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Feels thread
thanks for making this annon, i need one tonight
Bump, hows life everyone?
>>712461665
just another day that i somehow made it though
>>712461665
sad. i miss my girl.
>>712461865
Things get better, trust me man. What's bothering you my man?
>>712461967
It may hurt now but it will heal as you grow. She wasn't the one for you and you must learn from it. She brought you closer to whoever you are meant to be with.
>>712462136
>be me
>be addicted to adderall
>cant sleep because of it
>slept around 10 hours in the past week
>no appetite
>lost 20 pounds in a month
>have been feeling numb for past 4 months
>for some reason am comfortable with not feeling and being wired 24/7
>>712461674
Wow I'm already crying and I've been on this thread for a few minutes
>>712462073
just having a one sided love, I'm totally into this chick and everyone tells me about how we make such a cute couple, and were made for each other. but shes doesnt feel the same way, and im just fucked
>>712462192
I don't think you're right. I broke up with her because I'm a drinker and a smoker and a degenerate and still reeling from my decisions.
but thank you though.
>>712462334
This was my girlfriend's favourite poem.
>>712462390
as in it's become an addiction or you are trying to kill something inside yourself?
>>712462681
i feel like i cant do anything productive without it.
so an addiction
>>712462617
it's a beaut isn't it.
>>712462801
ive never struggled with an addiction like that so i have no words for you other than trust your gut.
>>712462465
I hate to say it but I've been in your seat before. I loved many women and still do. I think about them everyday and wish I could just hold them but I learned to move on past them, I know she/he (I am bi) won't be as happy as they deserve to be with me...
>>712462476
Never been in your seat before but I'd advice seeking help for your addictions. I know its something you don't want to hear but I do believe it may help you. On that behalf its still not your fault. It clearly wasn't meant to be if she can't love you for you. I once was friends with a women who was incredibly abusive towards me. I believed I could change her to be less angry, 3 years later I had given up. Somethings aren't meant to be... Things get better.
-The laughs, the smiles, the love and the comfort.
Thank you for it all
It was a feeling I had long since forgotten
A quote I wrote on my suicide letter to my dear friend.
>>712463032
Shit man
>>712463075
>>712462476
>4chan thinks your post is spam dot wav
>>712463075
like, sometimes ill just think about me dying, and how i would call them and tell them about how i died happy thinking of your face smiling, and hearing your cute laugh, and i would say what i love most about her, and if i lived i would take them on the best date of there life
>>712463322
I can relate.
My dad has walked dogs since before I was born. I got close to many dogs as I grew up. Being socially awkward, I was closer to them than I was to people; even my parents. Now that I'm older, they're all dying before my eyes. It's 1-2 a year at this point.
I'm losing my best friends /b/, they're the only thing that keeps me going.
The last part of me left is dying inside.
>>712463322
Double dubs and that one hits home I've had my pupper for 11 she's been there for everything that's gone wrong in my life but always makes it to get better
>>712463642
Well, if I may say something atleast you are looking towards getting help. When I was heavily depressed to the point where I was trying to off myself I didn't tell anyone nor let anyone even know what I was thinking. Good on you my fellow anon. If I may ask what makes you think the way you think? -Request can you add your previous post number so I can easily ID you
>>712463710
If I may ask you something, if you truly love her like I did to my friend Marcela and she doesn't love you back to that amount what makes you think you have the right to restrain her from being as happy as she deserves to be? Marcela is now happier then I could ever make her and I am happy for her. I do truly love her and wish I could love her each day but I know I can't make her as happy as she deserves.
Request post your previous post number please.
>>712464213
>>712463642
>>712462476
this me fam. and I dont know what you mean about thinking the way i think. I'm intrigued though.
I'm here for you fags, I'm a little lonely
>>712464377
sup fag. nice numbers. what got you down.
>>712460874
Anyone else just feel empty and tired of being alone and unloved? I have always been really into politics. I got involved in the campaign, and that gave me meaning for a while. Now I am just empty. I will probably kill myself after Trump gets sworn in.
>>712464328
What I mean by makes you think the way you think is what makes you click?
Example: when I was heavily depressed I felt like I was trapped with no real way out. I seeked help but every time I tried to I chickened out. I was worried I wouldn't be taken serious. I ended up trying to slit my wrists but got stopped by a cop and now am on meds as well as therapy etc. What makes you feel the way you feel? Are you to blame? if so why do you feel that way?
>For help to be a option you need to admit you need it -My therapist.
>>712464447
Yeah.
>mfw I know I've lost significance in her life
Tbh only reason I havent killed myself is bc I'm too much of a pussy
called my mom, cried it out, and we both agreed its best i dont come home for thanksgiving.
got a whole week coming up with no one to do.
how ya'll feeling?
>>712463918
Here's to you Anon.
May you find your next dog in a person. Don't let yourself be miserable here, always continue walking forward. Accept that everyone lives their lives, and everyone will come and go. Because even as some go, more will come.
Just have to let them come.
>>712464763
if you want to talk about it just tell me and I will my man. Things get better trust me.
>>712464779
its not hard my man, I was trying to slit my wrists (with ease) and OD with coke. Wasn't a issue. What makes you feel like thats your only option?
