Can we have a feels thread?music and tell us your story
I spent 4 hours today making a bigass batch of golabki and nobody liked it.
>>710926312
cabbage rolls are disgusting
>>710926558
do you like ematballs? hamburgers? it's the same thing but wrapped up in a leaf. they were good
>>710926628
the only thing i want my meat wrapped up in is pussy lol
that aside, lettuce > cabbage
>>710926855
lettuce is better raw but cooked, cabbage is king
>>710927213
what can i say... i like it raw
Jonny Craig always helps me feel.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VcqFSOOJK6Q
If some anon would be as nice as to share that pic of the muslim with the bazooka that says
>Hard times friend ahead
>maybe no computer
>maybe no home
I'll be grateful
Here's my thanks in advance as well
>>710927977
This is nice. I didn't know JC had made a new solo album. I didn't totally hate Slaves' first album but the second one sucks whore water. This is breddy good though. I dread his inevitable OD.
hi, guys, what's got you all down, today? I don't have much to offer, except my time and attention. for a short while, if any. :)
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=O3bfRBassAQ
just got broken up with by gf of 2 years.
>>710927977
not avalible :l
>https://soundcloud.com/jamar/product-of-your-mind-1
Not trying to push my shit out there, but this song has kinda been on my mind because it describes the first time I was truly heartbroken over a woman.
>>710928792
Shit man. That sucks
>>710928457
Never heard of/seen that pic but I googled what you wrote and found it.
>>710928792
Sorry Bro
>>710928792
.gif - for real..?
>>710928792
Damn. I wasn't ready for this
>>710928792
>>710928792
Wow. Looks like I'm drinking tonight
>>710928792
God damn. This is depressing
>>710928792
Isn't that Elena B?????
Sorry man
>>710928792
Fag
>>710928887
That's some entitled neckbeardy faggot shit.
>>710928792
FUCK
>>710928792
Ah Hell.
That shit sucks man. Sorry
>>710928792
Fuck
>>710925258
Yeah I got one
>>710928792
bitch ass nigger dawg
OP here , with my shit story
first time with the girl i loved for 4 years , 2 month ago (she is 8 years older than me 24-32) , we were supposed going out when she had free time , because she study and work ....but in the last weeks , i see she has a boyfriend , a lot of pictures of different places and days...and i dont know if she had a boyfriend 2 month ago , or just now in the last month... and i feel so useless right now , like no one will love me ever, i never had a girlfriend , only some girls out there. but never had sex before ...
>mfw i ask her via whatsapp , and she dont care about me
i am alone 6 days in my house just wanting to kill myself, i dont have a motive to live appart of my mom, because she cant survive in her own
a lot of problems , not only her
no work, no friends, no shit....
i´ve posted it before...i m posting again , i just want a reason to not kill myself tonight , my mom is coming back tomorrow...so idk
>>710925258
what is this movie
>>710926312
Rusbro?
>>710929455
Too blurry to read.
>>710928887
It isnt about sex, its about a connection.
>>710929452
nah brah, Polski-Amerykański
>>710929184
Every goddamn time I visit 4chan you faggots have a new cancerous trend. How is nobody tired of these reply to things yet?
>>710928858
I feel lame now
But thanks
I will go way but we are two of soul
>>710929756
>>710929875
Sleep tight meller. :)
>>710928679
Wife left. 3 years married, 10 years together before that. Don't worry, Anon, the answer to getting her back is at the bottom of one of these bottles.
This happened last week...
>be me
>19 yo kissless betafag
>have a crush on a 8/10 girl
>been wanting to confess to her for a while, especially because she said she liked me too
>finally have enough guts to tell her I love her
>holyshitdoingit.job
>take her somewhere quiet, near a lake
>I tell her how I feel about her
>she walks away as fast as she could, nearly crying seemed like
Fast forward past the weekend
>be me
>confused af because she's been ignoring me
>hear some people talking about couples
>they drop a friend's name and the girl's name
>interest intensifies
>I ask them about it
>apparently, two hours before I confessed to senpai, a friend asked her out
>apparently she said yes
>my hopes of ever getting close to someone have been shattered, it's not the first time this has happened
Okay, /b/ it's about time I tell my story, I'm tired of keeping it in.
>The beginning of my life wasn’t terrible, but there were times it was difficult.
>I grew up without a father, which isn’t a life-ender, it’s just an inconvenience.
>Knowing that you won’t have a father to look up to, to play catch with, to talk to, there were times it was rough on me, but I managed.
>My mother was extremely underappreciated because unfortunately at the time, I was a stupid kid who only knew how to get in trouble.
>She single-handedly raise my brother and I on low-income.
>I was quite the trouble maker—a pyromaniac.
>I used to set a lot of things on fire, and I used to steal simple things like candy from stores.
>Fast-forward in my life to age nine; this is when things started going from bad to worse.
>I had trouble paying attention in school, and I was getting absolutely none of my work done.
>My mother was starting to worry about me, so she took me to a therapist.
>I was prescribed some medicine to help me focus.
>The medication didn’t work so we went back to the therapist and they increased the dosage.
>It still didn’t work so they increased it again.
>It was at this point I started feeling like I was going to die at night, before I went to bed.
>This happened every night so we went back and the therapist said it was just a side-effect that would go away if they increased the dose one more time.
>Of course, my mother was questionable about this but we had no other choice, so they increased the dose once more.
>It was at this point I began having full-blown panic attacks every single night before I went to sleep.
>If you’ve never had a panic attack before, you know just how awful it is.
>>710929875
And they always get a shitton of replies too. Goddamn I hate the internet these days.
>>710930259
Continued
>Your heart-rate skyrockets, you feel as if you were dropped in a pit of flames and a frozen lake at the same time.
>You can feel the blood rushing to your head, and you can feel the color being wiped off of your body until you go completely pale.
>You start feeling scared at the thought of everything, and you feel completely helpless—nothing can save you.
>My mother was furious and took me off of the medication, but I still had panic attacks.
>Something with the medicine made it permanent.
>Every night for the next two years I would have full-blown panic attacks, crying and wailing, believing this would be the night I was going to die.
>One night, when I was eleven, I woke up in the middle of the night, and I couldn’t get back to sleep without the help of my mother because I was starting to get panicky at just the thought of sleep.
>I walked into my mother’s room to wake her up so she could help me get back to sleep.
>She didn’t respond.
>I kept trying but she didn’t wake up.
>The next thing I knew I was just standing there, crying, watching the paramedics put my mother on a stretcher and into an ambulance.
>I was taken to the hospital along with my brother.
>My brother is six years older than me and I’ve never seen him cry before.
>I was wondering around the waiting room whilst crying, and then I noticed my brother, the only other person I trusted and cared about, was crying.
>Even he was helpless.
>There I was, just an eleven year old kid who was helplessly dependent on his mother, wandering around, crying my eyes out.
>>710929549
i have a story like this,except she was a mean bitch and she is gone now.
>>710925258
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-gmd1HVGBzk
I was called a newfag today
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>>710930221
holy shit boorrriinggggggggggggggg
>>710930349
>Finally, the moment came when the doctor came back out.
>We could both tell by the expression on his face that they were unable to revive her.
>Our mother’s fiancé, my brother, and I were taken into a small room to talk about her and discuss our options.
>Our mother’s fiancé ended up becoming our legal guardian.
>He didn’t really bother us or anything, and by that I mean he kind of avoided us.
>He was there if we needed anything, but I never had the courage to ask for help on anything, and he had a night shift job and a part-time day-job so he was gone a lot.
>It was at this point I was really hopeless.
>I began having panic attacks until I literally passed out, every single night.
>I would’ve gone to my brother for help but he was always away with his friends.
>I got tired of just waking up, going to school just to fail, coming home just to stare at a wall, and have a panic attack before going back to sleep.
>This is when I started to look for a hobby.
>That’s when I started getting interested in computers and the Internet.
>Just the thought that I could anonymously express my true self, and that others would accept me made me feel at home.
>I started browsing the Internet and I was getting pretty good at it, too.
>I eventually found the Deep Web, which is where most of the Internet hangs around, but search engines like Google or Yahoo can only pick up around twenty-percent of the entire Internet.
>You cannot search on the Deep Web, you can only explore, and you need a special search engine, as well.
>Eventually, I started getting pretty good at navigating the Deep Web.
