Hello Anon. How are you feeling? Have things been going bad? Need a hug?
Let's talk.
>>746055100
Anon help, I can't go anywhere without getting "sex eyes" from every female that I walk past. Little do they know that I'm so shy I could never make a move on any of them. Bring me your wisdom
>>746055253
A. Ignore them forever
B. Build up your confidence. Make a move on a random girl. Go with it, and see how far you can get. You may need to force yourself, but I think you can do that.
Give it a shot. Why not?
complimentary warm loli bump
>>746055253
i have similar problems but little do they know i'm completely unattracted to their kind
Oh, hey. It's the free blowjob thread.
>>746055100
Hello! Good to see you tonight!
>>746055253
Just smile back at one of them. Trust me..
>>746055427
Thank you. How've you been?
>>746055456
Here for a free blowjob? Let me call in a friend who's an expert...
>>746055521
Hey. Good to see you too.
>>746055347
Thanks man, I appreciate it
>>746055544
honestly not as good as i thought i was doing.
you got dubs twice already, consider them checked.
>>746055672
Anytime, Anon. Good luck.
>>746055679
That's bad. I emailed you back. Do you want to talk about it?
Can't let those dubs go uncheck'd.
What I really need is some pussy my nibba
>>746055860
Well, where can you get it? Know any easy girls?
>>746055799
holy shit you're on a roll.
i dont think i have much to talk about. that friend i told you about had one of his hallucinations the other day but it only lasted a second and went away. he's spooked and so am i. otherwise its just some bad brain chemistry and too much 4chan probably.
>>746055952
On a roll... rolling.
Hehe.
Man, that's really bad. Could be high stress besides. 4chan does terrible things to you. If it happens again, change something. Try to prevent it.
second bumps gonna cost you
>>746056108
i know he's stressed from school and monetary problems. both of us have been neglecting ourselves, i haven't ridden my bike in over a month. i tried doing it the other day but couldn't bring myself to for some reason.
>>746056567
Motorcycle or bicycle?
>>746056663
just bicycle. im not chad enough for motorcycle.
>>746056567
How much?
Worrying. And weird. Maybe if you force yourself to you'll start to enjoy it again.
You guys need to take care of yourselves. Even if it's hard. You've got to force yourself to stand up and do what's necessary.
>>746056750
Bicycles are great exercise. And a lot of fun.
>>746056888
nice trips. i was doing pretty well when i rode every day. there's a nice trail here since the streets aren't very friendly although it did get a bit repetitive.
>>746056776
i think i will if i manage to start again. everyone who lands themselves in these threads consistently should seriously consider getting outside and doing something even mildly active like going for a short walk.
>>746057271
Good luck. I think it's also important that people who come here do not come back. 4chan is really a pretty terrible place with few to zero positive aspects.
Physical activity can help with a lot.
>>746055347
Evening, friendo. How was the con?
>>746057488
It was good. Really good. Saw a lot of costumes, talked to a lot of artists. Little bit overwhelming.
>>746057657
Is the Baltimore one usually that packed? I don't really know much about cons other than the really big names. And did you get any good advice this time around too?
>>746058140
It seemed packed to me, but it's the biggest event I've ever been to, and I've heard that it's only a fraction of the size of some others.
I got tons of good advice this time.
Have you read volume one yet?
>>746055100
Fenn
>>746058629
What?
>>746057271
Bring a camera. Take pictures. Take a photo of the same spot every time you go. See what changes..
>>746058283
Any in particular that you'd like to relay? The last thing these threads need is less advice. And I can't remember if I said I'd start reading it for real after I was done cropping volume three or volume four. But since you've probably been itching to talk about it ever since I started delivering pics, I'll start on it tonight. Promise.
>Gf of 2 years (longest relationship) has sever mental health issues.
>Last month we signed for a house together.
>Her mental state has been sliding into a constant mania and depression
>refugee status no insurance
>dead parent issues about proving no insurance
>mania takes her over makes life very hard.
>decides we should spend some time apart to work on ourselves (I agree because idk how else to help her)
this all sucks because we love each other a shit ton, but cant live together while she's in this state.
I'm scared. I dont wanna lose everything we've worked for together.
>>746058676
Fenn, I missed ya
How are you today?
>>746055100
pretty shit. I have no interest in doing anything anymore unless I'm high on drugs. I would stay and talk but I'm about to leave in an effort to make myself feel again by going to a concert.
if this thread is still alive when I get back I'm come chat.
