feels thread /b/ sadness and sorrow addition.
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feels thread /b/
sadness and sorrow addition.
>>754467815
>>754467815
>>754467815
>>754469087
>>754467815
Went to the doc and got prescribed zoloft
hope things change for me and you too anon
>>754469185
thanks, hope it helps you.
>>754469113
>>754470370
>>754470469
>>754470707
>>754470895
top kek
>>754470895
>be me
>be 14
>fall in love with gurl (i know i was only 14 but fuck you that shit was real)
>head oveer heels with her, dark eyes, brown hair, short but thicc, the tan of a mulatto. looking at her thighs is like seeing the face of god.
>too beta fag to ask her out but talk regularly @ school and over snapchat
>become friends
be early november, about 8 months after i met her
> i overhear her talking to someone about how much theyre going to miss her
>hi hey um excuse me what.jpg
>"Oh anon, im mmmoving at the end of this year
>its fucking november- shes moving in less than a month
>fucking shellshocked
>play it coo
>"Oh, that sucks"
>literally fucking dying inside dot png
>was truly in love for the first time ever
>be last two weeks of school,, last two weeks with her
>talking with her late one night
(ill call her K for story purposes)
>"K... I think I like you"
>"Oh"
>heartbroken.exe
>fast forward two days
>she messages me again late at night; "Hey anon, when you said you liked me...
>"was it true? Did you mean it"
>I reluctantly tell troof,, shitting pants
>"Well, I think I like you too"
>Holy fucking shit nigger what the fuck
>im ecstatic
>fucking happiest ive ever been
>this ends quite quickly when i realise that in less than two weeks she'll be halfway across the country
So anyways she moves on the 9th december last year. 2017 i was completely obsessed with her,, only wanted her etc,, date this trashy piece of shit as a rebound 3 months after K left. Just anted someone to make me happy and take my mind off of K.
after 3 months i end things because " im still in love with K"
>K is her best friend
anyways i leave her and dont regret it but now im just sad AND lonely.
>>754471081
Cont
Fast forward to June, meet group of girls: A, T, S and P
didnt want any of them bc still in love with K
>Fast forward to about a month ago
>Throw party at mine, invite girls
>were all besties
>start realising that i might have feelings for P
>FuckingFuckShitCuntFuck,jpg
>terrified of feeling for people,, scared theyll just leave just like K
>push feelings down as im fucking terrified
>two weeks ago
>P has a boyfriend
>Realise that im most definitely in love with P after hearing about her bf
>Well Shit
>deep depressive stage after realising that i waited too long
>But wait theres more.winrar
>After about a week i cant hold it in any longer
>We're at a party at her sisters place
>subtly say that im in love with her
>"I didnt know i could love anyone,, until i met this girl,, thought id always be too in love with K to feel anyhting for anyone else
>she understands that i mean that im in love with her
>two nights ago
>Party at T's
>Completely shitfaced
>So is P
>We're laying down and talking bc shes too smashed; complete lightweight
>laying down on bed together; side by side
>we're such good friends so its not weird
>"Anon, Can I tell you something?"
>Slightly nervous but reply with "Of course"
>When you first started hanging out with us I- Nevermind."
>"please."
>"I dont want to ruin everything anon"
>"Its okay, come on tell me" etc
>looking back i Wish i had of just shut the fuck
up
>>754471143
Cont last one
>"I had a crush on you"
>For the first time in months i feel something real
>i feel so damn fucking happy
>completely forget about K
>then per tradition i realise
>we cant be together
>She has a boyfriend
>realise that even if she didnt have a boy friend that i waited too long and she doesnt feel that way about me anymore
>about to pass out on couch 30 mins later
>hear her talking to her bf on facetime
>talking about how hot he is
> i fucking break down and walk back home al the way across town all while so smashed i dont even know where i am
>hurts so fucking bad knowing she'll never love me like that again
>she'll never love me as much as she loves caleb
>fucking caleb
>>754471081
underage b&
>>754471185
I'm sorry to hear about that man. consider yourself lucky that you have friends and that they actually invite you to things.
