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Life is shit OP. I'm 25, single, virgin, depressed as fuck and overweight although I work out and have been losing weight, can't get any attention from girls and my family and friends think I'm gay. I have a glock sitting on my nightstand and I'm thinking about ending it all.
>>752650502
My new bf thinks I'm some massive slut because an jealous ex and his friend called him and said they all fucked me. Not true.
im ugly and my tits r small :/
>>752652161
I'd spoon you.
>>752650502
>Be me
>i study a stupid degree that its interesting but i dont really like
>I do that because im just supposed to do it
>without a degree here i can get a job
>no job means no money
>no money means the people will think im a loser
>if the people think im a loser i dont will get a qt gf, girls nowadays looks like they only care about money
>Anxiety thinking about that things in a future
>Depression because i cant do what i want to do.
>i just want to live in first world isolated zone (iceland, NZ...)with a simple job, i dont care about what, just something simple (not like miner or something like that, also i would like to create a little commerce, like a pub) that pays the bills and have a small comfy house with a lovely wife
>tfw when i have a dream to be happy that i cant even reach and its not even an ambitious dream...
that's really shitty of them. I'm sorry to hear that. But if he's worth his salt, he won't believe it.
>>752652161
Pics?
I can't decide what topping to get on my burrito. Woe is me.
incredibly lonely here. Fuck Fuck fuck fuck
>>752650502
im with my gf cause i got lonely and bored.
what is love /b
pic is gf's happy as fuck grandma at easter
>>752652161
i know it probably does affect your likability, but if you're a nice person I'm sure there are folks like me who would still enjoy your company
>>752652306
my phone is broken and im too scared to take pictures of myself anyway bc face and body is ugly as fuck
my friends tell me im pretty but im saving for plastic surgery because i cant stand to look at myself in the mirror without wanting to cry
feels bad man
Damned to become something I'm not.
Can't move backwards, or rectify my mistakes.
Being constantly processed through a meat grinder.
Settle for less, I'm constantly told.
If I understood the magnitude of their consequences, I probably would've made smarter decisions.
Smarter.
I'm hopeless.
They're dead.
>>752651440
I wish I could say it gets better. I'm 32, wife left me for a guy who literally looks just like me, but better. Took custody of my child away from me after my suicide attempt earlier this year. I had to move from IL to FL just to get a decent job and now I'm all alone living in some shithole trailer.
>>752653094
I'm sorry to hear that brother. I truly am. I don't know what the fuck is going on in this world but it needs to stop.
>>752652752
Do you have kik?
>>752650502
>27, single, fat
>Working in a kitchen as a dishwasher/prep cook
>Have cute lead cook coworker.
>She's boyish, short, funny, busty.
>Make friends with her over the course of a year.
>We bullshit and give each other a ton of crap every day.
>She has two young kids but is single because father was a piece of shit.
>She could easily get a bf but says she wants someone who would be there for her kids.
>Really want to ask her out but never have the balls.
>She'd never say yes to someone like me anyway.
>Finally work up the courage to ask her out.
>Go to work.
>Turns out she got fired on my days off.
>Fired for stealing money from a server's locker.
>Call her and ask her what happened.
>Claims she has no money to buy her kids christmas presents and needs groceries.
>Offer to buy her some groceries.
>We go out for a few drinks afterwards.
>Go to restroom after having a few drinks.
>Come out to see her sitting on some chad's lap.
>"Anon I'm going home with chad. Can you hold the groceries until tomorrow?"
>Feel like shit but say yes.
>Next day she calls me in the afternoon.
>Expect an apology, something.
>Nope, she just wants groceries.
>Go over to her house.
>She's already stacked with food.
>She takes the food and, right in front of me, sells it to a neighbor for cash.
>"Thanks. Chad is coming to pick me up in a bit but I really appreciate you."
>Gives me a weak hug and I go home.
>Sitting at my desk feeling used and abused.
Why do I fall for people like her?
no you are not going to end all. also its good you are working out and take your anger to gym take it out on metal also you are not gay just miss understood and no sweetie you are fighter not quitter not loser its just you didnt find that one lady yet and keep trying if they dont reply you or call you fuck them thanx me later because you are human you deserve love you deserve respect like anyone else if you want serious help please help me. how was your childhood any drugs alcohol or meds and sorry to say your family is dysfunctional i understand the way you feel and there is nothing wrong with that its very normal to feel depress we can expect shit from strangers but own family hugs you took that much huch
>>752654480
thanks. And yeah, there was a point where I was spending all my money on liqour and drugs but I just smoke now. It helps. All I feel is just misunderstood.
>>752652244
I want something like that too.
I wanted to be massive whealty, so that can pay all what I need to be a little bit less miserable, therapy, really nice cars, really nice house, etc,etc, because in my country that is the only way to do the good life.
But months ago I dropped out of medicine school, and know I work as a receptionist in a tiny hotel, the job is cool, sometimes folks leave tips, and my coworkers are nice,but the pay isnt great, Im not going anywhere with that.
Im 24, bald, fat (in the way of getting in shape, but fat still), ugly, with zero ability of flirting to women, no carrer, poor, Im not getting anything.
And know I want to do that, leave to one of those countries that no one will know me, nor my past, just get a decent job that pays the bills and live my plain and depressed life.
>>752654683
Way i see it, by starting to working out you took a first step to better yourself and your situation. It must've been hard, don't waste it, it'll pay out.
so sorry to hear that and sweetie stop to be so hard on yourself for God sake you are fat so what you dont deserve love or respect and no billion times no to that kind of opportunists woman say it with "i dont care if she is a porn star or miss world" i deserve love not being robed off from money emotions feelings and the answer you seek sweetie its called self destructive behavior in medical terms and you will keep attracting these kind of women if you seek help me. how was your childhood any drugs or alcohol or meds also your weight gain is it genetic or you enjoy food
>>752654912
Thank you for the encouragement. I need it. Bad. Nothing I do seems to be right. I feel lost and misunderstood.
stop to please people you can not make every one happy live for your self you matter and nothing else matters except your family and that is your true happiness. you made mistakes its not your fault we all make mistakes but its time we correct them no more of this you put your dreams way too behind its time to take control and stop being spectator and join the party try this self help therapy undoing depression by richard o'connor and you will fail in the first two weeks but dont worry keep trying and if you stick with all mind exercises in 30 days you will be making your dreams come true. cheers love and dont get your inner critic get hold of you. you and i both know you need to let your true potential out
Eh, I just want you completely out of my head so I can get a grip again, so I can look you clearly in the eye while I get rid of him.
I'm really tired of constantly losing something that's already long gone.
You're overthinking it, you pathetic piece of shit loser! J-just stop fucking caring for one fucking second, get your head out of your fat fucking ass, and do something you always wanted, you ugly sack of poptarts and mountain dew. And then fucking kill yourself, because this shitty life ain't worth living for anyway. There. I hope I made your evening.
>>752654886
>Bald
its not too bad in my opinion
>Fat
as you say, you can get in shape
>ugly
sorry i gues... but that its just subjective
>flirting skills
maye you can improve that talking with people
>no carrer
i dont really want one, i just need one becaus ein my country i need that... so maybe is overated if you dont really want/need one in my opinion.
>poor
well... if you need more monye i gues that sucks...
i dont want go to that places to do that... i want to go there to be happy, i live in a first world country, so its not a problem about living in a "shithole"
i just want to live in a small comfy isolated zone, with a small comfy house, and a big backyard to make parties with friends or something like that... i dont want a carrer, just a simple job (like waiter or like i just say, habing my own pub) to pay my basic bills, i dont even want luxuries, just a home, food, internet, and a simple car... i dont want to travel every summer, i dont want expensive things, just some whim sometimes, but nothing too big.
im a simple men living in a complex "zone" just having and living in that kind of place i would be really, really happy, and just having someone who love me and who i can love... just that
Im not too ugly (some girls says that im 7/10) slim and im friendly and nice with the people, i dont have problem with flirting, but men i dont know... i feel insecure to find a girl that the first time he can handle that lifestyle but in some moment drops me because she want something more ambitious... that scares me...
i only want that... i think im not asking for too much...