>>746055100
Complete existential crisis. pretty sure im gonna die. How bout you?
>>746058923
Damn, there has to be some type of mental health care that she can get. Maybe college or university?
>>746058787
If you want to get good at something, just do it. Don't wait.
Alright. I haven't read volume one in a while, but if I remember correctly it follows the movie pretty closely.
Volume 4 is my favorite.
>>746058923
That's terrible, Anon. Have you tried taking her to a therapist or asking for professional advice of some kind? Do you have any friends who could help you out?
>>746058957
I am okay today. Little tired, but awake enough for the thread. How've you been?
>>746058700
that's a nice idea. it's actually kind of cool how just on the outskirts of town there is all this wildlife you wouldn't expect to see. occasional deer, a lot more dragonflies than i realized we had, rabbits, lots of pretty birds in late summer. almost ran over a snake who was slithering on the paved path once! even though it was the same trail something interesting or unusual seemed to happen almost every time i went.
>>746059108
This too shall pass. Far, have a nice snack. Clean the kitchen, take a shower and go to bed.
You'll feel better tomorrow morning.
>>746059077
Have fun, Anon. It might be around if it doesn't get too many visitors.
Sounds like things are getting pretty bad...
>>746059108
What makes you so sure, Anon? We all die eventually. It doesn't matter if you really exist or not; it feels real enough.
I'm doing okay.
>>746059119
>>746059108
We've tried low income and free assistance programs, complications come from all records showing she's insured under her dead mothers plan (7years deceased) . The insurance company cant provide us or the agencies any proof we aren't even though there is no record in the system.
>>746055100
im considering switching from keeping my medical details in a sos talisman. im thinking of using either having QR code tattooed on me with my medical details on it or getting an implant/ chip
thoughts or suguestions
>>746059264
Damn. What would it take to get those records updated or erased? That's just atrocious.
>>746059120
That sounds extremely Interesting!
Here is your project: Go there tomorrow with a camera and take some photos.
Next thread, post them here! I would love to see them!
>>746059396
we don't know. I sent a plea to my congressman for help 2 days ago.
>>746059373
Don't. Just do it the old-fashioned way. Makes everything simpler for you and the people around you.
The chances of the tattoo getting messed up or the implant not working are too high.
>>746059237
You have no idea how much i appreciate the sentiment. Its a bit worse than a brief wave of depression though I'm afraid. I sleep 14 hours a day because i can't phathom waking up and doing anything. Im pretty sure it's mostly loneliness but due to my anxiety i feel i burden anyone I talk to.
>>746059077
Do you want to stop taking drugs?
>>746059497
That is actually the best idea. In the current year. I'm sure he will help.
>>746059497
You may just need to go without insurance for a while, Anon. Can you handle that?
>>746059576
You're not burdening anyone here, Anon. We're here because we want to be.
>>746059522
no i still plan on using the talisman but the idea is that i have something permanently on me. Just incase i loose my talisman or have to take it off for some reason
>>746059398
im actually kind of uncomfortable posting images that could possibly deanonymize myself because i tend to discuss sensitive things in these threads. i realize that may seem silly, and it's incredibly unlikely that a photo taken outside of town where few people actually go could lead to anyone pinpointing me, but i feel its necessary to take precautions such as this.
but i do often snap pictures when i see something interesting!
>>746059119
You should reread volume one so you can come back with fresh eyes. And not to take such a sudden turn, but can you give me a straight answer about something that I've been meaning to ask? Am I a boring person to talk to? I think back to the many conversations I've had online and I feel as though I always come across as dry and stale.
>>746059576
You're welcome!
Have you ever seen a therapist for this anxiety?
>>746059769
Ok. You are under no obligation to post them here. But you can certainly enjoy them on your own.
>>746059763
Keep a backup talisman. Or go with the tattoo.
>>746059777
I'll read it online tonight or sometime soon.
You're not boring at all. You don't seem dry or stale. Sometimes you worry me with how compassionate you seem to be. I like talking to you. That's why I continue to talk to you.
>>746059815
yep. Not anymore though
>>746059741
not much choice I suppose I can, IDK if she can, we both finally have good jobs and she wont go full inpatient because we cant afford to lose them.
>>746059982
Why did you stop going?
>>746055100
I saw this video earlier about some dude that traveled South America for 3 years in a van, met so many people and genuinely looked like he had a good time despite being in shithole countries. Kind of made me feel down because I know my life will never be that much fun. Hell, I rarely go out with my friends since they only want to smoke weed and I'm not comfortable driving home while high.