>>754471019
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LO-zSxWRSVI
>>754471732
thanks /b/rother,, sounds like you need to get out of those toxic relationships man
>>754471762
>>754471952
honestly outside of work relationships and knowing a couple of peoples names at my martial art gym I don't really have any other sort of friendships. : /
>>754471987
Fuck man the years fly by. Last time I remember being on this site I was 15. Im almost 17 dealing with the same shit but In a much more potent dose.
I cant seem to fall asleep without thinking about death and nice it would be to pass away. I don't why I feel like it, I go to parties have some friends. I keep pretending to be happy to the point where I start to believe only to be kicked in the head. Drowning it out with alcohol and cigarettes. I cant continue this toxic cycle anymore. Why the fuck can't I just be happy?
Robbed my oldest friend a half a grand(drug money), fooled around w his niece, while he's fuckin his cousin(early HIV-1)
>>754472393
the fuck?
i think its time for a green text
I remember when feels threads were called bawww threads and they were always filled with depressed lonely people like me that I could relate to. These threads are always empty now. It's probably because /b/ is dead, but I like to hope that maybe it's because those sad miserable people found something to bring them happiness. I miss you /b/rothers and I hope you are well.
>>754472634
Oh yeah, I member that. Shit man, it's been 7 years since I started coming here back in college. I feel the same way man, I hope those other anons have turned out better than I have
>>754472634
there was a feels thread a few hours ago that was pretty packed. the late night threads seem to be way more dead though.
>>754472634
they all went to soc, an heroed, or spam tranny faggotry here and on gif
>>754473127
Nah most of them are on /pol/ they channeled their depression into getting Trump elected
>>754472282
>>754472634
>>754472933
im wondering what happened as well. we used to have lifehacks threads, baww threads, women hate threads .... every fuckin day
i think this anon >>754473174 is on to something. once i went to pol i never came back. only here for the porn. im guessing those people finally grew up or found a purpose (fucking up the world). after all, 6 years ago all /b/tards ever did was cry about newfags. so they went over to the board where they can partake in political movements, just like anonymous hackers did in 2009.
make a lonely man's christmas a memorable one? please
http://a.co/i62v60N
>>754471019
i was in the thread that this was made in.
20 yr old anon here. It doesn't get better youngins.
Short tid bit.
Been numb for almost 2 years now, started doing drugs to help not be so depressive in my thoughts. Helped a little, only did em occasionally. Got together with a girl for a little over a year, thought I loved her, nope just didn't want to be lonely. Broke it off not a feel since.
Now recently been seeing this other girl, has some annoying tendencies but I do laugh and smile around her, pointed out by her and her sister, not very common for me.
Being the way I am I showed how empty I truly am and she wasn't interested anymore. I feel more for this girl than I have for any other in awhile.
Told her I never liked her and whatever to help my own anger and sadness, didn't work. Now regretful I didn't try to save it when it happened. Few days go by now, I feel it's too late to recover.
BACK TO THE DARKNESS!
>>754473714
>20 yr old
>it doesn't get better youngins
please kill your self or i might have to do it.
>>754473950
I knew I'd get shit for that that's why I posted it haha.
>>754474023
>i was just pretending to be retarded
>>754474095
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>>754473950
25yo anon here.
Shit does get better, but sometimes, if the toilet doesn't flush, the tools are broken and the plumber's unavailable, you just have to wrap up your sleeves and go elbow deep into that toilet.
No matter your backstory or past, nobody wants to shit into a clogged toiled, or it just piles up more and more. Except you are indian... then you don't own a toilet.
Sometimes you just need a clean cut. But wherever you go, there are no cushions waiting for you, maybe you have to sleep on the streets for a while but sometimes it is worth it.
>>754473714
I'm 20 and have been numb since I was 12. Haven't had any relationship with a girl since I was 14 and here you are being a faggot.
You sure are "empty" with those feelings you have for her,
>>754474344
dont be pretentious.
>>754473714
>things dont get better
>CUZ I DID DRUGS AND HAD MEH DATING LIFE.
>>754471185
sharing a name with the person you mentioned creeped the fuck outta me for a second, considering how uncommon my name seems to be around where i live.
