Help, /b/ im delressed out of my mind tonight. Im failing classes in college, do nothing but play skyrim all day and browse /b/ holidays are killing me and I habe bo motivation
Also, Feels thread
>>713031556
I'm almost repeating my school
>>713031556
what classes? me I just say fuck it and take it online the next semester
>>713031556
skyrim and /b/ are far more important than your future and education, dont sweat it
>>713031679
Cant do online, i'll do even worse
>>713031556
I live in another country, differents systems, but i'm 16 years old
>>713031556
What is it that you want to do in life OP?
Do you smoke weed?
Well, I tried to do something that hopefully would help in breaking down the wall that is keeping her from reaching out to me even as just a friend.
Basically tried catching up with her a bit, and mentioned how we should talk more often. We did talk for like 20 minutes, but then went dark for a couple hours and sent a shortish response (Could be that her phone was just about dead)
After that, I mentioned that it was nice catching up with her, and that we should talk more often. But no reply on that yet, granted she did say was traveling (WV to NYC, ~9 hrs) so that could be why.
Hopefully she responds favorably.
>>713031556
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NPYtm6XFAFE
Yes, he's wearing a Guy Fawkes mask in the video. Not even the first time he's had that in his videos.
>>713031556
So, why are you unmotivated?
>>713033099
I dont know what I eant to do, dont really want to do.amytbing tbh, and yes I smoke, occaisionally
>>713033860
Idk, I just feel like doing anything. when it comes to doing stuff like gimework, I just cant bring myself to do it
>>713034148
>oldfool here
been there, done that, got a hangar full of tee's
Do you know, why you don't feel like doing anything homework wise? Is the stuff too difficult for you ? (Not mocking you, legit question)
>>713031556
Take some MDMA. Trust me. You will feel truly happy again. It worked for me. I tried it after a year of serious Depression because why the fuck not. Besteht thing that happened to me, because it showed me that i am not lost. It gave me such a drive to move on and focus on the beautiful things in life.
>>713033882
Is there anything in particular that you want to see/feel? touch/taste
maybe something youve always wanted to do but never thought to be realistic or possible?
>>713034595
No, id say im competent enough, just cant seem to be able to bring myself to do anything
>>713033523
How can I keep my mind off her for now?
>>713034620
If I could id just play skyrim for the rest of my life, but I know id hate myself for not doing anything meaningful
>>713035640
have you considered going to the doctor for depression?
I went and got put onto anti-depressants and theyve changed my life really..
>>713035786
are you a male nurse by any chance?
>>713035786
Been considering but idk how my fam will take it, I still live with em. I feel ashamed about my depression.
>>713036097
kek no but i can see why you might think so,
>>713036344
personally ive taken SSRIs since april of 2015 and the way i feel and my outlook on life has only improved since then. I understand, as I'm growing older i'm realising that depression in particular is so common. Personally i think that if you want help and want to help yourself there is no need to feel ashamed.
just something to think about
OP, Just learn CSS on Khan and Java on Code Accedmy. Dropout and charge boomers 2k for basic websites. I dropped out three years into a finance degree and did this. I make more than any of my school friends.
>>713036644
checked. I was just asking because I once got tricked by a male nurse in one of these threads, and you sounded similar to him.
> be me
> two hours ago
> make pof account with this pic
> say I'm looking for a cuddle buddy
> spend an hour sending messages to women
> no responses
> suddenly get logged out
> can't log back in
I put all that effort in. I had little hope of finding anyone, but I tried anyway. Getting banned before even getting a single response really demoralized me. I knew finding someone would be tough, but now I see it's impossible.
>>713031556
>skyrim
At least play something good. Try Dark Souls, that'll cheer you right up.
>>713037484
What would happen if a girl farts while you're fucking her in the ass? Really, I'd like to know.
>>713035530
>oldfool here
My sack full of two cents:
>life can suck. Full stop.
Having said that, there's light at the end of the tunnel.
Reason why you "all" are depressed/demotivated because I think you "youngins" realize for yourself that currently the world is full if shit, idiots run the country, everybody is just out for their own benefit.
And it's true, after school you'll eventually find someone to have a life partnership, and eventually some kids, pay taxes, work 9-5, day in day out, year in year out.
Until you keel over
What else is there then?
IMHO psychotherapy gets you to ask yourself to find out why you feel the way you do, to find the root of the cause/effects you're in, to resolve them (and to prevent being a danger to society)
You need to find your niche, what you would like to do.
It won't be easy! We live in times of drastic changes, in which real robots and artificial intelligence will transform the job market drastically. In which more and more specialization is happening.
You won't get around to work to put butter on the table, and education is the key for you to "understand the fundamentals of today's life" yo be able to sustain yourself.
Creativity is the key here.
Start small, find your cause of 'blockage', work on it in small steps.
Get a "social environment" that supports you - in the real world, not in cyberspace.
Money and power doesn't make one happy, nor the life easier. I have worked for wealthy people; they too cook with just water, and bleed the same as everyone else.
Find your nice what you like to do, for yourself, in the meatspace, and keep doing it until you excel in it.
Trust me, things will fall in place, but it takes time and effort unfortunately.
Set some goals in life for you to have a sort of "path" and work towards them to help you along.
>>713037484
Are you fucking kidding? You used that picture for your profile? Yer a feckin psychopath
>>713037889
I assume you're kidding?
>>713037741
Why are you asking me?
>>713037741
I don't think you can fart and or poop with a dick in your ass.
>>713036896
Oh right, that's quite disturbing though as expected of /b/
>>713031556
Hang in there OP
We are all pieces of shit here
I lost my girlfriend, my apartment and on the verge of loosing my job because I can't get out of bed.
Abusing prescription medication and whatever else I can to numb it.
Play video games and do whatever the fuck you want. Trust me, it's easier being down then it is trying to be up
>tfw you get the feeling you posted this thread without even realizing it
>>713038724
Feels like i've posted this many times before
>>713036644
Sauce
>>713031556
well obviously you dont give a shit then if your gonna waste your tuition and fail classes. go fuck off and quit skyrim and do the work to succeed in college or quit college and go get a job you lazy cunt.
>>713032542
b&?
>>713037484
>>713033523
>oldfool here
Women are a fickle thing but to a point easy to handle if given certain frameworks:
Women are biologically set to go for a "protector & provider". Full stop.
What that means in today's world, someone who earns enough wage to support a family, and handles "the worldly affairs outside the home".
Women need affection and attention. "Kiss her like you miss her, fuck her like you hate her", "don't ask if she's wet, check it out for yourself"(means, put your fingers in her crotch)
You need to be assertive, but not asshole'y.
Reading a woman can be a bitch, but generally they'll give you the right cues to let you know.
The right woman for you will tell you in your face what's up and what's not.
Ignore the bitches, whiners, gold digger.
Beauty isn't everything. You don't have to go for Quasimodo's sister, but important is, what she has in her head, her heart and how hot the fire in her crotch burns. Also check that about 70-80% of same interests and hobbies are mutually the same.
Less than that and there is too much friction to last, more than that things go stale quickly and fall apart.
Tell your woman HOW YOU FEEL about something. We men have the tendency to keep silent of what bugs us, and resolve them issues quietly. Women come usually to same conclusion but they chatter themselves to pieces getting there, which is why listening to them is so crutial to a woman.
Those are my experiences, and have given me lots of fun with the opposite sex
>>713031556
Now, do you want a feels thread or an advice thread? You can't have both.
i dont even feel like a human anymore im so empty i feel like a husk just existing day to day i dont feel anything anymore i literally feel like im watching my life i am so dissociated that i dont know if this is real or im just watching a movie or something Fuck i hate this i dont want to die but i dont really wanna live like this anymore
>>713037484
I took a look at the process of reporting someone. Maybe my image was reported as copyrighted? It really got me down. I could really use someoneto talk to. I have two friends that I really want to ask to cuddle right now. One is a girl I dated years ago briefly. We stayed friends, sometimes being more than friends. She's pregnant right now (16 weeks). Her boyfriend was murdered a couple months ago. The other is a newish friend. Met her a few months ago. We hit it off as friends instantly. I asked her out a few weeks ago. She said no. She'd told me that she doesn't date way back when we met.
I don't think asking either would be a good idea. The pregnant one is going through a lot right now, and trying to be more than friends in any way would probably just hurt the friendship. The other girl would probably think I'm never going to stop trying to be more than friends and not want to be friends anymore. But the feels right now are hard to deal with.
>>713031556
where are you from OP?
>>713031556
OP, This is what you have to do. This is what I do when I'm depressed...
Make a Half-Life 2 mod. Delve into the Half-Life universe. Here's how:
STEP 1) If you haven't already, play and beat Half-Life 1, Half-Life: Opposing Force, Half-Life: Blue Shift, Half-Life: 2, Half-Life 2:Episode 1, and Half-Life 2: Episode 2.
STEP 2) Read about the HL story line like crazy.
STEP 4) Play CW:HL2RP on Gmod.
STEP 5) Buy Half-Life 2 Merch. This one is optional, but I bought myself a gravity gun replica, Civil Protection gas mask, head crab hat, head crab plush, an exclusive HL2 book on the HL2 story and how the game was made, a crowbar, 10 Black Mesa Badges, a Gordon Freeman Action Figure (with crowbar, headcrab, pheropod, and gravity gun), HL2 Mousepad, and HL2 Shirts.
STEP 6) Learn how to map.
STEP 7) Make HL2RP maps.
STEP 8) Start making HL2 mods.
I already posted in another thread and on /soc/ but i'll post it here too.
My life was a bad string of bad events, my uncle dying through overdose, my girlfriend cheating on me with my best friend, a person that i would've died for, other close friend commiting suicide and a looooooot of drug problems. People who see me on the street or who know me have respect for me and know that i would do anything for anyone but doing this just exposed me to more pain. Walking the path of an actual good guy who does good deeds is the hardest path you can take. All of this and so much more became too much to handle. I mistreated my mom, thinking she doesn't understand the struggle I went through, one day I got caught and was send to jail. Sitting in a cel with 5 other persons was the only reason I didn't commit suicide right then and there. Coming out of jail was hard as fuck, reality hitting right where it hurts, i found myself tying a noose and setting everything up, I wrote my suicide note and just thought this world would be better without me, just as I was about to jump, with that rope around my neck, my mom came in and started screaming. She convinced me to come down and she held me in her arms for hours, just sobbing. After this event I opened my eyes, and started to realise that i should be stronger than most people and that I shouldn't let something stupid like depression beat me. I went to work on my body first, which boosted my confidence so hard, after that I started school again, better late than never. Right now, I am probably happier then i have ever been in my life. If you are having suicidal thoughts, just keep in mind that it's an emotion, and if you let the emotion abuse you, it will.
stay safe bruh
>>713039943
All you can do is, go into you and reflect upon yourself WHY YOU and WHY THEM?
what do you want out of this? From them specifically?
Then imagine yourself into their position, then approach them and tell them straight how you feel about them and why you choose them.
From their responses, you'll learn what makes them tick and if it's mutually.
But keep your guards up and don't let your dick nor your loneliness rule the dialogue.
Women get dick-talk 24/7, they're tired of it.
THEN make a decision to go for them or not.
Real woman think things over too and stick with you when times are difficult to work things out.
Them self-entitlement bitches are nothing but trouble. Stay away from those.
>>713040103
Minnesota
>>713040198
Explain the Borealis motherfucker
You guys have no idea how horrible it is for your life and family to be destroyed, and for it to be all your fault. I struggle with whether or not to just OD and die every single day.
>>713041236
The Borealis is a research ship that was originally owned by Aperature Science. It one day mysteriously disappeared. In Episode Two it was revealed that the Combine has control of the ship and it is likely that there is a larger scale portal device being held on the ship. It is also likely that the ship disappeared because of bad safety rules, for they did not follow them because they were in a rush to beat Black-Mesa.
>>713027416
I read
>I make bad choices
>I make bad choices
>I make bad choices
>I make bad choices
>I make bad choices
>feel bad for me because I'm a lazy piece of shit
>>713041236
Explain to me what dark energy and zero-point energy is. And at least two examples on how the Combine/Universal Union uses dark energy to their advantage.
