how often you think about suicide /b/ ?
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how often you think about suicide /b/ ?
>>710903795
haha, suicide, yawn...
>>710903795
you shouldn't. talk to your physician OP
everyday 5 times a day
>>710903795
Everyday...
>>710903795
As often as you freaks talk about it. Immediately after I leave this thread, I will not think about it until another self-hating hunchback pops his (always his) head up.
STOP FUCKING THINKING ABOUT THIS SHIT YOU SELFISH PRICKS
>>710903795
At least once a day...
A couple times a month to be honest.
If I get old I will eventually end my own life.
>>710904038
i hope something very bad happens in your life so u can get a nice healthy dose of depression and suicidal thoughts, faggot
Me? Or me? We too? N-no?
Oh. Ok, my mistake. Good luck. Bye~.
enough to wonder why i haven't gone through with it yet
>>710904302
I used to suffer from this, and now this thinking is beneath me.
Used to be suicidal, bulimic, self-harming, and I used to cut.
Woke up and realized how selfish and useless I was
Made steps to improve it
I still get depressed, but any suicidal thoughts are for selfish zilches. Nothings. Worthless, weak people.
>>710903795
Everyday. But, I also consider my life *could* still be salvageable and become a success eventually. That, and since time is cyclical and all of this may very well just be one big simulation/game.
I've tried it seriously one time. Spent three weeks in psychiatric hospital.
It was one of the worst periods of my life, but i feel like i'm falling into depression again. My head hurts all the time. I try not to cry when im outside, i feel bad. About everything. There's nothing positive i can see anymore.
>>710904554
> any suicidal thoughts are for selfish zilches. Nothings. Worthless, weak people
well no shit, thats why depressed people wanna kill themselves because they feel worthless and hopeless
>>710904869
>>710905444
So we're in agreeance here.
>>710903795
I don't know
but suicide threads should be reported
>>710904869
what did you do?
When the train is coming towards the station, I usually think "What would happen if I jump" and then I shiver and move a bit further in on the platform. Also same thought if I'm at a big height
>>710903795
Every time I fuck up I shout out loud "FUCKEN KILL ME"
That's about it.
>>710903795
Like 3-4 times a week
>>710903795
You're waiting for a train. A train that will take you far away. You know where you hope the train will take you, but you can't be sure. Yet it doesn't matter. Now, tell me why?
>>710905785
I feel you, anon
>Every time I'm driving on the highway
>Every time I'm in the shooting range
Can't fucking stop thinking about it, fuck
About once a month when I get tired of everything but it only last about a minute then I move on.
>>710903795
all day everyday.
I really want to die tho.
>>710903795
Constantly when I'm not asleep.
>>710903795
constantly. or at least hoping i wont wake up. i feel like complete shit twenty four seven. death just needs to happen.
>>710906252
kys then. do it. or don't you have the balls ?
>>710906447
>>710906468
Not him, but have you ever tried to kill yourself? The fundamental instinct to live is really hard to overcome.
A lot recently. Seems like a day doesn't go by that I don't think of ways to kill myself before I go to sleep and when I wake up in the morning.
I'm taking a shit load of anti depressants but they don't seem to be working at all any more.
>>710906119
I'm not suicidal or anything, just my brain being weird sometimes haha
>>710906468
I don't have the balls.
Tbh I think I have prostate cancer but I'm too much of a poon to go get it checked out. Thinking of just ending it because life sucks, cancer or no.
>>710906848
Why do you think that?
i legit wanna end my shitty existence and kill myself, like tonight, get wasted and jump off a bridge, stab myself in the neck before i jump to make drowning easier, i would 100% kill myself tonight but i feel bad for my mom, its not her fault im fucked in the head and wanna kill myself, she worked so hard for me basically for nothing because im worthless and ugly shitbag full of burning horseshit
my suicidal thoughts went from multiple times a day to like one a week
i stopped WEED and MASTURBATION since the beggining of november and im feeling nice.
>>710906947
Increasing pain in and around my balls and asshole, for months, lately starting to get some difficulty urinating too. Also extreme fatigue. I could be wrong.
A better question is, when don't I think about suicide?
>>710907271
Did you forget to take the butt plug out?
>>710907300
Don't think about your naked granny!
>There, I just saved you.