>>754474349
First thing I've felt since I took a life and left someone I thought was the one so pretty empty besides this considering.
I see where you're coming from though. I fake emotions pretty easily ask my last 2 girl friends.
>>754474391
I am not being pretentious. I just think that there is a final solution for every problem.
Talking about stuff is a good start, but saying "nothing gets better" is BS in my opinion.
I was completely out of society for a few years, been to a mental health institution, slept on the streets, in some danish attic, in a boat in Amsterdam, didn't have a home for quite a while. But right now, it's quite nice to be alive.
>>754474426
I don't blame the drugs was just pointing out they don't help lol. Never addicted or had bad reactions from it, just don't expect it to be an appropriate crutch.
The whole point of my post was that Ive come out of my multiple years of feeling nothing.
>>754474760
>i just think that there is a final solution for every problem.
and i agree. which is why its kinda pretentious to just quote random posts and spout that. especially considering my post was more in the vein of 'it can get better'.
>tlaking about stuff is a good start, but saying 'nothing gets better' is bs in my opinion
then throw your platitudes at the guy who said it, not the guy who called him a faggot.
saying
>25 year old here
and then giving a patronizing talk to another 25 year old who doesn't have a defeatist attitude is just kinda, well, pretentious.
>>754474827
>I don't blame the drugs.
netiher do we. we blame you, for taking the drugs, then acting like you taking drugs and having a 'bad' life is some universal rule that all 'youngins' should look to you for wisdom over.
>the whole point of my post was that im a massive faggot who thinks my life experience is universal and that young people should know it doesn't get better
and we still hate you.
>>754474344
>>754474344
Of course they get better, I have a great job and plan on making over 100k starting 2018, it was more emotional, things heal and get easier and some people find someone, that's not the case for everyone and if you're like me, mental problems don't just go away
>>754474930
Hating somebody you don't know is pretty sad.
Never blamed the drugs but they don't help mental health issues. That was the point. Sorry you're blinded by hate to comprehend things.
>>754475057
Dude, I'm sure most of us here hate ourselves.
Hate is probably the second strongest feeling here, only below regret.
>>754473441
>>754475057
I'm sorry you're blinded by your own retardation to see beyond your ego.
stop acting like a faggot and people wont treat you like a faggot.
>>754475182
It'd be nice if we didn't though right
Haha...
>>754475198
I'm just glad I'm not on your level of self hate and sadness. Hope you get better bud.
>>754475346
>you got mad at a 20 year old callign everyone else 'youngins' and telling them things dont get better due to his personal experiences that involved purposely fucking himself over with drugs and mediocre romance
>THEREFORE YOU HATE YOUR SELF
>>754475186
>>754475435
I'm the 20 that called youngins. I don't blame drugs on anything except failed mental health help. It didn't make it worse I was just saying it didn't help.
Edgy faggots.
>>754475346
>>754475435
Participation awards for you both.
>>754475570
At least no one has said their suicidal lol
>>754475570
Cheers
>Parents massively suck
>move out first chance i get
>hard to get a job in LA
>a psychic takes a risk on me even though i got no experience and a meme degree
>over the first two years i take his business that was losing 50k a year and make it profitable
>he becomes like a father to me, supports me in every way possible
>this year he starts to get sick
>things get really bad this fall
>Take him to the hospital and it turns out he has stage 4 bladder cancer
>its extremely aggressive, did in 3 months what normally takes a full year
>for a while its looking REALLY bad, like hes going crazy and talking about cats being in his hospital room and cant remember my name
>he starts to come out of it
>docs say he has only a few months to live, definitely less than a year
>due to a car crash last yera i have a bad memory
>when my friends move away for instance i tend to forget them and the emotional bonds i had with them
>never had this issue before the car crahs
>afraid this will happen with my boss once he passes
>Every day we sit down with a recorder and he tells me a different story
>hoping that by listening to one every day ill never forget him when hes gone
i dont want to forget guys.
>>754475633
Well, I got suicidal by looking at the current state of /b/, so I'm probably going to an hero tomorrow.
