Feels thread /b/?I need one...
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Only a fool would take anything posted here as fact.
Feels thread /b/?
I need one...
alrighty then
The game... You just lost it
Guess I will cry alone tonight...
>>711961203
My contract ended 3 weeks ago. Havent gone out once since then. Been binge drinking and getting fat. Im depressed again... I need to find another job
Oh cool, I was just about to start one. How's it going, /b/ros? Feeling like shit at the moment.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qX3IoVXQpUc
Here's some music to get us started
I feel like feels too right now.
Haven't done anything productive today. Tried to go to bad early. Can't even sleep.
>>711963600
I certainly know the feeling, Anon. How've you been busying yourself?
>>711963821
I just sat in front of my computer the whole day. I did not play anything, just wasting time. Should be studying, but i feel so tired all day. That's why i wanted to sleep early. But here I am. Still awake, still unproductive.
>>711964375
I can certainly relate to that. Someone posted just yesterday about that sort of tired feeling that even sleep can't fix.
>>711964042
Hey, weren't you online just yesterday? Someone last night talked about Adonis, too.
>>711965193
different guy sorry, i just like the story.
Lurking out of interest, down for some chatter if need be.
>>711965108
Normally i'd drink myself to sleep, but i still hope to get up early tomorrow to get some work done. I really hope to get my shit together.
Really? Such stagnation, there's gotta be more down and out /b/ros
Been shat on by chicks all my life, time to give up pussy and devote myself to alcoholism and traps
I was told when I got the job after I stated I'm looking for full time work. $10.85 p/hr. Night guys don't usually get 8 hours, but. I can get five days a week.
I work three this week.
Also, apparently I'm not as over my ex as I've been telling myself.
Fuck.
I'll try to sleep now.
Godspeed Anons.
>oneitis of several years shoots me down again and again
>she gets with a dudebro that cheats on her and treats her like shit
>mfw I never even wanted sex, all I wanted was love
Why are women the way they are /b/ros?
>>711967738
because ur ugly
I'll dump some pics
how is everyone tonight ?
My relationship is dying, I really need to just cry and get everything off my chest.
The last weeks I've been thinking more and more about being single again. Just wondering how it would feel to live without her and what would be the right choice.
I know she loves me but we're both in a different spot apparently.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=X_DVS_303kQ
>>711969522
>>711969464
Bud you're already getting over her, thinking of living without is the first step to living without my friend.
Just wish that dumb cunt and her loser friends would fuck off for good
>>711969805
Could you tell me more? Is the dumb cunt your SO?
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rs66DAJVQQY
>>711969274
Just feeling a bit of the loner blues, that's why I'm on here right now.
https://youtu.be/AuNuVCVC92k
Oh good God this thread.
>>711969940
i feel ya man
>>711969634
>Grey's Anatomy
Seriously?
Are you a middle-aged, overweight secretary?
>>711969895
More like a significant fucking pain in the ass
>>711970087
What makes you feel so? I think I'm in pretty much the same situation.
>>711970004
never cared for the show but the quote is pretty relevant to me
>>711970214
She's just annoying, I'm glad shes out of my life now but unfortunately shes not 100% out yet.
>>711969239
This
My dad died yesterday /b/. It was the day after his 49th birthday
>>711968882
Fucking THIS. Also, checked
My girlfriend loves to pick fights. At this point, I dont even care anymore. If its over, its over.
I'd like a fresh start, anyways.
>>711970752
Just dump her, trust me.
>>711970002
This might just pertain to my dumbass but I find it a bit harder to socialize with others. People say be yourself but that's just b.s. because being myself will just lead to others giving me nothing more than an awkward smile the next time we meet.
>>711970752
Would you rather improve yourself and work towards your own goals or be stuck with some cunt who wants to fight all the time? The sex isn't even worth it because in the long run she'll just hold you back and make you miserable.
I've said what I can -Z
>>711969751
-Me, now using -Z
>>711969312
Fucking this. I mean, it's my fault for falling so hard for someone 7 years younger than me. Shes never lied to me about the way she feels or that she and I aren't "together".
But she still tells me that she loves me. That "I hope you still want me when I'm ready to settle down."
I mean, I get it. She's only 20. She's got a lot of living to do. I was never that person, but some people do need to party hard and get it out of their system, and better now than later. She's got plenty of time.
I don't think I do, though.
And what makes it really hard is that she's an excellent "aunt" to my beautiful daughter. 10/10 stepmom material. She already sees my baby more than her birth mother does. The way they light up when they see each other is truly incredible.
I wish things didn't have to be so complicated.
https://youtu.be/xSi_FE52TAY
https://youtu.be/uTRmrIO_ESE
https://youtu.be/yundAnnvwxY
https://youtu.be/6nMWXvRJc5c
Some albums that made me feel
My only love has been unrequited
even my family
I've started living for myself
and myself only
and now I realise that I'm not worth it
I kinda want to die, but I know I won't kill myself
I just want to
not exist
>>711961203
I met this guy Alex when he had a girlfriend, and I still fell for him pretty hard. They broke up, we made out, and he did weird stuff like hold my hands/cuddle me, shit like that afterwards, only to brag about #friendzoning me.
One of his good friends got jealous as fuck and swooped in to date me instead, and seems really into me, but I'm still into Alex lmao
I'm a shitty girlfriend that doesn't know how to break up with her boyfriend, like what's the point if the guy I'm into isn't going to change his mind anyways?
>>711972605
If he is bragging about friend zoning you, you dodged a bullet. Count your bills and move on. -Z
>>711973018
He still does shit like hold my hand and wrap his arms around me, how retarded would I be if I thought it was something other than him bragging about rejecting a cute girl
>>711973128
Pants on head. Also you can't call yourself cute with no evidence.
