Just got out of shower, feeling super depressed. Story/Feels thread.
>Be me
>20, living in college dorm
>got single dorm cause lucky bastard
>2 am
>decide to order pizza
>call up dominoes, order a pie
>delivery guy knocks on door
Usually I just opened the door and shoved the money in their face but this time was different
>it's a grill
>chest length blond hair, bright blue eyes
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>fuckin beautiful
>legitimately stunned for a minute
>quickly fumble back its to reality
>hand her money and take pizza
>as she turns to leave I yelled
>Wait!
>frantically scrawl phone number on piece of paper and thrust it at her
>"do what you want with it, I think you're beautiful and would like to get to know you better."
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>grill chuckles and takes paper
>uh, ok
>obviously uncomfterble
>she leaves, I sit on bed eating pizza watching TV
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>2 days later
>phone rings
Will cont in a moment
Continue please!
>>712211349
inb4 shit ending
>>712211349
Faster
>>712211349
I like where the story ended already. No need to fuck this up OP. I can imagine the disappointment as it is, you should write in a new one.
>>712211349
>answer it
>it's my parents, want to know if I'm going home for thanksgiving
>I talk with them for a while, tell them about the manuscript I've been writing
>dad asks me where I left the can opener last time I was there as they can't find it
>realise I had put it in my jacket pocket out of habit and taken it all the way back here with it.
>tell them I'll bring it back when i come home for thanksgiving
>realise my parents have been dead for 8 years following a car accident
>start weeping uncontrollably and put the phone down
>as i lean down, the can opener drops out of my pocket
>it lands on the carpenter floor with a softened thud
>I lose myself in the moment
>feeling kind of anxious, go to the computer and load adult gif
>look for a missionary sex thread
>fap with bravado and gusto
>stop before I ejaculate, spit on the keyboard to make it look like I had ejaculated, then go to the kitchen to wash my hands with dish soap
>>712212604
>ip counter went up
>this guy actually spent time typing this to pretend he was op
Sad
>>712212604
That's even worse. Write an ending that isn't shit either.
This is fucking stupid
>>712211349
>pick up phone
>Holy shit is grill
>says she thought I was cute
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>says she wants to meet for dinner
>jackpot
>3 days later
>at date
>shits going well
>am awkward as fuck
>she seems to giggle though
>Holy shit she has the cutest laugh
>struck fuckin gold
Cutting it off here just so you faggots know I have no abandoned you
>>712212878
Commitment. Maybe he wants to entice OP into finishing this shit story.
>We're both still on this thread
>>712213025
We feel loved. Thank you OP
>>712213025
Took you 16 minutes to type this up jesus fucking christ end your life
>>712212604
>bored. go to the television and switch to nutflucks
>scroll through til I find what I'm looking for
>the hit film, Never Back Down
>remember a scene that reminds me of a scene from the obscure 70s horror film 'Tender Dracula'
>think about how the two actors had rigged their vests to look like they had been murdered, when really everyone was fine
>consider the consequences of them really burning the house down
>observe that the nutflucks website looks FAKE, that the shadows are all wrong
>log on to geekologie and read about some more pavement art
>>712213184
Why are you still going your first attempt was painfully unfunny this continuation is even worse
Are you leaving us like this?
>>712213184
>hungry again, go to the kitchen even though I was there earlier
>look through the cupboards, open them one at a time apart from the two that are joined together so they open outwards from each other, in which case I open them at the same time.
>not much makes me want to eat it, but I keep looking because I am hungry
>see some pre-toasted toast bread in packets that are sealed so that they stay dry and crispy and you can eat them whenever you want
>look for something that can go with the toast
>think about how funny it is that toast is called toast instead of toasted
>maybe it was called toasted bread at first, then someone shortened it to toasted.
>then it was just toast to save time at breakfast time when you wanted to ask for some toast but you were in a rush so you only had time to say toast
>look around the cupboards for more to go with it
>>712213025
>go on few more dates
>going good man
>grill calls me one day
>says she wants me to pick her up behind the dominoes
>happily oblige
>go to pick her up
>as I turn the corner I see her
>she's crying, makeup running
>"What the hell? What happened?"
>she yells "I'm sorry"
>3 guys come out of dominoes
>grab car door, pull me out
>beat me up
>kick me on the ground
>basically fuck my shit up bad
>head dude comes up
>"Don't come near grill again! She's mine!"
>he practically shoves her into his car
>drives off
2 days later
>in hospital for cracked ribs and shit
>tell them I got beat up
>tell them about grill, they basically say "They'll mention it to the police".
>fuckin bullshit
>In hospital for 3 more weeks
>finally get released, told to only leave bed if necessary
>fuckthatshit.jpg
>immediately try to find grill
>however, bamboozled, grill finds me
>shows up at my place, saying that her asshole bf is gone and she's so happy
>tell her I will see her when I can walk without wanting to hang myself
>she says ok
To be concluded
>>712213025
>she takes me by the hand
>asks, "Anon, are you a virgin? Be honest with me now."
