Feels thread.
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Feels thread.
this one time, ah whats the point. no one will understand
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PJQ-eN-qkUg
Hopefully this one won't have any anime girls giving advice.
>>710569910
No one else but YOU will ever understand.
But sometimes it's just better to let it all out..
>>710570241
Remember yesterday's one? So I'm not the only one always looking for the "feels" thread it seems
Just posting some stuff from last nights late feels to keep thread alive, on laptop so no fresh stuff.
>>710570479
Yeah, it's like... okay, I get it, you're trying to help. But if you're gonna help, at least post a sad picture with it to keep the vibe of a "feels," thread.
>>710570704
I'm not trying to help. Would post pictures, but don't have any on my phone.
>>710570479
Yeah i was there too.
There was that guy that posted those youtube vids for the anon who wants to be forgotten right?
>>710570928
That was directed towards the weebs giving advice yesterday, not you, ahaha.
>>710571062
Don't exactly remember that, might've joined in after that.
Also, found some pics.
chewii
>>710571266
Yeah, noticed that. My bad.
>>710570479
Feels threads are the only reason I come to 4chan.
>>710571414
Same.
Growing up I was always kinda miserable, but I could never get it out and it ITCHED at me on the inside. Sometimes these threads just get the itch out.
>>710571623
I'm too much of a stoic to complain to anybody I know I'm going to see again, so I do it to a bunch of strangers instead.
That and I've romanticized being sad in my head, and these threads really get me in that mood.
I like crying.
Sigh.
>be me in hs
>like this girl, Zoe
>She is the smartest, most caring and thought ful person I know
>Not super pretty
>Don't care, she has a beautiful mind.
>I am not athletic, pretty smart
>Tall and skinny
>Not weak, but not that strong either.
>She has boy friend, pretty similar to me
>She likes me, we are close friends
Am I an asshole to make a move? Am I a pussy to stay back?
Wat do
>>710571834
Always tired, never really bothered w greentext stories so I just come here and HOPEFULLY there's that one or three pictures that just get it out. Half the greentexts here are so obviously fake it bothers me.
>>710572001
would you want a guy moving in on her if she was with you?
>>710572001
If she seems happy, leave her be.
There WILL be more, anon.
Nothing to do with "pussy" to let people be happy.
>>710572001
I'm not great at giving advice. But I'd say don't go for it, if they really love eachother. From the desc. of the girl it seems like it
>be me
>be playing a little of pokemon coliseum on the wii
>winning
>player send out Dustox
>nostalgia hits me pretty hard
>so does fond memories of old friend who gave me an Dustox
>we used to play together, talk, and battle
>left hometown one day and never came back
>start to remember innocence of childhood and how being ignorant was probably the best thing that ever happened to me
>win but
>sad now
>my only good friend was now gone and may have even forgotten me
>just like everyone else
>>710572001
underage b&
>>710569488
I just abandoned most of the people I once called friends. Unfortunately they all treated me like shit behind my back and the house we all lived in split.
At this point I dont give a shit anymore. Why even try to make friends when everybody makes you feel bad for who you are when you dont do shit to them. Why even be in a relationship when its just going to fall flat eventually? To me, nobody fucking matters anymore. All I got is myself and whatever alcohol I have to drink when I need to get wasted.
>>710573018
There's good people in this world, genuinely warm-hearted people.
Go make some of them your friends.
>>710573018
oh man do I know that feel, the 'friends' I have now don't seem to acknowledge my existence I'm just a background character. But i'm with them anyway so I don't feel lonely
>>710572422
jeez man
>be me
>not very social, but more in the way I'm not going to start a conversation
>have a small group of friends, life is easy
>go to college, can't make new friends, don't know what I want to do wiht my life, no gf
>For two years I feel alone and lost, starting to depress because I'm failing everything
>This year, start studies I was interested in for a long time
>Feels good man
>Nice people everywhere, I make new friends and start feeling better
>And then there is this girl, perfect to my eyes
>I grow the balls to ask her for a drink, she says yes
>We talk for an hour or two, best time of my entire life
>I get back home and ask her if she wants to go out during the week-end
>She tells me she's not looking for any relationship right now
>Feel pretty broken inside
It's going better right now but I don't know if I should wait or forget her. I'd like to be at least friend with her, but I can't stop thinking about her, and I'm really lost in all of this
>>710573362
thats unusual i never see my story here ill answer any questions if anyone has some -Icarus
^So late
>>710573229
I tried man. I just cant bring myself to do it anymore. The only real friends I have are the ones that live states away from me that I know I will never meet in person.
>>710573278
You dont need them. If they constantly make you feel that way then take them out of your life. There's nothing wrong with solitude. It may get hard after awhile but you will get used to it.
>>710573805
I don't really get it Icarus, why were they planning to hurt you? What have you done to them, and Sara? Was it enough that you beat Chad up once?
>>710574009
i never truly got along with chad, i was passive agressive to him the whole year, i always thought chad planned it inactively, hed been thinking about doing it and just got some kids to beat me up and party.
>>710573982
You'll meet them one day Anon, thanks for the advice. Good luck my fellow /b/rother.
>>710573982
Friends are friends, doesn't matter the distance.
All of my friends are 400+ miles away as well, but I do hope to meet them someday.
>>710573891
Fuck man... you trying to make me an hero?
>>710574154
What about Sara? What was her motivation? I thought you were friends sincs early childhood
what music do you listen to when you /feel/
>related
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mIYtrFzH7Ao
>>710574347
I'm trying to keep on living.But the voices..the feelings everything together makes it near to impossible.I need to change myself...but eh..as always ... I won't
>>710569488
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mItWfoNnUag
>>710574494
game music
not sure why but it's always brought me back home. I listen to Undertale's soundtrack, please call me a faggot.
>>710574917
Undertale's soundtrack is pretty cool. Even though I never played it, Megalovania is still my ringtone... My phone never plays it.
>>710574917
Same. Undertales OST is great. I have "Last Goodbye" as my ringtone and Megalovania as my alarm.
Homestuck has some good songs too and Toby Fox has done a lot of the OST for that
>>710574154
I know people hold grudges and wait forever to get revenge. But theres no way he convinced everyone to beat you up if they didnt all hate you. You must of been the biggest asshole of all at your hs.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KEXQkrllGbA
Long story. I'll give you a post-long paraphrase if you want.
>>710575348
Or Chad was rich and bribed them to do it.
>>710574566
Changing is so much effort man. Ive been trying for years and i still rarely get out of bed and off /b/. This first few times motivation comes easier. But each time you try and fail you just lose more and more of yourself to the point trying to get better is nearly impossible.
Should I tell her I love her
I doubt she feels the same but is it worth trying?
I'll share my story /b/ros
>be me 7/10 skinny beta sophomore faggot
>meet qt3.14
>we start talking and shit and we go out on dates
>one night we kiss and say confess our feelings to each other
>go home and get a text saying my ex tried killing herself
>whatdo.jpg
>tell my friend who back stabbed me
>girl finds out and complained about me not telling her
>tell her
>says she doesn't wanna hear about it
>ends up saying she honestly can't deal with me and leaves
>sadboys2002.png
>meet this other qt3.14
>talk for 2 weeks she keeps my mind off shit
>eventually find out she used me to get back with her ex
>friends leave and talk shit about me constantly
>stay home and wish i could drink the emotions or smoke them away
>no alcohol
>no weed
>phone's drier than the Savannah desert
>listen to sad trap music and wonder why i gotta deal with this shit
>mfw I've just stopped giving a fuck anymore.
