Feels Tuesday /b/oys
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Feels Tuesday /b/oys
Just gonna dump my folder (like 7 images) and hope someone contributes so I'm not bawling by myself.
I'm here too anon
>>712693634
FUcking why anon :(
>>712694857
idk man if I did I wonder if I'd make me feel better or worse.
you have to be 18 or older to be on /b/
>>712695004
Whoa thought you wrote IQ was worried about your future with this website man :/
>>712694583
Oy, this one hit me on a personal level
>>712695203
Every time I read this story it makes me wish I had a blind sister... at least then I could have someone to cuddle with at nights...
Last image
Can someone tell me what the point of all of this is? I've worked so hard and built myself a "good life" but I feel zero pleasure from any of it. I hate everyone around me and the meanness of people makes me despise the world. I'm filling the void with drugs and alcohol but even as I sink deeper into alcoholism drinking has begun to lose its pleasure.
What is I'm supposed to want out of all this bullshit? I hate people and don't want friends or love. Is there any reason why I should go back to my good job tomorrow instead of killing myself?
>>712697654
Animals are meant to breed and care for the next generation so they can do the same.
Find a girl date her have a child and be fulfilled?
I'd try that if I thought there was a universe where anyone loved me.
>>712697967
I could easily provide for a child but have no interest. I hate kids and think that choosing to procreate on our fucked up, overcrowded world is extremely irresponsible. I also have no faith in myself to raise a child given the fact that I don't understand the point of living or enjoy it.
I'd like to get a pet but ultimately feel that its simply not moral. Perpetuating an ongoing cycle of animal cruelty is something I'm simply not willing to be a part of.
Guess I will have a cathartic moment.
Be me a 33 year old fat ass failure. Just about every venture I have attempted has ended in some sort of failure. I cannot recall a moment where I had a true and honest success. No matter what I do my life is seemingly tainted by a failure I cannot escape.
Is this really what life is? A series of failures? Well despite that I still hope. I guess playing video games have some positive effect, I don't know when to quit even when I should.
I decided to go back to college while I struggle with all of these emotions. It is torture to always have to face the strongest opponent, my ultimate nemesis every day; myself. In a world where no one believes in me I am forced to struggle alone. Sadly its what I am used too.
Friends? Hardly, I am too emotionally damaged for that. People have typically only used me and being unwanted by my peers has made me naturally stand offish.
Do I integrate with people? Sure I do. With a mask. Who am I? Well I honestly cannot tell you, since my 9th birthday where my father did drugs in front of all the kids and parents the solitude has been crippling.
Yet... I refuse to allow life to break me. I will some how make my dream possible even if from where I stand now it looks impossible.
so I guess I prepare for flames. Have at it. There is more but I feel this is fine to say for now.
>>712697654
There is no reason, but that's what makes it cool
Just relax and enjoy it
>>712698539
I have a dog and I can tell you there is no abuse in it I get off of work to get home to him waiting excitedly at the door and can honestly say if I didn't have this dear friend I'd have ended it by now.
Anyone else just always worried about being alone?
>>712699585
yeah i hate it ive been alone for so long id like to say you get used to it but you dont
>>712699722
I'm finally talking to someone I met through work and were not even a "thing" but I'm still terrified of loosing her
>>712699896
Don't text her back faster then she texts you
Don't text her multiple times if she doesn't respond right away
If conversations slow down find an excuse to go,
You'll do great things,
>>712699896
ive been alone for a while i had a her for a while too but now she's gone and im alone and it only hurts more. i would like to tell you to prepare yourself for it but there is no way to prepare for being alone. try to meet more people through work if you can. kudos to you for being able to be social at work though
>>712698539
Pets that feel emotion like dogs,cats,and some birds will enjoy having your company. Other creatures like snakes or fish can't feel or show any emotion, they're purely decorative.
Fiancee ended our four year engagement the other day. Now we're being super petty towards each other. A lot of my family likes her, and now that I'm living back at home, I'm alienated from a lot of my own family.
What really sucks is that all of my friends were her friends, too.
>>712697100
I'd have killed that fucking cunt.
>>712700048
Solid advice. My friend talked to a girl for a few months and treated her like royalty she banged another guy and he gave her the silent treatment when the guy didn't care about her after he fucked her. If he responded he responded coldly and because she wanted that guy that "treated her like royalty" back she dated him. They're still dating now so I guess the 'Fire and Ice' thing actually works on at least some girls
>>712701051
hits home
>>712701382
jesus christ
>>712701382
Holy fuck I hope you live somewhere warm.
>>712698638
If it makes you feel any better I am "successful" and hate life. So it doesn't seem to be worth much.
