Sad and Lonely at 11pm ~ Join me.
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Sad and Lonely at 11pm ~
Join me.
You ever get your pant antler chooched by a dude?
>>711876004
im here /b/ro
>>711876690
Yes
>>711877148
Hey my man
>>711877240
whats got u sad n lonely on this particular tuesday. midweek blues?
>>711876004
im with u bud. tame impala and alcohol atm. hope you're good. i miss her.
>>711877788
Something like that, stress and life in general is taking its toll. Just need to be sad tonight, you feel?
>>711876004
Its aight dude, we hustle how we gotta hustle. You dig?.
Sometimes life gunna getchu down, hell i been there for almost 5 month str8 freal.
Jus gota fake that smile yo yknow, stick some music on that aint gun destroy the rest of your soul dog, we here.
>>711878099
I'm alright for now, just enjoying the sadness.
I miss her too.
what's her name, anon?
>>711878369
Well guys, I miss her, but I found someone else who makes me even happier. Don't stop trying.
>>711878626
Ellie.
>>711878626
Olivia. Liv
>>711878755
>>711878820
Tell me about her, what do you like about her? Her smile? Her perfume?
I'm here, /b/ro. What's up?
>>711878099
tame impala is an approved cure for any kind of emotional escape. their last album was fantastic.
>>711878332
damn right son
>>711878626
Lara
What's up yall? Can I post some shit in here?
>>711879479
What do you like best about her?
>>711879035
She was the only female to actually understand me, you know.
Played the same vidya, liked the same bands
hell, she even thought it was cool that I was a btard.
I'm never gonna find someone like her again. She's gone and there's nothing I can do about it.
She said she wants to put her bund on my hot cross. IDK what that means, but it'd probably because we went to a middle school band concert.
>>711879705
What happened to her, anon?
>>711879705
applies to >>711879581
pops died of spinal cancer a couple years back, and i fear the day i realize just how much he's really gone.
im scared, guys. i dont want to live the rest of my life without him.
>>711879035
Liv is intelligent. She's a go-getter. She's motivated. She makes me feel insecure in a good way. I can't explain it.
Ill post some sad / chill shit for yall.
>>711879876
Have you made a move on her, anon?
>>711879705
You'll change. Just add inevitably as a river empties into the sea. And with that change, new people and new possibilities emerge. You're right that there's nothing you can do to change that she's gone, but you're already doing what needs to be done. Life, man
>>711879705
did u smash
Decent song for chill sad vibes. Techno, not sure if you guys like this shit. But its okay.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eqsXMVobPZM
>>711876004
Though it's cold and lonely in the deep dark night
I can see paradise by the dashboard light
>>711879782
She tried to fuck my best friend and his cousin in a threeway the other night. She has feelings for his cousin and I know it. He's a fuckboi too and I've told her, but she won't take my advice. It's for the better I know, but shit hurts man.
>>711879846
He's probably just glad you outlived him. No parent wants to put a kid in the ground. You made him proud.
>>711880272
Sound like you're doing that whole Nice Guy(tm) song and dance. Fuck that noise. You're better than that.
>>711880306
That hit me hard man. (Not the dude who lost his pops) But still. gave me chills.
>>711878626
Vanessa
>>711880306
i fuckin hope so. ive done too much to dissapoint him, and i only wrecked myself more by trying to be a mediator for my family.
my mom practically turned into a child, and i had to "stay strong for the family" and all that because its what i feel i need to do.
it just hurts alot of the time.
>>711876004
Kind of annoyed over a phone call I had with my mom earlier. I swear, her dismissive mentality is enough to piss anyone off.
>>711880272
Sorry to hear, anon. It is for the best, though. It hurts, but remember to keep your chin up.
>>711880828
nice
>>711880669
What's your story, anon?
>>711880916
i find this image to be very thought provoking
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DfTUs-s_XkI
>>711880640
am I really though? I'm sitting here at almost midnight, sharing my compressed emotions with a stranger online. I don't think I'm better than that. I'm just a fucking cloth, and I can't do anything about the fact that I'm going to get stomped on my whole life.
