pain. Have your pain
>>767399917
that's what I call me when I am in survival mode
>>767397764
you try to drive your car into a fucking lake and try to swim out of it.
fucking moron
>>767405954
Im not scared of her telling me no or ignoring me, im scared of her saying yes to me. My big brother told me to not txt at all to leave it like that so as not to seem desperate i have her on instagram she has a bunch of pics of her showing of her body on there my bro says if she really liked me she has my number and instagram she can get a hold of me i feel like a chump for being so strung up on her
>>767401517
>Chris-chan still alive
>>767405609
>>767405609
What if you went in the woods. Cried all your pain away. Made love to a deer. Came back to civillization with inner peace. No more negative thoughts. Just living your life high on emotion
>>767406328
Im not sure what to do i txted her that same night and i dont know what to do her last txt is the one that has me thinking she was just playing with me
>>767397289
>>767406512
I cry all the time tough. I've never been completely happy, even when in a 10/10 relationship. It's just kinda the way I am (says my psychologist)
>>767406357
Yeah man I have no good advice for you I’ve been drinking like a fish. My story is I’ve always been self conscious for decent reasons. Some how not even sure how but met her the stupidest of ways but she was all in. I needed to move out of my parents house and moved in with a buddy and I didn’t realize but she took this as me wanting to live with friends instead of her which isn’t true but she had no money at all and I can’t support us both. It eventually got hairy and ended and the worst part was there was so much hope. When we broke it off she said we will figure it or. Didn’t happen and now haven’t spoke to her in a month to the day.
I guess just work on yourself find hobby’s to keep you occupied until the bad times pass. It’s the only thing to do. Atleast in my mind life is way too interesting at its core to throw away but times are rough. Haven’t gone a day without thinking of her or being set back by it all emotionally speaking. Life will go on and you should too maybe it’s a blessing in disguise. The thing keeping me going is that I met her in the oddest of circumstances something I would have never guessed to be a place to meet a great person. Shit just seems to happen and I hope it happens for you my man I hope shit swings your way. Hang in there
>>767406811
yes that's it i now live bc of my deer girl friend you got me kek
>>767406824
Ask her what she means. U wont know the answer until u ask the question. U could guess what she means for the rest of your life or u could just ask.
Do it. Theres no better time than now
>>767406873
Cancer
>>767407072
I was joking about the deer but do u feel poetry helps u get your emotions out or your thoughts out?
>>767397289
26
Fiancee left me after 7 years for a girl she'd known for two months
Didn't do it because I can't do that to my family, so now I'm just a fucking ghost.
>>767406542
Mistake number one bro. The leave it be method only works for studs who have the pick of the litter. I’ve gone through that mistake before had a girl who was so damn fine in every way personality especially and she was so into me and my theory was let it be and it will all work out. I never made any moves and she took it as being uninterested. Slowly our friendship faded and I regretted it for years. Just talk to her feel her out and see if she would like to hang out with you and spend time with you. If yes roll with it. Spend time with her which is easy if you like her. It won’t be weird at all just try to be casual talk to her first and then see if she wants to hang out and eventually spend more and more time with her
>>767407010
God fucking damnit, this is the first time someone on 4chan made me cry. Thank you for the kind words dude. Best of luck to you too man...
>>767406357
You have literally billions of other possible girlfriends. You just have to keep looking.
>>767406542
I truly never want to tell someone not to heed the earnest advice of a family member, but I don't think your brother is quite right about that. She's a hot, unsurprisingly popular female. She doesn't have to seek out attention to get it. It's up to you, the man, to continue pursuing her, even if it's just for some fun. I can say for certain that hitting her up will not make you seem desperate; 99% of the time, being the initiator is truly the only way to get anywhere with a woman, because they like to sit back and be pursued, because they can and it's so much easier. You can't expect her to come to you.
Your infatuation most certainly does not make you a chump. We get infatuated all the time, and that's natural--it's what makes you try for someone.
And, once again, keep this in mind: if you contact her and she says no, the result is the exact same as if you had never met or contacted her at all, except for the fact that you didn't even try. Yes, it's not a great feeling to be let down, but what's far worse in my opinion is never giving yourself the opportunity to get what you want. You can't hit a ball you don't swing at.
>>767407100
My brother told me not to do that though he says fuck that bitch theres plenty like that in every bar shes just some drunk slut
But im such a stupid little white knight faggot that i cant help but feel like i wanna cry right because of all the what if's you know what if she really does like me and is waiting for my call or what if my brothers right and it was all just a game what if she's done this before go out talk to some guy make em fall in love with you then the next morning forget all about him
I'm 33 now but when I was 17 my mom and I got in this argument about something and she punched me in the face, I left the house and didn't come back till the next day. But during that time when I was out I came to this bridge and stud on the railing, I thought about jumping.. Then only reason I didn't was because I thought the bridge wasn't high enough, as I turned around to get off I slipped and grabbed onto the bridge and dangled from it with one hand..
Its 4am and I'm holding onto a bridge with one hand, my life flashed and I soon realized that this suicide thing wasn't for me. If anyone is ever thinking about it, it's not worth it.. Your better off staying here and making more chaos for others.
>>767407010
Can I ask you how you met her? Man I would like to talk to you privately. You seem a decent human being.
>>767407216
yes that's exactly it i have so much emotions and thoughts going through my mind i can't process it all in my mind you it really helps to put it on paper
>>767407322
Oh my fucking god im seriously on the brink of crying right now i just dont know what to do i mean shit what do i even say hey remember me from the bar how you doing i dont know!
>>767407434
He's right, there are plenty of other women you can try for. But it still couldn't hurt to ask her what she means; maybe it's a misunderstanding or she could take some convincing.