>>712699086
>>712700187
I'm not making a judgement of people who own pets, I just have my own feelings about the concept of "owning" a "pet". Their species have been systematically altered by killing the undesirables over thousands of years, leading to a race of perpetual adolescents. Their sexual organs are forcibly removed and they're euthanized when they reach old age. I love animals and just don't want to be a part of that cycle even though when I meet pets I absolutely adore them. If I do cave to my selfishness and get one I'd want to adopt or rescue an animal in need.
>all of my friends came back from college today
>planning to get together
>they never give a time
>i miss out because i can't drive and i live 20 miles out and they aren't willing to drive
>i havent left my house in over a month
>start making friends with people on garrys mod servers
don't really have any feels pics so heres one i took of the sky like a week ago
>>712701382
the dream
>>712694235
Fuck
>>712701891
That's a pretty picture anon.
>>712701828
Just because people before you have done wrong doesn't mean you have to or have.
Ex: Whites owned blacks in the 1800s
This does not make Modern day whites responsible for things that happened to people they never knew because of people they never knew in a time they never lived in.
Anyway if you think you can give the dog a better life than on the street or sitting in a pound I don't see why you shouldn't go for it.
>>712697654
Pick up some hobbies, man. Try hiking around natural parks by you and seeing the beauty in the world
>>712702247
Yeah... about that, some SJWs beg to disagree
>>712702653
I don't think they argue that we're responsible they think that because we're never experienced "oppression" we can't argue that they're wrong.
>>712702928
>Triggered.jpg
You see, that's where you are wrong, you can't argue with them.
>>712700948
Jesus fuck that hit super close to home......
>>712702653
Yeah, but they're stupid and wrong.
>>712702646
Thanks man, but I've done it all. Once spent a month in the Canadian wilderness, lived abroad twice, got into lifting (hurt myself), played an insturment, worked my butt off and got the "dream job". All fun for a while but they've all burned themselves out. Idk where to go from here.
My goal is to save enough money to quit and then travel the world for the rest of my life. At the same time I've seen enough life and met enough world travellers to know that my plan probably won't be fun for more than a few years.
Bottle of NyQuil, plastic bag and a rubber band. I don't want to wake up anymore.
>>712703327
Join the military gain some brothers training and a decent salary
>>712703449
sauce on this game?
>>712693446
my life can end next week if i don't prepare properly for my college finals
it's 2:30am and here i am shitposting in 4chan
gonna get 4hrs of sleep at best if i leave now
stressed as fuck and gotta keep going
fuking pokemon moon
>>712703701
Are you me?
>>>712693446 (OP)
welcome to my life.
only instead of preparing properly, i stopped going to class entirely about two weeks ago.
my life is purgatory. i regret my decisions. please somebody save my from this hell i have created for myself.
>>712703701
>>712704020
i can't quote posts because im a fucking tard ass
>>712701828
They don't generally kill undesirables, you just don't breed them. People euthanize their pets because they've lived longer than they naturally should have and it hurts to be alive. I think you just have a really skewed view of things.
>>712698539
>Perpetuating an ongoing cycle of animal cruelty
I don't generally act like an ass in a feels thread, but you're a moron.
I'm literally sobbing. My heart just aches. It's all so hurtful. Do you ever just feel like a TV of static without volume, WAITING for something to change? I do.
https://www.16personalities.com/free-personality-test
Any fellow INTJ's here?
>>712703640
Phantasy Star II for the Sega Genesis
>>712705171
INFP, fellow anon.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=J1vD8qYSk64
>>712700948
Jesus fuck is that the worst quote.
"To be a mature man you have to be the exact kind of faggot I was."
Yeah, fuck that and fuck anyone who thinks that's deep.
>>712705171
INFP here.
>>712705948
Retard
>>712701036
Hey, that image was one of the reasons I went back to college!
It's true.
Now that I'm back in I've made new friends, dated two girls, love my classes, and have something to talk about with the relatives this holiday season instead of dodge questions like "so what are you doing these days?"
And you know what else? My love for vidya has rekindled. Now that I have much less time for it, I enjoy it a lot more. Now that I have some real life friends to play with, I rage less and have more fun dicking around.
It's not too late, anons. You can get back on track.
>>712705171
Here
>>712695296
wow, this one got me
>>712705171
ENTJ-a sorry friendo
>>712693446
I truly, really do, feel nothing out of waiting.
>>712705132
damn
>>712705991
Another diplomat, I see.
I miss you Kevin. I would have really liked it if we could have traveled for a while and got to know each other. You were usually kind of special to me, you got my mind off Aaron. You were just the type of relationship I needed right when I needed it.
And Victor, my friend. I still think about you from time to time. I wish I knew what happened to you, why you broke contact like you did. I hope I didn't get you in trouble with the parcel I sent you. But what ever happened, I hope you're doing weell. It would have been nice to see Spain and France with you; and to have you next to me when Aaron left.