Open to talking to people my fellow anons.
The last time I heard from my best friend Andrew, he was at a homeless shelter. I talked to him three times over the phone before his phone was cut off. I haven't heard from him since, He doesn't respond to me on email or facebook.
It's really hard for me to not kill myself knowing I might not see him ever again. Not a day goes by that I don't miss him. I need to see him again because he is all I have and I don't have any real life friends besides him.
We have been friends for about ten years, since I was a little kid. His mother abused him and treated him like shit. We let him stay at our house during a snow storm because he was locked out of his house.
He's gone and I don't know where he is and I don't know if I can make it through life without my best friend. He is alI I have.
>>712460874
I use This image as my phone background
>>712464417
I'm pretty good, actually. I'm just alone in my apartment.
And I work 14 hours tomorrow so I won't have time to be bored or lonely. I just need to get to the grocery bedfore work.
What's up with you?
>>712464749
What's got you down anon? I felt that seeing Trump win would make me happy, like I accomplished something, but it did not. I am still a lonely autist nobody will ever love. What's your story?
Rolling
>>712461149
thats....the most depressing thing i've ever read
>>712461158
>the person I could have become is wearing a suit
fuck off, commerce
>>712464988
I know the feeling my man. Want to talk about it?
>>712461222
i relate...so god damn much
>>712465303
>>712464763
>>712464930
I feel like she was just being nice to me
Being my friend out of pity
It'd definitely explain why we don't talk anymore
>>712465362
Sorry if I fuck up, don't normaly post on 4chan >>712464930 I just feel like everything's meangless, I keep myself distracted most of the time but then it just hits me hard and I have no one to talk to. I feel alone
>>712465095
For what?
>>712465280
Explain, please
>>712465394
>>712465474
>>712465490
>>712461665
It's the NEET life. It's okay for now. I'm mostly indifferent to everything.
A sense of melancholy hovers over me as i recall the moments where ive mustered up some balls and walked up to the various girls i had feelings for,...only to be crushed like a bug by their response...youre like a brother to me, or, I only like you as a friend...well fuck. I respect their decision but as soon as I'm alone I burst into tears and pop xans until I forget..but I can never fully forget...that feeling...that false hope....that's why I keep to myself....
>>712465490
Too true. Can't wait for my abupt eternal slumber.
>>712461259
jesus christ, this one hurts
Everyday feels like a muddled haze. And happiness is a distant memory. I keep forgetting things, people tell me things and I forget them as soon as I hear them, people disappear from memory, and the worst part is I am seeing people stop helping me with it.
>>712465525
lol man, how can you be this invested in multiple girls wtf
>>712465437
commerce fucks me over and then expects me to believe in its ideals (such as that self worth is a suit, etc.)
>>712465383 If I may ask have you tried talking to her more? A friendship is a two way street, you can't expect her to do all the work. Talk to her.
>>712465427
I use to come to these threads to talk to people, and now I come here to help people. You may be alone in real life but here you have someone to talk too. Just talk to your coworkers, friends or even a stranger. I met a good friend in the mental ward. She helped me out alot
>>712464853
y though
>>712464988
You sound like me (we met when we were toddlers), except my Andrew has been rediculosly successful and Im the one in the homeless shelter.
>>712465724
I worded it Incorrectly....I meant I had feelings for one girl, she turned me down, then ff a couple of years I move on, feels for other grill and so on....my bad anon
>>712461296
deep. I can say that this is true. To be tricked into loving someone is worst. They show you how amazing they are only to tell you love is not real.
>>712465514
Whatca mean? if I may ask?
>>712465898
id been having issues with my family this year. growing up i thought i had a normal family life... and i guess i did depending on your definition of normal.
but this year i kinda traced back my childhood and there was certain things im just not ready to forgive. dont know if iever will be with all the lies surrounding it.
on top of that my mom keeps trying to kill herself, my brother is only nice to me cuz i threatened to kill him when i had a gun and my little brohter isn't very nice at all.
so im staying home and i feel very comfy about it.
>>712464213
>If I may ask you something, if you truly love her like I did to my friend Marcela and she doesn't love you back to that amount what makes you think you have the right to restrain her from being as happy as she deserves to be? Marcela is now happier then I could ever make her and I am happy for her. I do truly love her and wish I could love her each day but I know I can't make her as happy as she deserves.
if your still here, i do love her, and i want her to be happy, but happy with me and not some other fuck boy that will fuck her up
>>712464883
This is one of the better things ive seen on /b/. i'm making a quote of this
>>712465789 thanks dude
>>712465981
>i worded it incorrectly
>various girls
>their
this wasn't one slip of the tongue anon, dont lie, how could you accidentally add the word 'various' and make all of them plural. come on.
Good night anon
I'll miss you
>>712466172
>>712466224
>>712466135
I wish I could give you a place
>>712464721
I don't know man. I call myself a "social loner", so what I mean is im an extrovert and have a lot of friends and have never had an issue with that.
but when push comes to shove I don't have anyone to talk with in a meaningful way. hence the loner bit. I have a lot of friends and drown my emotions and loneliness by spending my time in the company of others so i dont have to be alone in my own head.