>>713042013
that's all feels thread
a bunch of beta cucks who can't come to the conclusion that, yes, they are responsible for their own shortcomings
>>713042259
>>713042013
Just because it's my fault doesn't mean I'm not allowed to feel like shit about it.
Drop out of school and get a job. Seriously. That might sound stupid but if you slack your way into a shitload of debt.. Or just pick a subject without really being committed to it, you will fuck your life up. One thing u will learn is life takes a long fucking time and to rush through school just get to this "adult" endpoint is retarded. Take it easy. If you want to just play skyrim for a bit do it.. Enjoy it, but pay you're own bills and dont be a pussy about it.
>>713042566
We're not saying you can't.
We're saying you're pathetic.
>>713042904
Drop out of school and get an HL2 job. Dedicate your life to this game. That's what I've done. I've literally been around this game all my life. I started playing it ever since I can remember... I think I was 6 when I first beat the game. Every school writing assignment I've ever got has been about HL2. Dedicate.
>>713043143
Well excuse me for not having perfect rich parents and living in a wealthy low-crime neighborhood.
>>713043308
>he belives that to be happy, you need to surround yourself around materialistic items and materialistic people
i found your issue. it was that easy.
you're rotten to the core. if you believed that people who were happy were people who come from all different types of backgrounds, you wouldn't have the issues you have right now.
also, fam, i'm poor as dirt.
>>713043308
Bitch my neighborhood was poor as shit. That doesn't mean I can't hustle and feel good bout myself. My mom was a single mom worked two jobs and we were still broke. Hustle. Just some fire under your ass and quit being a bitch.
>>713043799
you have to understand there's outside factors that can influence people. Like parenting, poverty, negative influences especially in the formative years, and it's like, yeah obviously I made my own choices and fucked myself over but maybe it wouldn't have been so bad if I had a good home life or if I had a decent community or support system.
My life is Half-Life, guys. I've been around this game ever since I can remember. I finished the game when I was 6. Before that I'd just piss around in the game. I understood the story seriously by the time I was 8. That was also the year I got my headcrab hat. I loved it so much, I wore it whenever I went to bed. When I was 9, I got a crowbar. I proudly displayed it in my room on the wall. I also got a Gordon Freeman action figure that year. It also came with a little headcrab, crow bar, gravity gun, and pheropod. When I was 10, I got a zero point energy field manipulator replica, a book about the development and story of HL2 (Raising the Bar), and a headcrab plush. When I was 11, I got a Civil Protection gas mask. I tried to LARP, but none of my friends knew what HL2 was. So I got into CW:HL2RP. A little bit after that, I discovered porn. But I've only ever fapped to HL2 porn. Literally. Just Google 'HL2 Porn'. Then when I was 12, I started game designing. I made maps for HL2. Every essay I got assigned in school I somehow related it to HL2. When I was 13, I got a Vive. I began devving in Unity, but with HL2 models and HL2 plots. That brings me to where I am now, 14, (mods dont ban me) making HL2 mods and an HL2 RP server.
This game means everything to me.
Pick a road and walk it. Just do it.
>>713044359
Yeah, I do understand that outside influences can shape a person's life. No two people have the same experience in life, so that's a no-brainer.
But it's all the same with these types of people. People who do absolutely nothing in fixing their flaws put themselves in that position because they don't want to go through the trouble of fixing shit by themselves. Sure, you can blame it on the parents for not teaching their child that they have to pick up the stick in order for it to move, and yeah, you can blame some pedophile for mentally scarring a child, but that doesn't change the fact that it's up to the individual to set it upon themselves to fix the situations that they have.
What you're saying with your logic is that the niggers in Africa are at absolutely no fault on their own. They live in tribal villages and do absolutely nothing productive for the world because "oooh it's the hostile environment" or "oooh it's the corrupting governments surrounding them". No, I will not believe that. It's their fucking fault for not fixing their own problems by them fucking selves.
And it wouldn't have been any different if you were surrounded by any type of people. Well, actually, scratch that. It would either be the same or worse. People in more "modern" societies are nothing but apathetic toward other people's faults. How do you not understand this? This is where you get your feels thread! It's the modern society idiots grouping together to form bullshit threads that deserved to be saged.
If you do not put forth the effort to fix your own problem and do nothing but wallow in them, you are nothing but pathetic.
>>713044600
Opinion on Half-Life 2 beta?
Ever open up SFM?
You ever play those Fakefactory mods with the completely modeled Alyx vagina?
>>713031556
Don't fail, OP. Take it from a guy who has been in college for so long, FAFSA is practically KICKING me out of school if I don't graduate this semester. Not that I've been in for bad grades, rather, I've had to move around a bit and transferred here, and the classes required for my major(s) weren't always available.
I know it's rough, but you really don't want to be stuck at your parents' house trying to figure out how you're going to pay back loans (if you took any) you took out without being qualified for ANYTHING.
>>713045536
I loved Half-Life 2 beta. I really liked the industrial 'New York City' theme. However, I still like the Eastern European theme much, much more.
I used to animate Half-Life videos in SFM, yes.
When I was younger I modded HL2 to make Alyx nude.
>>713044600
you gotta give portal som love too and still keeping your hopes up for HL3?
>>713046130
I like Portal. But tbh the fanbase is kinda shitty. It's like a bunch of feminists and little kids that don't appreciate the story at all, but instead obsess about silly models like the companion cube.
As for Half-Life 3, I am being optimistic. I'm probably going to end up working at Valve when I'm older, and if it's not released by then, I'll make it myself.
Ello m8s, lonely on a saturday night? :(
>>713045295
Man I try, but what the fuck. You know how hard it is to clean up addictions that have been a part of your life for like 60% of your existence? I'm not talking Nicotine. You know how hard it is to make ends meet for a family yourself when you got no college degree and no skills? I work 2 jobs, I'm still behind on my rent.
The system is designed to take anyone who falls behind and hold them there. that's no conspiracy theory. I can't go get help because I can't afford to lose time at work or pay for treatment. I don't qualify for government assistance, which I don't wanna complain about, I understand why and I don't hold that against anyone but myself.
I'm running out of road here. I got no friends to help me, no family to bail me out. I'm fucked, and I'm the dependable one. There's only so much a guy can take before he shoots enough H to turn his brain to soup.
>>713038315
yeah, I think he was from chicago.
>>713031556
Dont worry about it anon, /b/ros matter more than school
I fucking love skyrim, we all do. But focus on school bruh don't shoot for A's just cheat until you get a D
>>713047924
bump
>>713031556
What mods you use in Skyrim? Are you a loverslab kind of player?
>>713046691
>waa waa Do you know how hard it is doing X in life?
Will you quit being so fucking self-centered all the god damn time? This is why you're depressed. All you care about is yourself. All you center your life around is yourself. If you had some loved ones who made good contact with you in your life, you wouldn't have this issue of depression and self-denial.
There are people every day who die from diseases and starvation every fucking day. Do you know the hard life they have to go through? The hard life that is knowing that quite literally every other country hates your guts? Do you?
I don't fucking think so, you god damn baby. Keep whining like that and you'll be plummeting yourself off a rooftop with absolutely no one caring for you as you hit the concrete.
>the system
>hurr derr conspiracy theory time
AHAHAHHAHAHAHAH
You're a fucking joke.
Whatever flavor you want to coat that little conspiracy theory of yours, just know that it's killing you on the inside the more and more you think about it. The """"system"""" you're referring to is common human emotion. Pathetic little shits fall behind and don't want to keep up with the race because they believe that it's "too haarrrrd". Good riddance with them. It's better that the weakest links of the chain were cut off while they were. Do you want to be a weak link? Because you'll get cut off too in the long run with that kind of attitude.
>>713048217
If you can't afford to obtain help from other people, here's a solution: help yourself. It's not hard. Just go cold turkey. People with masturbation addictions go two weeks without it and are instantly cured from whatever insane fetish they once possessed. And hell, you don't even have to take the road alone. There's this little contraption called the internet that allows you to google search stuff like "getting better from addiction" and "ways to get rid of addiction". The only reason you haven't done that is because you're stupid enough to believe that you have to go to some therapist who has a flashy degree and all to get rid of your own problems. It's like a bad case of consumerism.
And the reason you've dug yourself so far is because you don't have any family or friends. Quite literally everyone here is in the same pit as you. Make contact with your relatives and tell them that you want to be helped. Once you've done that, go out and make some fucking friends who are willing to help you as well.
Fun fact: the percentage of people actually helped from rehab is around 5%. The only person who will actually help you solve your issue is yourself. The more you lie to yourself the more you will dig deeper into this hole you have. And the more you dig deeper, the harder it is for me to not just go ahead and say "kill yourself."
>>713047924
Roosevelt's diary entry the day his wife and child died, if anyone was wondering
>>713048217
I do have loved ones. The fuck you think I slave away for?
>Other people have it worse
A dude with cancer can't complain because other people have gunshot wounds or nigger flu or something? That doesn't make sense. It's not a competition.
>>713048242
>Implying drug and alcohol addictions are even comparable to someone who jerks it too much.
Teenager detected. underage b&
>And the reason you've dug yourself so far is because you don't have any family or friends. Quite literally everyone here is in the same pit as you. Make contact with your relatives and tell them that you want to be helped. Once you've done that, go out and make some fucking friends who are willing to help you as well.
Relatives are dead or dependants. Friends are fellow junkies. The hell do you want from me? You think you know shit? you're a kid with a warm bed and good meals and mommy and daddy's credit card. Get fucked. You've never struggled a day in your life.
People who come to feels threads to be dicks are the type of people who are so miserable and broken inside that they need to be assholes to other people to feel any kind of joy.
>>713048762
This is the point where you're just angrily typing on your keyboard to get a (You) in. I can tell, because you're missing key points of what I'm trying to tell you. Calm the fuck down and read it again.
>I do have loved ones. The fuck you think I slave away for?
We all have parents, you fucking idiot. You said that they aren't going to bail you out. The most likely reason that they're not doing this is because they know you're a lost cause, is it?
>A dude with cancer can't complain because other people have gunshot wounds or nigger flu or something? That doesn't make sense. It's not a competition.
You're pampered. That's it. You're a spoiled brat who believes that everything should come at you easy. You were raised as that and you were taught to believe that no matter what comes. My fault for not typing that one up. It's like someone saying that their slightly swollen finger is an equal issue to someone who's currently bleeding out on the table.
>Implying drug and alcohol addictions are even comparable to someone who jerks it too much.
It was a comparison and you completely missed the point of it. What I'm trying to say that all problems can be fixed with time. With a person who masturbates for a long time and then just goes cold turkey, two fucking weeks is a long ass time. Going two weeks without jerking it once, especially when you normally jerk it ten times a day, is a big difference that would be seen as a such by anyone who actually took the time to consider what their life like was in the past.
>>713050051
>Relatives are dead or dependants. Friends are fellow junkies.
Relatives are dead? Alright. Friends are junkies? Get better fucking friends then, you moron. The reason you're in the state you are right now is because you hang around human filth and expect to be treated as such.
>The hell do you want from me? You think you know shit? you're a kid with a warm bed and good meals and mommy and daddy's credit card. Get fucked. You've never struggled a day in your life.
oh look at me i can shitpost too because i'm totally not insecure of my problems nope not at all i'm just going to keep using ad heroem as an actual argument because i'm too prideful to look at myself.
Kys, fam.
>>713049301
If you want a safe space, go to >>>/r9k/. People there are just like you. I can't stand being around them, so there's no chance of meeting up with me there.
If you post on /b/, expect people to shitpost, you fucking moron.
>>713031556
don't be a faggot. you're probably paying for those classes. get your shit together. you don't need motivation. do you want to be homeless? It's not fun dude. you can do this it's not hard man just believe in yourself. remember the alamo
>>713050051
I said they aren't going to bail me out because
>relatives are dead or dependants
I know words are hard when you're 14, but a dependant is like you: someone who cannot or does not take care of themselves financially and relies on someone else.
>Pampered
I grew up in poverty and still live in poverty, but sure buddy. I'm so fucking pampered. You should take the silver spoon out of your mouth and sit on it.