>gulp and answer completely honestly
>"yes."
>"oh my god, that is so fuckin hot."
>she grabs my crotch under the table
>"i love taking a guy's virginity"
>leave restaurant
>head back to her place
>apparently she goes to college like me but lives with her parents
>parents aren't home so its chill
>we go into her bedroom
>strip naked and begin to do the dirty
>it's getting hot in here
>literally cum buckets all over her bedspread
>"oh anon! how's it feel not to be a virgin anymore?"
>just let out a loud sexual moan
>suddenly hear noise outside
>car is pulling in driveway
>ohshit.jpg
>she rushes me into her closet, says to just wait till parents go to bed
>Dad comes into her room
>starts chatting up a fuckin storm
>getting fear boner
>trying to calm down
>begin to feel strong urge in ass region
>look through closet and see her dad is literally super swoll and buff as fuck
>let out panic fart
>Dad immediately hears and screams, "Heather! Do you have another boy in the house?"
>Dad rushes over to closet
>reaches out
>open the door
>get on the floor
>everybody walk the dinosaur
>>712213184
PATETIC, So fucking patetic. Kill yourself, dude, give you a favor.
>>712214054
kek
I always laugh when its the fucking dinosaur, but i don't know why
>>712214054
you got me
The girl I've been seeing for about two months went out last night and prObably got fucked by one of her friends (she went out with four dudes), and she has a track record of getting drunk and hooking up with people every single weekend (including the time we've been together, consistently lies to me about it too)
There's more to the story if any anon wants to listen; I feel like venting
>>712214613
Go for it, but greentext it
hurry up you faggot op
>>712213912
>see there is a jar of olives but I don't feel like eating them I only have them when my grandma comes to stay
>smell something burning, it must be the toast
>expect to see smoke, then understand that it is my imagination because the toast is cold and pre-toasted toast
>see a bottle of vinegar, which isn't good unless you have fish
>see some ketchup in a plastic container, don't want it though
>move some things in the cupboard out of the way so I can see the things in the cupboard behind them which I couldnt see before
>catch sight of a can of mushrooms in brine in the back of the cupboard that I bought six months ago when I thought I would try Chinese cooking but never started it
>Take the can down, read the ingredients briefly
>mushrooms, brine.
>panic when I remember that I don't have a can opener in my place
>start putting the can of mushrooms in brine back on the shelf but them it comes back to me
>I reach into my pocket and take out the can opener and use him to open the can
>pour the mushrooms in brine onto the pre-toasted toast
>take it into the front room and eat it while emphatically channel surfing for documentaries
>>712211349
I just lost my shit paying job today....was already broke as hell and have bills
>>712215048
You'll find another job anon, don't worry for tonight and pick yourself up tomorrow.
>>712214757
>find a nature documentary
>it's the one about the lion
>there's a huge lion, mane out to here, and he's sitting under a tree.
>he's so hot, he doesn't want to move
>the younger lions start playing with him, biting his tail, nibbling at his toes
>the females see this, and they start messing him around too
>the other animals notice this, the jackals, hyenas - barking at him laughing at him, eating the food in his domain
>they move closer and closer,
>until one day, that looks gets up and tears the SHIT
>out of everyone
>running like the wind, eating everything in his path
>because sometimes, the lion has to show the jackals, who he is.
>>712214054
Well first I'm upset at how this started but then you hit me hard with the ending fuck you cant stop laughing
>>712214708
No problem
>met at club, through mutual friends
>she literally grabs me pushes me against the club wall and makes out with me
>go back to my room (we live on the same base)
> tell her I would text her next morning (didn't plan to, but something about her sparked my interest)
> go for a date next night at the town markets, talk for hours it's going great
>go on 3 day OP overseas
> come back she tells me how much she's missed me etc
> go out that weekend with friends
>she's cuddly and won't leave my side for about an hour and a half
>she asks me to get her a glass of water as she's drunk
>go get it, look for her, disappeared, find her at bar making out with some dude
>I tap her on the shoulder and said what the fuck, handed her water and walked out
>she came over to my room the next morning and apologised, said she blacked out and remembered nothing from that night; doesn't remember even seeing me.
> forgive her as we're not even together
>fast forward 3-4 weeks, we were exclusive but not official, all friends knew
> went out again with friends, we had an argument as she hadn't talked to me for like two days (ignoring texts)
Just going to mention we literally had spent almost every night together, and she kept telling me how quickly I was becoming an important part of her life
>anyway, out with friends, we had an argument about not talking
>she goes home with my friend (lives in room next to me, we'll call him S)
> I had gone home early cause I had work next day, but stayed up talking to a friend (call them C)
>walked past his room, heard her moaning
>started screaming for S to come out, he refused, til C came out, took me downstairs to talk
>went back up to my room, found S hiding in C's closet
>ripped him out and started laying into him until C pulled me off
>next morning ignore the girl, and all day
>Sunday comes (we went out Friday)
>she comes over and says that it was the biggest mistake and wake up call for her ever
Cont'd
>>712215571
>changed the channel
>found a documentary about ww2
>Horse Drawn Net Works. About old transport
Doing this for my fans who are interested.
cont?
