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feels thread, last one just died
i need them feels :(
So hows life op? what is new?
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>>710207277
right in the feels
Bumping.
>>710207332
Sad, empty and uninspired
Things get better for a bit but everything goes to shit in the end, each time it gets worse and i don't know what to do
>>710207424
is their a name for being fixed with clay? Thats what i'd be be, Visibly broken and poorly fixed.
>>710207789
Everything gets better sooner or later. Much like a mountain, you slowly climb it and reach a point of no return and turn around and come back. -A person who's been challenging depression for 6 years and has thought of suicide many of times and has even attempted it.
>>710208177
I'm trying
>>710208177
it only ever gets better for a bit then its back to wanting to die, is it worth it? im startin to think not
>>710207789
Is just trying bro, the important thing is to keep trying no matter what. Find the thing that moves you, even if you believe it doesn't exist, it does. The only thing between happiness and you, are those toxic thoughts about yourself.
What is the problem that is worrying you man? Maybe we can help a little
>>710206836
Hey, guess what isn't helping those feelings?
Feels threads.
>>710208564
>>710208563
Its come done to what you want in life. I want to see others being happy and I know if I did what I tried to do they wouldn't be happy. Each battle can be won but sometimes its okay to think how and why it should be. Ask yourself this do you really want to end it? If so whats stopping you? Why not take your knife and slit your wrists? The answer is you don't want too. Find your inner happiness and find a positive way to show your outlook.
-Been a cutter for many years now, not proud of it trust me but it helped me. Wouldn't advice going down this path
>>710208754
I know and I've been trying :(
loneliness m8, have friends and we hang out a lot but still i feel alone and empty and tfw no gf
been talking to a girl, that girl that i kinda of dream of but she recently got a boyfriend
>>710208985
I want to enjoy life, be happy for once
> be me
> 9th grade
> crush on girl talked everday w/
> super nice, smart and hot af
> think dont have a chance, keep living
> notice she slowly starts flirting
> didnt believe it at first
> self esteem over the roof
> keeps going on for a over a month or two
> too beta to do anything about it
> not mad, just enjoying it slowly
> walking down with no windows
> sound carries easy
> hear her angelic voice whispering behind me
> "hey wanna see how anon blushes like a sissy?"
> taps shoulder
> turn, too stunned to speak
> softly holds forearm
> "Hey anon, i had lots of fun hanging out yesterday! You look pretty handsome today"
> winks
> redfaced
> all a lie
> turn around
>dontletherseeyoucry.jpg
> walk, dont run
> cry in bathroom
>>710209884
So wake up and snap out of it. Quit thinking this way and change it. Great men get built statues and your stone is awaiting. Be a great man not a weak one.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TTXUTcxd6NE
>>710210110
Poor basterd
Two of my friends died a couple of years back and they both died around this time in the respective years of their deaths. And I'm remembering it all again.
>>710210110
damn
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>>710209614
Are you sure you're looking in the right place? Maybe this is not the case with you, but I kinda went through the same thing. A couple of years ago I used to hang around with the cool kids of my high school. I used to go to parties and hang around getting fucked up in someone's house every weekend, but I always felt lonely, like I didn't have any real friend at all and the girl I liked at the time who was kind of my best friend used to emotionally abuse me. That's when I realized how toxic all my relationships were, and how I used to reject the people that really cared about me, just because they didn't fit in my concept of cool kid. So I ended all those toxic relationships, and started to work in building newer and better ones. There are people out there who will be your real friends m8, you gotta find them. And the same thing with the qt. Don't idealize someone never. Find that girl who cares about you and makes you feel happy, doesn't matter her appareance at all. All you gotta do is not giving up. Don't let the fuckers win the battle man, put all your effort man and you will see how things can get better.
here is an album that goes good when im having feels
>>710210542
Change your perspective man, yes, it fucking sucks to lose someone that close, but don't let that bring you down. If you're going to cry, cry. Let it all out. But don't take it as something bad. Remember all those good memories man, laugh with tears in your eyes about those moments. But remember that you have a life to live. Don't let them down and never give up on life. It's a cliche but I bet that they wouldn't like to see you depressed for them. As cheesy as it sounds carry them in your heart, and use your memories of them to keep moving forward bro. Make them fucking proud of you wherever they are.