Priceless.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=I1wg1DNHbNU
lets change this but remember this you can not go back to alcohol ever and i mean ever if you do there is enough zoloft or prozac to save you and smoke but in a therapeutic way i can easily say get on zoloft 50mg but i will be bullshitting you so do me a favor please go take a warm shower and stay in water as long as you like its therapeutic and get this self help therapy Rewire by richard o'connor stick with all mind exercises and its very normal you fail the therapy in first week but fake it till you make it i shit you not you will change your existence hugs and proud of you no jk
>mfw all my high school friends are graduating from college
>mfw I just dropped out of medicine school
>They are 22, Im 24
>They are already making something with their lifes, and are even younger than me, while Im here, in a shitty job, that will lead me nowhere.
>Dont know what to do, what try to study now
>They are happy with their life, going to many places, with gf or bf
>Only 1 gf, like 5 years ago, only lasted 3 months, and only the half was a good time, virgin, with zero skills to talk to women
>All people around me are getting good things in their carreers and jobs, and getting more and more deep in this misery.
I dont like my life, but I love to be alive, sounds crazy, but I am crazy, I understand what needs to be done to go from a simple sperm to end being the piece of shit you are now, to me that is fantastic, even if you dont like what you do/be/live, that is fantastic too, being so diferente about how we see the miracle of life.
>>752656178
>>752652244
exactly same spot. Failed like 10 classes already because I hate the degree but I fucking need it...should take me 4 years to finish it, will end uo taking 6, if I ever finish it...all i wanted was a simple job too, simple and chill job, no need responsabilities, no need to be fucking stressed all the time, no luxuries
stop to be so hard on your self you are not the first and last human to make a mistake and dont compare yourself with other because what matter is you and you and again you not them help me please how was your childhood any drugs alcohol or meds
Brain's bleeding.
Beliefs contradict behavior, causes stress.
Too concerned with diagramming logical consistency with a sterile wall of text.
Heartless, entirely cerebral and self-serving.
Memories are difficult to retrieve, often disfiguring themselves.
Emotional potency also nil.
Don't trust psychologists.
Prefer to run self-diagnostics.
Stopped missing you, somewhat.
Sick of work.
Sorry for abandoning my post.
I'm sure you understand how easily unsettled I was.
Why you compare me to anyone, I don't know.
It will bite you in the ass eventually.
Sorry.
>>752652752
Old guy here.
Not everyone likes girls with giant boobs.
Spiderman thread
>>752658228
>>752657145
Oh men, same here, just... i have failed an entire moth... im in the same situatio, 4 years degree and it would take like 6... life is hard, isn it?
i know some people is havingserious troubles too... but being young and know that all that you want its almost and utopia... just and idealistic daydream... its fucking demolisher...
ffs... how something like this simple way of life can be so hard...
sweetie before you take a big step and change what is you. one you are not ugly two you didnt got right amount of attention and its very normal human experience is most difficult one. want to be honest can you tell few things to help you help me how you come to this decision you are not pretty? also how was your childhood? any meds alcohol or drugs? can you describe your last relationship in few words please
>>752652161
small tits are fun
>Moved back to my hometown because I lost a decent job and hit rock bottom
>middle of nowhere town in an otherwise unremarkable parrish
>spent half my life elsewhere, so practically a stranger to family
>know literally nobody else
>first few months living on a sofa out of a suitcase
>now run the home and babysit neurotic grandmother
>glorified house nigger but I'm fed and have a roof over my head at least
>bittersweet since doing this gives me purpose but its also the only reason I haven't bothered killing myself yet
>>752650502
Im hopelessly in love with a married girl, I'm married too...but lonely. My wifes not a bitch or anything- just way too preoccupied with work and the kids stuff to pay any attention to me at all.
I get up every day, and make her coffee and deliver it to her while she plays on her phone in bed...she thanks me. I get the kids breakfast and do the dishes, then go to work.
When I get home I make dinner, start laundry...we eat as a family..I do the dishes...I help my boy with his homework. If theres time we ride bikes or throw a ball to one another or something.
She puts them to bed, then goes to bed herself.
I stay up..I used to drink but I dont now.
So usually I fantasize/ wonder what it would be like to be with the girl from work. I dont even care about the sex anymore, I just want someone to look at me like that again. Like they love me, like I mean something. What it would be like to be hugged with real feeling....to feel her lips pressed against mine, passionately.
Then I get up and do it all again.
To those who read, thanks for listening.
so glad of you and happy for you. sweetie you are fighter and i love fighter and you did well but its time you think on yourself you are experienced with your work start looking for options and no no not going to look behind people come and go but you matter you are here and you fought to have a roof on your head its time you get your own roof take the first step and start looking who can hire you and you can move hugs you did good.
>wife separated from me because she's confused about her gender and sexuality
>agrees to go to therapy with me
>meet up for lunch one day and see a hickey on her neck
>break it off
i wanna die.
>>752652244
so what your saying is you want a nice easy life without having to work for it. Uh yeah it doesnt work that way otherwise everyone would be doing it.
If any anon out there is feeling down just remember that you're unique in your own way. There will never be another one quite the same as you.
>>752659137
at least it seems like you have a good connection with your son, he may not fully show it now, but later in his life he'll really respect you for that.
>>752659202
Thank you
>>752659137
your a total fucking pussy
Maybe this isn't that bad but here is my story:
I'm a college student, I always was very good at any subject so a get a 100% scholarship in the best University in my country.
However, even with my "curriculum" with all my "preparation" and my knowledge, I feel empty and without a meaning.
I'm the only son of a single mother (dad was a jerk and he left us 2 years ago) so I'm the hope of my mother for a better future.
And I try, I really fucking try, but the trust is, I can do anything beyond being "smart".
Recently I was diagnosed with schizophrenia and things are just getting worse, I fail in my school, I'm loosing my friends and the value of myself.
I just don't want to disappoint the people who believe in me, or at least, I want to believe in me...
>junior in college
>have seasonal depression
>super lonely; ghosted by every girl i’ve been interested in on tinder, especially a gorgeous one who agreed to a coffee date
>physics major who doesn’t want to go into academia and is now confused on what i want to do in life
>worst semester of my career, failing a 4-credit class for the first time since high school because i didn’t take the time to learn c++ properly before this class
>mother has turned into a complete politics fag who can’t go two seconds without talking about millennials or kaepernick taking a knee
>friends are all drunk or busy tonight, just me by myself
>>752659507
Find something you like doing. Use it to center yourself and drown out all the static in your head
>Get a damn life.
You know precisely why I can't.
You fucked up my head to where I can't even remember anything without it overheating, turning to mush.
You severed my ability to obliterate myself with dissociatives, and peek into hidden realities for personal enjoyment.
Now whenever I try to, whatever fucking thing you put into my head just inflates and curves thought into grotesque derision.
My spine is constantly being chipped away, and the layers of my brain peeled into raw nerve.
I am coming to some obscure conclusion as to what you are, even though I'm forced to be something I hate.
What reason then, do I have to continue?