>>754475554
dude, I'm not even that guy, but you clearly blamed the universe. you told everyone 'it doesn't get better'. you decided that because you had ab ad time (which was all your own fucking fault) that the universe was just out to get you and that everyone else would be fucked as well. and you're still a fucking kid.
you can post-post about how you blame your self and mental health but the highlight of your post, the opening of your post was that life (for everyone) doesn't get better. because of your personal experience. it was a dumb statement to make.
>>754475750
Take videos, will at least help see the connection.
>>754475892
that ssomething im considering too, even if only for small moments but im not sure. I have a lot of footage of my friend that i have to look at almost every day and the memory of him still fades. i mean i know what he looks like, but how he made me feel is starting to disappear. in the footage hes acting in a movie though so it might go better with more candid stuff.
>>754475524
>>754475750
>Psychic
>Doesn't forsee cancer
Listen to some music while you listen to recordings. Will help long-term memory by anchoring it to a song. Get the other half of your brain to do a little more leg work.
>>754475853
Life doesn't get better their are always hardships, not sure what magical land you're living in where everything is cupcakes and rainbows. You can be happy but acting like there isn't sadness and bad moments in life in ignorant when people live their whole lives going through it.
>>754476031
>psychic means omniscient
interesting concept with the music though. I'll try it.
>>754475750
elaborate on the forgetting thing. sounds interesting
>>754476003
>>754476034
>things have to be cupcakes and rainbows in order to get better.
'it gets better' is a reference to how awful highschool is. its bad because you are forced into a situation that you have no control over in any way, being treated like a prisoner, forced to interact with the scum of the earth, and so hormonally fucked up that you are also the scum of the earth,
the 'better' part of it gets better references that when you become an adult you have autonomy. you maybe stuck working, but you can choose your job, you can apply around, and as an adult have more control over your life as an adult instead of being treated like a convict just cuz you're 16.
your life could have gotten better if you didn't choose to be high or make your mediocre love life the focal point of your emotional happiness.
I'm currently dealing with the impending death of my father figure, but can still be happy knowing that the life I've built for my self is filled with great things that I have earned and love from people that are important to me.
does it suck that hes dying? of course. the years been littered with half a dozen other personal tragedies as well. but the point is that it still got better. it gets better for anyone who chooses to do something about the basis of their life instead of insisting they are fucked over by the universe.
I lost my parents, lost my doggo, lost my friend, and now losing my father figure. its been one hell of a year. but again, I have built a happy basis for my life by making things better.
they get better if you make them better. even when bad things out of your control happen, its still better than highschool.
you left highschool and made your life worse, then blamed life its self. pretty dumb desu.
>>754476181
its just a really bad memory. there's no real rules for it. i lost a huge chunk of my life after the accident, like a lot of the memories that were normal for me are just gone. a lot of them can still be accessed but they gotta be triggered. i used to be able to just recall things but now i gotta sit down and really think and work my way through a timeline and try to figure things out for my childhood. and even then it feels like only 25% of what i had before. the life i had before the brain damage is almost entirely different. i forgot a large chunk of things even going on at the time, including things like my friends. even my personality had a major change, whereas i was more introerted and calm now im more outgoing and adventurous. i was happy in both scenarios and hold no regrets for etiher, its just a massive change due to some minor brain damage and subsequent healing.
the short term memory in the present is still rough, especially on 'foggy' weeks. i have to write most things down so i dont forget them. the more i work with something the better it is, but the sad thing is that memories dont work how they used to.
when i remembered things before it was like watching a video in my mind. it wasnt perfect but i just remembered what happened, how i felt, etc.
now when i remember things its more like im memorizing a written summary of what happened. its just words with no real meaning or backing that i repeat to my self til its committed. its sad cuz i will go on crazy adventures with friends and only remember flashes, whereas before the whole thing was memorable.
i have unfortunate experiences where i will meet girls and introduce myself and they wlil be like 'we've met before, we've had sex, AND thats not the name you gave me last time.'
this happened quite a lot the first few months after the BD.