>It was a comparison
that makes zero sense because they are not comparable. Jerking off is not the same as drugs. It's like saying that being a fatass is comparable to alcoholism.
> Get better fucking friends then
Like fucking who? Do you know the kind of people who permeate every facet of my social circle? People who grew up with two parents wear it like a badge of fucking honor.
>too prideful to look at myself
Looking at myself is what I've been doing the entire time. You have zero empathy for anyone but yourself though. You're a typical suburban brat who thinks jerking off and substance abuse are on the same level and that addictions can be cured cold turkey, completely ignoring reality like, oh, I don't know, withdrawal? Which can have lethal side-effects. Some drugs you literally cannot stop using without medical intervention and I already said that's not actually an option.
Edgy teenagers come here acting like they know everything and it's pathetic.
>>713050275
>MUH SAFE SPACE
There's a difference between safe spaces and just not being a douchebag. Like, do you think you're funny? Are you laughing? Because nobody else is dude. You just sound bitter and pathetic.
>"I'm gonna go be mean on the internet, that'll really make me look cool!"
lol
>>713048242
>just google how to get rid of addiction, idiot
underage b&
>>713031556
just drink alcohol. it will all be better in the morning
You can start by learning how to spell
same here man, i failed all my classes my parents dont know anything i wont tell them.
all i do is browse /b/ and play videogames, no social life, no job, no money, i dont know what else to do if i get kick out of college
>>713050051
jesus christ
>>713051234
You still aren't reading my posts. What did I say about typing a response in complete rage? You're not helping yourself, and you're not even affecting me in the slightest.
People go into denial once they realize that they subconsciously understand that yes, they do have a problem. It's part of the five stages of grief.
The reason you're never going to get past the first stage though is because of your pride. You're too blinded by the fact that you believe that you're older than me, that you have much more experience than me. You wish that you were better than me in every single way, and in that wish, you've created a monster of yourself to type out angry letters at some random guy on the internet.
While I understand your anger, you still need to calm the fuck down. Turning this into a shouting match isn't going to solve anything. Hell, it will only make things worse for you in the long run if you never get past this first stage.
>>713052742
>relatives are dead or dependants
Yes, I know what a dependent is. That's why I didn't say anything about them, because I knew that they aren't capable of helping you.
>pampered
You're living in a first world country with a job and dependants. Yeah, you seem much better off than most average people with absolutely nothing.
>comparison
They're both things you can get addicted on. If you want to google how addiction works, be my guest.
>friends
Escape your social circle, change your appearance, and find some people willing to help you. Hell, go to the church if you need to. They're full of people willing to help.
>prideful
Yeah, you're prideful. If you were a decent human being, you would consider what your habits do to the people around you, but you don't. You still hang around your filth circle of friends, you still are having troubles, and you're still posting on "feels" threads. You wouldn't know what empathy is even if it hit you square in the head. If you want to actually complain about something without anyone judging you, go to >>>/r9k/. There are plenty of people there willing to be completely apathetic of your situation.
>>713052742
>>713052828
>go to church
this wasn't supposed to be a cringe thread
>>713051988
>goes on /b/
>lol ur a douchebag
I know it must be hard being mentally retarded, anon. I truly am sorry that I offended you.
>>713053008
found /r/atheism
>>713031556
Same thing, but in my case i wanna die
Probably I will kill myself someday
>>713052024
>Fun fact: the percentage of people actually helped from rehab is around 5%.
>The only reason you haven't done that is because you're stupid enough to believe that you have to go to some therapist who has a flashy degree and all to get rid of your own problems. It's like a bad case of consumerism.
I found someone who hasn't been reading anything.
Yo, I just want to say, can both of you two arguing faggots shut the fuck up and kill yourselves? Thank you!
>>713052828
You're in a feels thread. Don't forget that.
>>713052024
>>713052369
Thanks dudes.
>>713052283
Take it from me man, you have some advantages, don't squander them. Try talking to your professor, being honest, and try to work something out to retake those courses or switch majors.
>>713052742
You're the one who came at me with unhelpful, teenaged wisdom bullshit like "stop doing drugs, it's as easy as not jerking off!" and "get your dependant relatives to help you" and "get new friends" and "Stop being sad, other people don't have food!"
You act like this is some kind of sage wisdom but it's really not. It's the kind of shit that kids spew to try and sound like they're knowledgeable.
>>713052828
Again, you assume unless someone is living in a mud hut in africa starving to death with no limbs, friends or family, they have no right to complain. Again, it's not a competition. I am in an objectively worse off position than the majority of Americans.
>Go to church
I do. Not taking no charity from them. Other people in the community need it more urgently.
Escaping my social circle, huh? Literally HOW? Are you going to pay for me to quit my job, pack up, and move to a better neighborhood? Should I just quit a job so I have the free time to go to the rec center? This is what I mean about teenaged wisdom. You think You're gonna say that shit and I'll go "gee I never thought of that!" What's next? "Get a degree!"? Great idea professor.
> If you were a decent human being, you would consider what your habits do to the people around you,
Literally the first thing I said in this thread was about this.
>>713053326
This. He wants to tell me to learn how addictions work and yet demonstrates zero knowledge on the medical side of addiction.
>>713053597
Trust me. I know.
>>713053065
>huehue I'll call him retarded! That'll make me feel better about my worthless, monotonous existence.
I'm going on grindr to get fucked by black men
Just one of those days
>>713053597
That dude doesn't care lol. He's an edgy teenager.
>>713054003
Hey man, whatever puts pickles in your jar. I guess this expression is a little on the nose in your case.
>>713054780
Just a shitty weekend. One of many.
>>713053730
Oh hey, proof that you haven't been reading my comments. They're green texts from my previous replies. I'm glad to realize that you only partake in feels threads just to waste your life away.
I guess I just proved to you that I have medical knowledge on the side of addiction, huh?
>"stop doing drugs, it's as easy as not jerking off!"
It's like I"m talking to a five-year-old. You only get off of it if you actually try to get off of it. The entire point of no-fap is that it fucking hurts, just like any other addiction, to stop. No fucking shit it's harder. Who the hell is saying that? You're the only one coming to the conclusion that I'm saying it's as easy.
No shit it's not. You need help if you want to get off of it, which is why I've been telling you to find better friends who are willing to help you. Your current friends of junkies are only going to encourage you, you fucking moron.
>"get your dependant relatives to help you"
MORE FUCKING PROOF YOU AREN'T READING ANYTHING
I said: "they aren't capable of helping you." God, you're an idiot.
>"Stop being sad, other people don't have food!"
MORE FUCKING PROOF YOU AREN'T READING ANYTHING
I said: "They live in tribal villages and do absolutely nothing productive for the world because "oooh it's the hostile environment" or "oooh it's the corrupting governments surrounding them". No, I will not believe that. It's their fucking fault for not fixing their own problems by them fucking selves."
>>713055282
What I'm trying to say is that they're responsible for their own actions! Same as how you are with yours! I'm not saying that they can't complain! They can complain, but just because they're complaining doesn't mean it's justified!
All you have been using as arguments are ad heroem and facts from your own life. You have not given a single solid reason why you aren't capable of completing the advice given to you other than "ittss haaarrrrrddd". Get up from your comfort zone, you fuck.
>I go to church
Actually taking in the word of god is different than sitting there believing you're being healed. I want you to go to church and seek help. It's the fastest path you have to actual change.
>Escaping my social circle, huh? Literally HOW?
There's this neat little invention called the internet that is also a social platform. It allows you to connect to people in your local area and communicate with them. You can share hobbies, interests, and beliefs with people who you never knew existed. How dumb are you?
>>713053065
Andrew?
>>713031556
start doing drugs
>>713055646
I don't even know an Andrew in my life.
>>713055854
Thought you were him, he often posts on these threads with anime faces. I may of mixed up his name.
>Were you a ex druggie who tried to kill himself after he started smoking crack?
>Pretty sure I mixed up his name...
>>713039927
so true..
>>713056176
Nope, sorry. You've got the wrong person.
>>713055282
I'm reading that, again, you post cold, useless, unsympathetic "Advice" and act holier-than-thou and act like I'm some kind of asshole for seeing through the self congratulatory bullshit you're peddling.
I mean, have you ever even considered stopping for one second to ask what, specifically, might be my story? Seems like when you give advice, most critically thinking individuals would realize context is necessary.
But you're not posting advice or saying anything for my benefit. You're posting for your benefit. You want to be a cunt to me then act like you're smart and so enlightened or whatever. Yet in your infinite wisdom you've done nothing but attack every word out my mouth and dump more and more worthless teenaged wisdom on me.
>>713055317
Literally my first comment was acknowledging my own responsibility for my life.
>You guys have no idea how horrible it is for your life and family to be destroyed, and for it to be all your fault.
And
> facts from your own life
Oh, you mean context? Yeah establishing context is pretty fucking important. And please, you're so naive.
>Get up from your comfort zone,
Proof right here that you're a child. Because nobody with any real experience in life thinks it's as simple as "oh I'll put some effort into it!". Again, you keep dropping teen wisdom like I'm gonna go "HALLELUJAH, THAT'S JUST WHAT I NEEDED TO HEAR!"
>the internet that is also a social platform. It allows you to connect to people in your local area and communicate with them. You can share hobbies, interests, and beliefs with people who you never knew existed. How dumb are you?
Yeah and look at how socializing on the internet's going for me right now, dipshit.
Plus I won't have internet in another couple of weeks anyways. Cable's already been cut off and internet is next. That's life. Before you open your maw about the library, I don't have time before work and that shit is closed after work.
>>713055796
Bad advice man. Drugs fucked me up.
>>713056635
Shitty, oh well. Sorry about the confusion I was speaking to him before and I wanted to say Sorry to him.
>Pizza with green olives. The meaning of Cancer... Something he will know
Don't 404
the 2 mb limit is gay, I can't post Elisa's story anymore.
>>713056838
Hope you find him again, anon. Good luck.
>>713056806
>self congratulatory bullshit you're peddling
what bullshit? oh, don't tell me you couldn't fill it in because of the character limit. provide examples to what you're stating as fact.
>what, specifically, might be my story?
You were either scarred as a child or lead by a bad influence which brought you up to where you are now. If it isn't either of those, then go ahead. I'll be listening. It's your call to tell you your own story. It's your own story, after all.
>most critically thinking individuals would realize context is necessary.
giving advice isn't as logical as you think it to be, considering that a person could be spouting nothing but ad heroem to further aggravate only themselves.
>You're posting for your benefit.
don't tell me you couldn't fit that in the character limit as well. provide examples to what you're stating as fact.
>You want to be a cunt to me
I act like a cunt because the only language people take advice from is a strong, affirmative, confident person. If I were weak-willed and posting "maybe"'s in my comment, you would believe yourself better than me. This is conversation 101. You don't have to take offense to anything that I give to you. I certainly haven't with anything you've posted so far. Being on /b/ gets me accustomed to that kind of stuff.
>worthless teenaged wisdom
worthless because it's not a simple button-press fix, am I right?
>>713058402
Look, anon. The reason I'm typing these comments is because I actually want to help someone get rid of their problems. But if you're going to cry over how hard it is and how troubling it is to actually take the first step, then no one is going to take you seriously and it will only devolve into a shitfest. When the truth is bleak and tough, learn to embrace it. It's not that hard to just accept the fact that people, including you, can fuck up. And no, accepting the fact that you are the sole issue of it all isn't enough. You have to actually go ahead and try to fix it. You can't wallow in these pitiful threads and expect pity from everyone around you. That's not how it works in the slightest.
You keep on using words that denominate me to being a teenager and a child, but have you at least looked at it once that maybe you're the one being the child in this conversation? You're the one with issues, and when a person comes along to tell you solutions, you're up and all like "lol no faggot get rekt hahahaha owned".
Find some friends that aren't in feels thread, you moron. This is the worst place to find them. Go on normiebook and look for some people nearby. Go on tinder and meet up with some girl. It's just one step away. If you don't have internet, go to the local library or wifi providing food restaurant. Most libraries give library cards and internet access for free.