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oE-C8dgpDb8
>>752659407
And you havent lived long enough to know how sideways shit can go.
i am sorry to say this since this is b fuck you no really fuck how much will you hate yourself i am sorry but psychotherapy taught me one thin be honest even it hurts wtf for real. how can you take that much neglect sweet heart what you are doing is hurtful to yourself for sure your mind should think of other women if its not then fuck all the therapy i am sorry trully hug sweetie why you have to do all to be acknowledge and recognize and no you are not in love its very normal to look for love when your own love one can not provide it dont cheat put your wife in therapy she is the problem and i know your kids means the world to you but sorry to say your wife have issues all the things you do its her to do its hard i know but love you deserve better you deserve love and respect and dinner made by her in medical terms its called dysfunctional family and your family is moving towards that and your drinking was a coping mechanism but now its all bottle up inside its not too late believe me i want your kids to have mom but you need to have serious talk with her and its better be in therapy or you will express in anger and we dont want a fight right we need to fix this and once its fix have a good sex and i mean really good sex thats therapeutic in your case
I forced my girlfriend into having a relationship with one of her female friends.
My girlfriend's girlfriend is a slut and uses couchsurfing just to get laid and fucks everyone and I hate her for that even though my girlfriend doesn't care. Also I feel like she's lying to her about her feelings only because she needs attention. I'm completely obsessed over their relationship and I hate it but I want them to be together. I'm being an ass with my GF tellng her that she doesn't love her. I don't talk about anything else. I think I might been going crazy.
I really want to know why I'm so obsessive.
>>752659137
I feel you man. I heard you and I'm going through similar issues. I'll green text in a bit after I get this drink, I'm gonna need it.
>>752660016
You're feelings of guilt are normal. Let your girlfriend choose a boyfriend for you and things will resolve themselves in time.
Im 24 working a shitty retail job and the only decent relationship I have with anyone is my ex. She uses me as a side bitch. I didn't think something like that could be worse then being single but damn I feel so lonely.
>>752659313
No men i just saying i want a simple life...
i dont know about the situation in your country, but in my country the thing im talking about was really easy to get 20-10 years ago...
but now with that shitty global crisis for get a job you will need a degree and that even can give you a 100% chance of getting a job in a future...
and work for it... in what? tell me what i can improve, i see my objetive so simple, i dont see the problem like i can reach that because i dont want work for it, the problem is the "environment" dosnt matter how hard i work for that, looks like if you dont do some things (as having a degree that i dont really want and need) that are imposed you cant reach nothing...
You know if he wasn't my friend at the time he would've survive this whole mess.
You will regardless.
Fate's sealed, after all.
Has been since September.
Little point in not going through with it.
Unless you're carrying his gross little spawn.
That'll be fixed, too.
Tick tock, babe.
i wish she didn't ghost me. don't even care to keep up a romantic relationship but she was probably the best friend i ever had
>>752659407
you're*
I just remember, how eager you were to humiliate me in front of everyone who you supposedly don't give a fuck about, even though I was tortured by voices, struggling to get you back, committing crimes with the belief that it would, dealing with heartbreak and confusion while you turned into a ravenous, insufferable bitch.
I cried, you know that, when one said get fucked up again. Break your promise to her. You were done with me after that, then everyone wants to accost me as a failure despite never being confronted with anything remotely close to the mind-numbing terror I had to endure with and without you.
The constant derision, knowing you slept with others to punish me, just to watch me rage so you could ease me back with comfort, to control my thoughts then act like I was responsible for picking up on implications as if they were my own interpretations. Then having to confront the massive betrayal, from everyone, as if I were a monster, when I just fell out of contact and fell guilty for it.
This is going to end miserably, for all of us.
==i think we reach to point in life where you have to see where you want to be in next ten years or five or on and you didnt screw yourself up yet there is still hope. also get Who's Afraid Of C++ book that is your new bible and fucking stick with it you and i both know all roads lead to C and c++also get the procrastinator's handbook by rita emmett and you will be back on track
you know after a session psychotherapists says they need 10 minutes for next patient well you are the reason for that. love wtf first you through your gf in hand of sluts then you go all retard on her enough of b language........you put your girl in harms way while she loved you and didnt care at the moment it sounded like a good idea but now your conscious is beating you down since you like to be in control and soon as you start to lose control you began to feel uncomfortable over the situation you destroy your own relationship and no its not obsession its more about to see if you can do it or not hence a test to your own in medical terms its called self destructive behavior for more details on your own behavior read or listen Rewire by richard o'connor if you get in to another relationship you will do similar thing but in different way
>29m serial Ltr type dude
>Used to do lots of pills.
>Used to be a junkie
>Ex got me hooked on oxy's
>quit pills and realized she killed my ambition and sucked 3 years of my life out of me.
>3 years of drugs sex and alcohol, no steady job, no motivation to improve.
>put on about 50lbs
>Fatjunkie.jpg
>fuck it at least she was bi and I did all the fucked up shit before I got married...right?
> quit pills long enough to go through withdrawls
>junkie ex fighting to get me to do them.
>bitch knew she had to keep me in a haze
> she didn't use the money I gave her to pay the electric bill
>Kick her out
> now I'm fat feinding junkie, and now I'm lonely to top it all off.
>go out to ren faire
> have money from side work
> proceed to spend all side work money on drinks.
> empty the flask of bourbon I brought.
> empty several other peoples flasks of what the fuck ever.
>fast forward to 2pm
> qt with dat ass in a slayer shirt.
> Ifoundtheone.exe
>Black out while its still daylight
>time warp to end of day..
>singing along with pub sing qt on my lap
> she drives me home
>we end up falling in love
>We end up getting married.
>I buy us a house.
> I get a better job.
> We have a son
>All in the course of 3 years
>Shitscash.jpg
>fast forward
>she gets post baby depression
>she won't fuck
>I gets the depressions
> I start missing the drugs.
> My son gets diagnosed with autism
> I start doubting that he's mine
>I come from a broken home
>Pops ran off with his mistress when I was 7
>Pops left my mother destitute with a house she couldn't pay for and a resume with a 20 year blank spot with the words house wife and stay at home mom instead of a job history
>not going to repeat what my shitty dad did.
>divorce is not an option.
>cheating is not an option
>this bitch is driving me crazy
>The shit falling out of her Nag hole puts harpies to shame
So basically used to be a high school dropout NEET from the time I was 16 or 17 til I was 20. I used to sit in my room all day and fuck around on a gaming computer, which I could only barely afford because one of my friends is rich and her dad used to pay me large sums of money to do relatively mundane tasks. In hindsight, I think they were just using it as an excuse to give me money in the hopes I'd save it and do something smart with it. Go figure.
Anyways, I wound up doing the whole "turn your life around" thing by moving 1300 miles to an area I've never been in without giving notice to hardly anyone and basically started over from square one. Since then, I've lost over 100 pounds, have achieved financial stability with a really nice paying job and have even managed to buy a car recently.
Thing is... I kinda miss the simplicity of the NEET life. I miss being able to sit up until 5 in the morning playing games with my online friends and shitposting until my eyes turned red, and sometimes I wish I could go back.
>fight constantly
>I am a goddamn Man and this is my house.
>Son is developmentally disabled and he's big and 2 now
>Can't play his autism off as "he's just a baby" anymore.
>he doesn't talk
>or wave
>or clap
>or communicate in anyway whatsoever
>if you point he looks at your finger the way a cat does
>god I miss opiates.
>I can't off myself that is a bitch way out
>tired of being poor
>live in west Baltimore
>I'm white
>smellofburningcvs/shithole.webm
>Got told to take my white ass back out the county at the gas station the other day
>wish I could but who would pay for it?
>Want the pain to end.
>want my crutches back.
>kratom not cutting it
>295lbs today
>still fat
>but active.
>Tired all the time
>boss is a piece of shit
>job doesn't pay enough
>top it all off with insomnia and self loathing
this is my story and I wish I could get motivated to do something, anything else. I feel hopless and trapped.
