Need a feels thread /b/ros
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Need a feels thread /b/ros
Stop coming to this board everyday to feel sad.
Anyone have any stories? Might post mine if wanted. Am op.
Rip
Contributing
>>715182716
i would like some. also need some feels today.
Anyone else feel this :/
>>715182813
???
>>715183826
cuck.
Bump
>>715183631
Gay...
these posts make me feel, but then i scroll down and see a guy fucking a fruit and its all gone again
>>715184157
What the fuck is this faggot shit lmao
>>715184157
Holy fuck these are the most whiny pictures on earth. I come to feels threads for manly tears not these, "boo hoo woe is me I can't have her" cuckery.
Does anyone have good, non-my-1st world-life-sucks feels?
>>715184491
Fucking kek supreme
>>715183959
Remember that guy? Neither does anybody else.
>>715184364
>>715184145
>>715184654
>>715184905
Gtfo off a feels thread you're probably some reddit fag who thinks they're alpha. Gtfo off /b/ if you're not a /b/ro
>>715185169
>>715184905
Calm down this >>715183959 post has nothing to do with feels and it has a stupid message. That's it. I'm not trying to derail your thread.
>>715185458
Literal fucking reddit shill
>>715185715
Hell yeah, I go on reddit /b/rother and I was cringing at your posts. They were pretty cringeworthy. Alas, no worries kind stranger, no harm done.
So I'm a naive person in my middle school years and I'm relatively happy. Then I went to high school and became bipolar switching from depressed to angry in no time for no reason. Meet grill who is nice looking but my freshman self couldn't tell at the time. We dated and she cheats and gets pregnant. Leave her. Go to counseling for a few days before telling my parents I just want to die. They send me to an crisis institution. Turns out I've been taking the wrong meds this whole time. Finally sophomore year I meet an amazing girl with long blonde hair and beautiful blue eyes. She was the end all be all of women for me. We liked the same games and similar high school clubs. She had this laugh like waterfall. It was and is unrepentant and flowed out with grace and beauty. I tell her I love her and we date. She tells me her back story of how her grandfather molested her as a child. I tell her that's the past and that I'm here now. We date all happy like for 9 months and I make a move. I try fingerings her while we make out and she fucking bursts into tears. Tells me how it reminds her of her grandfather. I feel like shit cause well I am shit to do such a thing. Things continue and one day I come back from a long trip and we go on a date and end up getting hot and heavy in my truck and we are holding each other close and I take off her shirt and look her in the eyes as she smiled that knowing smile that I'll never forget. Never move past that. I don't push things and don't try my luck. 3 months later something just isn't right with her. She says over text one day she doesn't feel anything for me and breaks up with me. I spent practically 2 years giving her every thing I could and all I asked was to be loved. We are still friends at this point but I never lost feelings for her. I try seeing other people but no one seems to feel the same. I'm not a very good writer but I tried. Overall I have but one regret. I regret not trying my luck and taking a chance.
well /b/, here I am again.
last time i was on here I was pulling an all nighter studying for school, and on a whim i decided to check my ex's twitter. I ended up feeling some pretty fierce feels, and split my night between telling my own personal story on /b/ and studying
and guess what I decided to do tonight
checked her fucking twitter again
>>715186531
the last time I checked she had a new avi up of her and her new bf/fwb
he looked mixed or latino or some shit, i couldnt tell
hurt more than it should have
tonight i checked and her latest tweet was "help i cant stop looking at pictures of mixed race babies" with a bunch of pictures of the little shits
I knew this would happen eventually after she went to school at a primarily black college but... damn /b/..... talk about a fucking waste
pic very related
>>715186531
>>715186892
What happened bro? Why didn't it work out?
>>715187201
bump for me as i type, Ill give pics in return
Bumping with pictures
>>715187429
Course.
bumppppp
Going to type the story Friday night /b/ros
>>715187606
Get pictures in here.
>>715187696
Have a pleasant sleep.
>>715187759
ok
>>715187429
>>715187201
Its a long story that i can type out later if you guys want
but the reason we broke up is her
we went to different schools, me to a university, her to CC, and we had finally gotten back together the beginning of last year. we visited each other when we could, hung out, talked all the time. i was dead set on marrying this girl. it got a little rough towards the end of the year which i can get into detail about later, because i feel like it may have contributed to the breakup some, but i digress
we had our whole summer planned out ahead of us, all these things we wanted to do, every place we were going to go, we were excited to see each other, but the DAY. the EXACT FIRST FUCKING DAY that finals were over, she stopped texting me.
I dont mean completely ghosted me, it was more like we had been talking every day but now it was hard to get a reply out of her. shed read my texts and open my snapchats, but the frequency with which she replied got less and less
at first i chalked it up to all of her friends being back and her finally seeing them, so i didnt mind. but it got worse and worse as the month went on. and everything we planned on doing? didnt happen
cntd
>>715188024
That's rude of her.