I have one way to change myself for the better.
All I have to do is be with her.
But who am I? A wreck. A basket case. A loser.
She deserves someone better.
>Be me
>Junior in HS
>Spend first 2 years as lazy slob with no motivation
>Medically Obese
>Last week of school chill af teacher tells us to give a speech about an important life experience
>Day of speech comes
>Boring speech after boring speech
>"Got into a sick fight" & "smoked weed for the first time" type shit.
>Girl who I've had classes w/ since freshman year comes up to give speech.
>not really paying attention then I hear a phrase that catches my ear
>"Eating Disorder"
>This girl is like textbook definition beautiful
>I'm now fully invested
>She's nearly brought to tears while reading her speech
>I believe the saying goes my heart grew three sizes that day
>Get home after listening to what she said
>Look at myself for the first time in the mirror and see what a mess I've become since about 13
>Step on scale
>230lbs
>Motivated af
This would be a long one to get to the feels part.
Cont?
>>710211882
Sure
>>710211816
Right in the feels anon.
It's just that they both died horribly and it's hard remembering all of this shit. It only happened a couple of years ago. They didn't deserve any of what happened to them. They were innocent young boys really. One was a cancer patient and the other killed himself after a long fight with depression. The one that died of cancer was my favour. I know you shouldn't have favourites in your group of friends but I lit up whenever I saw him and I related to him quite well. The one that killed himself was kind of like the protector of the group. He was a fighter but then he just killed himself. They both had so much potential in their lives.
>>710211882
Fucking hell man, and you're going to be satisfied with that? Come on, don't treat yourself like that. The only problem you have I see, is yourself.
You know that you got to change, change it. Don't do it just for her, do it for yourself too. There is a way, always.
>>710211922
cont plis
>>710211922
Sure m8, we are here to listen
>>710211922
let's hear it /b/rother
>>710212320
Same as a lot of people that flock here, I just feel as though I can't and that I have nothing left in me. What the fuck is wrong with me?
People keep telling me to kill myself. I tell them to kill themselves too but it doesn't seem to have the same impact on them as it does me. I want them to commit suicide but I guess I'll have to do it. They win.
A week ago I tried to kill myself. Parents found me and I just got released from inpatient. Fuck this shit
>>710212957
Are you going to try it again? I'm killing myself in Friday and need to know what went wrong so I can success
>>710211922
>Decide I have no excuse for being this big
>Spend the summer between sophomore and junior year dedicated to losing weight
>I ate a ridiculously small amount of calories
>300-600ish
>Yeah I know, but I was blindsided by this goal of self-improvement
>3 months of summer over
>Lost 60lbs
>230- 170
>School starts
>I walk into class with several junior I had known since freshman year
>No one recognizes me
>Go to next period
>Subject I had with the girl last year
>Don't see her
>Teacher takes roll
>"Marcus H..... Matthew B......Jacob C......Anon A."
>"Here"
>Hear whispers from the class
>Loud girl from the back of class speaks
>DAMN ANON YOU GOT SKINNY
>I'll take it
>2 weeks past still haven't seen girl
>>710212631
not op, but im in the same boat, feeling like such a pussy
ive begged her to stay but she just ignores me now
>>710211182
not that case and it's hard to find her
I'm not going to give yet
>>710212200
You too man. You have potential and you know it. As I say, do whatever you gotta do these days, buy after that bring your chin up and keep going. Remember that there are people who feel the same way about you and care about you and would feel the same way that you're feeling right now if you do something stupid.
Use this experience to make you stronger and learn with it. You will be alright man, I'm sure about that, trust me.
