Hello, Anon. How's things? Feeling down? Need a hug?
Let's talk.
why is my pee pee yellow
Hey Fenn, tonight is homecoming and I'm going with this girl, how do I keep my cool? She's so hot.
>>745867489
Hey. Looks like the thread's up. I'm doing relatively well actually. Im going to canada for a few days for camping this weekend so that's fun.
>>745867581
Dunno. How yellow?
>>745867614
Don't think too much about it. Just roll with her like it's natural. You got this, man. Don't forget that.
>>745867645
Sounds like fun. I love camping, but I don't get to do it often. What will you do there? Just chill?
>>745867614
not fell but I can answer. Keep in mind she is a normal person just like you, who's probably just as nervous. Just be yourself and if it doesn't work out it's no big deal.
You'll do great anon!
>>745867757
Actually going with my scout troop to a "world brotherhood camporee" basically just a bunch of canadian and american troops camping on fairgounds and dicking around for the weekend. usually pretty fun.
>>745867825
>>745867757
Okay I'll do my best, be back in an hour, that's how long the dance lasts. Thanks for the good luck :)
>>745867910
Abra
What is it?
>>745867932
Oh, that sounds cool. Never did anything like that.
>>745868006
Oh boy. Take care man, I'll be looking forward to hearing about it.
>>745868006
You got this man!!!
>>745868108
How are you doing?
Anything going on in your life?
>>745868108
Be my frend on discord
>>745868363
Got some parts I needed for a project. Going to a convention this Saturday. Tons of things to do.
I have too many things going on in my life.
>>745868400
Okay. Who are you?
Fenn#4548
>>745868517
Ooh, what convention? Also, hey there, friendo.
>>745868662
Baltimore Comic Con.
I'm renaming the pictures from last night and the night before. They're really good. Very relevant.
>>745868517
I know how you feel. What convention?
how many people are you gonna advise on how to kill themselves, you miserable fuck?
>>745868795
you lucky bastard. Only ever been to one, went to boston comiccon in '16.
it was awesome.
>>745868806
Don't worry, it's not a furry convention. It's just comic con.
>>745868857
However many ask.
>>745868862
I went last year, and it was great. Gonna wear a costume this year.
>>745868965
why don't you bother pointing them in the direction of help instead
>>745867489
Seems like every time I plan something, life just shits all over those plans to where I have to cancel, not even change. Short-term plans and life goals both.
How can I change my luck around? It's really fucking with me now.
>>745868965
Hey don't listen to him, i think you're a great guy.
You were on here last night right?
>>745867489
>>745869029
should he put the link to a suicide hotline in his op post every time?
>>745868795
Man, I wish I could say I've gone to a convention just once in my life. But those things are better with friends, anyways. And all have them have been so busy that organizing one would be impossible. You getting the full experience and decking yourself out in cosplay or just going to walk around and check everything out-
>>745868965
Oh. What are you gonna be going as? You gonna incorporate some of your DIY steampunk trinkets?
And sorry giving you like seventy pictures over the course of only two days. Hope it doesn't bog ya down too much.
>>745867489
Hug me
>>745867489
>How's things?
My knee hurts.
>>745869396
It's okay anon.
Everything's gonna be okay.
Roughest week I've had in a while. It's funny. All I want is to be with her and ignore everyone else, but she's ignoring me and everyone seems to want something from me.
>>745869599
What happened to your knee?
>>745869639
I hope so the 23rd is coming...
Doing ok.
Need some advice.
Just got $10,000.
Enough money to actually do something with my life.
How would you use it? Spen it? Or invest it?
>>745869072
Just keep rolling the dice.
>>745869029
Never worked in the past. I always failed somehow.
>>745869072
It happens, Anon. Sometimes you try and try, and life just puts you down. There's nothing you can do, as far as I know. Wait.
Your luck will turn up again on its own. You'll go through a hard time until then.
>>745869145
I was here last night, yeah. Little late.
I'm not so great a guy. Don't be thinking that.
>>745869181
Good one. It got me the first time I saw it on imgur. Try to get one that looks like part of 4chan though.
>>745869351
Yeah, it's a pretty casual costume. I'll probably just walk around and talk to artists. If I had more time, I'd build some kind of electronic prop to carry with me or wear. That's what I've done in the past. Didn't have time this year. I'll just be a dapper steampunk gentleman sans accessory.
I love the pictures. After this thread I'll get them all into my collection so I can use them.
>>745869396
*hugs you tightly*
Do you want to talk about things?
>>745869599
That ain't so good. What did you do to it?
>>745869647
That's how I feel right now too, Anon. The week is almost over now though. Next week will be better. You've got to hold through until then.
>>745869739
Hang on to some of it, invest most of it, and spend a little on yourself. It'll make living a lot easier for a long time if you save it up or invest it.
>>745869739
I say invest it and let intrest grow
>>745869294
I'd prefer that than "I want to kill myself" "you should use a helium tank or a gun"
>>745869811
then maybe you should stop trying to help people
>>745869811
Well they say the end of the world is coming on the 23rd and my anxiety is making me paranoid about it... i know its stupid to think that it will happen but what if it does?
>>745869648
>>745869811
It all started when I was born (actually, it starts with my ancestors, and whatever came before that. It all started with the big bang), and a series of events and decisions led me to where I am today.
However, if my decisions were to have differed just slightly, the likelihood of my knee not being injured is relatively low.
As some might put it, I did this to myself.
>>745867757
Give me a legit reason not to kill myself
>>745869811
>>745869814
So stocks I guess?
hey op, having some girl troubles. can I get a hug?
>>745870062
Or just put it in the bank
>>745869811
>I was here last night, yeah. Little late.
>I'm not so great a guy. Don't be thinking that.
I think you are. You're taking time out of your day to be there for a lot of us, without any promise of reward. Sounds good to me. I don't think anyone can say they're 100% good. Try not to be too harsh on yourself.
>745869811
>That's how I feel right now too, Anon. The week is almost over now though. Next week will be better. You've got to hold through until then.
Thanks anon. I appreciate it. I hope things will go well for you too.
>>745870037
it's okay man. The world isn't going to end, I promise. I know you feel paranoid, and that's okay. It isn't stupid, its just anxiety. It's gonna be okay anon, I promise. You're going to be okay. The world isn't going anywhere fast.