>>711880272
a girl who has threeways isnt worth your earnestness, op. don't sweat it.
>>711880669
she sounds sexy as fuck with a name like Vanessa
69 confirms
>>711881056
that's why i saved it my friend :)
>>711881100
you can be an internal nice guy and pull dickhead stunts. wanna hear the sad truth? pull enough dicky chad stunts and youll become the person you're imiating
>>711880828
>>711880920
Help me out brother. Wtf that file name mean?
>>711881215
no idea bro sorry
>>711879035
Her Smile... The way she smile and looked at me.
The way she talked. Always active, lending a helping hand, kinda naive. But she was mine.
By far! The best girlfriend that I ever had.
until I found out that she was bad shit crazy!
>>711881215
inferior non-english language. any information deemed irrelevant
OP Here ~
Thank you to everyone, even though you are all text on a screen, you guys are my friends and family. I'm glad we can share our shit like this, even if its brief. It feels good man. Love all you guys.
>>711879953
She's my best friend's litter sister by one year. We had a drunkenly made out at a halloween party, while she had (and currently has) a bf. We promised each other we would keep it a secret and "not catch feelings". I thought I could forget about it but I can't. She said she regrets it. She said she thinks i'm "cool". She's obviously not interested.
>>711881100
You're here, talking to strangers online. That's not worse than fucking two guys, honestly. Read Nietzsche, it can give you the strength to realise that you're better than what you think.
>>711881354
I fucking love you OP. We'll never meet, fuck i doubt we'll ever even talk again. But without you, my night would have been worse. Thank you.
>>711880179
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=C11MzbEcHlw
>>711881335
What happened, anon?
>>711881354
love you too bro it's good to feel empathy every now and then.
>>711881100
checked checked checked and checked
You might be right. For now at least. But tomorrow? Que será será
Also what do you mean by cloth? Is that a regional thing?
>>711878626
Spinal Cancer papa here.
her name was melissa.
while my dad was slowly going into a vegetative state, i kept focusing on this girl instead of this beautiful man i could never get the pleasure to truly know.
i spent all this time with her, and in the end its my greatest regret.
because i chased her knowing she was taken, and while it worked, it wasnt worth it, and it never will be.
for months i trapped myself in the mindset that this girl mattered so much, and lost time with my pops because i was such an ignorant ass.
Been single for past 6 months after long relationship ended. Had kid so lost contact with most friends. Wife cheats (again) so i leave. Shes been going out, fucking guys from facebook, tinder. Im in my moms house with no car no job and no friends. About to work at pizza place to buy car. Spend time getting drunk and getting blown by gay guy who gives me adderall. Life is strange.
>>711876004
I'm here, bud. Sad too but it's no biggie. It'll pass. Keep your head up, OP. We all get down sometimes.
>>711878626
The only thing I look forward to after work are the hayley atwell threads on /s/, and they're gone
>>711881104
> 2016
> slutshaming
ishygddt.jpg
Poor rittre meeee.....
>>711881634
Cloth, floor, whatever. The point is that I'll be walked on, and I don't do anything about it. It's hard enough for me to find women attractive, and those that I do I always get screwed over.
>>711878626
Shannon.
>>711881754
Don't worry, she's desperate. First thing to do, get a job. Drop drugs. Work your ass off. Read books. Give yourself a chance, anon. The rest will come in due time.
>>711881946
Oooooh doormat. I gotcha. I hope you find the confidence you feel you lack. What's this about not liking girls? There's no shame. in picking the pole over the hole.
>>711879846
I was on my seco.d tour in Iraq when my dad doesn't unexpectedly. I've never told anyone but you guys. Somehow /b/ u Der stands and I love you for that. I miss him all the time. The worst is when I dream that he's still alive. Then I have to wake up and relive his death all over again. He was my best friend.
>>711881703
That's rough man. You can't beat yourself up for doing what we're all designed to do - getting some hot poon. I'm sure your pops understood.
>>711882675
>>711881703
Worst part was, she was a horrible person, i just didnt know any better because i was no more than what i thought i was; shit
>>711882461
Sorry bud. Thanks for your service.
>>711882461
you fought, you lived, barely yet but alive still. he'd be proud. thank you for your service.