>>710212631
Yes, I feel like that sometimes to, but there is a lot in you anon. You won't find out about it, until you fucking push man. No matter how painful it gets, never let them fuckers bring you down. Don't stop doing things until you feel satisfied that you gave all your effort
>>710206836
So my Ex who im still on good terms with messaged me today, poured her heart out about how she still has feelings for me and that she just wants to run away, wants to give things another go. How jealousy of my girlfriend is eating her up inside and how her current boyfriend is inadequate. She's depressed, hooked on Xannax and in a relationship she hates. Still beautiful though.
I do not share any of these feelings, my only desire for her is to see her life improve and see her find happiness. She's so vulnerable right now and i dont know how to be honest but kind at the same time. What do /b/ros? this might not be the place for it but im certainly feeling some feels.
>>710213247
That's what matters anon. If you feel like you gotta give it all, just do it.
>>710213143
>The first two weeks of school were insane
>Friends and people I rarely talked to all complimenting me on my weight loss
>Go to 2nd period
>She walks in
>My heart stops for probably longer than medically recommend
>Our eyes meet
>Still don't think she realized it was me
>She sits a couple desk behind me
>I still really want to know what her first thoughts were when she found out it was me
>Class continues as normal
>Decide to make a social media account finally (damn NSA)
>Add her
>Spend probably way to long to actually get the courage to dm her
>We become closer over the next couple of weeks and talk every other day or so
>Topic of weight loss gets brought up
>>710208563
why is hermes head on backwards
>Be me
>20-ish
>Live with gf and roomies in apartment
>Gf has to drive a long time to get to her college
>Almost an hour away
>If she wants it, that's her choice
>Keep motivating her to go
>She starts coming home later certain days, around an hour later
>She tells me she has a lot of group projects that she stays late for
>I understand, and motivate her to go
>forward 3 months
>She confesses that she's been banging a guy she met at school
>"he's just so nice to me"
>"I always feel like you're pushing me away from home to school"
>"You made me feel unwanted"
>mfw gf cheated on me because I encouraged her to go ot school
She doesn't love me anymore..
>>710214015
He gets his head chopped off at the beginning of the movie, then later Zoidberg reattaches it backwards onto a time-paradox duplicate body.
Fucking great movie too.
>>710213962
is there more anon??? if not, you made it man, proud of you. keep going at it
>>710213779
Threesome with both of them
>>710214331
In the wise words of ludacris
Hooooooooo (Ho)
Youza Hoooooo (Ho)
Youza Hoooooo (Ho)
I said that youza hooooo (Ho)
>watching TV show featuring friendly people
>imagine getting on their bad side or seeing them insulted by someone else
>get extremely anxious as I imagine the entire cast turning on me and ridiculing me and supporting one another and when I turn the tables they sympathize with the person on the receiving end and I can never regain the good graces of the people and so I drift and skulk in the shadows, reputation ruined and never able to relax
>have no choice but to become silent, subservient bitch of everyone and people toy with me
Currently reading 20,000 Leagues Under the Sea and imagining Captain Nemo and Professor Aronnax and Conseil turning on me and having no privacy on the Nautilus
This Moment when you dont have feelings anymore.....
>>710215220
go see some one about that anon
>>710213962
(Forgot to add she got added to the class when schedule got changed, thanks based gods)
>I ask her for advice on the topic and the whole mental side of it
>Find out this girl is god tier in giving advice
>Like some Mother Teresa type shit
>We starting dming extremely regularly about this type of shit
>Homecoming coming up
>I decide to just go for it
>After class one day I ask her to homecoming
>"Oh anon....I was just thinking of going with friends this year."