Just posted this as it's own thread and it's not going anywhere so I'll give it a go here.
>Got dumped by my gf of two years a couple of months ago under dubious circumstances
>She said that we should take a break for a while because she wants to focus on her kid.
>She goes right back to chasing cock the day following and is in a new relationship about a month later with a man that I was suspicious of while we were dating.
>When I find this out I get annoyed that I still have a few of her books around here and ask her if she still wants them as I am getting rid of stuff
>Tells me she will be away for two weeks and asks if she can pick them up when she gets back. She is visiting new bf who is out of town.
>While clearing stuff out of my place I realize I lost track of her books
>Decide to order her new copies of them on amazon.com and think wtf am I doing?
>Now anticipating hearing from her upon her return next week and it's pissing me off to no end. Just starting to crawl out of the ditch she left me in and don't know if I could stand the sight of her now all things considered.
Coming to my senses now and thinking I'll just block the bitch and forget about it but that is some bullshit is it not?
I got drunk with my friend and it was like we were bros in that moment just two lonely humans existing and babysitting each other through there extreme drunk andbnown he left to be with his girlfriend I am betrayed what do I d? An hero? Help
>>710575874
Yes, it will help you get over her when she says she feels nothing for you. Or it could be the opposite
>>710575874
Yes. I wish I could go back in time, and tell her how much I had loved her.
I'll never know how she felt. This happened to me 3 times. By my fault.
>>710576278
She's also my best friend
I made a $1500 mistake at work today and I'm worried they're gonna get rid of me for it.
I'm wallowing in misery folks and I need more pictures or stories. Post away. I don't care I just wanna hear. Will not judge I promise
i slept with someone a few times and I know they have no interest in a relationship, despite the fact that we obviously get along,
>we're just in different stages of our lives right now and
... then why are we in the same position to end up sleeping with one another? then why are we able to have coherent conversations? then why do we have things in common? Those words mean literally nothing to me other than
> you're too young for me and I wouldn't want to be seen in public with you
and then the
> you remind me of my ex girlfriend
and well anyways i kept sleeping with him cuz im ronery as fuck, i got a few cuddles here and there and the dick is good, but hes confused as to why i 'haven't cum' yet - we've just been doing penetration, not really any foreplay, and he wonders why i'm not orgasming?
> How often do you masturbate?
he asks me, at first it seemed hot, but now he's thinking that i've rubbed myself and broken myself, which is not the case - i defended myself a bit there and gave some info on things that turn me on, shit that would make me cum and
> well that just sounds like a lot of work
and i just laughed it off because, id rather be with someone who is just using me as a cumdumpster than sit at home lonely as fuck. At least when im worrying about whether or not he likes me, I'm distracted from the fact that I'm too sick (health probs) to ever have someone healthy commit to me in a long term relationship.
>>710576382
My best friend confessed to me once, I said we could try. Didnt even like him that way but cared about him alot. A day later he tried to cuddle with me while we watched Predator and I pulled away, it was just too weird. I felt bad because do care about my friend, but its been like 10 years now and hes married. everythings fine :>
Hey Kevin,
I still can't stop thinking about you and it hurts so much. Maybe I should have asked for your phone number last time we chatted.
Whenever you're online, I'm so happy. And missing you makes me want to wall off my emotions.
I know things got difficult for you and I'm horriblysorry I want able to be there. I juat want to take the passion away.
I'm constantly checking Skype for your log in status.
>>710576577
oh man.. story?
>>710576970
Fuck you with your everything's fine bullshit everything's not fine kill me I want to die fuck you
>>710576889
How are you sick?
>>710569488
Neely
>>710576172
Don't an hero, drink with us
>>710577130
I fucked up and quoted a customer an incorrect rate for a deal. About a $1500 difference. They took the info and said they'd call back tomorrow before I could get a callback or a name and hung up. A couple people told me not to worry about it since we didn't finalize it but my boss was pissed at me. It's my first actual fuck up and I actually like my boss so his opinion matters alot to me. I don't think they'll fire me but we might lose the business because of it and my boss's respect for me.
>>710573805
She still a cunt mate?
>>710577480
OK I guess I'ma anon now
>>710577705
We could drink together, maybe. I mostly like wine. You'll be OK, bro
>>710569488
Have you ever had to...abandon a former dream (for your future) and adapt another one? I'm fairly sure I've reached that point now. I simply can't afford the dream I thought I wanted to live...
>>710577801
Thanks man in a whole bottle of captain Morgan in right now do maybe I did anyway but you are my people now let's get through this shitty life togetfer
>>710577575
>>710577130
Actually after doing a little thinking it was probably closer to $2200
>>710578015
Shit on his disk, that should earn his respect back.
>>710578015
gl /b/ro
I'm having an existential crisis, I have a crush on a guy who's probably straight and I'm gay, been having terrible bad luck, and a friend of mine in BC is having a psychotic episode and blocked me for suggesting he sleep and I'm worried he's gonna kill himself or something.
>>710578168
Thanks. I'll find out in the morning I suppose
>>710577927
>a nice suit
>but fat
>and alone
He's a good worker who earns a nice wage but, being a natural introvert, doesn't get out much; either to excersize or to meet with anyone. He's like all of us, people who are have something to offer someone but can't manage to make even a friend
>>710577987
You will, in fact, be happy.
>>710578210
Call the local police and tell them what's going on
>>710578330
Are you my fortune cookie
I'm trash
The girl that I love just said me 'no'
My girlfriend and I won't stop fighting and I just want to let her go and be happy, but she's crazy and I'm afraid of what she'll do because I still care about her a lot. Sometimes I just think about killing myself instead, but I can't be that selfish that's just not who I am. I'm 21 years old and bitching about relationship problems like a teenager to a bunch of random people I've never met....
>>710570606
oh my god he found peace at least. i haven't been this happy in a while.
>>710578471
Been there, but may i ask, how do you know you love her? How well do you know her? Have you been in a relationship with her?
Thinking about this helped me understand i didn't actually loved her, that i was only obsessed.
I might not be the best one to help you tho.
It's been 7 years and i got into this thread hoping to talk about it.
>>710578493
anon, don't be ashamed for sharing. this is feels thread and all feels are welcome.
Second, if you are scared of her reaction, that is a really good reason to not be with her. You may need to rip the bandaid off so to speak. It may suck but in the long run, that little bit of pain would be much better than living like your'e walking on eggshells, wasting your 20's wanting to die.
Alone
>Alone used to be my shelter
>Alone used to be my home
>The only place I had, that I could call my own
>It kept me safe, kept my eyes dry
>it was my sweet escape, the only place my mind could fly
>But as I have grown older, seasoned with lifes experiences.
>The place that I once called my refuge.
>Has now become my prison
>Alone is who I am now
>alone is how I roam
>the thing that used to keep me safe,
>now exiles me on my own
>I cannot share, I cannot cry, I cannot love
>believe me I tried. . .
>For I spent so long in my sanctuary
>that it became my penitentiary
>for those who seek to run from pain, be careful how far you flee
>you see,
>all these years I spent trying to stay away, I never stopped to think.
>others were hurting too
> I stopped running today
>just to see if anyone had stayed
>And Finally, i'll say, I think Ive pushed them all away
>And I don't think I can get any lonelier today.