>>712700274
>four year engagement
I understand how much it hurt you, so I'll go light on this, but c'mon man. Just... c'mon.
>>712706481
It's fake as fuck. It has 200% of the earmarks of pure fiction.
>>712706679
how so?
>>712705044
That's lyrics to a Limp Bizkit song, Hotdog.
Kekarino
https://youtu.be/8ICeSlIcZTk
>>712705171
INTP
I think I've changed over the years, this stuff used to get me to the point of sobbing.
Now, I just stare at it all, feeling a dull anger at the knowledge that I can't do anything to change my shitty life, because the problem isn't life, it's me.
>>712705171
I'm an INTJ as well.
Love is fake. It's dead. People live for their own self interest and those who don't end up rotting over time until they grow into foul beings. Its humanity. Just know deep down, everything here is temporary, love is fake, and we all die alone. I suppose you could live life to its fullest but what is its purpose? Triumph? Happiness? Heartbreak? Only death will tell.
>>712697100
that hit me quickly
>>712700869
I think there is something to this, no matter how dumb it sounds. I think there were studies that showed people smiling as they went about their day led to more satisfaction/feeling happy.
>>712695094
I always think of that stigma that I have through life. I'm always depressed and genuinely unhappy by default while everyone happily live their lives around me, and I hate myself for that, I hate myself for that so much, why can't I just suck it up and be happy like them? What do they see and have in life that ignites happiness that I don't have? Why can't I just be normal?
Why am I this way?
>>712707252
you should watch the live action movies man, theyre a great adaptation no joke.
>>712705132
hits deep man
>>712703701
Hey man, it could be worse. You could be playing Pokemon Sun
What'll ya have tonight, Anon? Make yourself at home
The people don't understand why i listen to rap and all of that shit. It's mostly because most of the time they talk about having a fast life and living in the moment, something I am unable to do. They say I'm super lucky and I can curve bad things by the skin of my teeth but to be honest I wish I was never born.
>>712707757
Travis?
>>712707775
You got anything that could make me forget I'm me?
>>712693634
This'll be me this year. Wife asked for a divorce a week before my birthday (Sunday). I'll stick a candle in a muffin or something.
This pic always makes me sad
>>712707886
I've got some 'ol Kentucky bourbon if that's ya thing.
>>712707542
I have had them on my computer for almost 2 years but i can't bring myself to watch a 2 hour movie.
I just don't like watching things anymore
>>712708164
Fuck it.
It's a special occasion: I've got to be able to deal with my relatives this week.
>>712694441
fucking what
>>712708385
They live nearby or ya travelin'?
music: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sCQfTNOC5aE
>>712694857
>>712694982
>>712693634
The kid is literally satan, read the comic series.
>>712696816
Thanks 40yr old mom on facebook.
>>712697654
give me your money, ill make you happy.
>>712705171
INTP here
>>712702187
I agree. That's a really pretty picture.
>>712706837
That hit me
I'm in the same position, also INTP
>>712705171
ISFP-A
Interesting enough I suppose.
>>712702187
>>712708911
Thanks, i just came back to this thread. I like to do a lot of photography
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=u5CVsCnxyXg
I fantasize so often of killing myself.
But I know, whether I do it or not, I'm not going to tell a soul, except you, of course.
If I do, and I am going to kill myself, then it makes it all the harder.
If I don't... my older brother has bipolar disorder, and I've seen him go through that roller coaster.
And the worst part: even if you do make it out the other side, no will ever look at you the same.
So I'm left with two choices: learn to live with these thoughts, or just get it over with already.
>>712708384
Jesus christ I haven't realized I feel the same way.
I won't do much to the extent that when people ask me "What's your hobbies?" I cant explain that I have no enjoyment in simple enjoyment anymore
>>712708737
They live nearby, so no road trip.
But they're belligerent and numerous.
So I'll have to be nice and soused to tank that shit.
>>712708737
Nice mood music.
>>712704020
why do you skip school, dude?
>>712705171
>>712706837
INTP
I have no motivation.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Xg8Ckamh8Gw
I've gotten to the point where I can't even cry in private anymore, I just feel a heaviness in my chest and a sense of lethargy.
Except for when I'm angry, which is the only way I can get through the day.
But even that rarely goes beyond a certain coldness.
>>712708384
I think its cause the quality of stuff has dipped. Thats how I am about anime this season for the most part. just like "whats the point anymore"
I'm 27.
but for real watch the movies. They're good.
Believe in Anonymous.
>>712710099
got sick dubs tho damn
But no really I haven't done anything but eat and sleep for a long time. I don't know why it got like this or how but it's probably depression again.
Too bad prozac gives me heartburn.
>>712708384
also since you have good taste, watch mushishi if you havent already. Good stuff to go to sleep too.
Kurenai and house of five leaves too.