>>754476303
I actually graduated, and will be making over 100k in 2018. Not sure where you're getting your info but the only thing in my life that's bad is my mental health. I never had a drug addiction lol.
>>754476215
>>754476666
>i never had drug addiction
>i just said 'things dont get better' then went on a rant about my drug use and how i dated some girls and it wasn't great
k.
>>754476490
i'm sure there's people who would love to write their dissertation about you.
>>754476708
Please copy text my rant on drug use, their was probably a sentence in my main post about it. A mere mention. It was a note nothing more.
Also, I enjoyed highschool it was very memorable and enjoyable, sorry you didn't have the same experience.
>Bohoo i am a pathetic piece of shit, i dont appreciate anything or anybody. bohoo... I have a hard time moving on because im a stupid fuck
>>754476810
i went to five highschools, the experience was mixed depending on the school, but the issues of autonomy were present in all of them. no matter how great the highschool experience, you're still in a shitty spot.
>>754476899
nigga im just tryna create memories before my friend dies.
>>754476899
This post has me laughing like the mexican
>>754476681
>>754477038
>>754476972
your manic depressive
>that will be 20k, how would you like to pay?
what will you commit to /b/?
>>754476913
Slightly, it was more of me bitching about current events, if it ends I won't be a whiney bitch but I doubt I'll pursue it anyway, seems wrong.
It's just a little more hard hitting since I actually feel affection for someone after so long. Thought it was going to be impossible and I fear this will only push me deeper.
And before we get into a argument about how I'm dumb if I have the chance to go back and don't, she's only 17 so throw me your keks.
>>754477059
If you are this retarded you might aswell neck yourself already
>>754477165
what?
>>754477082
Are hugs acceptable?
>>754477148
what? why do you pile so much irrelevant information together. stop focusing on how to be sad and focus on how to be happy.
>>754477179
You heard me
>>754477201
>tfw no anon giving me 20k hugs
>>754477201
get out and hug people, then. 20k still, mate.
>>754477223
hearing retardation is not the same as understanding retardation.
there is a difference between alone and lonely. if you can't understand that it means you feel lonely anytime you are alone and are, tangentially, a faggot.
>>754477217
I feel the sadness, not the happiness.
With me exponents with drugs, ecstasy made me feel amazing. I was happy and very grateful for everything I have and my relationships. I've had those feelings maybe twice without drugs.
I have reasons to be happy they just don't give me the stomach and mind feelings that sadness does.
>>754477038
i wish i was dead, what's the easiest way to an hero /b/? ideally in my car late at night, i don't want my roommate to try and stop me
>>754477245
>>>754477201 (You)
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>>tfw no anon giving me 20k hugs
>>754477256
>>>754477201 (You)
>get out and hug people, then. 20k still, mate.
Hugs for all. I will do so before I die no bamboozle
>>754469113
Not if you're a stoner.
>>754477416
hit a tree with a 100 mph and no seatbelt
>>754477277
>muh feels
Okay, faggot.
>>754471019
Is that supposed to look like Doctor Who?
>>754472282
No matter how much I work on myself. How much progress I make. This one always gets me.
>>754477412
fair enough. if you're gonna be sad you might as well enjoy it
>>754477496
>muh feels
>in a feels thread
>>754475524
>He's never seen Home Alone
>>754477624
So? You are all a bunch of bitches, still.
>>754477722
>>754477416
>>754474282
F for respects
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>>754477603
I'd rather not be but I don't want to go through years of anti depressants or anything like that. I'd rather do it through mental strength, everydays a battle but I've done soundly enough this far, if my only shortcoming is relationships and being able to be on others emotional level then at least I know what to work towards.
Also thanks for posting img macros.
>>754477722
check'd
dubs
>>754477864
building mental strength doesn't work if you indulge your sadness and victimize your self
>>754477913
This.
yah!
aw dewbs!
>>754478099
yay dewubs
>>754477913
Very true, I just feel played by the girl, I'm not sure why she said it wasn't going to work, my op was a guess. Another one is there's another guy because it was out of the blue.
I don't try to indulge in it, it's just how I've always been. I don't have the energy to try to distract myself either, all my hobbys have been unappealing even before this.