>>710578461
I'd still friend you
>>710578482
That's a lot. The only thing that would be a problem like is your hypochondriac stuff. I dated a guy that was super sensitive about all sorts of things and it made dating him difficult
How far along are you?
I can't understand my life, I'm 23 working class office job, married to someone I genuinely love and has always been so good to me yet every night I lay in bed with her and I'm just sad, like everything in my life is so pointless I don't want to bother with it anymore.. my life isn't bad, but Im not happy, and I can't understand why.
>>710579123
Im not going to even entertain this chart because i highly doubt im living to be 90.
>>710578884
This hits home man.
I honestly don't think i can be anything else than alone by now.
I'm 23 years old and spent it all alone, i don't think i know how to stop, and it fucking terrifies me.
>>710573805
That pulled a real heart string there. Keep in there, I know you will find someone that won't betray you.
>>710575458
this
everyday i will shut down all emotional output and begin to crawl into the most vacant corners of my mind to curl up into a ball and sob.
>>710578876
thank you, i needed this
>>710579244
i wrote this today, never wrote poetry before. This week i pushed away a woman who loved me for a year because i realised im not capable of reciprocating that emotion, and i was wasting her time, I did massive amage to my last remaining friendship from prior service in USMC infantry
Thats how i feel right now, i just wanna tell someone to get it out of my fucking head but theres no one left now
I've all but given up. I bate myself and the fucking disappointment i am, i hate my living situation, i hate almost everyone i used to care about, i can't bring myself to trust people anymore, i'm always paranoid, and have accepted that people will replace me. I haven't done anything wrong, i've been kind to others, but those who were kind were branded as weak. Look at me nowx i'm a hateful mess. The only thing keeping me sane and alive is my girlfriend. I don't know what she sees in me or why she puts up with all that she does, but at least i can smile. It's the one thing i have left of what i used to be.
>>710569488
When I was 10 my parents divorced. When I was 13 my mom remarried a piece of shit drunk, then when I was 14 she was diagnosed with Terminal Breast Cancer. A year later, my grandfather of whom I was very close to died after six weeks of being diagnosed with cancer. Soon after that my dad's stepdad, who I was also close to died. Then a year after that my uncle was hit by a car and killed. Not too much longer than that another uncle's cancer came back. Over the last year my mother has withered away, she's only got 1-2 weeks left and her mind has already moved on. God, it fucking hurts. It's like a nightmare I can't wake up from. I'm only 18 and fucking emotionally destroyed.
>>710579596
That poem made me baww a bit
>>710578841
we have been seeing eachother since april, always watching movies, tv shows, only us. All of her friends always spoke so bad about her personality, the kind of person that she really is, etc. But i fell in love anyway and i tried to see something good in her, sometimes taking care of her, being a gettlement, you know? but it wasnt enought for love me, sry bad english...
>>710578977
I've asked the same question.
>>710579227
Talk with your family doctor or find a therapist. And talk to your wife. What you're experiencing is common and can be treated.
>>710579308
I never said the other stiff was too much. But I don't like to deal with imaginary issues, that's what my ex taught me
>>710572422
I feel you anon
:((
>>710578876
I'm not that anon. But, the same happened to me. When I confessed my feelings, she told me that I didn't love her, that I didn't know what love was. I guess I was just infatuated with her. Years later though we ended up hanging out again and things went where I could only dream. I had the 3 greatest of my life with her until it fell apart about a month ago. I don't know how I'm supposed go on with such a huge part of me thats now gone.
>>710579746
Oh, i can't help you then. Sorry, good luck m8.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9K7rmxjk5RQ&list=RDMMGjsnYmi4z0U&index=27
Oh, for maximum feels yall should listen to the Clint Mansell album - soundtrack to The Fountain
Guaranteed at least 1 tear
>>710576172
Don't an hero. In these feels threads, we are like minded nobodies that try to open ourselves to more nobodies.
>>710579772
I can't force myself to open up to therapists.. I don't know why I feel so free to express myself here when I can't with anyone in my real life.. and I once attempted suicide by overdosing pills now just the thought of taking medicine makes my whole body start to shake.
>>710579666
sorry man
>>710572001
If he's anything like I am he doesn't want to lose her. I really couldn't do that to someone.
>>710579666
I'm gonna give you guys the run-down on my life atm.
>When I was 10 my parents divorced.
>When I was 13 my mom remarried a piece of shit drunk, then when I was 14 she was diagnosed with Terminal Breast Cancer.
>A year later, my grandfather of whom I was very close to died after six weeks of being diagnosed with cancer.
>Soon after that my dad's stepdad, who I was also close to died.
>Then a year after that my uncle was hit by a car and killed.
> Not too much longer than that another uncle's cancer came back.
>Over the last year my mother has withered away, she's only got 1-2 weeks left and her mind has already moved on.
God, it fucking hurts. It's like a nightmare I can't wake up from. I'm only 18 and fucking emotionally destroyed.
>>710580174
My ex used to wrote me stuff like that...
>>710580079
Aren't delusions, by definition, not real?
But I'm sorry, I think we're talking past each other.
>>710580375
Them show them what you've written here or begin a journal and show them that
>>710580448
Thanks man.
>>710571834
Just find one person who likes to hear you complain?
>>710579123
I..is every block really a year of my life? Those weeks where I do nothing and play games really fill up a whole one of those?
Some people are travelling, forming relationships, building themselves for those blocks, and mine are filling up with emptiness
>>710580620
Week*
>>710579666
I'd give you a hug if I could anon, I'm so sorry :(
Atleast you got trips
>>710572422
I used to like dustox because of that one episode where jesse gets him. Kind of sad when I think about it now.
>>710580620
>>710580678
Yes, each block is a week.
Thanks man.
>>710580620
ALL WE DO CRUMBLES TO THE GROUND THOUGH WE REFUSE TO SEE
>>710580522
That journal idea might work.. I'm just worried if they ask me questions after seeing it I won't be able to respond. But thanks anon maybe I can try first with my wife and see how it goes..
>>710580737
Ten love isn't that great.
or
Adult love is at least as exciting and care free, those responsibilities don't dull it as much as you're implying
>best friend and i normally skype and play games together just about every night
>today they aren't responding much when i talk to them on steam
>playing a game with two or three of their other steam friends i don't know
>they haven't said anything to me about these other friends, the game they're playing, or an invitation for me to join them
>i probably shouldn't need an explanation for this but still feel as though i'm being snubbed and ignored in favor of others they haven't mentioned to me
>know i shouldn't feel bad but do
How does someone stop being angry at an ex who lied to them and cheated? It's been two months and just as I think I'm getting indifferent I can't sleep at night because of absolute burning anger.
>>710581004
Don't let those problems hold you back, you'll be fine. And good luck
>>710572001
Doesn't matter what you do. You're in fucking highschool.
>>710581031
Adult
>love
Is just infatuation followed by sex, heartbreak, betrayal, pettiness, anger, and alimony.
>>710581244
You're a cynic. Your view is flawed
>>710581244
Sounds about right.
>>710581085
It only gets worse anon, same thing happened to me now we never talk anymore
sometimes friends just slip away and we never hear from them again
one of my online friends just up and left me and all he said was "Good luck"
>>710581244
Who the fuck cares? I WANT that bullshit, at least it made me feel something nice. I haven't felt anything else than loneliness for almost a decade i'd KILL for that bullshit.
>>710581085
Sometimes people need a break bro. It's probably something going on that they don't know how to tell you about.
