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Feels thread
>>712170799
Why do you want a feels thread? You okay, Anon?
>>7121709
Just having some 1st world problems really, nothing too much. I dont know where life is gonna take me and if ill make the right choices. Just need some advice.
>>712170925
Can no longer drown out the suicidal thoughts
Music is still my saviour (comes and goes)
(Also not OP)
I like thread feels
I just got a bj from my girlfriend a few minutes ago. Feeling pretty good right now.
Hi everyone... I just have a pretty fucking bad day. I'm afraid that someday I will end in insane asylum, but maybe not today. I hope tomorrow will be better...
This is literally my life.
I'm sick and not motivated at all for 3 years now.
Good books made me change my life bit by bit.
I loveyou guys, as much as I love myself
>>712173204
>I'm afraid that someday I will end in insane asylum
Unless you actually kill someone, this is unlikely.
>>712170799
Lol, implying I even remember the last time I showered.
>>712173538
While "community-based" treatment has become the preferred model in the US (due more to funding and personnel shortages than anything else, in my opinion), people who can't control their suicidality or who develop psychosis or who become so non-functional that they'd literally waste away in their own filth otherwise may end up in state psych hospitals.
Who else here dreading Christmas?
>>712173897
me. not because there will be nobody there.. not because i dont have some family left.. but because ill know this is not where i was supposed to be at this time. id open a gift or two and recluse back to my room.. back to the literal darkness with nothing but a computer screen to illuminate the sadness permanently etched into my face. years ago.. i knew id be something. someone. id at least know who i was.. all ive done is lost myself more and more as time went on. and now.. well im here arent i?
>>712171890
Is this actually what your daily schedule is like OP?
>>712174154
Indeed. It's the time of the year I become most aware of time passing. My family know I'm fucked up so they'll try and make me feel better and write nice cards/give thoughtful gifts. I wish I could just be left alone.
>>712170799
5:30AM get up
6AM go to work
8PM come home
8PM-0AM eat, 4chan
0AM go to sleep
should I get a hobby?
not gonna lie you guys, I've been in a bad mood in the last months, since my gf dumped me.
technically I don't have much to worry about my current situation, but I always have something unpleasant tickling my brain
>>712174417
i woulda lold if he through him to the ground and hancuffed him at the end
>>712174483
i feel opposite.
i wish someone would save me. but nobody would want to be around me. its been proven time and time again. hell i dont even want to be around me..
i just want to sleep. because in my sleep, i am happy..
>>712174567
Thats what my schedule is like as well, except I have to be at work at 5am. And im still poor cause i bought a 30k car when i shouldn't have.
>>712174617
wanna play some tf2?
Anyone else here alone by choice? I'm choosing loneliness and boredom over the painful rollercoaster of friendship and social life.
>>712174567
what job do you have to have those dreadful shifts?
>>712174692
i dont own much anon. i actually do have a ps4 that was gifted to me some time ago. but i struggle with money. i cant even buy battlefield or anything interesting this year. most likely
>>712174154
Have you considered getting a job? I'm not trying to be a smartass, im serious. It will improve your life.
>>712174712
social life and especially firendships are things that can help you go on.
relationships, on the other end, can fuck you pretty bad [spoiler]T_T[/spoiler]
Been watching a lot of Merrell Twins recently. They're so cute and happy they make me feel #Comfy.
>>712174836
i do work. ive worked at several different places. cant hold a job down cause "crippling" depression. its an endless cycle of fuck ups..
All i want is love. I give so much consideration to the world and no one gives me any time of day. 28 never had a gf, havent had sex in over a year...thinking about getting a prostitute. Im a decent guy, not fat or ugly (not hot tho) but im such an introvert and have so much envy towards happy people who can just have relationships like its the easiest fucking thing.
>>712173538
Hmm... I guess it's a good thing. I hope that I will never be forced to kill anyone. I really don't want to hurt anyone. Sometimes I just act a little insane just to keep people away from me, because I have a lot of bad memories from childrenhood (school in general). But deep inside I'm trying to be a good guy. Sometimes I'm not sure what I will do if I go off the deep end... It scares me a bit. But everything is ok...
>>712174862
Not for me. All my friends are light years ahead of me and I feel horribly pathetic and shit in comparison.
>>712174787
ITS F2P YOU CUNT. BUT I UNDERSTAND! WONT ASK AGAIN! BITCH!
>>712173897
I found a friend who is just as lonely as me on xmas. every year we meet and watch scify c: I now look forward to xmas
>>712174995
titan fall 2?
and thats fine with me you seem like a dick anyways apparently
>>712174969
Have you been diagnosed? Sounds like you need some professional help before things get worse.