>just turned 22, virgin, not ugly just terrified of people
>nerve pain, bad IBS, mental illness, insomnia, chronic fatigue, general health problems that make life more exhausting and miserable than it should be
>been quitting klonopin for the past year since it was doing more harm than good after a few years of taking it
>benzo withdrawal has given me constant anxiety and dozens of other crippling side effects
>can't tell what's withdrawal from mental illness that I can actually work on
>studying psych+bio in college so i can go on to neuro in grad school
>passion and drive are pretty much zero at this point
>3 years into college and haven't made any new friends
>still hang out with a few people from high school
>not the same anymore
>still living at home with parents to save money
>they're chill and i can do what i want, but small house so never any real privacy
>also no friends to move in with
>feel like the last few years have just been friends drifting away and me getting more agoraphobic and depressed
>still go out to shows and music festivals and shit but i don't really get much pleasure out of anything anymore
>constant fear that the people i care about hate me and only tolerate me when i do come around
>never feel like i have anything to say
>constant anxiety during conversation
>my only good therapist died a few years ago and i haven't been able to find anyone like him
>i feel like i'm not progressing at all and everyone around me has surpassed me
do me a favor please take a deep breath from nose and let it out of mouth and take another deep breath now relax dont please dont be so hard on your self and your kid he needs support and compassion not fucking love but compassion support and kids look up to elders spend time try to understand and if you can not its okay so what it can not talk or point you know the greatest mind in history Einstein he start to talk at age four and you use eating as coping mechanism to put pain to ease you know that you matter you know you are not alone and you can change this all you need is to take the first step the hardest step use these self help therapy self compassion by kristin neff its for your entire family be each other support and rewire by richard o'connor and no stop to be so hard on your self you are active working and trying what a human can do in your situation human experience is most difficult one. and you look at me fuck it okay look for another job no way you are human you deserve love and respect does not matter color white so that means your boss can do shit with you NO say it with me no fucking way look for another work and soon as you find leave this job you are not a slave but too tired and miss understood i know you came out dysfunctional family but your kid dont have to go through what you went through as child right
>>752653934
Because you don't respect yourself anon.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EFhkdzj-x80
you are going through rebuttal. its not her fault or yours or your kids its the nature how your mind is rewire to drugs when you was hurting you hit the rock bottom in drugs and now your body is going through second withdrawal you need help and either you can pay for it or go with psychotherapy your choice i would recommend come clean with your wife and tell her to support you in this yes sex is very important for you and its very normal since its a coping mechanism same as masturbating but it will not help there is not amount of drugs in the world that can fill the void believe me try this self help therapy self compassion by kristin neff and your wife can be your support in this also rewire by richard o'connor and undoing depression by richard o'connor i will not ask you about your childhood here since its too private and can trigger your psychosis you will fail with therapy in three or four days but stick with it fake it till you make it
>>752652161
Killing me softly OwU
>>752664828
wow, these are pretty old. cool to see them still posted, if only for nostalgia
I like the process of missing you because even though you're not here it's like you are in some miniscule way.
I know you're getting dicked by someone else soon, and that's hard to deal with, especially seeing as how you enjoy being a contradictory bitch about it too much haha.
Hope you enjoy sleeping next to him, he will be a cold bloody lump of flesh soon haha
Love you
Haha, faggot says muah
He won't have a tongue or teeth soon
consider yourself luck for what you have your parents being chill thats there way of supporting you. you are suffering from deep depression conjunctive behavior disorder and its very normal what you are feeling. there are traumatic experiences that made you reach to this point and its very normal the way you feel among other people and being numb is normal its deepest state of depression but so far you did so good proud of you no jk. use these self help therapy undoing depression by richard o'connor and it will take care of your constantly feeling low on energy fatigue and shoulders being down and social anxiety also use self compassion to figure out your own self your likes your dislikes so you can talk and express yourself
>>752657721
it's way too early for all these feels
>>752663920
>>752664737
wife can be my support? Look man I know that English isn't your first language but if you read what I wrote you know that shit is not possible. >>752664284 that pic about sums me up
>>752659137
Bro are you me?
But seriously very relatable. I have strong feelings for a girl I work with, and I know she feels the same. Problem is, I’m married with a kid who loves me more than I possibly deserve to be loved. The girl and I know that we would be great together, but we also both know it will most likely never happen, me being married and her in and out of a string of shitty relationships. Oh well, fuck me I guess.
>be me
>be 15
>be excellent high school wrestler
>be expected to place at state junior year
>gf say no
>quit
>be senior year
>tell gf think about join navy
>gf say yes
>make plans/gf finish school i finish training
>gf sposed to move to duty station
>get to boot camp
>gf letter say no
>gf letter say distance too hard, fucking jeff
>be 3 years 6 months into 4 year enlistment
>4 years means honorable discharge and benefits
>brain say no. party more fun
>navy catch brain partying
>navy say no
>kicked out with bcd/all benefits lost
>say ok. I just work to party now
>dick say no
>new gf pregnant
>23 now. time to be a man
>move to home state away from drugs and bad friends
>son 2 years old, I've been clean for 2 years 6 months despite being a horrific addict
>think this is what life is actually about
>gf say no. too hard. You keep son, I go home
1 year into single father, working factory jobs but all temp. limited insurance, limited stability
>trying to be good father. parents say no. we have to help you too much
>parents say gimme son. brain say best for child right now
>give parents son
struggle for years
>finally go full time at factory.
>get promotion.
>doing well. getting things in place to get son back
>factory say no. We closing
>stability gone
>obama say you can go to school cause you ship jobs to mexico
>go to school. 1 course short of associate
>brain say no
>fail course. money run out
>luck into a job working for a game hosting company doing server management
>2 years, small company, be vp/operations
to all guys and girls who were recommend therapy you can download books from piratebay or audiobookbay not here to sell nothing but to provide free session consider it as coping mechanism for physiotherapist yeah we are all huams and some times we need space to breath too and if you go to a therapist just look at the mind exercises it will be same love you all from heart keep on walking its life fuck it or get fucked your choice and you matter
>>752665418
thanks, i'm lucky to have my parents be there for me, i know a lot of people don't have that. i guess my problem is that i can't remember a time when i didn't hate myself and feel alone and alien in this world. i struggle with human connection so much that i feel like i'm not even human. my therapist taught me a lot of great lessons and techniques before he died but we could never crack the probelm of my deep-seated self-loathing and guilt
>>752666221
probably a stupid question but what would i search for ?
>>752666333
wow i just got double trips, that's something i guess
>>752665982
>company say no
>supplier buys our company, lays me off cause they have their own management
>luck into job for att doing customer support from home
>be good
>be "coach" (assist other agents) in 6 weeks
>be asked to apply for trainer in 2 months
>go through 2 additional months of training
>pass, get position
>think teaching others is my path
>att say no
>work at home too risky, shuts down dept.
>be now
>be 36
>be evicted in 7 days
>be hungry
>tooth be infected
>have survived past 2 weeks because anons helped me get water to rinse infection and anon ordered pizza
Moral/point:
My entire life is a series of almost succeed and then due to my own poor decisions or shit luck, failing miserably. Also, be thankful for whatever you have right now. It could be worse.
Also. anons have done more for me in this shitty time of my life than my own family. I love you all
Drugs are stupid. I want to forget you, not care.
>>752652909
Ok fuck you for posting that pic. Google searched it, read the story and now I can't fall back to sleep... God damn you.