>>711973293
Nice try!
>>711973128
Mildly retarded. It's very tempting to project our desires onto the object of our affection, but in the end his attitude says it all. He wants to play games with your mind. He wants to use you to feel good about himself. Even if you could argue your way into a relationship with him, he's being an asshole. He's not worth it.
>>711972605
>>711973128
Few people on /b/ will relate or sympathize with this. You're in a relationship (probably to stir up some jealousy in Alex) that you don't want to be in.
Fuck Alex
Fuck you
I feel sorry for the dude dating you.
>>711973539
Did I say "tits or gtfo"? I didn't.
Saw this in fb today. Made me think of my ex because this is how I saw her when we first broke up (to clarify, I left her, but she started dating a mutual friend of ours within a month). It destroyed me to see her moving in without me. But then I started thinking about her less. I got a new, much higher-paying job. I moved to a nicer place and bought a new TV and an AR. I started using tinder to meet girls in the college town near me. My birthday came and went and I had a genuinely good time without her. I'm now looking at a new car and I'm very excited. And even after saying she didn't want anything to do with me, she's started texting me every now and then. I know she thinks about me. She misses me. I don't have high self esteem at all but her new boyfriend is fatter, dumber and uglier than me.
Tl;dr for anyone in relationship struggles right now, you might not see a way out, but it gets better.
So /b/, is it normal to act fine on college and on work, but as soon as I'm home i feel depressed and bored?
>>711973747
This is about where I am.
I didn't want to have a child at the ripe old age of 22 so she found somebody who did. She messages me from time to time and I can't say I never think about her anymore but shortly after she left me I realized just how selfish and imperfect she was. I'd built her up only to realize she was just as broken as I was.
Now, I no longer have hard feelings on the matter; I just don't want anything to do with her.
>>711974107
Yes you're just empty inside cause you're a mindless drone
>>711974107
>>711974219
This.
It's called being an adult. I smoke weed and play video games to avoid the existential void.
>>711974107
it's normal.
i'm sad, but I have a solid career ahead of me.
that's not what matters though. it's the relationships we have with other people that matter.
>>711965662
glad i cant say that anymore
>>711974219
Any tips of how fill this void?
>>711974298
This -Z
>>711969395
this one hits me hard. i grew up military, so I'm very independent, I'm very happy on my own.
but god damn i wish I knew what its like to be someones favorite person. I'm not even my moms anymore.
I have no folder, if you do, no excuses.
>>711974409
Anchoring or Distraction
You can either convince yourself you're living for a greater purpose or you can distract yourself until you die.
>>711973585
He asked me out saying that he knew I liked our friend and that he didn't care because he was just in it for the sex, but I understand why single people would feel annoyed.
>>711973561
You're definitely right, I was just too naive to see it at first.
>>711974298
Yeah, me too, but everyday it fills less, you know? I tried to go at parties and drink and dance, but it's not everytime.
>>711974315
Thx dude, as a doctor i feel that i could use some sessions on the psychologist.
>>711974216
Yes. It took me time after breaking up to see how conceited and manipulative she was. I know she'll do the same thing with the new guy. She'll have the same problems with him when the novelty of a new girlfriend wears off too.
I blocked her on everything so I don't have to see her trying to contact me anymore.
>>711974959
Woah...It happened.
pool's closed faggot
https://youtu.be/vnKZ4pdSU-s
https://youtu.be/LkMPplrI3vE
>>711975021
For me it's good some nights and others I can be blazed off my ass and still just sit and stare while I wonder what I'm actually doing with my life.
I just can't bring myself to be "productive" when I can't see a point to any of it.
So I buy a new game and keep going until I get sad again.
Rinse, repeat
Sounds shitty but it's not all that bad
I worry about how long I can keep this up but if it's not this, it'll be something else.
>>711975533
You're probably right, maybe it's just one of those days that depression hits hard and i can't manage it. Thx for the insight, dude
>>711975047
What happened?
>>711976001
Someone accepted something said when asking for advice on the web, like a damn unicorn
>>711975923
I'm only 23 at the moment and I'm told people who deal with this shit young usually end up killing themselves.
Someday it may seem more appealing but I've still got at least a little hope left.
>>711965193
Everyone seems to be posting the story. It's like a modern day folktale to all you young anons: make your move, or be forgotten.
>>711976230
A fresher Tasha.
sometimes i wish i drank or smoked or something,
>>711976387
Tasha? I'm reddy for the feels whip.
Hot damn. She was my one that got away.
>>711976718
New lappy, haven't had internet for a while, but usually, I see stashed rars in the rememberance image for it. If I see it again I'll pick it up.
>>711976568
Why
>>711976179
That's true, I'm 22 and i became a doctor in January, and this literally changed my whole life (I'm working on the night shift on a trauma-specialized hospital, so i see everyday people who got shot, stabbed or were on car accidents). My friends always say that it's because I'm too young for this, but i don't know...
>>711976854
Thanks. I was from 07-10. I got off until 2014. Two years ago. That's when my own Tasha left. I'm not going to write the story, at least not right now. If there's some demand for it, I'll pretype and post it in a thread later.
>>711976987
part of me wishes i drank just as an excuse to be social be it at partys or soon when im of legal age to go to bars
part of me just wishes i had it as an escape, get drunk feel sorry for myself ( or maybe happier who knows) and sleep it off
and i think part of me knows if i were to start drinking i might slip up and do something stupid thats not the real solution to my problems
really right now im just stressed as fuck and wish i had a way to escape
>>711977251
Yo...I have no net right now but I do want to add this to my folder, fresh off the press, maybe you can give someone their tasha. [email protected]
>>711966732
theyre not worth it anon :(
>>711977483
Eh. If I do post it, it'll be pretyped in a different thread. Look out for it. It'll probably be sometime late sunday. I'll see her for work earlier that day so I'll be best set to write it.
