Feels thread /b/
I need the feels right now
I'm not sure of anything right now
Bumping
Moar bumps
It feels like I'm just living pic related night after night
>>750744858
At least Calvin gets to go home to someone who loves him
>>750744932
Dispose of your bottles of pee and you won't feel so much like the picture
>>750744966
But we're all just Hobbes here.
We're all silent people of the past who get forgotten by the ones who walk forward.
I'd say it's not the bottles of piss that are relatable but frankly it's true that my bathroom is pretty trashed right now
>>750745020
>>750745216
So fucked up I can't even link to the posts anymore
4chan is hateful
But what were trying to hide
Is hate for ourselves
>>750745093
Calvin literally returns home from school every single day though
Also, look at the 9th panel. Calvin does not forget Hobbes at all. Instead, he's anxious to see him again.
>>750745216
Flush your toilet, anon. The problems inside will flow away
>>750745327
It's disappointment. We believed we would go further. We kept believing that we would keep our drive all our life but it just faded
>>750745555
I'd debate but I guess I gotta obey the quads
>>750745327
the faggots haiku is correct
>>750745327
Good verse
>>750744833
whats wrong anon
>>750745216
The whole "clean your room" meme aside, I live in a small apartment. Literally one room with a little side den for a computer and a bathroom. Whenever I feel down and depressed, I clean the place up and re-arrange things. I find it really makes the place seem new and fresh when I actually make a change to it rather than just tidy it up. I moved my bed from a spot on one side of the room facing the window, to right next to the window, and its amazing how that simple change really makes everything around you seem less stale.
>>750745216
this is more funny than sad
>>750746874
I can't spend a single day sober. I've been trying for three years now to just quit. But whenever I get off something I just go fishing for something else. I've been switching drugs faster than a hooker switches clients. I'm mixing all different kinds of things just to make sure I don't have to live with myself when I go to sleep. I'm scared of going to sleep sober
>>750745515
A friend of mine started crying once because he realized while we were reading old Calvin and Hobbes strips that Hobbes bursting out of the door and Calvin getting banged up because of it was a metaphor for Calvin actually getting beat up at school and comforting himself when he got home.
>>750747550
I should try at least that. I've repainted every room in here three times in a year. And everytime it doesn't last very long until I start feeling out of place
>>750748316
You must be seriously affected. How? There's literally nothing in the universe that could make me paint my room three times over in a year.
Does anyone else here not have any major trauma or tragedy to their backstory, or even any big hardships in life right now, but feels a crushing, constant sensation of guilt and stagnation?
I feel like I'm a shark flipped upside-down, dying of asphyxiation. I don't see a reason to do anything other than a vague sense of obligation to others.
>>750747664
are you employed anon? or have something to dedicate your time to? you mentioned fishing
Any tips on becoming completely numb to the thought of relationships? I obviously will never have one, so is it possible to at least condition myself to not give a single fuck about it?
>>750748749
Adding on to that, because I had two feels to share.
I used to be a drunk. I eventually clued in that being drunk all the time was making me stupider and was alienating the people around me and I was able to quit. And I felt a lot better, for a few weeks, as my head cleared up and my self-confidence took a boost, but by now I've backslid to the same state I've described above and I'm really fucking desparate now because kicking the booze was what I assumed would be the key. I've run out of ideas. I really really really want to get drunk right now.
>>750748912
Idk man just make a goal and try to achieve it
what's going on in your life that keeps you busy? Don't you have any sort of direction?
>>750748863
Also pic related
>>750749026
Uni and my shitjob in the kitchen at a local pub.
I am only in uni because I feel like I'm supposed to do it, I get bad grades and feel no real motivation to go there. My job is the best thing in my life tbh.
>>750748863
Yeah man it's called jacking off
>>750749177
uhh I would recommend doing good at uni, you don't wanna be dishwasher for the rest of your life do you?
>>750749192
only detrimental
>>750749280
No, I don't. But I don't even have a major chosen and I don't know what the fuck job I'd get anyway.
Also for the record I make food. I know how to make everything on the menu.
>>750749415
Just pick something you like or transfer to chef school. Maybe they're wrong but my parents would not stfu about "getting into college to get a good job so you don't have to work hard like your father" my whole life.
>>750748749
Yep. It's been a slowly growing crushing feeling. I have friends who love me, a supportive family, etc.
But I can't ever seem to succeed career wise or love wise. I've gotten laid off twice in 3 years. I get one-itis like no other, and when they turn me down, I get crushed. Like I turn to drinking when I normally hate drinking. Doing that to myself most recently a few weeks ago.
Now it's Q4, the end of the year, the time of going out with your signifigant other. Buying gifts together, seeing family together, cuddling and watching shitty Christmas movies. And I just sit here a year older waiting to buy some fucking shells for a shotgun.
I've spent years making fun of myself before others could. It got me through middle school when girls picked on me for even thinking I had shot at a date with someone. Since then it's how I make friends. Make myself the joke and pick others up by making them feel good. I'm always the nice guy. The nice guy, not the nice to date guy. It gets to you after a while ya know? Like you're not worth someones time. Like you're less of a person.
I honestly wish the best for my friends and family. And that's about all I can do because my outlook is fucking boring, no matter what I try.
>t. Soon to be Wizard.