Video if anyones interested: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nIr7PqvbUUk
>>746059741
The internet is easy. I tend to stutter or have a tough time finding myself around people. I pick up on micro expressions really easily and i can tell when I kill a mood. Also my closest friend has been slipping into depression and I wish i had the energy to help but i feel I'm reflecting on him my fucked up emotions. Sometimes it feels i know a little too much and knowledge is a burden. And thats all that goes around in my head is an existential narrative. It will drive anyone nuts so i should really find something else to talk about. I'm doing it now. Fuck. I hate you Sartre.
>>746055100
Just wondering the best way to treat a girl you've had feelings for. IDK since iv'e never dated. advice?
>>746056750
>im not chad enough for motorcycle.
It's just too easy to die on one of those things.
>>746057271
>there's a nice trail here since the streets aren't very friendly although it did get a bit repetitive.
You should try Mountain Biking, my friend.
That shit is the bee's knees.
I'm sitting and recovering from a car crash in the hospital. Can I have a hug please? I just keep crying because I'm so stressed out.
>>746060148
The drugs didnt really help me with depression or anxiety. After a few years it just began to seem like the wrong avenue.
>>746057464
>I think it's also important that people who come here do not come back
>tfw I've been coming almost every single day for years
Sounds like an Alice thread.
Faggots.
>>746060583
one of my friends served his time in the military and survived years getting shot at without a single noteworthy injury. the very same day he returned from this, he hopped on his motorcycle and fucked his shit up. motorcycles are more dangerous than being shot at by sand niggers for ten years.
>>746059993
As long as the stress of supporting her doesn't build up too much, you'll be fine. Good luck, Anon. You seem to be juggling everything pretty well, and I hope you can hang onto it all.
>>746060255
For starters, he's only going to show the best parts of the trip in the video.
If your friends suck, find some new friends. Start doing fun/crazy shit on your own, and you'll find other people who want to do the same.
>>746060466
But see, you've also got to interpret how people react to their initial reflexes. If they suppress them and try to act as though nothing bad happened, that means that they want the conversation to continue, and they don't mind.
Knowledge can be a burden, Anon. But it's not the worst burden to carry. You can learn to deal with it.
Don't read any Sartre. Ever. Sartre sucks.
>>746060494
Treat her well. If you want her to know, treat her better than everyone else. Do little things for her, smile at her, be kind.
>>746060665
*hugs you tightly*
You're gonna make it through this, Anon. Do you want to talk about it?
>>746060255
Find new friends. I know that's an easy thing to say. But there are a lot of people out there who want to do more than just get high.
>>746060665
Im sorry to hear that. Is everything alright?
>>746060673
What works for you?
>>746060728
Why, Anon. Do you not want to stop? Are you unable to stop?
>>746060736
Okay.
So what?
I followed your advice the other night and saw a therapist. I'm feeling better now.
>>746060894
>So what
Das ghay.
Hint telling someone you caught them lying again
or just say it straight?
>>746060750
>motorcycles are more dangerous than being shot at by sand niggers for ten years.
To be honest, it's not all that dangerous when you're this well funded military with big guns and a lot of bullets.
Close quarters is where it gets dangerous, house clearing and what not.
But when you're out in the dunes or what not, you literally just shoot all over the place and hope you hit something.
>1 machine gunner shoots all around this area
>another shoots all around this area
>the other one shoots all around this area
>and so on
If it's at night and you use tracers, it's a literal wall of bullets.
Spend enough time doing that, and whatever was in that general direction isn't alive anymore.
And when it's with those poorly funded ragheads, it's just a few AK-47s and maybe an RPG.
>>746055100
My family dog died a week ago, she lost circulation in her legs and has had a tumor in her nose for a year. yeah things have been bad.
>>746060894
>Why, Anon. Do you not want to stop? Are you unable to stop?
I don't know. I don't browse /b/ very much anymore, so I guess that's not too bad.
>>746061071
>Hint telling someone you caught them lying again or just say it straight?
The hinting is facing deception with deception.
>>746060968
That's good, Anon. Don't let go of the improvement. Keep at it.
>>746061015
What, and the rest of /b/ isn't gay?
>>746061071
Are you absolutely certain that they were lying every time? If so, tell 'em straight.
>>746061175
I'm sorry to hear that, Anon. *hugs*
How are you handling it? Are other things going badly too?