3 or 4 weeks and I'll be starting my new job. I just need to deal with it until then. Money makes me happy when I'm not thinking about whether or not I'll actually find someone in the end. A lonely wealthy life isn't what I want.
>>754478099
WINRAR
>>754478159
too much beer. too many sentences
>>754471081
Underage b&
>>754477808
>>754478235
Sorry lol
>>754471081
1. >>>/r9k/
2. get banned you underaged fag
I'm having a rough time lately. I've distanced myself from my GF and to be honest, I'm ready to leave her.
We haven't been close for almost a year now, and while we live together, we are more like roommates than a couple.
Last weekend I went out with some friends from work and ended up going to a girl's house after the bar. We layed on her couch and talked and cuddled for hours. It was the best thing I have felt in so long.
I can't get those moments out of my head. I don't think I have feelings for her, even though she's really cool and fine as hell. I thanked her the next day for the conversation and being able to share what we did that night.
Now I have to figure out how to break it off with my gf. I love her, bit I'm not in love with her anymore.
>>754478291
Everyone who has or had a gf is a faggot and should be executed.
>>754478512
shit happens man. but you say 'figure out how' as if you need some master plan.
make arrangements to move out and just rip the band aid off. trying to orchestrate something elaborate is just silly.
>>754478587
>pretending to be noble to further self victimize
kill self.
>>754478721
Nah I guess I worded that wrong.
She doesn't have anywhere to go, and she doesn't make much money. I feel like if I break up with her, she's going to have to move home with her parents because she came here for school and doesn't have anything else besides me here.
I would like to keep the place we live at, and I can afford it no problem on my own.
>>754478587
>>754479271
its a rough situation but anyone who puts themselves in a situation where they are financially dependent upon someone else long term is putting themselves in a bad situation. you can't really blame your self for that.
try and be kind and give her the time she needs, no more than a month, perhaps stay with a friend or arrange for her to stay with a friend in that mean time.
>be me 3 years ago (20)
>have respectable warehouse job, 9-6 mon-fri making $16/hr plus overtone
>having shockingly good luck with females, fucking two different girls multiple times a week
>about to move into apartment with a friend
>holy shit I'm actually pulling off this growing up shit
Fast forward to today
>place I worked shut down, have had shitty job in retail that only gives me 25-30 hours a week
>not gotten laid in 6 months
>gained 15 pounds and can't ever sleep
>had to move back to parents house
The shittiest thing about all this is that I can't really pinpoint where things started to get shitty. I mean, obviously the place I worked at getting shutdown is a big part of it, and I know my decisions have put me inn the position I'm in now, I'm not going to make up excuses. Just sucks my life didn't just stall for a bit, it went miles in reverse
>>754479287
>>754479509
>respectable
>arehouse job, 9-6 mon-fri making $16/hr plus overtone
>>754479993
i had a gf. to be more precise, other gender with a vagina. i wanted romance she wanted a fuckbuddy. i wanted sweet words she degraded and belittled me instead. i wanted to just cuddle she wanted simulated rape. i asked her if she had been faithful she refused to answer and then dated others... i left her
in our time together i often felt trapped and anxious yet drawn to her. she made me unhappy, she stalled my mental progress and made me regress instead. i stopped talking with her completely and suddenly all the melancholic darkness dissipated
listening to chillstep feeling fine. i am alone but not lonely. the future seems radiant, bright. without her i can see the path of enlightenment clear ahead
i think i will ascend soon
>>754480098
Sorry for the typos. And yeah a full time job that offers good insurance plans and gives out regular raises is a respectable job. Only a NEET or troll would disagree, so which are you?
>>754467815
stop being such emo faggots
>>754480329
>>754480722
Go back to your weeb or trap thread
>>754480731
>>754481029
>>754469087
>>754468633
>>754468045
What a bunch of fucking tumblr shit
>>754481052
>>754481328
>>754480481
Yeah better stay away from vampires..
>>754473714
Honestly m8 your life doesn't sound nearly bad enough to warrant that much self-pity.
>>754467815
this song always make me feel https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-u7fGw8ykug
