Feels bar. Anything really. Just don't be rowdy, I don't want more noise complaints.
*jazz intensifies*
Just found out my wife is pregnant with our fifth child.
I'm the dumbest mother fucker in the world and I have nobody to talk to.
https://clyp.it/kd4vqnl3
Whatcha drinking?
>>713292249
Sure it's not yours?
>>713292519
Definitely mine. I'm the only one tapping that well
>>713292199
I still don't think I understand that picture. Whats going on exactly?
>>713292693
Well come here to talk.
>>713292693
I' exist for no other reason than to work out your problems
>>713292693
So what's wrong with another kid? Not financially prepared?
>>713292772
Thanks.
Did acid alone on my birthday yesterday. Suicide is getting tempting.
Writer here. Any of you guys want to tell your story? Need inspiration, ready to listen.
OC
Not feeling that bad tonight, just got done having out with some friends, and I'll browse /b/ ti'll I pass out.
I'll be at the counter of the bar.
>>713293039
Why do I feel so empty about this? Mostly existential stuff makes me sad, but that hard reality makes me feel more... hollow.
>>713292772
millennial/video game generation kid growing old, video games are an illusion of grandeur etc. Think of your own interpretation
>>713293254
What type
>>713293254
What do you write kind anon?
Another writer fag here
>>713293477
Thanks, that helps
>>713292199
I don't know what it is about this picture but it always gets me right in the fucking feels.
>>713292772
I don't know if it's really a reference to something, a video game or the like maybe.
What gets me about it is that it's this image of an old man, rather frail looking, down on his luck, but a good man with a good heart who got swept under and forgotten by the world.
He somewhat retreats into the role of a "bounty hunter" for food, scrounging up whatever armor he can out of cardboard, children's apparel. He's not mentally all there, but he means no one no harm.
He finds himself on a subway train, one he frequents as a begging spot. Fairly isolated, dark, probably cold, illuminated mostly by passing tunnel lights, a handful of young, brawny men steadily close in around him. As he looks about, he knows this is where he gets off.
Depressing.
anyone else ever get to a point where everything is going great and you can just feel your self destructive tendencies about to pull you down and destroy it all
>>713293519
>>713293528
I write novels. No special genre. Last one was on a couple in greece. What about you, anon?
>>713293871
Are you me?
>>713293254
This is an OC i typed awhile back
>>713293914
I've been autistically fantasizing about a teenager-turned-vigilante story. That give you anything? I have plenty of thoughts
>>713293838
God, your description just made the pic hit me 10x harder. And it hit my feels pretty hard to begin with.
Thanks for that
>>713294084
Not bad haha
>>713294046
sorry you feel the same way i do /b/ro
>honestly i wish i was less self aware so i wouldn't see the hole in front of me before i fall in it
>>713293914
Non-fiction Erotica
Not particularly good at it, but I enjoy writing. I wish I could post what I have written on some Erotica sites so I could get some feedback but they have a 18+ character limit, and the only thing I write about is me and my childhood sweetheart.
>>713294230
Not exactly my style, but I'm intrigued. What are your ideas?
>>713294381
I wouldn't mind reading it, anon. Can you tell me more?
>>713294327
Me too, we'll make it.
Just had a similar discussion with someone the other day. It'd be nice to be completely oblivious like some people.
>>713294385
Well, for the general story?
Tl;dr: Normal beta teenager gets swole and fights crime In his (nice) town. He gets sucked into the local mafia, finds out he'S in over his head and has to balance his beta social life under growing pains with not dying and hiding it all.
>>713293254
How about this, /b/rother:
Sci-fi story. Near future. A kid, maybe thirteen or fourteen years old, is involved in a massive car accident. Most are killed, the boy is crippled. The doctors keep him alive because it seems 'ethical' but all that it does is ensure his suffering, because ultimately, he will never recover. He is meant to die, and the doctors just wave it away from him until he breaks down.
i want to text her so badly i miss her so much i know she misses me too but idk what would come of it idk what i would even say. we both still love each other and dont want to see each other with anyone else, we both want each other. i want to text her so fucking badly but idk what good it would do
>>713294553
Thanks
>>713294730
This is almost exactly Kick-Ass. Read the first volume, but skip the sequels and the movies.
>>713292484
A virgin Cuba libre with a slice of lime shaken not stirred opened at a 45° angle pointed towards the lazy nigger three seats over.
Oh,
And a tall boomba of bleach for me
>>713294836
Do it. This very minute do it and the pain will stop.
>>713294730
I see. Have you started writing?
>>713294327
What is it that's happening?
>>713294845
Minus the comedy here. More drama. I considered that, but I feel a difference.
>>713294737
Nice. Third person narrative?
I'm a stupid motherfucker and most likely about to get suspended from college. I do have an associate degree and was just a couple semesters away from graduating as a Geologist. Up to this point, my parents have helped pay my tuition, so I feel even worse about this and am thinking about getting a job as a geology technician or something similar to eventually pay the rest of my tuition myself. I'm very scared about the future, I'm scared about not being able to find a job. I know having the associate degree helps, but how much?
>>713295030
I can't write for shit. I just fantasize. I'm just an autist who lacks artistic skills. I'm the math and detail type of sperg.
>>713294878
Give me what he's having
>>713294737
Your idea is better than mine prbs
>>713295006
her cousin told me to stop because me and her made an agreement to go our separate ways without contacting each other and end things forever and that me contacting her would only hurt her more. i dont want to put her through more its been 1 month but it feels like an eternity since we said goodbye
>>713295198
What have you done to be suspended?
>>713292772
>>713293838
There's no particular story behind it. The title of the piece is "Ticket Please". It was created as part of a contest to redesign Gabriel, a character in a comic book series (pic related).
In this particular redesign, instead of a future super soldier he's a hobo, but you can still see the similarities in his cardboard "armor" to the real thing.