>>752666581
I was in the thread when pizza was purchased for you, shit made me tear up. I’m sorry for what you’re going through anon, I hope things get better.
sweet heart calm down and stop to be please women you are talented person even when you chose words to express it shows no come on say it with "i dont need bitches and sluts" its your life and you matter never ever let anyone chose or make decision for you either they support your dream or they are out of your life and no its not selfish what you are not human you dont deserve love YES and yes and find someone that can love you for what you and not what they want you to be you went through emotional hell and no more no truly no more you deserve love like everyone else you are not lower or something to push around i can understand google image of hurricane thats your personality it will keep pulling hurtful things its not your fault but you can change it get self help therapy rewire by richard o'connor and never let your penis talk you in to do doing things thats self destructive behavior and you been through that a lot its time to change
>>752666837
oh shit is that the creepypasta with the body-shaped holes in the mountain? been a minute since i've seen that one
>>752667083
legitimately changed my outlook. I was on the verge of just laying down, ignoring everything and waiting for sherrifs to show up.you and all the other anons in that thread including the ones that told me to fuck off ....did more for me than you will ever know. I still am just making it day to day, but I'm trying.
>boy meet girl
>girl tries make boy to man
>boy fails
>girl leave
>boy sad
>boy become man alone
>>752650502
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kywhIEnEg0s
I feel like I am a annoying, selfish, dipshit. I feel worthless, almost like a failure. I'm depressed and am constantly cracking jokes to get the slightest bit of attention or confirmation that I'm not a worthless cunt. My friends have everything going for them, meanwhile I spend 90% of my free time on the internet. 4chan, the internet in general, is the one place I feel like I mean something. I might just end it.
>>752667139
on that note I'm getting another drink. time to finish my birthday Blanton's.
you are going through rebuttal episode and its very normal in the end we all are humans and you need to take control for your future and no you are socially awkward. i know a lot of people who can not even get out of your house love your parents they will be gone soon and love yourself because you matter and you and you and again you matter its moments they will be gone and you can be your best friend when you look yourself in mirror remember you care for that person and dont worry you will find that one girl you will have family ask your parents how they meet believe me it will be the most amazing story you will hear fuck romeo Juliet
>>752653934
Story of my fucking life man. I dont have no fucking clue
>>752667236
I wish I was in a position to help. It certainly made me thankful for what little I have. Keep your head up anon, I pray that good things come your way.
ex-girlfriend sent me a message on last night telling me her boyfriend asked her to marry him and she was messaging me because she wanted to make sure i wasn't mad or if i would still be her friend.
i didn't send a reply because i didn't know what to say at the time...
tonight i finally send it after i sat thinking about it and letting my jealousy and anger get the better of me.
i told her to fuck off and die.
really i want her to be happy and me die.
>>752660734
Fuck. You're not alone
>>752667502
99.999999 percent of the people on 4chan that claim this shit are either just really depressed, or full of shit...On that offchance that you are that .000001, I'm going to ask you not too.
Here's the deal. I am the 36 year old anon with the big ass green text story above. the tldr version of that is.. I've worked virtually from home for years, my car died and my family has disowned me. I have not spoken to a human face to face, more than 4 or 5 words in over a year. Which, meh. all of that is fine, except I got laid off, was behind on bills, and now I am being evicted. I asked for help from local churches, was told , you're single, you're a male, you can get a job, fuck off. I will legit be sleeping on park benches in a week.
I posted a thread describing my situation and some anons bought me a pizza, some anons told me to stop making excuses, and some anons acknowledged that I was having a rough time and wished me the best.
Point is, the next few months /year of my life are going to be hell. I need you. I need you to be here, when I happen across a warm corner and some wifi . Whatever you have to contribute to the thread I make at that time, I need it. I don't know your full situation, but I can tell you, anons /b/...are literally (and I mean tht) all I have now. I can't afford to lose you anon. Please be here when I post that thread.
no you are not going to end it you are stronger you got this far and no you are not piece of shit you just let your inner critic took over your mind and let it take you on rocket ride and no you are not worthless its self hating also you dont need to be here you matter your life matter your emotions feelings matter try friendship if it does not work out try again till you find someone that listens to you talk with you does not matter if its a girl or guy what matter is a true friendship and its not that hard there are billion of people suffering same thing afraid to talk just like you also try this self help therapy rewire by richard o'connor its chapter three or four which deals with being hard on your self and stick with it you will change we all do and always remember to seek attention or in medical terms to be acknowledge is basic need of subconscious
It's been four years, and I still love you.
Fuck you.
Cycling through old lessons.
It's very difficult to become a better person, whatever that happens to be, when you know knowledge is manipulative.
I should've listened to your guidance, but lo and behold, I know to do that now, so there's really no point in me figuring things out for myself anymore, is there?
I know I'm done for, but one question, if this happens to circulate back to you.
Why me?
If I get a proper response I'll just go off elsewhere, instead of moving forward the alternative.
>>752662860
No you don't. I'm one, and sounds like you're doing better
its not going to happen you will not be on corner of street using wifi because you are going to change all this yes you are down and you hit rock bottom does not matter if its go fund me but you know we all will be here and you are going to log off and you will go store after store fast food joint after fast food joint and you will find something and if nothing works out you will register your self with welfare but you are a mf fighter so stand up no this is not figure of speech fucking stand up and stand up for yourself we can pay for your pizza fuck it if you have to sleep in parks you was much better cracking jokes it takes talent and creativity to put smile on someone face and you did that this is not the time to sit its time for your survival so survive and someday when you will be fucking a girl just remember us also you are depress and with conjunctiva behavior disorder but i will not recommend therapy it will not put a roof over your head rather look for something any thing that pays bill
>>752666894
found the perma-virgin.
>>752662860
I first started this lifestyle around that age too, had a dry run of a few months at fifteen, but didn't go Iron NEET for another year. Now at twenty three, I'm stuck in a cycle of shitty service industry jobs and periods of NEETdom.
>Be kid
>Dad has been an abusive asshole
>One day he tells me: "You're avoiding work by acting like you're stupid"
>Hurts bad at that time
>20 years later
>Be engineer
>Do serious work all day
>Avoid work I dont like by acting like I'm stupid
>Call dad
>Tell him: "Best advice ever!"
>We both laugh in utter happyness
well you are not going to die. why the fuck we let you die and she gets to live what your life does not matter you are less than human we both know the answer so lets be realistic she did every thing to hurt you and you dont need a bitch and look at her always remember this moment thats what bitch slut looks like and you deserve better in b language its better to have one pussy because you get to fuck it and destroy it in medical terms its better to get someone that can love you for what you are and not try to change find that one girl race gender does not matter what matter is she loves you cares for you and above all she makes you her world otherwise its same circle all over again and you are better than this
I am still madly in love with him after he used me and ghosted me, I'm a fucking idiot for not realizing what he was doing but I was looking through rose colored glasses. He made me the happiest I've ever felt and am still just waiting for him to message me, I'd let him walk all over me again if it meant just hearing his voice.
>>752669618
I wish she felt like this for me....
>>752651440
man i wish i had easy access to a gun like that. being 17 it's pretty tricky to get a painless suicide.
take a good look down this thread see how many people came out in there pain and its you who started with his pain and look how many are getting cure thank you for this thank you for other to feel for you and tell you how they fell i didnt said you are miss understood to make you fell better i said it because you are hugs and i hope you feel better thanx again
you want to talk. you are 17 and you have not fucked enough pussy yet and did enough anal fucking deal with it you are about to be adult so anal is real thing. wanna talk whats bothering you
>>752669881
I made him a playlist, spent all day on it. He never replied, just completely disappeared. Jfc I still cry about it like a stupid bitch. I wasn't rushing shit we'd been fooling around for almost a year for fuck sake, I don't know what I did, I still love him too
There is an exquisite type of pain that describes the utter anguish of not being loved by the one who you would want to love you above all others.
One day, Amanda.
