Feels thread
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Feels thread
>you will never suck on ivankas tits
https://youtu.be/N51iEI6w03w
>>714099300
fuck off, faggot
ffs
>>714099146
why are your reason of being sad?
>>714099146
just remeber '' A Night In Shining Armor Is A Man That Has Never Had His Metal Tested''
<3
>>714099672
He's on /b/.
He's probably very lonely.
Just like me.
>>714099984
we all are lonely...
>>714099984
OP here and you're right
>>714099469
FeelsBadMan :gun:
>>714100184
I don't think ever makes me feel better or worse than this one quote
>>714100677
it makes me relize that im 1 in 7.5 billion,, and im worthless and no one needs me for anything, this quot kinda makes me relize that...
Not too "Feelsy"
I girl I am into, and I have agreed to try and do something together over break.
Well I guess its more of a soft yes than anything else?
She said "We can always give it a shot!"
But I am so anxious. Probably would be best to put it in back of my head until then.
i do this now and again... Makes the hole in my chest go deeper...
bump
Story?
No idea if you will read it but i just want to write it somewhere.
>Iam alone for about 2 years.
>I never had a true friend.
>When i had a friend he just stopped talking to me/betrayed me.
>I always act to people very nicely because it makes me feel that they will love me for the things i do for them.
>Always ends up the same way.
>I don't know what is wrong with me.
>TFW iam always kind.
>TFW no one can see how sad iam because they would just laugh.
>TFW people use you and throw you away.
>TFW you play games and pretend that you have friend and a girlfriend that loves you.(GMOD)
>TFW even no internet friends.
>TFW 4 friends on steam and no one ever writes hello.
But you still have to smile in public.
whenever i feel sad i remember that i kissed the most beautiful girl in the world once
>>714102133
who was she to you?
the only thing that bring me joy is chess, i feel like shit all week until i get to go to my local chess club on Saturday and ply for like 8 hours. other than that i just think about killing myself.
>>714102416
>>714102604
Thanks anons.
>>714102655
>>714102829
''Hugs You Both''
>>714102065
Add me on Steam man and we'll play gmod together sometime. I'm undanny
>im so pathetic i cant even go there and say "hi" to her
Im gonna die alone.
>>714102065
Same here anon
>>714102133
The "once" hit me hard
>>714102999
Nice trips what is your name? (URL)
>>714102065
Dude link your steam and I'll add you
I feel like im growing more and more apathetic lately.
Nothing affects me anymore. I dont get sad or happy or scared. Im just waiting to die.
>>714102065
ill be your friend bro. whats your steam
>>714103432
Why do you think like that?
Why do you guys always do this when I'm drinking?
Because I'm always drinking, that's why >.<
>>714102065
OP here, proud of myself for creating a new friendship
>>714103339
http://steamcommunity.com/profiles/76561198032975786/
I am so apathetic and dead inside that everything feels like a uniform grey. The people, the places, everyone and everything just feels 'cold'. I just don't care about anything any more. The worst part is it doesn't even make me feel sad in the conventional sense, just this form of ever present melancholy and I have no idea what to do about it, I don't even know if I want to do anything about it. I believe I am truly dead inside.
Money is tight. Can't find good job. Work at a shitty retail place. I can't remember the last time I had fun. My computer is shit so it can barely run games. I would be okay with that if it wasn't the fact I have no friends. No one to have the good times with. Fucking sucks man. Everyday is the same thing. Only thing that breaks my damn sadness is coming here for the occasional kek, but in the end I'm still empty inside. Maybe the thing that most defines my life right now is I haven't had pizza in about 4 months lel
>>714103556
>>714103351
http://steamcommunity.com/id/258741239/
>>714103946
Holla for depression
>I hope everyday I die in my sleep
>>714099300
kill yourself
slowly
faggot
>>714103946
Dude i know this feel, its everyday life for me
>>714103946
>>714104148
So this is depression? Because i feel the same way.
The weirdest part is that i cant even imagine how life must be without it.
And i dont even know why im like this.
>>714104444
What a waste of quads.
You should kill yourself, anon.
>>714099872
Damn son
>Grow up in messed up home.
>Come out ok, at least better than sibs.
>Marry college girlfriend.
>Fast forward a few years.
>Wife has mental health issues.
>Kids depend on me almost exclusively.
Tfw I can't bring myself to leave wife.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UjZsXhv6pm8
this song makes me really sad for some reason. I know some people may not like it but ill leave it here just in case.
>>714104444
>>714104148
The worst of it is that I see no reason for why I feel like this, I've never been short of friends, had problems maintaining relationships or really wanted for anything. Hell, I haven't even had to worry about money for the last 5 years.
It's making me drift away from everything I have and I just feel indifferent. Like everything is covered in a thick fog, like I'm spending my time staring into the void.
>op is a faggot
She texts him instead of me. I do everything I can for her, but still she texts him. I get so fucking jealous when I see him pop-up on screenshots even though we aren't a thing and we won't be. What do
>>714104998
Same man. Life is good, too blessed to be stresses and all that. I'm still just an empty husk of a man walking though.
I just wish i had normal social skills. Just enough to make a friend and maybe get a date every once in a while.
I know this isn't /r but does anyone have that picture were the kid goes through his day being told he isn't good enough, and he gets home turns on his game cube and it tells him good job, you're great? I would greatly appreciate it.