>>711882336
I've tried and guys aren't for me.
I can find girls attractive and all, but I can't really connect with them without knowing who they are. There are people who can go out, talk to a girl for 2 hours take her home, bone and be done.
I don't have any sexual interest in girls unless I know who they are. I need a story behind the person, and even still many times that's not enough.
I just can't get the same sexual drive that other people easily achieve without thinking that the girl is actually worth something. Someone who I wouldn't mind staying with for a decade.
I've done a lot of self-reflection, and the way I see it I'm very insecure. I find safety and security in knowing and understanding the flaws and insecurities of my partners. That's not easily achievable with everyone.
>>711882461
I get so jelly reading stuff like this. I've never met my dad. He had this whole family in Mexico when he knocked up my mom. He was like you keep the bastard, I'm catholic. I wonder if I would have turned into something resembling a decent human being if I had him in my life. Probably be less of an asshole.
>>711881354
I'll never see you, OP. The curse of anonymity. I love you faggots. So close but so far away. We are all of us closer than we think. Candles in the dark. You ain't alone man.
>>711882114
That's our doggo from Iraq. She loved us and the next unit coming in killed her. Broke my fuckin heart.
>>711883016
Sounds like the stuff they talk about on tumblr. Saposexual or something like that. That's cool that you try stuff. Whether you're dysfunctional or just different, it sounds like you're living life. Mad props dude
>>711883731
Damn, made me sad.
>>711882842
>>711883014
>>711883134
You fuckers have no idea how much you mean to me. From what's left of my heart, thank you.
>>711881379
That is a fuck ton of baggage to bring into a relationship. Wow. Wise up before shit gets weird with your friend.
>>711882087
Thanks bro. I appreciate that
>>711883764
if you consider living life to be getting cucked by all 4 girls I was interested in this year then sure
Oldfag put of lurking for a post.
Read this thread.
This is why /b/ doesn't suck.
>>711883846
Sorry brother. It's the truth. That mutt followed us home one day from patrol in Al Daquq and never left our side. She fuckin hated Hajis too boot. One time our 1SG even left her at the range and she followed us back over 15km.
>>711884298
Thank you. Oldfag, you are loved.
>>711884157
When does it ever go away? She says there's still a chance, and i want to believe her, but our circumstances wont bring us together for what feels like forever. I dont want to be miserable, nearly breaking into tears whenever i think about it. I just want her to be happy, and to know shes happy. What can i do to make her feel happy with me again?
>>711878626
Madilyn.
>>711884779
tomorrow I'm going to tell her how I felt. At least this way I can stop talking to her and she can know the full truth.
>>711884857
That's not how it works. If she doesn't like you then it won't happen. Its all in your head and the sooner you realize it the sooner you can move on.
>>711884646
Shit man. Some things in life are just too fucking much. Thanks for sharing, brother, you're a fucking hero. I'd bye you a beer if I could.
>>711876004
I'm late but I'm out here OP. Whats poppin?
>>711884646
>>711885230
I meant buy. The feels got me good
>>711885089
A man with a plan.
>>711881015
let see. We meet at work.
>We used to work for a car dealer. Nothing special. just making sure that we keep the cars clean for sells. Shitty job. I funking hated it! lol
One day.
>Co-worker comes and tells me. "hey Anon. we are hiring this new Lot Porter. that's was my job tittle. I was like cool!. (inside of me, great another idiot... Fine w/e) Kinda of a piece of shit.. Hey. I used to run that lot. That was my "Kingdom." NOBODY! Was allow to touch any of the CARS! with out me FIRST! saying it was o.k.
Yeah. I had an Ego. lol
anyways.
>I didn't know the person we hired was a female! I mean, the only girl we had work for us, was the one taking the pictures of the cars to post online. So I didn't think much of it. (Inside of me: Eh. Maybe, "his" cool. we can talk shit about the sells team) lol
2 days later:
>Co-worker. Sells bro. he was cool always talking shit in Spanish. (PS. Don't take it the wrong way. We say the same shit in English.) Anyways. moving on.
>Sells bro: Hey Anon. Come quick!