>>713295198
Well suspended for what? Grades or something worse?
>>713295355
>>713295431
Yes, grades.
>>713295049
i finally met someone i really like and things are going amazing and i know that i overthink things a lot and ive just kind of caught myself thinking more and more of reasons why it shouldn't work and it's just I know myself well enough to know that it's basically me trying to find an excuse to end it myself before they realize how shitty i am
it's really stupid and im probably autistic or something but everytime something nice happens its like i get this urge to stop it as soon as possible because its gotten to the point where good things happening make me uncomfortable
>>713293254
Want me to give you a story prompt about a life?
>>713295499
Fear is a powerful motivator. Use it to your advantage to get work done.
>>713295232
Skill is something you acquire with work. I started with shitty fanfics. Honestly, it's just about dedication.
>>713295801
Sure, go ahead, anon
>>713295499
Don't stop doing. When you exhaust yourself daily you learn to do what you must.
>>713295957
God damn you to the darkest reaches of Hell.
>>713291545
I just don't want to be afraid to tell someone I love them. I've been alone for too long.
>>713293039
did you cap that too or did you save my OC?
My life is good, I have some nice things, anything that luxurious tho. But still, I feel so empty, so dead inside that I can't even sleep anymore.
I hope all of you have a good night, anons, you probably deserve a good night of sleep.
>>713295683
If it's going well just relax and enjoy the ride
>>713295957
HEY! Positive stuff only. This is a bar to cheer up people with feels.
>>713295683
Chill out, anon. Enjoy the ride. Focus on what you said and try to not do it.
>>713294503
Got nothing better to do
Started writing this a few months ago, but I haven't really any time to revise it and clean it up. So I'm sorry if it's a little messy
https://docs.google.com/document/d/1ATcWomK1pPbBWyjFXYljxfVFvrjkVvtVFBdJuwy0AdE/edit?usp=sharing
I can’t forgive you. Even if I could,
You wouldn’t pardon me for seeing through you.
And yet I cannot cure myself of love
For what I thought you were before I knew you.
>>713295829
That's how I clutch it out most times, its like the only way for me to actually sit down and study is to be shitting my pants because the test is a day or two. I wish I wasn't this lazy but I seriously can't help it most of the time.
>>713292772
When I first saw the image (and saw the drawing in the coloring book) I thought the old man was a veteran who lost himself mentally after serving for too long (or losing something important). The way he looks at the guys ganging up on him isn't a look of fear/sadness but more of a look of disappointment. He could probably kill them all by using the shittiest (teal tbh) crayon color but it wouldn't serve a purpose to him anymore, the image just catches that mid moment.
>>713294836
Then dont fucking text her. Call her. Ask her if you can meet her for a walk and talk about it man.
>>713296328
>>713296454
thanks /b/ros, i'm trying to calm down but it feels too good to be true
just turned 18, not relevant just how old I am
Super depressed past couple years.
Got a gf, helped a lot.
After a year and a half we break up because she couldn't handle stress of relationship.
I'm understanding, not mad or resentful.
Month goes by.
I miss her. I actually love her.
Actually appalled by dating because it won't be her.
She's sad about making me feel this way.
Can't talk to her about it.
Can't talk to parents, mom assumes why I'm depressed and yells at me for it.
Dad will derail an conversation if my tone gets "Bad".
I need someone.
I want to tell them.
Can't gather the courage.
We went out to celebrate my birthday and I had a nice time.
And here I am sobbing.
Because I can't talk to my own parents to get help,
Feels really bad man, feels so bad
>>713296468
I'm reading. Will post thoughts in a minute.
>>713296762
Yeah, wish I could find a better way besides fear so I wouldn't procrastinate as badly. What does everyone else here use as motivation?
>>713296037
If only I actually had friends to make a "close circle".
>>713291545
>>date this girl for about year and a half on and off
>>several years later, in college
>>go home for thanks giving break to our new home
>> family still unpacking and this knocks loose a few old letters I kept in my old desk
>>its a list of "Firsts" she and I had together
>>ends on "I love you so much. You make me believe that true love still exists"
>>Get heartbroken over it because i still love her
>>want to send it back to her to hopefully rekindle our love
>>talk about it with a friend I have over
>>He tells me to not keep holding onto it and that getting back with her is a terrible idea
>>Spoiler alert: It is
>>I keep looking at the letter and make my decision
>>we go into the backyard
>>"Hey Anon, can I see your trick wallet" (It catches fire when opened)
>>He opens it and it runs out of fuel
>>I feel like the universe decided for me to send it
>>"Sorry about that OP, here I have my zippo though"
>>"Huh"
>>Set that damn old relic ablaze
>>Everything gone, all our firsts gone, all that's left is "make me believe"
>>"Make me believe"
And now I have to make her believe that true love exists, even if it isn't with her.
I spilled some milk.
>>713295937
There was a young boy, he was special, as he had the soul of a lion, but he did not know his full potential growing up. He grew up a normal kid, making average and above average grades, although he had many passions which included martial arts and working out, so he was very well built. Those attributes combined with his soul of a lion made for a potentially deadly combination, but that isnt how his story starts. His story starts with a girl named Laura. He had a great passion for her, greater than anything he had before (you can fill in more detail on activities and such). This was after college when he had stumbled into this girl. He fell greatly in love, but after a few years, Laura realized she had some problems with relationships she couldnt fix at the moment. The boy was devastated beyond belief, he had some whiskey and put a gun to his head every night, fighting with himself if it was worth it or not. He decided to die a hero on the battlefield. After more training and climbing the ranks in the US army, he became widely known and respected in the army for his abilities on the battlefield, even if in the training exercises he wasnt the best.He got sent on more missions, but these progessively made him colder and more ruthless, a shell of what he used to be. he became controversial even at times.One day in a mission on foreign territory, he finds Laura while on his mission.(She has since fixed her problems and misses the boy) After he gets her to safety, he slowly starts falling for her again, as she is the only one who can warm him up. After he continues some missions, he is wanted by certain people. They take Laura as a captive. You decide whether both die, or just one, or both live. I would prefer both or one dies.