>>745869909
lel what if it was actually a ruse to point them towards suicide methods that were less likely to succeed or less likely to cause long-lasting harm if failed
>>745870526
stop please, that's almost too evil. he's already enough of a cunt.
>>745867489
I feel as if the world is a shitty place and everyone around me is worth nothing, but there is a special girl I want to cheer me up what do I do to get her?
>>745870615
what if he's really evil and devious like that to keep these poor saps alive?
>>745870494
Thanks...*hugs tightly* everyone is saying that. At least the people i talk to are, on 4chan people are just saying were all screwed, the main reason why i havn't left this site is because of your threads.
>>745869909
Why?
>>745870037
World ain't gonna end on the 23rd. That's bullshit. Don't fall for it.
The world was supposed to end in 2000. And a bunch of other times.
Maybe it already did.
>>745870056
Regardless of how it happened, and how clumsy you might have been, it hurts now. How bad is it? Can you get some ice on it?
>>745870057
When you're not dead, things can change. They might get better. When you're not dead, you still have the ability to make things different. You may be able to change your situation.
>>745870062
/b/ is not the place to get financial advice. But yes, that's what I recommend. Get something safe.
And compound it.
>>745870105
*hugs you tightly*
Do you want to talk about it too?
>>745870221
Thank you, Anon. Sometimes I try.
>>745870448
I hope so too. Good luck.
>>745870675
It is kind of a shitty place, but there are lots of good people, and you shouldn't put yourself above them. If all you want from her is to make you happy, it's probably not going to work.
You need to value others a little more, Anon. Girls like guys who care about them.
>>745870769
because you aren't helping those people, you mong.
>>745869811
Anybody you're looking for in particular? Because I couldn't imagine even attempting to make small talk with any of them if I wasn't familiar with their material beforehand. You know if there's gonna be a Celebrity Zoo section too?
And I think I'll give you some breathing room to digest those pictures before I move on to volume three. Last thing I'd want to do is drown you with another fifty pictures after you've just got done sorting through the ones from volume two.
>>745870675
I know this sounds cliche, but just be yourself. Tell her how you feel. Hopefully she'll feel the same way. If not, that's how the world is sometimes. No matter what happens I promise you're going to be happy one day. I know you will.
>>745870769
Thanks *hugs tightly* i know it wont but i still worry...
>>745870769
I have a bizarre philosophy I more so think that kind of stuff then act it out. But I treat everyone with respect as much as I can.
>>745870846
Yeah I'm over thinking it is all. I'm fairly confident
>>745870721
>>745867489
Shit meant that to OP
>>745870808
What did you expect? It's /b/.
>>745870843
Yeah, I intend to talk to a few artists I already know the work of. But last time I got the best advice from a few that I had never heard of before. I want to meet some new people.
Dunno about celebrities though. Don't have the time or interest for that.
>>745870874
*hugs you back*
It's only two more days. You'll know for certain soon enough. Try not to think about it.
I'm not afraid. You shouldn't be either.
>>745870900
It sounds kind of bullshit to me. Being respectful of others will get you places and gain you friends. To believe in only yourself is weak and selfish.
>>745870721
>>745871163
If I'm keeping you here, I'm doing something wrong. 4chan will never be a positive influence on anyone. If you want to really be happy, get away from here.
I won't be able to see my buddy in 6 months due to the hurricane knocking out the power in Puerto Rico.
>>745867489
christ I'd breed her in a fucking second
>>745871271i still have c threads though so yeah i might stay for a little longer
>>745870721
tbh this isn't my thread.
My gf goes through a lot of stuff (anxiety being one of them) and I know how difficult it is for people dealing with it, especially since they can't always talk to many people, if any, about it. A lot of people with anxiety don't get to be genuinely happy much and I think they deserve to be happy.
*hugs tightly*
Hey guys, I'm back from homecoming, dance got rained out. I can officially say me and her are dating now! We shared a kiss and we parted ways with a nice hug. Anyone need a hug?
>>745871297
Man, that's awful. Do you know if he's okay?
>>745871333
Danbooru.
>>745871339
Don't believe anything you read on 4chan, man. Not even me. It's all awful, and most of it is just plain stupid. There is nothing of value here.
There are a few good pictures though...
>>745870769
>How bad is it? Can you get some ice on it?
It's not too bad.
The injury occurred a few days ago.
It's not healing too badly, but I haven't been giving it enough rest, and I've been relatively physically active today.
Life won't slow down for me, nor do I expect it to.
I want more, I want to move forward; perhaps, it's not all too necessary.
I shouldn't let desire move me forward, only to have moved unto a longer path, while the same destination lies yonder.
Some paths lead to not but a single destination, but multiple.
>>745871163
well this is embarrasing
>>745871404
>>745871404
Thanks friend *hug back tightly* i hope your gf improves
there okay i guess wish i had a girlfriend i'm a lonely fag, the only thing that gives me solace is drawing
>>745871517
No i still appreciate your comment though *hug*
>>745867489
i hate my life and i'm going to die alone because i'm so fucking ugly
i just want someone to cuddle with and play videogames with but nobody likes me
>>745871718
Ill play vidya with you, got steam?
>>745871592
Same here. I'm sure she will, these things just take time i guess. Being totally out of communication for 2 days won't exactly help though. (see here>>745867645)
>>745871170
I expect better from someone who said they were inspired by Jill and Reimu
I want to drop acid but I have work tomorrow and its 10:40PM now.
The girl I'm in love with, whom I've helped through countless bad times including rehab and financial troubles, told me that she sees me as a very important friend...but no benefits. Instead she has a fuck buddy and is on a date tonight with someone else. We're supposed to hang out tomorrow and I don't know what to say to her.
>>745871628
A large majority of males want a girlfriend, Anon. It'd dare say that it's a part of human nature.
Loneliness is a part of human nature.
There is nothing wrong with being human.
Just dropping by to say hello!
>>745871873
Sometimes, the truth is the best thing to say, even if it leads to an outcome you don't want.
>>745871873
>fixing a broken woman
>getting friendzoned
>dont know what to say to her
cut your losses drop all contact with her
>>745871951
next time drop by and tell him to be a better person
>>745871449
Oh yes. You are the man, Anon. I'm proud.
>>745871509
Sometimes it's okay to slow down and let life get away for a moment, while you rest.
But keep moving forward. It doesn't matter why, it doesn't matter how many paths there are. Don't ever truly give up.