Their messages should massage your heart awake.
>>712710322
Oh sweet salami it happened again.
I guess it's a sign that I should take a shower and do that paper.
>>712710099
I think that's the issue with every anon with INTP.
>>712693446
It's weird you know. Sometimes it's like, the feeling to an hero, to end it.. Is there in the back of my mind like a aching feeling you can't forget. At times you can be happy and things are good but that feeling, it's hard to explain is just there. Maybe I'm just sad I don't know. Maybe I just want the loneliness to stop.
>>712695958
thats not how it works
>>712709793
My pap told me when I was young'un and this still true, believe me, people love to talk. The way I see it, You could just nod 'em off with a couple "yeah's" and "uh-huh's" and keep to yourself.
>>712709903
Thanks, hope you love this next track, it's another blast from the past.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zqNTltOGh5c
>>712705171
the few of us will die out from killing themselves.
because we see the world for what it really is...
>>712710415
I don't know why.
I used to understand that in order for anything good to happen to me I would need to do menial bullshit or things I didn't like. Now, even things like short papers or take-home exams that used to leave me feeling some sense of accomplishment leave me feeling like I've achieved nothing.
I'm losing passion in studies that I loved and that's terrifying. But here I go with another attempt.
I'm just procrastinating death.
The only person I can honestly say I love is trying to forget I exist.
Take me home, /b/.
Take me home.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1_9FywC00jU
>>712707804
Nope, sorry dude.
Which starter did you pick? I'm assuming you picked the correct one
>>712710779
I don't play, I just thought I recognized your writing style.
I need a good feels song
>>712711137
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=u5CVsCnxyXg
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Xg8Ckamh8Gw
Often times I try to think of an uplifting statement that would apply to all of you.
Of course everyone has different issues requiring all kinds of different things to be said.
Regardless, just know that I, someone you don't know, haven't met and probably never will, do care.
>>712711137
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Q_TfYdDYrJg
>>712711250
thank you
>>712711137
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rCoGkMlfz9I
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4spkVX8z-vs
>>712704020
i swear to god i'm in the truman show. i'm doing the exact same shit and feel the exact same, started antidepressants so hopefully they help
>>712711062
Oh, then why'd you mention Pokemon Moon in your original post?
I've got a feels story that I need to get off my chest right now.
>be me, last year, senior in highschool with prom coming up
>had been overweight most of highschool, really bad social, the works
>starting lifting and boxing end of junior year
>lost 30 pounds, gained a few back in muscle
>(keep in mind I was 250 before, so I wasn't really at the point I wanted to be, but I was making a lot of progress)
>Prom rolls around
>figure that since I've been working out like a motherfucker I should look a little better to girls
>ask girl I had crush on for a while to prom
>she says yes
>itshappening.gif
>I was working a volunteer job that weekend when I get a call
>"hey anon, I wanted to talk to you."
>tells me she had other plans and said yes as a knee-jerk reaction
>godfuckingdammit
>dad finds out and tells a few coworkers
>one of his coworkers daughters whom I had met before, let's call her J, heard about this
>offers to go to prom with me
>I hear about this from my dad and call her in a nervous wreck
>make plans with her, I
"I'll pick you up then, we'all go get dinner, etc."
>FUCKYES.exe
>prom night comes and I pick her up
>this girl, holy shit, this girl
>she was a sophomore in the college in my city then and was a solid 8/10. About 5' 8", shoulder length blonde hair, stunning eyes, and was wearing a LBD.
>how am I this lucky?
>say hi, give her a flower, because fuck corsages
>get in my car and drive to fancy dinner
>talk for almost 2 hours
>we're laughing like fucking hyenas the whole time
>she's funny, wicked smart, and just geeky enough
>it's like I made her in a machine
>finish dinner, order giant slice of cake (meant for us both) for desert
>about 4 bites into it I have to go to the bathroom
>come back to an empty plate and a very content looking J
>laugh, pay bill and head out to car
>get to dance realize I forgot the tickets
>fml
>race back home with her and grab tickets
>get to prom after much embarrassment and start dancing
Cont?
>>712711874
That wasn't me.
>>712711980
Yes pls
>>712711980
Yes Anon, Please.
>>712711980
Pls anon, continue...
>>712711980
Continue. I need to know,
>>712693634
Man. Why would anyone make some thing like that
Bump
Bump x2
>>712711980
sure, why not.
>>712711608
Anytime my brother.
Bump x3
>>712711980
Has to be fake. Nobody on 4chan has the heart to do volunteer work.
>>712693634
holy hot damn is that a hot mom
BUMP x4
>>712695296
More like always.
Bump x5
Bump x6
Bump x7
>>712707103
I could not agree with you more anon, sadly enough. I've spent many a night looking for a true meaning to life to no avail. It's all pointless. We live. We see. We die. It ends.