>>711977643
I'll see if I can make it.
>fucked up at a night club
>ankle fucked
>not been able to lift for 4 months
>lost all gains
>have to get shitty 40 hour
>gf doesnt like me no more
>i hope this Christmas is nice
>>711977106
lol bullshit.. what are you? Doogie fuckin Howser? 18+4+4 = ? why do you dipshits lie to try to impress a bunch of strangers on the internet?
I started talking to a girl and spent every day with her for about a month, everything was going great, we were happy and shit. One day we're at a party and her ex is there, he's sees her with me and realises he wants her back. The next day she told me she was going to try it with him again over a text. Idk, feel like shit about it sometimes but I'm mainly over it, just hits when I'm alone in bed thinking about it, haven't spoke to her since.
>>711977831
I started my med school at 17yo, graduated last year at 22yo, I'm currently studying for specialise myself. You're probably thought 4+4 as it should work in America, but I'm from Netherlands.
taking a break from fapping cant wait until I can fap again
>some months ago
>on the way to opticians
>bump - literally - into a girl as I turn round the corner on the street, she falls to her ass
>redhaired, pigtailed, glasses, looks up at me smiling as I apologize and help her up
>her glasses had fallen off and I go to pick them up too
>can't believe my luck, she touches my hand like a movie or some shit as she picks them up too
>we're all giggly and gay and she actually talks to me
>need to get close to this girl, feel like my life has just turned around on the spot
>cancel my plans, accompany her on her apparently aimless walk
>been seeing her regularly, most days a week since
>today
>thinking about asking the question
>go to knock on her door as a surprise without saying I'm coming over
>it's open already
>can hear her moaning sexually
>peek into the living room
>she's being pounded by a huge black guy on the sofa
>just can't believe it
>sneak upstairs and steal her glasses
>everything paid off, didn't have to pay for opticians
was an excellent day for me sorry you guys are all sad
>>711979772
How long has it been since you've fapped?
>>711980244
2 hours
>>711965643
me too anon me too
>>711979952
We should all be as blessed as you Anon.
>>711980356
How long do you plan on not fapping?
Why did I fall for her? Why did I fall so hard for her. I literally never felt like this about a girl. I think about her day in and day out.
Even though she probably doesn't feel the same about me, I can't shake the thought that maybe it will all work out, and we'll be together in the end.
When I first saw her I thought she was cute. Then I got another look, and I saw more than that for some reason, and I fell for her big.
I began to like everything about her. Her laugh (which is considered the worst out of people we know.) Her insecurities even. I like fucking everything about her.
Don't know what triggered me to fall for her in a big way
>>711980244
5 days 2 more days until I can cum
I'm really running on empty, and it gets worse everyday I think. I must have some sort of depression because it comes in waves, lets up for a few weeks maybe and then comes back. I never recover, just manage.
I just can't justify living to myself. Nothing I do fulfills me and no goal seems worthwhile. I genuinely feel bad for my parents because I'm their first born and a failure. Not the biggest fuck up but definitely wasted potential. But I can't care. I never have.
I've pretty much decided that if I don't get this promotion in December, I'm just going to sell all my shit except my revolver and go for a nice long walk to Alaska and hopefully die on the way
>>711980945
lol cuz ur dumb
>>711980945
I'm honestly feeling similarly. I simply cannot stop thinking about her. I got as far as the first date, which was months ago, and she didn't try anything after that. I've never been in a relationship but that was the closest and I think that's why.
The best I've done is trying to convince myself I hate this person but I know that's not true
>>711982156
I got to meet up with mine once, months ago as well.
We still talk occasionally, but its awkward between us.
And I would be hard pressed to convince myself to hate her. She is so close to a saint.
>>711982347
I stopped trying to talk to her because she didn't respond. I realize I should have taken the hint sooner but like I said, this was honestly the first girl I ever liked and the first to ever show interest in me.
Wasn't enough though
>disrupting the peace on cuckbook
>"get off 4chan, anon, it's not 2007 anymore"
also this year my dogs died, my gf left me, and my friend killed himself.
>>711982641
>she didn't respond.
Mine responds with very detailed shit. And we can talk for hours straight, so... yea.
I've fallen for girls before, but I typically get over them within 2 months at most. But this one... It's been 7 months already. No sign of fading yet
>>711982910
its sad that your girlfriend breaking up with you outranked your friend killing himself.
>>711980945
I'm feeling the same, for other girl, that's sucks, because i know i'll probably never talk to her.
>>711983306
Just try talking to them. You never know.
>>711983459
That's the problem, i see her at the bus usually at the morning. It's kinda i'm waiting for the best moment that will never happen.
>>711983627
Just start talking to her when it's just you. There doesn't have to be a "perfect" moment for it.
What keeps you guys going?
I'm out of things to live for.
>>711983751
Hoping things will get better in the future/Fear of death
And I play guitar to distract myself
>>711983203
>outranked
bro calm down your autism
>>711984072
>hope
I haven't felt that in a long time. Same wit fear
>>711961203
This place is dying fast. VIP now. People are leaving. Mass exodus. Everyone who didn't leave is gone, or leaving. It's becoming the abandoned future reddit. A joke, sadly. This place got screwed up bad, been here for the whole thing. Worse and worse.
>>711984318
Always remember that it may take a month, a year, fucking 20 years, but it can and will get better
>>711983751
My dealer's getting srooms soon, anyone know how to extract spores from them?
>>711984105
autism is literally an inability to understand social etiquette.
you thought 'break up' was a bigger deal than suicide.
you are literally autistic.