>>746061230
If you're not on /b/, you're probably fine, yeah. Take care of yourself, Anon.
>>746061175
I'm sorry for your loss, anon.
Losing a beloved pet can be nthe most difficult thing.
>>746060736
But this is not a cult
>>746061329
>Take care of yourself, Anon.
You, too.
>>746060892
simple things. a midnight walk, a conversation about nothing, a hug. Its just the damndest thing getting into a motion that gives me these basic things. I'll always go into waves of depression/anxiety. I've come to terms with that. I guess all i really need is a bit of this until i can find someone to hold every now and then.
>>746060665
>>746060806
I don't remember much but I'll try my best. I was driving along in my old shit box when one of the tires blew out and sent me into the other lane into another driver at I think about 70 mph. I woke up later in the ICU with three broken ribs, a collapse lung, and a major concussion. I've been crying all day because of how much pain I've been in and I'm stressed because of how much of a burden this will be on my family. I'm sad because I'm a burden to my family now.
>>746061288
last time it got fun
>>746061329
yes
I'll see if I can do it
>>746061515
At least you know what works.
You'll find someone to hold every now and then.
>>746061602
Damn. That's terrifying, Anon. But now you're alive, you're stable, and you've got a good chance of full recovery, right? You won't be a burden, not forever. You're family. Family does what's necessary to hold up its members.
Don't feel bad about it. You would do it for them.
>>746061709
Good luck.
>>746060255
me
>>746060806
>>746060839
thanks guys. kind of hard for me to right now, its my last year of highschool and most people already have their cliques. Glad you guys post threads like this, gives decent discussion when most of the threads on this board are porn.
>>746061602
We're all a burden sometimes. It becomes something worse when you believe that's a part of who you are. Stay positive. Things will get better. In the mean time just take it easy. Take a deep breath. you'll be okay.
>>746061953
College is a whole nother world, Anon. Don't resign yourself to being alone. Be open to getting close to new people.
Thank you.
>>746061912
Thanks Fenn, you're an angel
Nurse just came in and saw I was crying, she hugged me so tight. She said she would talk to me in a bit. I hope I'm not a burden to them for long.
>>746060665
>>746059949
This internet speed is sapping my soul. Thanks for that, friendo. And likewise. I needed a bit of resolution on that one. All it takes is the slightest inkling of doubt to come up in my head before it balloons into something that becomes a hassle to manage. And what do you mean by my compassion becoming worrisome sometimes?
>>746061953
make friends of friends. Cliques only exist in your mind. Everyone is friends with someone to some degree.
fenn you are a huge fucking faggot. encouraging people to commit suicide, real fucking epic my man. im coming back to spam your threads into oblivion when im done with the rest.
>>746062184
You're a part of the family. You're not a burden at all. They love you.
It can only get better from here, Anon. You just suffered through the lowest point.
>>746062270
If you care too much for someone, you can put too much effort into being kind and doing things for them. That ain't good.
My internet speed is dropping too. Posts may be slow.
>>746062392
Oh, nice. Thanks. Will you post bananas, or gore, or what?
And what made you so self-righteous?
In long term relationship with girl i love. When away for a year studying, made friends with another girl. Kept in contact since then. Still great friends. If I weren't in a relationship at the time, I think I'd be with her. Now she's getting married to a great guy. I'm happy for her. I'm happy with my gf. But idk should I tell friend how I felt. Thing is, I'm semi-sure she felt the same. We've had... moments. Little things. I wouldn't cheat and she wouldn't encroach. But little things like a kiss on the cheek that lasts longer than other friends. Would be nice to have it out in the open between us rather than wonder. What do /b/?
>>746062503
"self-righteous" yeah actively making help threads where you explicitly posit suicide as a solution to vulnerable people's problems isn't okay.
>>746055100
It's me, Japanese-learning-/b/ro.
Turns out, I didn't get a call-back from that interview I went to on Monday. A friend of mine got hers and is currently working for them, but they didn't send me *any* feedback.
Having reflected on my many failures in dealing with the language, the culture, and living/working in Japan (or at least for a Japanese company here), I've decided to formally quit (or "give up" as my step-father would say) and focus on Korean and Mandarin. Korean especially...it's what's really in my heart anyway because of my past.
Well im gonna go make some food and go for a walk. I hope everyone finds what they're looking for.
>>746062542
Tell her. But don't expect anything to come of it. Just get it out of your head.
>>746062604
So, what made you so self-righteous?