>>712215725
Second one was me, not sure who the other butthurt guy is
>>712215798
>she tells me she only wants me and no one else, and that she would never lie to me or cheat on me again
>goes out next weekend, some guy tries to kiss her she says no. I believe her
>hear from friends a few weeks later that's not how it went down; she grabbed him and kissed him, then she saw our friends looking, pushed him away and told them not to tell me
>forgive her again, because I'm fucking pussy whipped and I really like this girl
>last week she met my mother on Saturday night, got along really well, spent the night together; pillow talk about how she can't wait for us to be serious and how happy I make her and she's never had anyone treat her this well
>Tuesday comes, she tells me that she is not ready for commitment and that I deserve better, but she doesn't want me out of her life because I'm too important to her
>find out Wednesday from a friend that she went out the night before meeting my mum and hooked up with "multiple guys"
>she denies it and starts crying
>decided on Thursday that she and I are not going to have any communication for a week, so she can decide exactly what she wants from us
>she went out last night, with four dudes and snap chatted the whole night to me
Just feel completely broken /b/ros... this girl was the first one to make me forget about my first girlfriend of three years, and I've dated a few in between
>>712215940
>>712216170
>change the channel again
>find a documentary about how things work
>it's called how things work
>watch about 16 episodes of it before I become tired
>just about to settle in for the night when i hear the doorbell ring
>your mother will die in her sleep if you've read this far unless you shut down your computer and go outside within 2 minutes starting from the moment you read the beginning of this sentence
>>712216437
The woman is a cunt and you need to realize that anon. Even if she cares for you which it seems is very little if she's treating you that way there is still no reason to keep that in your life. You've dated before, let her get her shit together far away from you and go explore other potential partners. Or keep her around as a fuck buddy, seems like that's kinda what she wants.
>>712216437
Sounds like she has low self esteem and tries to boost it by using casual sex.
Her behavior makes her untrustworthy, no matter how much you like her.
If I were you, I'd tell her to go find a way to love herself without a proxy and perhaps come back to you if she ever manages to become someone who wouldn't even think about cheating. You shouldn't be with her when she keeps hurting you like this.
>>712216843
>eat a dick
>>712211349
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>>712216906
This
>>712216437
she sounds 300% retarded. ZZero tolerance for cheating is the only option. The moment she knows she can go get hella dick and then have you after to tell her how great she is, she's gonna abuse the fuck out of it. Imagine you were in her shoes. She's cucked you like 20 times and you're still considering giving her another chance? Dump her NOW or throw yourself off the nearest bridge. Those are your options
>>712215940
cont
>>712216437
dont deal with her, anon its better to be alone than to get cucked that hard. trust me. ive been in similar situations.
>>712217131
this dude
>>712216437
first time she kissed another dude you should have dropped her like a flaming piece of shit with a bomb inside it
Never ever let any girl treat you like that.
She is a fucking nutcase dude, a borderline personality disorder horror cunt it sounds like.
Read up on female personality disorders and avoid them in future.
As for this whore, it is simple.
Delete her from all forms of communication, block her. Delete all photos of her, throw away any objects that remind you of her directly.
Cut all contact, do not check her Facebook etc ever.
Move forward and as a guy once said on here about girls:
"don't let them work you up mate, they really really went worth it"
>>712216896
I think she keeps me around for that emotional support, cause she is always talking to me about her family issues, including an abusive mum to her younger siblings which is being investigated at the moment.
I don't know if I can be fuck buddies cause of my feelings, and I would cut her out of my life, but we share the same circle of friends, plus the service we work for is a very small place; news travels fast
>>712216906
I think the low self esteem is true, because she tells me how at the start of this year she hated herself, and only in the past few months, she's started to love herself
>>712216437
It could be worse anon.
Do you know what I would do to have friends at all? I could go the rest of my life without having a girlfriend but I don't know how much longer I can go without having a single friend.
Count your blessings fag.
>>712217407
Well if you can't cut her off, at least make clear to her that you can't be in a relationship with her because she cheats on you like this. Also make sure to take the time away from her you need to recuperate.
>>712217131
Thanks, I think getting this advice really does help me put things into perspective
>>712217235
If I was into cucking, it'd be fine, but all it's done is fucked my self esteem, and makes me feel sick
>>712217355
I know, but I like to give people the benefit of the doubt, and she seemed so genuine and regretful.
I will delete all communication with her, but I can't avoid seeing her every now and then considering same friends and live in and eat at the same place
>>712217691
I'll be your friend.
>>712217691
Grow a hobby and go do that with other people.
The more you hang around people, the likelier it is that you will get a friend.
>>712217407
abusive mother, another sign of borderline personality disorder.
