Hey, anon, 2nd thread this week! If you'd like to talk, need a hug or some general advice feel free to hop in.
Also! if you get even dubs I'll drop you a simple fortune or for odd dubs wisdom from ages past!
Hiya Skya~
why am i feeling this way?
DUBS OF WISDOM PLESS
>>746156904
Hello my dear E>
>>746156908
What is, "this way"?
>>746156958
aww, maybe a second awoo is needed (or if it gets slow I'll drop you one anyway!)
>>746156682
bumpu
>>746156958
well lets try this again THEN
>>746157164
sad all the time, missing the spark of life, sleepless at nights and yet again sleeping the hole day just waiting for a reason to go up.
>>746157164
Hullo :3
What's up?
>>746157192
*head bumps you* sankyu~
>>746157336
okay never say I'm not full of hospitality!
*channels the ancient Greek minds of the past*
... I might be getting interference from 4chan.. but uh..
"Love is composed of a single souls inhabiting one body and an ona-hole"
that sounds about right...
>>746157379
How long that been going on for?
>>746157573
Just reading a few things and trying spread some E>
my phone got stolen, how do i forget about it?
i been trying but i can't keep thinking about it
>>746157688
*Is head bumped*
I-I am sorry!
>>746157688
that sounds.... rather interesting.
thanks!
>>746157726
are you concerned about not having the phone or are you just anxious about having your personal belongings violated and taken from you like that
>>746157688
up and down for 5 years, worse since 1 year back
>>746157910
the phone was a piece of junk, i just can't forget the moment, i mean it seems to be replaying again on loop.
especially when i went to bed shortly after.
>>746157726
omg! I know that terrible feeling. I lost my old phone (just recently replaced it and hadn't wiped it yet) and it din't have a pass on it anymore. Oh, the anxiety! Did you have a pass on it? Is it still connected to one of your email accounts? Apple & Google have ways to track it if it's connected to an email account and has at least wifi on.
>>746157688
oh.... I guess I get a fortune. I'll pass it on to the next person that asks!
>>746157884
I..I'm pretty sure I got interference from somewhere...
>>746157911
oh! you got dubs I'll drop you a tarot reading in a second post, but as for your question. 5 years with 1 year being worse. I'd say it's definitely sounding like something that needs to be seen about. At least by your PCP to see if a Rx would help. Honestly I'd see about setting up to see a therapist and a psychiatrist (PCPs are great... but nothing like an actual psychiatrist most of the time). You could call your insurance provider and ask for a recommendation. Counseling is usually pretty cheap (~40weekly in a lot places)
>>746157842
head bumps are the best though!
>>746158527
I HAVE A HEADACHE NOW, HOW COULD YOU?
>>746158527
it's only connected to some accounts that have no real stuff on them, and considering where i live he will most likely factory reset it the second he got out of the crowd.
my brain seems to just not be able to move on, despite the fact that i didn't have that much attachment to my phone
any advice
>>746158527
I have bin talking to doctors and psychiatrist for 4 years, I eat "happy pills" and yet nothing changes. I can´t work, I can´t do anything, my back is fucked up with a sliped disc in it, and my mind is fucked up with anxiety and depression, the women I loved left me 1 year ago for a person that I considered a freind until that day, she broke up with me on steam chat, had me fatch my things and 3 days later she was tgh with that dude, and I met him on the train covered in suckmarks from her on his neck..
hey there, anons. hope you're all having a nice night.
>>746159049
having a terrible one, but atleest I have music and /b/ I hope yours is bether
>>746159240
well, that's not great. what happened?
>>746156682
Hey Sky. Good to see one of your threads again.
>>746159529
jiiiiiiii~
>>746158629
*pulls you head in close places it on chest* There there, have an acetaminophen tab. *pats* good girl E>
>>746158779
it's a big part of ya to lose for sure. This is a prime example of situation you have no control over keeping you from working on things you do. I'd start out by making a short list of things you could work on that you DO have some control over. It should help you feel better and get some perspective to be away from the thoughts for awhile. Mix in some mind numbing activities as well!
>>746157911
>4 upside down cups.... spilling ALL THE DRINK!
Perhaps you are dwelling inward TOO much. The world is still full of adventure. Perhaps you need to work on balancing how inward you are going with seeing the beauty and interest of the world around you.