>Fuck, fuck, fuck. Abort mission
>This was about a month ago
>Still talk to her on a regular basis
>Kind of certain she isn't interested, can take a hint when it came to hoco
>Ask another girl to hoco
>She says yes and that she'd love to
>Bails on me the week of homecoming
>Fuck me
>Go into state of depression
>Spend a lot of time researching shit about ED and body disorders during the time
>Probably have some form of BDD or anorexia, seeing that I've been on a 500 calorie diet for almost 5 months
>Hate what I see in the mirror
>Talk to original girl about ED more specifically and she hits me with that Mother Teresa shit again
>I've realized at this point that I'm on a two way street
>Either tell this girl how I feel and get rejected and move on
>Or cotinue being friends and getting advice that is helping me mental reprieve from the stress of all this shit
>Can't go to doctor because of parents
>Only real person who knows about the possibility of me having ED is her.
>What do B?
>>710215305
there is a fish stuck then gate on the left
I keep having the most vivid of hallucinations most nights and that is the main reason I cannot sleep well and on some nights I cannot even sleep at all. Sometimes these hallucinations even happen during the day, whenever I'm alone sometimes I can see things move around, when worst comes to worst I can see actual fully fleshed out people in my home.
At night these hallucinations become shadows, each night I can see at least one moving around inside my compact room at night without warning. Usually I can turn on my side and cover myself with a blanket but yet again it will only get worse because I will start to hear loud bangs in the other rooms and whispering above my right ear. One night it got so bad that when I turned off my lights they were already fucking there, even when I turned them back on I would hear loud thumps and bangs periodically throughout that night.
I'm crying right now, I don't know what to do anons! I remember moving at least once now but then I realized it was me that was the problem, whatever happens to you guys just don't turn into me you will regret everything! It's late right now and I absolutely refuse to sleep and as I'm typing these I can still hear sounds.
>be me
>roll back to 7th grade
>girl I've know for years very cute, smart and sweet
>attempt to get at for months. Do as much as I can that has her involved
>I ask her out rejected. Feel bad man.
>months pass other girl I hanged out with, start to have feels for her. Try go get to know her more
>fail miserably, ends up with other guy. I tried hard and be cool
>8th grade first girl I liked moved away. Feel sad
>new girl enters school. Asked to give her tour.
>Holy fuck.png. She's really cute and smart.
>spend many months trying to get at her
>fail miserably again. Not being smart enough or attractive enough.
Continue?
>>710213222
Something like happened to me
First girl i have actually liked and considered for gf, we chatted everyday like all the time, confessed my feelings for her and she says that she's not ready for something like that, feels bad but we continue being friends after a while i asked again and again she told me the same thing 2 months go by and she started talking less to me, ignoring me until we didn't talked anymore, like 4 weeks later she starts to talk to me again i still have feelings for her but i don't think she feels the same for me
Anyone else just feel completely fucking lost? I feel like I'm a shadow of who I once was ever since my grandmother passed. It hit me like a ton of bricks and I got really out there, really fucked up mental states and irrational fears. Felt like I wasn't real. Became afraid of the way people look, got caught up in how weird everything really is. Now I'm just hollow. I know what everything is, and I know how I should feel, but I feel like I'm just pretending. I speak to someone semi regularly and it helps. But I'm just afraid I'll never be "me" again and I'll just be this hollow me walking around until I die, and was I even real to begin with?
;_; any advice?
>>710215396
Why anon? You accomplished your goals and just because some things didn't went your way you get depressed? What you did with you weight is awesome and you got a bust of confidence until you met with that girl again.
You achieved awesome things, you can do other amazing things dude. Tell her how you feel, but if things don't go the way you planned remember that you did what you fucking wanted it do, you didn't pussed out. Courage brother, is all it takes to be awesome
>>710215788
yes pls
>>710215396
http://comicsalliance.com/files/2012/03/myherobymattrhodes-d4sr1ot-2.jpg
>>710215396
are you willing to end it? if so do it ,you will need to deal with the lack.if not then dont do it, but get in your head that she may not like you ,and the point were you could have a shance is over ,and also your dick will shange its mind so dont over think it.
>>710215355
Why? It's normal. And a real possibility.
>>710215949
idk m8, you need to find a passion or something to help you discover who you are, there nust be something you're interested in so try exploring that.
