Anyone else got shit on their mind they need to vent?
>be me
>18 yo faggot
>not really, pussy still good but also like dick
>been a secret for my whole life, no reason to really come out to anyone
>also parents uber religious so there's another reason
>senior in highschool, all boys religious school
>laying low just trying to get out of school and switch states for college
>hanging out in halls during lunch one day and guy comes up to me and says hi and introduces himself as ryan
>ryan is extremely cute and chad and i kinda know him through friends
>asks me what im doing alone here rather than with friends or playing something
>explain that I just like to chill and read during lunch
was reading ready player one at the time, god damn that book is so good, anyways
>"is that ready player one?"
>"yeah, you know of it?"
>"dude I fucking love that book," he says
>wutface.jpg
>this chad likes this book? I mean I know it's not just for nerds or whatever but still surprised me that he could even read
>discuss the book for the rest of the lunch period, laughing and arguing
>bell rings
>"well gtg anon i'll see you around" and flashes me a smile
>i fucking melt
>next day at lunch comes to hang out with me in same spot and we talk about other things
>have a lot of the same interests, same genre of music, movies, books and everything in between
>discuss for hours every week just about these things
>eventually gives me his snap and we text on there even more
>theres obviously a connection more than just a friendship here, and I think he felt it too.
>this goes on for months at lunch, eventually we're sitting really close together at times and just cuddling almost
>he touches me a lot, almost every chance he can, whether it's just play hitting while arguing to full on hands rubbing my thighs
>feelsgood.jpg
>still part of my mind that says this is a prank or some shit, this can't be real maybe the whole football team is on it or something
will cont running out of space
please continue please
bump
this cute damn
cont:
>month and half later of constant hanging out go to same spot, excited to see ryan
>get there and wait for him
>hasn't shown up when he usually does
>decide he's got something else like a test
>pull out lunch and book to read and pass the time hoping he'll show up at any minute with an explanation
I was reading the martian, so fucking good yo
>doesn't show up today, or the next or for the rest of the week
>try and look for him on campus, pretty big though so I can't find him and I don't know his classrooms
>also try texting him, no response
>maybe he just fuckin died this man fell off the radar
>saturday that week he texts me
>"hey sorry I've just been thinking about things and I've had some shit going on, want to come over to my house and play some street fighter or something? my parents are gone for the day and they won't let me leave the house"
>hell fucking yeah I do
>respond yeah I'll come over and chill I got nothing going on anyways
>gives me address say I'll be over within the hour
>all the sudden my fucking heart drops and anxiety takes over
>this is it, this is when I find out I've been getting pranked the whole time
>somehow manage to get over there without throwing up and backing out
>ring door, hear footsteps
>there that beautiful motherfucker is, amazing face and hot ass body, he's wearing a tank top
>almost bust on the spot
>god damn i'm such a faggot
>invites me in, asks if I want anything
>yeah your ass "nah I'm good thanks though"
>we go upstairs to his room
>anime posters, video game posters and books galore
>love this guy god damn it's so cool in his room
>street fighter wait screen is there as promise
>eventually get over anxiety and settle in, feeling more comfortable with him
>sitting on floor playing, really close nudging each other during battles
>it's 50/50 and he's actually a formidable opponent
>can't lose this fucking game
>got him screwed about to finish off his ass with special when he steals my controller
cont.
this is good, i like this
Please cont.
>>767337231
>Anyone else got shit on their mind they need to vent?
No; I think I've just given up.