>Anon: In Spanish. (Que pasa) What's bro?
>Sells bro: Look. Your new co-worker..
>Anon:......
>Sells bro: What you think..
>Anon:....... Inside of me. ( I GOING TO GET WITH THIS GIRL!)
>Anon: Cool. Fuck it. I'd get back to work.
Inside of me (FUCK SHE HOT!)
Boner for days.
Finally came the day to meet.
Sociopath Boos:
>Hey Anon. I want you to meet Vanessa. I called her "Ness". Once we got together.
Ness: Hi!
>At this moment, It hit me. I was this weird and amazing fire that lighted up inside of me. This girl was going to be MINE! No matter what!
Anon: Hi nice to meet you. =D
That was my first encounter. with what I could called. Love at first side.. We fucked around so much. Inside work, out side of work. We where meant to be together. "So I thought"... I don't know what was it... Well no exactly!
>>711885156
Never said she doesnt feel that way. Just that shes focusing on herself for now. She will occasionally hangout, but i get this weird vibe. I cant shake her out of my head. We hurt eachother badly, its been 6 months, and she knows i dont want it to be over. I feel like she wants me to convince her
>>711885230
No hero, bud. Just a dude, like you. Ain't no hero. Shitposting and trying to make it through the day.
>>711885284
Do you think calling "turd tonsils" is a good insult? It's a boy juvenile, but I love the alliteration and the imagery really pops. Something like, "Oh you're one to talk turd tonsils!"
What do you think?
here, have some sad acoustic music.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nA8LwUBNdXc&ab_channel=JrFender
>>711885422
Good story anon. Keep your chin up
>>711885770
pretty good yeah i digg it anon
>>711881215
dutch
het voordeel van illegaal...
english
the advantage of illegally...
>>711885743
Godspeed, brother.
>>711885770
>turd tonsils
I like it. Alteration is one of my favorite things, the way they roll of the tongue is so eloquent. Turd tonsils a little less so, but it flows well. So use that shit.
>>711884857
Do you think you ever made her truly happy?
>>711885422
I would like to learn more.
manager said I was ugly under his breath the other day while we were casually chatting. Haven't gotten laid/ a girlfriend in awhile so he's probably right.
>>711876004
Have a hug, op
>>711886117
oh yes. We were as happy as can be for 4 years. Was the best time of my life. Then the hardships started, real life kicked in, had 2 kids, and things got rough.
Felt that our kids being around physical abuse
>her to me
was not a healthy environment. Not being around her for months made me not care about our problems, that being together would be the best for our kids, and that we could work on our problems if we put our heads together.
She thought things were through, and then after 5 months of split, i told her everything i could muster.
Now, she's all walled up behind her emotions, and i need to break through. I just can't figure out how.
>>711885390
after that, I can only hope that lara and I can part ways peacefully
Well I gotta go to bed. It was fun. I hope yall figure your shit out. Adios you fucking turd tonsils.
>>711886474
Fuck him, man. You can always make your own life great. I'll never meet you but I guaran-damn-tee you, if I did you'd have something interesting and unique to offer. Don't sell yourself short, brother.
>>711886695
im thinking of going too. you guys are fantastic. goodnight
>>711883016
After I got comfortable with living with myself, I decided on 3 questions to answer before figuring out whether I could date someone.
Is she interested in things about which I care and do?
Does she interest me?
Will there be a Next Time?
Granted, being comfortable in 25 "friendzones" required being not interested in sex.
>>711880306
Well said, anon.
I'm also gonna peace out. Good night fags, I fucking love you all.
>>711876004 don't be sad, we lo/b/e u
>>711887213
thanks for the input anon, I feel likewise. I can't be with someone if they don't understand how I feel. I don't want to settle for someone I'm not interested in.
>>711878626
she doesn't have one, there is no girl.
probably won't be either.
family's already given up on me having one, now I just have to be strong enough to move on too.
>>711878626
Ruby. I haven't seen her since June since I graduated, she was a junior (now senior). We were acquaintances at most, but the reason I still think about her is because she's the only girl I legit had a crush on. Not only was she super cute, but she was really funny and I liked her style. I hadn't crushed on someone that much since middle school, and I still haven't since. :/
>>711885520
Don't convince her. Either you don't need to, or you can't.