I realized this a bit ago, after we broke up. she was my rock and my partner in crime and since then it's gotten worse. I've kept a journal for almost a decade and can see it there too. the need for other's interaction to spare myself from myself. and something clicked and it was like, oh hey, I need to see a doctor.
>>712465050
some my dude. chilling and watching twitch and drinking and trying not to cry lol
>>712466082
I'm doing nothing with my life but I also have no aspirations to do anything. I'm mostly content with everything. I don't care what happens.
>>712465525
You sound like a bitch
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TKKWWOCkBgc
>>712466264
a place for what?
>>712466335
>>712466407
>>712466428
>>712465383
>>712465789
That's the thing. I do. She never answers. Forever left on read
>>712466135
>>712466264
>>712466374
a place to live dude. to get away.
>>712466158
I am here still and will be. I know the place you are in. Trust me it hurts but in the end it gets better. She is meant to be with someone who she wants to be with. A person is in the same position you are in but feeling towards you. If you truly TRULY love her you will let her be with someone who she loves.
>>712466198
It's no problem my man, things get better and I know it -A person who's been battling depression for many years.
Here some real shit
https://youtu.be/wK7GSARUs_Q
>>712465071
if being involved in a campaign gave you a purpose, made you feel somewhat happy. why don't you do that? get involved in politics. Help out in more campaigns, state campaigns, etc. Learn about politics, works for it, and who knows, become one, one day.
Why is it that loving someone who doesn't love you back is the hardest thing in the world? Were bestfriends and we had sex and two days later he messages me and tells me flat out he thought it was someone else in the bed and told me to "forget about it", it's 2 AM and I have a chemistry midterm tomorrow and im sitting here crying about someone who i love. I would cross an ocean for him but he wouldn't cross a bridge for me, why /b/?
>>712466454
what? i already live on my own. thats why im not going /back/ for thanksgiving.
very happy to stay home with just me and the doggo.
>>712465474
thankyou. i needed this.
I had these friends, and we all talked everyday. One day they stopped talking to me, no idea why. I still see them on steam but they won't respond ever, or pick up calls or anything. I knew them since I was born and it really fucking hurts that they did this.
>>712466293
Best thing to do is to see a doc, thats all I can say. Hope all gets better. Don't do what I tried to do please my fellow anon.
>>712466342
If that's what you want thats what you want. I personally want to do trapping. A simple life worth living. I could care less if I struggle each day to pay the mailman or never struggle again as long as I can be happy.
>>712466447
Have you guy's argued or anything like that? If I may ask?
>Lots of people talking to me so, sorry about the long waits for replies
>>712466548
I did anon, but we won, there are no more campaigns to run where I am from until at least 2 years. And honestly, I thought it would make me happy like I said. It did not. Now I feel I did something in the world, and there is little reason to stick around.
>>712466827
i think everyone needs it man.
>>712466998
>>712466946
>>712466293
thanks fam. same to you. here's to the end of the world.
>>712461259
>>712461222
Fuck man those ones cut deep.
>>712467115
>>712460874
So I just fucked everything up cheating on my gf, my only reason to be who I am.
I feel like dying because all the mental stress in my head is accumulating because I havent told her anything yet, she does not suspect a thing.
I plan on not telling her because I already kinda "cheated" on her once, told her and everything went down in chaos but she forgave me. I dont think a second time (and even worse this time) will work
All of this just because we are in a long distance relationship, and i know for a fact that she wouldnt cheat on me, i know her and she cant even go outside to meet people, thats why she doesnt have anyone else but me.
I really need someone to help me right now, i dont want to tell her anyhting, i just want to go back where things were normal... please, can anybody help?
>>712467265
I remember when I lost my first dog. I was 5 when my parents first got him. He was a skinny shar-pei that wasn't as wrinkly as other ones. Was very playful but was also pretty protective with me. Being the "loner" and "weirdo" of the school I didn't have much friends to play videogames with or to go out with, so I would spend most of my free time playing games or spending time with my dog. I would sometimes walk him to the park and we would just sit and stare at others passing by. When my parents were going through divorce I would spend many nights outside with my feet in the pool and he would come and sit beside me. When parents did split my mom, sister, and I spend 4 more months in our old house and during the time I would let my dog into my room and he would sleep with me (by that time I was around 15ish). One day my sister started to have breakdowns in the middle of the night so my mom and I decided that I should sleep in the room with her to help make her feel safe and that everything was going to be alright. I couldn't let my dog into the room since my sister had some mild allergies so we would close her door and the backyard door. One night I heard the door from the backyard slide open and thought it was probably my mom going out. As you guessed it, the next morning I saw my dog laying down on the floor next to my sister's bedroom door. He died at her doorstep wanting to sleep beside one last time. I was in denial the whole day but the next I just couldn't stop crying.
>>712466998
NOTHING IS OVER!! Especially in politics. Off year elections, while not as sexy, are still important. Besides, two years are an eternity in politics. Its better to stay on the ground than to play catch up.
>>712467210
Cheers *Clinks a glass full of water*
Everything gets better trust me.