SKREEEEEEEE
>>767338571
Don't give up anon :(
cont:
>this fucking bitch really thinks this is how he's going to win? hell fucking no
>attempt to grab controller back but he pulls it away
>alright there's no fucking way Imma get this back he's athletic as fuck and im not
>he jumps on bed as I desperately chase
>hop on top of him and try and get controller
>actually rip it from his hand when I pin his arm
>victory is mine
>i get up from bed to try and finish the game
>all the sudden feel pressure around my waist
>this motherfucker has his legs wrapped around me like an anaconda even though im not on a plane
>using the sheer muscles in his legs, throws me back on bed and pins me
>I'm clutching this fucking controller he will never have the victory
>realizes he won't get the controller with force
>goes for one of the most disgusting ways to get something else from a human
>he fucking tickles me and I almost instantly let go of the controller
I hate being tickled I will not hesitate to kill someone if they are tickling me by the way
>I'm rolling in laughter, he's not stopping even though I let go of the controller
>suddenly stops while completely over me with a cute ass grin
>we hold eye contact for about 15 seconds when he starts leaning down on me
>heart drops
>our lips touch and we're kissing
first kiss by the way cya virgins
>full on making out letting out all our sexual tension in one heavy session
>his lips feel so fucking good against mine, turns out I like kissing
>all of the sudden BANG
>we both look up,
>it was the fucking controller that hit the ground
>we look back at each other and start fucking cracking up
>he leans down again and we're making out again, we flip sides cause im not beta wtf
>stop and just lay down on his chest and sit there and cuddle
>let out a deep sigh, not a bad one, just a relief.
cont.
>>767338718
I havn't truly given up, but I don't think that's saying much anymore.
>>767338839
>first kiss by the way cya virgins
REEEEEEEEEE
>our lips touch and we're kissing
>first kiss by the way cya virgins
T__T
op fucked a guy. does this count?
cont:
>"sorry for ignoring you," he says breaking the silence
>I don't respond, he's obviously going somewhere
>"it's just- I didn't know how I truly felt and I didn't want to seem like I'd been leading you on for nothing that'd just be a dick move."
>I agree
>"I'm glad I found you anon, you've really straightened things out for me, I hope you feel the same"
>"cut the cliche cute shit ryan I just made out with you isn't it clear"
>he laughs, "thank you"
>spend the rest of the day cuddling, making out and playing vidya
>one of the best days of my life
>see him in school on monday everything feels the same, even better not awkward.
I really found someone, is this what love feels like? I decided it was and I decided to trust him with everything.
>We keep hanging out and spending all our time together, we just can't seem to get enough of each other
>after a month of making out and cuddling we decide to take it farther, I mean it's obvious we both are pent up and horny as fuck
>pick him up from his house on the weekend one day to go see a movie
It was the martian hell fucking yeah
>see movie, it was great he was getting touchy and I had to put him off because I fucking love movies
>miss me with that gay shit
>driving home and we park somewhere remote because penis touching time
>we don't even say anything we're just all over each other
>he has a 7 inch dick that looks threatening
>also uncut reeeeeeee
>I'm sitting over here with a 6 inch at best, girth is good though
>he sucks me and then I him, can barely fit it's fucking big yo
>we end up making out and jerking each other off
>heavy breathing and suddenly we both bust
>I was on bottom and we came so much, all over me
>fucking disgusting I look like I was just birthed by an alien
>we both start cracking up because we literally busted at the same second
>kiss and clean up, felt so good to have someone else jerk me off
>addicted to him and his body, it doesn't seem we can get enough of each other
CONT.
>>767339672
>>767338839
>>767338094
>>767337231
hell is forever you vile sodomite
go fucking kill yourself
>>767340013 why would he kill himself to go to your forever hell? clearly he'll want to stay alive as long as possible now
>>767339672
>penis touching time
cont:
>only two more weeks until Christmas break, we're still spending almost every day together.
>been together for about 2 months now since the initial make out, and here is where I think I made my mistake of this story
We never made anything official, maybe it was too early or he was uncomfortable with the whole thing and his sexuality I really don't know. I was new to dating so I didn't know when to say something and he was the Alpha of the relationship anyways. Maybe I should have clarified where we were in a relationship...