>>711983751
Unachievable goals and enormous plans, it'll all blow up in my face someday, but today is not that day.
>>711984072
>>711984318
>>711984391
Hope isn't enough, you need to be proactive.
I know i'm a hypocrit for giving advice i won't follow, but whatever.
I wish i could talk to her again... i wish i could go back and pass all night through talking with her again.
>>711984578
>Unachievable goals and enormous plans,
>Rockstar until 16
>Hidden genious, eventual millionair until 18
>winning the lottery or inventing something usefull now. (23)
They get a bit more realistic with time, they will eventually be "keep a job"
>>711984716
Why can't you?
The only thing bothering me is this girl.
I still wan't some closure with her. Maybe she is interested, maybe not. Nothing is definitive in her behavior.
But I don't see her enough to just message her, or talk to her inperson to try and get an answer.
It's not like my intention have been hidden. It is obvious as fuck that I am interested.
But is she? Some stuff says yes, other stuff says no.
Why did I have to fall for a girl that's awkward as fuck?
Some music for feels
https://soundcloud.com/user-756755019-127669377/whats-it-for
Happy birthday alex! i know you never liked me that way when we were bestfriends and ever since i told you how i really felt you hated me. It's okay i hope you and your boyfriend enjoy it... I'm just so glad you're happy...
>>711984898
Current goals are: be president, build a house solo, fix my rusted out jeep, rent out multiple properties, get laid, learn to bake.
Some are more achievable than others, I swear ovens are fucking impossible. (20yo)
Has anyone here ever been on lexapro?
I just got prescribed it today for insane anxiety.
>>711985464
I'm sorry.
>>711985553
Dude, except for the presidency, you can achieve all those goals if you give them you best.
>>711985771
Well the presidency too, but i wouldn't count on it.
>the only thing that keeps me warm at night is myself
>>711985397
Thanks for the music, anon. Nice pick. Have another
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tkLz5_55Sh0
>>711985040
She thought was better she left.
>>711985397
>>711985935
Here's my contribuition.
>WARNING: It's pretty fucking gay
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=E0q2iXlsKNA
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZwGWRrIlz68
>>711986176
Did she say why?
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yVhULzga4Ms
Have a feel song from me
I read today that that frog picture -whatever the hell he is called- anyway I read today in the news that he was being banned from Facebook.
I'm not making this shit up- I don't even care, but just sayin' somehow there is a movement to ban this meme.
Personally I think feels threads are a bunch of teenage fags whining about not having any pussy and turning gay, people don't understand me, etc etc etc.
But that meme is getting banned from Facebook- I kid you not
>>711985771
Yeah you're right of course, I suppose I'm just adding a healthy dose of pessimism.
What motivates you to get up in the morning?
>>711986499
> feels threads are a bunch of teenage fags whining about not having any pussy and turning gay, people don't understand me, etc etc etc.
They can be, to be honest.
>>711984774
Nora sounds delicious
>>711986536
Knowing i need the day's pay to survive, and alcohol.
>>711984534
You're retarded because he never said the bad things happening to him were ranked, it was simply a list.
this dude has real problems, not "give-me-attention-on-4chan" problems. Go get a life
>>711961203
Thanks to the /b/ro that directed me here.
>>711969274
got work at 6 in the morning. very drunk, don't care. haven't been this low in a while
>>711973747
Oh fuck this shit.
I'm going to end up with someone else, with a decent life, and go to bed wishing my SO was her. I don't even want to stop loving her.
Fuck this shit.
>>711961203
Voicemail
>9/5/02 hey anon, it's your dad here, your mother and I haven't seen you in a while
> 10/12/02 haven't seen you in a while, sure you're too old to trick or treat, want to come visit?
> 11/04/02 your mother and I are having a thanksgiving party, coming? Please reply.
>12/08/02 will you at least come over for Christmas? I know you left on bad terms, by please come over
>1/03/03 hey anon, it's your mother here, I have bad news. Your father was coming to pay you a surprise visit, but died in a car accident. Please come to the funeral, he'd want it.
>>711989953
damn anon, care to share what happened? did your parents kick you out or something?
>>711976568
No the fuck you don't. It doesn't help.
>>711989953
damn anon havent talked to my dad in about 6 months and he ignored my bday puts things into perspective
Make a wish you fucks.
>>711991007
I wish she was honest
>>711991007
I wish I had been strong enough to be the person she thought I was.
>>711991007
I wish i had a functioning penis
>>711991007
I wish I knew what to do with myself
>>711991007
I wish I could die without having anybody dealing with my corpse
>>711990410
I was in college, and needed to pay tuition, and my shitty fast food place job wasn't working. This was probably he first time in my life I had done it, but I asked if they could lend me some money. Dad stared ranting about how I should work harder, I was a shame as a son, and he said that he disowned me. I left. I managed to room with a great friend, and eventually got a decent job, but I forgot about him and cut off al relations with him.
>>711987491
thanks desu
Bamp
>>711973747
Yeah you might see that. But by that time you might not give a fuck. It's surprising how that can happen with the passage of time believe me.
What do you do when the woman you love is not only in love with someone else, but also got married to them?
the germans had it so bad
Dikke neus 15 bier
I have a ridiculous crush on a guy that ive seen twice now. We sleep together and act like we are a newly-smitten couple when together, but i'm too much of a coward to ask him what this is, or tell him how I feel.
My life right now apart from this is a trainwreck.
Can't sleep, drinking ensues.
I want to get off this wild ride.
>>711992345
TITS OR GTFO
Anybody actually try therapy? Does it just lead to a path of meds and fake optimism?
I hope that I can be friends with my ex sometime in the future. We were damn good friends and it's a shame when that gets all fucked up because of sex. At this point I could do without that part. Just miss the laughs and conversations most. Has anyone managed to pull this off after a long time of not seeing an ex?