>>715180702
You don't need a feels thread anon you need a reality check. Purposefully subjecting yourself to emotional pain is no different than purposefully subjecting yourself to physical pain (self-harm). You think this shit is going to make you feel better? It won't. I know it's addicting and there's something captivating about knowing other people feel the same pain you do but it's a waste of time. The only thing that will fix you is time and/or change.
>>715188024
she started making excuses not to see me. she told me "oh i have work that day" or that she had plans with friends or just not reply at all. then stupidly when i log onto social media, theres a picture of her clubbing with all of her friends.
believe me it set off alarms in my head, Id call her, Id text her, yell at her, ask her why she wouldnt see me and if she even cares anymore, and shed cry and say yes and shes sorry and shed get better and shed stop being a complete bitch
she didnt. this persisted all of summer. for some reason i stuck through it, on the false hope that it would get better and we could be together again. i swear to god it was her friends poisoning her mind like this.
i degenerated into a shell of a man, became an alcoholic. i should have killed myself with the amount of times ive drinken and driven. and yet she still insisted that nothing was wrong and she loved me and i believed her like the fool i was
i know it sounds tame but she fucked with my mind for 4 months, and then the last week before she left for a new school, I asked her why she wouldnt see me and she told me she just doesnt care about me anymore
the girl who a couple months previously was joking/not really joking about us getting married, told me, and i quote, "i just dont feel anything towards you anymore, youre more of a best friend and i dont plan on keeping this up or keeping contact once school starts"
thats basically why. the post-breakup was an absolute shitshow and if anything, was by far worse than the summer
how is everybody doing night? chilling here listening to some sad ass music letting my feelings drain.
>>715188306
Maybe I should start slicing my self up
>>715188994
you ever feel like your body is on autopilot and youre just watching yourself? idk something like that. i really need a change. but tonight im doing alright
Story for u guys
Lily. Met her online, played mmos together and had super deep convos late into the night. Felt a strong emotional connection, but thought she was a fake or catfish till she asked to skype and discovered she was beautiful. I had gotten sick of being the fattest, weakest kid in middle school so my first year of high school I signed up for a personal trainer and was looking pretty fine by that time, so she didn't immediately drop me like I wasn't hot. Unfortunately, we lived nearly 2000 miles apart, no exaggeration, and after 6 months of feeling life was worth living for the first time.
More?
>>715189259
i definitely understand, its how i feel most of the time. glad ur doing alright tonight /b/ro.
>>715188760
Jesus Christ, mate
>>715180702
>recently got a girlfriend
>she is a known hoe
>claims she is not a hoe anymore lol
>jokingly accept the offer to become boyfriend
>falling for her
>how hard will it hurt when she cheats on me?
>should I get out now?
>the universe is telling me to stay
>...?
>>715189914
Brace for Impact.
>>715188760
Well, that's life friend. It has its ups and downs. I know that you're future is going to bright and glorious, filled with a new girl that will love you with all her heart.
>>715189451
Lost some txt there sumhow.
After 4 months of feeling life was worth living for the first time, things turned stale. I started writing poetry, which was pretty dang good as I recall, and eventually started using the old *description of action* thing, albeit cringier as she was younger in body though older in mind and wanted more, though neither of us were comfortable with actual nudes, so I ended up spewing non-sexual romanticisms instead.
>>715189451
sure
>>715189720
shall i continue?
>>715189978
it only hits so hard recently because the new girl im trying to talk to is being difficult
>>715189451
Go for it buddy. Let it all out.
>>715189914
fuck her brains out, every chance, wait for it to disintegrate, remember the fun
>>715189202
Please don't do that. It wouldn't solve anything. The scars will just become reminders.
>>715190138
this guy knows
>>715190044
I can distinctly recall once typing:
*nestles between Lilys breasts*
Yeah. That bad. Although, ever since thats basically stuck in my head as my #1 fantasy. Go figure.
Without physical contact, I start to feel pain mix with my joy, literally every night I feel my stomach clench and a few times shed a tear or three because of how much I love her, but can't hold in my arms and whisper those words in her ears. The next time we chat I say: "Lily, I love you, and if this distance is too much for you I will drive my car (tiny red ford focus hatchback with 120k miles on it and a poorly pimped out engine, didn't have a muffler and on multiple occassions leaked brake fluid and antifreeze because absolute trash car that thinking back wouldn't have survived half the trip) from Ohio to Utah so you don't have to hurt for as long as you need."
She laughs because she knows about the car and realizes immediately that it wouldn't work, but I'm dedicated now and the thought never crosses my mind. I start to research plane tickets and gas/food costs. Meanwhile, she starts high school.
Leaving in all these specific details because for some reason I want someone I know to read this.
>>715190110
How so friend? What makes her a troublesome?