>>710928792
come in maan
>>710930349
Continued
>I stumbled on to a red room, which is a site where people live-stream themselves torturing other people and animals.
>This site wasn’t a normal red room, it was severely more fucked up.
>When I got onto the site, I saw there were people tied up in a basement, and they were literally fucking tearing limbs off of a little girl’s dog and cutting off the little girl’s arms so they could stitch the dog’s limbs where hers were.
>It didn’t take long to realize these people were professionals and have been doing this for a long time.
>I saw a chat box, so naturally I begged the fuck out of them to stop.
>I typed faster than I had ever typed in my entire life.
>That was the second worst decision I have ever made in my entire life.
>Literally within fucking seconds they managed to get every single piece of information about my life.
>They started laughing about how my father left my brother and I.
>Then they started laughing about how my mother died.
>I was about to exit but they said if I left, my family was going to be their next victims.
>After they said that they typed out a list of all of the names of everyone in my family, followed by their address. >I was scared shitless.
>To give you an idea of how horrific their little fucking “show” was, the “nicest” torture they ever did, while I was watching, was slowly rip off the skin of a father’s skin, right in front of his son, then they fucking started fucking playing around with his nerves.
>Luckily, it only lasted two hours.
>And I say "luckily" because most of their tortures were worse than that and went on for six to twelve hours.
>I still remember the screams of all of the people that were tortured, sometimes when something goes wrong, I hear them all shouting in my head, almost to the point you think something would make you deaf, only I cannot cover my ears to save me.
>They made me come back for every single show, which was once a week.
>>710925258
well ill tell my story, i was a crab fisher from the age of 27-34 so ill tell the story of my best friend max. ill follow suit with adonis and will be calling myself Glaucus the fishermans sea god during my story. cont.
>>710926312
what is golabki?
>>710928811
with some proper production I think you got something mang. Unique vocals, I got my shovel out and I'm diggin it
>>710930526
>be me 5
>moved around 700 miles to a rural northern town
>kindergarten
>get sat next to a kid named Max
>instantly clicked as friends
>liked the same cartoons, played the same classic vidya
>feelsgoodman
>we got older and were always close friends
>we grew up together and went to different colleges
> straight out of college i went back to my home town
>Max dropped out after his mother was diagnosed with Sarcoma
>Stayed with her for 2 years until she passed away.
>the day after she lost her battle
>we sat on the couch watching football and getting drunk
>the man i saw sitting next to me was much different from the one i grew up with
>he was utterly defeated
>he couldn't cry
>he was in shock of what happened to his mother
> he sat there staring at the TV
>just drinking
>he asked me something which i wont forget
> "Glaucus what do i do now? Im broke, shes gone, and i don't have a degree."
> i responded in the one way i could "I dont know"
>we sat there silently for a few hours.
>we clung to each play, the only thing keeping us sane.
>in the morning, he said he said " I need to get away from here"
>the house was on the market for a little over a month
>max had moved to a port town hundreds of miles away
>one day i got a call from him
>asks me to come down to where he is
>so knowing what hes been through, i took leave from my office and flew to max the next day.
>at this point i was an attorney had taken on a couple of cases.
>when i arrived i was met with a man who was different
>he had been going to the gym, but lived in a disheveled house
>he told me he had been contracted as a crab fisher, and was asked to supply crabs.
>max invited me and the company got a few other people.
>long story short i knew i had to be there for my friend so i did what i thought was right
>i quit my job as an attorney and joined Max in his fishing.
cont?
>>710928792
Cunt
>>710930633
>after joining him life was pretty simple
>for around 7 years
>i got up
>Went to the pier
>fished
>Went home and got piss drunk
>throughout this time Max always seemed distant
>since we lived in the same house i discovered his "secret"
>he was taking one prescription antidepressant and four illegally obtained ones
>he never did get better but i always stayed with him
>one particular day there was a hurricane a few hundred miles over
>We thought it was just a tropical storm
>something we had dealt with before
>no cause for alarm or drama
>so Max, the crew, and I. went to the pier and headed towards open waters.
>We casted our nets and waited
>we sat there in the turbulent waters for a few hours
>this was until the storm hit
>the waves became immensely larger
>and the sky rained ferociously
>we drew our nets in and put the crabs away as we got ready to head back to port
>a particularly big wave knocked us sideways and almost capsized us. we were all almost okay.
>Except for one the companies fisherman, a man named Eddy.
>Eddy was the most reliable person on our crew
>he was there whenever you needed him, he was a jack of all trades in a sense, nicest and perhaps most caring man i met.
>eddy had been rocked to the side of the boat and hit his head, he was knocked out
>once we got our bearings back, we rushed eddy to the ships interior, and began trying to head for port
>not long after a second wave hit.
>This wave capsized us
>Our ship sunk before me
>i rushed under the ship to grab Eddy
>the ship was too far gone to grab him
>Eddy drowned when he was knocked out.
>however i never saw max
>he had simply vanished
>max was gone
>my thoughts all raced to him dying
>when i reached shore, everyone aside from eddy was there
>we got treated for minor injuries and went to Eddies funeral.
>this broke the camels back
>My friend max snapped
>He became a depressed and true alcoholic
>he blamed himself for eddy's death
>he had gone over the deep end
cont?
>>710930525
Continued
>They usually had anywhere from two to twelve people on, per show.
>Some people were just people that have been getting tortured from the previous week’s show, like leaving someone nailed to a wall until they starved, with all sorts of extra fucking unnecessary fucking horrific shit done to them.
>I got sick to my stomach so many times that I had developed Acid Reflux, which is where the acid in your stomach can’t stay down so it starts burning our esophagus.
>These people knew exactly what the fuck they were doing.
>They had a doctor that seemed like he knew every single bone, every single muscle, every single nervous cord, and every single fucking vein in the body.
>They had what I assume was a psychologist that literally just rolled out in an office chair, whispered something into someone’s ear, and they would start screaming like a fucking maniac.
>I assume they had a fucking hacker that got all of my information, and I also assume they had skilled fucking kidnappers, to this day I still wonder how the fucking fuck they managed to bring on six to eight new people every fucking show, and leave almost no trace of their death.
>I couldn’t talk to anyone for help, and I couldn’t kill myself, even though I wanted to, really badly.
>I started cutting myself, hoping it would stop some of the emotional pain, which it did.
>I was beyond traumatized at this point.
>My only escape from reality was learning, so every day I could I tried to learn something new.
>A few months later, there was someone in the chat that had told them to stop forcing me to watch.
>I was confused as shit, it was the first time anyone had ever tried to help me.
>>710930530
Gołąbki [ɡɔˈwɔmpki] is a cabbage roll common in Polish cuisine made from lightly soft-boiled cabbage leaves wrapped around minced pork or beef, chopped onions, and rice or barley, which are baked in a casserole dish and are usually served with a creamy tomato sauce.
(sometimes anglicized as "golumpki")
it's one of those nice traditional comfort foods
>>710930013
Meh, as long as she's happy. I'll find another someday and I'll be happy too.
>>710930769
Continued
>They ended up paying over a hundred Bitcoins to make them stop.
>Bitcoins are a cryptocurrency, it’s nearly untraceable and each Bitcoin was around two-hundred and fifty dollars at that time, if I remember correctly.
>At this point, I was confused shitless, lost, traumatized, and scared.
>This person literally helped me get my life back on track, and for what?
>I was worthless.
>They helped me with my emotional problems, my trauma, my physical problems, school, relationships, and more.
>I never did anything for them, so I was very confused.
>Before they left my life, they told me to help everyone that I could, no matter what.
>They also told me that I would do something great.
>And I say “they” because I still don’t know if they are male or female.
>>710930844
Sounds pretty good.
>>710930769
Continued
>About a month later, school started.
>In my last period class, history, I sat one seat to the right, and one seat in front of a girl named Kate.
>She was so beautiful.
>I ended up looking back at her often because I couldn’t take my eyes off of her.
>Eventually she started noticing that I was looking at her, and then she started looking at me more often as well.
>After the first week of school, I really wanted to meet her, but I didn’t have the courage to.
>On the ninth day of school, Kate rolled up the sleeve on her sweatshirt to scratch her arm, but I noticed she had cut marks.
>I saw my chance to talk to her, but I also wanted to help her.
>I tried to talk to her after class but she just scoffed and walked away.
>She looked at me a lot the next day, and I tried to talk to her again after class.