Points to stress: The boy's love for Laura
His devastation after Laura leaves
His progression to ruthlessness
The ending.
>>713297063
I'm honestly angry because I never had to study and now I feel lazy
>>713296996
Don't worry. You also deserve joy. You're not cursed. Don't forget that we basically get what we want, be it conscious or unconscious. Start by wanting to be happy, and maybe it'll just work.
>>713297036
Your parents are not equipped to help with your problems no matter how they care about you.
You need professional help for this one. Go get it. And talk because however hard talking might seem, trust me that burning away everyone you love is far more painful
>>713297515
Thanks anon
>>713297228
They only die according to whichever universe you choose to reside in. Headcanon is that it's all planned out so the choice doesn't really matter, but for me personally either they both die of old age and reawaken in some sort of facility as a testing chamber for both of them, or they reincarnate elsewhere as gods playing a video game- who knows, could be both, could be neither, etc... but more than likely there are an infinitude of other choices that I'm not even considering, so do with all of this what you please.
And thank you.
Good read <3
>>713297036
The landmark forum. Give it a gi
>>713297102
Follow the other instructions and you'll end up with a "close circle". You aren't the only one out there that is the way you are; people are designed to be compatible with each other. You might think that no one around you is someone you could be good friends with, and you might be right, but hang out with them anyway because you'll meet other people through them. Try to get involved in activities people from work/school are doing outside work/school. Do things that give you social anxiety. It only sucks the first few times you do it.
>>713297208
Fuck me that's harsh
I've been having a rough time for the last few weeks lads. Parents recently got divorced so Mom has been drinking and been really unproductive, Brother is a mess of depression and over the counter drug abuse, hasnt gone to college, really should because he is using mom's love to his advantage to Neet around. sister is turning somewhat into a tumblrina, all the while my dad is a hypocritical loser who now has too many "plans" that are dumb. I feel like Ive been the only rational person ever since, I got a job, I hang out with friends and have been more social, I finished my Eagle Scout Project just in time, and ive got lots of developing skills and hobbies. Its just that because i am such a huge pool of sanity everyone expects more from me and its rather annoying, love my folks, but they are lost people. What I am really upset about is that Ive been despairing about the future, are we going to go to war anytime soon, what do i want to major in, what do i want as a career, will anyone ever actually marry me (I doubt it) and my ex just got with one of my old friends who i dont talk to, and i realize I gotta move on but it really just feels bad.
>>713292199
Gentlemen, feel free to watch the Master at work... but only because he'll pay for any sort of bar damage, alcohol shortages, or police calls. You're all very much welcome. (And be sure to watch closely- you might learn something ;) )
>>713297663
Not sure if you are the writer, I dont think so by the way you type, but thanks. And this story was to be pretty realistic, so the ending you have isnt what I thought, but that is totally fine.
>>713297277
I used to not mind spending my night doing homework before HS graduation. Got lazy in college and now can't light a fire under my ass.
I talk to this girl everyday, and she said she used to have a crush on me, and I really like her a lot, it breaks my heart.
>tfw this gif only gives me a feeling of emptiness because it looks warming
>>713297914
I don't know if I can carry on.
>>713298060
Are you treating college like high school? Or are you allowing yourself more freedom?
>>713297297
i guess I'll see what happens
>>713293039
You do realize he was only doing that to fool you guys, right? Classic.
>>713298191
No, giving myself more freedom. Went backwards with discipline.
I've always wondered if people are trying to be nice to me or are mocking me
>>713296831
nigger what's wrong with teal?
>>713293298
She's coming back and it's all a Psy-Op. Don't worry.
>>713297919
You sound just like me except my eagle scout ceremony was like 3 weeks ago and my parents recntly stopped drinking im in a failing ldr and it all fucking sucks
>>713293433
Greentext guy will be back, don't worry. Gonna be a good story. (I'm a time traveller. Trust me, I know.)
>>713298372
Exactly. Treat it like you did high school. If you show up late or miss a class, give yourself a detention. It sounds silly but it works
>>713292693
Getting rid of it is out of the question?
>>713292960
Man, I love Sylvia Plath so much. I wish I could give her a hug.
>>713298465
Well it's all about context and the situation. Most people in feels threads seem like they're trying to be helpful.
>>713293838
Dude relax she's just waiting for a train. >>713295390
Hence the name "Ticket Please."
>>713296468
I read it. It is very erotic indeed. It seems that you describe the scene in a very scientific manner, is that on purpose? We don't know much about her.
Don't you sometimes sleep for 3/4 of a day just to fastforward your life? Been doing this lately
>>713298596
Yea I feel the same, but the whole time ive had this deep under tone feeling of optimism and happiness. Maybe I'm some zen master of inner peace.
>>713298871
I pretty much plan on doing that for the whole winter, as much as I can get away with it.
>>713293477
That's fucking depressing.
>>713298703
I mean in real lice
>>713297122
Damn.
>>713298746
How scientific? A little confused on that.
I should have written a little more of a prologue just give more of a foundation
Thanks anon
>>713298610
Did you experience or do the same? It's way different from my HS experience so I feel I can't treat it the same way.
>>713298871
i watched the matrix as a kid and it fucked me up and i hate sleeping now because of that one guy in the second move (i think?) who said "ive been sleeping for most of my life" and it made me realize how much wasted time there is sleeping
>so instead of sleeping i waste my life on 4chan
>>713298716
>I posted mine before anon elaborated on the source of the artwork
>Gang members closing in
>Sharp weapons
>Newspaper article about murderous gang violence
>Even then anon explained that there is no context
>I made some up, what it makes me think of
where are you on the spectrum, anon?