This post is for all in this thread. Thank all of you faggots. I'm headed to bed. I was kinda down (and still am a little bit) but this is one of those rare threads where we showedd each other we're not the """Internet hate machine""". We're actually more empathetic than any other site I've ever seen. In these unique threads you can feel the emotion. The genuine hurt, loss and pain. You can also see the real condolences folks offer. I love you throat turds. Be safe and keep setting a good example. Thank you for, yet again, helping me through a shite day.
>>711886174
Alright. Let's called this one (Ness)
let see. We meet at work.
Now know what went wrong! There was this dude. I remember her talking to about him.
>Ness. Hey Anon. Ty!<----- Scums name.
(Can you believe this kid was married and trying to score with what I used to call my girlfriend.) Anyways..
>Ness. Hey Anon.
(I used to wait for her after work. Because, I get out earlier then her.)
Always parked our cars next to each other. Then she get in mine. We kissed. More liked. Straight make out! lol Not been cocky... Well! maybe a little. lol
>Ness: Hey Anon.
>Anon: Yeah? What up?
>Ness: Hey. So, get this. Ty wants to be "Our friend?" (inside of me. Our friend? what the fuck)
>Anon: Honesty to god. I was like. "Our friend? Maybe. He wants to be YOUR friend."
(I can see what was going to happen a mile away. But I refuse to believe it. Blind it by love I supposed.)
(But you know, girls can sense insecurities.)
>Anon: O.k. But if I see this kid trying something funny. I'm pulling the plug.
(inside of me. Fuck this kid. Instantly hated him.)
>Ness: O.k! Don't worry nothing happen.
Then we drove off to dinner.
The lasts words, that still! To this days, hunt my dreams...
>>711881215
>Kankerjoden
>>711887984
I hope it's that simple. I haven't thought of anything but this for the longest time.
>gf sleeping right next to me
>still feeling sad as fuck
not sure if its loneliness, or just that feel of pointlessness that seems to follow me whatever i do.. fuck.
I had a friend that I could talk to about anything, was super cool about everything and we had 4 classes together, back to back (with a good chance of getting in the same classes year after year)
But she looked and acted weird. So I distanced myself from her. And then I changed schools. Now I have none of my old friends and she has changed from being in black clothes/nails/everything to being an 8/10 at least and I can't get her back.
I don't have friends at all anymore. I just want Jasmine back.
>>711889287
nigg nogg. Hug her. and kiss her on the face.Then cuddle with her.
>>711889518
This.
If there was ever anything to do, it would be this.
Forever
>>711878626
mackenzie
It's okay, we're better off alone. We're just that type.
>>711889222
If she can't tell you what she wants from you, you're not in a good enough position to figure it out without further information.
Either she wants you to help her be happy and is willing to give you more info, or she wants to jerk you around. If it's anything else, it's her problem, and you're dropping her would do more reparation than would staying.
fuck off nigger and your faggot feelings
>>711878626
Kim
>>711888207
Yr welcome.
We take care of our own, here on /b/
does anyone else get freaked out and extremely sad when thinking about how all humans are separate beings, and how we must all go through life alone? no matter how close we may get to someone, we will always not be completely together. every human must suffer alone, and live there own lives while never being absolutely sure how another human being is feeling.. shit niggers.. everyone is truly in this alone. how to people live with this reality? is this truth the reason why people try and center it all in with drugs/alcohol to dumb themselves down and forget the cruelness and emtiness of life?
>>711889891
Alford?
>>711890033
What would be the problem of being there if she needs me, and then if in time i realize she doesnt need/want me, to eventually move on?
>>711890630
nope
>>711890664
How has she expressed that she needs you?
>>711878820
when your girlfriend is called Olivia, and she's more than perfect.. she means the world to me.
>>711890585
>he do people live with this reality
Take a look at this thread. I'm some random Nepalese basket weaving site some totally random person reached out in the only way he knew how and asked for help. Look at the responses. They're genuine. We're not as alone and seperated as you think. We have each other.