>This time, she stayed a little longer before walking off.
>The next day, I finally got her to talk to me.
>Her mother was never home, and when she was, she was always extremely rude to her.
>On top of that, she had Social Anxiety, Depression, and more.
>I started trying to hang out with her—at first she was hesitant, but she agreed.
>I showed her my cuts, and how I got them.
>We started hanging out every day and we got closer every day.
>I was really, really, really, really starting to fall in love her.
>I started to help her with her emotional and physical problems.
>Kate was really sweet.
>I decided it was in the best interest of both of us if we started to exercise.
>I talked to her about it and we started to go on walks at night.
>>710928858
Newfangled
Fuck it homos I'll greentext, tell me how fucked I am?
>Normal kid. Lower income household but never went without. Live out in the sticks
>Pretty average, 2 girlfriends, 0 sex by 17
>Best friend and I at a party, 17 years, 2 months old
>Best friend and I playing pool. He stops his shot. Looks at me and then falls ontop of me
>He died that morning
>Too stubborn for quacks. Friend did some Antidepressants and walked into traffic. I don't want.
>Pretty fucked up. Go to local Uni. Can't make friends. Get picked on. I was a fattie
>Fuckit, change of scenery, go to a different uni, in a city a few hrs away.
>Make friends.
>Undergrad fine. Not that hard. Still a bunch of friends.
>Decide for Masters. Do masters. It's not easy. I lose ~40-50kg's (Now ~60kg)
>No job prospects. Currently doing a PhD on a scholarship. Exceedingly depressed, despite getting everything a young me wanted.
How do I get the wimmins /b/? And will that make me happy?
>>710929285
Maybe you won't belive it but dude, if you do that you'll hurt so many people, everyone, no matter who, has someone who loves you, dude, life keeps going, and you my friend must keep going with it, eventually it will get better, stay alive, it's worth it, ok?
>>710930675
cont
>>710931177
>Max went off the grid, and i went back to being an attorney
>he showed up where i worked piss drunk one day
>he told and yelled at me "Eddy is gone because of me, i could have saved him, why didn't i?
>i stayed with him for the next few months, one day Max decided he had enough.
>On June 9th Max committed Suicide
>he left two notes one for me, and one for everyone else
>the note to everyone read
"Im guilty, i wasnt even able to save one of my closest friends. So why i should i be allowed to live knowing he didn’t. I hate this world."
>The note he left me was as follows
"Thank you Glaucus, you were my first and last friend. i am sorry i had to leave so soon, but my memories with you were the only happy ones i have. Glaucus until we meet again -Max"
I know i could have saved Max but i wasn't able to, im sorry my friend.
>>710931022
Continued
>Kate was afraid of the dark but she felt safe when she was with me.
>I wasn’t afraid of anything, mainly because after the shit that happened to me in my past, but also because being with Kate made me feel a trillion times stronger.
>Kate’s life started getting worse because her Depression was worsening.
>I told her I would stay the night with her to make sure she was okay.
>I sat on a chair in her room.
>I was on my laptop while she was sleeping.
>Before she fell asleep, I was giving her some tips so she could feel better and she said they were helping a little bit.
>Eventually I started staying the night every night. I wanted to make sure she was okay.
>And also, Kate wanted me there.
>As we got more and more personal, I started sleeping in her bed with her, nothing sexual, just for comfort.
>We were both twelve, anyways.
>I was actually really surprised because I had gotten four hours of sleep that night.
>Usually, I would only have gotten about an hour a week and meditated.
>It’s almost impossible for me to sleep because of my Insomnia.
>When I slept with Kate I got lots of sleep.
>It was kind of nice, actually.
>I started getting six hours of sleep every night, and we continued to get more and more personal with each other, she started telling me some secrets of hers and stuff like that.
>I really hated to read but I read four six-hundred paged textbooks on massage just so I could give Kate a massage, just so she would feel better.
>Whenever Kate was happy, I was the happiest person in existence.
>I never told her this but when I was giving her a massage, I would always tear up because just the thought of how happy she was made me so happy.
>After that, we started hugging and cuddling more often.
>I was in paradise and so was she.
>>710930975
they are if you get it right. i just needed to add salt and all the flavors were really popping. but telling everyone "oh just add salt" doesn't quite work I guess.
>bored
>always
>>710928792
Sad!
>>710931231
>I remember one time when I went over to her house.
>I had just walked right in because she told me I didn’t have to knock, as nobody else was home anyways.
>I was walking over to her room but her door was closed, I could hear her crying.
>I asked her to open the door but she just kept crying.
>I picked the lock on her door and ran in there and put my arms around her, looked her in the eyes, and asked her what was wrong.
>She said her mother had hit her.
>We both didn't want to contact child support or anything because that would mean she couldn't be with me and deeply cared about each other too much to be apart.
>I also noticed that she was cutting her forearms and thighs with a pen.
>I took all of her sharp objects away so she used a pen.
>I was worried about ink poisoning so I tried to calm her down as quickly as I could.
>I managed to calm her down in less than five minutes. I then rushed her into the bathroom.
>I started drawing water for a bath while she got undressed. I put some soap in the water so it would start forming bubbles.
>I did this because even though we were very comfortable with each other and she knew I would never do anything that would harm her or only make her situation worse, I knew there could always that feeling of awkwardness.
>I washed off her forearms while talking to her, but I made her wash off her thighs because with all the bubbles I wouldn’t be able to see where my hand was, you get the idea.
>When she was done, I got her a towel and I looked away as she dried off and got dressed while I was talking to her.
>Later, I noticed her mother was failing to provide her with basic necessities like tampons, healthy food, water not from a faucet, and medicine.
Well fuck me right?
Stood in the train tracks and waited
>>710931306
bruv you gotta find a hobby that gets you motivated. what do want to enjoy doing? going outdoors? tinkering with technology? woodwork? drawing/painting? there's gotta be something productive to do that you can really get into.
playing video games and listening to music and browsing the web don't count. that's just consuming shit, not creating or producing anything. you gotta find something to do that creates something.
I fucked up /b/ros
>>710930221
No, dude, it's not boring at all, man, I've been trough that a LOT of times, and belive me, emotions like love and hate can make you blind even to the point of not seeing a reason to live anymore, dude, there are more girls, and if she liked you, someone else might like you in the future, just hold on ok? wait for your big moment, good luck! :)
>>710930013
Fuck. Fuck. That hurts
>>710928792
fuck off
>>710929184
fuck off
>>710931502
thanks man, very true stuff
>>710929184
omg..
Any /b/ros got some advice for the heartbroken?
>>710928792
Fuck off
>>710928792
publicly kill yourself
>>710931447
bumping for story
>>710929184
Faggot
>>710928792
Fug
I've besically given up on living life
I have tried being normal and fitting in for 25 years now and I'm getting nowhere
I've never had a great family, never had money, never had friends, never had any sort of skill or profession, never had gf or anything else you'll see normal people have.
And believe me when I say that I've tried changing, I've tried every trick in the book and now I'm just sick of trying and not getting anywhere.
I'm gonna just try to stay alive until I die
I keep telling myself that everything will be okay once my time on earth is over. That when I die I will live in an utopia in the afterlife where I can experience everything and live the life I was unable to live here on earth.
I know most people think that just bullshit but everyone believes in somthing regardless of how stupid it sounds just to make themselves feel better.
>>710926855
>the only thing i want my meat wrapped up in is pussy lol
Kekekekek
>>710929184
Again fug
>>710930383
Care to tell it?
>>710932688
why not?
>>710929285
i feel you man.
seems like you have a nice mom. please do not leave her.
look for things that you enjoy doing and you'll have fun in life. i can assure you that.
>>710931500
bro same guy from last nights thread. did she tell you why ? was that big marshmallow guy more than a friend ?
>>710932814
I will shove my foot up your cracker ass the shove a maxi pad in your mouth you bitch
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ycng4kpmAYA
>>710930526
kek I was just wondering if someone was going to post this
dump
>>710928858
It's from a greentext originaly
>>710925258
I'm pretty fucking tired of nothing working out. I know it could be worse but damn, this all lately has been terrible
>>710933332
>>710932845
I don't even know why still she left in the first time but this time she said she wasn't ready or something like that.