>>750748750
I am employed. I've actually been working 7 days a week this summer just to not have time to think about anything. Keeping myself busy at all times. I see my friends often because I have lots of drinking partners but they're getting bored of hearing me rant about myself. Everytime I drink I end up talking about how I just can't add 1+1 and be happy
>>750748662
Boredom. A lack of posessions. Free time. I don't know. It just feels weird to stay in here too long without it changing a lot
>>750750173
maybe sounds like an alcohol problem
Have you tried just slowing down, not worrying so much
>be me
>heroin addict
>go to rehab
>get clean
>get job through temp agency
>working 9-5 office job
>days are on repeat
>no real aspirations
40 more years of this and it will all be over lads
>>750750312
probably boredom, get a hobby
>>750750378
At least you're not a heroin addict anymore
>>750749718
Fuck, man... I feel for you, I do.
You don't deserve to be a punching bag, anon.
>>750744833
Is that Bane?
>>750750440
drugs at least provided me with the opportunity to escape the bleakness of life now i'm facing that sober and it is so draining
>>750750341
But drinking helps anon. The problem isn't mostly when I'm drunk.
The problem is when I'm not
>>750750558
SON OF A BITCH.
>>750750173
i dont know anon, but it sounds like you need to slow down on the drugs/alcohol. I know it feels good now, but its not going to help in the long run.
>>750750745
>>750750718
the substances make everything else shittier by comparison
>>750750544
Thanks anon. At least on here I can safely say my peace. The rest of my time is a smilely face mask trying to make my people happy.
>>750751103
Right in the Feels
>>750744833
I wasn't on the computer for most of the day. I get tired of the constant noise. Took a bunch of omega 3 pills and once they kicked in I felt nice and mellow. Watched some original Twilight Zone episode and Forbidden Planet then The Fountain.
I just want calm and serenity.
The world is like a ride at an amusement park, and when you choose to go on it, you think it's real, because that's how powerful our minds are. And the ride goes up and down and round and round and it has thrills and chills and it's very brightly colored and it's very loud. And it's fun, for a while.
Some people have been on the ride for a long time, and they begin to question: 'Is this real? Or is this just a ride?' And other people have remembered, and they come back to us and they say 'Hey! Don't worry, don't be afraid -- ever -- because... this is just a ride.' And we kill those people.
'Shut him up! We have a lot invested in this ride! Shut him up! Look at my furrows of worry; look at my big bank account, and my family. This has to be real.' It's just a ride. But we always kill those good guys who try and tell us that -- ever notice that? -- and we let the demons run amok. But it doesn't matter, because... it's just a ride, and we can change it any time we want. It's only a choice. No effort. No worry. No job. No savings and money. Just a choice, right now, between fear and love. The eyes of fear want you to put bigger locks on your door, buy bigger guns, close yourself off. The eyes of love, instead, see all of us as one.
Here's what we can do to change the world, right now, into a better ride. Take all that money we spend on weapons and defense each year and, instead, spend it feeding, clothing and educating the poor of the world, which it would do many times over -- not one human being excluded -- and we can explore space together, both inner and outer, forever. In peace.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KgzQuE1pR1w
>>750752018
Fuck man, that was a sad story. I started it out thinking "crazy foreigner plays games and will say something crazy." Then he fucking gets caught up in the worst shit. Dem feels mate.
>>750744833
I don't even know what to type...
Sometimes you simply have to just /b/ yourself. Do whatever you want to make you happy. I spent the day watching old movies, some documentaries about old Hollywood and now I lurk/post here because that's what I want to do. Know that I love you all and want you all to find serenity.
>>750751822
ayylmao
>>750752205
I remember reading the screenshot of it but havent seen it in a while, bump for hopeful resurface
>>750748912
I'm successful in life. I have a beautiful wife, and amazing son. We have great friends and we are a popular family.
>if I'm sober I start getting crazy thoughts
>I tried stopping the drinking to see if it was causing it but nope, it seems the drinking mellows it down.
>fortunately enough for me I can understand that it is me causing the problem but I still can't stop it.
>>750748749
This is, in my opinion, one of the worst kind of feels because it's just an empty feeling of nothing. You just keep going on day after day feeling nothing. Everyday is the same and there is no real change. You want something to happen but it never does. You try to make something happen but it never goes anywhere. Not even most forms of escapism can help you forget this feel, they might help at first, but eventually just blend into the gray background that is your life. I can't escape it and I want to.
Do you ever feel like you're not special or unique in any way, and that every thing you do is a grandiose plea for some sort of reaction, or affirmation that no one will ever give you?
I have no friends and this shit is messing with my head. The other night I had an anxiety attack at 1:30 and went on a run with no shoes or socks. just my pajamas.
>>750752648
I got nothing better to do.
> A Guy in TF2 talking on the mic with a thick arab accent,
> “You all go now. Go to fight the bad. I stay defend. They no get past. I stay. you go tight. I alone stay for to defend. Take their box. I stay.”
> someone tells him to shut the fuck up > I tell them to shut the fuck up and let him talk if he wants (because I think he’s funny to listen to)
> he adds me > every fucking game I play with him he does the exact same shit
> “I am Tank. I wait by helicopter. You kill. I won’t let through. You kill. Boomer man, go vomit. I alone guard helicopter. You go.”