>>711878626
Kimona
>>711890882
Hasn't. And in answering that, i realize i've answered my own question.
How would i get closure though :(
>>711891206
De-programming yourself always hurts.
Some like to say, "It'll get better," but I prefer the more useful statement, "You're going to feel like shit, and that's perfectly natural."
>>711890511
Your Welcome. You know we roll deep.
>>711891206
"cheers" to the lowest point of my emotional life
would you die for her?
>>711890585
I used to.
Then I remembered/let it sink in, how many times this track must have been played before. How many times, someone has struck this chord. How many times, someone has tried to make this chord more real, more pertinent, to grab it by its very nature and make it evident to nature itself, so as to do something... profound, probably.
And despite all that, things are born, and things die. So...
Really, I'm not sad about it, no. The best lesson, is learning that no one has it all right, all the time. Being human, they never could. That's the juxtaposition, the paradox, of the Human mind. T Human condition. Mortality, and the quality of being finite, yet harnessing the power of language, as unwieldy as it may be sometimes. Think: Images. Time immemoral and memorial, all of recorded history. Everything that wasn't recorded.
Wow. You know the saying, To Err Is Human? Well, imagine how many mistakes must have been made, since the first time someone became conscious of even the dirt they stood on.
Countless steps, some of them exactly similar, and yet effably foreign.
It's actually really nice to think about sometimes.
The drug aspect you spoke of has merit, but... everyone has their means. Some? Some have bliss. Some have ignorance, whether it is a blessing, or willful. Some of us just have time. With that time, we make it a step further than screaming at the sky, because it is ultimately a futile task.
And it's been done before.
You can cry, but if you choose to, remember: someone has, someone is, and someone will.
>>711891206
Work on living life without her. Take the initiative so that when the whole thing inevitably finishes collapsing, it won't land on you.
I unfortunately can't advise on achieving closure I have no idea how it works. The end of my relationships have all involved my having to move away.
>>711891747
Not going to lie, that's a heavy prospect.
I still want to have hope though.
I'll just have to bury that way deep
>>711891732
damn.. i didnt expect a response like this.. thank you anon.
>>711891896
Your only hope is escape, best done with friends.
>>711890511
Ty, anon.
>>711892024
I'll keep this in mind.
Hugs to you, anon friend.
>>711891896
Don't do it. Anon is right. Its best to remember and keep it inside. Shit sucks! But hey! You live and learn. I love her. But I always will. I just learning how to coup with it. there is other girl. That I'm kinda talking to. but is not the same. It will never be..
yo i just stumbled into this thread and it seems like there's some real serious bro hugging going on in here
just wanna get in on this shit for a minute guys. i'm drunk and feeling alright, like everything is gonna be ok
cheers my bros, i'm on here with you guys every day and every night
>>711892366
No problem. I'm not used to being heard, so it feels good to help others sort things out.
>>711892513
I don't want to think about other girls, or anything else. I just want to not be so sad and on the verge of tears all the time. It's affected my life too much. I'll always remember, and never forget.
>>711892664
I'm glad I could lend an ear, I've shut most everyone out of my life besides 1 real friend and some family. Your perspective has for real given me some insight. Still hurts, but I do feel better.
>>711876004
I feel you anon, I've been having some girl problems lately too. Never been so depressed in my life. We'll get through it together.
>>711892615
yo take a seat bro.. And share.
>What you drinking?
>>711893296
Double Bastard 2015 Vintage
one of the top 3 best beers i've ever had
highly recommend.
you can get it cheap nowadays, they're coming out with the 2016 Vintage this month and trying to get rid of the old stuff
Im going to get kicked out of the u.s. in about 3 months give or take. I know im a fucking beaner immigrant and you faggots hate me but hear me out. juat need to get this shit of my chest since im drunk and have no real friends to talk about this with. im under daca which president trump has decided to rescind. My question is why the disdain? I was on breitbart and holy shit, did like the gardener bang you wives or something? shit like i know were all racist to an extent but holy shit. Shit a bummer because ive never in my life commited a crime , my weekends consist of sitting in my home drinking some whiskey or scotch, i work 6 days a week and go to school monday through friday. im not some parasite that gets free shit thrown at him. Which is the part that pisses me off the most, where the fuck are you guys getting the notion that we get free shit? Free healthcare, food stamps, free education? Did i miss something? Because all daca did was give me a work permit and a drivers licence hells i cant even vote. Whats the deal guys why do you hate me so? :/ i just want to work and drink my whiskey.