>>715190219
(un)fortunately from experience, we quickly became really good friends, such an awesome girl, loved her and then I failed out of school, fizzled out and a year later I still can't get over her
>>715184157
/r9gay/ is like this all day erryday
>>715189914
I'd rather suffer and try to forget than be with a hoe
>>715189259
yea i get this weird feeling, where i feel like I'm not actually seeing anything for real. like I'm sitting in my eyes seeing everything on a screen. like a strange type of constant tunnel vision.
>>715190356
I have a similar story, but mine has been gone nearly three years. The load doesn't lighten. All one can do is bear it.
>>715190132
>>715190058
As you wish good sirs
Pretyped, btw. You're welcome.
She starts high school and immediatrly our convos start becoming less frequent. I understand, I've got school too. We start video chatting more often, occassionally with the same group we met in. Lily mentions a lot of guys hit on her, and she has a hard time explaining that she's in a relationship with a guy she never met in person. I start doing dramatic readings of lame fanfictions and singing to her, which seems to be making everything better, and even befriending those other people from online that I then considered my best friends. Life is looking up.
One day she actually calls me on my cell, and says we need to talk. In our old chatroom. Moderately confused, extremely worried. I knew what was about to happen, but not what caused it, so I thought I could reveal the master road trip plan to change her mind. I get on my lappy and open the old chatango group.
"Anon, a guy at school today approached me at my locker, asked me out, and I said yes. Then he kissed me."
Not gonna lie seeing those words typed out again hit me in the tear ducts. I had sworn to save my first kiss for her, and she for me. I had actually been asked out once a couple months prior and turned the grill down, expected the same from her with absolutely no doubt of her loyalty. Her love. OUR love. She shattered everything I believed in with two sentences. I can only respond by saying that I felt betrayed beyond words and couldn't fathom why she never told me that the distance was getting to her. She simply responded by saying she didn't have as much faith in us staying together as I did and couldn't stand me wasting my life on her. I believed that ar the time, and in an utterly dumbfounded stupor I went to bed.
>>715190315
Hmm.. this is a difficult case. I'm so glad that you've found someone you can talk to and be.. 'emotional' with. However, that is a pretty far out location. You can always talk the subway!
>>715190495
distance is a bitch to express
Anyone else know any musicians like Eden or Stephen. If you don't know who they are. Its good feels music. Highly recommend it
Everything in my life is going right and I'm still horribly depressed and I don't know why.
I'll post a few pics cuz I'm bored
>>715190548
Don't speak to her for weeks. Still get on the old games because other people are there too. She comes back on one day, brings her new boytoy along, named kyle or something. At first we somehow just get along like old, platonic chums. Everyone welcomes boitoi and acts normal, myself included because now completely numb to emotion. Kyle randomly asks if I was Lilys ex because she either told him or I let something too obvious slip out. I say "yeah it's cool man, no hard feelings." But the feelings are harder than a full chub for Emma Watson. My near-numbness can't subdue the pure rage that fills me, and I go full cringe, tell him outright that if he hurts her physically or emotionally I would destroy him, utilizing some absurdly gorey descriptions. She doesn't like it, he doesn't like it, everyone hearing this mutes or jumps to their defense, because not autistic faggots like myself. She blocks me for a while, I stop playin online vidya because humiliated, but feel like I was the one being treated unfairly. I mend relationships with the others over time, Lily unblocks me long enough to apologise but we maintain radio silence. One day months later the original group of four are together, me, Lily, and two others. One of the others is another girl, who we always called Ink. Ink and lily start talking boy stuff, and Lily offhand mentions losing her virginity. Somehow, I thought this just wasn't a thing that would happen because naive and in denial. I can't handle the very concept of another man doing this, and can only percieve this as a personal attack. I called her horrible things, and told her that I hated her for breaking me and never wanted to hear from her again.
Nearly done, 2 more at most
>>715190580
>>715190548
(I didn't see you response, sorry!)
That's the thing isn't? Life gives you something beautiful, but decides to take it away when you are really attached. I'm sorry to hear this anon.