>talking about christmas dance, we both agree to bring a girl friend as to not show anything to our friend group
>I wasn't ready to come out anyways
>took one of my really good friends and explained the situation to her to see if she was okay with me ditching her to spend time with him at times
>she didn't care she was there to meet a guy form my school anyways
>it all worked out except with ryan
>he was bringing liz
Now liz isn't a bad person, but ryan did tell me he had the hots for her before things between him and I escalated, I called him out on it when he was texting her non-stop during sometimes while we were together. I appreciated he was honest and he said he'd decline his texting with her but that they were still friends. I was okay with this but it was also always on the back of my mind.
>was uncomfortable with him taking liz but I got over it, no one likes the jealous type
>the dance was great, he ditched liz, I ditched my date and we hung out the whole time and had a great time
>We saw each other a little less during this next week with mid terms, we both had to study and work on our own things.
>After finals we hung out for a day, played vidya, cuddled, had sex and altogether a great day.
>I was leaving for winter break to extended family in New York, so I would be gone for two weeks
>ryan jokingly complains how he'll miss me and we'll talk everyday and to have a great time
>left on good terms and one long kiss
cont.
>>767338839
this is god damn adorable
I’m gonna fucking cry this better not get sad I love it too much.
The suspense is eating me
i swear to god if you two fags don't live happily ever after i'll fucking lose my shit all over this thread.
cont:
>new york was fucking great
>I love that city so much it's just amazing
back to ryan that cute ass cuck
>me and ryan texted a lot during the first week I was gone, but it slowly decreased as I had things to do and plans
>the last 3 days of break we didn't text once
>I was a little troubled but it wasn't that big a deal I was coming home soon and it's not always the best to non-stop text
At least, that was my rationalization
>come back on sunday before class
>super excited I'm going to see ryan tomorrow
>god damn how did I miss that cute ass face and great fucking body. I wanted to see him so much and just fuck him
>wow was I horny
>fap.mp4
>Get to school the next day, say hi to some familiar faces ask how break was etc.
>I don't fucking care about your dead grandma and how it was such a shitty break cole, just let me go see ryan you fuck
>don't see him
>decide to shoot him a text to meet at our usual spot
>no response, no open
>lunch bell rings, hurry to the spot as to not miss him
>sit there and wait, he doesn't show up
>pull out book and read
I was reading Attack on Titan manga this time, so fucking good yo
>bell rings, still not there I'm getting worried
>another text, no response, no open
>is this mother fucker dead or some shit
>school ends for the day, usually just walk home but decide to search more for my qt
>check gym and wrestling area, ask around no one knows, but he was at school today
>this fucker
>about to give up but I want a drink, go to nearest fountain by baseball field
>drink some water, look up over field, beautiful day today
>I hear giggling behind janitor mini house thing
>walk around, stepping quietly and listening
>turn corner
sorry but cont. need a full page for next part
I'm straight and I got a hard on reading this wtf
>>767341357
>>767341357
>Attack on Titan manga
>good
>>767341383
no you're not.
>>767341357
NO NIGGA. SAY IT AINT SO. I HATE YOU FAGGOTS BUT YOU CAN'T DO A NIGGA LIKE THIS MAN, THIS STORY WASN'T MEANT TO GO HERE.I SWEAR IF ITS LIZ THAT FUCKING BITCH ILL SLIT HER THROAT.
>>767341357
Lolrip. Cucked begind the bike shed, tale as old as time
>>767341803
well pussy is better than anus
>>767341833
debatable
>>767341916
not debatable at all. if you have pussy, you also have the option of anus, so fucking men you are limited to just anus, but bitches have 2 options that makes it a lot more flexible to do what you want and you have more options and even if the pussy isnt good, you dont need to go fuck a dude because she already has anus
>inb4 dinosaur
cont:
>two mouths and two bodies all over each other going at it, and all I can see is fucking red.
>it's fucking liz and ryan making out
>shaking, "what in fucking hell is this?"
>ryan looks up and goes pale, liz looks at me and says, "what? never seen people kiss before?"