>>712467291
>cheated on my gf
i know how strong an urge can be but seriously anon, you cant have lvoed her that much.
>my gf
>my only reason to be who i am
jesus christ anon. you cant be co dependent and a cheater, not like this.
a woman only makes you a 'better man' if you're still a better man when she's gone. otherwise she only makes you a fraud.
>>712467483
>>712465071
I'll bite.
I'm The Dogwalker. But besides what I've said, I just feel like an ugly, autistic failiure. School doesn't interest me, so I've been slacking and as a result, I've ruined my life. My parents are ashamed of me, and the human friends I have either don't give a shite about me or are too far away. I'm too much of a pussy to kill myself, and the stress makes me constantly seek out distractions or stay up until late thinking about it. I don't pity myself mind you, I blame myself for all my shortcomings, and so I hate myself.
Above all what I feel is a big wall in front of me that I don't want to break. That wall is the stories of others. Those who are abused by their parents, went to war, etc. I don't feel like I have the right to be depressed. Now that I'm typing this out, it feels silly and weak, but it's what I feel at least subconsciously 24/7.
That's my story anon. You?
Nobody cares about this old scott any more. Ms family left me when I was fighting for them, me dog and me best friend is dead, living day to day in poverty due to my leg being crippled life isng worth living for me anymore
>>712467564
are you a pirate?
>>712466447
>>712466946
There wasn't an argument, but if anything I can't help but feel like it was my fault. Maybe I should keep emotions more to myself
>>712467448
I don't know man, 2 years might be a lot in the world of politics, but they are an unbearable amount of time for me. I cry myself to sleep every night as is. I don't know if I can wait 2 years for a chance to maybe have meaning again for a little bit.
>>712467825
Some people can't deal with someones grief and troubles. I lost my dear friend of 5 years because I kept on telling her my mind and my issues. I couldn't help myself. I had too before it was to late... It wasn't your fault nor is it mine. It wasn't anyone's fault.
>>712461222
Everyday...
nice trips btw :(
>>712468306
>>712468358
>>712467540
Virtually the same as yours anon. I am interested in school, but only as a distraction. I feel nothing when I do calculus. It is nice, it is different from feeling despair. Like I said earlier, politics gave me meaning for a bit but that's over. I don't have friends. In my whole life I only really had 2 genuine friends whom I deeply loved and cared for, and vice versa that I made in Senior Year High School. That's been over for a while. I am alone. I am an autistic disgusting subhuman. I also hate myself. I wish I could tie myself and slowly kill myself while telling myself why I am awful. I don't care about anything. I hate life. I hate being alone. I hate waking up everyday and being me. I hate looking at the mirror and seeing that same, disgusting face every day.
>>712467505
its the distance anon, you always want her near you but deep inside you know you are just alone and it starts to build up inside, but by fucking Hades i swear that the moments i spent with her were really special to me, she became a big part of my everyday life
I know I sound kinda faggy at first but its something i feel is true, she blew my depression away, i blew hers.
I just feel so wrong with myself, i cant even think straight for a solution
>>712468399
check
>>712468452
Never knew how relatable these threads can get
Especially pictures/stories like this one
>>712465309
His name is Andrew D. Johnson, He's about 23 years old. He had been going to mental facilities to get treatment for mental illness.
>>712468672
>>712468726
>>712461674
I can't believe I'm getting tears
>>712468722
Well, hear me out on this at least he is getting the help he needs. Its better then the alternative. Trust me on that one.
>>712468451
then stop being faggy.
you guys didnt blow anything away, just distracted each other from what sactually wrong.
its not romantic to be depressed and in love anon. time to grow up.
I think I have caught feelings for my fuck buddy.
>>712467825
>>712468148
I hate emotions that never die down
does anyone got more pictures to dump? i'd love some more
>>712468404
I'm not going to tell you not to kill yourself. I've lost that game too many times on /b/. It's your decision anyway. What I am going to tell you is that if you are going to kill yourself, do everyone a favor and do it on a Thursday. In the morning. That way the people who care about you (or pretend to) can take the rest of the day (and Friday) of of work or school and have a couple of days away from their monotonous jobs PLUS the weekend! 2 for 1! If you aren't going to kill yourself, then watch Gurren Lagann. It's fucking awesome and inspiring and I recommend it.
Fuck it Anon, just go watch Gurren Lagann and feel better for a while.
>>712469152
At first you learn to hate it then you learn to deal with then you learn to handle it. You never truly get over it but slowly you learn to cripple it and make it so it doesn't affect you.
A person who's been depressed for a very long time and has attempted suicide twice without results.
>>712461222
>posting on your facebook wall
Fuck off normies
>>712469015
ok then, going straight to the point:
>how do i deal with the guilt so i can be calm again?
>>712469755
tell her.
Any1 got good tips on how I can make friends at a new school? I've been going here for like 3 years and I still can't make any friends. It doesn't help that I'm very socially awkward, but I feel like once people I get to know people I'm a lot less awkward. How can I break the ice /bros
>>712470261
make small talk with kids in your classes about work or ask them questions about the work and just say some jokes here and there. and soon enough youll have friends
>>712469152
>>712469486
I always get to the point where I feel like I've overcome it, but something always manages to bring it back. When it does, it's a big wave of everything at once and at full force
>>712470261
>3 years
Well it's not a new school now is it?