>>714105168
Move on, she's more than likely shallow and will love herself more than she loves you. Soul mates are a lie, and you could fuck a thousand woman, feel nothing, and then die.
>>714104545
Perhaps, I'm not sure. I don't feel like I'm suffering or as sad as the depressed seem, more like I'm living in a boring, waking dream. Given the chance to go back to 'normal' I can't be sure I'd take it. This is who I am now and I don't care.
>>714104579
Repeating digits are worthless, anon :^)
>>714105449
I don't have the pic, but when my xbox starts up and says "hello, anon" I always say hello back. It's nice to hear someone say hi to me.
The worst part about being alone is knowing that a little over a month ago, I was in love.
I would've given her anything and she left me.
First person I ever thought, "This is gonna be the girl I marry."
And now she's gone, most likely forever, to live her life with someone else.
>>714105478
I moved on a few times already, she showes me some affection and it's the same shit again. He has a gf already but I feel some sort of pain or something when she's not replying
>>714099146
>I understand what life is
>we live and die
>I don't feel like I deserve to take time from others lives
>I don't talk to anyone so I don't ruin their story
>>714105652
Oh shit there's some dust in my eye. I hope you have a good night tonight anon.
>>714106038
Thanks man, I hope you have a good night too
>>714105168
Stop obsessing and move on. You're being treated like a chump.
i'm in my first year at uni and completely hate it. feel so isolated and barely have energy to leave my bed, just feel nothing really anymore.
if i was a cat and someone offered me to become a human i would say nah mate im good fuck that being a human shit, unfortunately im not a cat, dont even think im a human any more
>>714106772
What are you studying?
>>714105841
what is life?
>>714106884
Business management, its fairly shit but at least ill be able to get a semi decent job out of it. you a student?
>>714099469
This hurts so much
I know this one sad song, and the happy part is what hurts the most because he sings about young love
>"When summer comes, the river swims at midnight, shiver cold
Touch the bottom, you and I, with muddy toes"
>>714107033
Finance and investment first year. London. I know that feel.
>>714107000
You live and die, the rest is up to you.
Failing second year of college. All money I try to save up I spend on food/smokes. Literally do nothing but sulk and play vidya all day. I've come to terms with the fact that I hate myself and that noone will ever love me. Wouldn't have a problem killing myself if it wouldn't have an effect on family and friends. The last I want to do is to leave another mess for people to clean after me before I go.
How's your life, /b/ ?
>>714099300
damn
>>714099146
I have a law uni exam tomorrow and I haven't studied at all for it. I honestly have no passion for anything and don't care where I end up in the future
>>714107298
Pretty much the same but cut out the part about cigs and vidya, instead I keep my flesh prison to be in best shape till I die
>>714107298
holy shit you described me perfectly except im not in college because i got expelled from 3 different schools ( for drugs, death threats and racism )
>>714107245
>>714107298
>>714107520
Man uni is seems to be a source of some serious bad feels
>>714107904
Tell me about it .First year psychology here. No friends. No money. No family. Dont have money to play vidyas so i cant even use that for escapism. I became so fucking dead inside i dont even care anymore. Im just moving forward hoping one day something will either make me happy or kill me
>>714099535
Jesus is crazy.
He steal the H.
>>714103139
i know what you mean. i thought i had accepted it a year ago or so but guess what? here i am again, crying since i'll live alone. we all die alone yeah. but i dont think i can make it through a whole life alone
>>714107904
I have clinical depression and it's fucking ruining me. I'm about to walk into an exam blind. I mean, my whole life I wanted to be a lawyer and now that the oppertunity to do it I can't bring myself to give a shit and think I'm better off dead daily.
>>714107904
Never pursue your dreams as a career, it will suck all of the enjoyment from it and leave you feeling resentful. They all lied, your parents, school teachers, older family members. I've lost all direction.
anyone else really bothered by the fact that life has no purpose and that everything you do is just an exercise to negotiate the bullshit demands of a goddamn evolutionary tool for shitting out a few more writhing masses of flesh?
>>714105168
stop doing for her. start doing for you. you can't force someone to love you, and as much as that hurts, continuing the lie will hurt even more.
>>714108385
Yes. I hate it.
>>714099146
>>714099300
fuk, also checked.
>>714099469
At the same time though it's not real. "Teenage love" is just a caricature of the love stories that we constantly feed ourselves.
>>714108488
Unfortunately, I'm the type of person you can screw over 100 times and I'll still be there for you. Fucking hate myself even more for that trait though
>>714109003
no good memory of past
nothing good recently
nothing good now
nothing to look forward to
>>714109010
Same.Because you have a beatifull hearth anon.
>>714103946
I can relate to everything, I'm not even sad anymore I just don't find purpose in life.
>>714109160
Make that future! Try to make plans.