>>746062685
Well, good luck Anon. Are you sure it's a good idea to switch your focus because of one failure?
You could try a few other companies.
>>746062695
Eat well and have a good time, Anon.
>>746062685
Hello there!
I'm sorry it didn't work out.
But I'm glad to see you have already set new goals, and set forth a plan of action to achieve them!
>>746062695
that stick man is not sure how he should feel about this
enjoy yourself
>>746055100
I have pretty much nothing to live for anymore, everyday I wake up feeling worthless, no one ever tries to go out of their way to make me feel good or happy even if I take every length I can for them, most of my "friends" don't give a shit about me, I have no job and I'm in constant pain of being alone and no dopamine/serotonin in my brain from overmasturbation/drug use. I try to put on a smile or facade but it's wearing thin at this point because I literally wake up every single day with nothing to look forward to, in fact, life usually just steps all over me multiple times a day, whenever something decent happens in my day it really surprises me and sort of shocks me. Even I was supposed to go hang out with some friends of mine earlier but none of them felt like giving me rides even though they were like 10 minutes away from me. I wish everything would just end
>>746062875
It's not just one failure, but the result of SEVERAL. I'm just...tired of fighting.
>>746062877
Yeah, I thought about it at my current job today. All the failures, misinformation(s), betrayal from 'friends' and family who knew information that would have been a great help, etc. I'm going my own way now....going to 'reinvent' myself and pursue new goals I can actually attain.
>>746062950
Don't expect anyone to go out of their way to love you or help you.
I want things to get better, Anon. Have you talked to a therapist or doctor about your situation?
You can change this. But you might need help to do it.
>>746063107
Oh, I see. Well, in that case, carry on. I will not interfere.
>>746062950
I've said it before, and I'll say it again: You need to find new friends. This current group doesn't seem very friendly at all.
>>746062184
>Nurse just came in and saw I was crying, she hugged me so tight.
That's sweet.
Reminds me of when I got my face fucked up from a downhill mountain bicycling accident.
I went to get checked out, it was alright.
This MA or nurse came in to clean up my wounds, she was acting all cute, but it also seemed like she got off sexually to taking care of a wounded cutie.
That's not sweet, though? I guess that's a different kind of sweet for some people.
That reminds me of a time when I was homeless.
I was eating free breakfast at a place that missionaries like to frequent.
This couple of young female missionaries sat with me to chat.
One of them was giving me sex eyes and was biting her lip.
Anyways, to get back on topic, the pain sucks, emotional and physical, so it's best not to dwell on it.
The best you can do for yourself is to do nothing, just distract yourself from the pain, and when you've recovered, strong enough to more actively fix things, that's the time.
>>746063177
I don't mean in a sense that they go actually go out of their way to make me feel better, just doing nice things for me back. I'll do things for them all the time and it seems like they just don't give a shit about me or at least genuinely. Talking to a therapist isn't gonna help me, I've tried talking to people about this before and it led me into a psychotic break and I told people things I shouldn't have said, and it doesn't matter who I tell, every time I look at them after that I just feel anguish and regret because all they'll every look at me is someone who is weak or damaged. I've been this way since I was a child, my father would have me sit in the garage or my room and not eat for days while I have to stare at the wall, that's just one of the many fun part takes of my childhood. Sometimes I'm just getting fed up with it all, life, friends, this cycle of bullshit. It's lies, and I'm thinking of either ending it or ending other people.
>>746055100
Anon I'm a high school coach (USA football) and we lost our last game. One of my linemen got in a fistfight with a tight-end and nearly put him in the hospital. This lineman is one of the best we've had in years, but I have to discipline him somehow. Any suggestions?
>>746055100
Confused....
I've tried to finish my final year of schooling 3 times now. Its not that I don't understand the work, in fact, I cruise through it at an alarming pace. Right up until the final stages I excel and then all of a sudden I just... well I just quit. I don't know why I do this but I keep doing it and I'm fucking sick of it. There aren't external factors even near great enough to be the cause. Its all me. Just me, failing myself over and over again. It's happening again this time, the non stop fucking of myself, it appears, will never end. So I've decided if i don't finish this time I might as well an hero.
>>746063604
Are there clear rules on this?
>>746063789
What happens, that makes you feel like quitting?
>>746063593
Have you talked to a therapist before? I think it would help you a lot. Don't just dismiss it.
You regret your sensitive moments in front of others, eh? Why? Do you really think that they think less of you for being honest with them? Stop regretting it and assume that they took you seriously.