>>712175023
Damn that sounds comfy.
>>712170925
Gramps just died... That's why I'm here
this one always gets me.. animals are so innocent
>>712174984
my best friend (female) has the exact same problem you described. she actually told me she feels like shit when she compared what she accomplished with me (which is ironic because I don't feel like I've accomplished much either).
The only recommendation I could give here (and I'll give you) is try your best to do something. Check what are your problems and think about a solution, and dan fucking do it, or try at least.
>>712175071
suck me, then
>>712175382
no one said i was gay anon
>>712175536
at least he just looks like he has downs syndrome. probably doesnt even understand that nobody likes him
REEEEEEEE stop arguing in a feels thread
>>712175346
>>712175405
>>712175536
well... at least someone baked those cakes for them
>>712175674
true.
a mothers love is often unconditional and yet still unfulfilling
>>712175405
>tfw it's just another day
>>712175536
>>712175405
>>712175346
Look...these fuckers are still getting cake,if i wanted cake after 16 i had to buy it myself.
>>712174220
God damn man...
Hey, I hope this helps but. A GF wont fix shit; at least the long term Anon. Youll make everything about her and shit will be great until the day something happens and your heart gets broken. Youll realize how much you sacrificed and lost and the feeling will be worse. Focus on yourselves and make yourself a better human being. Bitches will line up; I swear on my life
Wtf is up with the captchas and fucking street signs lately
>>712175732
if only this were true
>>712174506
Thats fucked up... This is true sad shit vs. the non gf stuff thats posted.
>>712175828
i remember how i heard 4chan banned together for this motherfucker. gave him all the best wishes they could. i wish i knew the whole story though.
>>712175828
That last post always fucking kills me, goddamn
>>712175346
>>712175405
>>712175536
These look like school shootings waiting to happen
>>712174395
saving this...
>>712176144
the second one definitely, yeah. and it all couldve been prevented
>>712175157
No, but sometimes I think about it. Everything is fine when I'm alone. I even have a gf, but when I'm out with her I mostly think about all bad things that can happen. I see a murderer, a thief in every person I pass on the street. I'm afraid that I will overreact to any "danger" for my family. That is one of my problems... But it is not worse for many years, I think... maybe a little bit better? Sorry for my bad english.
>>712176304
this is the one. hell yes. saved
>>712176304
Sometimes this place can be a source of good in this world.
>>712176272
Sounds like a lot of unhealthy paranoia. How old are you? How long have you felt this way?
>>712176443
its just a reminder that even the worst shitholes full of the worst shitheads can still sometimes have a heart. its actually inspiring in a way
After being alone for so long you get used to it. You learn not to miss having anyone around or anyone who cares, it's truly peaceful. It gets so quiet that after a few years even your mind becomes silent as if you're running on auto pilot. You don't get stressed, you don't worry, hell you don't do much of anything. You just exist, with no drive to do much of anything. I honestly can't remember the last time I spoke to a human being outside of work, the last time I went outside to actually do something. All in all you know me, you might be very much like myself. Just remember you aren't alone anon.
>>712176620
23, how long...I don't really know. I went to school in 2000? Maybe about 3 years later I started to be bullied because I rather spent my time learning DIY than playing ball with other stupid childrens (some of them are in prison now). I was young and a few years later I started to avoid people. Just to protect me from them and them from me. I never wanted to attack anyone and I still don't want. I just don't want to be forced to defend myself and my family. I just know that some humans are true monsters.
>>712174984
All you can do is keep trying man. Keep paving the road for yourself. I feel the same way sometimes, but that's why I got a job. That's why I'm accepting an $800 charge to my credit card for a community college today. And it ain't much, sure. When I look at the people I grew up with I still feel shame. But I feel it a little less every day, especially when I'm working hard and doing good shit for myself instead of getting high in some dudes trailer all day or sitting around doing nothing and working my minimum wage job. Meds help too of course. But only you can change yourself /b/ro
>>712177470
I know that I'm fucked up, I see that. But I still have not seen any proof that I'm wrong with this thinking. And I still looking for such proof. I really want to see that people are not that bad... And that's why I'm here. I have seen more good people on /b/ than in my whole life.
Picked up Fallout 4 again after 6 months hiatus, got Nuka World DLC which I had not played yet. Took my time and wasted 3 days for it, ~40 hours of gameplay, pretty much forgot everything else, now I feel a bit shit cause there isn't that interesting things to do.
why do people introduce you to new things and work themselves into your life if they're just going to leave everything behind when they go so everything reminds you of them
>>712177913
they are so confused.
thats hilarious
>>712177932
That's just the nature of humans, /b/ro. People come, and they go. And sometimes it's hard to work past. But remembering those good times is what should inspire you to make new good times with new people. And it's not easy, I know. But life will give you opportunities, and it's up to you to take them so you have something to live for every day instead of just memories of the past.