Not saying to hang onto this friendship but don't write it out and pretend like it was nothing right away. Let it play out. It's gonna feel bad but people sadly drift apart. Sometimes they come back together and that's all we can hope for. I miss some of my online friends too who've moved on with their lives but that's just it. They've moved on with their lives.
Sometimes we just gotta find a way to do that too. Hope you can find either that friendship again or maybe a way to move on. Praying for you tonight man, blessings to you bro, even if you don't believe in that shit, just know someone's thinkin about your situation man.
>>710581356
Is it? Would you really argue against something like this?
>>710581388
Rick said it best.
>>710581509
It's only an illusion that leads to suffering. Serious suffering. Surely you'd want to avoid suffering.
>>710581509
/cuddles with you/
>>710581244
I just want to be able to connect to people again. Is that so much to ask for.
Whenever I feel sad, I paint space marines and I wonder what it would be like to have unquestionable purpose, to be complete without the desire for love and affection, and to live a short, bright life remembered by those who carry my bolter and armour next.
>4chan
>2016
;_;
>>710581669
The ultimate sadness.
>>710581592
>Surely you'd want to avoid suffering.
Not that kind of suffering, i'd love to feel it again, i almost loved it as much as i loved the person who made me feel it.
>>710581638
Thanks m8.
>>710581155
Amen brother
all of my wow friends just left me after playing the game together for about 7 years
I don't even know where to begin, we had so many good memories. I feel so lonely now
:'(
>>710581089
Time.
We forget everything eventually.
Hopefully that anger will be replaced by happiness with someone else, but all you can do is stay strong and wait it out.
Sorry thread, I seem to have sharted repeatedly in shame.
bbl.
>sleeping
>dream of her
>she's in my house, crying softly.
>says she misses me, says she's sorry
>say i miss her too
>hug her tight, she highs me tighter
>now we're naked in bed
>spooning
>I can feel her skind, soft as silk and warm
>happier than i've ever been
>wake up
>alone and cold in bed
>cry my fucking eyes out
>get up
>go to work
Life fucking sucks.
>>710582109
It seems I'm lucky that I don't dream
>>710573805
Icarus, what reason did Sara have to betray you in such a fashion? Did she even have a reason?
it's been a year. Should I try and hook back up with her?
>>710582316
No, not unless sure calls you
>>710581089
It's just gonna take some time. I'm only two months myself man. She didn't really "cheat" as we were on break but she was definitely looking for a way out cause she knew how invested I was in this shit. She didn't wanna "hurt" me cause she didn't wanna feel like the bad guy but she ended up being that anyways.
I'm so sorry this happened to you man. It's been the worst pain I've felt ever, even more so than being disowned by my family (which was her fault anyway).
Just stay strong brother. I'm thinking and praying for you man, even if you don't believe in that shit man, just know someone's thinking about you tonight and praying for you dude. I hope it works out and things become better, even if it's not with someone else, I hope you find some niche in life to be able to clasp onto to help you wake up and that the dreams you're having of her stop. I hope that eventually your attachment gives up and you let go of her and that she realizes someday of what she did and remorses it so greatly but by that time you'll be happy without her.
We both know it's not going to happen but I hope she misses the shit out of you right now and has some sort of regret as to what she did and how she did it. I hope that new guy/girl she's with fucking treats her like trash and she understands what she gave up.
I know you tried your best /b/rother and I know you can keep trying your best for yourself. I hope you realize this and don't do anything stupid. Never talk to her again but remember that you need to survive this shit. You need to make it out and be better for yourself but know I support you in whatever it is you decide to do to cope with this, even if it's the most self destructive thing ever.
It's pain that life is mostly made of but how we deal with it defines us as "us." And even if it takes us over the edge I understand. I wish and pray for strength for you dude. Be strong man... just stay alive, not for her but for yourself man.
Keep it peacy. love you man.
just a question here, is it strange to tell a female friend that you love them? this is platonically, i mean. my friend and i say i love you to each other all the time and i've been told before that that's abnormal. should i stop doing it?
>>710575998
I was in a similar situation. She used me until she found someone better, she told me we were taking a break so that I would wait on the sidelines in case he decided to get rid of her. I found out later she met him before we even broke up. I had trust issues before I met her and I'm still really afraid of people. I see people that sound like her on 4chan sometimes and it just kills me a little on the inside to think that anyone could do that to someone they claimed to love. I still treat myself like dirt know just to hear someone tell me I'm not and know that they actually mean it.
I never believed anybody who told me I was handsome before or after I dated her.
>>710582109
For a few months straight I had nightmares of committing suicide one day they just stopped, its been 3 and a half years since then and I haven't had a single dream since... It feels surreal but it feels the me in my dreams actually died, although it's probably just my brain coping with those horrible thoughts...
Thought I moved on but I keep forgetting.
>>710582508
>forgetting
If only I could
>>710581669
Lost
>>710575874
Please do, you could never say it and she would never get to hear it from you.
>>710575874
Don't, ask her out first, date for some time, then tell her.
>>710582487
Oh man I feel for both of you. I got that shit too man. The chick I was with was also with me for two years. She started dating some guy her parents said was better.
I'm sure he's more "handsome" and more fit. I don't know why chicks like this have to lie to us and try to make us feel better about ourselves. I just wish people would be straightforward honest with us and fucking just tell us like it is. Then dump is so much earlier on BEFORE the emotional attachment.
I wish they wouldn't be fucking pussy ass bitches to hold onto us till they find someone "better."
I hope that you can find some peace in your solitude. Even if it lasts till the end of your days. I hope that even if you don't find someone you find some contentment in this life no matter how it is, or that someone answers your prayers and kills you (or something kills you) before it becomes too unbearable so that you don't feel like shit anymore.
I'm thinking of you tonight too my brothers. I'm sorry this happened, I know how it feels and I know you'll be okay either way. Just keep fighting, just don't stop, even if it means you have to do what you feel like doing. Just do whatever it is that gives you that relief. Stay safe, or stay peaceful my brothers.
>>710572001
You sound like someone I know anon. Her last name start with an S?
>>710581931
Thanks man. I guess there's just no telling when it finally fades but I sure look forward to that day. It's exhausting!
>>710582444
Dude thanks so much. I don't know what else to say man.
>>710576845
You know I never knew right? I was just happy to have a friend like you.
I feel like my gf doesn't appreciate me
>>be me go out to dinner with bros and gf
>>I pick up the tab 99$
>>imrichbitch
>>go home bake apple pie for roommates and gf
>>tell her she looks pretty anddddd for some reason she gets pissed and refuses to touch me
>>wat
she does stuff like this a lot where she gets pissed at me out of no where
>> mfw I have GRE in day
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>>710583102
Don't say anything man, just live and make it. Do it for the lot of us who know where you're at so we can meet at the end of wherever it is we're going and live without all this shit.
Live without the need to feel something form of recognition of other people, or even the acknowledgement of others; just live my brother and keep fighting through it.
We've got your back.
>>710582487
That sounds really familiar. Mind did the same fucking thing. Told me we were taking a break because she wanted to focus on her kid then ran off with the guy who I was suspicious of all along. So if she wasn't already fucking him something was obviously already developing there. That to me is as good as cheating really. Fuck that bitch man fuck her. And fuck your ex bitch too. These days they have so many orbiters and poachers surrounding them like flies on shit that it's just disgusting. What are we supposed to do with that. Makes me go in the direction of MGTOW.
>>710569488
>Be me.
>Fall in love with a pretty slut.