>>746063604
Could you hold him back from the next game? Not allow him to play? Discipline comes before victory.
And give him a stern talking-to if you haven't already.
>>746063789
Quit? You give up, and don't finish the final test?
That's odd. Who have you talked to about this?
>>746063922
Thank you. Please continue.
>>746063604
I don't think you should focus too much on the discipline, from a political standpoint, you should discipline him, but you should explain to him why you're doing what you're doing, and how it effects things.
The young ones need education. Is it not your job to educate?
You need to understand things from his standpoint, and that use that to allow him to understand what you're saying, and that's when you make a difference in someone's life.
>>746064112
So, what made you so self-righteous?
Hey dude. L here.
Glad you reposted thread. I'm doing okay now, but every now and then I'm still depressed as fuck.
I'm taking things slow though. Thanks for the last thread.
I just need to figure out what I want to do in regard to uni. I did architecture but I dropped the course cause it was fucking insane. I don't know what I should do from here.
Any ideas?
I'm very interested in social/political theories even though I am not much of a politician but it's very interesting to read a study on human through a scientific or somewhat observatory lens, and with architecture I did enjoy the deliberate means of creation and how minor things could change the way a user interacted with place.
I just don't know what is to be done.
Help.
>>746064014
k, that one's alright.
>>746062542
>>746062875
Wouldn't expect anything to come from it. I didn't cheat when she was single, I'm not gunna cheat when she's taken. Just dunno if the risk to a close friendship is worth it just to erase that one question mark
I just got a new job and want to die. For how many years am I going to have to clean the same shit and make the same drinks? I'm gonna lie to myself that the people I work with are friends. A few regulars might be sort of fun to talk to once in a while. When the job ends I'll be alone again. The fuck is the point? I hate people so much, but I force myself to be around them in hopes to improve my outlook. Doesn't work. I hate everyone. All so fucking boring and conditional.
>>746055100
I'm afraid to die. I don't know why.
>>746063789
>3 times now.
Seek therapy.
Not necessarily to get yourself fixed, but if you want to go right ahead, but if you see an educated (well, more than the average person, anyway) applied psychology practitioner, and tell that person that your goal is not to fuck up in school again, that person will help you.
>>746055100
I like to go driving at nighttime. Feels good man.
stop posting bananas it hurts to laugh this hard
>>746064193
Could you study psychology, or medical research of some kind? Behavioral theory?
>>746064285
Maybe it isn't. It's your call, Anon. I can't make that decision for you.
>>746064370
Why lie to yourself when you could make it a reality? Commit to these people, and to getting close to them, or at least to some of them.
Or if that's a bad option, pull back from them. Don't bother being friendly, just do the work. Make the money. Be alone.
Which appeals to you more?
>>746064537
It is pretty nice with the windows down, on country roads.
-Fenn
>>746064370
Are you a bartender?
Regardless, most jobs involve doing the same old shit over and over again. It's a thing we all have to deal with.
>>746064193
>I just don't know what is to be done.
Learn about yourself.
If you don't know yourself, and you just keep on chasing majors and changing them, you'll be stuck in that loop forever.
Some people travel, some people just try a bunch of new things and stick with what feels right, some people meditate.
If you just keep going through the motions, you'll just keep getting strung along.
>>746064619
>>746064619
>It is pretty nice with the windows down, on country roads.
Agreed. What kind of car do you drive Fenn?
>>746064370
>I hate everyone.
Well, fuck you, too.
Maybe you just need some more alone time than most people, and depriving yourself of that is what's causing you to feel so bad?
I'm sad and I don't know why. I just want someone to talk to
>>746064997
go ask alice
>>746063985
>>746063985
Yes, they'll think less of me, because I live in Mississippi. If a man shows any signs of emotion or weakness, you'll be stomped on in the dirt, or kicked the shit out of. My whole life has revolved around pain and abuse and torture, I'm just numb to it all now but can still feel pain, mental and physical underneath, to keep myself from losing my mind I focus on one thing, pain, I usually tear the skin of my fingernails and around there and drive my nails in there throughout the day or my mind can wonder. It's more annoying to do it in public because if I do too much I bleed on my hands too much and it's more displayed.
>>746064850
An old Mercury. It looks like a Crown Vic, but it's not as good.
>>746064997
You can talk to me, Anon. How long have you been sad?
-Fenn
>>746055100
I hugged once. I caught three tropical diseases, was reported for rape and just barely got out of a prison sentence.