>>712177913
Are there people too stupid to blow up a baloon?
>>712177518
hit me too hard...
>>712173897
Yeah, its the time of year that I hate. But the last year and now this year I work from 5 pm to 12 am doing deliveries so that I have something to look forward to.
If I wasn't working or had the holiday off in past years, I would head to gamble as they are open 24 -7. But even getting a hotel room in a different city is also good. I make sure I stock up on food and drink and videos so that I can literally veg out til its over.
>>712177881
You should definitely talk to a doctor man. Nobody is wholly good or wholly bad, but nobody should live in fear their whole lives of what may happen. Be ready to protect yourself and the people you love, but reality has proven to you that it's highly unlikely that people will murder you if you're still here today.
>>712174712
what a contradiction
>>712178800
Explain?
>>712174836
plus its even more depressing when the work mates ask about your christmas plans or what you got, etc.
I work for a nigger, its actually nice as I think he was an orphan or something (go figure....) and last christmas SEASON went by without any hint of the holiday, lol
>>712177894
Yeah that's about how I felt after spending $60 on a game which kept me busy for a week tops. But that's vidya for ya.
>>712177148
This is me. I don't even like to go to the store anymore. I pick the convienience stores with the paki clerks so I don't have to speak to them.
>>712170799
I lived like that for four years.
Now I live like a normie but I still hate my life kek. There is no salvation.
>>712178909
Have you considered volunteering or anything? I know it sounds shit, but trying to help people out is the only way I know of to escape fear and loneliness. And, as a plus, when your work mates find out you're volunteering for Christmas they'll think you're a really selfless dude and probably have a lot of respect for you.
>>712178683
>nobody should live in fear their whole lives of what may happen
You have just described my life in one sentence... well, half of my life. Maybe you're right, but it is not easy for people like me to go to doctor and tell a whole story in person. I really appreciate your answer and I try to get some help when I'm ready (as fast as I can).
>>712179420
Workmates are all illegals and will have to go back.
>>712179403
same situation, asking for a friend how did you manage to get out of the loop?
>>712179589
They were all pretty nice but worked up after the election we were all shocked
>>712179468
Hey man I know all about that. I lied to every psychiatrist I went to because I didn't want them to see me. Because I didn't want them to know what was going on inside and I didn't want them to judge me. But if some random people on the internet are happy to listen and try to help, you gotta imagine that the doctor won't do any worse. And it doesn't sound like your condition is getting any better bro. If your whole life has been distrust of the people around you, then maybe just once you could try trusting two people. Me and your doctor.
>Grandfather died
>Funerals today
>torn between feels and being numb
>Lose my shit and refuse to go
>Wifes telling people I cant handle it
>Really just hate everyone and dont want to become overwhelmed
I usually hide myself but if i get emotional ill be blunt and end up causing a major scene, and i dont need that so here i am.
>>712179420
Throw in a bit of paranoia and it makes it impossible to be around others even family
>>712179589
But you're not doing it for them. You're doing it because you know what it's like to feel alone on Christmas, and I don't think you want anyone else to feel that pain.
>>712176156
story? what is this?
>>712179616
I got a day job that forces me to
> be away from home on weekdays + nights
> get up at 5 or 6 in the morning on most weekdays
I'd say my life has improved a tiny bit because of this, because at least I'm getting some daylight now.
That's the only aspect of my life in which I've become a normie, though. I still don't go out or meet up with friends. Let alone have a gf. I used to have all that shit (from age 15-19) but then I guess I became autistic or something.
tl;dr get a job even if only for the sake of a normal sleeping pattern
>>712179203
So much this or go to a store with self service
why is it that i'm feeling so shitty?
i knew this girl and we were getting really close.
like the couple kinda close, like hugging, talking to each other every day from waking up till sleeping, dates...
she liked me and i liked her, but she told me she had to think about it and went on vacation. spoke to her every day while she was gone and after 4 weeks she texted me that she just wants to be friends... this killed me but i got used to this, so i managed to live with it. (note: this happened a few months ago) after that we spoke to each other regularly and then a few days ago we met each other at a party, at this moment i kinda got over her, though she was still in my mind every day, here we kept talking to each other, drank and danced. it was the next morning i realized i still had feelings for her...
and i thought it would have been a smart move to tell her to not talk to each other anymore and she said she told me that it's fine and that she understands it, but right now it's killing me that i can't speak to her and have fun with her anymore, not even as friends and i'm to scared to text her anymore...