>>711992345
Honestly, you should just come flat out and ask, because it'll save time and emotions later on if you go further. Maybe see him one more time before jumping on it, but definitely do it soon
>>711992403
>path of meds
>fake optimism
dude, that's what therapists give you
>>711992345
at least you have someone
>>711992345
Just ask him then. Oh and Tits or GTFO.
>>711992519
I really should, but I just -know- i'm gonna drop not only spaghetti, but ramen, tagliatelle and tortellini all together when doing it.
How would a guy react to a girl sperging out like that?
>>711991007
I wish we can be happy together
>>711992812
Any guy with any bit of experience would expect that eventually. It's bound to come up.
>>711992812
mom's spaghetti?
also, he'd fuck you right then and there
also, TITS OR GTFO
>>711992812
Quite honestly, I find it cute when girls get all flustered. If he's a good guy he'll probably just reassure you and make sure what you want to say gets said
>>711993017
And, this is just from my point of view, but I sometimes find it hard to approach girls and come flat out with it, so I usually would pray for an icebreaker like that
>>711992812
>>711993017
What this faggot said. Just ask.
>>711992577
Someone i'm terrified of fessing up to in case he goes "lol nope".
>>711991007
I wish I can spend my life with her
>>711991007
I wish to be happy on my own.
>>711993196
Strap on a set of balls.....or pretend you have balls and do it. Better than going nuts.
>>711992465
Friends with exes are in my experience never a good idea.
There is a reason you broke up, and that reason will forever nag at whatever friendship you may attempt until it becomes infected. And emotions are inevitable.
>>711992259
I feel like venting
>be me
>start dating literal perfection named Rachel throughout highschool
>love her with all my heart
>plan on marrying her
>going to pop the question after we graduate
>graduation comes and goes
>getting ready to ask her
>out of no where, she breaks up with me
>I'm fucking broken
>she wont tell me why
>I hound her for weeks to tell me why
>she finally tells me
>apparently she found out she was a lesbian after a year or so of dating me
>she didn't want to hurt me and still loved me, just not in the same way
>she started dating a girl behind my back senior year
>I'm still heartbroken but there's nothing I can do
>2 years pass
>in a deep state of depression
>she stopped talking to me
>one day I get a call
>it's Rachel
>sound upset
>she tells me that she plans on marrying her gf, but her father and brother don't accept it, so no one can give her away
>she asks me to do it since I'm the closest guy to her
>tell her I'll think about it
>friends and family tell me not to do it
>say it'll only make my feelings worse
>still want to marry her, but this is the closest I can get
>tell her yes
>she's ecstatic
cont.
>>711993196
Every girl I have ever dated has gone "lol nope" at some point or another. Maybe he will, but you'll never know if you don't try.
>>711993650
>day of the wedding
>I give her away and she's happy
>never seen her this happy before
>tell myself, "If she's happy, I'm happy"
>sit alone at the reception
>Rachel's gf (now wife) comes up to me
>she's clearly agitated
>claims that I hid from Rachel for years because I hated her for being a lesbian
>that I should be ashamed for even showing my face there
>I'm fucking pissed
>bottle it up
>calmly tell her literally everything
>the depression, my love for her, why I came etc etc
>she's tearing up
>apologizes over and over and hugs me
>still sort of pissed, I tell her to take care of Rachel
>leave and go home
>get a call from Rachel the next day
>she's crying and apologizing for everything
>says she didn't know and says she wouldn't have put me through that if she had known
>tell her it's okay
>tell her that I'm happy
>I go to lunch and have dinner with Rachel and her wife every so often
I know I can't change her, but she's the only woman I've ever loved. I tell myself I'm happy, but I don't think I can ever truly be happy until I'm with her.
everyone in my family is successful but i do not want to stay behind a desk, i want to make music, this is my music https://soundcloud.com/yungnero210/for-i-am-not-a-sheep go ahead and laugh at my bad music, im just looking for advice or feedback thank you /b/ https://soundcloud.com/yungnero210/yung-nigga help me follow my dream /b/ros :) you guys are the best
>>711993609
Yeah that part sucks. Probably just end up fucking again then regretting it or ending up in the same trap as before. I guess I still need time to get over it. Not easy when there was a good mental connection there. I find that rare.
>>711993807
Pretty solid, man
Music's just a tough market
From a guitarist of 8 years, I can tell you keep doing what you're doing, and be around other musicians, make connections
>>711993993
that really made my night man, thank you :')
>>711994144
No problem! Keep it up!
>>711993807
Old Jazz musician fag here. It's hard but weather or not your making any money at it at certain times you have to look at the music as it's own reward. I've had many times where I've been burned out on it and times where I'm doing pretty well. Times of gigs and bouts of alcoholism and depression with unemployment. It's been a rocky road.
>>711993807
That's actually pretty good.
One thing though, I definitely wouldn't go with that name. There's already a million different "Young" and "Yung" guys out there. Plus it might give off the impression that you're just another street nigga dealing dope trying to make it. Just the impression I got. Dope shit though.
>>711993911
You'll have new good mental connections, trust. If you keep on running in the hamster wheel of "sex because old emotions and she's also kinda cool", in the end, old feelings and why you broke up will fill the tank so to say, until you start resenting her.
Keep it as a good memory bro, you dont want to walk the path of bitterness.
>>711993650
That's so fucking unfair. Part of me says you should walk her down the isle, give her a beautiful night, then shoot yourself after she's asleep. Another part of me says fuck it, blow your head off in the middle of the ceremony.
But no, that won't get you anywhere. Just leave. Fuck nobility. Fuck honesty, fuck honor, fuck true love, and fuck caring. Nobody gives a flaming fuck about you so don't give a flaming fuck about them. Don't burn it all down, just walk away.