And I thought "I'll go on /b/ for a feels/sad thread"
Boom found one the moment I got on
I woke up really depressed today
Like as if I had a dream that set it off
And it's not the norm but I think everything that's made me depressed has finally closed in
My Dad attempted suicide 5 years ago or so when I was 17
He also moved back to the east coast around 5-6 months ago
When I was 19 I had my first totally fucked relationship
She relapsed on heroin, cheated on me and shortly after I started doing heroin
Needless to say I got my shit together and didn't touch it for a while
Then this year rolled around
Man this year has been fuckin tough
I started doing drugs with this slightly younger chick I started dating
She had a track record with drugs and I kinda did too
Eventually it lead to doing heroin again
I was hooked for 5 months or so
And I relapsed last night after staying away for a month
Here's the thing
She overdosed shortly after the both of us had gotten out of detox/rehab while she was with me
And it was bad
She had a serious stroke and went into a coma, her folks came after me trying to put me in jail, she's recovering but it's horrible. Can't do just about anything without assistance.
Her Dad posts about it on facebook so I read it when I scroll through every other day or so
She doesn't remember much and he puts it into detail her state of pain and sadness
I've cried for hours, I dont know whats wrong with me, I dont work or go to school now, I dont see my friends, I have a tough time still making music which is all I really do
I'm just fucking miserable man and feel so lonely
I've posted here before about my long battle with depression/manic depression and todays a really really rough day
I just cant live like this
Heroin or drinking to cope?
I cant do it anymore
I wanna cry but not alone anymore
I wanna cry into someones arms
Anybody
Hell can it please be someone that cares
I'm just so fuckin tired and scared
>>711893901
Bro its never too late to turn back, let this chick be a lesson that you need to start being a better person. For good this time. Do it for her man be the best person you can be. Whats done is done, learn from it but actually fucking use what you learned. Take care anon.
>>711893622
shits fucked up bro. this country doesn't have an immigration, problem is has a NIGGER problem, and the saddest part is, all the white cucks and white nigger loving whores will back up the niggers to the death
nuttin but love for you bro, hope you can find a way out of this fate man. i know you guys are hard as fuck workers (Hispanics in general) worked witha lot of you over the years
hope you can beat it brother i really do life is fucked sometimes man try and keep positive and maybe something will come through
>>711894398
I've got some advice for all the /b/ros. Life is hard and it never gets easier, but you have to live past the hardships and look toward the light. having someone in life can be helpful, but the only thing that can make you happy is to forgive yourselves. Everybody's caused some pain and hurt someone, with time, everyone can forgive you, but it wont matter if you don't forgive yourself. Happiness is work, but, if only for brief moments, it is all worth it. We all are worth something to someone, value yourself highly.
>>711894738
fuck off lib scum, niggers didn't bring a pizza over on the slave ships
>>711893622
I'm about to listen to some Johnny Cash will doing my Homework and Monitoring this tread.
I feel you bro. I'm also under DACA. And I don't know what going to happen next. oh well.
I pay my tax's, work, I don't have any problems with the law. I go to school... Working on my Bachelors in Math.. Im going to be a Mathematician.
But hey. Let's drink. i with my bros. Regardless of Race, sex, and Political views.
why are going to died. so now of this matters. just enjoy the ride.
>>711894738
lolz.. Just walk away
>>711895663
powerful
>>711893622
>>711895663
Mah niggas, I'm under DACA too! gang we out here
>>711879705
You're full of shit. Man up.
Don't give a shit about other people.
>>711895876
hey... here you go bro.
>>711893622
As far as I've seen, Trump isn't actually going to push for any mass deportation while President.
>>711895663
>>711895876
I take solace in the fact we'll take our tequila and tacos with us. Here's to you bros