>Now I don't know she doesn't know the full situation but I almost sent my foot straight up her cunt and through her throat
>she goes in for another kiss but sees ryan looking up at me and asks what's going on
>I hold eye contact with him, tears rolling down my face, I'm not beta but my heart fucking broke
>walk off, leave those cunts in the dust
>still crying not knowing what's going on
>get home, sob to myself quietly in bed, don't want my parents to hear me and ask I don't know what'd I'd be able to say
>Fall asleep crying
>skip school next day, say im sick or some shit
>go on wednesday, lay low and dont speak to anyone
>don't go to my spot
>practically spend my whole school day in my books and teachers don't give a shit
>I'm doing that half reading thing where I can kind of comprehend but all I'm thinking about is how I'm going to kms
>bell rings for the end of the day, leave as quickly as I can to avoid all social contact
>start walking my usual route to home
>turn corner on sidewalk and there's ryan, standing there
>I look up with surprise that very quickly turned into anger
>"hey faggot"
mature I know
>"anon.. I'm sorry we need to talk
>"oh do we? how about save time and energy and just go put your fucking mouth on that cunt's mouth to help everyone out"
>"look I'm sorry okay? I really don't know what to say, I really care about you and I don't want to lose you"
>"You don't want to lose me what kind of shit is that? seriously? that's all you got?"
>"look anon, you don't know the intentions behind my actions
>"and I don't need to, go fuck yourself and tell liz your mouth was on my dick and ass and see if she still wants to make out
One more, sorry this isn't ending the way you wanted
>>767342117
nah man. men have a hole and a cock. that makes it a lot more flexible to do what you want and you have more options.
NNNNNNNOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!
>>767342172
That's pretty awful my dude
I KNEW IT WAS GOING TO HAPPEN FROM THE START BUT IT DOESN'T MAKE IT FEEL BETTER
>>767342172
oof
>>767342172
>closetfags
not even once
Oh boy here it comes
I just tattoed a tv and the number 5 on two of my fingers while i was taking a shit
>>767338094
Keep postin' op
>>767337231
>So, I found who was behind of it.
>>767342497
Nice now shut the fuck up we're having a gay soap opera here
I’m in intense emotional pain right now.
I’ve been waiting for the end. Come on now
Let’s do this
damn op, this shit is intense
>>767342589
>we're having a gay soap opera here
You mean Glee
>>767342768
Don't insult OP like that
Come on op
Just got broken up with by my gf of 7 months. She's going away to work at a summer camp (she's 27) and wants to hook up with people. Gave her everything I could for no reason. Didn't even want a relationship, she pressured me. Tl;dr I got dumped and I'm heartbroken
>>767342828
i think I'll insult anyone I want.
btw being loved then losing that is better than never being loved at all
this ending bouta be
cont:
Fast forward three months
>In a deep depression, don't talk to anyone, grades drop and ryan's life just keeps getting better.
>Has a great relationship with Liz, both have fun and talk about each other all the time
>I literally want to kill myself every single day and want to end everything
>I can't live with this, why does he face no repercussions?
>He blocks me on all social media and we stop seeing each other completely
>for the most part, we make eye contact in halls sometimes and I see his guilt and he sees my pain
>try having a girlfriend for like a month and a half
>can't do it, all I think about is him
>I'm sorry it's selfish but we just had everything. We had the same interests, both gay which is hard to get in a religious school and someone who I just genuinely enjoy and love.
>I miss him so fucking much I want him back
>I want to kill that stupid fucking slut and hold him like I used to
>I cry
>I cry every single say and I promise myself the next day is the last.
>2 months left of school and we find each other in the same room at the same time
a w k w a r d *grabs popcorn*
>comes up to me and says "hey"
>"What do you want"
>"I just wanted to see what's up, we haven't talked in awhile"
>"yeah sorry about that, it's usually what happens when you cheat on someone"
Found out from mutuals he'd been dating her for 2 months, almost the same amount of time we were together
>"cheat?" he questions "I just needed to let out some tension since liz didn't want to have sex yet"
>"What the fuck is wrong with you? fuck off douchebag never talk to me again"
it seems he's being an asshole and he is, but he doesn't seem to mean it I still see the pain in his eyes, I see the same look he gave that first time at lunch
>I get up to leave, he grabs me before I go, "anon, it's easier to bring a girl home than a guy, I suggest you keep that girl and do the same"
>I push out of his way and walk home.