Gather round boys while i spin you a tale.
I am fourteen years old at the time pretty normal family parents don't argue always laugh and smiling. my brother and sister both also very happy healthy. Dad works for the state of North Carolina fixing roads clearing path etc. (basically hard working man dude was built like a brick wall.) not really poor not really rich. Dad always trys to get us what we want since he never got to have much as a kid. Hurricane comes rolling in fucks up the kill devil hills a.k.a the beach. He has to leave soon to go help put everything back up and get the roads cleared. Now My dad and i usually saw eye to eye on everything always there for me to come to when i have a question or shits not going right do me. I get deadly sick the day befote he has to leave he sits in the emergency room with me 12 hours no sleep. The entire time we just watched various old movies me amd him loved he even went home to get my plau station so we could play mortal kombat. I eventually get the clearance to go home he drops me off at the house kisses us goodbye. I will continue if anyone is interested. I am sorry if my grammar punctuation isn't great
>checks phone
>grill: hey come over, just got out of the shower ;)
>hell yeah
>gets in car
>drives to house
>still wet from shower
>making out for like 5 min~
>grill: hey lets go get donuts
>oh....ok
>maybe ill get some road head on the way there
>get to krispy kreme without receiving any head
>FeelsBadMan
>grill buys donuts
>wont share donuts
>drives grill home
>still no road head
>gets out of my car and says goodnight
>grill leaves
>no sex, no head, not even a kiss
>FeelsRealBadMan
>>713299044
Oh, sorry. Depends on the person I guess but again I've found most people will try to help you. Humans are geared to feel good about helping others.
>>713299114
I guess what I'm saying is don't stop doing. My high school day on average was twelve hours until i got home, then homework and scouts etc. I was a straight A student. If you always have work to be done you'll do it
>>713299342
hey you're already better off than 90% of 4chan
>>713299295
Please
Some OC, i've been lurking these threads for a while now, makes me like I still have emotion
>>713293170
The fact that no one replied to this makes it so much more depressing
>>713297228
What is the lion soul? It seems to refer to a mythology I'm not familiar with. It can be one of the themes to develop, to build your character's backstory. The whole hero dying on the battlefield story seems a bit too easy. Why would he want to die? And if he really wants, why not just commit suicide directly? Because meeting her lost love one day just sounds a bit fabricated. See what I mean?
>>713295683
I've done this before, tried to stop something with someone because I was afraid it would end horribly. I mean it did but sometimes you just need to ride things through.
>>713299383
Thanks man. Yeah I've found staying busy and allocating time to do certain things helps. Somehow still end up procrastinating to the point of not doing schoolwork. Just don't know.
>>713299672
Sorry b/ro haha, life's rough. Happy belated, did you have a good trip?
>>713298276
I hope this is a troll
>>713299342
You probably should have made a move. Fucking waste.
>>713297960
I told you already. Multiverse theory. Look it up. It's ALL canon- go look up Doc Savage. Also Tarzan. Also the Newtonian Meteorite. We did it, boiiiiiii
>>713293170
Keep fighting bro at the very least keep living to try more crazy shit
Are the feels dead?
>>713291545
Many posts I make are sincere, but much of the shit I say is just for cheap laughs. Either case, I'm happy to come here just to be insulted...just to remember to see if I can still feel pain on the inside.
I believed I have earned my (you) for the day.
Barkeep here. Looks like the feels is dying down. My shift's over.
>>713301160
Thought you're open till 2?
I would have never discovered 4chan if I didn't lose her..
>>713299071
I should read it twice, but at a moment you talked about her "pelvic area". That's a very precise term that sort of sets a distance between the memory you're telling and the narrator (yourself). Memories are often about sensation and are often blurry. We only remember certain things like smells or feelings. Too much analysis can feel a bit artificial. If it's on purpose, then there's nothing wrong with that. That's just my take on it, I could be wrong. What do you think?
>>713299521
Cont.
As he leaves for the last time he stops to talk to me "hey anon when i get back we will fix that dirtbike" (i will remeber that fucking smile on his face and the words he said till i am old and gray) he drives off down the road our of sight. Now my mom and i unlike my dad and i we almost never saw eye to eye i am pretty much the pinnacle of dread to hee i am not sure why. I know she loves me and i know she would do anything in her power to make sure i got what i wanted but something about me she didn't like, maybe cause i was dad's favorite. She starts to argue with me about something i did to my brother probably smacked the fuck out of him i don't know. For what ever god damn reason i say "i hope i wake up and i don't have to see you or dad ever again." i leave that night to go to my cousins because he is really into Vidya we play league of Legends, halo reach i end up passing out from exhaustion. What feelslike 10 minutes i am woken up by my cousin who tells me that my mom has to talk to me. I ask why doesn't she just call me if she wants to talk. I noticed his face was sunken and looked like he had been crying (for back story on this my dad was basically another dad to my cousin he was always over at my house we went fishing we did all that shit.) we drive home and my entire yars is filles up with family and dads friends vehicles. I get to the porch and i see my mom crying she tells me that my dad was killed that morning by a head on collision. (the area he was working in was really foggy there were no street lights on and the truck he ran into didn't have a light on the top to signify that there was a dump truck there.) he was killed on impact i won't forget everything said that night. I will never forget everyones faces. I hold what i said even now i feel ultimately responsible for his death. I feel as if i am the murderer of one of the most perfect people in my life. The worst part of it is i have forgotten his voice.
>>713301412
if you're implying that's a pro i'd beg you to reconsider
>>713301681
I like to think he's implying it as more of a curse
I feel better when I'm physically uncomfortable and sad. I don't understand.
>>713293254
lock your self in your house and don't have social interaction for 3 months once you hear your head making friends for you the inspiration should come quickly when they dont leave or maybe....that's just me
>>713301948
i guess either way we're all here forever
>>713302143
God damnit
We dead here yet or are people still lurking?