>>752670256
What happened tho?
sweetie you love him you did things for him while he never loved you.you made him a playlist you did that not him and you dont need to be with someone with that much cold heart that makes you feel like a bitch. hug yourself its not a expression its literally hug your self sorry to say you been with wrong person you will make some guy life amazing because you have a thoughtful personality very caring to the point you care enough to do that but you dont love him its attention you seek and that guy is wrong place to seek dry your tears you are free and find someone that loves you care for you enough to make a playlist for you and hold you hug you and look in to your eyes and say i wanna spend my life with you why because you are amazing its just a crush let it go let it go and let it go take a deep breath from nose and let it out from mouth now relax let it go you are better than this hugs you remind me of my wife thank you to put smile on my face you are so thoughtful now relax next time make sure guy is good and in love not one sided please
>>752670256
Fuck. I'm sorry. I send her songs every once in a while. I wonder even if she listens to them or thinks about me. You didn't do anything wrong. Quite frankly I'm a little envious tbh. You can't control your feelings, neither can I. We're human. Sadly anon seems like we're gonna be in love with people we can't have in the near future.
>>752665573
Thanks for the smile anon
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Z2EtzM-dH3M
cheers and we both know alcohol is coping mechanism and when you are sober go for therapy you need to get hold on your life come on for a stranger do that if not do it for yourself please what the worse can happen you already saw the true face of world its time to heal and alcohol is fuel for depression dont believe me when you wake up tell me how shity you feel yes hugs you survive all that without killing yourself fuck thats surviving "you can break my heart you can crush my dreams but you can never take my soul" the reason i say you are amazing i lost patients to suicide in your situation and i left my practice can not take it we all are under someones depression right :) live on for your self
you guys seem like a good bunch to ask.
how do you make a relationship work without being a "sexual" person? i'm not asexual but i've not got much of a sex drive either, and i'm lonely. i've worked past a lot of my social awkwardness and anxiety, i can talk to people, but i still don't know how to do this.
i can talk to women, become friends with them, but i can't figure out how to turn it into more than that without it seeming awkward and ruining it.
feels bad.
>>752650502
Been driven to nearly killing myself the last couple days. Too scared to approach girls. One of the few times my friend comes over he's not even really here. Won't look away from phone because of girl he's messaging.
>>752671981
Don't approach them. They're poison.
https://youtu.be/rRB_ab60wPc
>>752672072
Nonetheless I need some intimacy in my life, I feel so disconnected from everyone. I need someone who cares about me.
>>752672301
Doggo my friend. They are loyal and love you unconditionally.
>>752672508
I have a cat. I enjoy it but I can't talk to it. I'm afraid that some girls wouldn't be able to soothe that need but occasional sex couldn't hurt.
you are suffering for depression please read on depression and sexual problems for more answers or read on undoing depression by richard o' connor the reason your sex drive is so down it can be too much addiction to porn or like i said mental condition and you know we dont fuck friends rights to have sex that means to be in intimate relationship which you are not friendship means women will see you as a friend and nothing more also find a good women for family because true happiness is in family the rest is fooling our self's
>>752672601
Funny you should say that because I've been thinking that trying to have a conversation with most women is like talking to a cat. Although the intimacy with them can be nice I find it always ends up not being worth it when they get on my every last tit.
>>752671953
I'm posting a lot right now but I can also relate. I lost my innocence when I was young so sex is weird for me too. Tbh if a girl wants to fuck, she'll throw subtle signs or come straight out with it. Don't stress it to much, it'll come naturally anon. Confidence.
>>752672884
Fucking hell. Punctuation dude.
'Imy' I really hope you do.
take a deep breath from nose and let it out of mouth and take another deep breath and now Relax you got a social anxiety attack its normal since you are not so talkie to opposite sex and your mind can to get over this but you need to take few steps to fix this till this turn in to depression one take it easy relax talk normally like you talk with males two listen to them and dont come on so strong and if all fails try this self help therapy how to unfuck yourself Gary John Bishop yes its name of therapy and no its not about fucking its how john bishop chose to name his books these days
>>752672884
>we don't fuck friends
why can't we have really good friends who we fuck exclusively? that's what i want
>>752673009
this is the only thing that really bothers me anymore as far as confidence goes. i kinda get the impression that you need to show a certain amount of interest in them sexually for it to go anywhere, like the no punctuation guy said about "seeing you as a friend and nothing more"
i've never had anything close to a healthy relationship before so this is terrifying and confusing.
>>752671953
Make it work by dealing with the relationship problems most couples face. Talk to her when you get home appreciate the small things she does around the house and she will try to make you happy in home and bed. Be open to sexual things that are in your comfort zone and she wants. It's a two way street and about making compromises.
>>752652244
it's how life works..
sweetie hugs its normal what you feel and sex being strange so normal in your condition you dont need to say or express what happened no need to live that trauma try this self help therapy it was not my fault by beverly angel it will heal you and will make your sex life very normal and stay with all mind exercises you will fail in first week of therapy but its very normal
>>752673540
that's really good advice anon, but i'm talking about the very early stages, courtship and all that mess
i understand some of the folks here in this thread. the procedure of getting things done is simple but is so hard to accomplish
>>752667192
>>752666837
https://imgur.com/a/Wht7z
not that scary
why dont we fuck friends its nice to ask sweetie they are friends they are there to have to fun and hold you when you are down loan you when you lose all but not there for friends with advantages. you are looking for gf not friends you want relationship with no strings attached one that is too unhealthy two it will cause depression in long term. you have all the right material to be a bf so why not try to be a bf and have relationship and in your case you will have so many girls to guide you. also women there mind they look for safety its hardcore in there brain since they give birth and if you can make any women feel safe and protected no jk she will sleep with you but later she will feel its a mistake. find love you are sexually very active but you deny yourself that and with love you can take care of your urge and can get family sleeping around sounds good but in long term its nothing more than heat of moment and if you still feel like self destructive make your friends feel save and for sure they will sleep with you since you are going for nature not for heart
amen to that so true. "if your path has no obstacle then it leads to no where" by beverly angel 30 years of experience in one line
>>752674180
>you're going for nature not heart
no i'm going for heart AND nature. not sure where you got that from
>>752673537
You do need the interest. I haven't had a healthy relationship either anon. I know this may sound cliche but when you find the one, than you won't have to be terrified.
Girls likes me, and people in general but I feel like social anxiety has held me back my whole life it's like I get sort of close to a girl or a good job and it only lets me get so far before I fuck up or withdraw, I've recently turned 26, my mother always said "you're just shy you'll grow out of it" but I never did really. I'm even starting to think I'm a slight aspie(though some of my traits contradict the symptoms)
>>752673755
>the very early stages
Then you do have to dive in and just fuck her. In the first few months it's all about sex or fun you're not living together and haven't settled in. You just have to try new things and see what works for you. If she is a girl too out going for you then it's not going to work for you. You seem a little more reserved.
i got that from where you said you have a lot of friends. if you are going for heart take it slow and ease down its matter of life term commitment and if she is good enough and care for you believe you will need to do nothing kiss will lead to hug and hug will lead to kiss and by the time you realize you will be having sex its a moment when body talks and brain sleeps in medical terms its define as auto self going to sleep you know when you talk with friends and family you talk but dont think thats your auto self and love is very strong emotion that can put personality to sleep. you truly have not find that one girl and its okay if you feel depress all humans go through this but give it time dont put girls in to friend zone be honest about what you feel for a particular girl if you feel like you love her tell her and she loves back good if she dont keep moving on its a coping mechanism better than alcohol
one your mother is right being shy is part of your nature but fucking yourself is not its called self destructive behavior try this self therapy Rewire by richard o'connor and it will fix your anxiety
>>752674602
so you're saying when i "find the one" i won't have some intense fear of losing my spaghetti?