>>710907271
extreme fatigue here too (unexplained and no money to get it checked out.) THat in itself is such a bitch. I always say I hope I just randomly crash one day. It gets worse and worse and I know Im on a one way trip to losing my job, homeless ness and sleeping until I just die.
about every 2 days
>>710907271
haha, go get it checked, if they find cancer you start crying and say "this is the best day of my life"
>>710907004
Same bruh. Got a girlfriend of 5 years (thinking of asking to be wife) got 2 kids together, career in army is going Okay, been to war and shit. No financial problems, got an okay place to live for now yet still. There is something inside. It's been a long while. When I was a kid I made plans, drawings how to do it and how to make it so I won't even be found. I just want myself gone. In this vast huge planet, I am nothing but a tiny grain of sand. You know that feeling? It won't matter - except for those close to me, bu eventually they will move on. My plan is to make enough to leave for the family, see how they turn out in a couple of years and hope my parents will overcome this. But eventually... I will do it. Not now - but I will. Play it smart, don't rush. If you see opportunities next time, use them. If they don't work out or make tings worse - fuck them and end it. If it goes good then you might prolong it long enough to realize you've made a mistake. But don't do one mistake. Don't have kids - just don't.
>>710906788
>I'm not suicidal
Teach me
>>710903795
At least 4 times a week
>>710907574
Kek I think I'm the only anon here who does NOT shove shit up his butt
>>710907901
Have you tried it? It's quite fun.
Never. I enjoy my life
>>710908009
Nah man I poop from there. I like fucking grills in the butt though. When I was still having sex, anyway. Now I don't even fap. Forgot that on my list of symptoms. Dick is now a wet noodle.
>>710908259
How old are you?
>>710903795
Not until just now. Thanks, asshole.
Not as often as I think about assault
Daily. Not for qq reasons or am depressed, merely because of a deep curiosity for what happens after death.
>>710908371
35, def younger than it should be happening but not so young that it's unheard of by any means.
Most days
>>710908979
Yeah, you should probably have that checked out. If it is cancer, you can just refuse treatment and enjoy the next few months like they're your last!
multiple times a day but too much of a pussy to do it
Once per 3 Years, why You ask?
Just bought a gun about a week ago
Just knowing that i could if i really wanted to made me think about it a lot less
Before that pretty much non stop
>>710909208
Yeah I definitely should but I'm a big pussy, clearly. People who aren't big pussy fags don't post in an hero threads on 4skin. It has never been good to be me.
>>710909377
There is something behind dubs - truth is with You.
i don't think about suicide. I just think about having all my relatives die and I kinda want it. I don't hate them at all or even dislike them but my life is kinda boring. All I do is go to school and get drunk in the weekend. I want some sadness in my life. I dream (or nightmare?) and think about it quite a lot. Is this weird?
lately every day
>>710904290
This tbh fam is literally me
>>710909650
Well I think it was literally someone else but I know what you mean.
>>710909599
Then leave ur parents
>>710903795
When I was a teenager some times, but now I have people depended on my (wife and kids) I can't just punch out when I want, no matter how bad things gets.
>>710909904
Fuck off normie.
Every second that i'm sober
>>710909750
well no, i'm just 18. I need my money to go to university (one close to me). I have free public travel and I like it, my friends live in my town too. Once again, I don't hate my parents so leaving doesn't help. But my brothers are both autistic so maybe that's why i want everyone to just die. and then leaving helps
>>710910103
Well you just answered your own dilemma, friend. Cheers.
all the time mate it's just apart of my thinking mate not a day goes by i dont think of it just put the thought away and say you will do it tomorrow and that tomorrow will never come
Hourly,my life is a mess no money no food late rent and prob gonna be kicked out soon no family and accidentally fucked over my friends , my water was shut down last week ,depression,social retardness and inabillity to maintain a conversation and lastly my house is a dumpster ,you guys remember that post about the b fag filthy house ,and 3 year old expired yogurt and shit. Im worse
And i stoped smoking pot and sold everything i owned including pawning my own car bicycle furniture etc in order to start working for an uber carleasing company in my town i wrecked the car im being sued. Im also a zoophile i let dogs fuck me
This is my hallway
>>710903795
everytime OP is being a faggot
yesterday, today, tomorrow
About everyday
>>710910652
Jesus I can't even imagine your life you poor wretched soul.