>>714109359
amnesia
>>714109412
fuck
Just dumping my feels here nothing special but i gotta vent
Have friends who are friends with me because of the fake persona i put on daily, i have no connection to my father and i dont wanna talk to my mother because she works 2 jobs and is already busting her ass off for our family
My older brother is studying psychology and i dont wanna ruin our relationship with depressing shit
Even though i can talk to girls ive never had a gf
Had 2 chances at it both times i missed them, even though im young i feel like im gonna die alone
Lost the will to study or become anyone in the future
At times i get so pissed at myself or sad that i want to end it, have to hold myself down and punch myself/something before doing anything worse
Im considering going to a doctor but i feel like hes just gonna make it worse
Got invited to a club for a friends birthday, never been to a club any tips on how the fuck im supposed to behave? Except getting shitfaced on free drugs/drinks
>>714109677
good dubs man
>>714102133
same, anon. although it makes me more sad than happy
>>714099574
Underrated post
>>714109883
at least i can do something right
>>714109999
YES. I BELIEVE IN YOU
FIRST TIME BEING EXCITED ABOUT ANYTHING FOR ME IN A MONTH
THANK YOU ANON
>>714109999
Quads checked
>>714110087
i genuinely feel good about myself
Considering unironically praising kek now
Maybe something will become of me who knows
>>714110204
welp you just wasted your rng powers so dont bother playing the lotto
nobody else in the world exists beyond me.
prove me wrong
protip: in desperately lonely and ill forever see everyone else as a meaningless inhuman echo
>>714109351
Yeah. I sometimes think I should try to find or invent some purpose for myself but I know it'd all just be a lie.
At one point I started reading a lot of different philosophical literature to try and find some answers. It hasn't helped. A relationship didn't help, I seemed to cold and distant. Religion is a lie but perhaps I should just do what some of the old sages did and try to help other people as best as I can. Not because I care about them or get any gratification from it, but because I'd be indifferent and it seems like the most noble thing to do with such a curse.
Been here a lot guys. There's one thing that makes us truly fulfilled in life:
Progress. That's it. You know those things you should be doing, but aren't? The things you're scared to do? The things that make you feel insecure and regretful? THAT is what you need to do. It's not what we accomplish that makes us fulfilled, it's whether we're making progress or not. That means you can start feeling better right now.
Hope that helps some of you. Procrastination is just one negative effect of our crazy minds, but it's one of the most important things to conquer.
>>714106772
iktf anon. first year was the worst for me. shit went bad with this girl i was seeing and i just ended up spending the whole year locked in my room (no roommate). started to go insane, tried to hang myself but stopped as i was losing consciousness. i'm in third year now and my life has turned around for the better. still tfwnogf tho, but its a manageable feel. hang in there /b/ro
>be me
>tired as fuck
>feel the need to shit and my intestines rotting away
>sit on toilet
>nothing comes out
>i feel so empty
>bend dick back over anus
>piss
>pretend i had diarrhea
>piss on face
>pretend it's tears
>go to sleep
>>714110432
We are all one consciousness. Your sense of "self" is an illusion.
"All matter is merely energy condensed to a slow vibration, that we are all one consciousness experiencing itself subjectively, there is no such thing as death, life is only a dream, and we are the imagination of ourselves." - Bill Hicks
>>714110567
As the apathetic guy who's been posting depressed pepe's, let me assure you that's bullshit. Might work for some but once you get to somewhere like me when you're comfortable and want for very little, unless you just desire hedonism, material possessions or derive some pleasure from surpassing others, it just feels like progress for progress' sake. Keep chasing your tail, running on your little treadmill if it makes you happy but you lack understanding of what some of us feel.
When even your goals are unclear to you, true progress becomes impossible.
The only thing that fulfils me anymore is doing drugs and drinking, each week is the same waiting for the weekend so i can numb myself.
>>714111281
Then you need a life purpose. If you haven't found your life purpose yet, keep looking.
Contributing
>>714109999
you are blessed by Kek himself
move onward in life with head held high, for you are destined for great things, be it the will of Almighty Kek, Lord of the Memes
Lonely, broke, contemplating suicide like usual.
>>714111491
>Then you need a life purpose
It is possible for a man to spend his entire life searching for purpose only to fail and die unfulfilled. If you consider that in a more meta way, that the purpose of such a life is to fail to find a purpose in the traditional sense then you have to admit that no matter what, some are doomed to a miserable, tragic existence.
don't die
>>714111874
hanging is the least painfull if you don't own a gun.
I tried it once, lost consicuencness but stood up unconscious. Don't ask me how.
I passed out within a few seconds. Didn't hurt more than a papercut.
http://lostallhope.com/suicide-methods/hanging/short-drop/simple-suspension
>>714112203
The truth is that life is an illusion and a game anyway, but that doesn't mean you don't play the game and enjoy life to its fullest. Most people let their mind control them and force them into self-limiting beliefs and habits.
This isn't for everyone, and I think most of us want to live a good life. The problem is that you can't live each moment to the fullest if you're regretting the past and worrying about the future, though. Once you embrace the present moment for what it is, a great deal of your suffering will fade away.
>>714103946
You'll get over it.
>>714110777
/10
>>714112669
I have 503 days to figure out how to kill myself or make my life better. Which ever comes first.
>>714099300
fuck yiou
>>714099535
goddammit, just decided I shouldn't grow out my hair as well
The one girl I have any passion for doesn't care about me in that way at all. She barely talks to me unless when she wants something or needs someone to talk to, and she's into an absolute cunt who she knows treats her like shit. I'm always there for her and want to be with her so badly that I can literally imagine her and I getting married. She'll never have feelings for me though. I'm not close with any other girls, and I don't talk to anyone else. I've tried to put myself out there and it never works, I'm pathetic. If I end up never being with this girl, then I'll probably just kill myself. She's the only reason that I'm still alive; because at least I can look forward to her smile to talking to her, even if it's just for a little bit. I know I'm being used and treated like shit, but I'm so stuck on her and I don't know what to do.