But yes, if she's not into it then leave it be and try with other girls.
>>767407458
Lets ponder this. Its ok for adults to hit each other. Its ok for adults to hit children...when will it be ok for kids to fight back?
Whoever made the rules for society has to be fucking retarded.
Break that bitches jaw
>>767407291
Heartache sucks but you're still very young. You have plenty of time to find someone who is actually right for you.
>14
>sister overwrote my pokemon blue gameboy save (she was allowed to play my gameboy without saving, but she was little bitch and saved anyways..)
>screen over window was solid enough to stop my jumping through it from the 22nd floor
after that retarded event i don't even consider suicide when I'm depressed because I think back and remember it
anyways, in my experience suicide is some dumb shit idiot kids try to do when they cant cope
>>767397289
tried from 17- 24. Joined army infantry hoping to die. be reckless in firefight. Not taking cover and taking unecusarry risk like volunteering to open trucks of vbieds. after three deployments and still alive fall I to depression and alcoholism and get discharged. Trying to get on with security team in Mexico to find my battlefield funeral.
I wanna tell u faggots something. No outside force will fix your problems.
Realtionships. Money. Sex. Drugs. Drinking. Hobbies. All other addictions and distractions.
All this shit works for awhile but everything will keep bubbling up. And everytime it bubbles up its gonna be worse than the time b4.
We need to face our demons head on. We need to face our thoughts that are hurting us.
>>767407660
What should i say though? Im lost
>>767407524
So I was drunk and bored one time and I downloaded this gay little chat app on my phone it was lame at its core but nice to talk to people and have them talk back ya know. The reason this girl took interest was because I didn’t give a fuck and was just there to blow off steam. Probably made me seem like someone I’m not who knows. But I stuck with it we talked for a bit and lived an hour away so said fuck it let’s meet. Honestly meeting someone from the internet was pretty intimidating for me maybe it’s because I hang out here or something where everyone is either crazy or retarded but I said fuck it and it went from there. We would joke all the time about how stupid the way we met was she was there for the same reasons boredom and to blow off steam. That’s honestly the hope I have. It stems from that. I didn’t care at all about that chat or those people never in a million years thought I would talk to someone I actually liked but shit just happens I guess. Hoping some craziness like that happens again for me and all you other lonely faggots
>19
>drunk
>friends said I tried to jump off a bridge into freeway
>>767397634
Dawg
>>767408013
>>767408013
"What do u mean by prolly wont be a good idea?". No more. No less.
>>767408013
>>767408167
This. Perfect.
>>767397289
16, had a debilitating stomach condition that's unsolved, and there's no medication that helps. It hurts to breathe most days and I can't leave the house.
The only thing stopping me from doing it right now is the availability of methods. Been planning Helium inhalation for weeks, not able to secure a tank of pure helium yet though.
>>767408167
>>767408200
Should i txt her right now 4:43 pm
>>767408167
Also. Pretend you dont know anything about life and project your questions from there. Its fun.
Kinda like the socratic method
>>767397289
21
Felt like I lost all my friends and was go nowhere
Friend facetimed me because it was my birthday
>>767407590
Just keep it casual and mellow tell her you remember her from the bar and she seemed like a cool person and maybe just talk at first easy conversations like you’d have with your friends or something and ask if she’d like to hang out or something. Honestly the longer you wait the more weird it seems but maybe not hard to judge not knowing you two or your situation first hand. Just start talking to her and feel her out see if she’d like to get to know more about you. It doesn’t have to be a huge deal or pressure, you don’t want someone who makes you feel pressured anyways. Take this win a grain of salt also I’m the worst person to give dating advice. Bottom line though be yourself it’s not worth the effort and eventual heartbreak of trying to be someone you’re not. If she likes you it will all work out if she doesn’t she isn’t worth the time my man
>16
>One of my wealthier friends basically paid for me to go to Thailand with him and our other friends (complete spontaneous trip) and I had been up for nights on amphetamines so I was feeling fucked up as it was and then my mother was hiding my passport from me not allowing me to leave
>I tried hanging myself, got to the death rattle, regained consciousness and saved myself. Lay in bed depressed, mother eventually gave me it and off i went
>>767408366
Fuck ya. There is no better time than now. Now.
If u do it in the future it gives you to much time to overthink it.
Youre gonna get a rush of emotions(anxiety) but just go with it. This will not kill u. Emotions are good
>>767397289
>16
>tired of being told what to do
>nothing, I woke up puking blood with ringing ears and begged my parents to take me to the hospital out of natural instinct
>22
>tired of living in a society
>nothing, I was found by my roomate who desperately needed to use the bathroom after I had passed out from blood loss.
>26
>there is no turning back
>I want to spend another year getting shitface drunk, we all die eventually
23
Messy breakup, being kicked out of my house, academic and artistic failure, failure to relate to anyone around me
Weed and mescaline
>>767408283
Do you not own a sink. The only bad part about drowning is the panic. It is quite painless. One huff of water and the you will automatically take the second huff of water. By then you are already blacking out. Take water nap forever. I drown when I was 12. son of a bitch guard brought me back.
>>767407584
Do your thoughts slow down after u do this? I fucking cry out my pain to get my thoughts slowed down
>>767397289
This morning around 3am... Honestly still don't know why I didn't...
>>767408682
I'd freak the fuck out before I took the first gulp mate, not possible.
>>767408366
>>767408520
Once again, this. This anon has the right attitude. Either it works out, or it doesn't and you can forget about her and look for others. The worst thing is to not know and to never find out (good god the regrets I have from not asking).
>>767408854
How can you regret anything if it taught u just a little bit about life?