> “You put portal there. Good. I wait. You discover answer. I know answer. Keep portal there. I will put portal when need. Keep putting portal. Good. Do you see? I wait. You put portal. Good.”
> just talking non-stop every fucking game we play
> arab spring starts
> I have no idea where he lives
> one day he sends me a message
> “bad times friend ahead”
> “maybe no computer”
> “maybe no home”
> “I will go way but we are two of soul”
> “I will return”
> > > Last Online: 938 days ago
>>750752782
I think that means you're histrionic
>>750752655
Fuck, man. I'm settling into an apathy. I'll maybe be able to stay sober until my finals are over. I never in my life smoked but I picked it up a few weeks ago. I get loony thoughts too, and sometimes it upsets me because I'll get stuck in my own mind trying to negotiate my way into being calm.
>>750752754
Same, man.
>>750751103
My mind was always scattered. Five different things going on at once. I don't drink or 420 and needed something to help me relax. My wife got me into Omega 3 pills and, fuck me, I take three of these a day and my thoughts are crystal clear, I feel calm and relaxed and the days aren't as hard as they usually were. Basically "don't give a fuck" in pill form. I;m amazed. Anyone else have experiences with Omega 3's? Seriously, take 3 or 4 of these and listen to this. Your worries will go away. https://youtu.be/9Vj_O4Kz2CY
>>750752527
Always take advice from a man with a swastika tattooed on his chest.
>>750751489
I can't even look into the eyes of girls without getting lost in them. The eyes really are the gateway to the soul.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SRx5qCN6zWc
>>750752996
I know that feeling. I would get lost in my ex girlfriend's eyes. I still miss them. I miss so much about her.
>>750749718
Don't worry about finding love, let it come to you. I was the same; ugly, poor, beta but one day there she was. That was seven years ago and we've been married for three. If someone like me can find love, anyone can.
>>750745020
but they're warm and I'm lonely
>>750753109
>be me
>walking
>bump into a girl
>"oh, sorry"
>look up
>end up staring into beautiful blue eyes
>as if I'm staring into a galaxy through a telescope
>get completely lost in them
>eventually notice that she's talking to me
>"are you ok?"
>"u-um, yeah"
>"ok, see you around"
>she hits me with that innocent smile before walking away
Every damn time...
I know I hate to admit it but I am kinda lonely. That's why I keep coming here. I was hoping I successfully repressed all my desire for a functional social life (esp. a girlfriend) but I think it's impossible. Idk what I'm gonna do, between my goals, my current situation and my feelings something needs to be sacrificed.
What is it like to have somebody love you?
What would make you happy?
>>750753391
Fuck dude, it's weird how fucking perfect you captured that feeling. God damn, that was perfect.
>>750750312
>A lack of posessions
Don't get wrapped up in having possessions as a wise man once said "the things you own end up owning you".
>>750753559
Thanks anon, I don't get compliments often...
>>750753446
I could write a fucking essay about it. It's the best feeling in the world. You could never be happier. Fuck, every moment is complete euphoria. But when the cracks start to show you pretend not to see them, untill it all comes crashing down. Crashing down on you.
>>750752527
Then satan piped in and removed the "hap" which he then said, with a smirk, kinda sounds like penis
>>750752986
Today at work I realized that it has been a good week or so since I jacked off. I was looking forward to it and now I'm home and I jacked off. But now what? Literally the only thing I had to look forward to was jacking off. That's fucking it. There's nothing waiting for me now besides work again tomorrow. That's all that ever will be waiting for me so I can survive on minimum wage in a shitty apartment by myself. Honestly, why do I even get out of bed in the morning? I think I'm getting closer and closer to the end of my short, boring story.
>>750753829
It's the blue eyes that get me the most too. I mean, I like brown and green eyes and all but blue eyes stand out. There's something special about them.
>>750754095
>>750754095
Buddy set some goals to work torwards. That's the only thing that keeps the human race going, the conquest for more
>>750753446
It is the single most horrid fucking thing there is. The deeper they love you the more you mean to them, it is a fucking burden when on a day to day basis you barely hold yourself together. Now you have another living, thinking, caring person that is affected by your moods and your shit, and your fuck ups or failures drag them with you. Some of us are just better off alone.
>>750754160
Honestly, death seems so fucking great right now. I'm living in a constant loop of the same shit over and over again, and if I'm dead and God exists, then I'm literally in Heaven. If he doesn't, then I'm just nothing, which seems just as amazing right about now.
>>750752648
there have been several versions, got two of em saved
next one comin up
>>750754095
Try to think of ways you can improve your life I guess. Like how can I do better at work or save more money on groceries or whatever you want.
>>750754187
I can't, though. I tried to go to school but I'm too stupid. I actually had enough effort to work my ass off then, too, but I still failed. So I realized that all I'm ever gonna be able to do is just work retail. But what's the point in fucking living then, especially if I'm all alone?
>>750754098
Exactly, I have problems looking people in the eyes, but if they have brown eyes or green eyes, it's a bit more manageable to make eye contact for a few seconds.
but blue eyes...I don't even feel worthy to stare into blue eyes. Especially when they're that light blueish silver color that literally pierces through your soul. They just show all of the good within someone. You can see their innocence, their curiosity, their energy, their lively glow. It gives me chills...