>Date for two years
>Get cheated on relentlessly
>Get dumped at a halloween party
>Cry
>Call her a cunt infront of everyone
>Get thrown out
>Break hand and nose on stop sign
>Try to get back the following march
>Make that pussy comatose.
>Contract gonnorhea.
>Rip
What a riveting love story
>>710575916
>Savannah desert
it's the fucking Sahara desert you asshole
why the fuck did you have to say her name
>>710583298
Sounds like she's in that "I'll get mad untill he gets why i'm getting mad" mindset.
Try to talk to her about it, remind her that you can't read minds and that you can't fix what you don't know is broken.
Maybe she just thought you guys were going on a date alone, who knows.
>>710578210
What if he was in this thread
>>710582853
Well I guess in my case I can rest assured that the new guy is a fat ugly redneck.
It's the dishonesty that gets me too. My ex prided herself on having no filter and not sugar coating anything too. Well so much for that! She actually told me once that she lied to me because she loved me. It's just amazing how they can rationalize their own evil like that. Always an excuse and it's always your fault somehow. Fucking cunts.
>>710583344
That's a very stoic outlook. It's true that a lot of this angst comes from giving a fuck about what some asshole, or bitch in this case thinks of us. Fuck them.
>>710583727
>It's just amazing how they can rationalize their own evil like that
We all have the need to feel like the good guy, or at least not the bad guy. You'd be amazed at the mental gimnastics your brain can do without you even knowing.
>>710583302
Fuck me, that's sad.
>>710583727
And that's what it feels like. But we don't know how to rationalize it. People say there's "plenty of fish in the sea" but sometimes we don't play by the rules society expects us to in order to be able to obtain that same happiness. Sometimes we're so bluepilled that we realize that there's no way to really find that other person who probably lives in some pigme villiage on the other side of the planet across 20000 miles of sea that we'll never see.
Everyone else is lying to themselves, even like these people. But they'll never stop lying because they'll never open their eyes to this reality that even when you're with someone, no matter how perfect, you'll always be yourself. And that alone makes you a lonely individual. It's just about distracting yourself from this concept.
Some are just lucky to find someone else who can do that for them or think they're giving enough time of their day to do this.
If not then be selfish /b/rother.
Just be selfish and keep doing what you need to do just like she did. She was selfish first. Now it's your turn, Just fight for what you need to do to make yourself happy, even if it's drugs, alcohol, suicide or if you find something to help you keep living.
>>710583928
Yep I know. Truthfully I've been on the other end of this sort of shit too in the past. I guess I got mine. It makes me think I should be really careful to always be more honest myself.
I'm really sick and the only person that can help is some guy I been seeing 2 years and he won't even reply to my text. I can't even instacart some food or meds because the next delivery isn't until 11am. I feel like I'm going to die from throwing up my guts. But I feel more worse that the guy I been seeing for 2 years can't even take the time to help me when I helped him when he was sick.
>>710584116
Yeah I did the booze thing heavily for two months and just getting off it now. I will eventually get back to my life as it was before I got myself into that mess. There were signs that she was a complete slut early on and I should have seen it coming really. One thing I plan on doing soon is traveling a lot. I think it would help to clear my head of the whole ordeal.
>>710583302
That's really sad, I'm so sorry if any of you have a relative like this.
>>710583867
Eventually you have to find a way to cover yourself from it. It really is about ignoring it somehow. Distractions is all it takes but it's still there.
They say that the brain never forgets the things that we experience it unless someone takes it out by surgery or some sort of physical trauma.
I just wish sometimes that we could shut it off so we don't feel it. I really wish we could.
But sometimes all we can do is pretend like we can.
Just tell yourself everyday when you wake up that, "It's gonna be okay."
When you think about her, tell yourself, "It's gonna be okay."
If you're alone and drunk tell yourself, "It's gonna be okay."
If you see her with someone else out on the street and I hope for your own mental well-being you don't, tell yourself "It's gonna be okay."
Even if you don't believe it, eventually, regardless of what you decide to do, it's gonna be okay.
Have bad anxiety. Constant belief of inadequacy. Constant self-loathing. I have friends, but for whatever reason I still feel empty. I've never had a relationship and with my personality I doubt I ever will. I live decently with a family that loves me, but it doesn't make me feel any better about myself. I sometimes have suicidal thoughts, don't know why. This limbo sucks.
Alone alone alone alone alone alone alone alone
>>710584495
It's getting close anon, my grandma forgets who I am. It was her birthday yesterday
>>710584482
Still doing the booze thing man. I didn't do it initially but I had to go back on the sauce. I gave it up for her and I realized that without her around I can do it to numb the pain.
I'll get back off of it again too eventually. I'm no real alcoholic. Just trying to deal with stuff too. Safe travels my brother. I hope you find what you're looking for. I hope that whatever it is that holds this world together will guide you to whatever it is, even if you don't find someone else; that maybe even in solitude there is peace. Maybe find contentment in the smallest things, just keep looking, keep searching for some light that doesn't involve her lies; the darkness that she promised you even in the light that may have seemed like the sure way out of this misery.
>>710584652
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3oJm2S5F-7w
Welcome to Loneliness.
>>710584588
Yeah I've been doing that actually funny enough. As cheesy as it sounds I'm starting to realize that the love I gave to her I neglected to give myself. It's like I began to hate myself and love my abuser almost, and I'd say she was psychologically abusive not just to me but to her daughter as well. A real piece of work that one.
I like guys who are forward, but I'm deathly nervous and it makes it seem like I'm pushing people away. I don't know how to talk unless I'm drinking, I haven't texted anyone more than three times in the past month. I don't know what to do, or how to talk to people on any level
yo kevin i know you really dont have much of a life and I try to help you, but you're just too miserable, you're too self-centered and you even say you are and started therapy, and its been a while since I've talked to you and I know ur too shy/timid/anxious to talk to me afraid ill say something bad even though i've never done that and I wouldnt dare because im ur friend. but you just don't see my like that im always here for you. I'm just giving u some space now and im not talking to u because you're so angry all the time. I have my girlfriend I have my gym and I have my games and life, but i'll always be you're friend ready to talk to you when you're ready to, but from how long i've known you since middle school to now you've always been the same. rage induced and pitiful, as I grew and got better at games, stronger, more attractive and experienced with my life you've remained the same raging kid and I wish you'd grow up, and when you do ill be here to talk to you, hopefully you DO grow up
>>710584715
My grandma got like that before dying, it fucking sucks.
She started asking where my grandpa was (dead before i was even born), thought my cousin was my aunt, didn't recognize me or my mom or anyone.
The worst part is that, when we knew she was about to die, i thanked her for all the stuff she'd done for me (Honestly, the only person who believed in me so hard) but she didn't even remember any of it, she was just like "meh".
Fuck, i'm crying now.
Maybe I'm meant to be alone
>>710584904
Yep, and as we realize the neglect we give ourselves, I think in someway they realized it too. I hope that they do though anyway even though we both know it's probably some fancy flight dream.
Just keep reminding yourself she wasn't in it for you and that's the reason you should never go back. A relationship takes two people, it takes two people giving equally even if it hurts them a bit because it's almost a shared loss but one that makes you whole.
Sometimes you need to find yourself again after everything you gave, even if you think she gave more than you, you gave everything you had and then some. She just didn't appreciate it, and she never will.