Big marshmillow guy is probably fwb
>be me
>23
>celebrating my 10 year anniversary
>buy arm and leg restraints
>enjoy a night of her on back and night of me on my back
>mention I didn't get to enjoy her on her front
>tells me it should be anal
>MFW
>>710933393
>>710929710
może chujowe były
>>710933401
sorry to hear bro ik you like her but this is somewhat good you have time to focus on yourself might have some heartbreak right now but try and redirect it to things that help you like the gym or something
>>710928792
>.<
>>710929285
well , i just talked to this girl again, and she just tell me ... the idea of that night was just sex,fun night,etc.. nothing else ...she never cared about me but said it with nice words....so , my first time was a one night more for this girl she always wanted just "fun" with me
>>710931130
>>710932814
The only person who will cry for me is my mom , no real friends and my mom and me r like the black sheep of the family , im alive just for her...but right now i dont care anymore... buy sushi to eat tonight and just throw it away while talking to the girl
>>710931447
>I was feeling pretty trapped with money at this point, so I sold my one and only laptop so I could buy a phone for Kate and myself.
I got us both the same phone.
>From there, I started trying to find ways to make money so I could help Kate.
>I needed a job that didn’t require me to be away from Kate, as I knew she needed me and I needed her.
>I discovered that coding jobs pay fairly high, I don’t have to go to a building to work, and I can choose when I work as long as I get the job done.
>I started learning how to code, but in the meantime I sold everything else I had.
>I sold my television, my Wii, my PlayStation, and my bike.
>After coding with an application on my phone for a while, I managed to get enough money to get Kate some healthy food to eat, some tampons, clean water, and medicine.
>I also got myself a new laptop.
>Every night, Kate and I would go on a walk, stare into each others' eyes, talk, plan our future out, watch movies and videos, cuddle, and sleep together.
>We didn’t stare into each others' eyes for long, though.
>We would sit across from one-another, and hold each others' hands, and just stare into each others' eyes, but I always ended up tearing up because of how beautiful and perfect she was, that’s why it didn’t last long.
>Kate was my world and I was Kate’s world. Life was perfect.
>One day I noticed she had cracked the screen on her phone, but she was too afraid to tell me because it was brand new.
>I remember it like it was yesterday. :)
>I looked her directly in the eyes, and I told her: “It is okay, Kate. Accidents happen and I don’t want you to ever be afraid to tell me anything, okay?”
>I hugged her and then I took her phone for a few minutes.
>I took the screen off of our phones.
>I then put the glass from her phone on my phone and the glass from my phone on her phone so I had the broken screen.
>I gave it back to her and told her what I did.
pic is Kate @ 13 sleeping
>>710932814
Dude, you are a real nice person, hope he reads it :)
>>710933676
I was thinking about that, I'm way under weight, might as well delete all social media, change my number all that and just start a new
Maybe one day become an alpha poon slayer
>>710933856
>She said she didn’t want me to have a phone with broken glass so I told her it was okay, doing that was important to me and that I would order another glass screen soon.
>She kissed me on the cheek and thanked me.
>I was so happy. A few weeks after that, we were on summer break. Even though she never needed it, I always secretly carried an extra water bottle, just in case.
>I guess I should’ve carried a charger with me, too.
>We were walking late at night, and her phone died, but I always made sure I had at least three percent left, in case of an emergency.
>My phone was on three percent.
>I told Kate not to worry.
>When I was younger, my mom had told me to always carry at least twenty dollars with me at all times, in case I got lost.
>This came in handy.
>Thanks, mom – even though you can’t hear me...
>We went into a store, but they didn’t have any portable chargers or adapters, and the charger I had with me was a Universal Serial Bus (USB) charger.
>I had an idea.
>I bought a remote control car, some AA batteries, scissors, and a screwdriver.
>I whipped up a make-shift portable charger with those four items within five minutes.
>I totally wasn’t trying to show off to Kate. (lie)
>The reason we didn’t just walk back to her house was because our walks were long.
>We were about thirty minutes from her house.
>>710930280
facebook generation. they do as they're told to fit in
>>710932454
>That when I die I will live in an utopia in the afterlife where I can experience everything and live the life I was unable to live here on earth.
I wish
I got told today that she had to rethink her recent decisions, and we needed to slow down.
She changed her mind later and said we have to break it off completely, we're not compatible, she has fears, etc.
Oh, and the last one, a divorce, had been cheating with some chad behind my back after a four year marriage.
I'm beginning to think I'm going nowhere fast with women.
>>710928792
Dammit
>>710929285
At least you know what love is.
I have a successful career, a wife and two kids who I love dearly, and I am really close to throwing it all away to throw myself at a coworker chick who is married herself. We both avoid each other and turn red faced when we are in a room together. My coworker friends always say, what the fuck was that, it's like there isn't another person alive when we are around each other. She fucking drives me crazy.
There is no way to win, just pain.
>>710925258
know that feel anon.
>>710930560
I appreciate it a lot, man.
I had to close my bank acct because they were trying to take my last 5 bucks via monthly fees. No job, 1 friend, and no one to talk to except via imageboard. I live in bfe with no car, and people that do nothing but talk shit about me and everyone else.
>I dont like waking up in the morning anymore.
>>710934040
>Eventually Halloween came and Kate had never gotten to go Trick or Treating before.
>I got her a panda costume and I dressed up as a Tyrannosaurus Rex.
>She managed to get way more candy than I did somehow, but she shared with me
>When Thanksgiving came, I felt bad because Kate never had a Thanksgiving dinner before.
>I always had to go to my grandpa’s house for Thanksgiving, but I told my guardian and my brother that I had to work on a school project.
>My guardian was hesitant at first, and asked a lot of questions, but I somehow managed to lie my way out of Thanksgiving.
>I ran over to Kate’s and spent the day with her.
>We didn’t have a big Thanksgiving dinner, but I made sure she was happy. I was happy.
>After Thanksgiving, Christmas was coming up and I found out Kate had never had a Christmas, either.
>I felt really bad for her.
>I was going to get her a Christmas present but she begged me not to and she said spending the day with me would be more than enough.
>She was so adorable about it.
>I wasn’t expecting her to get me a Christmas present, hell being with her was better than Christmas, but she drew me a picture of a Tyrannosaurus Rex.
>I still have it.
>We were still going on our walks in the winter, but Kate was pretty clumsy, it was adorable. >She had a really thick winter coat that she looked like she could barely move her arms in but she told me it was comfy.
>Kate loved the snow.
>I was really weird about weather and I was still wearing shorts.
>One day the sidewalks were iced over but she didn’t want to skip out on our walk.
>She kept slipping and falling, but I always caught her.
>I don’t know why, but it was nice.
>I guess I thought it was nice because I got to prove to her that I was always there for her.
>>710934248
>710934248
the only real love i know is from my mother , never had a girlfriend or someone who really care about me.
at this time there r 2 ways out...pills for years , or a bullet in the head
>>710933898
yeah bro im going through a tough break up and im trying to better myself or atleast redirect the pain i hope it works
>>710932752
the story of my first love:
Chapter one
i always had confidince,but back then i was an ugly faggot who believed that i would be with my dream girl.
one summer night i saw her,the very first moment i saw her i knew that she was the one for me.i just went up and talked to her.well i was right,we had same taste in everything.
btw shes my first,literally and back then i knew nothing about flirting so i was spilling spaghetti everywhere.
>fast forward to first date
we went to the beach,then she said that she would hurt me
Then i spilled spaghetti
>"i will love you no matter what you do"
yup,but i was 15 back then,and i believed that it would be like in the movies.
>on our third she tells me she has a boyfriend.
i kept my promise,and loved her,not caring about the friendzone.
should i cont?
>>710934731
>Later my birthday came and Kate drew me a space shuttle, which I still have.
>I hugged her for it.
>It was awesome.
>Later that month, I had gotten sick, which was strange because usually my immune system is able to rape any bacteria imaginable, I hadn’t gotten sick in I think four or five years.
>Kate took care of me.
>She was so sweet, she checked up on me a bunch, she held my hand when I was too “bleh” to get out of bed, she brought me food, she even took my temperature.
>I got better in a week.
>After that, every night, I would start telling Kate just how important she was to me.
>Unfortunately I couldn’t truly express just how important she was to me, as that would be incomprehensible.
>>710928792
Nigga stop
>>710934785
I've just been snorting a lot of oxy and drinking a lot more
Really helps ease the pain
>>710934731
Dude nobody gives a fuck about your lame as fuck attempt to be a writer. Your writing sucks,your story line is boring and you should cut to the end where you kill yourself.