My wife and unborn child died by a drunk driver 3 years ago. I still havent gotten over it and contemplate suicide everyday. Maybe one day I'll finally go through with it
>>714099469
well i had this and it was truly awesome, but it hurts like shit at the end, i think more than when you get older.
>>714112675
That's exactly the point. I don't feel any objective suffering like most of the guys on here who have a pretty good reason to be depressed. I agree while giving yourself purpose if you can find one will help in their situation.
I seem to be in the position somewhere between, I have played the game, enjoyed it greatly over the years but I no longer get any enjoyment from things I once did. I regret nothing, I have nothing to worry about or be sad about. I just feel indifferent towards every one and everything. Maybe it will pass, maybe it won't but at this point I don't really care either way.
I come here to cry and I always feel like I have this well of sadness but it never seems to empty, I hate how fucking stupid it sounds and edgy even but, godamn I just want to cry and fucking feel both extremes of emotions again just to get it out instead of having it fester like it is
>>714109677
don't dance if you can't dance, just drink.
Looks weird when you do random reload animations from games.
>>714099872
The word is mettle, not metal.
>>714112930
go on.
>Be me, age 0, still a sperm
>Only great achievement, I've reached the egg
>not alone tho, got a twinbrother
>grow up with a very violent dad and a mom who didnt work
>not much money equals shitty dinner
>Had to move every 2 years, so no friends either
>Parents fighting atleast once every 6 months
>Mom cheats on dad, dad cheats on mom and so on
>Be sad
>Be 12
>Finally move into a house instead of a flat
>Finally have my own room
>(be able to fap)
>Get rejected by first crush age 13
>sad again,
>Parents fighting again, resulting in a divorce
>I move with my dad, while my siblings stay with mom
>Live in shitty flat in a city where I dont know anyone
>Cant find friends, be alone
>Discover fanfictions, atleast I have something to read
>Pulling an allnighter 5 times a week for one year
>no sleep
>Be sad and cry yourself to sleep, because you think that its all your fault and nobody loves you
>which is true
>Start getting into edgier corners of the internet
>Getting more and more sad, dont know if life is even worth it
>I move to my mom again
>Dad is alone now, I feel like its my fault again
>Get a gf at age 16
>Find out she is cutting
>Eventually break up with her 2 months later because you found out that you never really loved her
>Start cutting, transforming into Edgy McEmoFace
>1.5 years later
>Nobody found out yet
>I dont think that there is a purpose i living, I feel like killing myself atleast 3 times a week
>Transforming into Emo EdgeCut
>Why am I still alive, who am I still living for, why cant I just kill myself, whats keeping me here.
>Finalform: Sad EmoCutting Suicidal Edgemegatron
what am i doing with my life, why do i even post this
>>714113962
Your barely 18 dude you still got some stuff ahead
>>714113866
It's the amount of time until the eve of my 30th birthday. I figure that I'd rather die on my own terms than spend a long and unhappy life by myself, which is likely as I've been lonely for so long and my family lives a long time. If my great grandfather can be an alcoholic chain smoker since he was twelve and still live into his 70s then chances are I'll be alive for longer than that.
>>714109677
Clubbing is literally getting drunk and dancing, if you can't dance, drink until you can.
>>714112203
>>714111281
>>714110567
I agree with the progress thing. Being a pseudo-arnarcho-nihilist won't do you any good.
Yes people are full of shit, yes you might die alone like a piece of shit, but so what ?
Is it so hard to enjoy the little things you can get from life ? Your brain can be up and down sometimes and you don't want to do shit but you'll never regret to make a move on anything.
People when they get old globally regret one thing : not having done things when they could.
Stop to complain about life when you're healthy and in your 20s and move your fucking ass to get the life you want instead of complaining.
Want the pussy ? Workout, change your style.
Want the money ? Work, be strategic on your career choices.
Yes, it is that simple, and nobody will help you get any of those.
>>714102065
very similar situation here as well.
>Lived with only my mom cus parents divorced when i was 3
>she died when i was 16
>had the place all for myself
>found friends
>few of them i could call real friends, but i had them.
>school ends, i join uni in another city
>stop talking with my friends
>drop out of uni in 1 year
>stop talking with brother/sister
>find a job
>everyone likes me because i'm helpful and kind
>don't care for any of them though
Here's what really hit me a few days ago
>Tell this one woman from work my life story
>"did you cry when your mom died"
>"no"
>"really?"
>"yea.."
>"do you even love anyone?"
>jokingly answered "no, not even myself"
>probably wasn't joking
>haven't cried in 4 years
>had 2 gfs, felt like a burden to have them, dumped both.
Life is shit, gaming has become shit as well, my only passion is slowly dying.
>>714102358
My happiness
>>714099300
Faggot.
>>714113640
thanks will do
Although my friends expect me to go dance and pick up a chick, neither which ive done in my life but oh well, hopefully ill be wasted before it reaches that point
Oh boy
>>714115179
:^)
I try to view myself as the ideal, good normie, but it doesn't always help. I'm really smart and considerate and I understand things and people but no matter what I do I always feel like traits of my father and mother linger in me. My father and his uncontrollable anger. My mother and her addictive, helpless, junkie behaviors. And although most of the time I look up and I see myself above them, sometimes it just engulfs me and everything feels blurry and right now it's pretty blurry. How do I feel more like me and less like them?
how we doin tonight anons?