Bump x8
bump x9
bump x10
I'm writing a post. It's stopping me from cutting myself tonight, but it's gonna take a bit to write out.
Stop bumping, faggot.
>>712694020
You know, this one hit me in a weird way. I'm a bouncer at a bar downtown on the weekends. Nothing really awesome, puff up my chest and toss out the occasional drunk or cokehead, but the other week we had a huge fight break out in the parking lot outside.
The fight was centred around one girl who got too drunk and was constantly clinging to people she didn't even know and was weeping about something. I had seen her earlier crying, but I didn't think anything of it. None of my fucking business. Well, we needed to break up the fight, so we're in the middle, separating people, getting them away from each other and convincing people to either go home, or deal with the cops. their choice, and this girl starts grabbing me and screaming about how I should be sad too. That james was dead, and I was there. Naturally, I'm confused as fuck, but I try to calm her down, and get her on her way home, someplace she can sleep this off. Went the next bit thinking she had mistaken me for someone else.
One of the other guys on staff explained to me that james was one of our regulars. Some openly gay kid who vanished and turned up dead, last time he was seen alive, was being kicked out of the bar for sneaking booze in. I was one of the guys who kicked him out. It suddenly hit me, that if I had just ignored the bottle and let him pass, he'd still be alive.
tl;dr, My actions led to the death of someone else, and I don't know how to cope with that.
>>712706442
>this will never happen to you
>>712701891
Thats a really good photo
>>712694441
What the fuck
I am living in Hell. There's no other way to put it. I don't believe in the version of the Hell as described by some Christians, but I do believe I am living in some sort of real life version of Hell.
It all started two years ago. My gf of 6 years wanted me to get counseling, because she thought I was depressed. I didn't think so, because I have dealt with that since I was maybe 12. What she thought was depression was just adulthood bearing down on me. I wasn't as carefree as I was when we were in college. How could I be? I didn't have problems then. Even after I starting going (she gave me an ultimatum), she still separated from me. She was gone for two weeks before I told her she had two more weeks to make a decision. Two days before the "deadline" we had dinner at "our" apartment, she put the moves on me, and we fucked. Two days later she destroyed me. That's where everything got fucked real fast.
Not long after that my car broke down, and I had to buy one that I'm still paying off. I lost whatever faith in God or the divine that I had left. I started sleeping around with whomever was interested, but that only made me feel worse. The one girlfriend that I had for a few months cheated and gave me herpes. I got arrested for a DWI after I had one beer, because the cop was waiting outside the parking lot of the bar. The DWI prevented me from getting a full-time job with benefits, that I was going to interview for the next week. I started cutting again. My ex got engaged to the very next guy she started dating, even though she hadn't been with him a year and said to me when she left that she was "afraid of commitment". I don't know what's next, or what else can go wrong, but surely something worse will happen eventually.
What did I do to deserve all of this? What's going to happen next? I want to die so badly. I feel that life has shit on me to the point where I don't know why I should even go on anymore. My friends have helped so much, but they aren't enough.
>>712712922
Do you know how many fucking variables set off from one second to another? You could have rescued him and so could have the dozens upon dozens of other people on the way through his day.
He could have saved his own damn life if he wasn't stupid enough to try to bring booze into a bar. And that's probably not the only "quantum suicide" decision he made that evening.
>>712693543
Ive hurt myself today...
>>712712115
In your honor man
>we start dancing
>I dance like a white guy, so does she, we enjoy the hell out of it.
>at some point during the dance, we both got tired and headed outside
>start talking about classes, gripes about life, basically a continuation of dinner
>get on subject of astronomy
>she's taking an astronomy class, if always been interested in the subject, we get into deep stuff
>go back to dancing
>slow song comes on
>slowly rocking with this girl in my arms, staring into each other's eyes
>I realize I'm smiling
>and not like a creepy I-hope-Jesus-has-your-soul-cuz-your-ass-is-mine smile either
>I feel genuinely happy with this girl
>she's the first new person I've met my age in 3 years who wasn't an ass to me
>(probably because she met me after I had started reinventing myself at this point, but hindsight is 20/20)
>dance ends
>drive home was mostly silent other than a, "I had fun tonight anon."
>get to her house
This is the part where the sex would begin if I was making this shit up, but no, we said our goodbyes and went our separate ways
>blasting The Heavy on the way home
>cut to end of the year trip with my class
>I got J's number prom night and we had talked a little in between prom and the trip
>during the trip we text almost every bit of free time we had
>she would constantly complain about her job at red lobster
>she hated sea food and being a waitress, but she needed the money
>then, after the trip, it's like we didn't talk at all
>I'd shoot her a text or a snapchat and we'd end up swapping a couple of messages, but this'd only happen about once every few weeks
>I graduate and summer starts
>I get to see her twice over the summer >1st when she came to my family's workshop (my me, my dad, my brother and I had set it up in a warehousing facility on the outskirts of town because we love the 2nd amendment and tinkering)
>my dad had met J through her mom and fucking loves her
cont.