>>750753446
It's not always perfect but you know that you have someone who you connect with on a level that can't be explained and the word "love" doesn't even begin to cover it.
I don't know if anyone is gonna give a fuck about what I'm about to type. But I want to type it anyways.
I don't care about sex.
I don't care about what people say or think or judge me for.
I don't care if I'm the clown or the funny guy.
The only fucking thing I've ever wanted was love. The love that does t leave you after 3 months.
The kind of love that isn't one sided.
The kind of love that doesn't make you want to cry.
I'm tired guys. I'm tired of falling for girls that only want to fuck.
I'm tired of girls that make me think I mattter.
I'm tired of trusting again and again only to keep getting hurt.
I don't mind being alone. As hypocritical as it sounds I dont. I just wish that people would stop making me think I matter to them only to say "sorry You're just not what I'm looking for."
I just want to make someone as happy as I think they could make me.
>>750753929
>I could write a fucking essay about it. It's the best feeling in the world. You could never be happier. Fuck, every moment is complete euphoria. But when the cracks start to show you pretend not to see them, untill it all comes crashing down. Crashing down on you.
What you're talking about is lust. Not love. You fall in lust with someone because they're beautiful/attractive. But once things settle you start to get bored. True love is when you've been together for seven years and can't wait to see her each day.
>>750754460
Jesus dude, your reading my mind. One of the most magic moments of my life was staring into the eyes of my ex girlfriend. It was the first time we had ever met and the way she stared into my eyes, it was all I had ever wanted. That moment was perfect.
>>750754308
>It is the single most horrid fucking thing there is. The deeper they love you the more you mean to them, it is a fucking burden when on a day to day basis you barely hold yourself together. Now you have another living, thinking, caring person that is affected by your moods and your shit, and your fuck ups or failures drag them with you. Some of us are just better off alone.
If that person truly loves you, they accept your faults and you accept theirs.
>>750754638
There's nothing wrong with that anon. We all want someone we can love. We just need to keep fighting, no matter how bad it hurts.
>>750754642
Holy shit. You're right.
>>750754638
That cuts deep mate,
>>750753458
No OCD
No Anxiety
No Depression
I just want my head to be normal. Then everything would get better
>>750754790
I just want to make someone happy man. I don't care about my own happiness.
I don't care about 99% of this shit. The only things that really matter to me are the people I care about, and the man I want to be and how to get there. Anything else can fuck off. I wish I could make someone feel that way.
>>750744858
I dont get it. Help?
>>750754724
I hope I can experience that feeling one day... The feeling of looking into someone's eyes and not having to look away. Seeing the compassion within them... That's truly all I want.
>>750754959
Man it's the truth. I just wish I felt like I was important enough to make someone happy. But instead I just make people laugh. I'm the funny guy. The wild child. "Crazy fucker" I just wanna be worth something for fucks sake.
>>750748749
>got raped at 16
>I told best friend first
>I pushed her away
>it took a long time to actually feel normal
>try to re connect with her
>she moved on
>it really messed with me and I never really got past that
>>750755154
I think you'll end up making someone happy, anon. Eventually, the will to do so will build up inside of you until it can't be contained. I feel like I'm getting to a similar point. I just can't take this loneliness anymore.
Anyone feel a lot better during a shower? like everything bad kinda goes away.
>>750754638
I can't speak in absolutes. But I'd like to say someone will come along. Supposedly there's someone for everyone. I'm still looking too anon.
I think that's the base of most humans, we just want someone to give a fuck about us. Some people have it easier, they naturally exude confidence and attract others to them. Others just have a look that attracts people to them. Then there's the oddities that for some reason get attention no one understands. Adn then there's us. The unloved.
You ever wonder why terrorists blow themselves up and sacrifice themselves for their religion? Imagine you lived in a shitty desert where the old dude down the road has 7 wives and 30 some children, meanwhile your goat herding ass can't afford one wife, let alone find one if you had the money. The fucks in charge have bought them all. You can't drink, you can't jerk off, let alone look at porn, can't eat fucking bacon. Then someone promises you virgins if you go with them to war.
You don't know any better because you're a fucking goat herder, so you follow along with their plan. You go to war in some way, adding to the pile of dead males in your region (or nation you invaded), allowing the fucks in charge to continue to get the pussy while your dead ass is in a photo with a U.S. soldier teabgging you. I don't abide by what the camel fuckers do, just playing devils advocate.
That's how much power pussy has. And women know it. Try to find some girl who doesn't follow this shit.
>>750755386
I truly wish for that as well. Just someone that cares, that if I ring they would be excited to answer.
I hate being alone, but most of all I hate myself for creating this position that I am in.
>>750755689
Thank you. I hope so. I wish the same for you.
I don't mind being lonely that much. I mind more the fact that I may not be needed. And it scares me deeply.
>>750756081
When you say that, do you feel like you'll be forgotten or tossed aside?
I'm going to bed /b/.
Thanks for the feels. Thanks for the advice. Thanks for showing me i'm not alone. Again.
After all these years, thanks for being the person I can talk shit with any time. You've called me a fag, an emotion-cuck, but you've also called me a gentleman and a good artist.
I wish you all the best. Even if we never meet in real life, or talk on here again.
Thank you.