Someday you'll find yourself again and that's what you need to search for and focus on. Find yourself after you gave everything away. Remind yourself that you are still fighting for someone. That someone is you. You know what you need to do, I don't know what it is but you do, regardless, I wish you the best of luck. I hope that the "god" that is out there, cynical or not blesses you with some sort of insight to be able to find yourself again so you can be whole again, and regardless if you find another person to share it with, or if you just end up by yourself that you find some contentment past all the guilt and anger you are feeling now for wasting so much on someone who didn't really care about you.
Find some caring for yourself again /b/brother. Find yourself again for you and you alone. Stay strong.
>>710584715
I'm so sorry anon, you should do something with her everyday, whether or not she remembers it will be special to her every single time.
>>710585238
Been there, don't go there, it's fucking dark.
>>710585196
It's alright anon you can't change it now
That's what hurts me, the fact that I barely saw her when she was healthy
No-one ever visits her but my mum, she's the only person my nan recognises anymore. It hurts to watch
As I watch this smart, well-read, introverted, shy, quick-witted, lady be reduced to a child. It hurts so fucking bad and there's nothing I can do
>>710585238
Maybe, and I feel the same way.
Sometimes if that's how it is we have to find happiness in it. Maybe there isn't that "special someone" out there and maybe you have to rely on yourself to find some happiness in this life.
But that's the whole point. Sometimes it feels like we're watching a lonely movie wishing we were the main characters as friends and family grow older and find happiness in someone else.
Eventually the movie stops and realize that we're just ourselves and nothing's going to change that and we go back to the reality that there's not always someone waiting for us. As depressing as it is there's always a hope to find happiness in something. If it's suicide, if it's food, if it's drugs, working out, beer, alcohol, or other friends, we'll find it some day.
Just keep fighting for it or find the strength to do what it is YOU feel you need to do to cope with it.
I hope that this finds you well brother. I hope you find a path to set yourself on to distract you from the loneliness that is this life or that eventually whatever it is that's ailing you will overcome you and give you the final peace you need.
In the mean time I'm thinking of you tonight, stay strong.
>>710573682
Right now I'm in the second year of your story. I hate college, honestly. I don't know what to do.
>>710585241
Amen to that. Thanks a lot it really helps. It's easy for me to forget that it's ok to put myself first now. I know that when I was with her I would have far worse hangovers and I think it was the strain of putting everything I had into her while knowing that something just wasn't right in the back of my mind.
https://youtu.be/EETYBwHpTuM
"Of course I'm lonely..."
>>710573018
Same exact situation happened to me about four years ago. Looking back probably the happiest I had been since I was a child
Huge group of friends, two of opened up to me. Told me things they hadn't told any one. We were close, then they became paranoid when they did some shit together that would cost them their relationships. So they turned every one against me. I have basically one actual friend right now. And as sad as it sounds she's probably the best friend I've ever had. Keeps me afloat when things suck.
Just give it time. Maybe I'm lucky but maybe you might be to and you'll find that friend. And it isn't sexual. She's gay and I'm in a three year relationship. We hang out once a week and have a few beers and just talk. I need that. Just do your self a favor. Keep your self busy and put your self out there
>be me
>most in shape out of sll my friends
>joined the marine corps officer program
>go to college
>find nothing but empty faces and soul crushing doubt
>say that i don't have time for anyone even though I do
>hide in my engineering studies
>when they're complete i read philosophy
> i fear we are already lost
> all men are inherently good, until we are corrupted one by one
>malice, fear, lust, all but the guardsmen to sleep which keep the evil at bay
> just want to be free
>can't be free
>honor bound to fight for the blood of my people stains my soul
>maybe hope in trump, but can't speak on it. Otherwise face punishment
>maybe not, agrarian freedom gone
>can it come back
> must the dark one destroy us, so the world may be built a new
>don't know if we can come back
>have to fight
I must
>>710585774
Absolutely man. Just remember that no matter what happens you still have a responsibility to you, it's just you left a big part of yourself with her when she left you man.
But regardless of this you still have to care for yourself and eventually, even if it takes years and years, you'll find it again. You'll find peace in whatever it is that you decide to do.
Godspeed to that, I hope the next few days/weeks/months/years go by quickly for you. Thinking of you man. Just know someone is out there thinking and praying for you dude to find whatever it is you're looking for.
>>710585370
The problem is that everyone thinks I'm a great person, few actually speak ill of me. But it feels as if I'm only good as a friend.
Call me a day I don't care. Just know that I love and care for each and everyone of you that are sad and heart broken.
>>710573018
Fucking people are shit man. I find it very hard to have any meaningful friendships in the city where I live (Toronto). People here are shallow as fuck and untrustworthy as well. I'm pretty much a complete hermit at this point. I know that feel man.
>>710585931
Silence is your best friend /b/rother. Sometimes even if we have a contrarian attitude or view, sometimes it's okay to have that, even if we have to stay quiet about it.
I don't agree with everything that Trump says but I know it's not going to be the end of the world if he becomes president.
I fear the public more than I do the presidents. I fear the fact that people will riot and make peace unreachable just by their own selfish attitudes.
Even so, I hope you can find some peace in all of this. I hope that people realize how impotent this last year has made everyone to the real concepts of a community, and not some selfish political agenda that may or may not affect the rest of a generation that has imploded on itself based on safe spaces and freedoms that impede on the what they're fighting to protect.
I hope you find peace my /b/rother. I really do. Godspeed.
>>710586173
We all know that feel brother. The fucking normies are lies, no care for the purpose of life or to mean something. All the people at my fucking college, all they want is to get fucked up.
>>710585543
I do appreciate that. My coping is working until I cannot stand, at least I can have some cash to eventually find another activity to help. I'm embracing the fact I will be alone, it does not make that easier. All I want is someone to say hello to when I get back from a fourteen hour work day.
>>710586156
Thanks man, even though i don't know you it somehow helps.
>>710586156
Thanks man
>>710586446
I know.
Find peace in solitude though. Say hello to yourself after that 14 hour day. You somehow did it before you met him/her.
You can find a way to do that again.
>>710586380
It's the way the culture has gone. People have lost any sense of meaning or purpose and have drowned in the shallow end chasing their crotches around and trying to acquire more and more stuff, cheap thrills and pleasures to fill the void that is their utterly vapid lives. It's depressing as fuck but what can you do?
>>710586156
Thank you so much anon ;_;
>>710571327
>>710586587
One day it will get better. Not soon, but later. Once it gets comfortable enough to say hello and realize I'm my own best company
>>710569488
I lost my dogo years ago, she was a christmas gift from my grandma ween I was Five, she was loyalest dogo you could ever imagined, 15 years of good memories, when I left for studies, I left her in my house, she then become sick and my family took her to the vet, the fucker said she wouldn't last one week, I was devasted, I wasn't able to return home for a month, and guess what, she survived that month, I was so happy, I though the vet was a retard, then, the day I returned home she spend the whole day with me... she died the next day, I'm crying while I writte this, This little badass motherfucker survived one whole month just to say good bye to me, man, that broked me, one part of my soul died with her, best fucking dog ever, sweet dreams little princesd, miss you Willy
Sorry for the bad english, I'm just a batshit crazy Mexican
>>710579244
Me too
I'm crying
What do I do man I'm also 23, I don't want to die alone
I'm worried /b/. And drunk. But mostly worried. I'm in college right now, going for a degree that I don't really care about but I don't dislike, and failing. I'm really an awful student, but I'm here on scholarship and feel like I can't quit. My mother died a few years ago and I've never lived with my dad, I've just bounced around between members of my family for the last few years, and now that there's a very good possibility that I may lose my scholarship and be thrust into real life, I'm terrified. I don't have any friends anymore. I went across the country for college and most of my old friends don't talk to me anymore and vice versa. I've made a few friends here, but not many. But at the same time, I'll feel awful to leave the friends I have made here when I have to go home. Which I do, it's far too expensive and far too hot to stay in this state.