>>745871628
Hey, I like to draw too, Anon. What do you draw?
If you could find a girl who also likes to draw, you might connect that way. How might you find other artists?
>>745871718
You're not that bad, Anon. You'll find someone good eventually. Don't give up, but if the search starts to get you down, let off a little. Remember to enjoy your own self, even if you don't have anyone.
>>745871795
Did I say that? When?
>>745871839
Don't do it. Wait until tomorrow evening.
It'll be better then.
>>745871873
Are you disappointed? Frustrated? Talk to her about how you feel. Tell her what you're really thinking.
>>745871951
Ah, hello! Good to see you!
>>745867489
Hi OP
>>745867489
Hey Fenn, I need your help with a really dumb problem, but a problem nontheless, let me tell you.
I have a crush for this girl in school, she is really amazing, likes comics and has a really good taste in music, the thing is that I can't find a way to aproach to her and some mutual friends that actually want to help me end up embarrassing me. By now I think she probably believes that I'm an autist or something like that, and I don't know what to do. Any advice you could give me?
>>745871839
Don't do it.
>>745871873
Well, do you still want to be her friend? Either way, just be honest.
>>745871449
YES! I knew you could do it anon! I'm proud of you!
>>745872097
probably not explicitly, but it's fairly common knowledge and obvious that Jill helped you do threads and keep you going. and since Jill just copies Reimu, that's that
>>745871839
>>745872097
>>745872181
anon here
i took the acid
oof
>>745872097
>Don't ever truly give up.
I'll try.
However, it may be words of dishonesty, if I were to say that it does not pain me to think about how far ahead of me life has come to be.
>>745871791
Well just amke sure she keeps in contact with some family or just stay with her.
>>745871170
I'm not saying to go up and talk to them or anything, just to peruse the section they might be in. Because I've heard it described as pretty much comparable to a zoo with celebrities in their own cages. Especially if they're ones that are really obscure or are only well known for one role they portrayed like thirty years ago. Are you that invested in artistry where you're getting advice from some of the industry's pros? I know you said you used to draw before, but not to what extent.
>>745872097
Thanks Fenn! I didn't expect it to go so smoothly, but goddamn she had that look in her eyes and oh man, everything was in slow motion i was thinking I was dreaming, but no I was alive and it was happening! Holy shit thank you guys :)
>>745872177
>>745870846
same thing I told the guy who just started dating :p
>>745872314
b-b-but this is /b/, where the stories and information posted here are artistic works of fiction and falsehood.
>>745872314
proof?
>>745872097
I used to love her. We dated for a while and then she broke things off because she was drunk all the time and didn't know what she felt and told me that she felt I was better off with someone else. We broke contact and I did my own thing and then ran into her 2 months later. We become friends again (and nothing else) and then she went through some shit and I helped her out and fell in love with her again. And now she's appreciative but still treats me like a friend and nothing else even though I really want her again, but don't know what to tell her.
Free blowjobs tonight?
>>745871943
I know i just wanted to vent but thanks hugs
>>745872657
I just wanted to be safe. Glad to see you're not doing as bad as you cold be.
>>745872127
Hello Anon. What's up?
>>745872177
Don't assume that she thinks you're retarded. Approach her outside the company of your embarrassing friends, and talk to her. Get to know her better. If you're close enough already, ask her out.
>>745872257
I've started to fall out with Jill. I don't like how Reimu and the others treat the threads.
I am not them.
>>745872268
Enjoy it, Anon. Sweet dreams...
>>745872270
Well, what's gotten ahead of you? Obligations to others? Work?
Maybe some things can be let go.
>>745872321
I still, uh, pursue art. To some degree. I talked to David Petersen last time, I guess he's kind of famous. Frank Miller will be there, but only on Friday, when I won't be going. I'm pretty excited to meet Kazu Kibuishi.
Hey, if I'm there, why not ask them for advice?
I can learn from how they do things.
>>745872351
Sounds like it was just the best. Good job, Anon. You did good.
>>745872595
Huh. Does she know how you feel about all this though? Does she know that you're in love with her?
>>745872614
Nope, not this time. Sorry Anon.
>>745872892
>Well, what's gotten ahead of you? Obligations to others? Work?
The same old, same old.
I'm not the man I could've been if things were better so long ago, if I were to have made better decisions so long ago.
This discussion doesn't get anywhere, so I'd rather not have it.
>>745872892
explain your drama with Jill
>>745872892
Thanks once again! I'm gonna head to bed, got something to keep me here now. I can't thank you enough Fenn! Have a good night
>>745867489
I want a cute dress and frilly clothes!
>>745873151
Jill is a fucking bitchy and smug faggot
>>745873048
I wish I could be the man I would be if I had done all the things I should have done.
But I can't do that.
Nothing will change.
Don't worry about it. Move on.
>>745873151
I'd rather not. It's pretty stupid. And entirely my fault.
>>745873178
You thank me too much. Sleep well, Anon. Take care of yourself. I'll be around.
>>745872892
Don't say that, they're watching
>>745871476
No I don't. Haven't been able to talk to him.
I think I am going to be alone forever of my own volition
>>745873178
Have a good night man!
>>745872097
mostly the human figure but i've been branching out lately to vehicles and architecture working on that perspective op oh and i like classic american comic style stuff and anime so yeah pretty weebish,
>>745867489
my life's shit fuck you and your anime. Castle in the Sky >>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>> Nausicaa
>>745873282
so apologize or something?
I got my dick stuck in a toaster
>>745872892
You wouldn't happen to have any of your drawings photographed or anything, would you? Because I'd love to see them at some point. If you can work your magic on something as complex as electricity, I'm sure you'd do wonderful with a pad and pencil.
>>745873282
>Don't worry about it. Move on.
I try, but my memory isn't too bad, and I can associate things relatively easily, so it's not difficult to be remind of what pains me.
>>745871779
i appreciate the offer, but unfortunately steamfrens can not provide any sort of physical intimacy
>>745872892
She doesn't. I haven't said anything because I didn't want to stress her with all she was going through (rehab and therapy and stuff). I've been shrugging it off as I am casually dating a couple of other girls but when she told me that she has a date tonight and that we'll hang out tomorrow it hit me like a ton of bricks. Trouble is I am pretty sure she doesn't feel the same way. So now I'm not sure how supportive I can be for her sobriety without acting like a jealous douche.