>>710934883
dude where the fuck is this story going? get to the fucking point already
>>710933791
I know the feeling, I really loved a girl, but the kind of love that you would do literally anything for that one and only person, but one day, we decided to go to the movie theater and everything seemed fine, we actually ended up kissing and held hands for the rest of the movie which were for like 1 hour, and after that, she told me she wasn't looking for a relationship and she just said "Don;t wait for me" she said that in the worst way possible, she absolutely broke all my illusions and i considered killing myself since i felt that nobody was going to cry for me, and that they would actually be happy that I was dead, but I decided to keep going at least for a while, and so I told a freind of mine that showed me a kind of compassion that I never imagined, I felt alive again, and even tho I dont like her, I consider her the girl that actually saved me from the dead, the point is that you must find someone or something that keeps you on the track of life no matter what, the kind of people like you (the ones that actually have the courage to talk about it) are the best, and let me tell you, you are going to accomplish something great someday and this will only be a bad drink, I can promise you that, it's okay, life get's better if you look for a reason, try to smile or at least try to think about all your good memories, there's only one life, and you are going to make it great for you and everybody who knows you, We're here for you :)
>>710929184
STOP IT NIGGA
>>710933352
greentext is pretty cool, tbh. maybe i can find it.
>A Guy in TF2 talking on the mic with a thick arab accent,
>"You all go now. Go to fight the bad. I stay defend. They no get past. I stay. you go tight. I alone stay for to defend. Take their box. I stay."
>someone tells him to shut the fuck up
>I tell them to shut the fuck up and let him talk if he wants (because I think he’s funny to listen to)
>he adds me
>every fucking game I play with him he does the exact same shit
>"I am Tank. I wait by helicopter. You kill. I won’t let through. You kill. Boomer man, go vomit. I alone guard helicopter. You go.”
>“You put portal there. Good. I wait. You discover answer. I know answer. Keep portal there. I will put portal when need. Keep putting portal. Good. Do you see? I wait. You put portal. Good.”
>just talking non-stop every fucking game we play
>arab spring starts
>I have no idea where he lives
>one day he sends me a message
>“bad times friend ahead”
>“maybe no computer”
>“maybe no home”
>“I will go way but we are two of soul”
>“I will return”
>
>
> Last Online: 615 days ago
>>710928792
literally go fuck yourself in the urethra with a rusty harpoon
>>710928457
Actually, I should have replied to this post with >>710935339
>>710934883
i like the story so far
>>710934998
>>710935077
chill the fuck out
>be 23
>over the past 4 years had some girlfriend but never for a few months
>still virgin but at least had a blowjob once
>every girl I ever dated cheated on me which is why I dropped them right after finding out
>randomly a really good friend from highschool who I haven't talked to in 5 years texted me by mistake (texted wrong number)
>start talking
>she is 5'3 and 96 pounds but actually still somehow has an ass
>find out she is single, decide to not be beta and convince her to date me because I used to have a major crush on her in highschool but was too shy to ever make anything of it
>find out that im her first boyfriend, she is still a virgin
>she is 6 months older than me
>we have been dating for 2 months now, things are going great, we have so many common interests and the sex is amazing.
>she tells me last night "that time I accidentally texted you, that wasn't an accident."
>tfw I won at life
>>710935498
>>she tells me last night "that time I accidentally texted you, that wasn't an accident."
almost got hard on this
>>710934965
personally bro idt drugs are a great thing they do more harm than good for me but try not to get to dependent on them
>>710926312
First I love those things, 10/10 would eat
>>710935089
i dont even have that friend ,that can save me....my best friend is the guy with i play videogames...
i always thinked in pay to a slut...for my first time , at least i dont have feeling with that
and sorry for my shit english , i cant think properly in this right moment
>>710935891
I'd rather be dependent on drugs then a whore
>>710934883
I did everything with Kate.
>Years went by, we still loved each other very much.
>Unfortunately one night I was a fucking idiot and wasn't paying attention to my phone.
>Kate needed me.
>She used to drink, but I had convinced her to stop.
>She texted me she was going to get one more drink.
>I wasn't paying attention so I just texted back "ok".
>Kate was hit and killed by a car later that night.
>I still can't forgive myself.
>I cut myself because of that.
>I still cut myself sometimes because of that.
>Every night I sit up alone and cry to myself.
>I wonder if life will get any better.
>It's only getting worse, but I'm trying my best to turn it around.
>Last month I started to try online dating.
>Haven't found anyone, yet.
>Until then, I will lay down on my bed every night, crying.
>>710934880
basically she was a broken girl,and i tried to fix her up.obv didnt work out.i was friendzoned more times than johnny sins ever fucked.
>fast forward eight months
being the little faggot i am,i started a fight with her bf.
good news:i finally gave up
>fast forward 3 years
i stopped dreaming,became a solid 8/10,became a musician and started get pussy
>fast forward to 2 days ago
i heard that she died,my first love died.
i need to thank her,for making me who i am today.she used me like a condom but yes,that made me who i am today.
>>710935339
>>710936158
Do not do online dating, not worth the feels. I speak from experience.
>>710936158
>one night i was with kate holding hands, talking about stuff
>the conversation leads to sex
>i get really nervous and so does Kate
>both of us are interested to try it
>by this point we've kissed a lot more often on the lips
>we plan to have sex when we both think the moment is right
>skips the next two weeks
>we're in bed cuddling
>she falls asleep
>i get this feeling and think this would be a great way for her to wake up to
>i get her off me and start pulling down her pants
>once off i just go down on her as i saw in some pornos before
>she wakes up after a minute of starting
>she freaks out and starts kicking me
>im not sure whats happening but she starts crying
>i try comfort her but she runs to the bathrooms and locks the door
>i try getting her out
>i say sorry so many times
>i hear her mom come home
>her mom kinda knows about me but is more concerned about her daughter
>Kate's mom is screaming at me for what happened
>I'm asked to leave
>I wait outside, constantly trying to call her
>no response for 4 hours
>its 12am so i go home
>im worried sick and still no reply
>i go to school like normal for the next few days
>turns out she committed suicide
>her mom moves away
>fuck my life
>>710936297
>use online dating site
>complain he got cuck
nothing suprising... easier to cheat since they site now
>>710934431
Not what the theory says. Just saying.
>>710936461
if a girl cheats, drop her no matter what her excuse may be.
>>710925258
music and feels? count me in.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=f8hT3oDDf6c
>>710925258
https://youtu.be/Ildtq20FK7I
>>710937313
what the fuck
>>710937313
the fuck m8
>>710936297
sounds edgy
>>710930769
>and leave almost no trace of their death
elaborate on the red room. they documented the disposal? what country? screen caps?
>>710934883
cut yourself some slack dude don't be so hard on yourself it probably wasn't your fault dude
Miami Ultras - Yung Lean
>>710928792
Sad to hear bruv
>>710938080
You bastard. My pupper's been dead for a while now. Way to remind me how much of a good pupper he was.
Asshole...
>>710935339
That pierced my heart. I hope your in'shallah habibi returns to you, Anon
>>710936050
You might not find that friend phisically, but there are some sites that can actually aid you a lot more than this one, I'm trying to help you because I admire the fact that you expressed yourself despite what others would say, and belive it or not, not everyone would do that, I don't know in what condition is your mom, but I'm pretty sure that she loves you so so much due to the fact that you are dedicating part of your life to help her on what she can do, dude, what you are dealing with is just something temporal, just as you had some good memories, this is a bad one, later one in your life, this memory will be replaced with a good one don't you think? Look for some good company who you can talk to easily and respect you and your problems, and that no matter what they'll always be there to help you when you feel down, If you don't find those people to talk to them face to face, you can look for em' in the internet, but not on this site, some will actually try to convince you to commit suicide because they don't care about the feelings of the others, I do, and as far as I can see, your heart is so big that you are actually resisting your depression so you can keep helping her, do you know how awesome is that? You are GREAT you just have to find the people that remind you that when you are feeling low, mark my words ok? You are flawlees, and every drop you have means that you are getting up even STRONGER and that next time you feel sad, you'll remember that there's no one like you, that no matter what, you are going to keep pushing over and over again until you reach true happiness. Life is such an awesome adventure you should live it up :), I'm here for you in case you need to talk, snapchat is:kevin-garcia78, talk to me whenever you are down ok? ( Dw for your english, I'm mexican and my english kinda sucks)
(This frace on the pic kept me from suicide so many times
>>710937774
They spoke zulu
dont know anything else
>>710938080
>>710934998
Shut the fuck up. At least he's contributing.