>>714114846
>my only passion is slowly dying.
Look, we have the same hobbies.
I'm very good at it. Alcoholism and cigarettes surely will do the trick. I've had several delirium tremens so far. Shit was dope.
Just caught my gf sexting other guys
She came clean when i confronted her, said she was sexting three different guys from tinder, never intended to and never did meet them. She said it was because she thought i was only telling her she was pretty because i didnt want to hurt her feelings so she needed reassurance.
She said she was sorry and that it was just something she did when we had a fight and then she just kept talking to them and it was never anything serious. I went through her phone, her story holds up.
I know she loves me and that she is telling the truth when she says she only wanted it for confidence, but its still fucked up no matter what. We are working on her slowly gaining my trust back, but my heart is broken at the moment bros.
What a great start to my Christmas season
>>714115416
kinda same
I can analize things pretty well, including myself and i can see the genes from my parents and they fucking suck, and then there's clumsiness from out of nowhere.
>>714114831
>Want the pussy ? Workout, change your style.
>Want the money ? Work, be strategic on your career choices.
Like I said in my earlier posts, I've never had a problem with these things, I used to love my life but it slowly faded to grey, now I just feel like a husk going through the same motions. I hide it from people to spare them from having to deal with bullshit. Hopefully I just wake up one day and feel a lot better about everything, It's not nihilistic in the sense of 'why bother, nothing matters', it's very strange.
>>714099300
edgy
>>714115523
Shitty. I'm as lonely as ever and I'm broke because my job didn't pay me on Friday, and I can't get in contact with anyone until tomorrow. Even then, they probably won't get anything fixed until Tuesday, if I'm lucky, or more likely this coming Friday. I was hoping to get drunk this weekend but instead I ate soup and did fuck all.
>>714099469
You're not missing out on anything but not pain. You convince yourself through the years that it was real love. You're so lonely because it was true love. Of course it isn't true. And you'll die alone and miserable like it never happened. Now there's just a face to put with that loneliness.
Of course on the other side, he/sh has moved on a long time ago. And wishes you would too. She's tired of you writing songs about her. She's tired of you saying the same things over and over. She's tired of your 4 am texts. She's beyond tired of you and all your feelings.
>>714099872
A knight in shining armor is a man who has never had his mettle tested.
Read in the most annoying cliche old dystopian cowboy voice
>>714100683
That typo killed it for me.
>>714102416
I like this. It's here that we all come together. Even those faggots who're like "ur problms r pussy get on my level." Even if you go offline, or leave the site and never return, you still have us here, feeling with you.
>>714115668
That's fucking sad, man. Really fucking sad.
Pull her up and ask her what she would do if she caught you doing the same thing. When she lies, do it and get caught. And see how much she lied about being understanding.
She's a whore x3. Sink your cock into her until you get a better parking spot.
>>714115771
This was 2 example in a lot of possibilities
Bored by your life ? Backpack and let's go.
Hungry ? Get a fucking burger.
Thinking about killing myself. Already wrote the note and all I've got left is to hang myself. Should I?
>>714103432
This right here. I've seen the worst of it, and I've had glimpses at the best of it, and I've decided that I've had enough of the worst and I'm not gonna get to the best, so I've consigned myself to the middle and am just waiting to die.
>>714116445
Probably not.
>>714115523
Awful.
Panic attacks have returned after 3 months for no real reason. Probably gonna lurk some more and fall asleep after it passes.
I accidentally scared my cat today when trying to pet her.
>>714103946
>>714102065
Yo, add me on Steam. Got no-one on it either.
http://steamcommunity.com/id/MemeTeamMarines
>>714116556
I don't know tbh. Life's just bland and boring
Post your eyes, lets see what other people can make out of them.
you know it's bad when the thing you look forward to all week fails to make your day.
Anons, you have all those feels. Why not doing something with them? Why don't you write a novel out of it ? Or paint them, splat this sadness and hatred on a canvas. Or draw them. Make music out of your depression. Or program it, whatever the fuck can make you feel better and exteriorize this bullshit. It's always better than drinking and doing drugs, believe me. I know what I'm talking about. I chose to lift them. A body being forged by sadness and self-hatred channeled through the iron I rise above my head. It keeps me busy. It makes me stronger. I used to get drunk every day, now it's only on friday evenings. Life is getting better slowly, for the first time in many years. I hope you'll carry on, /b/ros, and find peace of mind and happiness one day.
>>714115523
Not fantastic but not horrible. Want to drink but alcohol brings out emotions and emotions make me do stupid things around people. So instead im stuffing my face and waiting for work tomorrow so i have something to do besides be alone in my mind. But i do have you anons which helps.
>>714115899
that sucks, anon. just don't get too shitfaced next friday?
>>714116576
your cat has already forgiven you, anon
>>714116741
Sure. Don't know what to make of yours, you seem kind of tired and a bit sad
>>714116810
I write shitty songs and poetry. I also play guitar. I draw too.
I still feel terrible. Now I just have notebooks with words and art.
>>714116740
Bland and boring sounds kinda comfy to me.