>>745873434
You might want to get it out before it gets burnt
>>745873467
Yeah but still we can play vidya
Can I have a hug? I'm just fucking done tonight. I'm so angry and sad at the same time
>>745872374
The problem is I can't find a way to tell her and to make things worse I can't even have a normal conversation with her without pulling out school related stuff, any further advice you could give me, Fenn, master of the universe, helper of anons?
>>745873555
*hug*
it's gonna be okay man. Everything is gonna be okay.
Want to talk about it?
>>745873555
checked
I just had a close friend make an obvious bullshit excuse as to why he cant take me to a party at another friends... Fenn why do people not like me
>>745867489
Work's kicking my ass - we've got major deadlines coming up, and that's stressing me out. I've been making a point to get enough sleep and cook healthier foods to keep depression from creeping in, but then I feel guilty for not putting in as much extra time as all my coworkers. I don't think I'm wrong for prioritizing my health, but those guilty feelings remain.
>>745873555
Hugs
>>745873351
As long as that's what you want.
>>745873555
*hugs* whats wrong friend?
>>745873794
My family has turned their back on me. They're so fucking manipulating. I'm going to move out asap. Who needs enemies when you have friends like mine?
>>745873779
(i'm not fenn, i just like helping)
Personally what I think is you should try to get closer to her at first, but not straight up telling her you've got the hots for her. Spend some time with her, get to know her, and then at some point in the future you can tell her how you feel.
But my advice to start talking to her? Think beforehand if you have something in common, and try to talk about that. Try to join a club or event she may be in, and use that as a way to bring you two together. She may not even want to date or even be friends, and that sucks, but sometimes the world works that way. be prepared for that scenario (but be optimistic)
>>745872181
I want to be supportive but it has taken a lot out of me to do so. Especially since she's about to start step 4 of the 12-step program and she has told me that she's had so many people ditch her before that she can't imagine losing me, and I just don't know what to say.
>>745873265
What's stopping you from buying them?
>>745873294
I'll say whatever I want on this public anonymous image board. I don't care who sees it.
Maybe we'll finally stop talking to each other, and the farce will end.
>>745873298
Man, that's scary. You'll just have to wait and hope. Say a prayer for him.
>>745873351
Why are you going to make yourself alone?
>>745873408
Oh, nice. I usually draw robots, but lately they've taken a more organic turn. So my robots look more like humans.
>>745873412
I won't disagree. Castle in the Sky was a better movie. I still like Nausicaa better though.
>>745873419
Nah.
>>745873434
Only one solution: amputate. Hack it off, Anon. Take some oxycodone or something first.
>>745873444
Everything I do with electricity is crude and blunt, and so is everything I've ever done on paper. I'll post some of my digital art sometime. Maybe tonight. Maybe not.
>>745873458
A better solution might be to resolve the problems you have with them in your mind, then. Get over them instead of trying to forget them.
>>745873491
I still think the best choice is to let her know what's up, Anon. But if you think it's definitely a bad idea, don't do it.
>>745873555
*hugs you tightly* What's wrong, Anon?
>>745873779
I don't have much, Anon. Is talking to her about school a bad thing?
>>745873854
His actions may not be motivated by dislike for you. If people really don't like you, I can't explain that. Do you give many people a reason to not like you? I don't think you do.
>>745873878
You're doing the right thing, and you know it. You know your limits. That's good. Keep doing it, despite the guilt. In the long run, it'll be worth it.
Remember that you need to put yourself first sometimes, even if it's just so that you'll be able to more effectively help others.
>>745874216
That's awful. But hey, you'll get a fresh start in the world. Choose your friends wisely.
死にたい
i feel like dogshit and i wanna die.
>>745874216
Aw :( that's gotta suck. good on you though for taking initiative like that. Things are going to get better anon. You're a strong person and I know you can pull through. Everything is gonna be okay. You can do this.
>>745874569
Why do you want to die?
>>745874620
*hug*
that sucks. Why? Want to talk about it?
>>745874561
I will, I hope that he's ok and that they can get their power back on soon.
>>745874561
I don't have enough money to buy the cute clothes I want. I want someone to buy them for me and to force me to dress up in them!
>>745874561
>Get over them instead of trying to forget them.
Maybe the pain is what fuels me to keep going, to remind myself that I need to keep pushing forward.
If everything is alright, then everything won't be alright in the end.
Maybe, anyway; I'm not sure.
>>745874569
どうして?
>>745874620
What's got you feeling that way?
>>745874837
I hope so too, Anon...
>>745874852
Such people are hard to come by. Where have you been looking?
>>745874561
How about if you post one of your drawings tonight assuming you don't have to scour to find it or anything, I'll post one of my own. Although I don't know if it'll be a fair trade since mine are meh at best.
>>745874898
Around the internet! I've been asking my friends too, but no one is really interested. Would you want to be that person for me?
>>745874086
I think it is, but isn't that fucked up?
>>745874561
I think I want to be. I am getting closer and closer to 30. I have never been in a long term relationship. I have no desire to be around other people
i just met a cute girl the other day and we got along pretty well and talked for a few hours
i thought she might be into me but today i asked her if she wanted to hang out this weekend and she immediately shot me down with the excuse of having homework
what the fuck do i do i really want this to work out and i want to get to know her better but i'm afraid that if i keep asking to hang out she'll think i'm obsessive and pushy and hate me
do i even still stand a chance or does the fact that she immediately shot me down mean that i never had a chance
>>745874561
I think that's the problem. The logical part of me says that nothing will come about it anyway because if she wanted to get with me she would have said something by now so we should stay friends, but on the other hand I want her so, so bad.
>>745874561
so you're just gonna up and leave them then?
Well I'm going to bed guys. Sleep well.
>>745871718
i'll fuck you
>>745875142
>I think it is, but isn't that fucked up?
It is but you might be a fucked up person.
>>745874898
Hi Fenn. How are you? I've started frequenting your threads, they open my eyes.
>>745875142
oh hey it's one of the other members of the psychopath gang
so this is why fenn turned into such a cunt
>>745874984
okay i might post something hold on
>>745875495
you haven't seen how ugly i am
>>745874302
Wow, thanks anon, that's some really good advice :)
>>745875603
Sure man, trust me, I know how you feel. Good luck with her! I'm off to bed now.
>>745875142
2 or 3 serious relationships, but I'm in the same boat pretty much
>>745874869
Good point. But if it grows to be too much, it could crush you.