>>746159049
E> Jill is in my thread
>>746159035
Then you need to try a therapist.... maybe a few until you find one that works well for you. Therapists use many different types of theoretical approaches to counseling.
As far as the recent events I can't blame you at all. I've had similar happen in my life (though I wasn't dating her for long before she left me for my best friend). That's.. just terrible. I feel with you.
Chronic pain and disability is a leading factor for depression worldwide. Your therapist should help you focus in on creating meaning and finding worth with your unique life circumstances and working not to judge your life by the standards of others who don't share those unique life circumstances.
>>746159529
Hi Fenn, I won't make any big to do tonight. Have a comfy ride.
>>746159461
that's... actually really shitty. I'm sorry that it happened. it sounds like you're currently in treatment re:depression and anxiety. have they varied up the medication to see if another would be more efficient and/or effective? are you just seeing them for medication updates, or are you receiving some level of therapy as well? and have you seen a doc about the disc? I know those are shit and can last for a long time.
there's not much I can offer re:ex girlfriend. that was pretty shitty of both of them to do, and I'm sorry it happened. all you can do is try to push through it.
>>746159717
im sorry to hear that you to suffered like that, it is a pain for sure. I just wish i could find somone new or a freind atleest, I feel so alone, and I wish I could move in with somone, right now I dont have the monney to live alone so I had to move back in with my parents :(
>>746159661
What?
>>746159717
Looks like a wonderful thread so far. Very comfy indeed.
>>746159844
yeah switched medicin alot, I do other things to, talking, and group tharapy, I have bin to the doctors with the disc should heal it self i 6-7 years. ( if i make a sergury it could end bad and I would lose my legs and not be able to walk so i wait it out )
>>746159717
I have currently drowned the memories by posting on 4chan and listening to music, but i'll try doing what you said, thanks for the advice
and from now on i will keep the bus window closed
>>746159366
Jill even trips so you get tarot...x2... wow I'll do both for you tonight!
>preachy man
Don't neglect your roots, your traditions. They were traditions for a reason.
>*channels wisdom from... 4Greece*
"I am indebted to my father for living, but to my sempai for cummies"
>>746160015
I had to move back with my parents after grad school.... so I know that feeling too. Have you looked into alternatives such a assisted housing?
>>746160172
jiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii~
>>746160199
I'm not as skilled as Satori is when it comes to advice regarding mental health, but I can try. what I've done for myself (and neglected for a year until recently) was I wrote out a list of things that make me a little bit happier sometimes. even as basic as cooking nice meals and watching movies, and listening to some albums I like. so now and then I'll just sit down, look at my list, and pick something to do this week.
though I will call in Satori here:
>>746160376
>>746160376
>>746160376
wanna lend a hand?
>>746160376
yes but the rules are fuzzy, as long as my parents can afford me I cant get help
>>746160603
could be an idé :) i got nothing to lose :P
>>746160603
>>746160199
You may ask your providing psychiatrist to try something new then. Maybe try a residential program for mental health issues (I know I know... not exactly ideal... but I mean it's your life we're talking about anything is worth trying), trying neurofeedback (using the classical conditioning forces always laying within us to change our very brain electro-chemistry) or even shock therapy.... I promise it's not as scary as it sounds or anything like the media makes it out to be.
I'm not a huge fan of electric shock, but if a doctor would feel comfortable having you try it.. well like I said it's your life. It's worth it to try new and novel approaches.
>>746160668
Have you come up with a strict budget that you can adhere to?
>>746161049
that was my view on most of the stuff I've done!
I'll also follow up on >>746161153, re:Shock therapy and other stuff. all of those options are completely voluntary. if you choose to pursue it and you decide you're uncomfortable with it, or you want to stop, then all you have to do is say so. they're there to help, and if you don't think it's helping, you can choose to discontinue that form of treatment.
>>746161153
there is to little money for a budget, mby 100 bucks thats all
>>746161348
yeah, the list got short.. 3 things is all i can think of.. damn
>>746161451
How often do you get money/how much?
It's always worth budgeting. Promise. Any amount can be budgeted to work in your favor.
>>746161554
Well those 3 things are only the first things off my head.
There are also spiritual interventions (not necessarily religious), Ketamine treatment (only do this under the supervision of a Doctor at a clinic, ketamine to relieve depression is DELICATE work).