>>713058437
Fuck you. I hope you kill yourself tonight
>>713058762
Knowing this thread, I can safely say that you'll be more likely to do that before me.
If you want to actually solve something in your life, try reading my replies as a starter.
>>713058402
Worthless because it's generalist advice that has only a tangential relevance.
>It's your call to tell you your own story.
Like I'd give you ammo to use on me.
>I act like a cunt because the only language people take advice from is a strong, affirmative, confident person. If I were weak-willed and posting "maybe"'s in my comment, you would believe yourself better than me. This is conversation 101.
This is literally the most childish shit I've seen on 4chan in a long time. You're a teenager trying to advise a grown man. "strong, affirmative, confident person." Do you even know what those traits mean? You don't come across as strong, affirmative or confident. You come across as an asshole with no empathy and a serious ego problem.
> I actually want to help someone get rid of their problems.
Nah, you really don't, because again, you lack even the most basic form of empathy. You lack understanding and insight into the human experience to the point where you leave me wondering if you actually have autism or something else that makes you struggle with communication and empathy. You don't have context. You don't know the steps I've taken. I said before, you're saying shit like it should be a revelation to me, but it's not. It's all old news.
Your problem is that you fail to comprehend the most basic reason these threads even exist - because sometimes, people really have tried everything. Sometimes people really are stuck. And sometimes, what people need more than advice or some asshole doing his best cunty pep talk impression, is for someone to just listen and at least pretend they give a shit.
People don't come here for advice. They come here because sometimes it helps to just air your grievances and feel fucking cared about. To be able to shout and have people listen and share the moment with you.
But you don't understand that, because you don't care. You're here to drop generalizations and troll people.
>>713058437
> when a person comes along to tell you solutions,
Except you don't want to listen when those generalized, unhelpful solutions are called out for being unhelpful. That's your problem. I didn't go "By golly, you're right mister!" so now you have to be as big of a prick as possible.
I called you a child because your advice is the type of advice teenagers give each other when they lack the life experiences and maturity to understand that many situations are nuanced and generalized advice cannot possibly help most people, because it's just the usual common-sense shit everyone already knows. And because you appear to have zero empathy or willingness to learn context before you start spouting nonsense.
>>713058762
Hey, come on. The guy may be a dick but that's a little uncalled for. Ease up.
bump
>>713059029
do you have some disease that doesn't allow you to comprehend human emotions or are you just narcissistic, fucking sociopath
>>713031556
Take some adderall pham
Fuck all this about being sad over a girl. Yeah that sucks, but what really sucks is slowly realizing that you are losing friends that you have had for years, and it's all your fault.
>>713036644
Which ones?
My feels song right now: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8mJiIUdn5D0
I'm unhappy with my life. Sucks to think that a year ago, I was pretty content, and everything kinda went to shit in January of this year.
Still, just trying to move forward as best as I can. Starting back up at uni this January.
Stay strong, /b/ros.
>>713059734
It's not like you'll read an entire sentance, but oh well.
>Like I'd give you ammo to use on me.
I was spot on, wasn't I?
>You don't come across as strong, affirmative or confident. You come across as an asshole with no empathy and a serious ego problem.
No shit it doesn't come off as different for you. Anyone who doesn't support your heinous acts deserve a lynching, according to you. Why do you think you go on feels threads? Oh that's right, so then you won't have to lynch anybody, is that right? Of course it is.
>This is literally the most childish shit I've seen on 4chan in a long time.
Tell him good advice and he dismisses it as being "childish". Sums up this conversation quite well.
>you lack even the most basic form of empathy
you're confusing empathy with apathy.
empathy (n.) - Identification with and understanding of another's situation, feelings, and motives. See Synonyms at pity.
apathy (n.) - Lack of interest or concern, especially regarding matters of general importance or appeal; indifference.
When you are empathetic, you try to bring people to a better state than what they are at currently. When you're apathetic, all you care about is getting "aww that's so bad" replies to your post as you continue your pathetic life in a feels thread.
>You lack understanding and insight into the human experience
The only thing I lack is the ability to talk to someone as stupid as you. OOO GOTTEM
How does it feel to be at the receiving end? Not good? I don't really care, either way. I'm apathetic for your feelings, but I'm empathetic with your motives, since I continue to reply to your stupid posts.
>if you actually have autism or something else that makes you struggle with communication and empathy
god i love 4chan. someone is different than you? just blame it on autism.
>You don't have context. You don't know the steps I've taken.
HAHAHHAAHHAAHAHAHAH
YOU'RE LITERALLY SJW TEIR RIGHT NOW
AHAHHAHAHAHHAHAHAHA
>>713061996
>It's all old news.
which is what concerns me. If you were told this all before, then you should be changing yourself. yet you're not. Why is that? Do you believe that you're better than everyone who has said what I've said over and over again? Do you believe that you're better than literally the entire human race? That may be a bit of a stretch, but i know you think you're better than at least me.
>because sometimes, people really have tried everything.
or more like people believe that they have tried everything so they give up and act completely pathetic in front of people who are also in the same pathetic situation. there are about 12 feels threads put up every day on 4chan and convincing those people is a breeze. you're a moron. did i say that already? Either way, you're a moron.
>advice or some asshole doing his best cunty pep talk impression
advice comes in all forms. its your job to realize that. if you're too dumb to take advice, then of course you're doomed here forever.
>pretend they give a shit.
that's apathetic
>People don't come here for advice.
which is why they're pathetic
>They come here because sometimes it helps to just air your grievances and feel fucking cared about.
I already told you: Find friends or go to the church. You will get the same as that but with actual help, as people around you will be willing to help you fix your issues.
>>713062053
>But you don't understand that, because you don't care.
Because you're this far in your own little world:
care (n.) - An object or source of worry, attention, or solicitude
You have my attention. I'm telling you to continue on with your problems. You're the one who believes that you shouldn't give me any more "ammo", or what ever that is.
>Except you don't want to listen when those generalized
if I didn't then I would completely ignore your comments and leave the thread immediately after making one post to "kill yourself"
>unhelpful solutions are called out for being unhelpful
same as hard solutions are called out as being unhelpful to you, since all you want are fast easy push of a button solutions
>I didn't go "By golly, you're right mister!" so now you have to be as big of a prick as possible
I held the same attitude from reply #1, m8.
>>We're not saying you can't.
>>We're saying you're pathetic.
>I called you a child because your advice is the type of advice teenagers give
If what you need right now is teenager level advice, then doesn't that make you realize how badly you've fallen now? How does it feel that a typical teenager has a much better time of comign to their own mistakes than you, a grown adult? It sucks, doesn't it? Suck it up. Even if it's teenager-level advice, it's still what you need. You've deemed it teenager level because you've heard it so many damn times. If you've heard it so many times, don't you think that it could be true?
>the usual common-sense shit everyone already knows
not people like you, apparently
>zero empathy or willingness to learn context before you start spouting nonsense.
you're confusing apathy with empathy
Do you really think I don't care if I would type this much?
>>713061417
>tells me to kill myself
>calls ME the sociopath
kek
I have a feeling you don't understand the words you're using, as well.
>>713031556
As someone who couldn't "handle" college. Life doesn't end when school does. Keep learning. Maybe not in school but man, just learn something take a trade or learn how to code. thats what I did, and I make a decent living. I literally hate my life and my family still. But, I like to learn. Keeps me going, it might keep you going.
>>713061996
>>713062053
>>713062128
Ultimately you come here pretending like you're giving good advice and that you care, and you through around apathetic with no understanding of what it means (even though you posted the definition, confirming that even with the definition you're incapable of comprehending a simple concept).
Again, you tell me to do shit left and right without any context, and that is why you will never be useful here.
So get this through your thick fucking skull.
I never asked for an easy solution. I never asked for advice either, your narcissistic cunt. You are firmly convinced that you're the hero of the thread. Fuck you and your attitude.
Your failure to comprehend basic empathy is a key symptom of autism. Since you continue to struggle with this concept, autism becomes even more apparent.
Also, apparently saying that you need to know what the fuck you're talking about before you start talking makes me a SJW. Guilty as charged, you fucking idiot.
I already said your advice was unhelpful, so clearly it's not what I need right now. Just because self-absorbed middle class morons parrot something without any comprehension of the situation at hand, doesn't make it true. Millions of people believed that the earth was flat.
And quit saying apathy. You're the only one here who is displaying apathy.
>Do you really think I don't care if I would type this much?
That's just it though. You're here to feed your narcissistic ego.
Again, you don't know shit about my life and yet you think that without any context you can provide me a manual for how to solve all my problems. You're like the dumbass who says "be more careful" when people get into an accident. Oh, just be careful? Great one genius. Just be more careful. My point is that smartass advice isn't actually real, helpful advice.
>>713031556
i lost my job and house years ago, im unemployed and have never had friends, never really had any fun and live with my parents, the world is pointlessly shit.
>>713035530
Get a hammer. Break your game console. Cancel your cable, if you have it. Unplug your tv cord. Cut it in half.
>>713042566
If you eat poisoned berries and start puking your brains out, then next time you even see them, your brain will give you a very visceral reaction. It's saying
> don't eat that again
You can't stop this feeling. It is a deep, emotional programming meant to keep you from doing stupid shit in the future.
What you've described here? Feeling like shit is your brain's way of discouraging you from doing what you're doing.
But you're not getting the lesson. You're wallowing in your feels.
No one gives a fuck how you feel. So, learn the lesson your brain is trying to give you and stop doing what you're doing.
>>713063257
>says I can't use the definition
>doesn't use an example
You've learned nothing, OP. I bet you've made your teachers very disappointed.
And yes, I don't need context to give teenager-level kind of advice. This is simple shit, yet you're the only one who's incapable of understanding it. You're like some diva girl in a broken family. All you do is complain and complain some more, but when you are given what you want, you shout "YOU'RE NOT EMPATHETIC!" and "BUT WHAT ABOUT MYYYYY CONTEXT???" You're pathetic, anon.
>thick fucking skull.
it'd be too easy to say something here, so i wont
>I never asked for an easy solution. I never asked for advice either, your narcissistic cunt.
Yeah, I too just love self-wallowing in my own pathetic mistakes! I really do enjoy it! Trust me, I know what I want! I'm completely 100% in CONTROL with my life! This ride isn't going to crash any time soon!
>Your failure to comprehend basic empathy
definitions are only correct when they suit you, huh?
I'll tell you again: I don't care about your feelings. Feelings is for the pathetic. I care about your shitty motives, because you're going to harm someone other than yourself sooner or later. You've said it yourself that you know this, so why not fix your issues before that happens? Oh right, you're too prideful. You just want to take all the glory of fixing your issues yourself, yet you just for some reason can't leave this argument. ;))))
>autism becomes even more apparent.
nu ur atiskik
It's like I'm arguing with a child. Oh hey, GOOTTEEEM!!!
Hurts, doesn't it?
>>713064717
>I already said your advice was unhelpful
Then leave. Kill yourself. No one will care if you do it. Not your parents, nor your """friends""". Though your friends just might, since that hinders their drugs, maybe. I can safely say that I won't.
>apparently saying that you need to know what the fuck you're talking about before you start talking makes me a SJW
Yep. I apparently need to hear
YOUR
>HER
story in order to solve
YOUR
>HER
problems.
>Just because self-absorbed middle class morons parrot something without any comprehension of the situation at hand, doesn't make it true.
ITS A CONSPIRACY THEORY GUIS!
THEYRE ALL LYING!!!!
IM RIGHT! THEY"RE WRONG! I"M ALL 100% RIGHT! YEP! JUST ME!
Quit fooling yourself.
>feed your narcissistic ego.
You can call a banana an apple all you want. In the end of the day, you're just lying to yourself. Just like you with your conspiracy theories from up above, you apply them to people as well. You believe that everyone has some kind of ulterior motive to what they're doing, but never really think about why they would go out of their way to do something. Sure, go ahead and believe I'm narcissistic. I've already told you that I don't care about your feelings, I only care about your shitty motives.
The reason you don't want to give me any evidence of your life is because you're afraid that I'm right. If you want to change your mind, hit me up at [email protected] It's an alternate email address with nothing but a discord linked to it, so I won't care if you spam it or try to hack into it. If you want help, I'll always be waiting, as strange as that sounds.