>>714116810
>Why not doing something with them? Why don't you write a novel out of it ? Or paint them, splat this sadness and hatred on a canvas. Or draw them. Make music out of your depression. Or program it, whatever the fuck can make you feel better and exteriorize this bullshit.
too lazy and too talentless
>>714116415
Too many commitments to do something so brash and 'mid life crisis'. The moment I just say fuck it and withdraw or run off into the horizon in an attempt to feel better, everything I worked so hard for crumbles. The job, the money, the home, back to square one. If i thought I know what would help I'd do it in a heartbeat, believe me.
>>714116945
glad to be of service. also cute pic
>make jokes about dogs with cancer to friends
>next day take dog to vet find out he has a tumor
>have to put him down cause of it
>on car ride back karma police by radiohead plays
feels bad man
>>714117138
Eh, I'm getting pretty sad about it and the only thing that helped me was drugs but I can't do that shit anymore
The biggest problem with my depression is that it's so crippling. I feel like nothing has a point, so I won't do anything about anything. I won't get out of bed for days, even if I starve. I won't get up to take a shower, let alone write a story about how I'm so fucking sad that noone will ever care about me. I just feel like I'm drowning whenever I'm not asleep. Weed and vidya help me sleep/get my mind off of things. But that's about it.
>>714117225
rip dogger
what was his name?
>>714117330
timber :(
>>714103432
I know that feeling man, I just do as I feel and chase meaningless shit and then roll my eyes at the repercussions. I almost lost my place at my university because of it, but managed to get out of it. Still don't care, just following these pursuits for the sake of having something to do.
Bored? Smoke a cigarette. At a party? Try and fuck something. Exams? Do whatever is required and drink yourself into a regular sleep schedule.
>>714117002
tired i am, i worked 12 hours, after sleeping for 4, will have even less sleep today.
We're all sad here, nothing new there.
Yours says :think's life is shit cus he's fat.
>>714117220
Your image is why i love and miss charlie. My roll model but for dealing with the b.s. of life.
>>714115523
feeling great, lost 15Kg in a few months to get shredded and did an epic cheat meal yesterday night, feel powerful and full.
>>714116954
We'll see. I'm just pissed that I had to borrow money just to buy something to eat.
>>714116810
I sing, I paint miniatures, I write, but it doesn't make me happy. Often times I'll lack the motivation to do things I enjoy.
>>714116741
Why not.
>>714117268
You are probably heading the right way if you quit drugs.
I'm struggling with addiction myself and can't give you any good tips, sorry.
I've been rejected 11 times in the past year, a good portion of them laughed or were disgusted. To this day I've yet to even hug a girl. Please just kill me
>>714117666
eyes say : fake problems
>>714117002
>>714117513
Sorry about the potato quality. I don't feel like getting up and turning on the light.
>>714117819
If you say so, I can't really prove anything I say on here.
>>714117002
And also you look like you don't have a lot of luck with women. Joke with your nerd friends a lot, but are very sad a lot.
http://imgur.com/gallery/jNOru
The Ballad of Ella. File restrictions won't let me post any of my versions of it anymore
>>714105804
know that fell, bro
hope things get better soon for us
>>714117513
I'm a bit chubby but not a reason for life to suck
>>714118048
I don't have a lot of luck finding any girls I like but I don't have a hard time getting girls. Don't have too many friends tbh
>>714117802
Didn't quit because I want to and I don't want to quit. It's the one thing keeping me happy
my dump is done
This thread is gay, 4chan is shit, you're all fags in your early 20s AT MOST and you're whining all ready.
Get real you haven't seen life yet cunts.
>>714118251
Aaaand let the flood gates break
>>714117809
Oh, you poor guy...
I've been rejected once in the past year. In rehab.
I avoid talking to girls because of the fear of getting rejected/laughed at/a disgusted look.
At least you tried.
>>714115523
I have no reason to be here, yet here I am. I keep coming back because I can't let go I guess.
>>714118881
yes and no, i'm also in my 20s, i've also had a shit life, but it can be way worse.
most of us are healthy able men who can still easily achieve almost anything in life, but just cus we're lazy cunts we don't do anything.
So you shouldn't whine nigger.
I mean i also did but i know i have nothing to whine about.
>>714099300
good job ctr
>>714099439
jokes on you, i don't have a front porch
>>714099300
fffff fek
>>714118560
What drugs do you do?
I'm with cigarettes alcohol and weed (often)
Cocaine, amphetamines and XTC (rarely)
1/4
2/4
>>714101235
this gets me every time
4/4
>>714107520
I have an appointment booked tomorrow with my GP due to depression amplified by going to uni. Going to drop out for a second time very soon (long story)
I won
>>714099469
I experienced "teenage love" and it was pretty lame. Really youre both 15, youre just trying to feel some boob and the girl fully expects to marry you. You feel more like a married couple than a fun relationship, you dont see your friends, she tries to 'fix" things about you and acts like your the asshole if you refuse. And thats not even counting the superficial side of being teenagers anyway
dont get me wrong it was fun, but its not all romance and cheesy stuff like in the movies, its work neither of you are prepared for or know how to do
i have amnesia i dont even know what im sad about
>>714119099
>most of us are healthy able men
You said that. Most of us are autistic.
>>714102065
Are you from Florida? I might know you.
>>714099146
how about some good feels to cheer you up?