I popped a months worth of anti depression medication in hopes it would kill me, just had crazy seizures and weird trip in my truck. Crazy experience, I thought I had all the answers to life's questions, and thought that I was going to go to hell for sure. I thought a lot of weird shit. The hardest part was my phone died and could not call a ambulance, thought for sure I was going to die. Then I had to drive out of that situation and I had to steal gas from a random shed cause I ran out of gas. Fucked up time I wish I could erase it from my memeory. Overdosed on heroin many times. Am suprised I am still alive with drunk driving incident Where I almost flipped my truck over a massive cliff. I think I escaped death on a few occasions. Now I think I might have permanent brain damage and worry If I will do ok in college
>>767408689
crying doesn't work for me i'm a man of logic and reason not emotion
>>767408959
Nono, the regrets come from NOT asking, not finding out if she liked me too, passing my opportunity out of fear.
If that actually is what you're referring to, then I suppose I'm glad that the regret pushed me to taking chances and asking a girl I like out. I only regret that I never gave myself the possibility of those past crushes.
>>767408854
Ok guys im gonna fuckin do it the only question is do i play it cool or do i be myself and lay it all out on a line
>>767408839
You could run anything with a small engine in a closet. burn plastic in confined spaces. falling grace into an overturned lawn mower or thunderbath with a toaster. You should never kill yourself though (nervous glance at FBI agent in thread)
>>767409053
Good luck. Im working very hard at being the master of my thoughts and emotions. Pushing thoughts and emotions down for years really hurt me. Im sick and tired of hurting
>>767409053
Crying has a physiological effect on everyone, even if you're logical and analytical to a fault. It's a stress reliever and coping mechanism. There's a reason people feel better after crying.
>>767409164
Stop thinking. Ur giving yourself an emotional overload. Just text her the question. Wait for her response
>>767397289
>6 months ago
>lost
>jumped off a bridge naked in the night, guess I got lucky
>>767409164
You play it cool and take it slow. You'll find that if you put it all out there at once, it doesn't work. There's a natural progression of sharing that you'll get the rhythm of as you gain more experience.
>>767397289
17
Hate my life, full of trauma + no friends + not wanting to actually grow up
Nothing stopped me. i just didnt take enough medicine to die, after 3 attempts i gave up
>>767397289
>18
>Didn't get into college that I had been working for since I was 12, and also my dad died
>I hung myself with some old rope I found in my garage.
>After about 15 seconds the rope snapped and I came crashing to the ground.
>go in fetal position and start crying on the ground
I'll greentext what happened if enough people are interested. Still fucks me up to this day.
>>767409474
Share, anon. It's cathartic.
>be me
>depressed toddler
>remember saying "I wish I was never born" frequently
>be five
>hear thud in kitchen
>mother on ground, pool of blood
>call for step-dad
>compresses slit wrist and calls amberlamps
>she lives, does rehab
>now live with father, know suicide is a thing
>be six, no frenz (move too often to establish any as a military brat)
>abusive father, hateful step-mom
>miserable
>cry self to sleep nightly
>where'smymommy.jpeg
>learn about electric chair for some reason in first grade
>at home that night
>lightbulb.gif
>stick safety-pin into electrical outlet
>burn thumbnail off
>ouch
>>767409239
Truth bombs. I watch kids get hurt mentally or physically. They cry it out. They dont let anybody judge them. Then they go right back to what they were doing like nothing happened.
This works great for them till their parents ruin them by telling them emotions are bad. Well fuck these ppl that say emotions are bad
>>767409199
I mean, I live with my parents, don't want to do something that'd make a mess or put them in danger too, that's why I chose Helium and not say, /r9k/ fag's method
>19
>first gf dumped me after 4 years.
>I OD'd on Oxycodone and Flunitrazepam but somehow survived so I just went further with my life I guess.
>>767409561
Damn right. Emotions are tools for health and survival. They're very important to allow yourself to experience, and learn to deal with in a healthy way.
>>767409239
yeah but i don't feel better after crying it only stirs the pot for me i always feel worse i i'm in control of my emotions and when i'm not it makes me feel weak and pathetic and it makes me hate the ppl that made me lose control if i let my emotions run wild they would over take me
>>767409239
Its psyhcological not physiological
>>767409608
Think of someone else other than yourself and all your misery. By all means kill your self but do it in a place where some random people you don’t care about will find you. Kill yourself i.mn the woods or something not in your parents house. It would be worth the extra pain or whatever for the method of killing your self to do it in a place that won’t ultimately let your family find you
>>767409699
U are creating an internal conflict. Stop telling yourself emotions arent ok.
Its completely ok to feel hurt if somebody hurts you.
This takes practice
>>767409699
Acknowledging and feeling your emotions is no reason to feel weak. I know exactly what you mean, though, when you say you hate it when someone or something makes you lose control. I had terrible anger issues in my late teens. When overcome by rage I would hate myself, it was a feedback loop. But there are healthy ways of dealing with all of your emotions; what's not healthy is trying to ignore them--they don't go away, they stew and bubble up.
>>767409700
Crying has a physiologically cathartic effect. It translates into psychological benefits, but nonetheless.
>>767409942
Stfu. His parents created this problem.
U think this poor nigga just woke up to a long list of mental issues one day?
>>767409345
Ok i txted her a simple hey, how you doing? The balls in her court fuck it im ready for whatever
>>767409608
Hey. You had a problem, I Just trying to give solutions.
>>767409942
Good point, but I like the people here too much to do that. They're good people and we're a community, I'd rather not go to like, a park or something, I'd rather jump off a bridge or something if I knew it wouldn't hurt
>>767410097
Where did u find the answers to life? When where and how did this start?