I'm lonely and I'm lost and I feel like I need a couple more years before I'm ready to be a real adult, but I don't know how to get them. I'm mainly staying in college to forestall the inevitable real life that follows at this point, but I don't think I'm going to make the grades to keep my scholarship.
The fuck... I was just fine before I came in this thread
>Be 10 year old me playing in a soccerteam
>Me and this kid called Yuri become decent buddies
>Yuri always tells me hes jealous of how high i can jump
>Realised its cause i was quite a bit taller
>"Just keep practicing Yuri!"
>"But ill never be as good as you anon!"
>1 year later
>Yuri gets better and faster than me
>Coach wants to give Yuri the goalgetter position
>"Thats where anon should be cause he is faster and jumps higher!"
>He was definitely faster and fitter than me
>Yuri didn't care
>Looks at me with a big happy smile and a glimmer in his eyes
>Feel like i have a real friend
>One night of practice Yuri doesn't arrive
>He left his house a little later than usual
>He was almost there, just 1 more traffic light
>the bus passed by, no time to waste!
>starts pedalling
>there was another bus
>it came from the oppositie direction
>Yuri tries to pedal to avoid the oncoming vehicle
>The bus hits him
>Yuri dies on the way to the hospital
>He wasn't fast enough
>But he will always be faster than me
>>710586904
Just keep looking forward to it.
Remember there's going to be a day when you'll be able to do that regardless.
>>710586237
Thanks /b/rother. It just scares me, this place and one person i really know are the only ones I can talk to. I try to find something every day to hold onto. But people I rarely can. I feel that I am destined to serve my country but that is all i have, my one drive. I feel the darkness of our world imploding on me. Our forebears would fight to reclaim the freedom we have lost. But we cannot, why? I take take my strength in knowing there are others like you and that maybe if I learn from the system now, i can dismantle it before all is lost.
>>710586986
I'm a month shy of 20 and feel the same way. I've had one girlfriend and she was awful, and otherwise I've never even had any female friends. Certainly none I talk to anymore. I'm afraid I'm going to die alone too.
can we all just die already
>>710587335
Keep holding on to yourself then man. You don't see it but you are a solid foundation by knowing rationality and looking above and beyond the general swaying of society that only comes from the sands of time.
You know that eventually they will die out and no matter how alone you feel right now, eventually that loneliness will be comfort in your survivorship.
As people find ways to try to lie to themselves as the ship sinks around them you've already built yourself a life raft of looking past the "nice" " fake" things that this world has to offer and attained true inner peace.
I hope that everything you do will lead you to this even as the world burns around us, no matter whose opinion does what to whomever is there.
I hope that eventually either you find someone to share your views with or find peace in knowing that in some fucked up way you were right about it all along and that your beliefs hold true for your sake.
Stay strong /b/rother. I wish you the best in the worst of times.
>>710571414
Same. I could never actually talk about my depression in real life
>>710587348
Sometimes we die alone. It's how it is /b/rother. But you need to focus on the you that makes you feel better about yourself.
It IS selfish and people will hate you for it but you need to find a way to care for you. I know sometimes it feels like forever away but I hope that you can find someone to appreciate your kind soul, your lonely soul and that they will be your light.
Or if you're like me and are destined to walk a lonely life that you find some means of comfort. Whatever that is I am hoping and praying that you find something to aid you on this lonely path.
Sometimes we have to grin and bear it, if it means something that ends our lives or if it's something that helps sustain it, just keep moving forward. Don't ever quit. Peace to you /b/rother. Stay strong.
>>710573682
Top cringe, anon
You don't even know her. Just work up the balls to keep asking girls. It's statistics. Swing at more balls. Hit more home runs.
>>710587295
>gotta go fast
>>710586634
I try to abstain from it all but the degeneracy is everywhere. I have so far succeeded since I began reading the words of christ but further the volumes of men from other times discussing the beauties and hard truths of the world. I found out at military medical processing that I am infertile. If I cannot bring someone to this world that may continue my line, and tgat u cannot raise to my best. I just hope for a death that means something among my fellow marines. I'm am sorry to rant to you /b/rother but I have none else to speak to.
>>710587462
Sometimes I wish I could find myself in death too /b/rother. But you haven't killed yourself for some reason just yet.
If it even means the smallest nick in the proverbial stones of life you can find a way to leave your mark.
If it means making some sort of happiness for yourself of finding a way to just cope because you're like me and too chickenshit to end it yourself.
I hope that whatever it is that you're wishing for will find you peace. Be it, cancer or some ailment that takes your life so you don't have to yourself, or if, deep down, you want to live that you find peace in something that gives you a reason to keep fighting, be it a person or something that you love, I hope you find peace. Stay strong /b/rother. Be safe, or at least be happy in whatever it is you do.
>>710587919
do you feel depressed
or do you just not feel anything
im the latter, and i'm wondering if its depression
>>710587784
The same to you brother, i wish you the best. Your words help me retain my strength, and I hope that this world or the next brings to you what you seek.
>>710586156
Thank you anon <3
>>710588207
people are all liars
im tired of people
fuck people
i dont have a reason to end my life but i dont have a reason to keep going so im just gonna be here hoping shit gets better
>>710588395
Same (not the guy quoted in the post) but I've been feeling like I want to be dead, but too afraid to kill myself. I found a lumpin my throat yesterday (not an adam's apple either) that I'm kinda hoping is cancer. I plan to let it just stay there or go away, whatever happens, I was kinda hoping it was cancer though so I don't feel so guilty about "it" killing me as opposed to myself.
I'm trying to get my debt in order so my family doesn't have to suffer through it. And eventually if I go to the doctor and have him confirm it, then fine, if it's cancer I can die alone and fine without knowing that it's going to hurt anyone beyond some natural cause.
I just am too chickenshit to gun myself down about it.
Even so, just keep doing whatever it is that you need to do to make yourself happy. I hope that whatever it is that you find to fix you situation or what not distracts you from this ill shit that's plagued your life. Be safe and be strong.
>>710587981
My vehicle is about the only thing I care about. But I really can't afford that hobby either.
>>710576382
Fuck. That fuckin sucks man. I'm going through the same thing kinda. I love him so much it would hurt me a thousand times more if we lost our friendship than if he dated someone else. That's the reason I haven't told him.
>>710588180
I hear you man loud and clear. I also try not to get caught up in it but I gets to be nearly impossible. The culture is absolutely saturated with degeneracy and it seams none of us are immune to it no matter how hyper aware of it we are. It's not easy at all to try to stand completely alone. I fall into it all the time by getting wasted at the local bars when I get lonely. It's a hell of a tide of shit that we're up against.
>>710588679
People are always lying. You lie to yourself even now that you're able to stand whatever pain it is that you might be facing.
The fact that you're typing here is more than proof of that.
But you realize there's a deeper truth to this all and that as humans we lie to ourselves to try to make it better.
I hope you can find a "lie" that works for you though because deep down you know that's what's going to help you get through this. No matter what happens just keep telling yourself (lying to yourself) that it's going to be okay.