My cat got ran over last night and I had to put him down. I raised him from birth and he was precious To me. The worst thing is I know the bitch who did it and I know she was speeding but I can't do anything about it because "we're the better people." I hope she burns.
>be 18
>hated myself since i was 14
>thought there was something "odd" or "off" with me, like adhd since i was 14
>ugly hair, ugly clothes, dumb and always been kind of weird
>about to turn 16, start smoking weed with my loser friends, do that daily until 17
>start having panic attacks when smoking and even when sober, quit and relapse every other month due to this
>realize that i will be one day void, nothing matters, humans are monkeys and pack animals, world will one day get nuked, "humans" are dumb animals slaves to instincts
>smoke weed every other day even though i get panic attacks because it's my only form of escape
>become awkward and have so much anxiety i cant think straight, walk straight or hold a conversation
Dont know why im writing this, read the whole thread and self pity is the only thing im good at
>>714118582
Yea... my mom is the only thing keeping me alive. I dont live with here anymore but once she goes theres not much keeping me here.
>>714099300
kys
>>714104895
Don't leave her. She needs you and your kids will remember that when you need them.
wonder how many anons kill themselves reading these
>>714115668
tread with cation anon, you might not want to see it but she could be lying, playing up the sympathy card
>wahhh I dont think im pretty so I flirt with other guys when you dont give me enough attention but I swear I wouldnt do anything
just think of what would happen if the shoe was on the other foot? Or of you didnt catch her?
All Im saying is be careful, at the very least you have some ammo if you were to call her on it
>>714120272
i know i did
but i got better
>>714103432
>Snap.
I just take the path of least resistance these days.
If someone asks me what I want, even in the least important aspects such as dinner, I have no clue what to say. I'm so detached from my feelings I can't tell what I hate or enjoy. That's life I guess.
>>714119474
Basically anything I can get my hands on. Thinking about drinking some hand sanitizer to get a buzz
>>714116740
bland and boring can be fixed a lot easier than other problems. Its not like you have a terminal illness or something
at the very least try something new before you think about it again, just to say you tried
> An implicit darkness surrounds me.
> Those that I have loved and lost haunt me,
> Their image returning to me
> In my dreams,
> Without warning,
> Without explanation.
> Meant only to provide a hand,
> A shoulder,
> A voice,
> A friend,
> A source of happiness,
> Until I awake,
> And the illusion is broken,
> And the voices, jokes and friends,
> Revealed only to be works of my own mind.
> My conclusion draws closer,
> As I wonder what comes next,
> And prepare my plans for future.
> Where they ever my friends?
> Did I ever have anyone?
> Was all of this a lie?
> Was it all me, keeping myself sedated,
> Oblivious to an underlying truth,
> A truth that only now I just realized?
> It doesn't matter now.
> The end draws near.
>>714120154
this is me except my friends have things going pretty good for them..
YOU ARE WHAT YOU EAT:
I don't remember eating shit...
>the feel when no feels
yes it's void
>havent seen grandma for 4 years since we moved countries
>Book tickets to see grandma for summer holidays
>car crash, grandma passed away
I felt like crap since i hadnt talked to her for a month or so aswell
>>714120154
>smoke weed every other day even though i get panic attacks because it's my only form of escape
That will eventually go away. In my case it did.
Weed is awesome. You'll be able to enjoy it again someday. I'm sure.
>>714120646
>I forget to say she passed away around 1 month before we were supposed to see her
>>714099439
>>714120390
I have tried several times. Plan to kill myself got cancelled for the moment. Dad caught e trying to sneak out (yes I still live at home)
>>714119099
The fact that all this is true and yet I'm still unable to shake this sick feeling just depresses me even more.
I promised myself I wouldn't let it happen again, and I lasted for four years. Now I've fallen for a girl.
I hate being in love, because I know she will never feel the same way. The worst part is that she keeps doing things that make me think maybe she does.
I've resolved to try to tell her tomorrow how I feel. It will kill me when she says it, but it's better than living in a fantasy world.
I just don't know how to do it.
>>714110432
but that is where you are wrong my friend, everybody in this world is in fact very real just because in your frame of reference you see them to be, this world could be anything you chose yet it is you who allows it to exist in this form because you know not an alternative to the reality in which you reside. Now ask yourself this, what is the source of the reality you have dreamt up? The difference between men and gods is that gods know the answer to this question and men do not.
>>714116557
fuck, i know the feel man.. the first one that I experienced felt like i was gonna die. pretty scary stuff
>left the army a few years ago
>served in Afghanistan, korengal valley, whole nine yards
>never had any major problems readjusting, at least not as bad as others
>for a Friends birthday we went out o a club, not really my thing but whatever not my party
>all is well until some guy passes out right next to me from too much drinking
>hits his head on the bar, gives himself a gash over his eye
>apply pressure and keep him stable while telling the others to call an ambulance, talking to him to make sure he doesnt pass out
>later after the paramedics take him away they ask if im ok and if they call call anybody for me
>lol im fine why wouldnt I be
>apparently as soon as he hit the floor I started giving orders to people, calling them the wrong names of people I served with that died
>then I started asking for a radio,a helicopter, my rifle, ect
>I dont remember doing any of that
hey /b/ros
story time?