>You're like the dumbass who says "be more careful" when people get into an accident.
but that's actually good advice.
oh wait, look who i'm talking to.
>>713064605
>implying
that's not how addiction works dipshit.
>>713064717
You're the one whining because I'm calling you out on your bullshit. Yes, context is important.
>Feelings is for the pathetic.
Autistic child detected. Full stop right here. Why are you even in a feels thread if you think - you know what? I don't care. I'm not even reading the rest of that retardation.
Peace. Much love brother. Good luck in life.
>>713064758
Jesus christ anon, you're possibly the most narcissistic douche on 4chan. Why are you here?
>>713065179
>>Feelings is for the pathetic.
Now you're stuffing words in my mouth! Oh wait, this isn't the first time you've done that.
If context is so important, then how about you finish what you started, faggot.
Join my room
https://www.dubtrack.fm/join/247-chill-room-anything-goes
Request any music and chat with other anons about whatever, music heps me get in a better music so I just thought I'd share.
>>713065367
>having an argument makes you a narcissistic douchebag
I could call you an autistic spastic for even making that sentence and that would have as much effect as you calling me a narcissistic douchebag.
>>713065534
spastic autist*
>>713065380
but... but he didn't... that was a direct quote from you right here
>>713064717
>"I'll tell you again: I don't care about your feelings. Feelings is for the pathetic. I care about your shitty motives, because you're going to harm someone other than yourself sooner or later. You've said it yourself that you know this, so why not fix your issues before that happens? Oh right, you're too prideful. You just want to take all the glory of fixing your issues yourself, yet you just for some reason can't leave this argument. ;))))"
>"I don't care about your feelings. Feelings is for the pathetic. I care about your shitty motives,..."
>."Feelings is for the pathetic. "
>>713065534
Yeah but dude you're being a selfish jerk about it. Arguing is fine but you're clearly in the wrong here.
>>713062273
im not the same person i lurk these threads, but you seem to not to have any social sense. go to feels threads and wonder why people are sad, call them retards. you dont know these people you dont know what theyve been through, you dont try to comprehend that, you just want to seem like the bigger man. Thus why I called you a narcissist and sociopath.
>>713065380
>>713065179
HOLY SHIT. BOTH OF YOU SHUT THE FUCK UP! ITS BEEN LIKE 2 HOURS OF THIS SHIT!!!!! HOLY CHRIST!!!!!
>>713065367
>>713065643
>>713065657
Just leave it guys. It's obvious he just wants attention. Ignore him. He'll go away when he stops getting his (you)'s.
>>713032184
are you sure? I like normal classes, but with online, it's easier to keep track of everything.
I'm hurt anons... Broken. I'm a piece of shit. One of the rarest persons you could meet in life. Someone who actually cares about me. I'm hurting her, I'm abusing her care for me by constantly being negative. I'm not myself. I can't think straight. I don't even know who I am anymore. I'm a fucking mess...
>>713063257
I, for one, would like to hear your story, if you're willing to share :) I've shared my story here before, and I feel like you could use a drinking buddy tonight, even if it is only online.
>>713065969
Wanna share mate? Talk about it. No judgement from me.
>>713066115
If you're sure, then alright. I guess I'll just greentext it.
>>713065643
>Feelings is for the pathetic.
My mistake. The entire argument was him putting words in my mouth, and tbh I'm quick to give a response.
I'll correct myself to what I actually meant:
>I don't care about your feelings. Feelings is all you have for your pathetic self.
And since when do you have to be kind with the person you're arguing? That dude was doing nothing but calling me a child the entire argument yet no one bats an eye? Alright, fam.
>>713065678
Well, he quit, so we're done now.
>>713065657
Yeah, I'm aware that this is a feels thread. The entire point of these threads is supposed to be a safe space for those who have the "feels." I'm not against the prospect of venting out your feelings toward people with a similar issue, but if you aren't doing anything to fix yourself while doing it, then you're just pathetic. It's harsh, I know, but would you encourage some hobo who fucked your dog to keep on being a hobo just because "he's living a hard life, let him go"?
If all you do all day is tell people that it's going to be fine without giving any kind of pointer as to how to fix their problems, then they'll never get anything done. This is why I stated previously that only 5% of rehab clients are actually fixed at the end of their trials. Giving them an environment like a feels thread does nothing to fix them, it only encourages them.
This is also why I believe all of these threads should just move to >>>/r9k/. There's a board that already exists for you people, why not just go there? It's like some autist spamming mlp porn on /b/.
>>713066115
Mate... I've never cried for anyone except my mom and her. I'm shaking, I don't know how I'll go through the day without knowing we talk. She's my best friend. She's the reason I'm the person i am rn. She's got me out of my shell. Introduced me to all my friends. We love eachother... But not romantically anymore. It was fine until she confessed feelings again. She got cold feet. And I realized I'm still madly in love with her. I've been depressed cuz we never got back to that. Its affecting me severely. I'm not my good friendly self anymore. I've hardened, I can't even flirt anymore because I think about her...so I can't forget even if I wanted too. Seeing this worseer version of me, she blames herself for making me this ugly way. She's been saying I'm sorry. But its me. I can't let go. I can't forget that... There's more I think.. I don't know anymore.I just want her to not leave me.
>>713066917
you're view on this thread is irrelevant since you dont seem to understand what its for. the point of venting is having someone listen and understand its called having friends, you didnt want the thread to be here you shouldnt have opened it in the first place, go enjoy more dick rate threads if this thread is too real for ya,
>>713067200
You have to let her go man. Not for yourself, but for her. You love her, you want her to be happy, and you want her to have a good life. You know what you need to do to make that happen. I know it's hard to hear and even harder to comprehend, but you will meet another woman some day, and you will love her just as fiercely.
>>713067530
>the point of venting is having someone listen and understand its called having friends
Like I said to him, these threads aren't good for finding "friends". No, telling people your troubles doesn't make you their friends, it only makes you a stranger with a similar issue. Actual friendship and internet commonality is two different things. A friend will be willing to have your back, even through thick or thin. The people in this thread? All they care about is themselves and how much they want others to pity them. Sure, it's good with that as it lets people vent, but it's nowhere near efficient in the department of creating genuine friendships.
Have you seen what a /r9k/ chat looks like? Or maybe even a discord? It's 100% people complaining about their lives with 0% of the people giving advice as to how to fix it. This is why they are stuck in here. This is why only 5% of clients at rehab centers have success. It's because people like you believe that "getting better" is only the easy part (venting) without going through the hard part (actually fixing).
>Was born the youngest of 5 kids.
>My oldest brother was Michael. My sister Jasmine was after him. Then my sister Leah. Then my brother Rob.
>My mom caught my dad cheating on her and threw him out. Strictly speaking, Rob and I weren't his, he was already gone when we were born.
>5 kids, 3 different deadbeat dads.
>Oh yeah, mom was a real catch.
>Michael died before I hit 5. He was stabbed to death over some drug deal gone wrong.
>I was still young. I didn't feel much about it.
>After he died, my sisters both got mixed up with partying.
>Leah was raped at a party, ended up running away with her boyfriend at 17, and we never saw her again.
>Mom tried, but she had a lot of pain. She wasn't very good at being a mom. She was an alcoholic, and she lived on welfare. We barely had enough food to avoid starving to death.
>Look, I don't blame her for her neglect. But she really wasn't the mother that we needed.
>Especially after Leah was raped... We went to the cops the night after and it took 10 minutes before we gave up and went home. Nowadays guys whine about girls falsely accusing them, but back in those days it wasn't even considered rape if you were drunk or you surrendered for safety.
>Jasmine became a baby factory after highschool. Her boyfriend was a failed musician who dropped out of college. They have 4 kids and live on welfare with my uncle.
>Rob killed himself at 23 after his girlfriend cheated on him.
>As for me... I grew up around pure misery. Poverty, death, violence, gangs, that was the daily for me. I started smoking and drinking when I was 12. I would go with my buddy Noah and raid his dad's beer fridge.
>We'd get drunk and chill on the walkway that connected our block of houses with a street lined with shops.
>We started smoking, and everything.
>Look, I was young. I get it, ok? I just wanted to fit in. Noah started doing it, and it made me feel good to party with the guys. I started doing drugs. Real drugs.
>>713067558
Were going to talk tomorrow. Face to face, I don't like texting I prefer a more personal approach. She knows this so well meet up. I don't want this, neither does her. We've been there for each other. I've helped her out of suicide, she's helped me feel like I matter in this world. We both don't want to leave eachother. We've both expressed how well never forget one another. Its just me man. I know its me. Its my fault. But I want to fix it... Romance or not. Its in the past. My best friend is more important. She's more important... Even at the cost of my own suffering... I can't lose her man.
>>713068082
you focused on friends, it was a lack for a better term, the purpose of venting is having someone listen to your problems, you lack the insight to see that it makes a significant difference no matter whose listening. being anonymous on this sight really gives you the opportunity when a feels thread comes up.
>>713068637
on this site*
>>713031556
Just do something that is fun to you, and put more effort in your studies.
it's not impossible.
>>713067530
Ignore him, he feeds on attention.
>>713068234
>Mom ended up losing our welfare rights when I was 16. Rob was 20, still alive and working to start college.
>I started working at McDonalds, and hustling weed, coke, ex and h for some local toughs. That's how we paid bills.
>Whenever something happened - somebody died, somebody got sick, somebody freaked the fuck out, somebody got arrested, somebody ruined their life with drugs, these dudes would shake their heads like a disapproving neighbor and say "that's how it goes in the hood my nigga."
>That's how it goes.
>I had girlfriends here and there. And I'd often give discounts to girls for favors.
>If you ever wanna get laid, sell drugs. Doesn't matter if you're the smelliest, ugliest, fattest piece of shit, these girls will suck the cheese right off your dick for a line of coke or morphine.
>That's how I met this girl named Kayla.
>I was supplying her with coke.
>She was a year younger than me.
>Real pretty. Not fucked up too bad.
>Still kind of... well, she lived in the hood with us.
>She wasn't some virgin princess but I didn't care.
>Fell in love with her.
>We started seeing each other, having sex, and partying together.
>Look, it's no excuse, but I was really fucked up on all kinds of drugs back then, and my tolerance wasn't as high as it is today.
>I cheated on her a bunch, passed on an std to her.
>She dumped me, and I felt like shit.
>It was the first time I legitimately felt like a bad person.
>I knew what I needed to do. I stopped selling, and picked up a second job. I didn't finish high school, I was supposed to repeat some classes, do a 5th year, but I didn't. I worked in a warehouse at night and a burger king during the day. That was the hustle, man.
>Got my own little place, but I kept falling on the wayside because of drugs.
>>713068637
>the purpose of venting is having someone listen to your problems
>>Sure, it's good with that as it lets people vent,
Yeah. I know that and I acknowledge how good it is on threads like these.
What I'm saying that it lacks in is the advice department, which is why feels boards are nothing but self-pity. While it keeps the anxiety away, it doesn't remove the source of that anxiety. Not removing that source only force people to come back more and more, creating a dependency on these types of threads for depressed people rather than fixing their own issues.
I can understand your situation if you're having trouble with life. Though, if you're just going to do nothing but lie to yourself about it, then nothing will be solved. I can't be comforting toward someone when I know they knowingly do that to themselves. It's just too apathetic to the real issue.
>>713040835
Prayin for you tonight brother. Everyday is a struggle. But we all know what we need to do. Even if it's suicide, to make you forget, it is what it is.
I pray that someone will find your determination to persevere astounding and loving in real romantic ways that even you don't understand.
I hope that whatever it is that drives you will continue to make you do better things and that you will come out on top.
Just know I'm thinking and praying for you man despite your past mistakes. We will all do despicable things and take for granted the things we have that we're blessed with but eventually it will make us better people if we let it.
Stay strong, and stay strong to OP. I love you /b/rothers, more than you know or would like to even think so. I remember each one of you before I close my eyes to sleep and during my prayers.
>>713069185
Jesus man. Please continue. I'm reading.