They'll call you an asshole. They'll say you've changed, you're distant. They won't even know you anymore. But maybe they never did. Do whatever you have to do to not feel that fucking pain, because if you let yourself feel it, if you try to push through it and be noble, you will destroy yourself. And in 10 years when you look back there will be nothing but sadness and painful memories. You will have lost half your life because it's just too goddamn painful to remember.
>>711994327
>Been playing for years
>Never written a full song
>Music feels more of a requirement/chore than enjoyment these days
>It's the only skill I have
Fuck.
>still living with parents at 22
>unemployed
>no friends, they all moved on and I shut myself away because I was embarrassed of my situation
>parents are piss poor and so am I
>so poor I can only eat 1 meal most days
>most of their money goes to my little brother
>barely getting by
>live in a small town with little to no job prospects
>on welfare
>have to pay rent (which I'm okay with, it just leaves me with little to nothing)
>haven't been able to buy myself new clothes in over 2 years
I used to be happy /b/, I had a great social life up until I was 17/18 then I fell apart. I have nobody and nothing.
All I want to do is get up and go.
>>711994378
Yeah I've been struggling with going from thinking she's pretty cool and I'll sure miss her as my close friend to bitterness. It gets annoying. Putting it all into an instrumental music project now though and it's coming along well. It helps to channel all the mixed emotions into something.
Let's start working on getting better tomorrow, you said. Organize your room. Call up some therapists. Start working out again. Cook a meal for yourself. Write some new music.
You say that every day. Particularly on the days you have off from work. Every day you tell yourself, "It's cool. Get fucked up tonight so you can feel the pain, but tomorrow you need to start working on bettering yourself." And maybe you feel hopeful, even happy or excited, because you think "Fuck yes, I finally feel motivated, I finally feel like I can take control of my fucked up life and start turning it around. Tomorrow is the day I stop letting myself down."
And then you wake up, and everything is the same. You fuck around on the computer, you order some pizza, you wash it down with soda and then you crack open your whiskey bottle at 11 in the morning. You don't even make a conscious decision to forget about all the shit you said you'd do; you just do it because it's become your routine and it's all you know, it's the only thing that makes you feel comfortable. And you fucking hate yourself because you know that some part of you, deep down, would rather just remain unhealthy and miserable but masochistically comfortable than try to do something to change it. Because if you stay the way you are, at least you can't fail again. At least you can't dig yourself any deeper.
Fuck this toil, /b/. I'm tired of it.
>>711994600
I found the jock, he's self aware too it's crazy.
>>711994498
You're right.
I was raised with honor and nobility, but some days it's hard to keep that up.
Honestly, the only thing holding me back from blowing my brains out is that I only own a .22lr hand gun. I'd probably end up living, but with mental retardation or something
>>711993747
I've been in a similar situation. You have two options. Well you have three options but the third one's heroin so I'd say don't go that route.
1.) Knock on her door some night, pull out a gun, and blow your head off right there. OR just shoot yourself in the chest if you want to see her honest reaction as you quickly bleed out.
2.) Break off all contact and move across the country. Never speak to her again. Never think of her again. No facebook, no twitter, none of that shit. She must not exist to you.
It will always hurt, but at least with the second path it'll hurt a little bit less each day. Now it only hurt when I think about it, which is only a few times a month. It has been 10 years.
>>711994633
Yeah, sounds like a better plan.
Just make sure to write an even better piece when the right girl comes along.
And yes i'm a hopeless romantic.
>>711995104
Yeah, I was too. Now I'm just hopeless.
>>711993196
you're worried of rejection so you choose the same outcome
People are funny..
>>711995104
Yeah it's weird. It's all instrumental jazz stuff and each track goes in order of the different phases of a relationship. Like this. 1. Infatuation 2. Lots of sex 3. Contentment 4. Suspicion 5. Drunk / bender 6. Betrayal 7. Bitter sweet sadness.
I have a good sketch for each track. It's sort of strange that it would inspire a whole album and I wonder if I'm dwelling on it too much in doing that but the music is coming along so well that I figure I should just go with it. Maybe it's my way of taking a few months to isolate myself, write and record and come completely to terms with it all. I am also a fool. Big time.
>>711995608
Romantic fool I mean.
>>711995581
I don't want to reject the guy, I just dont want to spaghetti all over his shoes.
But i'll ask him, after all the motivation in this thread
>>711995608
Wherever you can draw inspiration from is good man, keep it up while its there.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5HUxYPMM0_o
>>711996073
Yeah I was in a dry spell for years. Just playing boring jazz standards and doing boring shitty gigs with that. Then someone broke my heart and boom! Inspiration. That's what happens when a girl does that to a jazzman. He makes an album out of it. So strange how it turned out that way. Stopped me drinking to. Just constantly working on it. Kind of bitter sweet. Of course I'm still an idiot and hoping she will hear it some day in the back of my mind.
bathroom is full of water what do?
>>711996376
>hoping she will hear it some day
Do this for yourself as a process of healing instead of a subtle try at winning her back and/or slap your pain in her face.
>>711996754
Drain it
Or call a plumber
>>711996881
Well put. That's exactly the passive aggressive shit that lurks in the bottom of my mind sometimes. Thanks for the reminder that it's for my own purposes. Hopefully as I get deeper into it and finish it I will have let go of that more and made peace. Working on it and it's one of the hardest things I've had to do.
>>711995871
Proud of you.
>>711997016
It's 11:21 pm
>>711997203
shit on the floor
some tunes to go with feels
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uRyRymflxtU
>>711970486
I'm sorry man.
I hope you get some closure, with time.