How does one open up to people in real life?
We had to put my oldest dog down today, he was 13. I cried as he faded away in my arms.
>>710938085
>cut yourself
>>710930013
Lost
>>710938080
RIP soul.
>>710938322
And about your sexual life, I personally dont reccomend that, What are you going to think when you are older? The moment will come later, but at least for now, try to wait, but hey man, it's your life,I'm sure that waht you decide is going to be a wise decision :)
>>710931223
well shit, sorry anon.
Story... last relationship I was in was with my cousin. Of all the relationships I have had from high school through the craziness of college, I have not been left with as much longing as I did with her.
Its been over a year now /b/, and I have had difficulties being intimate with anyone since then. It feels like a piece of me is missing and (because of the way things ended) at the same time a memory I never want to remember.
There are plenty of friends I have talked to and it hasn't seemed to help much so I thought I might try here. AMA, I'm not usually great with telling stories so I think this might be a better process if you all would like.
>>710935498
That's really great to hear, man. Keep it up.
>>710938610
Sometimes you just can't find the proper words to say even though you think of it over and over in your mind, and a way to actually open up to peole is not to think of what ther response might be, don't think of their reaction, don't think of them while you speak, but you must ALWAYS, let yor emotions speak for you, with this I mean that you can;t keep somethin for yourself,speak up and let your feelings flow :), good luck
>Depressed as fuck like you guys
>Became a stoic
Fin
>>710931616
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...Yes, you dun goofed.
>>710938322
>>710938797
thanks man....that help me feel better.....and about the sexual life , my first time was with her...thats why i feel so bad, because was just a 1 night thing with a friend of years who dont care....she just wanted fun,
i think i will save your words , and dont have snpachat but will save yours :)
Really thanks...i will try to sleep a bit, hope when i wake up i feel better , good night
>>710938371
the names they said on the stream before
Sophie: brown hair, white
Mary: blonde hair, white
Devin: blonde hair, white
Michael: blonde hair, white
Randy: white hair, white
Coalwa?: didn't write in journal, black
Thabo?: didn't write it journal, black
Gugu?: brown hair, black
Becca?: brown hair, black
Nathan: brown hair, black
Chris: black hair, white
Alex: brown hair, white
>>710928792
fug
>>710929184
fucking cunt
>>710938611
rest in peace doggo , fly to star
>>710938371
this shit went down in africa, and you were worried about a kidnapping squad in your country?
$250 was enough to buy them off? It seems like it would costs way more money to set up the abduction in the first place. The person who spotted you the money must have had some leverage against the torturers.
>>710929368
Sunshine of the Spotless Mind
Good movie actually and a bit of a mind fuck too.
>>710938611
I will think of him. Run strong, pupper.
>>710940101
i read somewhere ,they r making a serial of this movie/story
>>710939684
Good night, I really hope you have a great day tomorrow, remember, find that one thing that will keep ypu alive, and remember that you are the strong and flawless, life has something big planned for you, luck man :)
>>710939901
>They ended up paying over a hundred Bitcoins to make them stop.
Fuck
Was abused as a kid (who wasn't?) and I've never recovered. Happiness feels impossible. I used drugs as an escape when I was a teenager, but then I met my partner and I stopped taking anything hard. Now I just smoke weed and drink cheap wine and pray it'll make me feel even an ounce of what I felt when I was high all the time... because that was the only time I felt good. I can't hold a job. I just get them and quit them. Thank god my partner keeps me grounded, but also the guilt I have for loving him and still not being happy is so large it kills me. Sometimes I crave death, but mostly I just wish life wasn't so hard. I should be happy right now, things are going so much better, but they're not. I should be glad I'm away from the abuse, and that I'm clean from all that toxic shit. But everything feels empty and hollow. It gets harder to keep going, when nothing can make me happy not even the way he smiles anymore
>>710936686
>retard
>>710928792
Fug
>>710939134
Till there is (or if there is a response) I am just going to keep going:
While growing up, I have always had an affectionate side towards my cousin. We grew up fairly distant since my mom and brothers moved across states when we were very young. We would visit fairly often, 2-3 times a year.
We didn't talk a lot, but I always got a long with her as we both seemed to be outside of the norm with the rest of the family. It didn't help that she had problems with her eyesight and a boastful pride that demanded no one treat her like anything less than normal. It was something I had always admired.
In fact, she seemed to always make any problems I was facing in life seem like a drop in the ocean. We may have not seen each other very often growing up, but it never seemed like much time had passed when we did get to hang out.
Fast forward to college for us when I was 25 and she was 22. Ironically, we both chose the same careers to study. It was calming to have someone with similar interests, especially in a career field not many chose, let alone liked (and we both loved our choice in majors).
>>710941037
I used to be angry that I felt sad. It's my parents, my lover, myself... I thought maybe I'd be happier if I lived somewhere else or loved someone else. but that isn't true. because i've done that, and it still feels the same. this is just all there is
>>710938080
>>710941167
It was really during those last years in college that we became closer than we had ever been. It was also the time that I found out how fragile she really was. Behind all the strength she had for others, she had been hiding a lot of fears of her own value in life. It didn't help that she was in a very abusive and controlling relationship at the time either.
Three times during my senior year of college, she called crying hysterically. It always seemed like she was finally at her limit with no other person she thought she could talk to. Two of those times, she nearly ended her life with overdose of over the counter medication and alcohol poisoning. The last time it had happened I ended up calling my aunt and uncle from states away call the police and go over immediately. She hated me for it. I knew she was thinking that I was the devil for letting anyone else know about the pain she was going through. As if I had pulled the rug beneath her feet and left her with nothing to stand on.
She didn't call for over a month.
Girlfriend of a few months now. She's the first and last person who will ever understand me. I love her but she fucked it up. She's been abusing perks and I told her to get off them or I'm leaving her. She texted me earlier today about how she's been on them for a few weeks and said "I should stop before I get addicted hahahaha" she only got out of the hospital a few weeks ago after a failed suicide and if she wants to go ahead and fuck her second chance up at life with pills and liquor than I won't be around for her to see her self destruct. She broke up with me the other day and wanted to remain the same way just not in a relationship. She tells me she loves me and sends hearts and kissy faces and gets mad when I don't respond the same way. I have so much to fucking vent but I have no one to talk to because I have no friends besides her and she's gone now. Just some more shit to pile up on top of everything else going on. I'm thinking about ending it. What do you guys think?
>23 year old kissless virgin
>turning 24 tomorrow
all I want for my birthday at this point is the courage to end my stupid pathetic manlet life
>>710936158
Christ dude. That guy that saved you, told you to just help others, just do that bro
>>710931223
>>710930675
>>710930633
fuckin shitty copy paste from yesterday
>>710929875
Sleep tight meller.
>>710942470
Suicide is retarded, I get you feel the way you do but in time you will learn to accept the loss of that person you fell in love with because they aren't there anymore. In time you will come to learn it was the wasted potential of a planned life, that unrealised potential that is now gone that hurts more than losing the person itself. Chin up mate.
long story short, I was a really intelligent kid with tons of potential.. but my fucked up mom and dad ruined it for me
>>710935960
thanks friend. i think next time i have to make them for people who know wtf they are
I keep everything in. Nobody knows anything about me besides my looks and what little I show. Even my closest friends don't know me. The one person I showed myself to walked out on me. I can't smile. I can't talk about how I feel. I don't truly feel anyway. I don't understand what's going on.
>>710943279
>The one person I showed myself to walked out on me
what happened?
>>710930072
damn..
>>710931616
That picture/quote. Can you post it separately? I feel for you. I have this exact situation.
>>710943370
She had been lying to me. She was showing my secrets to people and when I asked her about it she said fuck off and wouldn't speak to me.
>>710926312
Ship some my way qt
I'll make you dessert
>>710943569
fucking hell nothing is worse than untrustworthiness like that. I'm sorry anon.
>>710943702
I wouldn't be sorry. Shes gone now. I'll e fine eventually
>>710931071
ARMY.
>>710931500
>should of
Drop her
>>710934248
No it's bad. To love a girl and then have it ripped from you. It's not fair. It's soul wrenching.