Theres also the very real possibility you haven't found the right therapist or meds yet. It's all SO terribly complicated for meds. As for therapy, like I said a therapist is as different as the next person walking down the street from the one sitting across the way. My counseling style works for some, others.... eh not so much..
Psychic heart girl has crazy hair that I didn't know what to do with
>>746161554
hey, that's okay. it's more than nothing to start with.
the list was assigned to me as "100 things that sound fun to do", and to this day I only got 34. and half of them tie in to one another. just never be afraid to keep trying, anon.
>>746162332
it's a lil early for flags isn't it?
>>746162087
Still looks nice E>
>>746162422
flags are never early or late
they are always on time
sure seems like we're winding down for the night! it was nice seeing you tonight, anonymous <3
*whistles quietly in the corner*
Hmm I suppose I'll add in the F-U-N
First to get trips WHILE in the same post giving me something like steam/email/discord...some way of contacting you will get a $10 or less game on steam
and of course still offering all of the above OP stuff I was earlier E>
>>746163482
I'm not down and out yet!
>>746163592
yeah, because you've only been up for like... 6 hours.
>>746163760
akchuallee...... I've now been awake 1.5 hours!
I stayed up late.... early... my sleep schedule is weird!
>>746163848
oh.... no image...
>>746163848
jesus, bud, you slept in worse than I did.
>>746164415
>>746164435
this is objectively inferior to pickle Rick!
>>746156682
Hi sky sorry that your friend thread got spammed
Hey, have you ever felt like your entire existence is so miserable and toxic that it corrupts the world around you and draws everyone who meets you into unending despair?
That you can't seek help, you can't have friends, you can't even allow yourself to interact with the world at all. Because nobody can help you and absolutely everybody will lose to the corruption you carry inside of you.
Asking for a friend.
>>746164985
I'll be your friend, anon.
This needs to fucking stop.
>>746165057
I know. You'll die but I know.
I can't be your friend.
>>746164911
Ohhhh it's all part of the experience. Can't let things get to you that you don't have any control over, nice to see you E>
>>746164985
Well for your friend it's easy to get lost in that cycle of thought. Depression begets depression.
like this: Feel like shit, I must be shit, feel like I act like shit, can't be around people or get shit on them, can't ever get better b/c I'm shit and no one to help me see from an objective standpoint that even if I feel like I'm shit it doesn't mean I intrinsically am, ...feel like shit...
it's a cycle. One that perpetuates itself through lies told to oneself
>>746165227
thats where i come in anon
>>746165326
we all die, someday. may as well make the best of it and be kind to others while we're here.
>>746165227
I'm not making one today in /b/ anonu
>>746165339
You too sky how have you been?
>>746165351
Oi, cunt. I'm fine with having one of these, derail the other ones.
Hello op! How are you?~
>>746165593
oi, cunt. im having fun, go derail your life
>>746165503
The damage is already done.
>>746165643
Right, sure, fair enough. You do you.
>>746165455
ooh you're charging my existentialism drives!
>>746165503
I'm well. I've only been up for about 1.5 hours and have only had coffee, so it's a new day.
>>746165641
Just starting out. Lil bit of a fun night I'd say, what about yourself?
>>746165723
Have a good week mate. Don't get into trouble
>>746165339
It's not really...that.
It's more like, I can't rely on any sort of help because it'll be consumed by depression. Like, it doesn't matter what I do or say. It seems like people are infected with it as soon as I exchange words with them and my presence acts as an accelerating agent for the process of them being consumed by despair. It breaks minds and destroys personalities and it seems like it has nothing to do with who I am as a person but just my existence itself that spreads corruption wherever I go.
All I can do is stay away from everyone forever.
>>746165805
Thanks man.
>>746165879
No problem :)
Why the fuck are people posting these flag gifs that are fucking tiny? I ain't mad at the posters. I'm mad because they don't move
>>746165783
I'm doing okay thanks~
Just a little tired heh
>>746165455
I get all that.
I just don't think you have the strength to shoulder my friendship.
>>746165648
It has
>>746165783
Sorry for being a bit selfish but I got dubs in the first post I did and I was wondering if I could get a fortune here's the post>>746164911
>>746165783
did you expect any different from me? honestly?
>>746166090
why's that, then? what would make you a burden?
>>746165877
I see I see. That sounds really rough. Have you seen a therapist about this? Not a doctor, but someone you talk to. Someone to help you figure out how this is happening and maybe how to direct change.