10 years ago i fell in love with a guy. weh hat something for 3 months... he told me he loved me, but he lied to me and played with me and used me. and cheated on his real girlfriend with me.
i was never able to forget him.
a few months back we met again, talked about the past, hung out, started having sex, then he told me he had developed feelings for me, wanted to fight for the trust he destroyed years ago ... made me fall harder again. so fucking hard. seems like he only played me again. he's distant often. doesn't text for days. says he doesn't want to meet for stupid reasons ("i have to clean the kitchen today"). found tampons in his bathroom. stuff like that.
i don't know what to do.
can't live withouth him
can't bare the pain to be used again for whatever reason.
would've been fine with just sex. could have handled it. but he decided to brake my heart again. why ?
drink your own piss
>>711991007
I wish my life would get better
>>711997564
Fuck him.
You CAN live without him, because he's shown that he can as well.
You can't pour all your love and time into somebody who won't give it back, and it's fucking hard not to do, I know. But you gotta tell yourself every day that he's not worth it
>>711973639
You, my good sir, are the heart & soul of /b/
*tips fedora*
>>711997147
Anon is always here for you.
Now go make music for -you- and yourself only.
Good luck bro
>>711997564
He's using you because he is most likely realizing you have these strong feelings and are easy to manipulate.
I'm sorry, but that seems to be the case.
Rid yourself of that bag of dicks and go find your self-worth again. Fuck that guy
>>711997977
Thanks man. I screencapped your comment about not doing it for passive the wrong reasons. That will be a reminder for me. For it to come out right it's important that it come from the right place. Cheers for that.
>>711997853
i do tell myself he's not worth it and i need to stop - but as soon as he sends a message it's over ... no matter how many times i told myself the days before i'm gonna be strong, i'm not. if he asks if i want to come over, i go. i tell myself "only sex this time, then i go home" and we end up talking and cuddling too and my heart melts even more... He's like a drug to me, as soon as he's present, even in a simply chat message, everything in me is drawn to him
>Met an amazing beautiful girl I started dating on vacation in the summer
>Had to go back to home state when summer ended
>We stayed close and talked and facetimed everynight
>Goes on for about 6 months
>She tells me a guy is harassing her telling her he wants to fuck her and tries touching her vagina
>Pisses me off but I can't do anything cause I'm 6 states away..
>She starts crying to me on facetime about how shes afraid this guys actually gonna try to rape her
>I tell her its okay and that he can't do shit
>A week later passes by and she doesn't respond to any of my texts or call
>I get super worried
>about 2 days pass by and I get a text from one of my friends that knew her
>He tells me she got abducted and killed
>I start uncontrollably crying and start smoking daily to help me get my mind off her
>To this day I think of her and how I couldn't do anything to stop this from happening...
>Rest in peace Sabrina, my fallen angel...
>>711991007
I wish I could haul my ass into gear. That's my one wish. Everything comes with time and effort. I'm lacking in the latter.
>>711998614
This is why, if you really want to get over that insanity you have to cut off all contact. It's hard though. I'm no fine one to talk. I have the same thing if I hear from my ex through text or anything. It just ends up hurting me more with even a bit of communication so I decided recently to stop being a masochist. You probably should do the same.
>>711998614
Trust me - there are guys out there ready to give you that, and actually give it back.
It's important now just to cut it off as soon as you can for good - in any way, remove his number, unfriend, block, whatever. Just get him out, keep him out, and search for someone better, because there IS someone better out there.
I promise.
>>711998614
that is what im going through now but 0 sex ever 5 years of her randomly calling out of nowhere and poof im in love again i hate this
>>711998304
what i don't understand are his reasons.
I was okay with us just havin sex. i told him multiple times i'm totally fine with having sex with him withouth feelings or bonds or limitations.
usually guys manipulate women for sex.
that was not nececary... what are his reasons? just to torture me? that's whats driving me insane about it.
>>711961203
Right now I feel like I'm gonna vomit all the raisins I ate yesterday. But I also feel sad.
>>711992812
Trust me. He'll love it, and probably you
>>711999147
If you were okay with -just- sex, you would pull up your panties and leave after sex, not cuddling. But there you both are, cuddling and laughing.
Either he is manipulating you because its an ego-boost for him to have you so infatuated and close by (maybe his relationship isnt giving him that), or he is actually getting feelings.
Wich I doubt. If that was the case he wouldnt cut contact from time to time
Sometimes I'll hug the coat rack in my house and pretend it's someone that loves me and cares about me. I'll cry into the shoulder of my coat while hugging it as hard as I can. Does anyone else do this too?
>>711999147
Maybe it's some sort of control thing. It's hard to tell in those sort of situations and this is the trouble with the whole fuck buddies thing. I've never really been able to pull it off myself and maybe I'm a faggot who gets attached too easily but chances are if you like each others company and are fucking as well, it's going to go in that direction.
I don't know what's good for me, I'm honestly just bottling up everything I've wanted to say for about 4 years. I've told my self not to cry, I've told my self "Don't worry about it this happens to everyone." I know it has happened to somebody, I guess I'm having a mid life crisis this has hung around for years though.
>>711999710
I went through a phase where I'd get drunk and cry and talk to the fan beside my bed. Kind of like the wilson scenario in castaway. Right now I'm in a phase of life where I feel like I'm stranded on the north poll.
>>711999417
Well. The weekend cannot come soon enough. Here goes nothing
>>711999935
I'm having a whole life crisis. I dunno though then sometimes I just think who gives a shit I'll be dead one day anyway.