>>713302530
Still lurking.
>>713301477
I guess you're right.
I can't believe I put that there. It is my rough draft tho, so I'll probably do more revisions on it.
Thanks anon
>>713302530
Looks pretty dead to me.
>>713302655
NOT ON MY WATCH
>>713302530
lurking and not capable of writting anything because I keep telling myself that noone wants to hear my complaining anyway
>>713291545
My gf broke off with me around 2 months ago, for some reason I'm still depressed as hell about it, the dumb cunt did it over text like a faggot and said "I thought I liked you" I haven't talked to her since
Still here
>>713302986
Same bro, complain away. Someone will respond. If not, still feels good to let it out.
>>713302651
It's fine, honestly, I don't want to sound critical. It's a great thing that you're writing, I can only encourage that. You will have plenty of time to revise it. I would personally try to build up her character. Make the reader feel like the narrator. Why is she attractive? Why should the reader feel attracted and not repulsed? Why is she the "one" and not just like any other girl? That sort of things. Maybe go back in time and develop an aspect of her personality. You begin the story by the end, to me. The sexual interaction should be the reward and not the starting point. Because once we're done with it, there's no prize to keep the reader interested. But it sounds promising! Just continue to work hard and it will work out.
>>713293170
Buddy it's okay, we all go though dark times, this will all get better
>>713293871
I feel you
>>713303420
God bless anon
mfw no friends or family.....or anyone talked to me or responded on thanksgiving
>>713293170
I feel you anon. Did acid on Thanksgiving and saw death. Watch some Alan Watts, really helps to handle it. He has a video on suicide on youtube
>>713303642
my pleasure, friend
>>713293254
lately ive been feeling nostalgic for times ive never experienced
>>713303329
Try and find other girls to talk with anon.
>>713303927
Intriguing. It's very close to the subject of my next novel. Can you develop?
>>713303999
If he could he wouldn't be here.
>>713304246
Other suggestions for him?
>>713303329
Spend some time with your family/friends. Only time can help I'm afraid
>>713304387
>>713303329
A bottle of Jack Daniels
Maybe two
Go vandalize some shit
Let out any frustration and/or sadness
Try that my friend
>>713304756
Works for me at least
>>713292910
Shit fam...
>>713304387
She also started hitting on my best friend
Anyone ever get caught far behind in their studies? Wondering how to maintain hope and rebound.
>>713305057
I currently am and have been for a while. The only thing you can do is put in a shit ton of hard work to catch up, if not you'll stay behind.
girlfriend of two and a half years broke up with me not 10 minutes ago. she said I was too unstable but I haven't felt anything. theres tears running down my face but I don't feel anything. please help
>>713305278
It's okay Anon. That numb feeling should go away soon. If not, you'll get used to it.
>>713305278
Sorry to hear anon, we're with you
>>713305278
It's okay if you cry anon, as clichéd as it sounds it really does help, also reach out to the friends you can talk to, trust me it'll all get better at some point
>>713304057
i doubt its interesting or similar enough, sorry. its everything to be perfectly honest. i like to romanticize everything. ill listen to a music video, see an old war photograph or read about an ancient battle and romanticize it all until i can feel the memories. then, i become utterly nostalgic and disheartened. or i become dispirited or demoralized at seemingly unrelatable things. think of holden in catcher in the rye, the scene with the prostitute or when he see "fuck you" written onto a wall.
i cant really explain the entire meaning or articulate myself very well, sorry
>>713305254
How to take on such a task though? I don't know where to start and then end up doing nothing.
>>713293433
A gamer's friendship is the purest friendship :')
I'm a 21 year old kissless virgin with pretty much non-existent social skills.
>>713305278
Sorry buddy, want to talk about it?
>>713305729
Try alcohol, might loosen you up socially.
>>713305614
Don't worry, anon, it is interesting. It's actually a very useful thing if you want to write one day!
>>713305648
Find where you left off and start there.
That's just my guess. I've been in the same predicament for half a year, mostly because I don't know where to start or don't want to try anymore.
>>713295390
Are those skittles falling out of his pocket
>>713295331
shes feeling the same way as you anon. if you really wanted her back youd do it
>>713305924
Yeah wtf, why don't we have the drive?
I'm barely hanging on to my job. I only have one thing I care about left, and that's guitar. Yet I can barely summon the motivation to work on it. I half ass everything I do. All I do is work and sleep.
I don't care about anything anymore. I just moved from Portland (land of overflowing heroin and drugs) to a new city where all the heroin is cut to shit and wildly overpriced. I can't afford to do it, I'm looking into some darknet market shit though.
All I do is think about going back to shooting up, but on the other hand I dream of a world where my life feels worth it again. I just want to be happy. I know heroin isn't the answer. And yet I'm dying for it.
I don't think I'm going to be able to live my life unless someone steps in and loves me. No one lives me, I don't even love myself. I think having someone to live for and to know what it feels like to love someone else is the only thing that can bring me back. If that doesn't happen, I'll probably end up shooting up and purposely overdosing in the next year. I can't do this shit anymore.
>>713292910
Stuff like this makes me wish I was better to my dad :(
At least we tried, right?
I normally don't get hit hard with feels, but today was an exception.
I was folding my laundry when it was like I had a sudden bout of cognitive dissonance. I was overcome with almost terror as I wondered where in my life am I? What am I doing? Is this really what I should be doing? what could be different?
I was practically shaking, its not bad now but I have this overwhelming feeling of emptiness and doubt.
I'm just trying to figure out where/who am I and what the fuck has happened the past 22 years.