Even if you can't find "someone" or that "something" that eventually something will help you find some meaning in all of this. And that maybe you'll find some lie that makes you feel better about whatever it is you're going through.
>>710588713
It's something, build on it, even if that car dies out, if it's something to hold onto just do it.
or if it makes you feel better just do something drastic that gives you that sense of protection (so long as it doesn't hurt others of course).
Stay strong, keep that car running, or carry on its spirit to remind yourself why you're living.
Even if it is something petty.
>>710569488
>be me
>be with gf of 11 months
>I cheated on her circa 4 months ago
>it's a long story but it was a horrible and regrettable decision fueled by stupid life choices
>feel extreme guilt
>decide the only right and manly thing to do is to tell her
>explain to her everything
>she doesn't want to give me up
>she is in massive emotional pain but she loves me
>she only found out yesterday but has been talking to me and wants to make things work, knowing that I regret the decision wholeheartedly and want nothing but to make her happy
Did I do the right thing bros? Should I have held in the guilt and suffered for her? She said she's glad I told she but I simply don't known
>>710577150
Fuckin same
I've seen many of you saying you want to find your peace in death and I cannot say i haven't thought all the same at some point. Try and find something you can do to make the world better. The good men of the world may truely fail in our time and all hope may be lost, but that doesn't mean we stop trying. We will find the fruit of our labor in the next world but we must experience the burden of this one.
>>710588712
only solution is leaving this routine
either working out or being a serial killer, or wandering around the country like a hobo
Sadness is an emotional pain associated with, or characterized by, feelings of disadvantage, loss, despair, grief, helplessness, disappointment and sorrow. An individual experiencing sadness may become quiet or lethargic, and withdraw themselves from others. An example of severe sadness is depression. Crying is often an indication of sadness.[1]
>>710589099
Time will tell.
Just make sure you know you're doing everything everyday to let her know you love her and never make the same stupid ass mistake again.
Being honest and communicating is probably the best thing you can do, maybe holding it in might have helped out too but the fact you felt compelled to tell her makes you even more of a man than I could ever be. I just hope it doesn't come back to bite you in the ass.
Just stay strong in all of this. I wish the best for you and her.
>>710589627
Do stuff that won't leave you in infamy. You'll never find true peace that way.
Something that improves the self rather than destroying someone else's life. You'll regret that later for sure regardless of what mental state you are in you'll know that by destroying their lives will only further drive yours down to meaninglessness. Stay strong in the mean time don't do something stupid but do something for yourself.
I know this thread will die soon.
I hope the lot of you don't that I've talked to tonight.
I'm going through some stuff too myself.
But I hope that whatever it is I said to you tonight in my drunken stupor helps you. I mean everything that I said regardless of the state I'm in.
I wish you all well but I need to head off.
Peace to the lot of you /b/rothers fighting through family crisis, break ups and just existential meaning too.
I hope you find whatever it is you're looking for in whatever means of self that you need to find YOU again. I love you my /b/rothers. Please stay strong.
>>710589722
I'm fairly certain through what she's told me and what I know about her (everything tbh) she isn't just doing it to get some sort of revenge, and I have been trying to do that, Jesus I just feel so horrible for the pain I've caused her
>>710590421
Then be ready for whatever pain she's going to inflict on you.
It's only human but show her your remorse. Show her you care about whatever it is you're feeling and that you feel for her. Regret is the worst thing to cast on yourself but it's there to remind us of what's important.
Just keep fighting for her and whatever you have between you two. Just daily ask yourself why you're still with her and let her go if you don't think it's going to make HER happy too.
Just be ready /b/rother.
And take care of yourself and her in the mean time. I wish you well.
>>710590319
I love you anon
I didn’t think that I’d ever make it this far.
I have an apartment, I’m going to school. I’m even a college athlete.
I can talk to people now, I have friends, I’ve had girlfriends, sex.
I’ve had jobs, life decisions, I can take care of myself for the most part.
I’ve gotten all of this and expected it to fill something missing.
But it doesn’t.
I lack purpose. I was born to do something that I don’t know what is, or worse I fear, isn’t there.
I don’t know what to do. If I keep walking the path I’ve been going, do I end up like a washed out human?
Doing only what society expects of me and then die without ever finding my true purpose?
I thought, a passion, or person, or idea, or something would fill the role.
But there hasn’t been.
And I’m just living.
And it doesn’t feel like a life at all.
It feels hallow and quiet.
A silent feeling that I feel that I can’t express.
So I keep going.
Hoping to find purpose.
Or that purpose will find me.
>>710588395
I was stuck in the limbo for months until recently i realized it is depression. It keeps getting worse since I started smoking and it fuckin sucks.
>>710585931
Is that you Capt. McArthur?
>>710590816
descrbie it
I literally don't feel anything
physical pleasure is all I have
>>710590620
Saving this for a rainy day anon. You don't know how much this means to me. I love you too anon. I love you too.
>>710573805
Icarus, not much can make my cry from reading a sad story. That brought nearly to tears.
>>710591179
Saved as my new wallpaper. Thanks anon.
>>710569488
I love my best friend but he likes someone else. I can't stand him being sad about his failed love life because I'm literally there adoring him in every fuckin way possible. I love his awkwardness, his shyness, his humor, his pessimist approach to everything, his face, his smell, everything. I hate feeling this way towards another human.
>>710586156
trying to win social brownie points on an anonymous image board, or fulfill some narcissistic fantasy?
gtfo here you cancerous motherfucker.
why dont you all just get together and suck each others dicks?
y'all motherfuckers fag this place up too much
>kill yourselves already, whiny fucking faggots
>>710571662
the fuck is this?
>>710591058
I don't feel genuinely happy or sad. I feel like a I'm missing something inside. I have no motivation to do anything. I go to school because I have to but I have no plans after graduation. It's just emptiness. No motivation. Nothing.
>>710591598
thank you, this is exactly how it is for me.
I've been depressed before, but I don't feel like that these days, yet you said its depression, how come?
>>710573891
turn down the gay\
>>710591417
Anon photoshopped out someone he loved.
>>710591820
Apathy and emptiness are symptoms of depression my friend.
>symptoms
>anxious, empty, apathetic, hopeless, helpless, worthless, guilty, irritable, angry,[3] ashamed or restless.
Also, I'm pretty sure it's not normal to feel this way.
>>710581089
Time, and staying busy. If you can't sleep, you should work more or exercise more during the day. Do something productive that requires a lot of energy to the point where you are physically exhausted and do this every day. eventually you will either replace those feelings with nothing, or you will start to feel other things. best of luck anon, its not easy.
>>710591078
I know this anon is probably asleep by now but that was the biggest experience I've ever had on 4chan in my 5 years of being in this hellhole
>>710581592
Mine so far: double the size of the play area, with a little less school. throw in a couple works. I'm 30 and I can't bring myself to crush my soul into a 40 hour a week job and waste away the rest of my life doing that. I think this is why people end up homeless. God knows why i am not already. Anyway, I don't really regret it, and i'm not sure i would change it honestly. Not really sure what my point is. Someone give me encouragement to work maybe? Or not. I don't really give a fuck about anything at this point.
>>710581924
I had a similar situation. I feel for you bro, but realize that if they left you, they weren't really your friends.
>>710593274
I'm sure he'll remember. I hope you do too. Just keep repastaing it so it'll live on!!
>>710582176
Oh my god, how is that? How does it feel?