>>712470261
Common ground and self confidence, niglet. Find people with interests similar/somewhat similar to your own (clubs for example) and use that to bridge the gap.
>>712470680
yeah I guess not, but that's why it's so fucking pathetic that I have no friends.
>>712470680
In all seriousness just find people who share your interests and try not to come on too strong.
>>712469886
isnt there another way? do i really have to lose her?
>>712470885
Switch to phone for more pics
>>712470646
I know the feeling, currently on the wave. Not to long ago I was debating on going at the razor again if you know what I mean. Trust me it gets easier to deal with at time. You didn't learn to walk after your first step you learned to walk after months of building muscle.
>>712470994
>>712470885
Shit this one hit close to home
>>712470261
Talk about shit you're certain you gave in common. Classmates obviously either have the subject of the class or, more commonly discussed, the teacher.
Clubs obviously by nature force you to have a shared interest. If you're on 4chan you probably have an interest in anime, vidya, or the like; these clubs may often (always) be filled with loud aspies, they can often be tolerable when not trying to get the attention of a large group.
These conversations won't be deep, and they won't be interesting. But if whomever you're talking to is interested in making friends too, this will open the door and they might walk through.
When all else fails, remember the universal maxim: people will ALWAYS talk about themselves when given the opportunity.
>>712471079
>NEETs bitching about how shitty they're life is
do something faggot, at least try. If that doesn't work get over it and kill yourself fucking pussy. I want to die as much as the next shitposter but at least I'm actively trying to improve my life.
>>712471163
>>712470820
Also try talking with the nicer people in classes you sit next to. Join a club or the band (band4ife) Maybe sell weed. You'll only be cool for selling weed, but you'll be cool.
>>712467265
that broke me
im bawlinh
this is hell kill me god just fucking kill me please
>>712471244
>>712471383
>>712471453
>>712471531
>>712465510
.....
>>712468927
Well if you see him, tell him to email me or something.
>>712470646
>>712471009
I really wish sometimes that I'd kept things at hello
>>712471983
I will do my anon. Best of luck on finding him.
>>712472069
Well I have regrets too, you learn to deal with it man... That's life.
>>712472069
>>712472271
Looks like I'm going to die with regrets
Hey guys, look at this thread.
>>712471327
>>712467265
Fuck.... This one hit like like a rock...
>>712472927
I didn't mean to come off as a asshole my man. Sorry about that. We all have regrets, and we all will die with them but its all up to you to let it effect you or to let it just be there.
>>712464763
at least you had significance
>>712461665
It's been okay. Some major changes are coming up, all I can do is embrace what it is or try to work around it
>>712465662
I'm sorry to hear that /b/ro. Have you look for any professional help?
>>712473591
What's these changes if I may ask?
>>712473380
Don't apologize
I'm just a mess
>>712473506
>significance
>>712473768
College, new job, and realizing my previous life is holding me down
>>712473999
check'd
>>712473913
Nah man, I came off as a asshole and I needed too. We all are mess's on the inside its just about sorting out those things.
>>712473999
First nice trips, two start new. New friends if you need too, new place to work new home new town whatever you got to do to make you as happy as you deserve to be.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MlfzZHeHBUI
Messages I sent to my best friend of 7 years. His phone is shut off and he doesn't reply on Facebook anymore
I'm going to bed, fellow grieving anons. I hope you all sleep when if you do. I love you guys
>>712474142
I hate to say it but you have to tell her, if you truly love her tell her. Tell her why and tell her how much she means to you. No bullshitting her, just the honest truth. -Been cheated on and took her back... Lasted 3 more years til I felt like I needed something new.
>>712474271
I know the feeling man. I know the feeling. Want to talk about it?
>>712461149
What book?
I wrote a poem recently about my Grandpa's dementia. He tried to run over the poor kid he's accusing of taking his shit, so we had to take his keys and guns (all fucking 18 of them) and we're gonna put him in a home.
Why won't you listen?
My fishin' pole's missin'.
By the crack of dawn
my money's all gone
The keys to my cars
The coins from my jars
He took my hat
Without even waking the cat
He took my peace
And took my sanity
He sneaks in at night
To take what's my right
We'll see if I can still fight
Cause that boy is my blight
I'm gonna beat
That kid down the street
They say I'm crazy
They took my guns
Maybe I'm feelin' hazy
But that boy better run
I wanna run him down
And give him a pound
All of my folks say
They're gonna put me away
>>712474148
It's just being able to live a small life again. I'm more comfortable, though lonely, by myself. I know what has to be done, it is taking that step that is the scariest
>>712474881
>>712474881
Take it, trust me it gets so much better afterwards. Trust me man.