We seem to be on the same page
>>767410253
I know, I'm thankful, just giving my opinions, my parents are good people, I've just been dealt an extraordinarily shit hand in life and I want out
Before school
I got confused because my parents were divorced
umm momentum
>>767410144
According to that anon, his troubles come from a chronic stomach illness. His home life might be problematic as well, or it just as well might not. Not everyone who wants to die has bad parents. Even so, I would still find it far preferable to run away than to end my life.
>>767410210
Or u could do that...how is this gonna answer your question about what her text meant?
>>767410144
Yes of course I do. His parents didn’t create any of his problems. He created them himself. Some people just seem to think misery is company. If his parents put a roof over his head and food on his place they did their job. He is his own person and that comes with its own set of responsibilities. Just because mommy and daddy couldn’t give him every little convenience that he would like doesn’t mean it’s there fault he is a miserable slob who can’t take enough control of his life to make it enjoyable
>>767410261
Find out if it hurts. I’m sure it doesn’t, but who knows. Hurting is the least of your problems if it’s going to end soon anyways.
Just don’t do it in their house that’s disrespectful and a total dick move
>>767410477
If his parents taught him how to deal with his problems he wouldnt be trying to commit suicide
>>767410477
My home life's brilliant, I love my parents, it's just this stomach problem's ruined my life so fucking much, we don't know what's caused it, nothing helps the pain, it keeps me up at night, stopped me from going to school so my education's completely fucked, I can't go outside to meet with friends without breaking down and clutching my stomach in pain every 5 minutes
I don't want to live like this, the NHS has done fuck all to help us, and we don't have the money to go for private healthcare. £200 on Helium tank, CPAP mask, and tubing is a fuckton cheaper than £xxx,xxx on private healthcare bills.
>>767409954
i had a bad childhood and for a long time during it i lost all emotion i couldn't feel anything at all it's called pathetic or benumb and i don't feel much of anything now to it's not that easy for me and i'm not sure if it's bad i think for me personally it works but i'm not most ppl
>>767410657
My parents taught me how to deal with problems, it's just that the pain is way too much to bear, it hurts to breathe most days
>>767410505
I got a good chuckle out of that
>>767410505
You sir have no clue on my situation mate
>>767410489
That text was from sunday we were both drunk
>>767410694
i meant apathetic not pathetic
>>767408283
debilitating stomach condition
>>767410694
I had to read a few books on emotions to find out what they were and how to use them. All i knew b4 was anger. Then drinkin that anger away. Never ending daily cycle
>>767397725
>fag
>>767410913
My dad actually compares me to Kurt, and funnily enough, Pennyroyal tea is one of my favourite songs of theirs
I got blonde hair (Used to be long, cut it off for charity), stomach problem, musician, etc
>>767410838
Stop drinking immediately. Then start working on the mental issues that cause your drinking
>>767410312
Well, it certainly wasn't the answers to life that I found, thankfully resolving that particular problem didn't require anything so all-encompassing, even being that it was basically the biggest issue in my life, and the thing about myself that I hated most.
The first step was recognizing that I absolutely hated being in that state. I remember the last time it happened to me. I was probably about 17. I was furious with my sister, but anguish accompanied my fury. I hated being like that, not in control of myself, so angry it was scary to my mom and sister. I holed myself up in my room, my fury leading to anguish, and my anguish leading back into fury.
Anyway, the following day, after apologizing for my behavior, I told my mom I wanted help. She didn't send me to a shrink, she didn't get my put on pills, she sent me to a calm and quiet counselor (the same who had helped my sister in her youth following a traumatic experience of her own). He talked through my anger with me and helped me consider where it was coming from. He helped me cope with it, and express and release it in healthy ways. It helped me immensely, and to this day it's exceedingly difficult to get my truly angry. I can respond to upset people calmly and rationally, and it's done wonders for me (especially shutting down an emotional coworker or two in front of a boss, where they broke down into tears because they knew they couldn't just be angry and vile in front of him).
I've grown in countless ways since then, too. It all comes down to introspection, honesty with yourself, and earnestly working on improving those things about yourself that you don't like.
>>767397289
>17
>no friends, felt like a psychopath, hadn't cried in years.
>After sitting in the car for 2 hours, parked at the bridge I was going to jump off of, I realized I didn't want to die for a world that gave me nothing.
>>767411146
>>767397289
>14 or 15
>Lost all friends, the girl I liked fucked my best friend and everybody hated me
>Thinking about my family, mainly my dog
Nowadays I live a happy life as a law student with the girl I love and becoming and alcoholic, but that's just a law student thing
>>767397289
>was 26
>raging alcoholic had to move back in with dad after being evicted and losing career
>woke up after a blackout with a loaded shotgun on the coffee table in front of me
>>767411146
What? Dude it was my 21st b day on sunday i havnt drank since those texts were 2 days old from the same night we got drunk together my new txt from today was the hey how you doing txt
>>767397289
>So,,,He was behind of it?
>>767411192
They say anger always covers up pain...this was/is very true for me.
I appreciate the effort you have put into your life
>>767408283
exit bag?
cowards way out.
Almost exactly 4 years ago, I was taking an OTC allergy medication that has an off-label use as an antidepressant. I was taking it for anxiety/depression, not because I had allergies. I was going through a lot. My wife and I were struggling with infertility and fighting constantly, and I had just met and started going out with my new female coworker, who I really liked a lot, although she only saw me as a friend apparently. Though, now I'm not so sure about that. Anyway, one night, I was working late in my office, and everything that had been going wrong just felt like it came to a head, and I started bawwwwwing my eyes out.