>>715190316
well she pulled the line "youre my best friend and i dont want to lose you" etc etc and asked me to still be her friend, and being the little bitch she made me into, i told her yes id be here friend
now i didnt realize it at the time because i was consistently drunk for the next three weeks, but after that she immediately snapped out of whatever apologetic farce she put on that night and went right on to toying with me
she started talking to me more and more, snap chatting me lewd pics of herself, teasing me, im talking the fucking DAY after she pulled this shit
i tried not to be too mad. i honestly tried to be her friend, i really did /b/, but she dint want to be friends she just wanted to fuck with my head. example
>she texts me
>fuck this chick, but wait shes a friend now
>think to myself "if this were any other friend id answer, no reason to ignore her"
>"if it were ny other friend id reply" so i reply
>read fucking receipts me
she dictated when we talked, shed hit me up when she felt like it to mess with my feelings some more, talk about how badly she wants a baby inside of her RIGHT FUCKING NOW or how great the parties are at her new school, and then leave me to wallow in misery for the next few days, ignoring my every text or snapchat
It went on like this until i snapped. I ignored her, i blocked her on everything, told her she was a shitty person and to never talk to me again and then blocked ehr number. and that was that
still have the texts somewhere
>>715190799
At least you got dubs. Stop being a fucking pussy Anon
>>715191011
Dubs of truth, thanks for making me feel better
>>715182694
MOOOOOOOO
>>715190908
>>715190864
One day I feel remorse while recalling the events. I get onto the old gang group chatting location, and they all happen to be on at the same time. Before I can type out a very articulate apology, I am informed that my outburst drove her to break up with her old bf, start dating a new guy who got her into drugs, and eventually she tried to kill herself. I'm already at a point where I've noticed that I don't feel anything anymore, so my reaction is... less than sympathetic. This time though, the others defend me telling her it's not my fault she did those things but still upset I don't express more emotion than being angry she would even try to do something so stupid, because still autismo mindset. I never imagined this was how the our story would play out, and finally let myself feel everything I'd bottled up. I told her that it was in turn her fault that I couldn't cry at my relatives funeral (true story), that everything that brought me joy in life felt hollow now, that I was so deprived of any semblance of human connection that I had to jack off every bloody day to feel ANYTHING.
That's another one I've never shared.
I sat at my desk, steaming with fury, reveling in how alive I felt, marinating in hatred, and on the verge of sobbing because I had nothing left in life but knowing she was happy, and that had nearly been destroyed as well. I aplogised again later, and she conceded that I wasn't to blame for her suicide attempt. We reconciled, forgave, and confirmed that this would be the end. I never again spoke to her outside of text based communication, which is an odd and almost spoopy story by itself, but that was the end of the main story. To this day, I swear to you that physical pain is extemely deadened compared to before, I don't feel sympathy like a normal person does. And I've never been able to love another human being, romantically or otherwise again.
Pic related. It's Lily.
>>715191008
I'm glad you got her out of your system. Parasites like her do bot deserve a chance. May I see these texts?.. pardon if I'm prying to much, anon.
>>715191357
>>715183826
On the right looks like the silhouette of a naked guy and girl bending over
>>715191151
>>715191445
np, thats why i offered. give me a minute to dig them up
>>715191559
and nudes
>>715191626
if she had sent me nudes i would have posted them by now. sorry anon
>>715191445
>>715191875
From when she kept looking at my snapchat stories even after I unfriended her, was drunk and wanted to make sure she was blocked
>>715191945
Last time I texted her. For reason I was in her hometown and decided to hit her up one last time
>>715192013
>>715192034
>>715191357
I'm.. speechless. I've never been in a situation where I loved a person so much, only for some mystical force take it away from my grasping hands, but I still feel like you have a chance. A chance to re-animate emotion. I may be too optimistic, I'm sorry.
>>715191559
>>715191626
>>715191737
Aye! No worries. I have Asian porn on my storage, so no need!
>>715192067
what a weak comeback from bitch, great destruction on your part
>>715191477
For some odd reason loling at Stefan just made me feel better about the whole Lily thing. Thank you sir, you are truly doing good works.
>>715192200
I could have gone more into it, but it probably would have sounded bitter and been detrimental.
she may have said more but we'll never know, like i said i blocked her number
>>715188306
OP this is some real shit right here an anon took the time to type out for you. Stop being an angsty little bitch and make some changes in your life.
>>715192376
Nah, it's cathartic
>>715192067
>>715192034
>>715192013
Fucking whore and shoot herself.
>>715192187
>>715191477
Thanks mates.
As for the reanimation of emotion, that potential futures end result is told in the aftermath to which I alluded, which although not really as much of a feels thread story is possibly relevant enough, if any desire to read it.
>>715180702
How do I get tfw no gf feeling out of my head?
I'm only 19 and I've had it for years, it interferes with my life more than it should no matter how many times I tell myself that it's not as big of a deal
>>715192690
Ha ha
Huh, just started playing Joy Division's Substance album
bring on the feels
>>715192067
lmao what a cunt. they only say those small replies when they know absolutely what they did was wrong. thats when you know you won.
>>715192461
>tfw you'll never be attractive enough for anyone to ever approach you and you're too socially inept to do it yourself
Feelsbadman
>>715192690
damn, hell of title. bet you can guess who they voted for
>>715192067
Hope you have stopped acting like a little bitch, asking for her attention.
I guess this was the first time s relationship on the "love" level failed, we've all been there, we all know how shitty it feels, but please, learn from this shit, and when this happens again, control your fucking feelings, and rise above the situation.
You seem like a good guy OP, it's her loss, not yours.
All of my baaww images are from years ago (round 2009), as shown by this reference to Myspace
>>715193186
>>715192461
the part it left out is where the girl finds a beta orbiter and fucks with him emotionally until she can find a chad who will fuck her later
>>715192842
It's fucking depressing, that for sure. There are times when I'm studying and reviewing for upcoming exams and shit, and out of fucking nowhere, the feeling of not having someone to love.. hurts. I just say don't focus on it and try to preoccupy yourself with some other shit. Partially works for me.