One more, thanks for the responses, I am reading them while I type
I'm not ready for this to end
>>767338718
I think they mean they're given up talking about their issues, since it probably never really helps.
They bout to hate fuck
>>767342952
Never feeling mutual love is the worst of all
THIS ENTIRE THING IS MAKING ME SHED PRECIOUS BOY TEARS.
>>767342988
Fucking hell dude
Why you gotta do me like this OP, this shit hurts to read but I can't stop
>Closet fag to
include me in the screenshot
>>767342988
Lets go slit that cunts throat. How about it?
>>767343245
Seconded
>Liz lynch posse assemble
this thread hurts
damn
>>767343142
Kinda the same fucking thing. Either way you're going to be in a lot of pain that is just going to make you want to kill yourself so you don't have to suffer this fucked up life anymore
Someone screencap this for a feels thread
>>767343327
>LLP
Lynching would be too good for them
>>767342988
im kill
>>767342988
I wish i could hug you OP
>>767343245
I better be in the screencap
Why am I sobbing? I’m out of the closet so this is twice as painful to read. Livin in good ol red state conservative Tx and am trannie boy fag, haven’t been lynched yet but will see when that happens. Best of luck OP.
>>767343327
fuck that I want blood
The ending is going to be happy, right?
>>767342988
I wish I could euthanize you OP/anon. This life is only pain and suffering
>>767343390
Yeah I want to kill myself pretty often but I just keep holding out for that one tiny bit of hope that something finally goes my way either way I'm giving it about 5 years and if nothing improves drastically I'm going to an hero I don't want to live with this pain for a long time.
oof these are not the feels i desired
this shit deep af, op needs closure and a good dick suck
>>767343567
Well so do I. Same situation only I get shit on whenever I think things will get better.
>>767343648
Want to share anon? I'm here for you
cont for the last time:
>we eventually got back on speaking terms
>He stuck with liz, I broke up with my girlfriend
>the most fucked up part is that he would flirt with me and constantly reference our sex life
>I eventually stopped being as depressed and just decided fuck it, Imma get this man back
>start trying my hardest touching and what not, he doesn't hold me back
>two more weeks of school, this has been going on for a month
>everytime, I go home and cry, cry because I won't have him back and I'm being fucking retarded
>We talked one more time before we both left
>pre graduation party
>see him in middle of people, he taps on my shoulder,
>"hey anon"
>"hey ryan"
>"come upstairs real quick, I need to talk to you"
>I'd rather no-" he grabs me and I don't have a choice
>"I need to be honest with you because I fucked up big time"
>"anon, you've always been on my mind, and you always will be. I loved spending time with you and not for one moment do I regret anything with you, I regret my own decisions. I can't be with you, it will never be a relationship, it will always be hidden, stressful and not enjoyable to a certain extent, I'm sorry but that's the decision I made."
>I start crying
>He hugs me, a deep long hug and whispers to me, "I love you anon, I always have and always will, I hate to say goodbye now but it's for the best."
>tears streaming down my eyes
even now while I type this, fucking hell
>he pulls out from the hug and looks at me, deep into my eyes
>"you'll find him, you'll find the one that cares about you more than I did and I hope they treat you well."
>he walks downstairs, presumably to join the party, I sit in the hall and just ball
>eventually collect myself and leave, go home and just let it all out
I loved him, I still do and I wish I could say it got better and "surprise! he's right here helping me type!!!11!"
No, that's not what happened
Love fucking hurts bros, I want to kill myself.
fin
I would think he would go to tumblr first, strange
I want to cuddle and give you head pats and tell you everything will be ok OP.