I have a heavy wooden door to my office, similar to the door in Mad Men where Lane Pryce hanged himself, and I took my belt off and started to try to make it stick by the buckle in the top of the door when I closed the door, but I couldn't figure out how to loop it, and I didn't figure my tie would hold a 280 lb guy, thus resulting in a painful and probably unsuccessful attempt.
Then, it suddenly occurred to me exactly what the hell I was trying to do, and I emailed one of those suicide prevention services, and we talked for awhile via email. I decided not to follow through with it, and weirdly enough, my wife ended up pregnant like 3 months later, and we weren't fighting as much. I'm still in love with my coworker, and I have little doubt now that she has feelings for me as well, but she won't act on them while I'm with my wife, but I just love spending time with her when I can and finding ways to make her happy. My relationship with my wife is better than it was then in some ways, but I'd still leave her for my coworker if she ever asked me to, but since that will never happen, I think things are in a stable and livable situation.
>>767411320
Why do u drink?
>>767411451
Read above, got parents in the house who I actually care for, don't want to leave a mess.
Besides, suicide's the coward route anyways, so fuck off. I don't care about being a coward. I just don't want to have to wake up in pain anymore.
>>767410712
>>767410671
Thank you for being open and candid, anon. That's very important in light of someone assuming the root of your issues to the public.
I'm really sorry to hear your difficulties in finding help for your pain. I assume you're a fellow American? You might try sending a letter to Canada begging for their help in getting diagnosed. I know it's been done before.
>>767410657
I had great pain when I was younger too, though they certainly weren't physical like anon's. My parents taught me how to deal with it as well, but it was only when I matured enough that their lessons cemented and truly gave me the tools to improve/maintain health and happiness.
>>767411604
Nah, britfag here mate. NHS ain't doing shit for me and I can't afford private healthcare without a GOFUNDME or something, I'm not worth it anyways
>>767411454
Ur a piece of shit.
Dont reproduce.
>>767397289
>Age
19
>Reason
Was working dead end job at the time. Had wicked abusive controlling GF at the time. Picked manlift up all the way at work was gonna jump out at 90 feet in the air.
>What stopped me
Watching the sunset watching all the people below. Letting the wind blow through my hair. I wasn't gonna end it like this I was gonna be happy like the people below Put lift down. Broke up with GF sold my truck and a project vehicle. Lived off the money and drove my little beater car for like two months did what I wanted to do and started a career.
>>767411442
>They say anger always covers up pain
Absolutely agreed. When being honest with myself and the person I was talking to, it became clear that that's where my anger came from, and I had plenty of it in my teenage years. Even now when I find myself slipping into anger, I can trace it back to pain I'm experiencing.
>I appreciate the effort you have put into your life
Thanks, anon. I've worked very hard on it and I feel like I've made massive strides, and have much more to learn still. I know you can do it too, if you're not already on the way there. Good luck anon.
>17
>Couple months ago
>I've struggled with depression for a while, and been hating myself and my family situation for a really long time
>Get in a huge fight with family
>Sad and confused and hurt
>Overwhelmed with emotion and tried to down a bottle of pills.
>Didn't work, and I didn't have the balls to do it again
Situation hasn't changed at all, but I had one hell of a trip because of the pills.
>>767410769
>>767410819
That’s fair I don’t know you or your problems at all. I’m just generalizing the situation. What makes you think your owed so much?
>>767411662
Of course you're worth it anon, you're clearly a kind and intelligent person. Tbh if I was over there and in your position I'd be asking France, Germany, or even South Korea for help. All the while being an incessantly greasy wheel for the NHS, of course.
>>767412214
I'm not, just sorta thought that even though I'm basically a walking disaster, I'm technically still human and should be treated with some semblance of respect regarding the reasoning behind my future death
>>767412182
Got a qt gf since, though. Solid 9/10
>>767412307
What'd they do for me though? There's no point in it, I'm a lost cause, we're waiting on a capsule camera, and then they'll put it down to IBS and give me medication I've already tried and know doesn't work
>>767411587
That is where you are wrong. Suicide takes tremendous courage, and if you think that having your mother finding your lifeless body strapped to a red canister is less traumatic than her finding you hanging? Or being found under a bridge? Once you die, you simply stop existing. Death will be the last thing someone who commits suicide will ever feel, wouldn't someone want to impact themselves before they die?
Also, killing yourself is a commitment. Once you jump or pull the trigger, there is absolutely no turning back. The flood of emotions and, dare I say it, excitement of something someone could only experience once in their lifetime is non existent when you can just take off a mask after a minute of reconsidering your actions.
>>767397289
>13
>my dad said that i was useless and didn't do shit all day besides maturbating, got really sad because he knew i masterbate
>my brother stabbed me in the arm while i was trying to cut it, but because he just sitcked the fucking knife right through my arm, i panicked and went to hospital
>>767412314
Honestly I don’t know what you’ve posted at all I didn’t bother to read. But don’t blame your misery on anyone but yourself. That’s cool if you want to end your problems go for it I hope it works out for you but fuck don’t blame your shit life on others for not giving you the life you want but aren’t willing to put in the effort to make for yourself. Everyone is their own person and are responsible for their own actions and the outcome of their own life. Life is manupulatable and if your truly wanted a life that you enjoy you could have that. You are just tired and don’t want to put in the effort. That’s no ones fault but possibly your own. Maybe not even your own fault maybe it’s jusg the way you are
>>767412460
It takes courage to carry on, and I've tried carrying on for 3 years now, coming on 4 somewhat soon, and I just can't go on like this. It IS a cowards choice, you're deciding to stop everything rather than facing problems. I'd say it's understood why in my case, but then again, everyone has reasons but nobody has sympathy for those.