>>710903795
as often as i play pokemon go
so... every day
>>710910907
People still play that? My city was crawling with pokemon trainers for like a month (including me) but now it's dead.
Most of the time. I was orphaned at 4 and i'm trans, there's not much for me really, only thing that keeps me going is i'm passable if i put effort into so hormones may help my mood and appearance.
Other than that, everything just seems fucking pointless.
>>710910652
haha, well memed ! good meme friend !
op is always a faggot haha, yes, good meme mate, teach me how to meme fam
>>710911091
Is your penis feminine?
>>710910871
you can't
>>710911112
>off by one
You should really follow through on your suicidal urges tbh.
>>710903795
my girlfriend told me she suffers from depression.
She told me she was going to shoot herself in the head
>literally have 3 pistols and 1 assault rifle in my room
>have to grab all of my weapons and put them into the trunk of my car because of her bullshit
>..... some time pasts and I realize there is no proof that she said that that anyone would know
>Put all the guns back into the room (besides 1 on me)
>wondered if she was going to do it when I was at work
Nope, she didn't do it. Fucking pussies
>>710911222
Holy shit. Kek has spoken, twice.
>>710911145
It's a penis, that's all i can say anon.
I never did.
But recently I spoke to my ex for the first time in forever and she was mad as fuck (still, after all this time, which says a lot) and basically listed all the things she didn't like about our relationship.
I wasn't aware of any of these issues, they had never been brought up before. But they depicted me as possibly emotionally abusive/manipulative.
So I'm gonna go thru our conversations and figure out if I was. If I am I'm gonna kill myself.
It sounds petty as fuck but I've always prided myself on being a good person. I never thought I'd do anyone badly. And I love that girl more than anyone. So if I found out I put her thru that shit, I wouldn't be able to live with myself. I'd rather not live with myself. I couldn't live knowing I was a monster.
>>710911091
u fucking serious?
Not really suicide. I dont wanna kill myself im just over life
>>710911222
nice comeback, perfect, i see potential in you young man, keep memeing and one day you might become the king of memes, ruler of all the chans and the new white hope
>>710911112
u can't teach memeing, it's in ur blood.
Every morning, every night. I'm still thinking of the best way to go.
tried paracetamol before, but didn't take enough. I now have about 40-50 pills this time, but it's still a slow and painful way to go.
Otherwise it's riding my bike as fast as I can into a truck. But that sure as hell takes a lot of willpower.
maybe soon.
>>710903795
Every few hours. But I consider very rarely.
>>710903795
Only when I realized my first year at high school was a wrong choice, didn't learn anything and didn't pass the whole year and still managed to come in on the class I wanted so much on the second year. And then realized I am doing it so bad and I can't even do the simplest tasks or work. I am so laying behind.
School is a fucking mess and I don't have a fucking future.
at least few times a week for the last 10-12 Years. its great :)
>>710904869
You on meds? I find them a good platform to work off. Can usually see a positive turnaround within two weeks.
>>710910779
kek
I was going through a tough time a few months back.
Many changes in my life happening at once. Job transition, family transition, and close friends moving away. Not a whole lot of people I could talk to.
I attempted suicide and ended up in the er. Drank the charcoal like it was root beer and scared some folks. The next day, I was even more depressed. I denied suicide because I was ashamed. The doctor asked me to self admit myself into a mental clinic and conduct a week of intense therapy with some medication. I didn't have many visitors while at the clinic, and I mostly lied and cooperated to make them think I was better so I could get out. It worked.
Anyways, I met an inspirational nurse practitioner during my stay, and finally admitted to attempting suicide. I felt better about wanting to get help and be better. I thought maybe I'd lose my job and my family, but I was committed to feeling better and it worked. Maybe it was the meds, but I feel pretty good. It wasn't all at once. It took time.
I've opened up to women I've met and I tell my story thinking they will run away or think I'm crazy. It actually makes them attracted to me. Not sure how it works, but many others have admitted thoughts or past attempts and I've gotten to connect with people I don't know that well in a whole new way.
Seek help.
Tldr; belair
>>710904554
Good on ya, but no need to judge others. Especially since you've been there, you massive spastic.
>>710911698
Jesus Christ, man, could you have fit more faggotry into one post?
>>710911645
What do you mean?