>>712706442
I have no sympathy for animals dying. Only humans
>>712712566
Brother I wish I didn't have a heart after this shit
>>712714663
This is why people don't like you.
>>712712566
Brother, I wish I didn't have a heart after this shit
>>712714663
>openly being this autistic
>>712714533
Wait is that it or is there more?
>>712701382
Damn your pc is better than mine
Also is that a bag of yeast ?
>>712698638
what's your dream? im currently a college student right now and chasing my dreams are going to be a challenge. The gpa that I need to get into this certain school is really high and i am honestly trying pretty hard to get there
Time to dump to bump
it's always fun and sad about learning history
feels nice to remember the activities and people around you, but later on get depressed when you can never relive those moments ever again...
You guys want nostalgic, extreme feels back from 2007? Click this https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4C70e4QSRUs
Jesus fuck I'm a senior in highschool and I just want to die or feel something on the inside other than sadness or anger
>>712714999
Also also check em
>>712714663
bait
And it feels that my sad playlist on spotify has more listen time to anything else.
>>712701891
why cant you drive? dui?
anyone still lurking?
>>712694294
Damn this hit me like a Fucking train.
and it fucking hurts because nobody ever texts me or gets back to me to make plans. Every weekend is the same, sitting at my computer going on /b/ or playing vidya.
>>712707103
Victory. I feel most alive when I've come out on top against a well matched rival. Nothing beats the feeling.
Find your fight, whatever that is, and hope that when the day comes to lose, it destroys you completely.
>>712716065
I dunno man, last girl I was with I didnt feel anything when we broke up, it was fucking weird. And then theres this other girl i've been talking to who's been helping me through my depression and I told her how I feel and she's accepted it, but just recently she just dropped me off the face of the earth. doesnt help that she was my only friend too
you guys want more? anyone still here?
>>712708757
What's the comic's name?
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ITjV3lQOGck
>>712694235
Fucking damnit, I'm going to try my best to not take what people say at face value ever again. Even though I am not this person.
>>712712922
you were just doing your job anon, nothing to be angry or pissed about, however it is a tragedy that he died.
I fucking hate myself
>be me
>be depressed loner
>look like a foot
>first day back to classes
>got ROTC
>go to class
>dont say anything, being social isn't something i'm good at
>see 7/10 beauty not talking
>let's call her Kay
>sleeves are up,sitting there playing with hairbands on her wrist
>notice some deep as hell cuts across her arms
>try to make small talk with her
>we talk
>she's cool as fuck
>go to my other classes
>she's in half of them
>pretty stoked to wake up in the morning so I can see her
>start talking a lot
>dontfuckthisup.jpeg
>make best attempts at flirting
>she seems into me
>notice selfharming is pretty bad and she's super fucking depressed half the time
>"Um hey Kay, if you need anything i'm always here"
>"Um... Thanks Anon..."
>kinda shys away for a bit
>smoothmovefucktard.gif
>a few days later get her kik and start talking
>thankyouKekmylordandsavior.jpeg
>she's even cooler outside of classes
>super fucking sweet, never met a cooler girl, likes video games (especially Skyrim), even loves my fucked up sense of humor
>talk for months
>drop some really subtle hints that I like her and she does the same but i'm too autistic to notice
>too much of a pussy to actually ask her out
>spend almost a month flirting
>ask the platoons loudmouth socialite I had sorta befriended if she actually liked me
>"yeah Anon, she brings you up 24/7 when we talk"
>well shit
>spend a whole day thinking about how to actually ask her out
>Just straight up ask her "Do you want to date?"
>"Sure Anon"
>FUCKYEAH.exe
Cont?
I'm in love with a girl dating an asshole. He wants out of the relationship (she found conversations between asshole and other people discussing it). She's in agony whenever she's around him, but she won't leave. Tonight, I gave her the ultimatum.
"You can't change anyone who doesn't want to change, or who doesn't feel the need to change."
"I'm sorry, but you're wasting your time, and you killing yourself in the process."
"You said it yourself, he won't even admit that there is an issue or that he's unhappy."
"Look, I'm not a perfect person (frankly, I skeptical that I'm even a good person). I have my limits. Watching you torture yourself over this scumbag may bring me to mine, and I might have to walk away. I don't want to do that, but I also won't be complicit in your pain, either."
She hasn't responded back yet.
>>712694441
i was actually pretty sad from this thread and i fucking saw this and kekd harder than ive ever kekd, thanks for the laugh anon
These threads are always 35 year old virgins in a big hug box thread with a bunch of 15 year old athiests
Go suck a log of shit from Andy sixx's asshole
>tfw no one even responded to your post
>>712716858
yes
>>712717000
Only those who are hurt come to these threads, even the angry ones. It's okay. Be angry. You're among friends.