For me it was guitar that helped me a lot to handle my feelings
>>710216601
>Why? It's normal
Not when your watching a tv show
In a few days I will leave it all behind. I have my note ready and have made all my arrangements for my family. My only regret is that I didn't tell her I loved her enough. She has left and soon I will join her in the blessed sleep
>>710216731
Yes, self inserting is normal. People do it all the time and then post about it and it's considered cute and relatable
>>710216806
you are solbed so, the only thing i will say is ,godspeed
>>710216064
>Fast forward to 9th grade
>believe next four years I'll probably have a gf
>see lots of people who are still with their 7th grade loves
>feelsreallyfuckingbad.jpg
>decide to continue getting at girl during 8th grade.
>do everything to try and get her. Even take college courses they were offering at school
>take class attempting to get at her
>months go by not giving up.
>one day after class finishes Im getting a snack
>turn around and see her kiss her bf I new knew she had
>heart falls. Feelsfuckingshit.jpg
>i stop and look for about a second.
>walk away and knew I work give up.
>whole semester I give up trying to get a gf
>fast forward to 10th grade
>been rejected over 5 times already.
>believe this year I'll get a gf
>o boi was I wrong
>talk to another cute girl I knew at school.
>been with her since 6th grade. Hella long ass time
>try getting closer to her but she dislikes me
>fail whole 10th grade.
>feel like a failure.
There's something even more sad about my love life
>figure dad is a same failure at love like me.
>feels really bad.
>hasn't dated anyone in years. Lives alone. And constantly works.
>separated from me and mom. Still visit him weekly.
>don't wanna turn out like him
>>710216806
we love each other but cant be together because im a fuck up
I jate myself so fucking much i cant stand being so lonely i try and reach out but no one is ever there
>>710217070
i can relate to your pain, not as bad but still
>>710217191
>I jate myself so fucking much
i kekked
>>710216292
That hit hard
>>710216806
good luck anon
>>710217070
as shitty as that is
the fact youve asked these girls out andopened your heart up for them ruin shows the courage that i wish i had. One day you will find the one that says yes
>>710217070
Honest answer. Stop trying, you mention an inadequacy in being smart. Try more in school, sound cliché but giving at shit for 4 years means more money which results in an easier life later on. Sort your self out before persuing girls. You mentioned asking out multiple girls, don't, ask one or two girls your interested in to hang out some time. Put effort into getting to know them before jumping from conclusions of love.
>>710216901
Self-inserting, ok. But if each of those wind up being horribly negative it's a problem.
>be me
>25
>major depression for 16 years.
>few friends through teen years
>few good buddies knew about my medications and suicide attempts.
>always tell me their life was shit too, but they held on and things got a lot better.
>slowly lose contact with them
>look for them on Facebook couple years later.
>couple committed suicide others in rough shape
>spend rest of my time since the.mn mostly emotionless on /b
>>710217900
this
Bojack 4 lyfe
>>710217070
>Continue to 11th grade
Attempt to get at another girl after another year of failure
>this girls tall. Had good look.
Very cute. But personality looked 8/10 was 2/10 irl
>shit hits the fan when trying to get at her
>fail miserably
>months go by I attempt to go for another girl. This one I met through sat practice classes
>major tiddies.
>cute. Glasses. Smart. Very humorous.
>during sat prep classes attempt for 2 months straight and result in failure.
>last day of class I leave knowing I'll probably never see her again
>never talked to her because she didn't seem interested and seemed like she had a bf
>fast forward a month.
>field trip to Ucla college for college prep shit
>see the girl from sat class
>Holyfuckingshit.png it's her
>2nd chance comes with clutch. All day I try to get her contact
>other friend helps me out
>end up getting her snap at end of day
>feelsgoodman.jpg
>message her and attempt to begin convo
>didn't seem interested as always left on seen
>delete her snap after never talking
>knew I'd never see her again
>fast forward summer 2016
>head to Ucla for program
>can't believe fucking eyes it's her again
>don't talk to her all day even though I keep staring at her.