>>767412597
Hey, I didn't choose to have a condition that's left me without any life prospects, where I wake up crying in pain every day, where I can't go outside to meet with friends because I can barely get down the stairs, a life where I have nothing going for me, where the mere act of existing is painful. Don't blame me for having a stomach condition I didn't choose to have, I didn't give it to myself, didn't decide suddenly "Hey, today I'm going to cripple myself and ruin my entire fucking life".
Fuck right off.
>>767412460
Do you really think mom cares what method of suicide you use? The point is it’s a horrible situation to find you at all.
Also the reason you think suicide takes so much courage is because you are glorifying suicide. Which is easy for someone to do who has never actually done it( which kid of is redundant.)
Most people who commit suicide don’t see the action as glorified as you do. It’s a miserable act, which happens to be better than their even more miserable situation that they are in
>>767402659
Heroin did it for me
>>767412903
Oi, cunt, I'm the one who's considering, not him.
It'd be easier if /b/ had tripcodes
>>767412397
The point is that the more specialists you talk to, the more likely one of them will recognize whatever esoteric condition you might have and will try to help, that you might live without pain.
I know it's easy for me to say, but I could never give up. It's a mentality impressed onto me by my dad, the most resilient and determined person I've ever known. Be angry with the pain, be angry with the system that's slow to help, do everything in your power to get the help you require. I know it's not even comparable, but I had to stubbornly fight my insurance for YEARS after a terrible and costly accident put me in the hospital, but I kept on them until they did right by me.
>>767412903
>>767412988
I posted this response
>>767412635
>>767412757
Yeah fair bro. Like I said I was generalizing I didn’t know you were the stomach dude. That’s some shit chronic pain is one of the actual reasons I could justify killing yourself. Hope you reach the right conclusion
>>767413046
Thank you.
Never attempted.
Have a perfect life. High paying job, hot wife, two beautiful kids, nice house.
Some will laugh but it's taken me a very long time to realize mdd is a real thing, just like type 1 diabetes.
Hopefully gut research comes through.
>>767412988
>>767413043
I’m drunk and don’t care really can’t be fucked to go back and tell who is who like I said I was generalizing you guys can kill yourself if u want go for it
>>767413266
Aight, go drink yourself to death, whatever.
>>767397725
faggot
got bored driving on the high way was just kind of thinking about crashing into the emergency turn.
i got into a serious car accident driving home from friend's moms house. it was mother's day friend's mom just bitched at me for the present i gave her. i had a seizure driving home. on my day party she just talked crap about me.
>17
>depressed
>took 3 pills of xanax
>be me
>be 15
>In an amazing relationship with a beautiful girl
>She is funny and cute and adventurous and she made me be a better person
>I call her one day
>she says she cares about me too much to keep leading me on
>I don't understand what she's talking about
>She says she hasn't loved me for months and doesn't want to hurt me
>I tell her I don't care and if our relationship was only one sided then I could live with it
>Tell her all I need is her
>She says she's sorry and she hopes I find someone I deserve
>Hangs up
>Attempted suicide 3 times in a week
>tried drowning myself
Woke up facing up
>Tried hanging myself
Chickened out
>Tried shooting myself with my parents hunting rifle
no bullets
>We got back together a while after that and she doesn't know about any of that and I don't think I'll ever tell her
It would hurt her too much to know what she caused
>>767412903
Don't get courage confused with strength. If my statement was confusing, I digress it. Suicide is a miserable act, I agree with you. I don't promote it, I don't accept it, and I don't understand it. In my eyes, the last minutes of your life should be worth noting. If you are leaving this world because you truly believe you cannot possible make a difference, why not try and make that difference with your suicide. Risking sounding disrespectful, it's a waste of an opportunity, an opportunity that wasn't just given to you, but an opportunity you made yourself.
>>767399472
Damn anon, I wish you luck on what I couldn't do
>>767397289
Vaporwave saved my life.
>>767413339
I probably will. But I do enjoy drinking so atleast I’m not going to purposely kill myself like some sad faggot. Being sad is a teenager thing get over it and make yourself happy you lazy fag
>inb4 edgelord, plebit, e-celeb. etc
Ive never been suicidal but throughout the entirety of my life ive been extremely apathetic to almost everything. there are very few highs and only very low lows. Ive never attempted to kill myself but ive put a gun in my mouth and feathered the trigger at the age of 20 at a very low low. it was strange to truly realize in that moment that i have that choice in my back pocket at any moment. I wouldnt judge anyone for wanting to kill themselves as, it is your life. The only way i would judge though is 20 yo's who go through a bad breakup or dont see themselves advancing fast enough in life compared to others around them. Its usually never too late to pick your life back up. chances are youll be alright. I only say this because its cliche but its kinda true. You never know what tomorrow can bring. Ive had really heavy times of my life that have been awful for 6+ months at a time. then all of a sudden days that completely change the course of my life for the better. Life is weird man. That is pretty much the only reason i havent offed myself yet. If i ever get some sort of terminal illness or straight up get too curious, then i think ill go out by my own hands.
This video kinda helped me with the idea that its not the worst thing to do. I dont expect anyone to watch it. I copied the link that the beginning of the speach. takes a bit to actually get to anything heavy.
https://youtu.be/1Jxsfa8spyw?t=526
>>767414097
I've tried for 3 years, sorta hard when I can't do shit about a chronic stomach issue that limits my movement you dumb cunt. I hope you choke on that bottle you inconsiderate prick.
Age:
>Be around thirteen
Why:
>Live in a paki fag city ("culturally enriched"). >Literally had 1 friend most of the time because I was seen as the "only white kid".