A little pain will keep you going, like a whip at a horse's back. With nothing there, you're right. You could stagnate, and never get anywhere.
>>745874984
Don't worry, all mine are pretty bad. I'll dig something up, give me a minute.
>>745875121
I don't have any extra money, Anon. Sorry.
>>745875142
Are you absolutely sure? Have you tried interacting with others in a comfortable setting, or only formally? It can be pretty rewarding once you get used to it.
>>745875246
Hang back a little and bide your time. Don't take this one thing too seriously. Ask her again next weekend.
>>745875304
Just tell her. Do it tomorrow morning.
>>745875326
Nah.
>>745875390
You too, Anon. Thank you for coming and helping out!
>>745875527
I'm doing okay. Had a long day. In what way do they open your eyes?
>>745875747
I find that hard to believe, but I look forward to seeing it.
>>745875747
Then can we at least pretend if you won't buy me any cute clothes?
>>745875747
I find that feeling normal with a group of people that all feel "wrong" is one of the stronger ways to fight sadness.
Plus I like these threads, they feel like warm coffee shops to me.
>>745873351
You're not alone here
>>745875553
I just show people the right way anon. They make their own choices
>>745875724
But do you want to be? I don't even keep friends because people disgust me
>>745875499
What is the use of being fucked up if you don't know. I just think I am fucked up. What if I turn 40 and realize I was just stupid? Then what the fuck do I do?!
>>745875747
>>745875747
>Hang back a little and bide your time. Don't take this one thing too seriously. Ask her again next weekend.
i'm in college
the possibility that she'll just meet a chad and forget about me within the next week is extremely high
>>745875747
Sure man. Thanks for being here for me and everyone else. i was here last night and the night before too, i was the guy whose gf breaks down each night. Well anyways nice seeing all you guys!
>>745873273
I take that as a compliment!
>>745876177
It's a joke I fucking love you s;
>>745874323
She's going to do the inventory. That's a good thing. Be supportive, but know she has support in her 12 step program.
>>745876177
Best girl is here
>>745876004
I kind of think I am. I am not sure you understand the degree to which I do not want to be around others
>>745875747
I am not absolutely sure is the issue. I have friends. I hang out with people occasionally. It is something I don't really like all that much though.
Even online it is an issue. I can't stand people messaging me on steam . They get annoying.
>>745876030
I just want to be left alone for the most part
I don't hate people, but I dont really like em
>>745867489
Hello. i cant sleep. x_x
>>745876224
aw, darn. most people view me as such a softie, I was almost excited that someone thought I was a hard-ass!
>>745876270
I'm all-seeing, darling. you need something tonight?
Hey.
Got fired from McDicks, found a translating job for an embassy. Sick gig.
Fellow translator 9.5/10 broken Engrish, adorable. Don't think employees relationships are tolerated.
What do?
Oh and she likes me(for some reason)
>>745876320
get a white noise machine or app
>>745876338
Your finest alcohols
>One of my only friends leaves for no apparent reason
>Two days later, another leaves because of stuff I don't want to say here (nothing bad)
>Down to just one person in the entire world who understands me
I'm so paranoid that I'm going to be totally alone. Situations keep running through my head that he will end up dead somehow and I will never know, or that he will suddenly decide that he hates me and leave. It's pretty unlikely for either of those situations to occur, but the one-two of losing two close friends has me spooked.
I don't even know if I'm looking for advice, I just needed to tell somebody and get it off my chest
>>745876413
It works for you?
The only girl i ever cared about, my ex, is getting married.
Have you ever been so depressed and suicidal that you go past emotion and you just die inside.
>>745876320
Take two Advil PM, works like a charm
>>745876482
yeah
the app might be counter productive if you're the type that checks their phone a lot though
>>745876320
turn off your lights, use black electrical tape to cover stuff like the power light on your computer. use blue light filters to not fuck up melatonin production, and if you sleep better with noise, use a website or phone app. I use asoftmurmur. drink enough water and exercise regularly, and if all else fails, speak to your doctor or try something OTC like Unisom.
>>745876345
be her coworker. if you need the job, it's not worth risking at a slight chance of something, is it?
>>745876418
dude, I don't even serve drinks in my own house. you think I'm cracking the bottles open at someone else's too?
>>745876447
>>Down to just one person in the entire world who understands me
None of my friends really understand me, not the close ones, not my family, my parents never understood me; I know myself the best, yet, there are things that I don't fully comprehend about myself.
At least you've got that going for you.
>>745876549
>>745876635
I will try, thanks a lot <3.
>>745875885
Did this one the other day. Messed up the ears.
>>745875905
Sure. Why not?
>>745875943
Hm. I had never thought of it that way, but that's good. I'm glad you like them, Anon.
>>745876030
What is the right way?
>>745876062
Oh. Well, when could you hang out with her then? Monday evening?
>>745876063
I'm not "here" for anyone. All I do is listen.
Keep at it, Anon. It was good to see you too. Stay strong.
>>745876285
Hm. I see what you mean. Maybe you need to get over your disdain and annoyance for others. Or maybe you don't.
>>745876320
Could you start taking melatonin supplements, or Nyquil? Or wake up early and work hard throughout the day?
>>745876338
Hard-ass.
>>745876345
Oh, nice. Get to know her. Get in as close as you can, and keep quiet about just how close you are.
>>745876447
The world would not end if you were alone, Anon. It would get real hard for a while, but you'd survive it. If you stress too much about him disappearing, you're setting yourself up for destruction.
You can vent all you want here.
>>745876500
Hm. I can't say I've ever felt that, Anon. You never really got over her, did you?
-Fenn
>>745876338
Well kinda smug but that's all
>>745867489
I'm literally always anxious and alone even though im normally an extrovert and now my bipolar depression is getting unmanageable after having it in control for so long. What do.
>>745876796
Who's that?
>>745876345
Quit. Run off with her.
>>745867489
get raped.
>>745876787
It sounds to me like you need help, Anon. More than I can give you. You need a close friend to support you, or a therapist. Do you have either of those that you could call on?
>>745876713
It feels like you're here for a lot of us, and that's what really matters. You stay strong too man. Hopefully I'll be back Sunday!