>being a total fucking beta
>hate myself so fucking much
>day over skip to 12th grade
>over the past months I've been friends with a girl I've been attempting to get with
>had SAT Saturday
>the big tiddies girl had same location
>fucking shit. Literally cucking myself
>too beta to approach after testing is over
>go home on bus sad asfk
>fast forward to today. Girl I mention I have been talking to for about a year.
>try to ask out
>result on failure
>been rejected so many times I've begun to loose hope
Image of rejection. At this point I have lost hope for my beta ass
Im not attractive. I'm not fit. I don't appeal to any girls. I've tried being really nice. And doing the best to my ability. No luck at all
>Be me lonely for most of my life
>Finally find the girl of my dreams
>Had great times with her, so many memories
>Fucking incredible sex
>I would do anything for her. I was so good to her, and we made eachother so happy
>One day she seemed distant. I ask whats wrong and "nothing"
>Whole month of her being cold to me.
>last night she just says she's just not happy anymore.
>she tells me i never did anything wrong.
>she ends it
My mind is such a mess. How does love just disappear/b/?
>>710217857
Thanks anon I'll do my best
>>710218200
OH LORD I CAN RELATE SO HARD.
I know deep down she could never have been mine but sometimes I still think...maybe there was something I could have done.
>>710217991
Think of it this way. You've fought through 16 years of depression, that's longer then half the people's ages on this board. If that isn't worth congratulating I don't know what is. Keep fighting the good fight and know that I and everyone else here is rooting for you to overcome the shitty parts of life. If you ever need to talk about it /B/tards will always be lurking
>>710218378
Sorry man. It feels so fucking bad.
>>710208177
No it doesn't, life only gets worse from what I'm seeing
>>710217114
in the same situation now, anon. Fucking hurts.
Alright /b/, let's see if you guys can help me out. I'm a 19 year old college dropout who now lives at home with his parents. I have 0 friends and it's honestly killing me to the point where I cry almost every night. It's been like this for over a year now and you'd think id be used to it by now but it only gets worse. I'm still somewhat optimistic that I'll meet somebody that I can hang out with once a week or something like that. I've tried sites like meetup, which I've gone to three events. They all consisted of older people in their late 20's to 50's. That wouldn't be a huge problem if I wasn't a huge outcast age wise and couldn't connect to any of them. I've tried Craigslist as well but 0 responses and it's kind of annoying to filter through the people who want sex on there. I'm probably being very vague right now but if anybody would like to help me out I'll provide more information. I've also been trying to improve my social skills and noticed things have gotten easier once I began exercising and dropped a significant amount of weight.
>>710218378
>>710218200
FUCKING RELLLLAAATTEEABBLLELLELELE
>>710218661
Yeah, just, everything is going nicely and it's perfect and fucking BAM, gone.
>music for this feel
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=H6aK0egDcoY
>>710218791
Do you the possibility to go back to college or is that out of the questions? Giving it another go might be for the better as it will provide you a stable income so you can persue your self-improvement. Also good luck on the weight loss, I'm the OP of the green text of 230-170 above (actually at 157.8 rn)
>Tfw I realized this week that I may actually have some kind of feelings towards a girl I have history with a year and a half AFTER we hooked up (just kissing) and talked (we got insanely close)
>Always really close, but not as much since I've had really bad personal problems. Never went anywhere because she was afraid of commitment and I had a near nervous breakdown after my OCD and ANXIETY finally piled up high enough
>Try talking to her again during the summer and fail because shes talking to someone else. Remain in touch, can sense theres something there but its dimming
>Tfw at house party last week and see her again and shes hotter than ever, works out all the time and takes care of herself
>We barely speak to eachother, we have that kind of nervous hi and goodbye interaction. Hear her talking about the guys shes talking to in another room, says shes not into it
>Tfw if I just told her that I feel a certain way instead of hiding it I would feel 1000% better and she might bite...or she may never speak to me again
>Tfw I dont know what to do
>Tfw I just wanna curl up in a ball under a blanket and play Dragon Quest for the rest of my life
>tfw younger brother has birthday tomorrow
>"anon come with us to buffalo wild wings!"