Read about it right now dude.
Those monsters will fucking ruin your life and bear no guilt at all.
She can never be cured, she will always be like this.
The only difference is that the longer you spend near this cancer, the more fucked your mind and even your physical health will become.
Save yourself. She is the worst thing that could happen to you..
>>712217691
Anon, I would be your friend if I knew you. You should make the effort to go out and try meet new people >>712217723
Yeah I definitely will do that, it's what I'm trying to do now
>>712217795
>Thanks, I think getting this advice really does help me put things into perspective
People underestimate how hard it can be to judge your own actions in times of stress.
Let me contribute for you as well:
Fucking dump her. Seriously. Immediately.
>>712213184
>nutflucks
uhh is that some kind of gay porn site?
>>712217968
Good anon, take care of yourself and you will be right as rain.
>>712217795
Just treat her politely, like a near stranger, and like you are totally unaffected.
Distance yourself as much as possible.
Do not hang out in a group with her,,or if you do, spend all the time away from her half of the group.
The more distance you can,put between you and this emotional vampire, the better.
You will heal soon enough, and you can move on.
You'll be fine.
>>712218104
>New Zealand speech recognition
>>712217795
Pic of her for you guys too
>>712218477
BPD dead eyes.
read about it, learn to recognise the signals, avoid them in future
>>712211349
>arayanmasterrace
what a fag lmao
>>712218657
FUCK ANON
YOU DIDN'T FUCKIN BLACK OUT THE NAME
YOU STUPID FUCK
>>712218657
delete it all his
messages, contacts, photos
block on everything.
give no warning or explanation.
ignore her, do not hang out with her.
find interesting people to hang out with
>>712218477
Huh, you're cute anon FutureDeadpool/10.
And yeah, she's got the hurt eyes, indicates bpd like the other anon says.
>>712217691
Get a hobby. Do some interactive classes in college
>>712218858
I realised straight away fuck
>>712217058
I spit on your grave
>>712218959
Thanks anon, nicest compliment I've gotten for a while
>>712219190
Good. I didn't want you to become an epic bread, even though that might normally be hilarious. Just didn't feel right for it to happen in a feels thread.
>>712219368
Well you reminded me a bit of Ryan Reynolds in your looks and I loved him in Deadpool.
Also you have kind eyes.
Dang I'm going all Faggy here.
this is one of my favorite holidays (second only to halloween) but im not looking forward to it this year. i just want to stay in town and hide away and write and be by myself with my dog, but i somehow managed to book a full week up in oregon with the family.
My mother tried to kill herself earlier this month. she tried last year and i talked her down from it but i dont think i took it very seriously, sweemed like a cry for attention. then this year my dad came in and found my mom on the floor, downed a bottle of pills. she got to the ER in time and is fine. they're blaming it on hysteria from having a surgery a few days before and acting like its no big deal.
dad doesn't really talk to me anymore. I had brain damage earlier this year and he seems to think i was faking it. even in person he only said two things to me the whole weekend i saw him 'whats wrong with your hair' and 'whats wrong with your eye'.
older bro hasn't seemed to forgiven me since I told the family that he 'molested' me as a kid
little bro hasnt seemed to forgiven me since i called him fat when he was 8 (only once mind you).
just not looking forward to this weekend. I love my mom the most but shes the one im most anxious to talk to at this point. every year we have to tip toe around her just a little bit more, its like were becoming a dollhouse and have to pretend to be a perfect family for her. she keeps implying shes going to kill herself again.
I want to sit down and have a talk and air everything about but i get told im in the wrong when I do and not sure what to do at this point. i think im just gonna do it anyways and prepare to fly home early if it goes south.
>>712219190
LUL not worth your time at all. Went through her pics and she's pretty THICCCCCC but face is no worth
>>712219593
>>712219410
>712219410
>>712216437
Date and hook up with other girls too. Perfect opportunity, she'll either become jealous or a fuck buddy. Win win.
Emotionally I wouldn't get attached to her until she fixes her mental/emotional issues with a psych and gets medication. She probably has either histrionic or borderline personality disorder--neither of which are good friend, but especially not good wife material
>>712219812
>>712219865
>>712219190
>>712219799
I mean, I'd probably hit it but military background is a big turnoff imo. Bail ASAP friendo and always blur names
>>712219812
You trying to tell me not to kick myself for how I feel and just feel glad I said or did something about it?
Because yeah, that's why I did it. I still went a bit faggy there for a bit though.
>>712219799
Fuck /b/ro come on
>>712219880
>>712220117
Seriously...
>>712218477
What are the pros to having a girlfriend?
>>712220120
what? sorry man i didnt read your post, i just started my image dump and responded to one of the last replies in the thread. sorry man.
>>712219783
Sounds rough, friend. Best of luck.
>>712220213
Good one.
Your other ones were faggy
>>712220277
Ah okay, well that shows me for reading into stuff without it actually being there.