This better have a good ending you good person you
>>767343803
Thanks for reading my vent, these comments are cheering me up I'd love to dm you guys or something
>>767343803
>fuck it, Imma get this man back
what the fuck are you doing
you're all emo fags but good luck
>>767343851
IT DONT, DONT READ IT UNLESS YOU WANT FEELS
life sucks then u die anon im sorry.
i accept your pain
That's pretty rough, OP. I had a similar experience with a girl back in high school.
Thankfully, you're still young. High school relationships never last anyway.
FUCKING LIZ
>>767343874
God OP I just want to cuddle you and reassure you it will be fine, he's right you'll find that guy.
>>767343874
Op I feel for ya man don't turn to drugs or alcohol that's what I did and it doesn't help you can ignore it for a little but it's not the solition
>>767343874
My man, you really do deserve the best that can be given to you. You deserve the world and more. I’m sorry anon
>>767343803
OP of you're from Florida your cousin Finn loves you buddy
I be the one who posted the chickee. That was posted late, and my apologies. Rip friend, this is why I don't establish bonds w/ anyone.
>>767343803
i'm sorry you lost a relationship with someone you loved so much. I'm not a fag but love is love and i understand how you feel OP. I hope things get better for you. You seem like a truly caring individual and there may be someone else out there who deserves someone like you.
>>767343803
What a piece of shit
How can you people still stay positive? It actually kind of pisses me off.
>>767343803
WHAT ARE YOU DOING TRYING TO GET THIS THOT BACK, FUCK RYAN! YOU'RE BETTER THAN THAT
>>767343874
really feels for your situation. and ryan is right in the end, if you truly love him you gotta let him go. feel very sorry for you. stay strong.
>>767343803
My love story might have a "happy" ending, is it still happy if she was raped and broken and ruined, she needs me and i love her even if she almost left for him. Love does hurt, the ending is never happy.
Fuck Liz tho friend. I assure you, one day love will come. Have a good rest of your night. (or try to) :)
>>767340251
hahaha gottem gud
OP I have tears streaming down my face from this. But a part of me feels that you’re lucky in a way, at least for a moment someone returned your love. As a trans guy, I don’t get many guys, none at all actually. I’m secluded from all the guys I want, just because I was born the fucking wrong way, you will find another, OP, but I’ll be alone for a long, long time. Gay men think I’m not a real man, and straight guys try to get me to “detransition”. You’ve got it good, trust me, you’ve got it good.
>>767344034
thank you very much :)
>>767338094
I fucking love the martian
REEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE
>>767344135
hey CMON MAN HORMONES GOT THE BEST OF ME
>>767344209
I'm sorry about that :/ and trust me I do realize my luck as shitty as it was in this situation, I hope things get better for you
>>767343803
>>767343874
Story is heartbreaking anon :(
The only thing he was right about is you'll find the guy you deserve who'll really love you and won't mess you around.
I'm closeted here too for a while until I can get my life started someplace else, this story did a number on me lol
All the best man, it will get better
I'm not very good with words, but I hope everything works out for you OP. Good luck in life.
>>767344191
she is very much a cunt
thank you very much I will try, these responses really help
>>767344251
yo I know right! book was so good and the movie really did portray the book very well
>>767343803
Op. A girl did this to me. She cheated, lied. Then left for an internship and never came back. Im with a girl and its not the same..she treats me way better but i still want my ex. I dont fucking get it and i dont know if i ever will...lofe is fucking hard and love makes it unbareable. But i guess you just dull the pain with new exsperiences, new friends. If you want. Listen to the rambler album by johnny cash. Idk if you like that type of music but inbetween the music is dialogues i hope will help you in this hurtfull time. I hope the best for you and seriously i recommend goving that whole album a listen. Just sit with headphones and soak it in. Its what i did..and i may not be past the pain, but im fucking alive.
>>767344357
I'm hoping for you man, take your time I still am haha, thank you :)
>>767344384
thank you very much, I wish the best for you too.