>>745876713
>Oh. Well, when could you hang out with her then? Monday evening?
i'm willing to make time whenever she wants to hang out but i'm not even sure if she actually does and if i keep asking she's sure to get sick of me quick
>>745876863
a girl that cooks sometimes
>>745876691
No alcohol is ok, you'll do for now :-)
>>745876447
that's a valid feeling. it sucks, and I can completely understand your anxiety over the possibility. I'm sorry you're in this situation, bud.
>>745876500
getting over the first is the hardest. and I'm not saying to downplay it, and I'm not going to tell you to just suck it up and move on, because I know exactly how it feels. you gotta grieve a bit. it was a relationship, and it fell apart. it takes time for that wound to heal.
but at the same time, it's gonna slowly heal, over time, and you'll be a little better tomorrow than you were today. you just need to take it one day at a time.
>>745876780
I'll take being smug, yeah.
>>745876691
>>745876320
>>745876713
I will try that too. thanks a lot.
>>745876888
>>745877157
cry about it
>>745876787
the thing about bipolar is, you had it in control because you were in a high, and now you're in a low. if you haven't sought professional help and learned skills to manage your symptoms and anxiety, please seek it out. and if you have, then at moments like these... you just gotta take deep breaths for a couple minutes, and look at your list. look at what you can do to try and help yourself, how to manage these feelings, and try to do them. I know it's not easy in the lows, but you can get through it, okay?
>>745876888
>>745876713
The fact that you've applied coloring and any kind of shading/highlights probably with little reliance on a direct reference already puts you above me. I like it, though. Maybe a little bit of a fix is necessary on the shoulders, but still pretty good. Well, a promise is a promise. Here's one I did. It's a freehand recreation of an already available pic of Sucy.
>>745877258
Very nice Sucy
I dont know how to feel better about myself, im quite insecure about everything i do and that actually fucks up most of things
>>745876888
Why?
>>745876900
Sometimes I try. Take care, Anon. I'll probably be here on Sunday.
>>745876929
It can't hurt to ask a second time. Might be good to find something to do other than "hang out" though. Like going to a coffee shop? Or working on homework?
>>745876989
I hope it works. Good luck.
>>745877219
Post some more.
>>745877219
that's a nice clit, I wanna suck on it
>>745876703
Yeah I realize that I have it good, compared to others. That plays a factor in it, I think. I didn't mean to uh brag or shit like that, I was just giving context.
>>745876713
I know that the world wouldn't end. If pushed to it, humans are capable of remarkable adaptation to circumstances. It would just suck though. I'm not entirely sure I wouldn't have offed myself by now if I didn't have his influence in my life.
I haven't mentioned any of this to him, its just been on my mind a lot for the past couple of months.
I should also say that this is totally platonic, I don't wanna fuck him or anything like that. We're just very close friends, and losing the other two made me realize that it could change quickly.
>>745876895
>>745876895
Therapist but all my close friends are getting more sparce. A lot are doing things i can't follow and my best friend just moved. It's a rough life op. I miss sharing genuine moments with friends.
>>745877294
You need to break those bad habits.
>>745877294
would it help to know you aren't alone in that? honestly, most people I know don't think they're that good at too many things, so let's shift the focus here. what do you like to do? do you have hobbies?
>>745877315
>It can't hurt to ask a second time.
definitely, i'm not giving up yet but i'm just nervous as hell because i really want this to work out
>>745877294
Where does your insecurity stem from?
hey lonely fag here that likes to draw so... i did this
>>745877315
this 'tell me about your feewings' ploy is pure tumblr faggotry and it has no place here. get the fuck out. you think youre helping but all youre doing is encouraging people to fixate on the shit that keeps them weak.
you deserve to be permanently banned.
>>745867489
Eh, just broke up with my girlfriend. It was a long-distance thing, we realized (after 5 fucking years) it wasn't going to work out how we were right now (she's going back to school and I'm currently on temporary disability post-surgery, I can't go anywhere). Shit sucks though, mostly because of the crushing loneliness.
I'm more or less alone now. None of my old friends are around anymore, most having forgotten about me. I'm not a very memorable person, I'm too much of a pussy to do anything worth remembering. I've made a few acquaintances, but they forget about me within a few months regardless of how often I make contact. I can't find a good middle-ground for keeping in contact. Once a month, once every 2 weeks, once a week, every few days, nothing works.
I don't want to think I'm just unlikable, but...
>>745876320
I tend to lean towards ASMR videos, mostly the SFW ones. They knock me out without much effort.
>>745877535
hory mory
>>745877535
y u mad tho
>>745877431
Well i really like quirky videogames, shit like space station 13, the thing is my computer is broke so i guess now i just read stuff, usually things like scifi novels so if someone could make some recomendations i would be glad tbh
>>745877437
I think its mainly from my childhood, i have 3 brothers that are pretty fucking amazing at everything they do
>>745877526
I can sort of see the resemblance. It's a funny drawing. How long u been drawing?
>>745877644
4chan is dying because of threads like this. narcissistic emotional masturbation. depression doesnt exist, its just something that happens to repressed cucks too castrated to recognize for what it truly is. anger.
>>745877526
Not bad.
If it's supposed to look like pic related, then honestly, it could be better, but still not bad.
Also, it looks like if you were to work on your ability to visualize what you're drawing more clearly, you'd be able to use less lines, make your stuff look a little cleaner.
Maybe you can visualize well, but you just need to work on your accuracy, focus a little more.
>>745877836
>implying feels threads haven't been here since the beginning
nice b8
>>745877526
Ugly fucking shit if you do this for a job you gonna starve fucking massive faggot I bet you waifu is shit and you are a fucking fatshit
>>745877526
hey, that's pretty nice. thanks for sharing.
>>745877589
that's... pretty rough. I know what it's like to get broken up with and have most of my friends leave. it's a lonely place to end up, and it's hard to find the way out. I'd suggest that you still try and reach out to some of those friends, ask if you can get a beer or something and catch up. I'm... not totally sure what help I can offer otherwise. I'm sorry, anon.
>>745877663
there's a /lit/ board over on Lainchan, which is kind of cyberpunk/sci-fi stuff. maybe you could find a few titles to try over there.
>>745877836
/b/ was always shit.
>>745877258
It's good, Anon. The shapes are bold, and the lines are confident.
>>745877294
If you don't know how to improve it, you need help. Can you schedule an appointment with a therapist for this weekend or next week?
>>745877368
If you mention this to him, it might draw you even closer together. That would be good. Talking to him about it might make it easier to deal with too.