>>712220432
i like that one too.
most of the romance stuff is faggy to me, cuz they tend to be really angsty or cringy or entitled.
im just not really a romantic person in general so i like the ones like that that deconstruct it and focus on independence.
but there's so few good feels images that arent about romance. the ones i have are the few i consider bearable.
>>712220156
>>712220231
Party on aussie bro and don't cuck yourself. Also stop killing the great reef you bastards
>>712220120
>>712220440
it happens man. i just went back and read what you said to the ryan reynolds lookin guy and i can see how it might have looked like the image was directed directly at ya. sorry about that.
im sure you have kind eyes too anon.
>>712220845
>>712220706
That one's whiny. Independence and actual advice is where it's at
>>712220747
I wish I could stop that, I fucking love the GBR, but it's pretty much irreversibly fucked now
>>712220845
No worries. And yeah I do have kind eyes, they're rather squinty, but nice. I'm even beginning to get those little smile wrinkles in the corner of them.
I just want someone to care for me and for me to care for them.
>>712220973
its whiny in the right context, but i like it. It reminds me of a friend I had who I thought was my best friend in the world... until I got brain damage. he found out, wished me luck, and didnt bother even messaging me for another month. instead of asking how im doing or if im recovering he just said 'wanna play board games?'
explained i cant, brain damage. didnt hear from him for another two months.
id like to ask him that question.
>>712221195
take a picture? of just the eyes i mean.
>>712221216
you should only really want something that badly if someone in particular inspires it in you.
otherwise you're setting yourself up for failed relationships. and not in teh sense that all relationships end, but in the sense that whoever you settle for will have a very shallow relationship with you.
its like wanting to eat when you are not hungry.
>>712221257
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>>712221220
Fuck I have a friend in the navy I've been meaning to call for about a year
>>712221257
I would, but I haven't figured out how this mac webcam works and what image programs it has.
I am predominantly a windows guy, but being a poorfag I'm not gonna reject inheriting a computer, even if it is a mac.
>>712220985
Only you can save them, Dylan. You have to go to the reef with ice and stop the warming!
Currently 21 in college but I don't really want to actually start a career. I cannot stand the thought of working day in and day out at a boring desk job or really any job for that matter. It gives me this soul crushing feeling that my life will literally be an endless cycle of wake up, go to work, go home, sleep. The anti-depressants don't work anymore but I haven't let anyone know. I don't want to try to keep switching the medications or trying new methods of therapy because I know they won't work. I just wear a mask the whole day so others think I'm happy.
I don't want a career. What I want is to wander. I have this desire to just leave. Just leave my college campus one day and leave my family. I'll leave a note that says I'll come back one day but that's it. I want to wander across the country, hitch hike on the interstate, sleep where I can, eat what I can, and see the world (or at least the country).
I cannot justify it though. I cannot leave my family. I cannot leave the career I have worked for. I cannot devastate my family like that.
I'm stuck between my wishes and the needs of my family, and the only cost is happiness, theirs or mine.
>>712221615
How the fuck ...
>>712221648
You only get one life /b/ro. Do whatever you can to make it worthwhile.
>>712221809
Hah, you name is actually Dylan?
That was a good guess on his part.
>>712221589
that sucks, but thats kind of what that life breeds. even navy BRATS get over that fast. at least i did.
>>712221593
i feel ya man. ill just trust that your eyes are as kind as they seem.
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>>712221809
LUL I had some spare time. Not gonna dox you further than that. SAVE THOSE DAMN REEFS SON
>>712221951
he fucked up posting the chicks name. I did some research and caught the boiiii. Have his FB open but not gonna leak. He needs to end this shit on his own with no 4chin tampering
>>712221951
I'm almost one hundred percent sure it wasn't a guess
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>>712221343
They do though. I just wish I'd inspire it in them.
>>712222270
>>712222129
Thanks /b/ro, I respect that
>>712222017
Well I wouldn't lie about that. Every chance I get to criticize myself, I take and use. It's part of why I join feels threads, to talk to people, give and receive advice and feel a bit better about myself.
>>712220253
not being alone
>>712222384
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>>712222443
free pussy on the reg. I miss it
>>712222563
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>>712222730
Some people may remember this story from 4 days ago but I am writing it again.
I am 29yo and I am going to be homeless in 4 days from now, right in time for the holidays and the cold. Recently I lost a battle with the IRS and they seized my entire savings and checking accounts (nearly 80k in total, because I owed 120k in past taxes). I had a CPA but he did fuck all and apparently had me claim quite a few things I shouldnt have. I didnt know what I was doing with taxes, so I thought this guy would help.
My fiancee of 3 years left me because she couldnt handle the "stress". I have a form of muscular dystrophy that is slowly causing my muscles to waste away, especially my heart muscle. It causes me a great deal of pain, but I had been handling it well with meds. I have no family, because my family was INCREDIBLY abusive.