>>750756357
Maybe more tossed aside? But that doesn't feel like the right fear. It's more so the fear of confusion. The constant nagging in your head that tells you it's your fault. I don't really want to be remembered. Because no one's ever really forgotten. Our atoms are everlasting. We are creation. No I want to have something to fight for. Something to protect that I can see as pure. I want something, someone, that I can give my all into because I have nothing else to put it in. I have poured all of me into my hobbies and joys that I can my temple is decorated. But my heart is craving something to fight for. Something that needs it.
>>750756907
Good night anon. I think I'll probably stick around a little longer so I can wrap up some convos with a couple other anons if they haven't gone to sleep. I always love talking with all of you. This place is both crude and blunt, but at the same time beautiful and deep.
> Me, 23, 6'3" 250lbs
> Anxiety every day from my job
> Constantly fuck up hard
> Asperger's, ADHD, diagnosed as "brain hyperactivity" opposed to the normal hyper little shit
> Afraid of losing my job constantly
> Yearning to go to college but just can't will myself to do it
> Possible free 2 years of college from local organization
> Come home to possibly loving gf of 2 years
> Still don't know if it's real, still haven't extinguished the first real flame of 5 yrs who while being across the US grew up with me from 15 till 21
> Was major sub, really got me into the Ddlg and pet play, to the point that it still controls my confidence, it became my crutch to my awkward and shitty aspie ways
> Current gf has no sex drive while mines out the roof
> Current gf doesn't try anything beyond the three positions we do every time
> Porn addiction hard to quit when I'm constantly teased for no gain on my end (haven't had sex in over a week, I feel so unwanted)
> Sex is what keeps the depression at bay, very hard to do now
> Just want a blowjob and a bullet to the skull
t. Stuck in this life, send help
>>750757156
I know exactly what you're talking about, anon. We all wish for someone to fight for. Someone that we can give our all in to. Someone to care for and for them to care for us.
>>750757498
Life's fucking tough but I will not give up. I want this. I'll find it or die trying.
>>750757636
Godspeed anon
Let's hope we all can make it.
>>750757181
Love you too friend.
How long till y'all think 4chan dies? It'll have to happen eventually. Could be decades could be years. All I know for sure is I'll miss this place.
>>750755744
Totally. Sucks that now i shower with a bucket and i don´t feel relaxed like i used to. Just cold and alone.
>>750758230
I'm not sure anon. I honestly don't think it'll end anytime soon. I think we should enjoy it while it's still here though.
>>750758408
I hate how much I love this place
>>750758230
>>750758408
As long as there´s people like us, this site will be alive, or until they decide to shut it down.
Bump
>>750758484
I think 4chan will live on even after the website dies. We may move to separate websites or even other chans, but we'll keep the spirit of this website alive. This community simply won't die like that.
>Be Me, just six years old
>Forced to watch my brother get sexually tortured by my step Grandfather
>He was literally a year and a half old
>The things that were done to him shattered his mind and turned him feral
>He didn’t talk until he was four
>Took a year and a half of therapy to trust that the same wouldn’t be done to me if I talked
>By then the courts couldn’t do Shit because it happened too long ago
>My Grandmother told us “don’t you think we misunderstood?”
>My parents were strong enough to cut ties with my entire family
>The things we told our counselor made her transfer away from us
>And my grandmother accused us of being “melodramatic to discipline”
>this was all just the beginning though
>Similar instances happened twice again along side both parents alcoholic downward spiral
>On anti-depressants and anti-psychotics since I was six
>Go to college and be told I need to be “trained not to rape” because I’m a “cis male”
>I’ve grown up to see everything I’ve struggled my entire life to bare become trivialized into slight discomfort
>My greatest fear is what the world will be to my little brother
>>750744833
I have accepted that it's impossible to get anything that I want in this life, so I'm just playing a chance game that what I interpret as the afterlife is somehow the correct interpretation of it if there even is one at all. Due to having a loving family I can't kill myself, so I sit here waiting to die. That's all.
>>750758713
Jesus Christ anon... that sounds terrifying.
>>750758713
What did he do to your brother?
>>750744833
Analog by Nature wasn't on tonight or last night. I enjoy contributing to those threads
>>750758713
Post videos of your brother getting fucked. Post your dick and butthole. Post nudes of your family members
>>750759093
The Psych meds I’m on help keep everything from crippling me, but it also makes it difficult to remember. Usually I’ll remember in a nightmare, and then forget it leaving only the hollow impact of what the nightmare left.
The only things I can remember right now are something about forcing us to strip, caning, and threats of castration with scissors.
>>750759573
There was never video, and carful not to cut yourself on that edge buddy.
>>750758896
Your family won't care as much as you think they do. They must be talking shit about you and hoping for you to die. Just go ahead and do it
>>750759661
Everyone's got surveillance cameras in their houses built into the walls. Check the footage
>>750755744
My skin's drying out and the wall is crumbling so I can only shower at night with the lights off
>>750759802
You’re trying too hard
>>750759750
Well that was weak.
>>750760064
What's weak about it? It wasn't meant to be "strong" in any way or incisive. What are you referring to?
>>750754638
i think this hit to hard cuz i actually teared up and saved this
>>750760190
A weak attempt.
https://youtu.be/-5IEhMwWTgE
>>750760058
What was your relationship like with your mother?