>>713292249
i fking hate retards like you and your wife
>>713306291
I blame global warming
I miss 2013 so much, i was still in high school, i had real friends, a real girlfriend and a real life, i moved out of the things i used to like, i became more agressive and egocentric, nobody actually likes me, i have a good body and im a decent 7/10 so girls come and go but everything seems pretty mediocre and a rehash of things i used to enjoy so much about life
>>713307007
yeah anon, we did.
>>713307007
Maybe you did
I sure as hell didnt
>>713299342
that girl is txting/snaping her friends and laughing at your dumb ass
been there, it fking sucks
This is gonna get lost in this thread so I'll just greentext this bitch
>I fail sophomore year of high school
>parents think I might be special needs
>I reluctantly agree to be tested
>over the course of several weeks, I take basic level tests
>I think it's fucking stupid
>turns out I have severe ADHD and mild Aspergers
>tfw you're actually retarded
>doc prescribes medication for Aspergers but not ADHD
Side note: my bro takes heavy ADHD medication so I think my parents couldn't cope with both their sons being ADHD
>parents set up therapy
>again, fucking reluctant
>I hate therapists because they listen to your problems for money and it seems wrong but whatever
>>713301653
Fuck anon. I feel you in a way, couse I have a wonderful dad as well, I can't imagine what would be of me if I loose him. And you are only 14...fuck i hope you find happiness in the near future my boy, best of luck, stay safe \b\ cares.
>>713294553
*something
*appreciation
*life's
>>713294084
>2 years ago
The movie came out last year, try harder to lie next time faggot
>>713291545
> be me rn
> just figured out that one of my friends died in a car accident
> She has a total of 4 brothers, being 5 in total with her
> She and her 3 other brother were with her in the same car accident
> She died on her way to the hospital, the rest died right there in the spot
> Only her 14 y/o brother is alive now (As he was the only one that wasnt in the car with them)
> Went to the wake
> Mother was utterly destroyed
> Father was speechless
> Little bro was nowhere to be found
> Every single one of her friends is there
> mfw an entire family was pretty much dismantled in one night
>>713302143
I am bound here forever by the curiosity that I might find something new or interesting eventually.
>>713308403
Continued for the sake of the people probably not reading my sob story
>therapists listens
>we argue a lot
>in the end we come to resolutions that should benefit me
>yada yada lawyer talk bullshit whatever
>at the end of each session I am suppose to give a status report to my parents
>the first time I say something negative towards them
>it was about them not caring about me or some shit
Wow I sound like a spoiled fucking assholed right about now LOOK AT ME BEING INTROSPECTIVE
>>713306633
Wish I had the answers for you friend, that's rough. When I start getting down and asking what's the point I try reminding myself that we're given one shot in this life. Since this is it, why not try making the most of it and being the best you can.
>>713308403
Hey bud most the diagnosis knowadays are really thrown around. Labeling someone from some tests over a few weeks is kinda foolish, nobody can be sure. You could have all sorts of fucked up problems. But just FYI, therapy is a great tool for many successful people. If you ever grow up you'll see not everything is just a dumb waste of
Your precious woe is me time. Therapists can help you help yourself but as long as you remain a rock you'll stay a rock bud. Godspeed.
>>713305614
You have empathy my friend, a shit load of it I can presume, you are like me we feel what others feel, or we feel more than we should. It's a curse for me, wish I could just ignore it...but I can't cause then I would be sorry if I did.
>>713305729
Wanna be friends?
>>713298487
When I practiced terran vs protoss back in sc1 my friend always got teal for his units
>>713308964
I'M JUST GOING TO JUMP TO THE CLIMAX FOR TIME'S SAKE
>parents don't listen to therapists
>parents won't listen to me because they get to emotional
>clinically diagnosed with depression
>force me to take medication which makes me feel awful and gives me migraines
>grades slowly dropping to the point of failing another year
>I'm scared
>>713309574
Having trouble finding motivation for schoolwork?
>>713301653
>Forgotten his voice
I'm sorry anon, you didn't do that to him. I get why you think that way but it's not true. We make decisions based on what we know, whether or not we're right or wrong or if we cause something bad to happen doesn't matter. I'm articulating it poorly but there is no purpose in blaming yourself for things beyond your control. I feel you on the forgetting his voice. My grandpa was the closest to a father figure I ever had and in the 4 years he's been gone i'm starting to forget things about him. It sucks because I catch myself doing it but i can't stop it. The universe just keeps on going man.
>>713309667
Not OP but I am.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AeAuTAgCWCA
feels! xD
>>713309821
Can't even begin to remember the last time I was that happy.
>>713309672
holy shit this is my story lol
I was born in 1977. I'm doing okay now. The wife's good to me. We love each other. No stereotypical female bullshit. We even play in a band together. I never thought I'd be here.
In the early 90s I was a beta nerd into vidya and grunge. Nerds were NOT cool. We were a decade away from that shit going mainstream.
Kissless until almost 18. Virgin until 19.
If we had had Linkin Park back then... Instead I blasted "Garden" by Pearl Jam and cried while drinking at what I thought would be my foreveralone status.
I knew I was worthless, untouchable, unlovable, undatable. Suicidal thoughts have plagued me since I was 6.
My grandfather was born in 1899. A few years back, my mom (his daughter) found a journal of his from 1918. His mother had just died, and the words he had written on those pages were the same kind of things I had written. I had a fucking cakewalk compared to his life. He died in 1987, but I cried my eyes out reading words he had written 59 years before I was born.
I wanted to reach back in time and hug the young man who would eventually father my mother.
The man who was already kind of not all there by the time I came along, who couldn't quite hear what anybody said but smiled and nodded, the man who turned on the magical machinery in his old shop and grinned at me while I watched all the belts and pulleys running the equipment.
The man who had a stroke, went into the nursing home when I was 10, spent months there, got BETTER, was able eat solid food again, get off the catheter, and go home.
This man was at home for I dunno... A week? A month?
And then he had a heart attack. And that took him.
I didn't cry about this until something like 15 years later.