>>767343803
fuck ryan. You are stronger op and you definitely deserve better op.
>>767344247
Hopefully I can see you sometime soon again OP. Take care man. Never give up :)
>>767343803
This is real shitty. I had something akin to this happen to me recently, and I'm just now getting over it. It just takes time, man. You seem like a real fun dude to be around, you'll find other people. Eventually you'll wonder why you ever thought Ryan was hot shit. Love you bro stay strong
>>767344451
I'm sorry :/ I understand how you feel, you might have someone "better" but you just want what you once had back.. I hope you feel better and I will for sure give that album a listen, I love music :s
>>767344566
haha I'm sure I will, thank you very much man
>>767344351
It’s fine man, I’m relatively used to being madly in love with my guy friends, you get used to pushing down feelings after a while. Heartbreak is hard, man, back in middle school before I came out as a BiG tRaNniE I dated... a lot. I’ve had my little middle schooler heart broken before, but nothing so intense as you’ve described. I can feel the knives and heat of hurt in my chest just reading this, choking on the hateful salt of my empathetic heartbreak for your story.
>>767344483
Haha we'll all make it someday :')
Btw I love the Martian! Read it so many times it's one of my favourite books. I've never tried Ready Player One but I might have to now
>>767343803
Relationships, straight, gay, or otherwise (God knows how many different kinds of relationships there are these days) are not my area of expertise, but here's my two cents.
STOP. BAWLING. LIKE. A. BITCH.
Slap yourself and get your shit together. Seriously, the feels must hurt like Hell, I understand. But, keep saying that you want to kill yourself because the guy you liked decides to play safe and go for pussy instead of cock sounds retarded. And yes, the white knights here are going to crucify me for saying that, but think about it. Is this ass-destroyer really mean that much to you that you want to kill yourself? Fuck no. So, stop being a 100% cry-baby faggot, pull yourself together, and get out there and find yourself another guy. Think about the whole experience as a lesson learnt, and the next time try to see if the guy is really into you, or is simply doing another Ryan.
>>767344671
>Haha we'll all make it someday
Well that's a lie.
>>767344508
well I for sure did fuck him
but thank you very much :)
>>767344671
DUDE
if you liked the martian, for sure read ready player one, ITS SO GOOD!
>>767344713
Need more ryan memes and the screencap
>>767344660
Thank you and yeah this story definitely isnt a fun one :( thanks for reading :)
>>767344763
Second this. Don't bother with the RPO movie though. It sucked dick(and not in the good way).
>>767344686
You're right though, self pity and moping doesn't do anything. Give yourself a little time to mourn and be sad, then get your stuff together and get back on your feet.
>>767344713
I LOVE THIS
im saving it :c
>>767344835
I agree but the movie by itsself was very good, but compared the book it was DOGSHIT
>>767344703
Hey cmon we're trying to be hopeful here man, chances are things will work out. There's a lot of good people out there and life ahead!
>>767344763
Sold! :D
I’ve never liked happy stories, they’re boring. A sad life is a life lived, no matter how your heart breaks, at least you have a heart to break.
>>767344686
Yeah I wish I would have seen this sooner, I'm starting to get a grasp on things but I'm going to take this advice, thank you anon
>>767344896
>Hey cmon we're trying to be hopeful here man, chances are things will work out.
Whatever you say.
>>767344271
Even so, you deserve the god damn best. Don't let no bitch ass cheater get you down. As someone whose been in a similar situation with my first gf, it gets better man. It really does
Somebody save this soap opera masterpiece
>>767338839
>like an anaconda even though I'm not on a plane
My sides
>>767344923
>A sad life is a life lived, no matter how your heart breaks, at least you have a heart to break.
This is the absolute most retarded thing I've ever read on this site. If you're miserable you aren't living, you're existing. I'd trade caring and feeling like shit all the time for being an emotionless monster any day.
>>767344937
No problems OP. And hey, if you do find a guy, and it really does work out, good luck to you.