>>710942223
I felt like I had lost my closest friend. I came to visit soon after a break from school was available. The day after I arrived, the family all planned a dinner at our grandmother's house. To my surprise, she showed up.
I was the one that answered the door. I was also at a loss for words when I saw her. Despite any trouble she had with her sight, she always dressed impeccably. Her hair was done with curls and her makeup was spot on. I am horrible at describing clothes, but her black dress was a sight. My heart skipped a beat.
I remember breaking from the moment hearing a car driving off in the distance (she couldn't drive because of her eyesight). Lo and behold, it was her shitty boyfriend's car (he never was welcome at family occasions). I remember she looked up at me for a moment, and without a word walked past me into the house.
I followed and saw her greet all the family. Everyone except me. For whatever reason, I didn't exist to her. It infuriated me internally. I remember feeling like a cheap item to her.
At dinner we sat next to each other in silence (go family for always knowing how to make things more awkward with seating arrangements.) Dinner passed and her phone went off. Her "ride" was back. As she excused herself, I also excused myself and walked her to the front door (habit).
I was still angry. I was still hurt. I only really hoped that something would happen, anything to acknowledge that I had not lost one of my best friends. We lingered at the front door, away from the family, for what seemed like forever. Before she left, she turned and hugged me. It was one of the most gratifying feeling I had ever experience. Without words I felt accepted again, and then she left.
>>710943691
c-carrot cupcakes? fucking deal!
>>710928792
Fucking nigger
>>710944237
<3 with that sweet cream cheese frosting
>>710944402
I fry, grill, roast, sear, simmer, sautee, steam, and boil but I don't bake. We'd make a good couple anon.
>>710928792
It will end. With a glass of bleach.
>>710944542
I'd appreciate even a bowl of cereal in the morning anon
You're a good person
will someone tell me why i feel so empty? i've got the perf life.
>>710945126
Its called life, Some are just able to mask this void with meaningless things.
>>710926312
They look very delicious, anon.
I'm pretty sure that everyone who ate that has a bad taste to think that isn't good.
>>710944121
To make things short and sweet, we started texting again. We made phone calls to talk. We made efforts to talk every day. Whenever I would visit, I was always hanging out with her. Our family would always become upset that we always had to be together whenever there were plans. When I visited I would always take her to work and pick her up afterwards. We were inseparable.
I don't remember the moment it happened, but I knew I was developing feelings for her. It was a gut wrenching feeling. For anyone that has ever had even remote feelings for a family member, you'll understand. Pangs of guilt and discomfort in yourself all the while juggling the happiness of each moment you spend with them.
After we reconnected, I never ended up seeing her boyfriend around when I was around. We played video games together, told eachother stories of growing up, watched stupid videos, shared a lot. If we were ever tired, we'd just sleep while the other hung around, sometimes using eachother as pillows, othertimes not. It was nice.
I miss those days. As graduation for me came closer, I tried to see about her side of the family coming to visit. I remember feeling my heart drop when she said she wasn't able to find a way up or take off work.
The day before graduation, she surprised me with her family. It was amazing guys. It was the best day ever. Because of tight living spaces, she even stayed in my room the first night (nothing happened, just cuddling).
Then the graduation party happened...
>>710944999
Well you're about as sweet as your oreo sandwich ;)
Stuck on this one girl. She is shy, and may have some social anxiety as well. Kinda a unique situation
Really though, it seems like there may be something there, but how can I kick it into gear
>>710945363
i can get decent jobs, but i quit them. good lover/companion. do drugs, but i dont feel shit. idk man...
>>710929549
Fuck, right in the goddamn heart.
>be me
>be dicking around in a boss server
>meet a german kid with heavy german accent
>halo fellow scaot
>hi
>he adds me
>we play every fucking game together
>2 months later
>get steam message
>"sorry friend I might no go online because of mainland issues"
>when will we meet again?
>soon my american friend
>last online 1309 day ago
>mfw still have hope
>>710945636
>ambient lighting
>Nice plate and silverware
Hotdog and macaroni
I am open up emotionally. I can't smile or laugh sincerely. I feel empty. I have no direction in life. I just want to ND it all but I'm too much of a pussy.
>>710946053
I cant* why did my phone autocorrect that
>>710928792
noooooooooooo plzzz
>>710928792
nigger
>>710929184
assholeeee
>>710945954
it's a feels thread afterall
but I guess postan my christmas roast
Johnny Cash-Hurt.
>>710946468
Haha crimbus
You keep doing you my friend, you're damn good at that
>>710945580
After morning Graduation, there was a huge BBQ that led into a bonfire drinking night with lots of friends. Lots of drinking. I wanted to be surrounded by those I loved and enjoy the great feeling of joy I had. I had apparently take the wrong avenue.
Something I failed to mention is that my cousin had become a bit of a recluse over the years. When she came to visit, she had an expectation that I would only be with her the entire time, just like it had always been when I would visit my home town. She was angry and left the party to my room.
When I had noticed she wasn't around, I excused myself from the party and went to find her. There she was, on my bed, half a bottle of jack down and purposefully avoiding any form of talk with me. I was also quite drunk myself. While trying to talk with her, the memory of the time we stopped talking all rushed back to me. My drunk ass just kept talking.
She never said a word. Not one word the entire time I talked. I drunkenly decided that if she was never going to talk to me again then I was at least going to say everything on my mind. This included telling her that I loved her. This included making sure she knew that I meant that as more than family.
When I reached that point of my conversation, she drew a gaze upon me that could lite a forest fire from a mile away. It felt of pure anger and hatred my friends.
I stopped talking and fell silent. I had never seen her eyes so furious before. She has always been self conscious of her eyes. Since she has difficulty seeing, she avoids eye contact to make for less awkward conversation if she isn't making direct eye contact. I've always loved her eyes though. Her pupils seem to always be dilated and it made the iris in her eyes a small ring around them. They were unique and lovely.
Back to the story. She stared at me for what seemed like ages, burning a hole through me...
Why are we posting sob stories about love when the real feels are that the world is garbage filled with so much hate for no reason.
>>710928792
Dammit
>>710947147
Because these threads have become infested with newkids
I mean when the fuck did they start calling them "feels" anyway
For that anon. I love you
>>710929184
AGAIN
>>710926312
oh shit golumpki, damn this is a feels thread. bringing me back memories of when babcha would make it for thanksgiving.
>>710947294
I know man. The fact that the average human condition is filled with so much hate for something as trivial as appearance is depressing alone. We are all human beings man. I legitimatly dont HATE anybody. Just some of their actions.
>be me junior in hs
>awkward, not many friends, im the kind of guy whos just invisible to everybody
>theres this girl lets call her A
>known her since 6th grade
>smart nerdy and an easy 8/10 in junior year
>ive watched her date complete assholes throuout all of highshool
>inb4 i dont have nice guy syndrome
>she has been cheated on more times than i could count and hit before so these are genuine assholes
>homecoming is in 2 weeks and i dont have a date
>planning to sit at home and play csgo drunk
>find out that A just broke up with her boyfriend
>she got fucking cheated on by this 6,4 chad
>i get her number from stalking her old ask fm account
>text her and ask if she wants to go with me
>she fucking says yes
>I flip shit and tell my mom
>moms eyes light up when she hears
>my dad died a few years ago to a drunk driver so its just me and my mom and it kills her to see her only son waste his life away lonely and depressed
>This is the first time ive been to any school activities in years
>my mom dresses me up, rents a tux, she pays for everything
>meet A at the dance
>shes fucking gorgeous
>she had on a red dress that parts on one leg idk what its called
>specifically remember these pretty earrings she had on she mentioned them sometime during the commotion of being there
>Dance starts winding down theres a last slow song
>this is fucking crazy for a kissless virgin
>next day she texts me
>told me there was a bonfire at her house but i wasnt answering my phone
>realize thats why she left with her friends
>i may have made the biggest whoopsie of my life
>tell her that im so sorry wish i could have ect..
>"thats fine anon well just have to hang out another time :)"
will continue
>>710928792
fuck you faggot
>>710947294
https://clyp.it/ilh2xnfu
>>710929875
sleep tight meller
i'm so fucking mad at myself that i'm not doing anything to try to date my crush. but i have no idea what to do. fuck
Losing the love of my life. Because I was to much of an asshole and refused to change
>>710925258
>Tell my story
It might be too long, and it might make some people think something is definitely wrong with me
>>710947138
And then she left. She grabbed the bottle of alcohol, my bed's blanket, and left to the living room. I don't remember the rest of the night. I gauge from the morning that I didn't make it very far as I was slumped on my bed with a very large headache.