>>752674711
yeah, i know diving in and fucking her is a part that has to happen, i'm just not that interested in sex unless i know them pretty well already
>>752675144
ok now i think you're starting to get it some, but alcohol is pretty great for coping
>>752675411
>i'm just not that interested in sex unless i know them pretty well already
Then honestly you just need to make that clear to her, No point in beating around the bush. If she calls an end to it because of that then you're better off, She never wanted a long term relationship to begin with. Sex is on;y one part of any relationship.
NO sweet heart alcohol is the worse coping mechanism. i would say go for pot at least it takes you in to mindfulness state but alcohol sorry its self destructive. Alkhool its arabic they discover it and it means spirit eater literally something that eats your spirit meaning will to live will to fight or love etc in english its called alcohol its same and it will eat your spirit away till you are depress sad with nothing to live for and you are better than this. No you are the way you express yourself it shows human experience is the most difficult and all you need is that right girl but dont kill yourself over that look in side yourself tell me if you dont enjoy yourself that what i means hold and keep searching or in b language wait till you can destroy a pussy and feel proud of your self
>>752650502
Guys, I don’t normally come here.
But I needed a feels thread.
I can’t be the only one.
>that kid who was a year younger than the others in his group, but always tagged along, did his damnedeat to stay in touch, organize fun shit, cough up the cash, cleanup, transportation, etc. for the group when needed
>but
>never old enough, doesn’t remember the shit they did, and as such wound up as some kind of a necessary third wheel
>eventually they all went to college, but you stayed behind because of school.
>finish as a loner, eventually forget how to be friends even though you try.
>eventually somewhat recoup and start making friends again, but they’re all waaay older than you
>mostly coworkers
>they all drink together, game together, and in general do shit together
>and when you’re working, fine, you can be part of the conversation, occasionally be a part of the group.
>but when the good times roll you’re left in the dust.
>and the younger people think you’re old.
>”man, what was it like when you were born? How come you have no gf Anon? Why are you so lonely? Go make friends with someone your age”
>and then you go home to your mom and brothers who you support, having thankfully finally gotten rid of your worthless father, and they ask you why you’d ever want to leave them, to go out into public, to go enjoy what little money you have.
Tl;dr, can anyone else relate to being the centerpost of a family that’s not even yours, and being unable to make friends because you’re this wired sandwich generation that doesn’t fit an age category?
>>752675826
you know i didn't think of that. thanks anon.
>>752675844
i'm not an alcoholic but sometimes that spirit eating really helps, temporarily. some people keep drinking indefinitely and it turns them into a worse creature than they were before.
take a deep breath you are coming out of dysfunctional family and so happy your family is supportive. this is going to be hard on you but the ones you call your friends they are not your friends they are bulling you your own family is much better than them you are the not the first person or the last to complete school late so what does that make you less of human no and again no you dont need bullies or haters they are not your friends your mind is stuck in past thinking the good times life move hugs its time for you to move on and get new friends a new social circle and i would recommend leave these people yes people alone and adopt a new social circle also they will not define or tell neither your family when you will have a gf its you and always going to be you. you are going through rough time and all they can do is pressurize you so they can cope with there own failures you are no one's coping mechanism and you are much better than these people its not saying to make you feel better rather thats who you are your personality too honest
>3 years
>>752676696
If any of it does help then good luck /b/ro and try not to sweet the small stuff.
you and i both know you are better than this.you want to be loved there is nothing wrong with it the basic subconsciousness need is to be acknowledge some girls take off there clothes its a example and getting your spirit eaten is no way help its numbing down feelings and leading to deep depression sorry to say alcohol is destruction in psychotherapy pot is closest thing to coping mechanism or take the person in mindfulness state since we all are so familiar with mindless state and i would recommend you to go for rewire by richard o connor download it from piratebay or audiobookbay i am not selling nothing here even you go to psychotherapist i bet they will have a copy under the table since its the new breaking therapy and it will help you to under stand your condition much better
>>752651440
Go for it honkey.
I guess I should wait for the next one. I'm so lonely. I just want to love someone and love them in return.
>>752653683
Honkeys. That's what's going on.
make this your anthem against haters
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TERyxFfMqDk
lisa miskovsky still alive
keep on walking its life fuck it or get fucked your choice you are all born fee to chose
>>752677839
>I'm so lonely. I just want to love someone and love them in return
This hurts too deep
>>752652244
>DOUBLE DUBS
Your wish has been granted, anon.
give it 1 week, profit
hugs sweetie wanna talk i will always be here for you and dont feel down its a moment it will pass but you will always have yourself.
I'm an intovert. Wish I could have met someone like you. Though I'm not a shooter-type.
>>752678204
Grass is always greener. Remember you could be with an insufferable nagging cunt.
there is nothing wrong to be shy. its your personality and you can change it human are like water they can be mold change and all you need to do is change YOUR STATE OF MIND and your reality will change. what bothers you the most
hahahha wisdom in hate nice one
I’m 23 and stuck with a girl I hate and a baby she refuses to abort. Leaving her would tear my parents to pieces. I hate everything.
I’ve been working for years to get my whole life back in order from an abusive relationship that took literally everything from me at 19. I’d been living on my own from 16 because my mom kicked me out for no reason. So it was a big hit.
I almost made it, and now I have two leeches who contribute to me 0%, therefore I can’t have anything or any time.
I don’t want to keep doing this. But I can’t stop. I don’t like my kid because I never wanted him. I don’t feel anything for his mother anymore. This was a stupid thing that had to happen and I can’t do anything about it.
I make good money but can’t get ahead because she siphons all of it away from me. Doesn’t work. Eats all the food that I make for myself after 12-18 hour shifts. I hate it. I hate all of this.
glad you survive dysfunctional family. also its very normal what you feel for your wife and kid since your wife is abusing you and for what ever sake stop to cook no no heard all stories stop to eat out side better than working that much and getting not a single meal just remember you are no mother that have to nurse your wife and also if you go for divorce you will have to pay a big price which in your case i hate to say i dont like it dont want. put that bitch of wife in therapy since she is already suffering from depression and cbt let the doc care of rest of the report so later you can prove she dont care about nothing and it will save you. also after this please please dont jump in to new relationship or drugs or alcohol since we all are human and you will need something to cope better go for therapy and take evidence as much as you can so you can prove she is lazy and dont care for you and she use kid to make you stuck with her and relax your anger is justifiable its healthy anger but you need to prove in court of law your mental break down okay now take a deep breath and relax you need evidence to prove they are leaches otherwise you will be stuck with this and your depression will take over till you will start to have thoughts about murder and we dont want that right get the evidence even when she argue just turn on the camera or voice recorder to show she is really a leach
Im 17 living with my family in a nice house enough money and stuff. Was good in school until 8th or 9th grade. Too much pressure, was never the best in something started to lack self-confidence. Also my parents often screamed at me and my dad really desteoyed my self confidence always telling me what a fucking disgrace i am lol. When severe depression started i started building up a mask never talked to someone and stuff now im not able to go to school since half an year and smoke weed everyday. I'd just need someone taking my hand going with me through everyday life and i guess it would work that way. Also tried working out and getting my ass up but my parents put me down every time again. Really see no way out anymore
>>752652909
Quality horror manga
I was falsely accused of rape as a teenager by the first person I ever loved and I haven't been able to feel happy or love since then...
>>752651440
do it pussy
>>752652161
Show tits or they aint real
I Learn that my ex cheat on me, she is 18 and doing babysitting for a child , the father is an old dude of 40, when i was with her she kiss him, she leave me this day without explication and a learn that the day after this kiss and break she fucked with him, i was sur of it but she repeat me that there was nothing and say " trust me ", fucking slut
Im non-binary and my uncle touches me everyday but im too scared to ask for help : ?