>>715193093
thanks anon, and i did. the sadness turned to anger. not exactly at what she did, but at what she turned me into. she made me an absolute bitch for her and it made me furious. i never ever ever do that, but this girl is my kryptonite
>>715193237
this. the comic is bullshit, people love shy girls, and if youre a chick you can always find somebdy who will fuck you
>>715193186
>>715193228
Want feels, but win? Go "Wheelchair crowd surfing" @ google. Gets me every time...
>>715193339
>>715193237
Not all of life is sad, only moments of it. That comic captures a moment of sadness, as all these images do.
>>715181983
litterally qualifies as my head
> be me
> be yesterday
> post on CL looking for cuddle buddy
> get reply today
> I ask for pic
> not comfortable sending pic, but tells me she's under 5' and 220 lbs
I don't know why I got my hopes up.
>>715193259
Yeah, kryptonite I get that shit. My first love affair, ended with me in prison.
>>715193392
Lol this is like the opposite of my situation. The girl I like is obsessed with WoW and is super into anime. I tried to play WoW but I'd rather watch paint dry.
>>715192956
Learn shit about entrepreneurship and start a business. Chicks will fuck you if you have cash.
Go to the gym, eat healthy, do difficult things that feel rewarding.
A confident person radiates no matter how "attractive" they are, and confidence is not a thing you're born with. You need to build yourself up and feel good about yourself before you go for other people. Only then will people gravitate to you.
Life is a game, my friend. It's up to you to play it :)
>>715184491
>>715193808
if I get a 0,1,2,3,4,5,6,7,8 or 9, she has to kill herself
>>715191460
The only thing that really makes me cry.
this story gets me every time, let's get some REAL FEELS going /b/ros
just about sums up this thread
>>715193254
I feel you.. currently studying for exams. It'll hit harder since winter break is coming up though, especially since I don't have much hobbies. What I'd give to smoke a blunt and have someone to cuddle with on christmas morning.
I grew up in a disaster, survived so many suicide attempts and hospitalizations. Loner stuck in my mind. Insomnia, depression, sleep paralysis, night terrors.
Left family at 17, never had any close relationships. Never achieved much, complacent.
years later meet a guy, somehow he's into more than just a fwb relationship. Only ever had the fwbs because I haven't loved anyone or wanted to be. Sex and friendship is ideal.
He gets clingy, attached. Never had a serious gf, wants me to be his. I evaluate it. Sure, we have some great symbiotic chemistry. He shows me /b/, and I go on it everyday now....I save memes for him while he works....
I read a lot of these feels threads, see how so many sad saps want a loving gf. Want what I am to my bf.
I care for him, am loyal, we have perfect similarities on our personalities, outlook, lifestyle, age....
He holds me in bed so often and says it is the best feeling ever.
He has me as his homemaking wifey, I cook and clean. He works and games.
I lay with him till he snores, than get up to browse online. Insomnia. I am still depressed, I am still a souless mass. I don't not love him, but I dont know if I do...
how could I mean so much to a guy? why is having a gf such a huge part of your existence???
We're coming up on the 10-year anniversary of the beginning of one of the greatest series of threads in /b/ history. It is feels material, and definitely worth the read
https://encyclopediadramatica.se/Nurse-kun
does it ever
>>715193276
My girlfriend left me during my first deployment 6 months in. I remember feeling the same way, I still do. I don't know what to do without her. I can't process things the same way. I used to be able to tell her everything about the Army but I can't anymore and I feel empty. I still find myself waiting, checking my phone every day just hoping she'll say hello to me or ask me how I was doing again because some days I just want to open my wrists and stop my mind from constantly racing.
why live at all
>>715193604
Is there a way to meet a girl for this? Doesn't sound easy
>>715180702
I have no idea why I feel like shit right now, but I do.
I hate not being able to fix a problem, because I don't know what the problem is.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Xg8Ckamh8Gw
>>715187997
I cant even imagine losing either of my brothers. The thought scares me.
>>715191227
And they died for fucking nothing, too. Vietnam is major feels
>>715193604
CL is whales, fags, or hookers.
>>715183826
Poor Gondola:(
>>715194836
I tried YikYak, but I had more luck looking for a quick fuck.
People don't go looking for strangers for emotional tampons, they talk to people who "get them."
>>715193779
Poor Matsubayashi...
Sadly i laughed at this instead of getting feels.
just wish i could tell this chick Thank You for looking at me like she did. its a feeling i didnt know i missed so much... she inspired me to lose a ton of weight cause i just wanted that feeling of being desired again....
i had to fuck it up with her but i know i can make things right some how... perhaps i'll get my chance soon. and maybe she'll be impressed by my dropping 40 pounds. one can hope.