Didn't cry for his 1918 journal entry until 5 or 10 years ago.
I'm at that age now, still remembering what it's like to be a kid, but now legit being able to say "5 or 10 years ago" and seriously not be able to remember where a particular event falls in that range.
I'll be 40 in January.
>>713292199
What makes this even sadder is there is a cat in his hood :(
>>713309770
Same. Think I've been wanting someone on here tonight to tell me something that will light a spark. We'll find a way b/ro
>>713296423
via 9gag
>breaks open bottle
>>713291545
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pA8DdkM2Wqo
>>713293914
Me and my friend created an entire fantasy universe and created our own interlinking stories and lore. Then he died. I will never do our creation justice.
>>713309574
OH SHIT I FORGOT FUCK
>MY FUCKING BROTHER
>he is an abusive prick
>up until 5 months ago he would beat me on a bi-weekly basis
>no joke I had to start wearing a jacket to school to hide the bruises
>the times he punched me in the face I had to play it off as a accident
>he stopped punching me past my shoulders after my parents got anxious people would worry and threatened to send him to a mental facility
>he stopped being physical after 3 weeks he was overdosing on the equivalent to horse tranquilizers
>oh did I mention he did/does hardcore drugs?
>during these three weeks he broke several doors and items throughout the house
>he probably has permanent brain damage
>I partially blame my parents for not taking him to get help sooner
>I blame him more for taking it out on me
>now he doesn't do anything or than sit in his room and eat out food
>and by eat our food I mean all of it in two days and then we have to live off of frozen goods and leftovers
>he eats all the fresh produce
>I need to see a doctor for malnutrition it's getting really bad
>if you mention this to him he goes into a fit
>he'll leave the room, go to his bedroom, and punch walls
>but because his grades are better than mine, he's a well adjusted person
>k i l l m e
>>713309667
It's not a lack of motivation it's a lack of energy. By the time I start my homewo I have been working 12 hours straight and I can't even focus my eyes on the paper.
By that I mean I mean my right is slanted in such a way that I can't focus them at close range which makes reading paper a bitch
This thread, God fuken damn it.
>>713311433
Fuck the pic makes me want to get logger out of my fridge a day chug it but I have FUCKING WORK TOMORROW AAHHH
These "feel" threads are always the same...
Maybe we have all died and since this was our closest connection in life we just repeat the same thread every night.
Maybe we've been dead but we're all either stuck here in this thread or maybe we just dont want to leave.
I know i miss her and the only way for us to be together is when i sleep...
I just want to sleep
>>713311623
Should be sober by morning right?
>>713311004
Anon, we may not know each other, but I want you to know I'm rooting for ya :)
>>713311817
I dunno about you but I'm a fucking lightweight and my hangovers are terrible to a point that I almost an heroed during one
Scratch lightweight how about weak willed
you guys know you wont solve any of your problems by wallowing in them, right?
you must accept a solar, transcendental lifestyle and constantly work on improving, yet also accepting, your condition as humans.
also read the fucking stoics.
>>713312185
Wow, don't want any part of those hangovers. I'm 21 and have a decent tolerance so chugging a beer at this point won't do much.
>>713312160
Well thanks bud
I'll say this much: the only upside to him is that he gets really good weed. Aside from the fact that he is a cunt, his shit takes and edge off.
Thankfully though my state just legalized it and soon I should qualify for a green card and be able to get my own, so I shouldn't be dependant on him for much longer.
>>713292772
I like the sentiment of the quote in your photo, however, were this the case, I'd never be able to sleep. I already push myself to do as much shit in a day as possible and only get 2-4 hrs sleep as a result. And then when I actually try to sleep I end up on 4chan for hours.
>>713312519
You know it sucks having shitty hangovers primarily because it automatically makes you the designated driver. Ever since the day I got my permit, whenever anyone goes out and I'm involved I become the one who shleps everyone around town. I fucking hate it, and I wish I could enjoy myself without wanted to die afterwards.
>>713310040
How are you doin nowadays man?
>>713313008
Try drinking mildly again but also keep water bottles or gatorade somewhere accessible. Then hydrate before going to sleep and when you wake up. I've done this and have yet to experience a hangover.
I'm going to bed. Good night, /b/. Keep struggling on
Anyone else have finals soon? I have 'em in a week and I'm freaking out about that and a research paper I have to write. College isn't as fun as people told me it would be.
how do i make a girl who i have very little connections with gf? Anyone have any experience with this? I know a few of her friends but not well.
>>713293871
Yeah, I call it 9 years ago. 3 more years should see it all fully destroyed.
>>713313781
I'll have to try this
https://youtu.be/VaUyJyPekJE
>>713314444
good quads
>>713313931
Few connections as in mutual friends or like shared interests? If it's the latter don't even bother.
>>713314728
mutual friends. she's super similar to me in shared interests and personality, but we're in pretty different social spheres and I have no classes with her.
god damnit im too sad right now, can't study
>>713292199
>woman attacked by "racist" crab
Best part of pic
>>713311004
Well, after putting that all down in writing, all I have to say is this: I have tried and failed by the only real failure I can see is to stop trying all together. At this point in my life death is more feasible than success, but I'm not going to stop.
Good night.
>>713310040
This hit home for me, I just had a very close friend move to Georgia. I hope she's doing well.
>>713292199
>i hope you don't read this because i couldn't think of a title
>>713315611
THAT SOUNDED GOOD UNTIL I REALIZED I PUT "BY" INSTEAD OF "BUT"
FUCK WHAT DID I SAY ABOUT FAILURE CAUSE I'M ABOUT TO FAILURE MYSELF RIGHT ABOUT NOW
I finally have a girlfriend and I keep overthinking. I really, truly love her and I don't know if she's just doing this out of pity or if she really likes me. I know she's not below cheating, from her last relationship, but she is a truly good person, and the person she cheated on was an asshole. I don't know if she likes me even an eighth of the amount I do. I was in a destructive, depressive state before she came into my life, and now I'm desperately trying to make sure that she doesn't leave me and let me go back to the depressive state I was in before. I don't know if it's moving too fast or too slow. We haven't kissed in like a week, just because i got no fucking balls. I'm tired, /b/.