>>712694836
..fuuuuuck..that's how I feel rn
Not sure why im telling you guys this, but i feel like im failing at life, im currently studying medicine, i do just fine there but I have no friends because i pushed them away for no reason, i dont know what the fuck is wrong with me, also every other ambit of my life is going terrible compared to a year or even 6 months ago.
Having depression as a mexican sucks dick because your family thinks you're bullshittin them, its amazing how the culture its not prepared for stuff like this
>>712716858
Keep going
>>712700744
;_;
>>712706496
I'm talking to my girlfriend on call right now.
I want to scream, I want to cry.
I won't.
I don't want to scare her away.
She'll leave eventually, I'll be just as lonely and empty as always.
Anons....why am I scared of happiness? Why am I scared of feeling alive?
>>712716858
Please
>>712694441
Holy shit thank you I haven't laughed this hard in a long time
>>712714533
>The Heavy
eww
>>712717331
You aren't. You're afraid of what will happen when the feeling goes away. I love and hate hugs for the same reason. It's almost addicting.
It's Andy Black now, nerd.
Didnt happen to me but
>at work
>coworker mentions she was at the store and the woman in front of her in the check out line was having trouble with coupons
>said it made her sad
>i asked why
>she said "because i know nothing will be that simple again"
Her husband of 30+ years was just diagnosed with prostate cancer and its in his lungs and jaw.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=coC9JSO17GQ
>>712705171
INFP-T
No surprise here.
>>712716220
You're going about it wrong, anon. You're looking for your lieutenants before you've found the fight. Your best allies will come in the field. They're the ones that can take it, and they're the ones that will care.
Find your Jerusalem, anon, and you'll find your brothers.
>>712716858
Yes. Tell us you feelings
>>712717540
I don't know if I could do it again. Part of me is happy, I don't know if I want to get rid of it now or let it grow.
>>712714533
go on man
>>712718060
1. thanks for replying to my post
2. Great templar picture
3. I just don't see anyone coming to me in the field. All I can say is that it feels like I'm watching the enemy charge at me while I just stand right in front with nothing to do but accept my fate. And sure I have some friends, but no one returns my hangout plans or texts let alone ask me if I want to hangout.
>>712695133
again, be 18 or older
>>712718237
Go for it, man. Stop worrying about fucking it up. It'll be alright.
Out of all things that I did wrong, or not good enough (losing job, slowly becoming overweight, about to lose flat etc.) the thing that pains and makes me feel terrible the most is the disappointment of those closest to me (family).
The worst part is, they always understand. They always want to help and always have my back no matter what. Yet I can't feel anything else than being a disappointment
>>712716858
>>712717091
>>712717228
>>712717383
>>712718151
She's still perfect
(I'll have to add humor or Ill cry)
>life is great
>happier than I've ever been
>after a few weeks notice she can go from perfectly fine to tearing up or bawling out of nowhere
>one day we're hanging out and just lounging on a bench thingy on her front porch
>both sitting there happy
>she breaks out crying
>thefuckdidyoudoAnon
>"Kay, are you okay?"
>"I'm fine. Sorry Anon." She's still wiping tears from her eyes
>"Kay. You can tell me anything. C'mon."
>extremely reluctant to say anything
>"Anon..."
>"yes Kay?"
>"promise you won't tell ANYONE? Promise you wont think different of me?"
>Ohshitpleasedontbeatrap.jpeg
>"Anon... I hear... Voices... In my head..."
>sit there silent
>no fucking way
>"what do they say exactly Kay?"
>"They tell me bad things. They tell me to hang myself. To slice my wrists. To OD. That everyone will be better off without me."
>"Im sorry Anon I should've told you. Please dont hate me."
>give her a long, tight hug
>"It doesn't change anything. We'll just have to get you help Kay."
>shes fucking ecstatic that im not freaked out (sorta was)
forgot to mention we we first started talking
>turns out she already told parents
>they think she just wants attention
>you dont burst out crying and leave to where your alone while you break down and cry asking them to stop if your seeking attention
>turns out she was bullied the hell out of as a child
>told to kill herself on a regular basis, made fun of 24/7, and parents treated her like shit since age 7
>I was skeptical at first but she wasn't lying
>3 years together ensured me of that
>I was the only one she told besides parents and she wouldn't let me bring it up with them again
Im starting to get light headed just thinking about this all
Cont?