I'm so sorry little one.. I've hurt so many people on purpose but i never meant to hurt you like that.
>>715194714
To struggle is to live
>>715194985
>>715191460
This just got me hard. I found out today that the cat my family had since I was 13 (30 now) has a huge tumor and he's going in for surgery on Thursday. If it's benign and he gets through the surgery he'll be fine for a while but if it's not they'll have to put him down. Even though he was technically a family pet he always seemed to prefer me. During meals he'd always hang out by me and I'd slip him a little of whatever we were having. In high school when I got home from baseball practice I'd usually take a nap on the couch for a while and he'd curl up on my stomach and nap with me every time. If I left my bedroom door open at night he'd come in and sleep in my bed. Just little stuff like that.
He's the last childhood pet I had left. The worst part is that I live several hundred miles away now, so I couldn't even go see him one last time in case it is cancer or something happens during the surgery...
>>715195453
Thanks, but that didn't answer the question.
This. The final conclusion to my story with the love of my life, its sad. You know. I see ops pic and i just understand. I get it. I feel, i almost never feel anything anymore. Except love. For her and the other her. Yet both are nearly forbidden. One truly is. Im thinking about ending it. But id rather not. I don't want to live anymore. But im afraid to die. What if, after life it is nothing. Just black. Forever. It is strange to think about. Your brain rejects the thought, yet it so deeply accepts that it does not want to be alive. I don't understand much about this world. It is massive and insane. But what we can all know is that others are here. Others ride this With us. And /b/ once you find that other... Don't ever give them up, you don't get another.
The messages are backwards, read them bottom to top
>>715188297
I don't get it. Who's the parent in this?
>>715194127
WELCOME TO THE RICE FIELDS MOTHER FUCKER!
>>715193604
I've done this. Actually got a girl who was 5'2" 120lbs. She was suffering with depression, anxiety, derealization and other shit, and was almost broke and wanted someone to spend her days with, cuddling or whatever. She was down until I told her I was Mexican.
>>715191357
Hate to break it to you dude but you sound like a little bitch, for someone who cant experience feelings """like a normal person""" you really feel the need to talk about it in great detail
Does anyone honestly think they are the only ones who have ever experienced heartbreak? It's a shitty punk ass stooley bitch feeling but it will make you stronger and make you realize no woman (or man) is worth such idolization.
You're brain is wired to a) think more positively of the past and b) put greater emphasis on the experience of loss, which is why you feel so dead inside after your first (at least I hope this) break-up
>>715194205
The fuck is wrong with that stump?
>>715195199
Why don't they? I do. Why can't more people be like me?
I used to cuddle with my exes but they don't stay single forever. One of them is a close friend. She's pregnant. Her boyfriend was murdered. I want to ask her to cuddle again (haven't in a long time). But it's a very fucked up situation. My exes seem to all be having kids. I might need to date so I can break up. My exes all love me.
>>715193049
This one hurts
>>715184491
This is why I scroll
>>715190863
This one hurt though:(
This proves animals can feel emotional pain. I'm not a peta faggot, but ffs man. The feels is reals.
>>715190548
you're boring and fucking pathetic. generic unrequited love and you feel fucking special, christ.
>>715195617
I posted a pic. Was hoping it would help. I didn't want to be recognized so I dressed different than I normally do, and puton some glasses. Then drew on my face for good measure.
>>715193821
What about when shit like this happens
>be britfag
>work in a pub
>one of my main jobs is sorting all the beer barrels downstairs
>shit's heavy mang
>fast forward a year , I've gotten pretty stronk
>gain a wee bit of confidence off this
>about a week ago a few qts are standing at the
>fuck it
>as I walk to serve them THEY LITERALLY SEE ME AND TURN AROUND
>a bit perplexed I just ask 'are you girls waiting blabla'
>'no we're fine thanks'
>walk back the middle of the
>coworker goes to where they're standing to put away glasses
>'You ladies waiting?'
>'Yes I'll have blabla'
You get the picture , all that confidence fucking gone
>>715181983
This is legit so sad :(
>>715195803
There you go, you just proved my point.
They probably wouldn't cuddle up to some random asshole they met on the Internet.
But they would with someone they have a history with, someone they can talk to, someone who knows what they're going through.
>>715191084
knowing how to spell is important
>>715196194
I don't think I proved your point at all. Your point seems to be that I'm the only person out there looking for someone to cuddle with? At least Hitler cared about Germany, or something.
>>715195491
>this just got me hard
>just got me hard
>got me hard
I know what you mean but, wat.
Tell me about it.