>>713314833
Honestly the only thing you can really do is man up and talk to her yourself. Since you don't have mutual friends it makes it pretty hard for you to "happen to be at the same outing"
I've been through the same sorta thing. I met this girl at work but we weren't in the same area so I really had to push myself to talk to her /exchange numbers.
I have a girlfriend who loves me and we have been dating for a year and a half. Pretty sure I love her too, yet no matter what I can't stop thinking of this other girl that I met at work who I talked to briefly.
I don't understand what is wrong with me, I've got this girl that undoubtedly loves me and is pretty much perfect for me yet for some reason I can't stop thinking about this other girl that I only went out with once almost a complete year ago.
>>713314444
Witnessed
>be me rn
>freind known since preschool
>crush since forever
>been around her since before I could speak
>setting me up with freinds
>wants me to be happy
>i know she never can, because for that I would need her
>>713316863
damn. I'll do something. I have to. I'll find a way.
>>713317496
quads is one in a thousand, so its honestly not that rare quints is what you should be looking for friendo.
>>713292199
in case any of you want's to check the autor, his name is Joel Kilpatrik, and this one's tittle is "ticket please"
>>713292199
http://joelkilpatrick.tumblr.com/post/128600801754/ticket-please-redesign-of-gabriel-from-dan
http://jmkilpatrick.deviantart.com/#_=_
>>713292910
I'm calling my Father right now.
I know I am in the wrong bar for this guys but.. I am an extremely happy person. Girlfriend dumped me a month or two ago, thought I would be with her forever, but I am still happy as can be.
I just want to let all those anons out there know that I believe in you. Even if you look at yourself in the mirror and hate life and think no one believes in you... Know that I went through that, and I am an extreme optimist now, and I believe in every fucking one of you. You have my support anons, good luck with your lives, and remember. You. Are. Worth. it.
Am I the only one here that is convinced that free will is an illusion?
>>713320490
I hope it isn't. I really hope it isn't. I choose to believe it exists. It's easier that way, and either way it doesn't matter.
Give me inspiration for suicide
>>713320490
>>713320904
How so? Do you mind listing some examples
met this girl the other day, from texas (I'm in alaska). no accent, easily 8+/10, seemed really into me. I'm sitting here, barely average looking, thinking "whats the catch?". we meet up, fuck, and we start hanging out. a couple days go by and we've gone out every day in between, and she says she wants to start dating, for real. naturally, i said frick yeah my dude, and it was pretty good for a bit. she hasn't talked to me in almost a whole day now, ducking my calls, and her friend told me that she just didn't want to talk to me anymore. I don't really get it
Can I get a bourbon, neat? and a glass of club soda, if you've got it.
>>713320487
I think the reaction to being dumped varies depending on the time of your relationship and the kind of your relationship.
I've been through abuse and neglectance since my mother left my father. My father did care for me but the divorce left him emotionally empty and somewhat unstable. Since I was 6 he worked from 6am to 11pm, didnt really talk to anyone, occasionally beat me over nothing and tried to buy me happiness...didnt really work though. I wonder how I would have turned out if my mother wouldnt have left... I have a deep despite for women and dont really give a shit about my mother.
I read through the divorce papers a few years ago...my mother gave full custody to my father because he paid her 5000 DM. How fucked up is that? She chose money over me.
>>713298070
I'm in the same situation man, except when we were literally about to confess to each other, I fucked up and we had a falling out for a few months. I just recently tried messaging her again, she talks to me but not like before, cold, emotionless, just a few words per message, unlike before. We'll never have what we used to have, again. Feelsfuckingbadman.
Its been 3-4 years since I've come to my first feels thread. Since then I've been viewing them almost everyday. I'm scared because I don't think I'll find a girlfriend. Ever. I wanted one when I started high school and I graduated 5-6 months ago. I can't imagine a girl being with me, I'm fat 9(220LB 5'9")and I have 0 motivation to work out. I want to get thin but everyday I go to bed really late and when I wake up I would much rather sleep than go out for a run. I think if I hit 30 and haven't found anyone yet I'll just off myself. I have friends but I always feel alone. I feel like they aren't going to stay. Rarely do they ask me to hangout with them. I just don't want to end up with nobody again.
>>713321154
Cont.
But I am in a stable relationship now since 6 years, even though I am impulsive, somewhat aggressive and controlling...my gf knows how to manage and handle me.
The first 5 years of our relationship we lived at my fathers place and she even managed to get him out of his shell... he is happy for me and he even came on a few vacations with us (never did before)... life improved.
And I know, I would completely loose my shit if she would leave... we had a huge fight 3 years ago and were on a “time out“. I didnt eat 3 weeks, rarely drank something non alcoholic...I felt weak and sick.
>>713292199
when you realise that poor, sad and most probably crazy old man was this guy on his youth
>>713321154
I don't know why but I just really wanted to respond to you. After this sort of thing in adulthood you're just left feeling empty and broken. It's so hard to meet anyone that you really connect with. It feels like no-one could ever understand how abuse changes the way you think. But I really do believe that it will happen. Are you okay?
>>713293124
fuck. this hits way too close to home. i think im going to kill myself
>>713295957
No, she has to think about me.. at least for a moment or two, like once in a while
>>713322191
You're better than that anon. keep up the work and improve yourself. You'll look back and wonder what you were so sad and worried about. Trust me, that's how i feel most of the time now.
so tired. need to go home. so hungry. it's cold. i feel numb.
>>713307007
I did. Don't know when I stopped, she noticed before I did.