here we go
>be me
>be 17
>be beta as fuck but have alpha friends
>me and my friends sneak these girls out to hang with them and drink
>have crush on one of the girls but she has already told me shes not into me
>its mine and the girls first time drinking
>down shots like theyre nothing
>eventually spill my feelings to her
>shes into it
>ask her to go outside with me and just sit and talk
>outside and shit escalates
>we are cuddled up next to each other on ground making out
>all i wanted with her finally happening
>have feelings of being wanted and being loved
>shit escalates more but her sober friends split us up
>we get in separate cars and go home because her and my parents didnt know that we sneaked out
>wake up in morning hungover to find the texts she sent me
>"anon, it was a mistake, i dont like you like that im sorry"
>realization that everything i felt wasn't real
>she tells me that she regrets everything
>thought that we would end up together because feelings felt so real
>she tells me she needs space
>be me now
>be 23
>still beta as fuck
>still havent felt like that since
pic unrelated
>>714103946
I think you could be the black sheep and you are lonely. Perhaps you have this dream, you are happy.. But you wake up and you'd rather go back to sleep
They say follow your dreams for a reason
I sometimes wish i had mental disorders so my lack of motivation would be excused.
maybe i do, who knows, i'm apathic.
>>714121593
but i cant escape what i believe.
>>714121307
holy shit that one got me.
>>714121750
I realize these are part ptsd and/or programming all veterans have now but these stories are interesting to me. Anymore or anyone else want to contribute like this?
>>714121834
I know that feel.
My hot cousin (crush) jumped on my chair and kissed me once when we were drunk. Unfortunately my brother and my friend were right next to us and I couldn't bear to proceed.
Guess what we don't talk to each other anymore. Too much spaghetti.
>>714122115
You can try, god knows i have, but in the end its always best to accept this reality for what it is and to try the make the most of it. No matter what the true nature of the universe is more often than not the best option is to enjoy the ride, or you will forever be regretful having not lived life to the fullest
>>714100184
shhhh b-bob its all gonna be okay :(((
>be me
>had very rough childhood, was sexually abused when I was 5 years old.
>abuse kept going on for a couple of years until I realized, ashamed, what was wrong with the situation and managed to stop it.
>psychologically scarred for life anyways.
>introvert kid, book lover.
>was born with beautiful features: big brown eyes full of life, blond hair that eventually turned light brown, intelligence and passion for books/learning.
>during my childhood and until my teenage years I was a good kid, although was cruel to my brother.
>would hurt him because I was hurt and could not tell people I needed help after being sexually abused.
>do well in school, get good grades, have friends. teachers love me. everybody loves me.
>who does not love a beautiful child?
>forward to age 14, enter high school in my country and fail miserably.
>from being a very dedicated student who had the admiration of his teachers I became a punk, a rebel without a cause.
>failed high school, got kicked out of school.
>>714122441
I had a neighbor who was a Vietnam vet when I was a kid. Me and my siblings took turns cleaning out the thick bushes in his back yard because he'd get anxious being back in foliage like that. He was perfectly normal (or so I thought) otherwise, my parents just told us to go over and help and we thought he was just old. It didnt occur to me until years later how uncomfortable he'd get
>>714108385
Yep that's me
Thought things were getting better. Took the advice of anons and decided to stop bitching and make changes to my life.
>be me
>be 18
>18
>go to uni full-ride
>girl I've loved since first day of freshman year of high school but lost touch with ends up going there too
>start picking off where we left off
>realize I'm a shitty person and no good for her
>dump her in worst way possible for her own sake
>become alcoholic and drug addict shortly thereafter
>fail out of college
>decide to leave my life and move to other side of the country
>life still shit
>anons encourage me to stop feeling bad for myself and make a change
>go back to college, community
>work my ass off
>somehow transfer to one of the best unis in the world
>doing surprisingly well
>stopped drinking and doing drugs
>am fit
>can get girls on the reg
>still feel the same
maybe its just something innate that make us feel like shit. I've always considered many people on this board to be smart and have found that such a characteristic is paired with a difficulty in finding happy.
>>714103946
Everyday life for me as well anon, you are not alone.
>>714122935
>cont
>my dad was pissed at me. as a punishment he brought me to his workshop and made me work with him for good six months.
>had to wake up early with him at 6 AM and be at work by 7. I would pass him tools, sandpaper this, sandpaper that, carry crap all over the place and do menial work.
>he would pay me though, but I hated it.
>this is what awaits to people who never finished school and just fuck around, he said to me.
>i begrudgingly did my best to help him and be a good son after that.
>never told him why I was so hurt and rebeling.
>if he had known he would have killed that motherfucker for sure, he was that kind of man.
>year goes by, enter high school again.
>go to a different district this time.
>manage to get okayish grades, all Bs and some Ds and Cs in math and sciences.
>humanities and literature classes though I'm the man.
>mfw everyone comes to me to figure out grammar shit and textual analysis BS.
>I become kinda famous because of it.
>continue with highschool
>make friends, they like vidya like I do
>meet girls, fall in love with them, I'm awkward, so I get rejected when I talk to them and ask them to be my GF (inb4 I was acting like an autistic retard).
>continue doing well in school. I never liked it that much but it was better than working at my dad's workshop.
>after many years I manage to suppress my painful past, come to terms with my sexuality (I'm straight after all).
>still, rage consumes me, I'm hurt.
>continue fast forward to 2002
>cont