>Live in a welfarefag house (community housing) in a shitty neighborhood.
>Lose my only friend because we spent a lot of time together and his nutty biker dad thought I was turning him gay or some shit (I'm not gay)
>Realize how stupid and insignificant my life is and that I'll probably never get out of this shithole (still haven't at 18)
>Every summer I spent locked away in my room playing on the PC.
>Eventually got into a big fight with my mother because I was spending too much time inside and didn't have any friends, essentially didn't fit into her ideals of what is acceptable as a person.
>At this point have a breakdown, leading to the whole killing myself thoughts thing.
What stopped me:
>Get into high school and meet some nice people who aren't dickheads to me because of my skin color. Also realize that death is probably just eternal blackness so fuck that shit my man, I intend to ride out my existence wave to it's end.
>>767397289
>be freshman in high school
>frankfurt germany
>go to walk across the street
>walking in-between 2 big ass parked trucks
>buddy grabs me and pulls me back
>giant bus flys by
>almost inadvertently kill myself
shit was so close
>>767397289
>age: 5
>reason: clairvoyance
>as I was about to plunge the knife into my chest with all the effort I could muster, I considered the tale of the shmoo.
>>767414306
Stop wanting to spread your misery you retarded faggot. I will go live my normal life. It sucks for you for drawing the short straw but if you really wish people would be as miserable as you are just go kill your self faggot
>>767414910
dude you're not helping stop.
>>767414910
I'm fucking trying to, cunt. It'd be nice if you weren't in the gene pool either you fucking reprobate.
>>767414511
Clairvoyance isn’t real, you should have killed yourself
>>767415106
love you
>>767415022
Helping? This miserable prick just told me I should die too. Anybody who is in a sad situation like that and wishes it on others should not be taken seriously. This fag should go kill him self already like why wait? Is he just gunna bitch and Moan or do what he claims he wanted to do all along?
>>767415753
Because maybe I don't have the current ability to.
>>767415753
i know what your saying and i understand but this is a sensitive topic you both should stop
~14.
I had been feeling hopeless for about half a decade then; get specially an hero-ish after a discussion with my mother where she basically told me she wished I was never born.
Decide that was it, I was gonna commit suicide that night.
Actually attempt to hang myself; "rope" (a shitty scarf) loosens and I fall on my ass before passing out. Would've tried again, but decided to binge watch Happy Tree Friends (yup) and cry for the rest of the night.
>>767416048
you both just need to leave the thread please
>>767415187
>5 year old believes in clairvoyance
>he should kill himself
Wow, careful not to cut yourself with that edge
>as
>>767397289
>Had my M9 (Beretta 92FS) locked, loaded, and safety off to my head, finger off the trigger.
>22
>Depressed as shit, deployed, some PTSD mixed in
>fear, cowardice
Don't like to talk about it
>>767397289
>>age
First time I remember was about 9, but stepped that shit up aged 13-14
>>reason
Was being molested
>>what stopped you
Left home age 15. Started drinking, drugs, got in with people I thought were looking out for me. Still felt like shit but finally had some hope.
3 years ago
I'm 20
I can't seem to be able to socialize at all. Problem still exists.
Played around with a knife and entertained the idea of jumping off my balcony.
Turns out I never really wanted to harm myself I'm only mad that I'm an outcast
>>767397289
Last year I was in a dark place couldn't get a gf i was gaining weight and drinking a lot almost lost my job.
My friend and his gf came over to get drunk and have a fire his gf brought a friend over she was a cute 19 year old I'm 22, I tried to talk to her through out the night she talked to me a bit but not lots so I felt like she wasn't into me so it made me more depressed.
They ended up leaving at 4am and I'm in my room listing to music drunk off my ass texting my friend and we both agreed she didn't seem into me, I had a knife on my desk and I started playing with it thinking about how shit my life is going and how I could just end it all so i started to do small cuts into my arm thinking how I could just push harder and pull and then down the rest of my booze and lay there and fade away.
I did one deep cut and chugged my booze I was bleeding a good amount so I went and laid in my bed and passed out.
I woke up the next day sore and feeling sick with blood everywhere, then I look at my phone and see a number texted me 2 times I looked and it was the girl saying sorry she didn't talk much she was tired from work and how she thinks I'm cute and would like to get to know me.
Today I'm in happy relationship with her and everytime I wake up in the morning and see her face I'm happy I didn't die that night.
Be 10
>Shat pants in school
>whole class found out
>knew I would get made fun of for eternity
>went home chugged chemical cleaning solvent
>felt sleepy passed out
>woke up in the morning and went to school
19
Guilt and general nihilism
The belt I hung myself with broke and I lost courage after that
>>767397289
I was 18. Depressed about everything. Hated being ugly. Didn't do well in high school so I was going nowhere in life. Went into the washroom when my family was out and slit my throat. It turns out that slitting your throat is not easy. It's not like the movies where you make one little cut and start gushing out blood. I was in there cutting myself for like 2 hours with razor blades and then I tried moving on to scissors and kitchen knives. Bled a lot. Passed out a couple of times. Not enough blood loss to die though. Family came home. Got suspicious about what I was doing. Told them I was just taking a long shit. They didn't believe me. Looked under the gap in the door and saw the blood on the floor. Called 911. Cops, firefighters, and paramedics showed up. They told me to open the door. I refused. They tried to unlock it and did, but I sat on the floor in front of the door and tried to keep it closed by pushing with my legs. Firefighters broke the whole apart. I passed out again. A few minutes later I woke up with paramedics working on me. I had some bandages around my neck. I ripped them off. The cops had to handcuff me. Hoisted me onto a stretcher and then into an ambulance. I was in a daze and being a total dick to the paramedics and everybody else. Calling them names and such. They didn't get mad. Got to the hospital. A bunch of doctors started wheeling me around. They did an MRI. And then two doctors, one veteran surgeon and one resident (she was a real cutey) started working on me. The resident was really nice. She held my hand through half the procedure. And then she came to my room after when I was resting and sat there with me for a while until my family was allowed in.