>>750760215
A weak attempt at what?
>>750759661
>carful
Is this supposed to be a stab at illegal Mexicans?
>>750744889
holy shit i have never related to something as deeply as this....
>>750760315
I dunno, trolling, pushing someone over the edge, or maybe you really meant it. In any case, I don't think I could be more bored by the response you chose.
>>750759802
That's why we have creep shot threads
>>750745721
holy shit......
>>750760412
So? Why is that important?
>>750760541
Why is what important?
>>750745327
Why do you hate yourself?
>>750760590
Whether you're bored
>>750760628
Who said my boredom was important?
>>750752553
i dont know why i come to these posts.....
>>750753446
i wouldnt know
>>750760377
Sure if you want it to be I guess
>>750760674
You felt it was important for you to mention, unsolicited. You announced it triumphantly. You are pretending to be confused in hopes that it reflects poorly on me and makes me feel bad due to being an ineffective communicator. You were the only one who was vague.
>>750760837
What a weak attempt
If it makes anyone feel better, I'm a musican who has been in a bit of a writers block and this thread inspired me to write a portion of a song, so thanks. Very sad shit everybody, good work
>>750761015
Emotional leech
>>750761071
Cry about it, give me more material
>>750761104
Won't you believe it, it's just my luck
Won't you believe it, it's just my luck
Won't you believe it, it's just my luck
Won't you believe it, it's just my luck
>>750760913
It wasn't unsolicited, I was explaining myself to you, which you asked me to do. I'm not sure what about telling you that I'm bored sounds triumphant either.
>>750747664
I've been there Anon. I hate to preach but I went to rehab and started going to AA and it really helped. Safe travels, friend.
>>750761248
"I couldn't be more bored" was spoken in relation to "a weak attempt" which was meant to subvert and chagrin me. Announcing "I'm bored" was meant to be a triumphant moment for you, subverting what I said. It's based on the assumption that I intended to amuse you. You reported that you were "bored" in hopes that I would feel a sense of failure at this goal.
Lately my sadness has turned to anger, /b/ros. I've lost so many things in the past two days alone and it seems like almost anything can set me off on a violent episode.
What is it? Why am I like this? All I wanted was to be loved and love back with all my heart, hold my lover close and keep her there for the rest of my life. To feel her hair in my hands, to have her head resting on my chest as we sleep.
I'm so close to buying the helium, tell me now if the helium suicide is just a meme or a real way to end it.
It's all fairy tales isn't it? Real love doesn't exist anymore, does it? I just want her to be real, /b/ros, more than anything else in the world, I just want her to be real...
>>750748863
this.
>>750761637
>You reported that you were "bored" in hopes that I would feel a sense of failure at this goal.
I stated I was bored because I was bored. All of your extremely over-complicated analysis of our exchange doesn't apply to me, sorry. As I said, I'm waiting to die. Your post bored me, most things bored me, you should not be surprised that you bore me. I don't know what else to tell you.
>>750748863
Same. Love is dead anons. Nothing matters when you’re an incompetent anxiety filled lazy talentless shit.
Got a few to bump with
>>750748912
yo man go to AA, get a sponsor, and do the steps. ive been clean and sober 6 years now, shit works if you actually do it
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3
4
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All I got on this phone that I didn't already see in the thread. I'm gunna go drink, think of her, and cry now.
>>750751103
This made me cry
It's a strange trend that I always find these threads full of things about "her" and shit about lovers. Am I really the only one that only desires control?
I've been depressed lately, sort of numb to feeling good. I came to tge realization, I'm a loser with no goals,girls, or qualifications. I just want to coast through life. Granted, I'm 22 and still have time to change my path but, I have no direction nor the drive to do so.
One day, I'll find my place...
>>750761890
It's not overcomplicated, it's just inconvenient for you to be confronted about it. Calling it "overcomplicated" is one step away from the inevitable "pseudointellectual/armchair psychologist/autistic" characterization barrage.
You said you were bored to subvert what I said. You're now backing away from what you said.
>>750762371
Literally me
>>750762378
Alright, if you're going to keep trying to shove the dice down my throat, I'll play your game. I should warn you that I've already won though.
>>750762041
FUCK
Then people think you're a dick for not falling in love with their shit
I'm just really confused about everything in my life right now. My mind's all messed up and I'm not suer how to fix it. Suicide is looking like an appealing option, though I would much rather be fixed.
Here's a feely inspirobot generation - don't squander love if you have it, anons. I'm trying my best to fix myself so I don't waste my gf's love.
>divorce papers on table
>have big party tomorrow to celebrate
>I don't know if I can sign them
Sure /b/ she cheated on me. She took my only child and moved to the other side of a fucking continent. She cut all contact between me and my daughter. I haven't seen or heard a word from them in a year. My gifts get returned, calls go unanswered, and each night I'm sober enough to think about it the loneliness gets colder. I wish I had never met her, but damn bros if for those 12 years I didn't feel complete. Like I had finally found my missing piece. I am no saint but I never hit them or terrorized them, I just didn't truly show them what they meant I think. So here it is, my big day, and I can't sleep. I'm glad to finish this chapter but I don't think it's done, because I know no matter what she's done all it would take is that fucking smile when she gives me that sideways glance and the wounds would be reopened. Never love another /b/, but if you do, make sure they know it every waking moment you have with them.