>family cat
>19 years old
>going blind
>could hardly move, couldn't even fully retract claws
>gone feral, wouldn't come inside or let us pet her anymore
>went into meowing fits for no fucking reason (heard it's like a cat dementia or something)
>just put a tarp over a lawn chair with a pillow underneath for her den and lay food out every day
>cat should've died years ago
>last week she finally disappears
>not under tarp or anywhere in yard
>figure she's wandered off to find a quiet place to die peacefully
>Sunday
>it was really windy the night before
>step outside
>half eaten family cat right by the door
Wind probably blew her corpse down off the roof or out of a tree or something. I gracefully put her remains in a trashbag and threw her in the trash
>>715196212
It was done deliberately.
Alright so for starters idk know if I am a pedo sick duck or not. I fap to shota almost exclusively, and every time I see a kid, I feel confused to whether I am attracted or not. Along with that I my sense of sexual orientation is all fucked up . Finally I am a not good at much of anything so my career opportunities are basically near naught
>>715190799
I get that feeling.
It's a survival mechanism.
It keeps you on your toes so you don't get complacent and you don't get blind-sided by a challenge you simply weren't prepared for.
>>715195456
Hero of the Great Patriotic War
>>715196370
Oh wow, that really was an awful word choice on my part. Eh, at least pointing it out made me get a laugh out of this, so thanks for that I guess.
>>715196361
No, my point wasn't that nobody wants to cuddle, it's just that no one wants to cuddle with strangers.
They want to cuddle with lovers.
>>715183631
Thanks anon - was feeling down but realized I have all those things (except the last three). Maybe life isn't so bad after all.
>>715196565
I want to cuddle with a stranger. Why am I unique?
>>715191428
I read this. Thank you anon. I needed to feel again.
>>715196659
How many strangers have you actually cuddled with?
>>715195680
Due to my poor wording you would be correct. Upon rereading I noticed that on several instances through my story I slip into a writing style intended to sound like a present-tense first-person perspective, emphasising the intensity of the moment, that instead came off as a description of my current status. My emotional capacity is nearly back to its original strength, at present. And you are correct again in your belief that I am stronger, and since those events transpired I've lived a more appreciative and peacful life than I dreamed I ever would. And again, you are correct that it was my first breakup. Props.
Nice thread, boys.
Not quite in the same theme, but I thought some of you might like these
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=v8ugaZD6voU
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4M0hoD4DS0k
>>715191008
Feels, man
Been there before
>>715195553
Okay, find whareverse makes those moments in between the difficult ones the best they can be. Whether you like to admit it we are animal we live to survive, happiness is a secondary product
>>715196724
Depends on how you define stranger. I've cuddled with several women the day I met them
>>715194706
>left me during my first deployment 6 months in
This is what makes me anxious; I want someone to love, but the statistics of being left mid deployment make me not want to deal with the drama.
>>715196989
Go get a smoothie
>>715182694
fuck off newfag.
>>715196989
Take my knife and throw it, knife style.
>>715197024
Well then, I guess you're the exception.
Most people aren't like that, they usually like to keep an emotional distance at first.
My mother died this year, and right now, as I sit here burdened by the heaviness of my anxieties and my self doubts and my want for love, and acceptance, I can't help but want to beg for my mom to just give me some sort of advice. I'll never be able to hear her voice again. I'll never have her guidance again. My older brother has disowned me and wants nothing to do with me ever again. And soon my father will pass. And soon I'll be out in this cold world all alone. By myself.
>>715186439
>Wall of text.
>none of it green.
Nigga no one is gonna read that.
>>715197225
It's common to fuck right away, is cuddling that different?
danish mindfullness dude, are you there?
>>715197099
correct response
>>715197271
Don't worry anon, you'll see her again real soon :)
>>715197347
It's really different, actually.
Fucking is just fucking, a way to get off.
It only becomes something more when you have feelings for your partner.
Cuddling necessitates those feelings to be there in the first place, otherwise it's just some extra body heat in bed with you.
>>715196931
FUCK
>>715184491
Toppest kek to you, anon
>>715197571
Well I don't know. I want to cuddle with my friend but making a move seems like a bad idea. Disrespectful to her dead boyfriend. I need something though.
Hey guys, have a picture of this cute cat
>>715197827
Whoops, forgot the cat sorry.
>>715183826
So much
I want to post a webm but mook reduced maximum size to 2MB
what do
>>715197986
link it on /gif/
or google drive
>>715197986
do a barrel roll
>>715190863
lmao at them chinese people taking pics for their instagram to show off dinner
>>715197747
You say you need something, but you made it this far.
At least that's what I tell myself...
liek dis if u cri evertiem
>>715198304
What shitposting part of your plan?
>>715188758
fucking 10/10 movies, the soundtrack is incredible
>>715184157
But i do. I have. I just... Gave her up.
>>715198166
I made it this far on false hope. My ex stopped contacting me. She would do this when she was dating. But she'd always return. It might be weeks, months, years, but it always happened.