>>713068637
This reply >>713069185 is actually a pretty good example of the common mentality of these threads, too. Too many people are just here to give their own story without seeing if other's peoples issues were actually fixed. Nothing will change from these people and these threads if people continue to not care about the harder step.
>>713032542
Underage b&
>>713037484
It's one thing to be disillusioned, but it's another to be disillusioned by something you thought was for sure.
I feel your struggle tonight, maybe even your pain if you have it. I don't know that I'll ever "find" anyone else again because I was sure at some point I'd be alone for the rest of my life.
Then I let my guard down, I let her trick me into thinking I did need her there. And now she's gone, and it's my fault. And I'll never forgive myself for wasting my own time and betraying everything that I believed until now. I hope that she's happy, but I also hope even more so that eventually I'll become numb again and find solace in sleeping in the center of the bed, or going to bed without hearing her voice, or looking forward to seeing her.
I hope and pray for a swift recovery for you too. And if you do have to take that lonely passage by yourself, that you find the strength you need to cover yourself and guard your heart long enough for you to find whatever it is in this life that you need to find, no matter how lonely it gets. Stay strong my /b/rother.
>visiting family for thanksgiving
>gf back at uni is at a rave
>she sends me pics of what she is going to wear
>super slutty
>texts me while at the concert "I'm high and I miss you"
>never smokes with me, but will with others
I'm gonna get cucked huh bros?
Now I'm up alone listening to high school music. God I wish I could go back to HS life was not so goddman stressful.
OP it will get better soon! Don't be a roody poo! Enjoy
>>713069675
It's tough but it's a fact of life. Eventually people find excitement in "living" what they believe to be a temporary rush of excitement only to find that they can't afford to do it later on because of liabilities such as cash or well being and health.
Eventually things will settle and I hope for your sake she finds some sort of maturity and stabilization with you before anything bad might happen.
Either way, stay strong man, I wish you the best.
>>713069675
I just hope your girl is loyal. I thought mine was. Still contemplate ways to fuck with her life but usually decide against it.
>>713031556
I'm with you OP, and I want you to remember that at least some of your /b/rothers are there with you. Everyone struggles with everything, even the most sound people will struggle at some point to a breaking factor that's beyond words.
It's so selfish for us sometimes to believe that we're the only ones going through it or to even forget that for a moment that others are not going through the same, if not worse, than what we are going through.
But do not give up, not unless it's something YOU want to happen.
If you have to go out, go out on your terms, a way that doesn't harm others but gives you the self satisfaction that you are doing this for you and no one else.
If not then I ask you to fight through it, and even though you see the struggles now that you'll eventually come to terms with what you need to do to succeed.
I hope and pray that eventually someone will find you in your despair and give you the encouragement that you need to continue forward without hesitation. And as cheesy as it sounds I hope the best for you anon, and just know I'll be thinking of you this holiday season, along with my other /b/rothers who are struggling.
I'm also struggling too from a broken relationship caused by my broken family who is now no longer speaking with me. But we can do this, even if we have to grab it by the tips of our fingernails we will make it. Just keep looking for that light brother. Just keep pushing. Love you man, be safe, and most importantly be happy, to the best of your abilities, just be happy.
>>713069829
I don't know why it's making me so uncomfortable shes' dressed so slutty. She's wearing the stocking that were part of a lingerie set she bought. She only used it once, and she said she would use it on my birthday but never did. It really annoys when she sends me pictures of herself looking hot and stuf, but then goes and sends those pictures to her friends (girls). I don't know man, I get really insecure in sudden bursts.
>>713039927
Just make a huge smelly fart in your room
Really gets the ole neurons firing
>>713069185
>I started doing more coke just to keep myself going. Started drinking to numb my depression. Started snorting morphine pills to sleep. Shooting H to feel happy.
>I got away from everything to try and get my life together,
>But I was more out of control than ever.
>And then Rob killed himself.
>I remember standing there with Jasmine. Mom had walked off to talk to Rob's dad.
>She just looked so numb.
>I was crying. She wasn't.
>She asked if I wanted to smoke a bowl with her.
>We went to her car, sat in the back seat and smoked up.
>She turned to me.
>"We're the only ones left." She said it so monotone.
>"Yup."
>We didn't even know if Leah was alive or dead. She surely wouldn't have heard Rob was dead.
>I was close to Rob. He was a good man. Weak willed, but beautifully kind.
>Now he was gone.
>That's how it goes in the hood.
>He was the one who made the most progress out of all of us, I think.
>Jasmine and I left the funeral not long after, but before I did, I talked with mom for a bit, and said my goodbyes to my brother.
>I thought things through, and I decided to talk to Kayla.
>We worked things out, and got back together.
>Unfortunately, she started doing H with me, and before long we were both junkies.
>Then she got pregnant.
>Kayla was luckily not as far gone as me, so she was able to get cleaned up, and she had a healthy baby girl.
>I... I started doing my best. To be honest, I rarely saw my daughter Audrey (named after my mom) much. Too busy with work. I always wished things were different.... I wanted to spend time with my family. I wanted to be a father to my little girl.
>I looked into going into rehab and getting cleaned up, too much shit to detox solo.
>But I was hit with a double whammy.
>Kayla was pregnant again, I had been fired from my warehouse job, AND mom was losing the house.
>I didn't know what to do.
>I took my mom in. I have a sense of duty with shit like that, and Jasmine didn't want her.
>>713039927
I get this feeling in really intense short bursts, really fucks with your head.
I still to this day cannot for the life of me explain why not just girls but everybody in general is so averse to socializing with me. Even the quiet people get talked to and are shown interest in. I'm just that one dude in my uni that people forget about until they need me. I'm not ugly, nor am I outwardly unusual, just quiet yet still nobody cares to so much as pay me a glance.
Pic related, its me everyday
>>713070242
It's natural, and it could mean something, yes, but realize that all women are looking for someone to rationalize and acknowledge their importance.
Realize that this is a desperate need to find attention among a crowd of people and when she finally comes to terms within her own mind when she's "high" she realizes her attachement to you is safe, because no matter how high she gets, you'll always be there holding her to the ground as an anchor, or at least that's what I feel like it could be.
I could be romanticizing it a little because I'm also drunk as shit but it is what it is.
Just be safe, take care of yourself, and try to hold onto her as I speak from experience. Letting the little things go will only hurt you later. Have self esteem while also having the assurance that you will not need to worry about what she does. She loves you, and if you need to reinforce it, do the task that every man must endure for his significant other and try to show her that you are what's there, despite what everyone else says or does.
Those guys on the floor are temporary, you are her forever, and she just needs to see it.
Stay strong my friend, you'll know what to do when the time comes.
>>713040835
Damn dude, props for rising above the shit. Hope shit gets better
>>713070453
>0
I think a big part of life is trying to find that sense of purpose, but people are so hooked on the societal contribution that they forget about the "self."
Work on yourself first, and realize that you have to find happiness and comfort in yourself because as a sad fact of life, sometimes that's all you get.
It doesn't always happen like this but eventually you realize that other people will only fall short of your expectations anyways. And the more you rely on them, the more cynical and uncaring you'll find yourself being.
The problem is people will never understand the "real" you, so put on the mask as you need to, or find happiness in loneliness.
I will hope that you can find this medium brother. I hope everything you do will bring people closer to you as you go about your university work.
It's scary, and it's lonely but you will make it through it with, or without people. And if you have to, more power to you; go find the beauty of a lowly walk of solitude comforting, because you made it without the crutch of other people.
Stay strong /b/rother.
>>713070563
Goddamn you made my night anon, thanks.
>>713070944
Bless you you wonderful bastard. It's no problem. Wish you the best, always.
>>713070358
>I named my second daughter after my sister Leah, who disappeared.
>I bounced between a lot of jobs, getting fired from most of them.
>Kayla worked but got fired for alcoholism and drugs.
>My daughters were 2 and 4 and they were growing up in a house with two junkies and three alcoholics.
>It had to stop.
>I had a very sobering realization one day because Audrey called my work crying and saying "mommy's dead".
>My mom was out drinking, and Kayla was passed out in a puddle of vomit on the kitchen floor.
>I was afraid of calling an ambulance because I was scared they would take the girls away, but when I came home and saw her.... Fuck.
>I hugged my girls after putting Kayla in the tub. I hugged them tightly and I just cried. I told them daddy was sorry for everything. Sorry I couldn't give them a good life. Sorry I couldn't buy them toys. Sorry that mommy got sick all the time. I was sorry that at 4 years old Audrey knew what cocaine was.
>When Kayla woke up, I told her we needed to talk.
We tried but we couldn't afford help, and we couldn't quit on our own. Withdrawal.... it's fucking insane. It's like torture. It's like getting the worst fucking sickness you could imagine. Your skull feels like it's been shattered, your insides feel liquified, you can't even fucking breathe.
>We couldn't hack it.
>So we talked.
>We knew what we needed to do.
>Noah and I had this friend. A college educated man named David, and his wife Susan. They were thinking of adopting. David did a little coke and x recreationally. nothing more.
>Noah asked him if he'd like to try taking guardianship.
>You can talk shit about me as much as you want. You can be an asshole or whatever. But you do not know pain.... suffering.... You don't know what it's like to be in that position. To have to make that choice.
>>713070835
Nice wholehearted advice. I've begun to grow out of the fairy tale notion of "true love" and begun to realize that some people are not meant to partake in such actions. Some people are meant to be alone whether they like it or not. This has always saddened me.
Praise Kuk!
Praise Kek!!
>>713071157
I cried a little reading this greentext anon.
You're right, I can't even begin to imagine what it's like to make that choice because I don't and will probably never have kids. Maybe it's for the best.
But you're still here anon, you are still here and I hope and pray from everyday from now on that you'll be reunited with your children.
I've felt only the pain of having to choose between family, and even that is in itself not a choice that anyone should eve rmake. And I do not justify your life choices but I know that they were there for a reason to cope. You could not help what was placed on you, but you know this and understand the weight of what it truly means to lose something.
And for that you have respect from me more than words can understand or even say. I would never wish something so tragic on my worst enemy as I'm sure you do. I hope if you haven't already, that you find the strength you need to break your destructive habits, or find a way to cope with the choices that for a brief moment, you were their hero, that you let them go with the knowledge that by giving up something so precious, you were saving the lives of something even greater than yourself.
I'm sending you as much affection that I can and respect that I can, that even in your most elaborate of self destruction and misery, that for a brief moment, you were the most righteous person there could be.
Stay strong brother. Keep fighting for whatever it is that you need to fight for and find a light that will guide you to whatever it is you need to find to make you happy again. I love you /b/rother.
>>713031556
you want really real? Toss the video games in the trash. Be accountable to your friends and family. Do your work! Sit down, and type the shit out. You're depressed because you ain't taking care of your responsibilities. There is more than enough time in the semester to catch up. But I'm guessing you're an 18 year old little fag, moaning about how hard life is. Do your shit and life gets easier...
>>713071247
I also have too.
People love in "conditional" means, even we are all guilty of that, but at our core, I'd like to think that the lot of us who recognize the ideals of love exercise it to the best of our frail abilities.
The problem is that most people don't want to reciprocate. The problem is that everyone "LOVES" the idea of true love but no one wants to work towards what it is that is required to love you unconditionally. And the sad thing is not everyone is going to find someone to do that.
It hurts my stomach to think of this because I know I'm one of those peoples. There are so many specifics that people have to put up with in order to be around me I'm suprised I have friends at all.
But I do have them, as I hope you do too anon. And if not I hope you find them because eventually you can find some sort of solace in this "idealistic" but sadly "realistic" world.
Eventually we will all find peace in death, whether it is by natural causes or by our own happening and self destruction.
Either way I'm hoping you find some sort of satisfaction or at least a way to hack life so that it best suits you. I hope that you can find a piece of yourself within solitude that only you get to hold onto, that you cherish it like you would a close friend or lover, and even that would carry you until you have found someone who's worthy of you, or at the very least, you find yourself shutting your eyes for the last time in everlasting sleep.
Until then just keep looking, keep searching, because if that's all we get to do, then at least it will be enough to distract you from the isolated feeling of giving up.