>>752674602
me neither
>>752652542
Wanna be friends?
>>752680117
There is always suicide. But don't go out like a bitch. Take some cops out with ya.
the way you feel is normal in your condition sweetheart and you are living in a dysfunctional family its very unhealthy environment for you and no sweetie in normal house kids dont get screamed at or called fauilers just because dad was not satisfied rather they are supportive and dont look for hand to walk you through life you already have that hand and that is YOU yes you and you sweetie get a job save enough to get out of this abusive environment you are not bad but rather pushed by your parents and can we please put down the blunt its nothing more than you coping with conditions no sweetie i know and you know its not you and its just to numb the pain do you want to be stuck with conjunctive behavior disorder parents or take control of your life where do you see yourself in next 10 years or five or one. its difficult its depressive but you are young and its time you take care of this and no you dont have to prove nothing to a dad that yells its abuse in terms of law and in terms of psychology take control of your life and work hard when you look yourself in mirror love you are taking of that guy also if you dont get out of this environment you will lose your self and we dont want that right say it with me i am stronger than this and i deserve better hugs time to move and no more of blunt let it go no let it go let it go also use this self help therapy undoing depression by richard o connor
>>752680437
you actually love it when he does that, don't lie you fucking gross non binary slut
its so sad to hear that but one good thing came out of this you will never love a bitch or slut and its not your fault your gf is imitating childhood abuse with a old man but you dont need to be part of this its time to move on and find a girl that really cares for you and love you and what ever she does please dont take her back you can be soft at heart but you deserve better you deserve love and respect like any other human find a girl that is worth of you the reason i say that you was honest loving and caring and no need to shed a tear a bitch is called a bitch for reason right dont be stuck or suborn you deserve much better than her she cheat on you there is no way or chance to forgive there is nothing she can do pay off right find someone better and take it very slow sex is nothing get a life partner not bitches and take it slow and slow
>>752680699
Nah never gonna suicide fuck that i got a 6 month old shiba puppy would never leave her alone but yeah of course often thought about it
its okay nightmare is over. i know its difficult to even have a relationship for the trauma you have to pass through try this self help therapy it was not my fault by beverly angel and you will fail in two weeks of therapy but fake it till you make and in 30 days you will feel normal again
>>752653934
in all honesty anon you do it to yourself. You have to be willing to make a serious move at some point. The fear of failure prevented you from taking any action at all. You didn't even get friendzoned here, you friendzoned yourself.
Man cannot remake himself without suffering, for he is both the marble and the sculptor Dr. Alexis Carrel
good night my angels stay strong
Fucking feels thread OP
Depression, GAD. No real job, just run social media for some shitty republican candidate. No degree yet, wanted to major in music but the music program at my uni fucking sucked ass and killed all passion i gave 7 years of my life to in one semester. No real skills besides furniture making that i learned to make money on the side, nowhere near good enough to make enough to live on, have to live with parents who obviously resent me. Ex gf absolutely destroyed my mental stability by telling me to kill myself when we broke up, now extremely scared of commitment, so I just fuck at this point, even though it doesnt even feel good anymore. Constant suicidal thoughts, but can't tell psyche or they'll throw me in a ward.
I just want to not feel worthless.
>>752652244
New Zealand is a second world shithole. Maōris and Samoans are either good cunts or plain cunts. Education, jobs and general well being are in the fucking shitter. Go to Australia at least. Tasmania if you can afford it
>>752652909
i feel ya
Yeah, Idk guys. I wasn't gonna contribute but there's a lot of real shit in this thread tonight so i'd feel like an ass if i didn't throw my personal flavor of suffering into the mix. I'm gonna go a bit of a different route here and rather than talk about myself I'm going to do some generalizing for a bit here. I see a lot of dudes here talking about unhappiness in relationships or in how the world perceives them. That's a self-destructive way of thinking from the start imo. even the people that care about you the most are ultimately self-centered. This isn't to say that people aren't capable of genuinely caring for others, but their priorities will always be skewed by a genetic prerogative. Caring for yourself is important. You must first learn to love and respect yourself before anybody else can truly feel the same towards you. Just know that there are people out there pulling for you even if you aren't among them yet. I'm in the process of starting up a stream to help people with depression and whatever other fucked up shit has just become an average part of life these days. I know how tough shit can be, my life has been a fucking nightmare to put it lightly. But at the end of the day, YOU are ultimately in control of your own personal happiness. Nobody else can take that shit from you unless you let them.
-LR
you are not worthless and and no one will through you in psyche ward you are not psychopath and sociopath. also its time to change carrier you wasted too much time over something that didnt deserve that but rather move on and no you dont need a cruel girl in your life find someone that can appreciate you love you for what you are and also use this self help therapy undoing depression by richard o'connor and change your life you deserve better like any other human your loss of motivation your loss of innovation is result of a cruel girl its time to move on also for your self destructive behavior use Rewire by richard o'connor move a muscle change a thought hugs
>>752683398
so how much did old dick pay you to push his book?
>>752659657
daaamn, this
amen to that i wish more people have this thinking "learn to love your self" psychotherapy 10 years quit a week ago saw a girl of 10 years commit suicide bad parents honestly never felt the same afterwards never went back people think doctors are gods but in the end friend told to go on b as a coping mechanism and i stand by your thinking and mix
>>752661648
HELL NO TO THE NO NO NO :3
nohing at all download it from piratebay or audiobookbay or tell your email address i will send it i am not here to sell nothing its something psychotherapy reaching to new level where people dont need medications
like for all medical things there are standard operating procedures sops for short just like when you see apostasy its always V on chest and I on legs same way for mental conditions kristin neff she took more than million people off medication in one session youtube to hear her
>>752667502
Nah dude just keep being funny and make dank memes and open up to people even strangers can be fun but be careful anyway i know this feel
Bump
18, basically raped all childhood, separated my actual self from school self around 2nd grade, continue on with fake persona of funny cool popular guy everyone loved but was for some reason always single, can’t sex bc PTSD, anytime people get close i tell them my life story and they treat me like a puppy bc they don’t want to hurt me, develop alcoholism as a Soph in hs, fall for girl, tells me she loves me, tell her she’s the only person i feel comfortable being sexual with, fall in love and couldn’t be happier, 1 yr 4 months into relationship “hey anon sorry for doing this over text but you’re too nice for me to do it in person because it would break your heart but me and *insert anons 2 best friends names here* hooked up and i just can’t be with you anymore because you’re still going to hangout with them and make things wierd, forgives her and dumps friends so she can be w/ me, graduate, she leaves me, go to a great school on free scholarship, don’t know anyone because nobody from my school goes here, need friends ASAP, starts selling weed because it will help me meet new people, turns into violent substance abuse issue, rehab, parents literally body search me every time i come home, finally losing weight, parents trust is building, starting to realize i was a dumbass in highschool and having friends was meaningless, realize girl is a whore and I’m better without her, starting to be myself and not my over confident fake self i have been my entire life, notice I’m genuinely happy for first time in my life and start going to counseling and start getting over rape shit when little, getting my shit together, things get better friends, just hang on
>>752669942
You just admitted that youre still 17..
>hope you'll learn from this kiddo
sometimes i hate you, i think you thought this... i feel like the love comes back stronger... but i also feel like it doesnt matter... i dont know what i deserve anymore... ive lost all my confidence because of how unfairly you treated me and the feeling that i could have saved you but didnt... i dont know what to say because im not smart i feel stupid saying anything because we've lived in silence for so long, that should say it all... i cant take much more abuse from everyone else thats been "affected" by this nobody knows the truth except us and really what can we even offer as a rebuttal to anything the world throws at us, its all grey if not black and the white seems to be fading... idk :/