And, if you don't...Then, there's always Grinder...
...Apparently, it's ass-destroyer central...
>>767345228
Everybody thinks differently I suppose. As someone who has numbing depression, to the point where I’m typically emotionless, I’d rather cry every second than be empty all the time. Grass is greener I guess.
>>767345280
>Grindr
Do not do this. That's a one way trip to an STD
>>767345280
I'm not op but grindr is kinda scary...
>>767345280
Grindr is no place for love
>>767345358
>>767345480
Grindr is weird as fuck, I've tried it like twice and both times it was awkward as hell and the guys were weird. It's a lot better to meet someone online, talk for a long time and then decide to meet up.
I came onto 4chan to jerk off before bed, I didn't expect to cry when I came in here. FUCK op
>>767343717
Well I guess.
>be me 15 year old reject with only a few aquaintances at a shit high school. My grades start slipping because i realize that everyone around me is having WAY more fun than I am, and my mother is the re-incarnate of Saddam Hussein. So for once in my life I decided to take a risk and told my crush I was interested in her. She laughs at me, and tells all her friends that me, a low middle-class peasant, tried to ask her out. I run away crying, and one of my acquaintances tells me to fuck off because he's talking to one of the popular kids. My mother, that very day, beats the shit out of me for getting an f in one of my classes, bio i think. A few months later my grades get so bad i have to be moved to an alternative school. I begin to perk up, and start thinking about what it might be like at the school, and no joke it gets worse there than at the actual high school. There I have no friends, and no people to talk to, with an even more mundane cirriculum than at the actual high school. There they treat you like you're fucking retarded, and almost all the kids there are fucking insane. I stop going to school for the aforementioned reasons, and my mom begins beating the ver living shit out of me when she realizes that i'm faking being sick. With no options left I begin planning to kill myself, and exploring various method of suicide, until I discover the 'wonder' of alcohol. After drinking on the daily, my mother finds out and, like she always does, beats the shit out of me, when I finally smack the bitch back, she has me commited to a psych ward. I get diagnosed with all these things and get prescribed all these medications . I hope this does the trick but it doesn't, I end up more depressed and start abusing the medication I am prescribed, particularly the Adderall they prescribed for my ADHD. She inevitably finds out and this time she doesn't kick my ass but sends me to fucking rehab.
That's it for now
>>767345791
School is awful, man. Worst period of my life by far. Are you off the meds now after rehab?
>>767345725
pls forgive I mean no harm :((
>>767346117
No, they just switched me to vyvanse after that
>>767346117
I actually kinda found it bizarre that they hadn't
>>767346649
>>767346558
Suppose it sorta makes sense, I guess they figured you'd have an even harder time getting to a better place if they just cut you off and left you to deal.
I really hope things improve man, it sounds brutal having to live in and deal with that kind of relationship with your mam. It sounds like she hasn't got a notion of how to help or handle any situation so she just gets angry.
>>767347084
Yeah exactly. It's as if her mind short circuits whenever confronted with a problem and the only answer that pops in her head is violence
>>767343803
I know it's not the same and I know it isn't any consolation but I've been there but the girl that took my virginity in high school just left me and started dating my friend and I wanted to kill them but you have to let it go. Ryan is a piece of shit you have to move on. You like pussy so just date a girl. Go through a sting of them, guys and girls. Forget about Ryan lose yourself in degeneracy for a few months
>>767347225
Aw man that's awful. I guess maybe you're still a minor and school didn't work out but is there any way to improve or even get out of that environment and try to get yourself sorted? Trying to stay sane while dealing with that every day is for sure more than I could do.
>>767342172
God damn it! OP! NOOOOO! Stories with endings like these remind me that somewhere outthere a baby is starving to death.
>>767347598
The only option I see is emancipation, which is like saying to the courts that I am legally able to take care of myself. I'm 16 if you're wondering, and the courts will allow emancipation, in my state at least, at 15 if you can argue to them that you are able to take care of yourself.