I hope that the better of the two happens to you but if you need to, do what you have to and be comfortable with it.
>>713071157
>We chose to give up our children. We knew what we were. We knew there was no going back. We knew that we were monsters, that we'd destroy their lives if left on our own.
>The day we drove Leah and Audrey to David and Susan's house..... we had no car seats, no toys, just two small suitcases full of their clothes and some blankets in the trunk.
>Do you realize how agonizingly painful it is to give up your own child? How much it hurts to realize you are a threat to your own children? As a parent, you do anything to protect your kids, to make sure they're safe. But to realize you can never fulfill that parental role? You'll always be their dad, but in title alone.
>It's crippling.
>I hugged them so tight and wouldn't let go until they wiggled out of my arms.
>I remember laying down on David's front porch, just sobbing until Kayla dragged me back to our car.
>Kayla fell further into depression. Couldn't hold a job. Her drug problem worsened.
>I paid for her to get her tubes tied, but it didn't matter. The sex was over anyways.
>I worked two jobs to support two alcoholic women.
>I have a duty to Kayla and my mom. Kayla is the mother of my children. I love her. and my mom gave me life.
>The futility of it all came rearing it's head soon though.
>Kayla OD'd one night and had to go to the hospital.
>Once there, they wouldn't let her leave.
>Hospital bills came.
>No insurance.
>Our entire life savings from 3 people, plus help from Jasmine's family and from Noah didn't even put a fucking dent in it.
>Kayla got cleaned up in the hospital but relapsed almost immediately.
>And here we are a year later. We still owe nearly $30,000, we're behind 2 months on rent and may be evicted soon, and to repay Noah for helping us I put up his bail (he got picked up for possession).
>I went to buy grocceries and my debit card wouldn't work. I am $500 in overdraft. My limit. Do you know how utterly humiliating it is to not be able to afford $30 in grocceries?
>>713071548
Thanks brother, that means the world coming from you. Really, I appreciate what you said. I admit that all the bad shit that happened in life is my own fault. I just.... I spiralled. When I was too young to know any better I went out of control, and my whole life ever since has been me trying to regain control.
>>713071953
>We had to sell a lot of stuff to make ends meet.
>Kayla has been casually suggesting "alternate" ways of making money.
>She's going to basically apply to be a stripper.
>I know she cheated on me.
>I get it.
>We had no money. We both needed our fix. Her dealer promised her a taste for a taste. She sucked his dick. We got our drugs.
>We tried to take out a loan last week, and the bank laughed us out.
>I may have to go back to the hustle, but I don't know.
>That life, if I got booked, I'd go to jail for 5 years.
>Sometimes I just think to myself "Why don't I just OD? Just kill myself with drugs. I wouldn't even feel any pain. I'd feel amazing right up till the end."
>Some nights it's hard not to.
>Some nights I just didn't have enough.
>Kayla talks about maybe splitting up and going home to her dad's.
>I talked to Jasmine recently. She's struggling too. CPS investigated her house, and she's in trouble. My uncle was booked for dealing, and faces federal charges.
>I went to see my daughters yesterday.
>They told me all about how happy they were in the new house.
>I handed David 400$ cash for the girls. He refused it. He said if we couldn't even afford food, but I cut him off.
>I'm still their father. I still need to provide.. I cried when I told him that even though all I could do was manage a few hundred a month,I had to.
>He wouldn't accept the money.
>As I left his house, I slipped it into his shoe.
>He called me today. I ignored him. He'd probably try to return the money. But he shouldn't.... if he did, I'd probably kill myself.
>How worthless am I?
>I can't even provide for my kids. My wife sucks dick for drugs.
>>713072758
>Every day, I have to get up in the morning, shoot up, and splash water on my face, and look in the mirror, and ask myself why I'm still alive.
>this morning, on my way to work, my stomach rumbled. I stole my coworker's lunch because it's been 2 days since my last meal and all I've had are drugs and alcohol.
This is my life. The reason I come to these threads isn't to feel sorry for myself. It's to help me convince myself that suicide isn't that scary.
>>713072758
The human struggle isn't finding ways to preserve yourself but rather find ways to preserve yourself for the greater things in life.
Sometimes we're given difficult hands to deal with as cheesy as it sounds but we do what we need to in our times of clarity.
It sounds like you are at least trying. And I can't say that I know drug addiction/abuse first hand but I've seen it kill friends. I know at least from a bystsander's point of view what you're going through.
I'm glad it means something to you because words are the only thing I can offer, and it sounds like you need something more.
I hope and pray that things will turn out better, that something happens to restore your family or give you the strength that you need to make the choices that will bring happiness to your children and eventually yourself and your significant other.
Be strong in what you have brother, and if you struggle, remember that I'm praying for you and thinking and hoping for something better. Don't let us down. Do what it is you need to to find that happiness in whatever it is your life has presented you.
>>713031556
>delressed
I never heard of this word.
>>713073215
I go to church sometimes... I don't really believe anyone is up there listening... and the people there probably think i'm some hobo in my ratty clothes with my stringy hair and drugged out expression. But I don't know. I like the silence. I like confession, it feels like someone is listening. I go there and confess little things.
I'll keep your words in my heart.
>>713071833
Never had a gf and all my friends are gone. Solace is my only option but I'm slowly adapting.
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>>713071157
Jesus fucking Christ. I don't even know what to say. Look.... buddy.... I can't say "it gets better" because sometimes it really doesn't, and I don't have any advice for you. I know how rough it is to give up drugs. That would save you but actually pulling it off? Man, anybody who gets clean and stays clean is a fucking warrior.
But live on. See your daughters grow up into women. See them succeed man. Be there for that. Be their father.
>>713073114
Someone should cap this story.
>>713073501
I'm a church goer myself, born-again-Christian but a cynical one at best, maybe even a little nihilistic for Jesus if you will.
The problem is finding solace in people who think they are "holier than though art" is hard. Because you can't tell if they really mean it or are actually just doing it because God told them to.
Either way it's a thing to gauge. Good to hear though. Find something to hold onto though, that's all I think you can do for now. Eventually and hopefully you don't find comfort in death as your kids I'm sure would not find it satisfying either, regardless.
Just be safe brother. Just keep fighting the good fight, even if you're part of the darkness that makes this world what it is. You know what things you have to do to make it better. But just be safe man.
Love you /b/rother.
>>713073596
I'm not sure how to reassure you that it's not much better with a gf.
I recently (within the last two months) lost my gf of almost two years, (my first one) and as much as I'd love to say I cherish the memories I don't.
I just regret it, with every fiber of my being I regret finding comfort in thinking someone loved me for me and understood my unconventional and older ways.
I'm 27 now, and I do wish I could have started dating earlier but as each day passes I realize that it's too late for me. I was raised in a messed up house hold with overly conservative parents who fucked up my mindset for life. (ie: I got disillusioned earlier while still maintaining some delusions which made me the fucked up person I am today).
Even so, having a gf is not so great. It's time consuming, it's a waste of money and eventually if the worst happens and she finds someone better than you (Oh I hope she doesn't for your sake if you ever find someone anon), then she'll leave you questioning what it was that you "loved" in the first place or what it feels like to be "loved."
The only person who truly understands you is "you," and the only love you can rely on is the "self." Because that's the only one we can control entirely, and even then we have to fight daily to make it happen.
People will let you down for sure, as sad as it is to say, but you can always better yourself.
I will eventually find peace again in solitude as a forever alone. I just got misguided by my delusions for a moment, but I hope and pray you don't have to consider the same thing /b/rother. I hope that someone comes around and finds the importance in you and the things that you are and cherishes them before it's too late.
And if not then know that I'm here thinking and praying for you too anon. No matter how lonely it gets, someone out there knows your struggle and is wishing the best for you.
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>>713073805
>>713073746
Y'all have my love and respect. Honestly, I'm looking at homelessness pretty soon, I know it. It's a matter of time. I'm delaying it, but I can't pay the medical debt, I can't afford the apartment, I can't afford to live. This is.. the end of my rope.
>>713074294
I'd offer to help if I could anon but I'm pretty fresh off the chopping block myself.
I can only offer you my words for now.
I just hope the homelessness doesn't find you too poorly.
I'd say try asking that church you're going to for some help, as degrading as it sounds I've seen my parents have to do that on multiple occasions, even if it is just a moralistic obligation they might be able to find you something to get you going again.
I just hope you find what it is that you need.
You are loved by at least one person this evening. Just stay strong. Keep fighting.
Going to bed now as my alcohol is staring to wear off.
Tonight I'm thinking of the people I responded to and the like.
Always remember that no matter what happens that even though it's only even a fraction of the percentage of what you need, I was thinking of you tonight and I will be for a while.
I pray for every one of your /b/astards whenever I get a chance. I hope you do the same for me as I don't know where I'm at now either.
I'm still trying to also pull myself out of the place I'm in right now because I became too reliant on others. However, the anonymous self is a beautiful thing. We can become attached to nothing so when we all say goodbye to never see each other, we can find comfort in that void of knowing that someone is thinking of us, but never really being a mind or thing to betray us or forget because even now everything is already forgotten.
Stay strong. I love you, even if we've never seen each other or will ever, you are here and you'll always be there so long as you continue to push forward as we all have to do eventually.
>>713075360
i just dont know why i am like this nothing can fix this it seems, i want to believe things will get better i tell myself it might not be today or tomorrow but one day itll be ok its been so long im starting to think that day will never come. im so lonely i dont have anyone but my parents i have tried to make friends or meet girls it just doesnt work out for me idt i am ugly or bad looking so i dont think its looks idk what it is but people come and go so frequently in my life you think id be used to it by now but im not
>>713031556
even though you posted 7 hours ago, and idk if you'll read this, but fuck it the only thing other than what I'm planning to do is fap.
If you honestly don't know what to do, think about what you like doing right now. At this moment, you're browsing /b/ fucking around and spreading memes, having fun. Occasionally you start up that skyrim and start killing shit and feeling real good. How do you keep doing the shit you like doing. That's what gets me out of the bed everyday. It's the realization that I HAVE to try at life if I want to keep doing all the fun shit I like. If I don't, I know that my playing games is only temperary, and the road that this leads is fucking scary.
I'm a highschool fuckwit, who fucked up my first semester of my senior year, and probably will have to try really fucking hard next semester to even get a 3.0, if I'm fucking lucky. I got caught up for weed at school, and now I got these dumb ass fucking Youth Meetings I got to go to every. fucking. monday. for 10 weeks. I hate my school, I hate the people who work/learn there, and I hate my neighbors.
BUT, I WANT to go to school, I WANT to get a job where I don't (absolutely) wanna neck myself at work, and I WANT a house where I can fucking walk around buck ass naked whenever I want and smoke a fucking bowl in my kitchen while making waffles. When you don't know what you want to do with your life, look at what your doing right. now. and ask if you want to keep this up. For example, right now, I'm helping a fellow /b/ro out getting this nigga un-not-happy and fapping at the same time. I want to keep doing this.
Look at yourself in the mirror, get your shit together, try to iron your life out as much as you can, but don't let that shit overwhelm you. You'll make it through somehow man, I believe. Cause the best part about slackers is our best shines through when shit hits the fan.
Much love, from Salem. And btw if this was a lie post you can go fuck right off, and kill yourself.
>>713076109
And maybe that's how it's going to be for the rest of your life.
Who knows?
I won't blindly reassure you that everything will be exactly the way society wants it to be, an idealistic mess of cliches and romance movies want you to believe it will be.
But the realism is we know where we're all at and what we need to do to improve. Sometimes we are capable of doing it and aren't.
So find what it is that can make yourself feel better about YOU.
Remember that the only hand that fits more perfectly in your own, above anyone elses, is your own of course.
You can find whatever it is you need to make you happy, and if death is that thing, then so be it, I wouldn't stop you, but I urge you to look for other options first so you can at least say you tried; maybe not something so quite self destructive.
I took myself out for the first time in a few years, to a movie the other day, got the theatre to myself and I felt a little sad at first, but for a few hours I felt like I owned the world.