>>746166099
oh my I'm sorry! As penance ye shall have both wisdom and fortune! coming up!
>>746166022
same for you, fortune time!
>>746165970
it would make them more interesting... just a bit of a flutter in the wind thing...
>>746165970
Rekt
My depression is getting worse. I'm feeling out of options right now. I'm scared.
>>746166070
Why hello there donatello how are you?
>>746166248
Thanks alot sky also another fortune teller told me a good idea do you want to hear it?
Could you stop with the damn flags
>>746166599
people say that all the time but it never accomplishes anything.
>>746166248
Can i have a fortune please?~
>>746166599
No
>>746159240
What kind of music do you like?
Hoi hoi everyone, does anyone want a poem written for them ?
>>746166599
Hey, Flagbro's pretty cool.
>>746166248
I used to have a bunch of people I talked to. Nobody has ever really noticed it or at least they never figured out to blame me as the cause. I was never eager to speak about this out loud to anyone. Because, selfishly, I wanted to have my own friends and loved ones. But I've left that life behind me. I managed to protect everyone and isolate myself. I haven't had a friend or someone to talk to in roughly 5 years. Shitposting on 4chan is basically my only human interaction these days.
>>746164911
From the cards come wisdom for the future
>Cheese in the sky (moon)
Nows the time to think about those instincts within you. Mind you the darkness that comes with the moon is easy to get lost in. Don't get lost in those instincts. Try to discern what is healthy and not healthy to pursue with them.
Wisdom from sages past
"At his best, man is the noblest of all animals; separated from law and justice he is anon"
>>746166022
>upside down priestess (I see London... I see France)
It's time to listen to that inner voice. The one you may have repressed. Be careful though. This can be a powerful entity. Sometimes it's best to do this in the prescience of someone you trust.
>>746166375
I'd love too!
>>746166667
holy..... almost quads.. yeah.. of course you can!
>>746166364
What all have you tried? It's important for me to know to give you ideas E>
>>746166694
I've written in the past, but it's almost all sappy love poems...
>>746166874
I hear you...well I wouldn't exactly call this shit posting. I'll be here for you and plenty of people from the lil community that exists here will.
Well I try to post and it gets ignored because flag dick is shitposting...
>>746167088
eat a cock :DDDD
>>746167042
I've tried excercise, eating better, socializing more, drinking...the usual stuff people tell you.
>>746167123
Don't tell them but thanks for the rare flags
>>746167264
No problem anon :) use them wisely
>>746167042
Wow on point I should stop drinking before I develop a aditticon also can I add you on discord to explain the idea better to you since your getting spammed?
>>746167042
>I'll be here for you and plenty of people from the lil community that exists here will.
I won't be here for much longer. About 6 months ago I decided I was going to leave 4chan behind me too. /b/ isn't a place I normally post, I only care here as part of a goodbye tour, of sorts. I just wanted to see all of this place before I left. Then I ran into a troublesome girl and got confused. But I think my confusion is coming to an end. My original decision wasn't the wrong one.
Shoutout to SimpleFlips.
>>746166667
>reversed magician (so... like a warrior right?)
Pay attention to your actions, and especially your thoughts. Are you deluding yourself and getting further from the truth. Try to remain objective.
>>746167230
oh my but there are so many options left. The obvious ones being see a therapist or a doctor for medication. If your looking to do minimal intervention I'd start with just seeing a therapist 1x every week or two and seeing how a professional can help. Other than that, try working on setting up some goals, one for a few months from now, 1 year from now and 5 years from now that all build on eachother. Something to give you a direction to move in and find meaning in.
>>746167378
of course Sky13162#1041
>>746167537
Ah, well. It looks like my thread is running to a close quickly. I post Thursdays at 9EST and others around post throughout the week. if you'd like to talk any I'm up
Everyone my thread is closing, thanks for coming out!
if you want to talk further you can email me at
Skyden13162@gmail com
>>746167881
Er...see the problem is I can't really afford medication or therapy, that's why I tried the other stuff and now feel like I'm out of options... I mean what do you even do in my situation?
>>746168038
oh my last post from me, just cuz I can't ignore this.
If you are in the states contact your local MHMR (google them). They will usually help you find treatment that is highly cost reduced or help you afford it themselves. They may even help you sign up for medicaid or similar services that'll help cover the cost. There's always options and a safety net.
Good Luck
E> Sky