I always seem to be looking out for other people but it seems like nobody ever wants to know what's wrong with me. Nobody ever asks if I'm ok and ive been self medicating to deal with my anxiety and depression. I only feel good about myself and my relationships when I'm high. My roommate is probably my favorite person in the world but it seems that he's only happy when we/he is hanging out with someone else or other people. I feel helpless as I watch him turn into the person that he's always despised. I don't know how to talk to him and I know he's hurting but I just don't know how to help him. My anxiety keeps me from asking and talking to him like a normal person. All he says to do is drink and I feel like I'm watching him waste his life away I just don't know what to do. It's eating me away. I just want to be his friend. It I'm pretty sure he just hates me. I'm so confused but my mental illness just keeps me from being normal I just don't know what to do :/
Falling in love with a slut thats your best friend sucks a lot btw
so this is gonna sounds really pathetic, but for around 3 or 4 years now ive been planning to make a webcomic. i have the story all planned out, the backstories made, the characters developed. I have my tablet and i can draw but the thing is, once i actually make the comic, each of these characters arent mine anymore. once i make it, they wont be my friends anymore. I guess its kinda similar to having an imaginary friend. hahaha
>>712461665
Shit
I'm not even a month into adulthood and this is terrible already. my birthday was awful, had a bunch of people who I thought were my friends over but they couldn't care less about me. I have a job now which I thought would be nice, but it isn't nice to miss the one of the two times a year your family meets to be working with angry customers who treat you like shit. I'm missing fucking thanksgiving that sucks so much. school sucks so much and then I have college, choosing computer science because I'm not good enough at anything else, I can be another sheep assuming the cs bubble doesn't pop before I get in. my family is in a financial rough spot, saving all my money for my own car that will be a piece of shit I am embarrassed to drive. video games are getting more and more boring as time goes on and this depression that's been at it for years is getting old.
>>712474586
To Mock a Killingbird
>>712461158
Someone shoop a hot girl jogging past the depressed failure in the foreground
>>712475127
We shall see by tomorrow. At this point it is me trying to look out for myself.
>be me
>18, studying and still living at my dad's
>when I was 15 he and mom caught me smoking weed
>smoked on and off during those last two years
>went out with friends this friday
>i had taken a bit of amphetamine
>wasn't feeling much anymore
>took .5mg of xanor
>took it three more times with about an hour between every dose
>meet friend who just bought some pot
>decided to join in on it
>ffw to saturday
>take some more amphetamine at 2pm
>keep taking more and more
>accidentally take too much
>shaking, fever, sweating and headache
>ffw to today
>dad tells me to piss
>he flips
>start throwing shit around, asking if I still want to live here
>might get kicked out
>feelsbadman.jpg
How was your weekend, anon?
>>712460874
I feels these threads are pathetic
Nobody gives a shit about feels. Particularly not yours. So go shove em up your ass and either jump off a bridge or deal with it like the rest of us.
>>712467291
"All the whores and politicians will look up and shout, 'save us' and I'll look down and whisper, 'no' "
>>712476853
I care.
It's strange to see these posts as an outsider now. I used to know what this was like. To wake up everyday, no meaning, all sadness. Not even knowing what happiness was anymore. And never knowing what love felt like. I'm happy now, I wish everyone on /b/ could have happiness too.
>>712475184
Are you ok Anon?
>>712477161
What changed? How did you get there anon?
it hurts down to the bones
>>712461916
Fuck...the sad thing is i'll never be as optimistic about the future as I was as a kid. What could've been...
>>712477246
Found an amazing girl who gave all her love to me. Changed my entire life.
>>712461665
Today was pretty good, I'm really considering finding more medical help for depression though.
>meds seem to be of no help or worsen things
>at the point where I have lost control and will randomly feel intense sadness with no apparent cause
>will likely get electroconvulsive
>>712461967
That story hit hard. But it's a good story I totally recommend reading it all.
>>712466027
Fuck anon, that hit me hard.
I havent had a girlfriend in years, i feel like i will never have one, a true one, one that matters to me, one that loves me for who i am, someone that will never judge me on who i look like, how i sound. I just want someone to share experiences with, to share how i feel in my life, someone to talk to when im feeling down, someone who i want to talk to everyday, someone who wants to be with me, someone who i can share my feelings with, why, why am i cursed to never find the one, why am i cursed to look ugly, to have a shitty voice, to never find love. Why? Why do i have to move everywhere and never take the time to settle with anyone. Why....i look around, i see people who i known for years with girlfriends which they had for years. And i look at myself and think "what am i doing wrong?" How come i try my best to change myself in looks, i take pills to control my anxiety and control my depression so i can finally smile and fit in. Im in my senior year of highschool and i feel like i want to fucking die. I wont be able to go into a UC or a Calstate, because i been moving to several new highschools every 6-10 months. I look around and i notice people getting accepted into UCs and Cal states while their relationship with their girlfriends reached 3 years. And im just here being a disappointment to my father, with social anxiety and a scaredness of not being able to be accepted. I see people with thousands of friends, hanging out with them every day. And i see them with their girlfriend and i see them happy with their families, who is happy to be with those shits who have it good. I havent had sex, i have never had a true kiss from a girl. I see those shits who have it good with their girlfriends and their perfect families. And i look at myself, barely any friends, no girls who like me, family broken, mother left my family, somewhere in mexico. Why
>>712460874
Was confused and scared for my future so I cleaned up and joined the military. Now I'm surrounded by empty relationships and no outlets.