Natural selection, irrational and unintelligent.
>>710911698
Time to step away from the computer and go outside for a little while, man.
>>710912228
ur a star, sweetheart, when life gets tough, just look up at the stars and think "im one of them, im a star!"
>>710904038
I actually needed this. Thanks dude
>>710910642
Fuck me dead. Sorry bro, but I actually feel better about my life now.
>>710912493
hey, good advice buddy ! fresh air is good for me, here have a bronze medal, friend, for giving me a sound advice
>>710904554
I hope you realize how full of shit you are, and one day, kill yourself.
>>710911736
Buy barbiturates on Alphabay
>>710903795
never, i'm not a fucking loser
>>710903795
Almost every day I think how much easier it would be if I offed myself. Being alive is ok though.
meh. I'll pussy up and do it soon
>>710903795
Depends. This current business venture feels almost hopeless but just promising enough not to quit yet. And it isn't my money anyway, though I know that's the wrong way to look at it. Friends are becoming more distant with age. No gf. No interest in ever having kids. Everything keeps getting more expensive and everyone keeps losing their jobs even while the government lies and manipulates the statistics to make the ruling party look good. Future is massive corporations, mass automation, strong AI, mass spying and censorship, widespread poverty, and complete loss of individual potential. Society is becoming a zoo for people, watched by the ruling class.
>>710903795
I did a lot for a while when I was in my late teens, early twenties. Now that I'm a 30s fag, I have far too much on the go with having a family and beyond full time jorb to consider such a thing.
>>710912582
You could have just replied "yes", anon.
>>710913338
sounds interesting. will this be feasible for delivery in UK?
>>710904329
papy'yaya?
>>710903795
I've done it just twice, but both for a very long time. Other than that, sometimes I wanna fall asleep and get rekt in there so I don't have to wake up again. Idk... I've never been diagnosed by a professional but I think I've got endogenous depression. Sometimes I just feel depressed and there's no actual reason.
>>710903795
nevar...unless it is about one of you fuckwitts....then I say you should go for it. Live the dream you autist fucktard
>>710913930
Fucking hell...your makin me want to go find some tasty bleach just reading your shit....
>>710912947
you first pisswhistle
>>710916260
why would a 12 year old kid like u want to commit suicide anyway ?
Once every 3-4 minutes
>>710912582
not entirely true. To be among the stars, you have to pull the trigger first...
>>710904235
this
>>710903795
Through the worst of it I think - used to be daily for a while. Now maybe once a week and it's not overbearing.
Dad an-heroed when I was about 9. I've got the same Bipolar shit he had. Want kids bad but probably won't have them to spare them. It has ruined my life beyond any possibility of repair.
>>710912166
A few times a month
>>710903795
once a month actually I really would like to end with my problems. Sometimes the reason is too many tasks to do, no friends, no money, no gf and no one would give a fuck about my death.
>>710916693
12 year old? Leave your boyfriend out of this...
>>710903795
Hourly, friendo. I'm very lonely
>>710917111
dont do it, you got trips
>>710903795
Never, because i'm not a coward
I think about it constantly every fucking day
>Hey /b/
I'm 25 years old. I've been depressed and suicidal since about 5 bcease of a fucked up childhood. I tried to kill myself at a really young age. I tried to jump from our balcony and my mom ninja warped and and grabbed me and pulled me in just as I was dropping... I've been self harming in various ways my whole life randomly since then but never with the intentions of killing myself.. but to answer the question I think about it almost every day. Growing up it was constantly. Then like from 16 up I was ok and having fun mostly, I learmed to deal to with depression and all these other social issues I had then 21 or 22 I met the love of my life and was completely happy and healthy and living a progressive normal life with this girl, who was a year older then me... she died last year, November 25.. I've been more depressed and lost and suicidal in my life... it'll be one year soon...
>thanks /b/
>>710903795
every time i remember i survived and they didnt just to end up a homeless vet
every time im woken by the nightmare of the roar of rotors and blowing sand as we ran down the ramp into the night.
when i start to fall asleep just to have that flash falling feeling that reminds me of us being thrown by the ied blast
when ever im reminded of all the help/cash i sent home while serving just to have my family abandon and alienate me so now i cant even get a ride to the va.
about 8-10 times a week on a calm week
50 or more on a bad day.
id rather be in syria fighting but i was stopped at fl int.
hbu?