I hadnt had a meal in 3 days before that post was made, and an anon decided to give me 3.00 on paypal (I never did thank you properly. From the bottom of my heart thank you), so I got some ramen. The next time the food bank is open is in a week and half so I wont be eating till then. I have NO change or money period.
I cant get a job in my field any more because the company I was working for got audited because of me, and was forced to pay millions. Then word got out about me. Now no one will touch me with a 10 foot pole.
This isnt the reason I am posting this. Its just a back story. The reason is as follows.
>>712222744
>>712222753
Please everyone, I hope you have a good holiday. I really do. I hope you experience all the great things that I wont be experiencing. Good food, family, friends, music, games, love, enjoyment. I truly mean this. I hope each and every one of you has a good time. Try to remember, you arent useless. You arent worthless. You have a place in this world. You have something even if you think you dont. You are amazing people, each and every one of you. I mean it. Since 2007, you guys have made me laugh, made me cry, made me cringe, made me rage, made me vomit (yes I did once), and made me love. Youre all amazing people with amazing gifts. Even if you haven't found your gift yet, you still have one. You have a place in this world.
So please have fun for me. Think of these words I have said here tonight, and try to have fun. You're amazing, even if you dont realize it yet. You're all worth more than gold.
One thing I will always have is hope. That is fading as my stomach eats itself, and it will fade when I am forced into the cold, but I have hope. Hope for the future. Hope for you all.
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>>712211349
You need this op. Better yourself and be happy
http://secretofsuccess.club
>>712222881
>>712212604
Why is putting in your jacket pocket habit? Who does that?
>>712211349
Hey original poster, I am glad you are alive. I feel there aren't enough Anons who have such a good heart. I really believe in humanity because of your suggestion. My poop-posting days are over. There is no reason to call others stick-bundles and cuckolds. You are now all friends to me.
I was going to kill myself just because someone on this forum told me to, but now I feel like this thread is a safe space for me to be myself. I have always felt myself to be genderless, although I present myself as a male. I like wearing hair ties, and I love it when people respond to my posts in a positive fashion. My biggest dream is to work with others to make a positive dream come true. My fear is being dragged out of my home by the Trump death squads.
I love you so much for sharing original poster- and in an asexual way mind you. I believe now that blacks, jews, gays, and women can now all join together and have a utopia. No longer will cis-genders be addicted to pornoraphy, no longer will whites hog my country's narrative, no longer will my dad oppress me.
Most of my friends have already been to disneyland- not me. My father still won't tell the trustee to release my first disbursal. He says I have to get a dumb job. But why do I have to live like that? Can't I just spend my time loving life? Why is life all about working? I wish I could just focus all my energy talking about gender issues or replicating myself. Thanks for listening original poster.
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>>712214054
good one
>>712223203
>>712223227
A little over a year ago I met this beautiful girl. Her name is C(). I left my girlfriend for C() in a non destructive honorable manner because C() was more for me. C() was incredible, cute and lovey all the time, smart and shared so many of my interests. I remember when I was with her I knew it was the happiest I'd ever been. I loved seeing her face every night, and hearing her voice every day. I felt my value of the beauty of life grow exponentially. C() was my perfect little angel. Time goes on and cracks begin to show, but I told her she would become great. She hurt me with words occasionally and only later on did they leave scars. I loved her so god damn much. Summer of this year, she fell away, she gave up on us and herself. It was like watching, your heart fall through your fingers as you shriveled into non-existence.
She left me for a friend from my past who betrayed me. She infected my family and left me a husk. She was the girl of my dreams and I miss her every day. I hate that I still love her. I completely killed my old life and moved to Iceland, I got very wealthy within 3 months. I have a dream and I know what to do with my life, I just can't get this parasite of what I lost out of my head. I wanted to be holding her hand overseeing the skies in my dream.
>>712223246
>>712216437
cuck'd
>>712223266
I once heard that only one thing can Trump happiness, and that was purpose. C() took them both and I'm an idiot for holding on. I want to rip out this infestation that's filled the void now. I despise it. It's a sickness and it tells me to hold on constantly, but all I feel is pain. Illusions of hope and connections to draw me into agony. What person does this to someone? I don't even know why she left me. Unbelievable this path of fate is. I can't even envision a better woman, but my perfect little angel wouldn't have done this to me. I do not like being human.
>>712222443
Get a roommate
I got a question honestly.
This girl, we used to hang out before, daily, when I didn't have a car. We argued, shit went south. Now that I have a car, I ask her if she wants to hang out in person. She happily says yes, but the week before she didn't respond to my texts.
She texted me yesterday saying she was sorry for not responding. Today I snapchat her to see if she wants to hang, but it's been like five hours and she hasn't opened it.
What's her end game to this shit? Should I just forget and move on? We see daily and I became attached to her sadly, so it bothers me. I tried hanging out with other people but shit still bothers me.