>>750762195
I want to be locked inside a realm where I can come and go as I please without admitting others.
I'd also like a FAQ for myself so that all the repetitive interactions can be dispensed with. Maybe a robot representative or some software that causes me to say just the right things to others to get others off my case, leave me alone, keep me safe and ensure me privacy.
>>750762700
Now you're getting a little closer to speaking my language. All I really want is omnipotence, I don't think it's too much to ask.
>>750762812
Unlimited power, but not unlimited knowledge. You would be able to do anything, but perhaps not understand the consequences of your actions. I believe that would be too much to ask.
>>750762461
So you admit that you were being dishonest up until now? That's a good boy.
>>750761352
Wish it'd happen to me.
>>750762873
Of course, I want to make everything up as I go, so knowing the outcome would be boring. Give me infinite power and a universe to play in and I'll be happy.
>>750762873
>but perhaps not understand the consequences of your actions
Not understand? Or understand without having a need to care?
>>750745327
We all hate ourselves
That's why we are right here
Hiding behind screens
>>750762043
Fuuuuck too real
>>750763035
>>750763054
Surely omnipotence would be just as boring. You'd end up in a kind of One-Punch Man state, where you're so powerful you get bored. I'd rather be moderately more powerful, so that my actions would still have consequences and I couldn't carelessly abuse my powers.
>>750751103
fuck. this hurt me.
>>750763187
Nah, with omnipotence I could live out every single fantasy I could possibly imagine and more, and then when I got bored I could make myself forget all that I had done.
>>750752986
retard
I've just found out I'm extremely mentally ill, having a split personality. it feels like I have woken up from a dream and having an existential crisis. I dont know if I even want to feel.
>>750763085
How would that imply self hatred? It feels like a reward. I'd want to deprive myself of things I enjoy if I hate myself.
"You hate yourself" is usually an attribution used for making abuse seem like something that is being done because the "self hating person" "wants it". It makes what would otherwise be known as "bullying" seem presentable and good when carried out by people with a "good guy" image so they can retain that image.
>>750763556
I can't speak for anyone else, but I have a tendency to be self-destructive. Nothing major, I just start doing thing subconsciously that slowly erode away at the good things in my life. e.g. pushing my girlfriend away, neglecting myself, etc.
>>750752018
That greentext hits me
It hits me right in the feels
But feels are just tricks
Made up by our brain
We think there is something more
But there is nothing
Nothing to look to
However, don't be woeful
You are not alone
We are never lone
There will be people looking
For each one of us
Does this look like a good feels man? I feel like he'd be compassionate and shove his big dick all the way up my ass?
He'd be a man of his word, as would I, and we'd stay on the downlow, fucking in the woods
>>750763935
>>750763935
So... you wanna be blacked?
How far does this go? Will he dress you up like a girl and fuck you against a tree, only leaving with his seed dripping down your thigh, with panties around your ankles?
I just want to accept that things dont always work out and be content overall with life like people do around me
>>750764091
The desire to be normal is real
>>750763825
Ah, so you do destructive things that render you unpresentable so you come here? Maybe I do that
>>750763848
Can you write some verses for these images>>750763935
>>750764030
?
>>750764157
Im not doing shit rn and im not hating myself for not doing anything. I just finished learning to stop hating myself for taking time off for self care but it feels so wrong to be doing literally nothing
>>750764304
You mean nothing industrious?
>>750764252
I come here for social interaction, mostly. It feels good being able to talk to other people, even if they are mostly trolls, haha.
I'm not horribly unpresentable to other people, but I don't really like going out and doing normal "young people" stuff like partying, etc. Which leaves me with online communities.
>>750764356
My whole life ive never taken anything thats happened to me into account because it feels like playing a victimcard excuse but even when i know shits bothering me really bad i cant stop and give myself time or reach out. Like, my brother molested or raped me im not sure whatever blowing is in the shower when i was 4 and ive never told a soul. It was that once and it didnt bother me until i remembered it in my teens. I cant ever bring it up or his life is ruined for a memory i can simply repress. But i get invasive thoughts that really bother me. Im always swayed from seeking help by the thoughts of jobs and such i would be barred from after seeking intensive psychiatric help. Im also protecting my family from worrying about me and in the same light or lack of rather holding up this false sense of me being ok. Im just at a loss of what to do and what is possible
>>750763935
Hope you get'em anon
>>750764801
How old was he at the time? And what kind of invasive thoughts?
>>750764921
He was 13 at that time and never abusive otherwise. As the thoughts go, they're usually random, when i was in my younger teens i would have gay thoughts and tried to beat to gay porn to no avail but still get them every so often. They used to bother me but not anymore. Usually random images flashing, sometimes its shit i cant take my mind off, rarely the rape and it isnt so bad anymore but ive never dealt with it in any way i think. Sometimes theres spooky shit like odd beings or monsters. I mainly dislike them because they prevent sleep, which im begging for rn
>>750764298
He seems like a man
Who works very hard to help
But has been tainted
He has been tainted
By the powers that hold greed
This guy is a chad
>>750764091
>be in highschool
>go to counselor and basically tell him this
>he asks what the best part of my day is every day
>tell him it's going to sleep at night
>he tells me most people are like dogs playing fetch
>happy to just run and get the ball
>tells me I obviously don't care about the ball
>ask him what to do
>"Shit, I dunno, start caring about the ball?"