>be forever alone all my life
>start working out when im 14 (im 21 now)
>have a good body but autistic with girls
>meet girl on facebook
>she lifts
>in my mind is a solid 9.5/10
>talk every day
>ends up driving 6 hours to see me
>we get along perfectly
>discuss about possibly getting a place together (soon i know)
>she goes back home
>ends up dating her "best friend"
>the guy she told me not to worry about
>the guy that i was always suspicious about
>end up trolling the fuck out of them due to depression
>go full /b/ on them, tell her to kill herself etc
>find out they broke up
>im still blocked on all of her social media
>told me shes never going to forgive me for what i said no matter what
>havent kissed a girl since then
fuck my life
I wake up everyday wishing it is my last.
I tried to kms over 5 times buts failed.
I hold back my feelngs because I'm afraid of becomming more of a loner than I already am.
God dammit I just want my life to end.
I can't take this anymore.
>Sadness has taken over once more
I don't feel shit
>>712000394
I know that same feel Anon. We all do, and it sucks donkey cock. I hope you feel better at some point
>>711997178
Uh why theres a lack of tits in this thread
>>711999650
i try to leave directly afterwards. because i know it hurts more otherwise. he's the one begging me to stay longer, or just not letting me go physically. and talking shit like how he thinks about me a lot.
he's not good in accepting limits. he also kissed me by force even though i told him i don't want to kiss ...
he says he does not have a girlfriend and i'm the only one he's seeing at the moment, the official girlfirend was years ago. i think he's seeing someone else too though, but only recently, the time when he tried do fight his attention was all on me and there couldn't have been another girl, or he ignored her for month, what's not so far off as he does the same to me occasionally
>>712000539
Please tell me how
Im an engineering major and my GPA is trash. I am afraid it is going to make me unhireable once I graduate, so this is all for a waste.
read the fucking picture name that will get you feeling something
>>711974409
Drugs. Weed, Coke, Adrenaline (I break into cars and sheds for the hell of it, it's one of the few things keeping me alive, the rush is so intense.) Love if you can find any, which is pretty rare around here.
But most importantly find what helps you.
>>712000539
Lucky you.
>Socially awkward as fuck kid
>No friends
>Had 2-3 in my last year of elementary school
>They leave quick before the year ends
>Middle school comes around
>LITERALLY no friends for 2 years
>High school get a best friend
>No gf
>He goes on to write music, get some good gfs for himself, and tons of friends
>Both of us out of high school
>College is going terribly for me - fucking hate all my classes, switching to an opposite setup next year
>He's still going strong with writing, doesn't even need me at this point besides drums, which he can just program
>OCD making me feel like everyone will leave me soon enough
>Friends are nonexistant
>Family feels distant
>Only chance at a gf is 100 miles away
>Still just trying to make my life go the way I want, but it just leads me down another hole
Not that impressive but needed to vent
>>712000596
I'll feel better once i die or get killed
>>712000775
Fuck yeah man, adrenaline is the best. Probably one of the only things left that i can actually feel. How many cars have you broken into?
>>712000312
dude she cheated on you before you even started dating, fuck her
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Qb2aIlcPwYU&feature=youtu.be
erdoijgk
the water stopped and I cleaned up the bathroom 2 more day until I can fap
>at friends house
>drinking a little (not much so I dont think its an excuse)
>start discussing politics
>end up admitting I voted trump
>he says he begrudgingly voted Hillary
>says I probably think I am some sort of tough guy bad ass for voting trump
>says thats how most trump supporters are
>keeps going on about this shit
>for some reason starts saying shit along the lines of "bad asses wouldnt let themselves get ass fucked would they"
>ask him what the hell he is on about
>charges me and tackles me
Yeah I think you know how the rest of this goes... I dont even know what the fuck to do. I feel humiliated....
>>712001114
Get him fucking arrested.
>>712001114
>bad asses wouldn't let themselves get ass fucked would they
Fuuuuuuckkking kek my sides are gone
>>712000609
you said it, not me. Get them out then.
>>711961203
i havent received a birthday present in the last two years from anyone. I have some friends and family, but none of them really care. My friend wanted to beat the shit out of me for not getting him anything but I'm broke, and he didnt get me shit either
>>712001267
I am just afraid to get mocked. Like its humiliating, let me just tell the police how I, a man, let that happen. Plus I dont want everyone to find out
>>712001614
Your friend sounds like a fucking douche, you don't owe him shit
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lP077RitNAc
>be me right now at tthis very moment
>depression kicks in making me cry & shake like a lil' bitch
>wants to end it but is to weak to do so
>>712001782
People won't be as critical as you think they will be. Especially the police, it's their JOB to get bastards like that prosecuted.
I'd act as fast as possible on it, honestly
I know it's hard, but you'll feel so much better when it's over and done with
>>711991007
I wish that I will pass my midterms
>>711991007
I wish I would get dubs.
>>711991007
I wish that I will stay off the booze and smokes and pull myself together for real this time.
>>711991121
lol same
>>712002557
Kek wow anon.
>>711969312
>>711969395
>>711969634
Right in my feels
>>711961203
This will cheer you up
sextoyget.com/sexylittlehoe.htm
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uWf9_8AzgZs
i feel like a car, but it got no engine :(
>>711991007
I wish I could be happy :^)
Some ass for all u guys
>>712003232
Thank u
It's very nice
>>712003232
If only it were here with me
>>712003232
Nice
>>712000777
Not that anon.
But fucking trust me, feeling nothing is much worse than feeling sadness, sadness is like a happy memory from your childhood, and you wish you could travel back in time and live like that once more.
Nothingness is a abyssal chasm that sucks the fucking live from you. It has no reason, meaning, or want. It does not fester with anger, sadness, contempt or others of the like. It is filled with the hiatus of emotion; stasis, lack of movement. It will make you drone day in and day out, not from want or need, but from pattern, and the thought that it will go away.
The human mind cannot understand this nothingness, and as such doe not respond to the feeling.
Someone kill me please.