>>712223785
>what person does this to someone
dude you need to chill. She left you. its a natural end to the relationship. leaving you for someone wasn't great, but it happens.
take it as the lesson everyone has to learn at some point: don't make your entire life investment a person.
not your girlfriend, not your parents, not your friend, not even a child. accept that everyone can and likely will leave. if they stay, thats just dandy, but the point of life isn't to find someone who happens to be around when you die.
>>712224256
We see weekly* because of a program we are in.
>>712224256
She might just be busy anon. Cool your jets and see what happens.
>>712224256
i know this one weird psychological trick to find out if a girl likes you...
ask her on a legit date. end the conversation by saying 'graet, its a date'.
if they object, then boom, she doesnt like you. if she accepts, boom she likes you.
stop pussying footing around.
>>712224432
That's actually pretty good. I'll be making sure to use this in the future.
>>712224384
I think the same, and I always give the benefit of the doubt, but I mean, it isn't hard to open a snapchat message and respond tbh. It's been five hours, but I won't complain or shit to her. I'll just take note
>>712224675
>thats actually pretty good
i was being sarcastic man. not to say you shouldnt do it, just that its nto 'one weird trick'. its literally just asking a girl on a date to see if she likes you.
isntead of waiting to find out if a girl likes you to ask her on a date.
>>712223555
nice trips
>>712224675
Just find something else to do and stop worrying. She'll probably respond at some point.
>>712224340
I believed that at first, when I was first going through it. But I made myself into something and I still miss the living hell out of her. She was so much to me and I hate being this way. Nobody will give me what she gave me, and I hope they won't betray me like she did.
>>712223187
these are always the most soul crushing
>>712224922
when did she break up with you? cuz if you met her over a year ago you either didnt date for very long or you havent been broken up for very long.
so ur either being a faggot, or you're just still in the break up funk and you'll get out of it once you stop being a drama queen man.
dont get me wrong. love is great, but c'mon.
>a little over a year ago
so at max, a year and 3 months.
>been in iceland for at least 3 months
so at best you dated for a full year. its not that long. you will recover, i assure you
>>712225042
i feel very sad that im about to leave my dog for a week.
>>712225192
Loosing a dog is painful. Loosing a father is a hell of a lot worse.
>>712224905
I was working tbh, but I might just go have a smoke and bring it up whenever we hang out casually.
>>712224867
I mean, people saw us all the time together, and people ask me about her all the time,like where she is and stuff because people assumed we were dating and stuff. I believe she liked me, but like I said, all down hill after we argued.
Just don't know if I should even salvage now
>>712225307
Can u read?
>>712225307
my father left me when i was 9, so i think im good to go if he dies.
good luck with your 'woe is me' contest though, im sure you're gonna win!
>>712225320
if you like her, salvage. if you dont, then dont.
>>712225341
it cant even spell "losing" correctly. what makes you think that it can read?
>>712225594
But how do I salvage if she doesn't respond to a simple text. That's how I don't know where to start.
>>712225739
she did respond earlier right? she just hasnt to the msot recent one? im a little tipsy.
>>712225806
She texted me Wednesday after an incident. I spoke about how she didn't respond to my texts and left me on read. She said sorry, eventually she said her self she would hang out with me, and she said this in person as well.
Today I text her during my work, seeing if she wants to do something. She hasn't opened the snapchat. It's been five hours.
Just has me confused honestly.
>>712226028
probably busy
>>712226028
someones been bothering me all day cuz i dont isntantly respond.
but its the friday before thanks giving mate i have lots of work to do ebfore i leave for the weekend and need to find someone to walk my dog, make sure all the dishes are clean and that nonsense.
people are busy. isntead of asking a girl to 'hang out' you should always go for something specific. and never suggest that she pick something. nothing is more lame then
>hey i wanna seduce me
>so you pick otu the date so i dont have to do any wokr
>>712226096
I always give benefit of the doubt tbh. But I mean, how hard is it to reply to a simple snapchat? It only takes like thirty seconds to respond.
>>712226294
>it only takes like thirty seconds to respond
and then another htirty seconds. and then another. and then another.
i can see why shes getting annoyed with you mate. peoples lives arent built around you, much less hers. i stop talking to anyone who acts the way you do, and im a dude.
its annoying as fuck, its needy, its whiny, its just gross all around. people have lives man.
>>712226214
I never double text, god bless me for not putting that shit into me. I ask only once and I try again later.
And I'll honestly take on your advice. I've been wanting to go ghost hunting out of all things. And I usually just ask if they want to do something because my plans are usually out of this world.
But I mean, it isn't that hard to reply. At least in my eyes.
>>712226556
>ghost hunting
neediness aside, you're totally my type.
>it isnt that hard to reply
it is on the last friday before holiday, you cant find a dog sitter, you have something to film tomorrow, your house is a mess and your mom is acting suicidal again.
but even when i dont have THAT shit going on, sometimes im busy. some people (oftem me) only respond to texts right before bed.
because its not just ONE snapchat anon. cuz you'll turn it to a conversation and get mad when she cant keep up.