I let my best friend, the only person in this world who truly gave a fuck about me, kill themselves. I could've stopped it. If I had just stayed up and checked my texts instead of muting my fucking phone. If I had just talked to her.
I'm don't even know how I can live with myself anymore.
>>712465510
If I had the strength to ask her that.
>>712477234
None of us are okay. That's why we're here.
>>712474271
Maybe he had an accident that's why he doesn't answer
>>712465474
Didn't know I needed this. thank you roodypoo anon
>>712467291
Nop, Your actions have consequences and you have to pay for them one way or another.
Today my only friend told me that she cares about me and that she misses me.
Today I don't feel like shit.
>>712475443
Selfish faggot, link?
>>712476825
Let him chill, He'll forgive you.
>>712461665
Dull
>>712460874
Be me
19m
>Be with qt3.14 for 3 years
>She had implant bc so been nutting inside every hole all the time
>We have destructive and explosive break up
>Haven't busted a nut in a pussy for almost a week
>Decide to make tinder and MeetMe and shit
>Ff week two and am also feeling empty and figuring out what to do with all this extra fucking time i now have since no high maintenance hoe anymore
>Get bombarded by this chub huge tit bitch I'd say 4/10 but 8/10 face and tits
>Enjoy the attention.
Never been with fat girl before
>I need to fuck something tho
>Primal instinct kick in and I go over she lives in fucking double wide park
>Invites me in and she just talks and talks and I now realize she sits here all day just doing online school and stuffing her face
>Makes me food and fucking give me full body massage of the gods ending with her mouth full of my cum
Cont? If interest
>>712470261
For all of you anons out there with depression, there is 'depression' and real depression. I had 'depression', and I think many of you do too. This is the quote that helped me with my 'depression'
>Self pity is narcissism disguised as depth
Oftentimes people have trouble making or maintaining friendships because they are too self centered and it comes off as extremely pretentious. You may not think being 'depressed' is being self centered, but to people around you it is.
For those of you with real depression, I can only wish you the best.
Good luck anons, and I'll always be there for you.
>>712479898
Bad Luck.
Seems this is the end, Nice thread OP made me really think...
>>712465786
The couldabeen you in a suit is gonna say "that commerce shit was so easy, how did you manage to fuck up this bad lol."
>>712466443
Beautiful.
>>712463032
lold
>>712466443
>full stop
>doesn't stop
>>712484012
So what is real depression like in your mind?
I've been awake all night, restless and uneasy. I don't know why. I was browsing Imageboards and wasted time even though i could be doing more important stuff.
Then I found this thread, started reading it, and realized that i am crying. I cried for two hours straight. I cried my eyes out, first silently, then wholeheartedly.
I feel slightly better now. It's 9.30 am, and i'll start my day refreshed.
My life is okay, btw, I shouldn't complain about anything at all. But somehow, sadness still finds it's way through the walls of my mind.
Thank you very much, Anon, for helping me to cope with it.
These feels are absolutely shit tier.
This reminds me of fucking tumblr.
Thread theme?
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vt1Pwfnh5pc
>>712476853
>Nobody gives a shit about feels
Nigga they arent truffula trees your stoic narrative isnt new to anyone here. Love that polarized thinking though either kill yourself or not show emotions
>>712478059
But what if she were to leave you? Do you honestly think you wouldn't be right back here with us? Did she really change your life or are you just happy for a while until it falls apart? I hope she's truly changed your life, anon, but I fear she has not.
For the body (Revised) Originally by Rudy Francisco
Dear eyes, I need you to stop looking in her direction every time you catch a glimpse of her
Dear brain, You're great at listening to me, but you need to stop playing the memories on repeat
Dear heart, Stop hurting every time you hear her name
Dear legs, walking is easy, so stop giving out on me everytime I see her
Dear hands, I get it, you miss her warmth. But you don't need to make me feel colder now that she's gone
Dear fists, the walls aren't your enemies. She is now.
Dear voice, I need you to stop shaking every time you say her name.
Dear Cupid, Stop using me for target practice.
>>712465662
i have this too. do we just not care to remember perhaps?
>>712467564
so long brother. to whatever end.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KEXQkrllGbA
![[steve brule].gif](https://i.imgur.com/gLwNWYE.gif "[steve brule].gif")
>>712464763
fuck anon,.... me too.
>>712468672
FUCKYOU
I just miss her. I didn't loose a lover, I lost my best friend and my most trusted advisor. Know I realize how much time I spent talking to her, because those hours now feel empty no matter how I fill them.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Yag41F7eCLU&index=5
>>712461665
>be me
>Active duty marine
>girlfriend lives 600 miles north of me
>get back from deployment, still haven't seen her
All we do now is talk on the phone and skype. I think to myself, she stuck it out through a 7 month deployment, there's no way she'll leave me because of the distance. Lately she's been acting really weird, taking hours to text me back, and I don't want to blow up her phone, so I text her once and wait hours for her to finally text me back. She actually kept me sane when I was overseas, and now I'm back, I don't know if she wants to be with me anymore because of the distance. And I have this thought lingering around in my head that she'll just stop texting, calling, and skyping me. And it honestly scares the shit out of me.