One day I see on her sister's snapchat that she's pregnant. I realize that it's over. She was pregnant and engaged. There isn't going to be a return this time. I spend a few hours alternating between crying and sleeping. Eventually I drag myself out of bed. I go out to play Pokemon Go, which I downloaded the night before. I met a girl. We played together until 2am. Then again the next day. And we kept playing every day. She was beautiful. She loved my jokes. She told me that I was the funniest person she ever met. Eventually I got the nerve to ask her out. She rejected me. Just wants to be friends. She goes back to playing WoW instead of pokemon. It's much too cold to play anyway.
I had hope of my ex returning. Then I had this new girl. Now I have nothing.
We're literally just specs of consciousness on a grain of sand floating through an endless expanse of nothing
I relate to this one a lot...
>>715198899
I know that feeling.
I usually just bury myself in my work, give myself so many strenuous and attention-grabbing/mind-filling tasks that I forget that I had that going on. Then in a few weeks I come out the other end not really knowing who the hell I am and feel like I have a clean slate.
The girl who I still believe is my soulmate and thought I was one day going to marry, just got engaged to some alt right cuck. I don't know if he brainwashed her or if she lost her mind.
Do you ever think about how much of your life you've spend by yourself? I've been lonely my whole life but I've never grown accustomed to it. it never got easy
>>715199362
You're not meant to grow accustomed to isolation. If humans had no social instinct, society would never have developed.
Alright I'm getting bored now.
Night you bunch of fags
>>715199362
Same. Being a normie must be great. You can probably text 20 people and they'll all be there for you.
>>715199481
if society hadnt been developed then we wouldnt have expectations to meet in the publics eyes and 90% of us here now wouldnt be depressed fucks with no friends...
>>715184730
the ride never ends
>>715182716
>was deeply in love with a gorgeous girl, struggling through life hardly making any money. Went back to college and studied all the time, got a good job and started to have fights with gf.
>went from being very mellow and chill to business ish. Came down hard on gf about stupid bs. She had some bad anxiety attacks and ended up in a mental institution for a week or so. She met an ex con guy in there that kept her on drugs and fucked her up really bad. She almost died of overdosing. By then broken up with her. 6 months go by and we both still want to be together.
>she completely dissappears, next I hear from her family she accidentally got pregnant and is having a kid. Still haven't heard from her, We both were pretty destroyed by what happened.
>>715199362
I know.
I usually let my anger get me through the tough parts.
It's a lot more useful than just curling up and crying, though not nearly as cathartic.
The thought of suicide does enter my mind from time to time... well everyday, really.
I probably will do it eventually, but if I do it right now there's going to be too much fallout
So I'm waiting for an opportune moment.
Until then, I'll let my survival instinct take over and do the driving for me.
>>715199481
True. shit like this makes me feel like evolution's failure, like I shouldn't be alive at all. and realistically speaking I shouldn't be, I'm pretty much just a waste of space. Society has no need for people like me
>>715184730
Fake it till you make it. Works sometimes until you realize you're doing it
>>715200164
You know, feelings of people being better off without you are the most accurate signs of an oncoming suicide.
If you wish to avoid that or have some family members that would be devastated if you did take your own life, I'd suggest you get some professional life. Make sure they don't know, or else they will make a big deal out of it and either way that doesn't help you.
I know life doesn't seem like it's worth living, and frankly, I agree, but there are certain obligations you have to fulfill, instincts that must be obeyed.
https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=f94ST14pWXE
I've pretended to be a normal, confident human being for the past year. It has given me some results. I don't know how much longer I can keep at it though.
>Friend I like whos in a relationship was flirting with one of my close friends at party
>even if she was single and she actually agreed to a date I would still know she'd rather be with my friend
>mfw I'm gonna be single on christmas yet again
Not even a kissless virgin, I'm 22 and have had 5-6 relationships. But fuck recently its like theres no options. If there's plenty of fish in the sea then I must be in a fish bowl or something.
I even have a decent amount going for me, I make decent money for my age (even getting a new job thats gonna double my salary), I'm /fit/, decently attractive, have good friends, have a decent car, a motorcycle, etc.
But holy fuck I've been in a pit of depression over the last few months seeing everyone happy in relationships and I'm going home to an empty bed every night. Honestly don't know what to do.
>>715200637
Nah I'm never going to kill myself. I've wanted to for about 6 years but I'm too big of a pussy to do it. Instead I'll live out this hell for the remaining 50 or so years of my life, like some sort of punishment for a crime I never committed. some kind of sick joke
>>715201127
That's my plan.
If I had it within me, I would kill myself.
But my body forced me to survive fucking bowel cancer.
I don't think it's not going to let me off that easy.
>>715201402
Meant: I don't think it's going to let me off that easy.
>>715180702
The thing is i can't feel anymore
I just got done reading some stories in this thread and it made me feel like messaging a girl I like and telling her that I like her but do you ever get that feeling where you dont know if you actually like the person and that it could just be you being desperate as always?
>>715202212
forgot to put in that she likes me too I'm such a retard sometimes..
>>715198721
I cri everytim
Ever feel like you're just an observer to your own life?