>>745877379
Things change, Anon. People change. Can't be avoided. You might find new friends though. Be open to that.
>>745877435
Keep trying. If it doesn't work, it doesn't work. So what? Try again with another girl.
>>745877526
The hair is good. So are the highlights on the face.
Her left eye doesn't look quite right though.
>>745877535
Okay.
>>745877589
Keeping contact with someone doesn't do a thing unless you get closer. If you open up to each other, you're far more likely to get close and stay close for a long time. You're not unlikable. Nobody knows who you really are, so they can't appreciate you fully.
>>745877836
lol ok
>>745877813
for as long as i can remeber really
>>745878003
wew lads
>>745878075
Fenn, I'll chat u tomorrow I gonna sleep
>>745867489
My gf of 6 and a half years left me today
>>745877874
no pic isn't related but very close (same angle), and your right i could be cleaner i've gotten that criticism more then once, its hard to break bad habbits :(, thanks for the tips
>>745878302
You've got this; you'll be better in no time.
>>745878253
Alright, sleep well. I'll be around, but maybe not in the evening.
>>745878298
How are you taking it, Anon?
>>745867489
Im off to bed *hugs tightly* night op
>>745877663
Have you read Asimov, Heinlein, and Clarke yet?
>>745877734
The goal is not to be better than your peers, or your brothers, or any person. The goal is to be better than the man you were yesterday. You have to strive to be the best version of yourself possible, because comparing a 'meh' version of yourself to 'best version' of your brothers is a bad comparison.
I realize that that advice is pretty cold but its really the best thing you can try and do.
>>745878075
3rd guy.
Yeah I should do that. Even though he'd respond 'lol faget', I'm pretty sure he feels similar. i dunno man I'm really not that good at all this feelsy shit.
>>745878075
>So what? Try again with another girl.
i don't think you quite get how ugly i am and how never this happens
thanks tho
>>745878298
that's... really rough. I'm sorry, anon. take time for yourself, take it slow, and don't do anything rash.
it's gonna hurt for a long time, and I'm sorry for that. but someday these wounds scar over.
>>745877293
Slightly disagree, but thank you anyways.
>>745878075
Hah. Probably because those were the only lines period. Didn't bother with an underlying wireframe or whatever it is actual artists use to get the basic proportions down since it was pretty much just an eyeball drawing. But still thank you very much. It means a lot coming from you, friendo. I'd love to see more from you some time.
>>745878003
i'm a starving artist and a fatshit at the same time?
i dont know. i have a good life i suppose and a family that at least on some level cares about me but ive been really depressed lately. it seems like no matter what i do i fuck it up. im re taking chemistry for a 2nd time and ive been striking out with my friends and girl friend. i have no time to see either of them. i just feel like one big fuck up, nothing ive ever done has been something that me or my family can be proud of. its just a constant string of disappointment. ive had to move back home for this semester and i just feel pathetic. im only 21 and i already feel like im heading for a life of just disappointment. its really got me thinking if its really worth it to keep going.
sorry to unload this onto a complete stranger but the few people ive talked to just say ive been in a funk. maybe they're right, but idk
>>745878410
Fucking bad, feels bad. I think a lot about killing myself now
>>745878298
Why?
>>745878682
don't kill yourself anon
>>745878682
if you're actually considering or formulating plans, please seek treatment. there's always another option. I know that when it's dark, it can seem like the only way out, but it's not.
>>745878439
Sleep well, Anon. I'll see you around.
*hugs you back*
>>745878449
You know the situation better than I do. Do what you think is right.
>>745878490
Okay. Sorry I couldn't help you more Anon, but that's all I've got.
>>745878503
I do a lot of eyeball drawings. Most of them are pretty bad. But if you practice drawing out the proper proportions enough, you can do it quickly and more naturally. It feels good.
>>745878537
Somebody wants to hate something.
>>745878599
Anon, you can't be getting absolutely everything wrong. You're not so pathetic. You've made it pretty far.
Be proud of the things you get right. You're stuck on the bad things. That's bad.
>>745878682
Doesn't seem to me like the best option at the moment, but I could be wrong. It's going to be hard, but you can move on from this, and continue with life.
Don't worry about that just yet though. Let the sadness work itself through.
>>745878537
Yea bitch yea get rekt noob you are a disgusting starving fatfuck with a shitty waifu artist
>>745878788
I just wanna die. I have nothing left to lose. I'm poor, I'm a student, I have no job, no family, nothing
>>745879434
No, I mean why did she leave you. Tell me your story, Anon.
It might make you feel better.
>>745876985
Not even surpriced
>>745879358
I have a fan
>>745877535
you sound a bit like an elitist sociopath
>>745879237
I can't help but be really aggressive toward certain people, especially if they get in the way of me and the girl I have a crush on. I don't want to ruin any friendship she has but I also can't get over this debilitating jealousy I get with people who are closer with her than I am.
I went too far and showed my coworker a picture of my dick and now she won't talk to me as much. It's awkward. She's the only reason I still work here. Probably gonna kill myself
>>745879900
you say that like its a bad thing.
>>745879237
Well that one in particular was for a former acquaintance of mine from a couple of years ago, so I've kinda fallen off the wagon when it comes to actually having a desire to draw something just to do it. But if you're still drawing stuff even up until today, I can see even greater things coming from you. Have you ever drawn something large scale like with scenery and all that?
>>745879598
She told me that she wants to spend some time alone, without anybody. She told me that she was thinking about this like a week ago and she think she's too young to think about to get marry n spend her life with me
>>745880066
Why did you show her your dick if she didn't ask you to?
>>745880066
I mean, that falls under sexual harassment, if she didn't want to see it. you're lucky that you haven't been reprimanded, fired, or sued.
>>745880119
I do. Communication and cooperation are the keys to success. Sociopathy means no communication and no cooperation. That mean's no success.
>>745880212
That's no reason to kill yourself, Anon.
Just keep living your life. Maybe you are too young.
>>745879598
I was fine with everything in my life this last week. I don't know what the fuck happen
Nausicäa is worse than any other Miyazaki film.
>be mad
>>745880313
It's unlikely that this is something she only started thinking about recently.
She may have had these thoughts for a long time but she didn't want to trouble you and you didn't notice.
>>745880337
you're forgetting Ponyo, aren't you? that one wasn't all that great either, imo.