>>712226493
I only text once like I said. Then I ask another day. People say be persistent with girls, so I try my luck, but I never ask in the same day.
I'm just asking for a simple response tbh, not for them to follow me and shit. IDK man, I just ask for the simplest from people.
>>712225162
Yeah it was a year. I wish I had a better girl, but you feel delusional upon the lust of the past. Maybe I am a faggot for still loving what I have lost, but I can tell you I already know I hate it.
>>712226751
no anon, what i mean is if she takes the time to respond to that ONE SNAP, you will respond to that. and expect her to respond again. its how conversation works.
>>712226834
you'll get over it in time man. try to do something for the sake of fun and wildness and self discovery as opposed to improvement.
hell, go sleep with a guy.
>>712226726
Fuck man, that's where I fault. I make things carry on, because I don't know where to stop.
But then she sends long Ass texts and stuff and that's why I respond a lot. I might just go have a smoke.
>>712226990
theres nothign wrong with starting a conversation. there is nothing wrong wtih being the initiator.
its normal. you dont expect too much and you dont need to know when to stop.
you just need to know when someone cant talk. whether its for busy reasons or personal reasons, you cant just be like 'SHE SHOULD HAVE TO RESPOND'.
if you want to make a move, go make a move. not a 'hey' or ' wanna hang out' but a legit move with a legit intent.
the only issue you have thus far is that you just get worked up when soemone cant respond for whatever reason. its not only bad for you, its bad for everyone else.
>>712221444
>double trips, and i like the image
>>712226837
Oh oh, you are right on that. Taking this into mind, I'll talk to someone else, just don't know how I would do so without having talked to her in two years.
>>712222795
Hey man you can always go to a homeless shelter and work odd jobs until you get back on your feet. But I hope you can make it through. Godspeed Anon
>>712227241
wat?
>>712222795
Anon. Wherever you are, thank you. I'm sorry the world shits on you. I don't know what caused it, but I wish you luck and hopefully someone will be as kind to you a special you are to us.
>>712227325
Idk man, I'm smoking and thinking about other shit now. Fuck everything man.
>>712227392
my dad thinks i faked brain damage so he wont talk to me, and my mom tried to kill herself this month.
im sure you can find the strength to make it through a day of a girl not replying to you on snapchat man. fuck nothing.
>>712227512
I do, it's just like, just say something. I'm a very understanding dude. It's cool though. I got my truck, I'll go to a view and smoke by myself
>>712223785
Did you not do the same thing to your other gf? You didn't seem to take her feelings into account
>>712227772
>just say something
no. she doesn't want to. shes busy. or she just doesnt like you. regardless, stop being entitled. chill.
>going to truck around and smoke
kinda wish i was with you now tbh.
>>712219368
Holy shit that really is you? Man, you can do much better, I believe in you.
>>712227901
I mean, maybe I'm just angry because a long day of manual labor, but shit. Idk man. Everything was great between us, but I don't want to start.
Where you at anon. You in LA?
>>712228104
... which LA? louisianna or los angeles?
>>712223169
Can you explain?
>>712228207
Los Angeles.
>>712228300
the first two images imply a happy couple having a baby.
the third frame reveals that this is just a fake family in the 'sims' video game.
the final frame reveals that a very sad woman created that fake family because she is sad irl, and her husband drinks too much.
there are other parts to the story, its part of some bigger comic i think, but it works great as a stand alone.
>>712228372
yeah man, hollywood, near sunset and gower.
>>712227265
I plan to do that. I live outside of a city so it will take a bit to get to a shelter, the only one close to me is a battered womans shelter. Its really hard for me to work odd jobs because of my M.D but I am going to try.
>>712227346
Ah man, youre going to make me cry. I kind of needed to hear words like this, ya know? Thank you so much. I truly appreciate you.
>>712228428
We can meet up one day, I just don't want to be killed be a fat dude while I'm enjoying a smoke. Not the best way to die.
>>712223222
boy
>>712216906
Fucking this, once she cheats you drop her ass. Pretend she never existed.
>>712228580
im only 120 pounds
>>712217691
Got steam? I'll be your friend nigga
>>712228580
>>712228725
You guys should go and hang out somewhere public. Promise me you won't kill each other and enjoy your smoking.
>>712228855
ive met a lot of anons over the years. I've had /b/irthday parties where I only invited people from /b/
no ones ever been violent. its just a meme.
>>712228725
Tfw 220 brah. I'm losing it tho.
I'll be glad to meet up in Hollywood, have a smoke, then go back to the anonymous handle. No gay shit, I heard too many 4Chan meet-up stories.
We can just smoke some cigs and shoot the shit about stuff before I go back to being solo.
>>712229026
i dont smoke myself, wouldn't mind meeting but im actually about to head out for the night myself.
if you wanna meet up in the future toss me a photo
[email protected]
no bromo.
>>712229170
See you in the future brah. I'll shoot an email and I'll see what's up.
>>712225555
trip quads