>>767416809
damn bad luck. did you not know of bleach.
>>767397289
>19
>I ran away from home because of abuse
>I was assaulted from a group of shit faces when I ran away and lost my money and other precious things like my laptop, phone, etc.
>I slept near a bridge, within an wearhouse
>walked over to the bridge
>was about to fucking jump
>when suddenly a wild dog looked at me
>it was a stray
Today I live with my dog, and it's a lil nice apartment after trying and working hard.
>>767417366
Do you believe in God? Because I don't, but despite that, I've been thinking of starting to visit the church etc
>17
>break-up/depresion
>realizing that only faggots an hero, and this OP is no faggot.
Had my brothers loaded rifle in my mouth with my finger on the trigger
Stopped because I thought about what it would do to my mother
I was 18
I should have done it tbh
>>767418112
Relatable. The only reason why I am still alive is because of the promise I made to my mother, that neither of us will ever kill ourselves, no matter how bad it gets. It just sucks to hang around in a forced manner, but if it keeps my mother sane, it's worth it.
I've tried many times but only time that matters is the most recent on phone no green text
Be 2 years ago
Super shitty life only person i have is my older brother
Dudes got new gf he can't see she's a lazy manipulative cunt
We plan on getting place together but bro loses job
I NEED to move can't stay with Mom never got along she's crazy and abusive as fuck
Long story short they didn't get jobs for 4 months stayed smoking weed and eating some how while i workd doubles and triple shifts to pay all bills.
Met girl bro basically tells me i should move in with her and says I'm not paying you back a fucking cent
I was dead set ready to go on a fucking murder spree i bought 2 pistols and a SKS loads of ammo was gonna triple homicide mom bro and his slut and then suicide by cop/see how long it can handle the heat
What stopped? Me my new girlfriend showed me she loved me and was worth living for I've got no one but her if that goes we ALL go
>>767418257
I've been in limbo for 6 years since
Therapy didn't help
Everybody in my family resents me for me doing nothing with my life
Mother essentially hates me now and I really have nothing
I'm pretty close as it is now lol
>>767418424
We're in the same situation. Just keep existing until you die naturally, that's what I'm doing. Don't worry, Death will have us eventually. But let's not fuck others up with our deaths.
>>767418752
Its too bland for me
Its all so boring and dry
Hey there, are you ok? Hang in there. Please.
>>767418424
The only person I told how I was feeling was the family doctor on a visit home, he told me to tell my parents how I was feeling. I went back to another city 2 days later
>>767397289
A year ago
42 yo
Was looking over the edge of a cliff with a 200 foot drop
Dont know I just didnt
>>767417610
Nah but the bottle had a big red warning label so I thought that would do it
>multiple times 15 to today
>My life is depressing and empty, and according to everyone I'm just whiny
>The only thing stopping me is the pain, and how there's a tiny part of me that believes in hell
Hey there, are you ok? Hang in there. Please.
Life is precious maybe talk a walk and laugh at a comedy show or two.
>>767397289
>14
>i was autistically in love with math teacher and will no longer see her (summer vacations)
>being 14 and a pussy
Also when I turned 17 and no friends called me or texted me. This was a lot more powerfull urge but shorter, in the 14 one i spent weeks depressed crying. I guess.. I dont know bro
>>767397931
turn off and on your router, normie
>>767401517
autismo
>>767399472
WE NEED THE BIGGEST ARMY POSSIBLE TO STOP SJWS FROM GETTING INTO THIS SITE
DON'T GIVE UP NOW ANON
>>767420148
You're not wrong. Life is boring, nothing has any meaning. It's same thing every day, right? Yet, we will keep on living because, like I said, suicide is just retarded because it has potential to fuck your whole family up. Don't worry buddy, we will get rest in the end.
>13
>depressed not seeing any value in life
>I dropped the knife and fell to my knees crying therefore no knife to throat anymore
honestly since i still see no value in my life but why not see this shit through
>>767397289
Not sure what stopped me. I filled up the tub and got a knife. Was ready to go. I got in the tub and i think my mom texted me actually. So i just stopped
>>767397289
>20
>Girl I had a thing for over multiple years hooks up and ghost me for the fourth time
>Failing out of college
>Get drunk af
>Mad drunk
>Go up to 32nd floor of the place im staying at
>Look at the ground
>Say it'll only hurt for a second
>Elevator opens
>Guy in scrubs must have just got off his shift
>Looks at me
>Says you ok?
>Realize oh fuck
>Say yeah
>Tells me I should go home and drink some water
>Spend the next year drunk every day
Finally out of it now and realized it was a dumb fucking idea but glad that guy was there
>>767397289
>22
>can't remember
>something came up
>Be me
>22
>Girlfriend tells me something that hits me right in the feels
>Tells me I'm not the 1st guy to say "Lies" to her
>Leaves
>Depressed as fuck
>A song that i know that always makes me super sad plays
>Pulls out my Beretta
>Loads one in the chamber
>Shoves it in mouth
>Life flashes before my eyes
>Thinking about all the good times I've had in life
>Thinks about all the good times with my mom, my friends, my girlfriend and now fiance
>Too much of a pussy to pull trigger
>Pussy out and go to bed
>Pic related
>>767406357
Kill them both
never