>>712718978
Anon here
Were 17*
sorry bout that
>>712714663
>>712719139
18* now though right ( mods will ban if u are younger ) also cont
>>712718978
When people tell you to continue the first time, they want to read the whole thing. So please continue
>>712713278
this cuts me deep
>>712718433
I'm trying, man. It's just so goddamn scary
>>712719265
>>712718978
Yes 20* now
this was 3 years ago
>>712719464
continue
>>712714663
Goin' all out on that one, Anon.
im depressed and i have no idea why i feel like this im so empty ive tried everything to feel better ive gone to the gym done drugs done new things hung out with people. none of it makes me feel better idk what i want in life, i feel like i dont belong. im already so dissociated and now im questioning who i even am or who i ever was. i feel as if im slowly descending into insanity im up every night talking to myself and arguing with myself its like theres multiple sides to my mind. i want to feel comfortable again welcome around people but it doesnt feel that way. i wish i could have amnesia so i could have a fresh start mentally and forget everything
>>712706442
Honestly we can all only hope that we are this loved during our end.
>>712716956
fedora
>>712719723
In all honesty man that sounds like there is more than just depression going on. Go see a psych or something, man. Perhaps they misdiagnosed you. You've gotta keep trying, cause giving up only stops it from getting better,
>>712718289
When the enemy charges, brace your pike! The Saracens think that they're closing to kill you, but this makes them vulnerable. Strength and fury may yet win you the day. Remember your cause and fight!
The people around you are in different fights. Many are not in one at all, aimless. They are allies of convenience, at best. When you've found your Jerusalem, your own divine mission, you will find others that share your resolve. But first you have to march. There are many roads to the holy land, but all of them require leaving Europe behind, and any who will not march with you.
>>712696816
Not this one anon, it always gets me
Does anyone have that comic about that EDF soldier that goes to a brothel on Christmas and pours his heart out about the horrible planet he just survived?
>>712718978
we won't get an end will we?
>>712719520
>>712719265
>>712719270
>>712719464
Just to clarify I was 17 when I met her, am 20 now.
>A year passes
>we have an awesome relationship
>her mental issue doesn't stop her from being a great student and a great girlfriend
>the only difference between her and any other person with depression is that her 2am thoughts are much worse because it's screaming in her mind
>I stay up almost every night I can with her, It gets hard but she's worth it
Another year goes by
We're adults
Oh shit
>things are getting harder for her
>harder for me to help
>harder for me to stay up every night
>she does community and lives with her parents cause its closer
>I start to work because fuck edu-mah-cate-shion, I did my time and I'm not exactly stupid
>we still meet up all the time of course
>still mad in love
>>712721424
>>712719520
>>712719139
>>712721424
the final year
We're 20
Continuation
Sorry
Are we oldfags yet?
she's still with parents, helps with her siblings and stuff
>she's getting worse
>she'd write me letters all the time saying how much she appreciates me and loves me
>I'd do what I can but it was only so much
>I was honestly afraid she was starting to slip from me, that she would give in
>6 weeks ago we hung out
>I bring a backpack because I brought a bunch of shit over
>shes relativity quite that day, as well as apologetic and love-y
>didnt think anything of it
>go home
>throw backpack in closet
>ill take the shit out later
>pass the fuck out
Here's the hard part.
>I wake up the next morning
>check my phone
>she blew it up
>"the noose is up for me. Im sorry anon. I love you. Dont blame yourself."
>call her
>No anwser
>get call from her mom
>she's gone
>My Kay is gone
And to add to that she actually left me a note in my backpack written in reverse and weird ways (took me forever to translate) basically saying Im sorry Anon It's not youre fault. If youre reading this im already dead. I love you. Im sorry. And some personal stuff.
If I had just fucking stayed up or something
She'd still be alive
I'd still have my Kay
I'm sorry for typos. It's late
>>712720310
You need to become a motivational speaker
Truly fucking inspiring
>>712722142
Alas, I must go. It's that time again.
Remember anon, find your own goal, and good people will find their way to you. I believe in you! Deus Vult!
>>712721265
>>712721424
>>712721539
There's the end Anon
>>712705171
Yep, sad to see another INTJ in pain.
I hope you're alright, Try not to think about being an INTJ that much,I know from experience that it only hurts yourself.
INTJs have almost everything they need most of the time except for social skills.
It's an INTJ thing to be very self aware. That means you are also probably very self critical.
Relax dude,you just need to put yourself out there.
>>712707887
you will be fine I love you anon
>>712693446
When you wanna kill yourself but you live to help other people survive.
my cat died two days ago, got her and her 2 sisters when i was 8 at a rescue, now I'm 21 and the other two cats consistently meow and rub up against where the other cat would lay, neither cat would usually be this vocal but after the other one died they both found their voices.
RIP kitty, i love you.
>>712705171
yep im an intj
>>712724435
What is the background of that gif from?
>>712724741
2814 - Birth of a New Day
It's a vaporwave album.
>>712724741
From a music video. Anon Added the pepe.