>>712179999
If your paranoia is so bad that you can't be around your family, then that's something I can't help you with. That's what meds are for, and it sounds like more than a bit of paranoia
>>712180161
Yeah, lol, I do that too. Also notice the autism creeping in also, then you realize its been with you all along
>>712180161
I dislike people as well /b/ feels less human.
>different anon
>tfw in so much pain talking to anyone or typing it out would be useless because no one could understand the exact intense emotions I feel
Wish I had someone who I could plug my mind into and they instantly feel everything I'm feeling, and we could just hug.
>>712180436
I did, but the shrink was only interested in treating me if I had insurance. With that, he said I was "situationally depressed" and said to contact him when I had insurance
>>712180149
I'm the same way man. I rarely even talk to people at work. I used to be incredibly social when I was on drugs, but now nobody. We just gotta work through it. I'm confident that someday I'll have a friend. And even if I don't, I'll have a bunch of /b/tards, and that's all I need today.
>>712180468
Second that
>>712180577
Id take you up on the hug bro.
I'm sure our situations and feeling differ, but at least we all understand why were on /b/
>>712179826
It's hard not to agree with you. In my case it's more about fear that anything I say can be used against me (part of my paranoia). Yes, I know that doctor is a professional, but still... Maybe I just try going to a doctor in other city, who for sure doesn't know me from the street. I live in small town where everyone knows each other and I don't want to be seen as mentally ill by the same people who led me to this. Thank you Anon.
>>712180703
i agree
>>712180401
It's okay to cut people out of your life if you can't emotionally handle their presence, bro. It sounds like you have a pretty good social life if you're going to parties, and that means that there will always be new girls. And if that's not what you want right now, then there's always time to explore what you do want out of life before shackin up with a femanon
>>712175787
It's unfulfilling because it's unconditional. It's not based on your merits as a person or your accomplishments, it's evolutionary neuro-chemical bullshit.
>>712174730
sounds more like travel time to me, sounds like a 9-5 with just over 2 hours travel time.
>>712180879
I tried a therapist, and put down where I worked, etc., next thing you know people at work were asking me about the therapy, I guess she had called them asking about me.
>>712181078
well said
>>712180690
Ah, I understand that. But you could always talk to another one. Or even get a job which gives you insurance. I mean, I work at a grocery store, and we're offered insurance so it shouldn't be too hard man.
>>712181132
Is that even legal? I had to give mine permission to speak to my mother, and even then it was only if my mother contacted them.
>>712180690
Isn't the fee-for-service model wonderful? Also, thank Ba'al for God-Emperor Trump, who will make sure people who can't afford (and therefore don't deserve) insurance will not have access to healthcare.
How do I became motivated and stop procrastinating?
>>712180879
Hey man, that's badass. If you need to go a town over that's perfectly fine. That's a really great starting point, and I'm proud of you anon.
>>712181259
Other than the high monthly premium the co-pay is not affordable anyways.
>>712176272
Yo I have the same thing, do you do certain things to stop this? If so it might be OCD Intrusive thoughts. I suffer from this bro. Just remember you are not alone /b/ro.>>712181132
>>712175197
My grandpa died when i was little, too little to understand and i think that was for the better.
But recently a death in the family have made me feel nothing at all i think im going numb after realising my life is literaly just going to be one od job after another one and drifting through single life and proffesional life without accomplishing anything.
>>712180703
Well said, anon. I guess an army of /b/tards can be a pretty decent substitute for friendship sometimes.
I'm anxious to change my life, though. I miss being in love and shit, man.
>>712181132
That's very illegal. I would pursue a law suit.
>>712180954
the thing is, i always wind up cutting people out of my life and i end up regretting it. tbh my social life isn't that good... the party i went to was organized through my work, the girl i was talking about is a colleague of mine. i never go to parties because of my situation at home. i never had a girlfriend and never really felt like i got loved by anyone. currently 21 years old still virgin (that doesn't really bother me tho). it's just that she made me feel happy and accepted, i was no longer alone and finally had some to tell all stories to and where i could be released of this loneliness
>>712180690
>>712181259
Man I always forget how tough you American anons have it. Really sucks.
>>712181350
You don't. You just start doing shit and then you get more motivated as time goes on.
change of seasons generally makes everyone- mentally ill or not- feel a little shit so idk /b/ro's just take care of yourselves
>>712181250
Yeah, I had a choice to sue, but the people at work probably wouldn't testify on my behalf. It might have been the receptionist who called so it might not even been the therapist.