>>712461325
>mfw 4:09 AM
Too many feels, fuck you
>>712474271
fuck my old bf doesnt want to know me either
>>712461665
This girl is regret falling in love with. Finally can get over her but it's genuinely hard keeping her off my mind. Been drinking to forget about her but it's not working. I enjoyed talking with her a lot, like I genuinely had a chance at finally finding some form of happiness in my life; only to have that be crush into nothing. I miss talking to her. I thought I could finally be happy after 20+ yesrs. I guess not
>>712483825
He won't. I've fucked up a lot lately. He hates me and I know it
>>712478059
Ahaha ha. I knew this once. Until she left me because of my work schedule, of course, and instantly hooked up with some rich fuckboi.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BN_DXzAr9Lk
FEEL ME PLEASE
>>712478118
This one always breaks me...
To all of the friends I've left behind, I just wanted to say I'm sorry I let you become a distant memory
Cheers,
A very drunk, very lonely /b/ro
>>712461967
>crying without tears
>without noise
>without crying
>feeling empty and alone
>i will never have as much as someone to lose let alone someone
/b/, why am i so afraid of an hero when it would be so easy?
>tfw https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Tinnitus
fuck me
the more I read from that page the more scared I get
I'm seeing a doctor about it soon but damn
except shitty memory it mentions every problem I have
>>712474762
Haha, this one is subtle
>>712464763
>mfw she left me for someone smaller, skinnier and """objectively""" uglier than me.
Why even live
Does it happen to you that you want to tell others about your issues, but you feel as if you're a burden to fucking everybody?
Holy fuck this thread is actually making me even more depressed. Good thing I have the trusty knife next to me.
>>712491124
Yes man but know that if someone even one cares about you they wold be glad to listen. If there is nobody then fuck I'm glad to lisen. This thread is making me so sad and now all I want to do is help.
Let's all love Lain!
I love Lain and Lain loves all of you! And she always will! <3
>>712491466
Check dem dubs. Yeah I know what you mean, but still, as soon as I'm alone I get this fucking thought that doesnt leave my head, the thought of being thrash and that you're an inconvenience to everybody, and as soon as you talk to somebody (be it through text,fb, or whatever) is like "fucking hell, this fucking cunt again", it feels like that. Thanks for hearing me out nonetheless.
>>712491764
Yeah I've been in your shoes and I still am but I know that thought just sticks in your head like "I shouldn't bother them. They must have better things to do than listen to me." Some people would love to just hear you out and try to help. Just by what you've said so far I know you're actually a great person. How could someone with all of that going on inside their head not be one of the most kind and caring people in the world man? You think about other people how it's an "inconvenience" to tell them what's going on. Have you told anyone about what you're feeling yet?
>>712490933
Because she couldn't stand to always feel inadequate around you. She wanted to finally the cool one in the relationship
>>712492060
That's hard to believe, but anything is better than blaming it on myself and constantly thinking about the stuff I could have done differently.
Cheers buddy
>>712492059
First of all, fuck man, thanks, thank you for the compliment. In all honesty I'm the friend that usually people tell their problems too, I like to give all out for my friends and family. Technically yes, to a friend of mine that was in middle school with me, she said the same thing as you, but somehow, you don't simply believe that, y'know? Like you start thinking "maybe she says that out of pity" or some shit like that. You're a great fucking person, anon. You deserve the best in this life.
Oh please thread, don't die just yet.
>>712492361
You know what my dude. Do you have Snapchat because I'm fina just put mine on here and you can add me. You seem like an awesome person lol. SC:dlevoir2345 (don't mind the jap that pops up. I taint no weeb.)
>>712475360
I'm fucking crying man, shit like this makes me so damn grateful I swear, but also sad towards the people it happens too. I wish this kind of shit never had to happen to anyone honestly, life can just be the worst. This is the main reason why I feel like suicide really isn't a bad thing in some cases
>>712492548
I was going to suggest email actually. nonetheless here it is. [email protected]
>>712492835
Alright I'll hit you up
>>712492764
Dude, I cried for a week straight after I read that. And I understand you, I consider it almost daily, but sometimes, sometimes you have to be an optimistic kunt.
>>712492873
I want to hug the shit out you man.
>>712474586
Reasons to Stay Alive
By Matt Haig
>>712461665
I'm alive.
It's something
>>712461149
>>712461325
Or, you know, the insomniacs.
this negro feels mad shit twitchtv/r4p1dz
>>712493171
>>712476169
What?
>>712466428
Or someone who's really fucking good at polishing
>>712465006
Me too, my side
>ITT: Faggots whining about not having a gf or breaking up with a gf or feeling useless
Jesus, shut the fuck up and maybe try doing something with your life rather than bitching on a fucking image board in the backend of the internet. If you really can't handle losing a gf, then never have one in the first place. Love is fucking overrated anyways. Now get the fuck outside and make something of yourselves, you faggots.
>>712494180
Just leave us, dude, I asure you that you can't beat us up any further. Also bumping
>>712461158
So like in that universe, he died also? Looks like any path I went I'd have an early death...might as well have enjoyed myself..