It was not helpful.
>>750765159
It can probably be chalked up to normal teenage sexual exploration, then.
The invasive thoughts are probably a repressed kink, to be honest. I had similar invasive thoughts, though I wasn't molested. The key might be to embrace yourself.
>>750765211
I wish i had been more aware of my problems that early. Might have had the confidence to successfully carry out the solutions ive been given as well
>>750765211
That counselor is
A big useless sack of shit
Don't be like that guy
If you don't want to
Play fetch using a red ball
Try with a blue ball
The blue ball could be
What you'll really like to do
It isn't as if
There's something to lose
If the blue ball does not work
Try with a yellow one
>>750765311
Exploring kinks since 2009 my guy. I was thinking about asking my psych i was seeing about anything for invasive thoughts until in my head it was summed up as "give me something to think less" and i know it exists cuz everyone in my family with problems were on those zombie meds. I just need some grade A sleeping pills and maybe anxiety meds. What do you mean by embrace myself though?
>>750765311
>tfw you can only get off to the thought of being a little kid again and getting raped
I always wonder if I was ever molested, but I've never had any weird flashbacks or anything like other people report when they start to recall the trauma. Boy has it made the old sex life tough though...
>>750765539
Well the problem is more that I don't feel the need to go get the ball, regardless of color. Or maybe I don't feel like there even is a ball. Fuck if I know.
>>750765573
Might be something that runs in your family, then. By "embrace yourself" I mean that there are parts of you that you might not want to accept that you should. I could be wrong, of course, I'm no psychiatrist.
>>750765604
It might be some kind of projection. I was never molested or anything, but I fantasies that most people would consider deranged, wrong, immoral, etc. As long as it's a fantasy, there's not much to worry about, though. You might be in to that "daddy/mommy" kink/fetish (being treated more like a kid than an adult, etc)
>>750765193
I am not sure if
You are serious or not
If you were then here
This one's serious.
At first glance this guy looks like
a typical chad
But looking closer
You notice something different
It is in his eyes
Deep down he doesn't
Have any reason to live
So he gets to work
He works his days off
He works harder than the rest
To distract himself
From the simple fact
That his loved one won't come back
So he works all day
>>750765794
Well the reason I'm hesitant to call it a fetish is because it isn't so much an attraction to any feeling associated with being a child, it's more that I don't feel that my adult body would be adequate for sex, like whoever was fucking me would just be disappointed that I look the way I do. Not fat or ugly or anything, something in my brain just tells me that I can't be desirable since I'm above 5 feet tall and have body hair and other masculine features.
>>750765990
Are you female or male? It might be a fetish since you can't get off without it. If you're unhappy with parts of your body, there are small things you can do to help - shaving for the body hair, picking out more suitable clothing, exercise, etc.
>>750765663
If there is no ball
Within your view of your life
Then how about this
Look more closely at
The people who are near you
Look for something there
Anything will do
Just find some sort of feeling
If you find that there
Then look behind you
You might find something different
In the blankness there
>>750765794
Thanks for the chat anyway. I been up this long as a covert message from my body that id be shitting liquid hot mag-ma ten minutes ago. Thanks for the chatting anyway. I'm sure you'll find what becomes of me if you stay on this board sooner or later. Essentially a promise because, unfortunately, i dont think i can kill myself until enough of my close family goes. See you around
>>750766256
Good luck until then, anon.
>>750766172
Male, and I've done things like that, but it's just the fact that I'm not a kid that keeps me from enjoying sex. Idk, I'm fucked in the head.
>>750766256
Goodnight sad young man
Someday you might not wake up
Until that day, bye
>>750766175
I could give it a try
Having friends couldn't hurt
I shouldn't have reason to stall
But what if I look around
And all I see
Are more people chasing the ball?
>>750766361
Yeah, you definitely have some issues. You may want to look into the ABDL fetish/kink, and related kinks. It may help you. You don't need to be normal to be happy.
>>750766488
The smart thing to do
Is to let them chase the ball
Look toward the chasers
Find the best of them
Figure out what makes them chase
Then look at the ones
Who are not as good
And see what makes them pursue
They are different
Learn from their mistakes
Find a way to go farther
Than any of them
I'm 25, work 2 jobs, live in my moms basement, pay 400 a month for rent amd help her out with whatever. I've been an alcoholic single I was 17, I have money, but that isn't shit to me. I have everything I've ever wanted, 1100 sound system, guitars, a bar, fuck bitches regularly but i'm still fuckin sad...I can't break this cycle. This drinking everyday this is starting to take its tole on my mental and physical health....idk what to do or why I do it....anyone else out there?
You can say anything about this site,but man is the community good.
>>750766829
Chances are it's your physical health that is taking its toll on your mental health. Make sure you're exercising, getting enough sunlight and eating properly.
>>750767074
I work outside 8 hours a day, doing construction. Evening job as a cook
>>750766911
I've always thought the best part about this place is the fact that we're all probably screaming at each other in a different thread, but when we find common ground we're among the most intimate of company.
>>750767163
We're all here for a reason anon, where we can love and hate each other at the same time, but in the end, we are all in this shit show together.
>>750767163
Hand job prostate massage