When I got up, my cousin and her family had left. Its a long drive to return to our hometown and it was already near noon when I woke up. I texted her immediately and received no response. I knew what I had said the night before. I knew I had made my choice. Later that night she finally called me when she was home.
It was a barrage of questions left and right. "You said you loved me! Do you even know what that really means?? We're COUSINS"
It only got worse, "Do you know how that makes me feel? WHY WOULD YOU SAY THAT? And why is this the first time I've ever heard about this from you???"
I told her how since we started talking again that the feelings had started. That I had begun to care for her as more than family for a while...
"I can't believe you! I told you everything. EVERYTHING. Everything I was thinking, feeling, going through!"
I got angry and remember asking her one question repeatedly that she wouldn't answer. I kept asking her if she was feeling the same thing. She kept dodging the question until I finally called her a liar.
"I'm the liar? You're the one that never told me how you felt!"
I told her she was a liar because she was having the same feelings as I was but was too afraid to say anything herself. She got quiet real quick on the phone. I kept going. I said that she had been feeling the same feelings and deep down she loved me too.
"Thats not the point..."
>>710947951
Delete this post
>>710947147
Let them think that breaking up is the lowest they'll ever be. They'll learn soon enough that they can go oh so much lower.
>>710948359
i did the exact same thing bro. were over and done but we still love each other and want to be together but bc i was an asshole and didnt change such a simple thing i feel as if we might get back together still but idk
>>710930013
>concern
>>710947829
>fast forward a week
>she tells me that her her and her friends were going to a movie and asks if I want to come
>holyfuckingshit.png
>i get to her house
>she tells me that her friends cancelled and if i still want to go
>me and my only crush going to movies
>at this point i just nod and agree with anything she says becasue anything is say comes out as if i had fucking tourettes
>spaghettiinpocket.gif
>she gets in my car and tell me where to go
>she never even looked what was playing so we choose at the desk
>i say i dont care and she says fucking SAW VII
>okay
>we watch the movie
>being a huge faggot i was terrified
>i look over at A
>she is fucking smiling, this bitch got a fucking hard on for horror
>halfway through she puts her hand on my thigh and I almost nut my pants
>the movie ends and i go to drop her back off
>"that was really fun anon thanks"
>she kisses me on the cheek and walks inside
>i stand there
it must have been like 3 minutes because she looked out her window and there i was
>standing there
>fast forward to senior year
>she is the love of my life
>you always think that your first love is gonna last forever
>it doesnt
>A starts acting wierd
>she doesnt talk as much
>not as happy
>think her dog died or something
>nope
>she breaks down in my arms when im over at her house
>she was diagnosed with late stage leukemia
>she starts treatment
>hair falls out
>she gets frail and weak
>she loses intrest in many of her favorite hobbies
>no more vidya and cuddling
>she get mad if im near her
>one day like a little bitch i am I start crying and getting angry
>tell her i love her and demand she tells me whats wrong
>her doctor gave her a month to live
>that was 2 weeks ago
>I cry
>she cries
>we fall asleep together
one more
>>710928792
fuk
>>710928887
Shit from a bull that ate shit for a year
>>710948562
She told me she couldn't be with me and wants me out of her life. Literally just been sleeping all day. Wish I could fix this but I know it's to late. If only I had listened
>>710932454
No job?
>>710948958
oh bro im so sorry i really am i wish i could help in some way
>>710948446
Please no
>>710930013
it's the i love you one that gets me. can't handle that.
>>710928858
Thats a fucking RPG you fucking mook
>be 20
>meet grill
>she's 18
>start hanging out with her
>always high af and driving drunk in my acura
>who have i become?
>she invites me to party
>at the party i take a xanax with alcohol
>start driving home
>xanax takes effect
>lose consciousness
>wreck three cars
>tfw thousands in debt
>tmw bitch leaves me next day
>fucking depressed af
>no job
>filteredyouth.com (how to make fleshlight)
>2016 best year yet
Moral of the story: fuck these bitches
Just buy a fleshlight
>>710948705
>next few days she cant even stand
>she falls and is out cold one day
>fast forward a few days
>shes in the hospital
>the whole family is there
>typical movie scene shit everybodies crying around the bed
>she says she wants some time alone with anon
>everyody but me leaves the room
>she says she has liked me since 6th grade and is sad we didnt date more
>wants me to help her parents through her death
>wants me to go home
>i cried for hours
>didnt know what to do
>stuck somewhere between killing myself and driving to the hospital
>land right in the middle of the two and cry in my room
>she died the next day
>family goes to funeral
>i didnt say a word
>graduated somehow even though i did nothing my senior year, missed almost 2 months of school
its been 7 years and i havent talked to another woman since, i feel like i would be betraying her, i work at a low level it job without a college degree, on meds for depression and anxiety, multiple suicide attempts, i just miss her so fucking much. i love you allysa
>>710949425
fucking idiot don't drive drunk/high. that's not 'feels' that's you being a shithead who doesn't know common sense and getting what's coming
If y'all want to talk someone to talk to, and/or want to get something of your chest, join our loner exchange, everyone is welcome. https://discord.gg/A9JSA
>>710949585
Lmao you're right
Ive changed a lot since that incident though
>>710948446
I told her it was the point of it. We loved eachother and that it was something we both needed to admit already because I was not going to lose her again. I told her again that I loved her and waited. It was a long phone silence with sobbing on both ends, till I finally heard her say it.
"I love you too..."
I could barely hear it. It was a whisper at most, and I asked her to say it again.
"I love you damnit... don't make me repeat myself"
We both must have sounded like idiots for about 15 minutes. It was a back and forth session of admitted guilt.
"I have been feeling the same feelings start for a while too."
I felt the same.
"I love you and it hurts to love you"
Same.
"I always miss you"
It was a flood of emotion back and forth. I visited her shortly afterwards for about 2 weeks. It was the happiest feeling I had ever had. But when I came back from visiting her, reality slowly crept in. Our family started questioning us left and right on everything. The distance between us became unbearable over time. The final straw that broke everything to pieces was when I offered her to move to where I live to get out of the small hometown we lived in. More opportunities, we could be closer, etc etc. She called less... texted less... responded less... The next thing I know I am on the phone with my grandmother and she has told me that she bought her own home in our hometown... I called her after that call... No Answer... I called again and she picked up with an exasperated "What? I'm trying to move into a house!"
The last thing I said was "Fine! GOODBYE" and I hung up...
>>710928792
Cancer
>>710929184
Ha ha ha
>>710949921
hopefully in the regard that you don't get fucked up and drive. I've lost too many to drugs to have an iota of sympathy for drug apologists and pushers.
>>710928457
Pretty sure this is the right one.
>>710950186
it always makes me sad when people endorse just carpet bombing syria/iraq. they're just like us, they want food, games, a nice girl. wish we could all somewhat good to each other.
>>710949324
It's all good man thanks though. It's my fault. I miss her so much. Her warm embrace her kisses just her. She was great and everything I ever wanted.
>>710929875
sleep tight meller
even a stupid thing like this is better than doing nothing I guess...
It's sad when feels threads used to have an effect and after seeing so many I no longer feel anything. There is almost nothing anymore. No acting sad or feeling of any kind. I Just don't care. For all I care I could die in the next 10 minutes and I don't feel anything. I've cheated death multiple times now and That probably has some to do with it and also the constant let down. Love is an emotion that is now alien to me. I don't know what it is. Loneliness is no longer a factor. Work doesn't make me dread getting up anymore. Drugs are untouched. Alcohol is all empty and haven't had any for so long. I get nothing anymore. The old songs that used to make me feel something are now just another background to my daily perpetual involuntary motion. I'm on autopilot completely. It's like everything I do is scripted. Everything almost always follows a predetermined path. I don't find joy in any of the hobbies or passions as before. I simply do things to stay busy. I just zone out completely and become a zombie. It's odd. I don't feel resentment anymore towards the people that left me. I simply walk past them as if I don't even know them. I ignore anything but what I'm in the moment for. Nothing else matters.
>>710949931
Please don't let this be the end