>>710903795
couple times a day
I don't consider it anymore. My heart was broken when a piece of it passed on to the grave with her, now all that is left is a shell of a man, a hollow being of passing time, dwindling away in the presence of blossoming bliss.
It would be great to enjoy this bliss, but I have no reason to. I have no feeling. When my will was taken, I became a zombie. I stopped feeling any emotion, and all I could show was a look of angst and the desire to sleep. My eyes have sunken, my lids are shadowed. My hair has thinned, my eyes lose their color. My skin no longer retains a tone, it is porcelain.
Suicide never had a purpose for the living. It isn't for the selfish. Not for the depressed or lonely. It is not the coward's way out, nor is it a fresh start to life.
Suicide has only one reason, that which a psychologist refuses to grasp. It is for when one has no reason to walk the earth. When their life's purpose has been fulfilled. When they are no longer needed. When there are no ties to anchor them to grief or trauma.
Many of you who are suicidal will read this and say "hey I know how that feels". But do you? You may have just had a breakup, you may not be getting employed, but you still have reason to live. You feel anguish and pain, but that is because you live.
I can't, for I don't.
So anons, I have a tidbit of advice for you. Grow some balls, and live. Your time is not now. Your time is not tomorrow. Your time will come, but only when there is nothing left to spend your time on.
Find you that person, make yourself a living. Raise some kids. When the time will come, you will know.
It's not today. Not tonight.
And neither is mine.
My time comes soon. I'm only still here to fulfill my purpose. To see you through your suffering.
>>710917180
wtf is that even supposed to mean u retarded fuck? go do ur homework and have a glass of milk before bed if u wanna grow up to be a big boy
>>710903795
Two or three times a week. It is better now than it has been for years. I have a wife of over 20 years, children with successful careers and families of their own. Yet the thought that I do not deserve to be on this earth permeates my being.
I medicate and try to live with my disorders. Shit doesnt get any better. So I just distract myself where I can and hope that today I don't think about slitting my wrists or laying down on a train track.
>>710912166
Really? That's cool. I lost a girlfriend of 3 years for essentially being depressed. I still did everything for her, still took her places, still made far more money than she did, still had interesting things to talk about, still kept in shape. "I just can't deal with someone else's unhappiness right now." Moved out while I was on a trip with my friends. Fuck women.
>>710914511
Yes.
I love how everyone is depressed and wants to kill themselves for actual bad tings happening in your life, and I'm here like "I just want to die. I don't like people"
>>710918646
I was like this once. The actual reasons come with time.
>>710917514
give me a hug man
I know exactly how it feels.....
>>710918646
that's because that's not the reason.
you're a cynical nihilist, and that comes from an underlying antisocial behavior and the idea that you don't fit in
>>710919169
dear god, i hope not. i might become even more angst ridden
>>710919411
this is probably true
>>710903795
Tried to be an hero last Saturday. Took every fucking pill i had in my house, downed that with Cap'n Morgan, then went to bed. Threw up 5 times that night. I wish it fucking worked.
>>710903795
Never, I'm too intelligent for this.
>>710920058
use a gun next time
>pic related. what I'm putting through my brain
>>7109204060
>on 4chan
>/b/
>"too intelligent for this
>this being suicide
kek
>>710921134
what i meant was
>>710920460
>>710920460
autism strikes again.
>>710920861
That's a beauty.
>>710920460
wouldn't this belong on /k/
>>710920861
Don't use a fucking gun, man. Not if you're an actual gunfag, at least. You'll become part of the suicide statistic that faggots use to argue against gun ownership.
I'm a liberal btw but a gun owning one. Fuck those assholes and fuck you if you help their case.
>>710922494
i think you mean
>>710929861
when nobody gets their posts right
>>710922561
fuck me you're right.
>my collection btw minus a couple i picked up recently.
I really want help
>>710903795
Everyday
>>710917871
write a book
>>710922744
then get some. i don't know where you are but im sure there's something near you. i mean fuck even some of the people on suicide hotline have thought about doing it, it may seem dumb to pour out your guts to some stranger over a phone, but they'll try their best to get you some help.
I think about it when I help other people, and/or talk to people who are happy
>>710924873
doesn't the hotline call the cops on you?