>>746062503
Well I already told you that the crops take up a comparatively minuscule chunk of time during a time of day when there's absolutely nothing going on. I just like being able to give back for all you do, is all. But if you think I should scale things back some, I will. And speaking of, you and the threads, can I ask a favor of you?
>>746065042
30 minutes now I'd say, but on a deeper level 2 years
>>746065042
youve proven yourself incapable of giving good advice by telling people to commit suicide
>>746065041
Can you move away to somewhere nicer? Again. Talk to a real life therapist.
>>746065071
Want some more diseases? I've got another hug right here.
>>746065081
Scale things back some, enjoy yourself. Anything man, what is it?
>>746065131
That ain't so good, Anon. What do you enjoy doing? Has the flame been going out of your hobbies and friendships?
>>746065195
But Anon, it is possible for one to give good advice and bad advice. Do you prove yourself incapable of posting normally by posting second-rate banana memes?
-Fenn
>>746065071
>I hugged once. I caught three tropical diseases, was reported for rape and just barely got out of a prison sentence.
I'm sorry, Anon; that must have been an unpleasant experience for you, and may have put you off from physical intimacy.
>>746063593
I understand your feelings Anon. If it helps, what I had to do was find a therapist, but also learn how to say no. All therapists felt rough to me until one day I found one I really trusted and I realized that's the difference. If you don't like the therapist the first meeting you say no and find another.
When you can find someone who respects you and knows how to make you feel validated you will not feel like you are exposing your weaknesses and becoming a less capable person to talk to them. You should feel MORE capable the more you talk to them. Not more analyzed and microscoped.
There are good ones and I wish you luck friend.
>>746065441
My friendships have been getting a lot better to be honest, don't really know why I'm feeling sad. Normally I just feel alone, but tonight it's just sorta nothing
>>746064407
Heh, not even /b/ cares. Can you die from 1000 cuts? I guess I'll try to find out
>oh no people getting help I'd better spam the thread
Really?
>>746065571
Everyone is afraid to die anon
>>746065527
You're depressed, Anon. This is depression. It's not especially strong right now, but it's there. It might pass on its own this time. But you might need help to get out of it in the long run.
>>746065571
Sorry Anon, I didn't see your post through the banana spam. Why are you afraid, and why do you want to die?
-Fenn
>>746065656
>Everyone is afraid to die anon
Not everyone.
>>746064370
>I know I won't be successful
No one can fix that if you're sure
>>746065571
don't get infected, i think that would be worse than death
>>746065441
>can you move away to somewhere nicer?
I'm a 18 yr old college student living with my mom and no money, and most of our money is spent on our mortgage and bills and my brothers' rent
>Again, talk to a real life therapist
I don't have any insurance neither do both my parents, and they don't give a shit about what how I feel as long as I'm alive and breathing. I literally sit at home most days, continuing to stare at walls wondering whether or not suicide would cause the pain to end, because who truly knows right? I used to have multiple personalities that I liked because one of them was sort of like the mask but just slightly less, then another was just more "normal" like. I've lost both of them and left feeling like just a different person living in a shell.
>>746065656
It's dumb. I just tried to hang myself and I freaked out and tore it off. I don't have any pills to make it easier.
>>746065695
I guess natuarl human instinct keeps me from death. Ill tey again but im afraid. I just want to the pain to srop. I tried for 9 years and I jusy cant do it anymore. My only reaons to live is thay my mother and father would be dissappinted vuy I dont think thats enough to keep me here anymor
>>746065867
Ive had infections. They made my flesh go necrotic. It wasnt paonfil but it wasnt fatal either
>>746065441
It isn't even really anything that you're giving me, per se. I just want to request that you'd please stop encouraging the death of your threads. It's just that I know how important a place like this is to so many people who just want nothing more than someone to listen when they're feeling down, so it's very disappointing when I see you asking spammers to flood the threads to the point where it's unusable some of the times. And to any newcomers it could make them shy away if the first thing they see is nothing but spam. If it happens on its own, then what can you do, but I really wish that you wouldn't encourage it.
One of my best friends is going through martial issues. She's told her husband that it's over, but she says she can't leave because she's financially dependent on him. My gut tells me that she isn't done with him yet, since she hasn't made an attempt to stay with her parents or other family members. I would let her live with me, but I live with my parents and I don't have a place to put her.