>>745880295
She's the choseen one for me, I want to live with her, I want to live but not without her
>>745880043
Maybe it's best to hold back, and to just let this one go, Anon. If you stay far away enough, the feelings should fade.
>>745880066
Would you kill yourself out of embarrassment alone? It's still money; hang onto the job.
>>745880124
Try again tonight, Anon. Just do something small. Draw something you see, or a character you like.
I got to where I am by doing it every day, and watching how better people did it. That's how I'll move on from here, too.
I have done things like that, but only a few times. Usually didn't make it to colors. I've been told that I should move past sketches and start making more finished pieces.
>>745880337
Okay.
>>745880556
You're right, thank you.
>>745880499
Just keep living, Anon.
You never know what you might find next.
>>745880499
that's... not how relationships work, anon. you have the right to choose to keep caring or move on, and so does she. she's chosen the latter, and you need to accept it.
>>745880669
Thanks, I think I'm gonna spend some time alone and think about this.
>>745880277
have fun working as a team, knowing i'm in your ranks, figuring out how to you use you against eachother and come out on top.
I don't know if I like this guy or the things he says to me ( how he flirts and says I'm cute) no one has ever talked to me like this. But sometimes I feel like I'm not actually gay .
>>745881024
If you were capable of that, I doubt you'd be in this place to begin with.
>>745880849
I hope peace comes soon, anon.
>>745881075
so tell him you're not sure how you feel about it. that's where you are right now from the sound of it, and it's not going to hurt just to be honest.
>>745881075
If you're not gay, don't pay any attention to him.
But if you like the attention and want more, accept him and let this develop further.
>>745880556
I was never really invested at all in drawing in the first place. That and a few others were only spurred on because that former circle of friends were all showing off their drawing abilities which prompted me to chip in one of my own. Never had a reason to after that, and it's perfectly fine with me. I'd really like to see you take on bulkier projects like a landscape or even regular environment shots. I think you'd do great at them. Maybe that's something you can ask for advice on when you meet all those artists at your con.
>>745881075
Touch his weewee if you feel the tingly in your pooper you are a feg if you don't then you aren't a feg
>>745881202
I have and he gave me the old "its fine, I understand" thing. I hate this I have no idea how I truly feel
>>745881267
See I like the attention. And we've gotten pretty close but again there are parts of mhmind that pull me to both extremes
>>745867489
Are you going to go see nausicaa in theaters this week? Where you from friend?
Been on these threads a few times, you guys seem like good people, I'll bite:
Lost my gf a few months ago because I was kind of a tard. Pretty clear cut: She wanted it to be over and moved on pretty fast.
Feel pretty retarded since, failed to drink myself to death, her current bf has been trying really hard to be friendly and get me out of the house but every time I see her I just die inside. Seeing someone you really care for after you disgust/push her away? How the fuck can I even show myself around her?
>>745881500
Ah, I see. I might, if I had the time and patience to sit down and do them all the way through. I will ask for advice on that.
>>745881548
Hm. At this point it's up to you, Anon. Will you do the gay? Are you not gay?
What is most important to you?
>>745881619
No, I'm not. I live in the middle of the east coast of the US.
>>745881796
The obvious solution is to get away so you don't have to see her for a while. Can you do that? Give yourself some space to get over her.
>>745881833
Long island here. It's in theaters all over the place this sunday till Wednesday. You should give a look, it's a limited run but it's totally worth seeing on the big screen. Only one day for subbed in most cases so be careful unless ya like disney dubs
>>745881548
Are you sexually attracted to men? That's all you need to know to decide whether or not you're gay, man.
>>745881267
hey its the lonely drawfag, i want to start my own webcomic one day do you think that would be a good idea or just keep the drawing a personal hobby
>>745881548
then you just gotta take your time and try to understand what you're feeling. have you taken time to just sit and think about this one thing?
>>745881796
honestly, just message the guy on facebook or something, tell him it's hard for you to see her right now. it's awkward to say, but he'll understand.
I'd also suggest seeking treatment for your depression, and potentially alcoholism as well, if you had enough on hand to attempt liver failure suicide.
>>745881796
Tell her and her boyfriend that you don't want them involved in your life and that seeing the two of them only brings you more pain. If they don't leave after that then they just enjoy being cruel to you.
If you haven't told them that, then you need to tell them that. Preferably when you're completely sober and unemotional so that they'll know you're serious and not just acting out.
>>745882041
Whoa. I will give that a look, thank you Anon.
>>745882165
If you've got an idea for a story, go for it. Jump right in. Don't expect to gain a following, and you'll be happy. Use the project to improve yourself, and you'll have quite a trail to look back on at the end once you've gotten really good.
>>745882041
not OP , but you live in Long Island ? What county ?
>>745881833
I'm not much to talk on artistic advice considering my own ability caps at a fourth grader's level at the most when I draw with no reference, but I'd just say for a larger one just spend as much time on it a day as you would for that character sketch you posted earlier and keep going at it piece by piece until you've got a finished project. No need to do it all in one sitting.
>>745881941
Haven't really seen people in a long while, outside of roommate/brothers. At the point where I don't even talk to her/see her anymore.
Friends don't even bother talking to me because I never feel like doing anything. But they ask my brother how I'm doing. Feel like I'll lose everyone at this rate but I just fall the fuck apart when it comes to her.
>>745882272
nassau county, Massapequa to be exact. Bungou stray dogs too, mah man.
i wannna get drank
>>745881833
Its a shame he is so far away so I can have a quick answer
>>745882100
Sometimes yes sometimes no. Its really specific. I have been attracted to three men before. But sometimes in repulsed by it sometimes I see a chick and think "she's pretty hot"
>>745882220
ADHD/ADD impossible hombre
>>745882389
Maybe you're just bisexual.
If you aren't sexually repulsed by the same sex then you're certainly not strictly straight.
>>745882260
Anytime man. I like your threads btw. They remind me of a website that was around back in 2010-2012. I think it was compassionpit? You could either queue up as a venter or listener. I think you would have liked it.
>>745882370
be safe, don't overconsume, drink at least 500ml water after to stay hydrated and stave off the hangover.
>>745882389
then sit down and talk it out with someone you really trust and can help keep your attention on it.
also look into possible treatments for your ADHD.
Ex wife is visiting from out of town so she can spend time with our kiddo.
I've fucked her twice already and feel semi disgusted