Something like that makes me realize that sometimes we in our own selves is all we need. Sometimes it's not sharing an experience like that with another person, be it a friend or girlfriend or wife.
Sometimes it's just about finding a joy that makes you realize that you did something and you enjoyed it for no other recreational purpose than to do something for you.
I'll still hope and pray you find something better though because I think people are hard wired to want to be with others, which is a sad fact of life when you consider how much we also drive each other away from each other.
Either way stay strong brother. Don't go down without a fight and only you know which fight it's going to be that will help you either find peace in life or find peace in death. Stay strong man.
White british guy here, anyone know what dating a traveler is like?
>>713075598
Usually I wouldn't push, but I really need something guys.
I've never felt so raw, and exposed to everything negative before.
I don't know how to fix any of this...
>>713076517
ill try thank you for responding btw really appreciate it
>>713076701
I always try to because I've posted in these before and not gotten responses.
Just be safe anon, going to bed now man. Peace.
>>713076701
anon, read mine, plz
>>713076824
KK one last one before bed, which one?
>>713076927
>>713076321
that is me
>>713075598
I think I found you anon, and I know the struggle.
I understand what it's like to lose yourself to others. However, it's the struggle to find the recognition and acknowledgement of others that makes us lose the most of ourselves. Because as soon as we judge ourselves by another person's ideals, we then give up a piece of the "self" that was there because WE found it and put it to us.
It's not always a bad thing but take care of yourself first and foremost.
I don't know what it is that you've not found a goal from, maybe if it's school or a relationship, remember that these are only the external things that are tools to help us remember why we love ourselves.
But you have to have a self love first and foremost. People are always talking about how terribly selfish it is to love yourself, but even from a psychological standpoint, that's the most important thing you can do.
So for you, it's your job to find whatever it is to make yourself fall in love with yourself again. If it's a skill that you learned long ago when you were a kid that made you feel so proud to be who you were then, find it again, and grow it.
Make it something that's yours because you are the only one who can do that.
I hope you have a safe and fast recovery. I wish you the best in all you do, even if you had to ask me to read your post just know that I am still thinking of you and everyone else that I missed and praying that whatever it was that you were looking for finds you swiftly and carries you to find that self worth again.
Be brave in the mean time, keep looking and eventually even you'll see the person that is you, just don't do anything undignified in the mean time, but be kind to yourself.
>>713076321
I'll tell y ou what I keep telling everyone else.
There is a good fight to fight, and sometimes even within our self we can only fight the things that we see.
Sometimes we're born to fight for others, but don't lose yourself in it. You know what you need to do to accomplish your goals. You have the strength to do it, and yes, you are young and have the opportunities a 90 year old man wishes he still had, but don't take it for granted.
Everyday you wake up, despite understanding the world in it's entirety, realize that everyday could presumably get worse than it is today. Never forget that but do not despair over it.
Make it your aim to overcome it, whether it's school or a girl or even a job; always remember that there are things we fight for as an auxiliary encouragement, and also the self esteem we hold because we found pride in whatever it is what we became.
Take the things from your friends that build your esteem, take it from everything you can so that when the terrible times come you'll have something to hold onto and never let go of.
Eventually I hope you find solace in whatever it is you're doing. Be safe anon, be an example of what it means to find strength in your youth, but the wisdom of someone who is aware of what is and is not to come.
Stay strong man.
>>713077376
I've been doing it for so long I don't really remember how to love myself anymore.
I think a lot of the problem is that when I left what made me feel proud of the person I am, they didn't just go in easily without me. Everything I knew there collapsed, so not only did I leave the people who made me feel strong, I let them down.
I guess it's not an easy process to patch it all up, right now I'm just taking the baby steps of looking decent when I do go out to boost my confidence a bit:
It's usually easy to feel good during the day around other people, but alone it's like every bad thing is under this huge spotlight that I can't escape.
I really appreciate your help, and I do apologize for being needy in this place.
Both to you and everyone who's helped me before.
>>713076557
Anyone?
She's gorgeous as fuck, but will it fuck me over if I dump her?
>>713077819
Everyone needs help anon.
And the fact you had to come here for it saddens me a bit but then I wouldn't get a chance to at least talk to you.
Continue to be a hero, do things for others even though sometimes you might lose a bit of yourself in it. But always remember to be kind to yourself because being that hero will not always mean the right type of reciprocation.
I wish I could say otherwise but it doesn't and part of being that person also means being willing to sacrifice yourself for it. And even though we all go through it, it's the one thing that's the greatest in this world, to be the wild card of a person for a shoulder to cry on, for the advice, and still not be able to do that for yourself.
Just know I'm thinking of you anon, and being "needy" is only in human nature. I hope you learn to walk a strong path though, and eventually you will be able to reassure yourself of the good things you are doing for others and eventually yourself.
Life is a search for the self, and it will always be because we as people are constantly changing based on what we surround ourselves with. And I hope for your sake it's all good things. Stay safe, I love you /b/rothers. Goodnight.
>>713077894
Remember that fleeting moments of fancy can also cause even the strongest person to become attached.
Do what you want to do but constantly ask yourself how this will affect you, even in your most sure hour, you may be weaker for this if things happen a certain way. Do not rely on frail human emotions to guide you but use them as a gauge for how deeply you want to go into it.
If you find attraction with her, look beyond looks too, because even when you get old and gray sometimes the looks and memories of such things are all you have when faced with that reality.
Maybe you won't even get that far but it's things to consider. If it's something you feel in your heart is necessary, do it, and go for it as you need to but I ask you anon to not hurt yourself along the way.
Just like when we eat, our eyes can be bigger than our stomach, so too can our hearts be bigger than our brains.
Stay safe brother.
>>713078063
I love you man, thank you.
I feel a little better about tonight, and I hope it carries on.
And I hope I can be like you someday.
>>713076321
Op here sorry for limited interactions with ya guis. Anyway yhanks anon ur post specidically was kinda nice. Anywgo im going to.bed now at least a little happier cuz if u thx m8
>>713078240
Same to you brother, I hope you are better than the man I am today, and find happiness in it.
Stay strong.
feels thread so
my ex of 6 years I'm living with right now, I just found out there's basically no way in hell she would ever get back with me, she pretty much said in her own words tonight.
Going to ship her home when I get my tax money back next year (or even next month maybe, idk) and start living by myself. Pretty sure she's talking to guys on WoW too and I'm not into supporting that shit if she's not sucking my dick.
The sucky thing is is that I have no drive to improve myself or move up in life, I'm fine where I'm at. Which makes me a very unattractive candidate for dates much less the fact I'm 24, 25 in several months and don't know how to drive much less own a car. I walk and take the damn bus everywhere. I have nobody to support me, nobody to love me, nobody for me to love, nobody to talk to about my day anymore... I have nobody. I haven't had anybody for months despite her being here and "humoring" me apparently.
Fuck it she's leaving ASAP. Maybe I'll ask my landlord if I can be short on rent 200 bucks this month or something to send her home faster. I doubt it but it's worth a shot since he's a cool dude.
>>713078277
We love you anon, though we might not know person behind the keyboard, it's the meaning behind the words that caught us. Though you are an anon in this world, know there are others who think like you, and believe like you. We all in this together. Night anon :)
Newfag here
Little some of my life this year
>live in Liberal area
>decide to look into politics because bad hair guy might be racist or something
>find out he isn't half shit and Hillary's game has been rigged from the start
>start explaining to my family how Trump's economic plan would benefit up
>Aunt calls me a xenophobic and sends me away
>grandmother hasn't worked a day since her twenties in the eighties and lives off her wealthy boyfriend, she is on Facebook daily about bad orange guy
>I comment every time proving her idiotic points wrong
>she never speaks to me again
>me and mom watch debates together laugh when Hillary gets toasted
>Mom screams and yells at me then walks out
>I sit alone, decide to go to room
>Mom spends the next week's forcing me to get a job so she wouldn't have to see me
>constant agreements happen and leave me broken and feelings unloved
>Start a cutting habit on my thighs (Sorry for being edgy I didn't have alcohol or narcotics available)
> finally find work at McDonald's
>screaming from my mom never stops, there is always a reason to shut me down emotionally
>when she sees me sad and crying in my room for no reason she claims it's my friends when's it's her (also my friends too but I'll get there later)
>kind of exist in my room silently playing Over watch on my pc
>all my friends leave me calling me a dick and untrustworthy
>I thought I did the right thing by reporting a guy who threatened to shoot me and the school I attent
>I guess my friends thought otherwise
>decide to make friends by joining drama
>sort of make friends with one person
>make more enemies than friends
>during one show I see my only crush in the audience with some guy
>the only girl I ever thought I could love was taken away from me
>no inspiration for weeks
>start failing classes
>>713078321
Dammit and I thought I was going to get to go to bed.
Let me strap on my gloves again anon.
I just recently got out of a relationship I was on break with for a month or so while my ex found herself loving someone else.
As hard as it is to say I hope that you find some realism in your situation.
Because it would have helped me so much earlier to see that selfish agendas mixed with "I care for you," does not equal love.
People are so savage in thinking this though that feeling sorry for someone is the same as feeling "love."
I do think she probably will still "love" you in her own way but realistically speaking we both know where it's going and why it got there.
I do not blame you or will look down on you in this time because you're exactly where I'm at right now anon. I'm still trying to find some sort of self esteem in what things I lack.
I know the guy she's talking to is better looking, taller, has better job prospects, her parents like him better than they ever would like me.
And now's the most important time for the both of us.
Because now we get to find ourselves again after being attached to these people for so long and so fucking tiresome trying to emotionally find yourself again but you'll do it.
Sometimes letting go and finding that thing that kept you going before is what we get to deal with. I just hope it doesn't last for you too long anon.
I know my prospects are looking very bleak too but know that no matter how lonely it gets we're both there together, as forever alones. And even if it was only for a split second, we knew what it was like to not feel so dehumanized and felt like we were worth something to someone else.
Now it's our job to do that for ourselves because no one will do it for us.
Stay strong, I wish you the best and I'm thinking of you and praying for a swift recovery from this terrible thing that no one should ever have to go through.
>>713078568
>mom finds more reasons to yell at me for
>I accept that fact that I'm just a bad person even though I've spent my whole life trying to better myself.
>two weekends ago I nearly attempt suicide, right before I do so I contact an old friend. I don't want to die but I can't find any reasons to live anymore. Tell me I'm about to go, he said he'd call me mom and the police if I took any of my mom's five bottles of prescription pills.
>guess I have to live one more night
>thanksgiving comes
>one more reminder that no body cared if I was breathing
>I don't expect myself to see the end of this year /b/ maybe there was more I needed to add to this greentext to make it easier to understand
>whatever I guess
>>713078568
I'm still waiting to see my former girlfriend with the new guy she's with.
I thankfully don't live close to them but I'll be attending a convention soon and see them together for sure.
I can't even begin to fathom the pain I'm about to endure of the pain that you've endured, but just know how sorry I am that it's gone this way for you.
I do know the pain you're going through though because some similar stuff happened to me recently regarding my family's personal politics and their relationship with me. I'm no longer on speaking terms with my single mother as a resulf of this and have been disowned. It also broke a realtionship that was near and dear to me recently too.
But know this, that you can look and stare into that face of despair and try to win back your dignity in finding yourself again.
Sometimes looking at that is all we can do, and constantly reminding ourselves of our shortcomings is the only strength and drive we have. Yes it's going to be a lonely life, but forcing yourself to see that reality of both your job, your mother and your potential crush is going to make things better.
Press into that pain and make it your strength somehow to better yourself for the things you know that need to improve.
It won't be an easy task, but keep pressing into it and burn the images of failure to impress your mom, your potential crush, into your mind and take hold of it.
That is yours and no one can take it from you, and only YOU get to decide what to do with it. Don't let it break you though because it doesn't own you, YOU own it.
Stay strong brother, I'm wishing you the best and sending whatever psuedo affection I have your way in hopes that eventually you'll find someone who can appreciate you for the person who I know you can be.
>>713037654
comfy af at least. need to get round to playing it again.
>>713079013
Thank you.. so much
>>713039759
First guy here.
I would say that only really applies if he girl isn't a socially awkward Fuck.