She's coming onto me. Badly. We text quite a bit, and she's told me her bra size unsolicited. She's told me that she wants a casual relationship with "someone" and as the conversation went on, she told me that she can "separate sex from love".
I've known her for seven years and I don't want anything to do with her romantically. A lot of it has to do with that she's still married and me and her husband will eventually try to kill each other. I'd rather not go to jail over a girl.
It's just really sad to see her like this, and she's going to get herself hurt. Badly. Part of me wants to get involved with her, but I know that wouldn't be the best option for reasons stated earlier. This whole situation is fucked up. Any advice from anons out there?
>>746065718
Ok kiddo.
In long term relationship with girl i love. When away for a year studying, made friends with another girl. Kept in contact since then. Still great friends. If I weren't in a relationship at the time, I think I'd be with her. Now she's getting married to a great guy. I'm happy for her. I'm happy with my gf. But idk should I tell friend how I felt. Thing is, I'm semi-sure she felt the same. We've had... moments. Little things. I wouldn't cheat and she wouldn't encroach. But little things like a kiss on the cheek that lasts longer than other friends. Would be nice to have it out in the open between us rather than wonder. What do /b/?
>>746066275
I don't want to die, I want anything but to die, but if it comes, and if it's inevitable, I will not cower in fear, I will embrace it, freedom from this mortal coil.
But I wasn't talking about myself.
Some people are just neurologically wired differently, and don't fear death.
Also, people who truly believe that things like Christianity or what not are truth, they experience something different from the standard fear of death that other humans experience.
>>746065953
Ah, okay. I'm sorry Anon.
This stage will be temporary though. You'll move on from here eventually. You can hope that in the future things will be different, you will be allowed to express your feelings and have friends, and you will be a little more free.
>>746065969
You're in a dangerous place doing dangerous things, Anon. All the ways you've chosen seem to be the most painful.
Can someone help you through the pain? Make it a little more bearable? Would it be easier if you had someone you could rely on?
>>746066043
Oh. I will think about this. Hmmm.
>>746066180
If you get involved, the chances that she's going to get hurt will shoot up. Don't respond to her advances. It'll be hard, but you need to stay away. They can work this out.
>>746066431
Did I respond to this earlier?
-Fenn
>>746066431
I feel like I've read this same exact post before.
>>746055100
Youngfag here. I'm not sure what I'm going to do out of high school. I want to look into being an electrician, but there aren't any paying apprenticeship programs until I'm already out of school, and I'm afraid I might not like the job. This scares the shit out of me because I've already talked with my dad about the fact that college may be too expensive, as I am the farthest thing from an only child. As I know I may not go to college, what if the electrician thing falls through? What if I hate the job, and I have no college to speak of to fall back on?
What if I work a job I'll hate my whole life?
Do people actually need help or is there just a bunch of shitposting around here?
>>746066795
There are other trades: Carpentry, Plumbing, Sheet Metal, Steam Fitter, ect.
>>746066719
Maybe it would. My remisninh friends dont seem to care. Im pretty sure my girkfriend is on her way out.
The person I wnated to spend thw reet of ky life with is desd. I held her cood lifeless body in my amrs. I promised her if she died I aouod do and im trying to keep thsy promise but im so scsred.
>>746066180
>We text quite a bit, and she's told me her bra size unsolicited.
And that size is?
>>746066719
Do you think that maybe you can also stop giving advice about how to kill people? Maybe giving people a good way to kill themselves is what throws them over the edge instead of having a chance to get better.
>>746066795
Sometimes you have to commit to something you know very little about, Anon. You'll run into that kind of decision more later on. Go with it. Learn to be an electrician. Don't work yourself to death, and learn to enjoy it. It'll be good, and more financially efficient than college.
>>746066905
Nah, this is all shitposting. Nobody on here really needs any help. This is /b/. Deep down, everybody is secretly very happy and satisfied with their lives.
>>746067013
If you find someone new, someone good, maybe they can help you crawl out of this. Have you talked to a therapist, Anon?
>>746067076
Yeah, somebody else got really mad at me when they found out about that. I'll find some alternative.
-Fenn
>>746067001
I have no interest or skill in any of those though, hence, a job I might quickly learn to hate
>>746065969
That isn't dumb man. Doesn't sound like your time
>>746066795
Talk to people, tell them that you don't know what you want to do out of school, and that you want to shadow them so you can better make a decision.
Doesn't even have to be formal, walk up to a store or something, and ask.
Use your social network, maybe your uncles cousin's boyfriend knows someone or something.