>>712181350
You just do it. No secret to it. One day you have to just force yourself.
>>712181350
i always just do the shitty thing and get the motivation from the results
>>712175197
Same
>>712181540
I can understand that, bro. And maybe you do need her in your life, I don't know the situation. But when I come to that in a friendship, I take a firm look at my relationship with the person. Then, I generally weigh out the pros and cons. there's no backpedalling from it though. If she's out then she's out. If she's in then she's in. You have to take into account all possible feelings of rejection, and if those are worth it then she could be worth talking to.
>>712180703
I used to drink a bit, sit at the sports bar, but lately that has gotten old, I've only had a six-pack this year.
>>712181777
My triple 7s prove my advice is correct
>>712181493
Sometimes they're better than irl friends in my experience. I can let down walls a lot easier with anonymous people on the internet than I could with my old best friends. But of course I'm excited to make friends too man. Just gotta let the world work its magic, which can take an annoyingly long amount of time.
>>712181132
For me it is very unprofessional behavior. It's just unthinkable. I think that privacy should be the most important thing in such delicate matter.
>>712181250
Same here.
>>712181434
Thank you Anon. I really want to get over my problems, not just complain in internet. It's not even about my life, but I feel that I share this problem with my gf and I don't want her to suffer from this.
>>712181473
I have OCD for sure, but I kinda like it. It is the reason why I have a perfect order in my room including that every device is perfectly perpendicular or parallel to the edge of the shelf and distant by odd number of centimeters (I just like odd numbers). Quite fun and useful and completely harmless.
But if you ask about things to stop this... It is definitely dependent of my mood. It affect every aspect of my life. Not only fear of other people but I also have always first aid kit, a lot of HDD backups, spare parts for everything I have etc.. Being prepared for almost everything help a little, but is very bad for a wallet.
Sorry for english!
>>712177518
dont get this
I've listened to absolutely nothing except for his music for the past week or two and I can't bring myself to listen to anything else
>>712181132
That's illegal.
>>712181132
I think you might be lying.
>>712182059
i really want her in my life, she is the first girl i've liked this much. she liked me for who i am, at least that's what i thought. i'm kind of a unstable person who's mind goes from this to that in a mere second. i never really had my father's love because he was a gambling- alcohol and drugaddict. he was never at home and never really did anything with us (my brothers and me). he would come home late and hammered after gambling away our money. my mom hated my dad and got divorced. neither of them wanted us but the judge made the decision to make my mom take care of us. we had to move with a debt of 200,000 euro's to a place pretty far from all my friends. at the new school i immediately got bullied. they made me cry every day for 2 whole years, they didn't physically hurt me but more mentally. after that one of my brothers got to meet some bad friends and kinda ruined his life through leaving school and going out with his friends. he got addicted to drugs and at around this time another brother of mine was working 30+ hours whilst studying at a university. he had he pay for all expenses, food and clothing. this continued for another 4/5 years. right now the addict brother kicked off and is on the right path, the working brother got married and left home and i'm working from 8 in the morning to sometimes 2 in the morning because i have to pay for almost everything. i never felt that some had the time for me and that's why i feel like i need it right now, as a 21 year old it's kinda pathetic isn't? my mom also has this thing that she doesn't want anyone to do things she never got the pleasure to do.i sleptover at a friend of mine and she got so pissed at me for that, that she made me sleep outside for the night. i really feel chained up here, i can't leave the house because if i do,who will pay the bills? who will act like the happy, no care in the world, center of the family person?the moment i got that light of happiness in my life i felt appreciated
>dated this girl back in high school
>me being 4 years older than her
>she meant the world to me, at least so I thought
>she was my first love, and I hers
>we spent almost every day together, talking, flirting, intimate things and enjoying each others' company
>I was the man that introduced her to compassion, loving, and was her male guidance because her dad had left long ago
>I basically showed her everything about relationships and love
>she gets older and gets more curious about other guys
>one thing led to another and before you know it, she cheats on me, boom, broken up like a twig snapping in half
>I lost my life that day
We tried on and off many times afterwards but each time has crashed almost as hard as the first. It's been 5 years, brothers. 5 years, and I still don't want to/haven't accepted it or moved on yet.
She was also my one and only gateway to been socially active, as I didn't have many friends. She would invite me to parties or to hang out with her friends so I wouldn't be so lonely.
And now she's gone.
So is my social life, my ambition to find another girl and find those feelings I once had, my emotions have flipped etc.
Now I sit here, in a feels thread on a board where I share the same traits and life paths as countless other anons.
And that's okay.
>>712184033
You need to move on brother. Do it for the past-her that loved you, and the past-you that was happy.