>agree to go with family
>there will be something like 40 people there im related to and dont know
>cant even sleep since i cant afford to get him a present
>hes turning 18
>his friends will be there
>it sounds fun
but i cant help but think if i wasnt there it would probably be for the best
Not gonna green text but heres something that has been killing me recently. I was on drugs for like 5 years off and on. Nothing crazy, just painkillers and benzos. I worked just to get high and slept outside, in motels, and at friends apartments. I was in a dark spot until I met this beautiful chick. We have this instant connection. She wanted me to do something with my life. So, I gave in well...because vagina. Anyways, I kick the drugs. I start working more. I save up for a car and an apartment. I was in a really good place. I felt truly happy for once. Then, she breaks up with me. I was sad but I know how shit goes by now.
Anyways Its been 6 months., I called her the other day. Not to try and get back with her. Not to try and cuss her out or anything like that. I genuinely wanted to thank her from the bottom of my heart for her helping me get my life turned around. I cant believe how caring and understanding she was. But she didn't answer. I thought "she will call me back. I know her. She will call me back."
She never did. She just texted me "hey! Whats up?" an hour later. I never responded. Fuck.
>>710218791
Have you tried to join some club or something like that? Something that you like, like a soccer team, a dnd club, a bjj gym, etc. There's a lot of options where you can find people to hang out.
>>710218791
i did not know my computer had a mirror in it
>>710219019
>Dragon Quest
The real tragedy here.
>>710218989
I think at this I'd rather not go. It was really depressing and it got to the point where I wouldn't go to any of my classes and pretty failed and started wasting money. I think I'll give it another go later on in life though. I have other plans in life but their on hold until I can get paperwork done. Congrats on the major weight loss though. I went from 210 to 170 and I've stayed at 170 for a while. I'm kind of just stuck at this weight even though I know I should lose more since I'm only 5'6"
>>710219070
you're probably right
>>710219080
How long ago did she write that? At this point you have no attachment to her, I'd say fuck it and just tell her
>>710219193
Fuck you anon Dragon Quest 5 is a fucking godsend
Pretty bad feels for me tonight. Had a gf for a few months now. I love her and she loves me and is amazing to me. She tells me how she wants to marry my and is always complimenting me and making me feel good like all of us dream about and I'm lucky and I got it. Along with her I have all this other stuff going for me, joining the Army in two months and hopefully that will fix the health issues with my heart cuz of drugs that have been happening for the last three years.
But every night I still feel awful. And I'm still as depressed and angry and hateful as I always was. I'm starting to lose hope that I will ever feel happy again. I've got the girl of my dreams but I still feel like I'm going to die before too long and I feel so sick all the time and I just want to sleep and be happy but I can't I can't even cry
>>710219192
Maybe somebody will help guide us.
Life has always been suffering and it it only gets worse, I don't see the point in anything
>>710219278
I'm just fuckin with ya man.
>>710219070
But anon he wants you there. Why wouldn't he? I often feel insignificant in my large family and think I'm somehow invisible or uninteresting, but whenever I miss an event or a party/what have you they rage and tell me I should have been there. Explain to him you can't get him anything, he's your fucking brother. Hug him, tell him you'll go play ball or play a videogame together or something. But don't ever feel like you shouldn't be by his side for his birthday
>>710219342
:() very funny anon. Any advice for me though?
>>710219244
Do you think he will be mad at me? we have never really been close, but recently have been hanging out a bit.
There were soccer events on meetup but they were always cancelled because not enough people signed up. I should probably look into it more outside of that site. Strapped for cash though. I'm probably a little too self conscious to try bjj though
>>710216806
gg fgt
>>710219555
I would say there isn't much of a shot with her, since you don't talk much anymore it should be easier to get over her, don't think about her, make a connection with another girl. Obviously you're capable of it. But if you are gonna go for her it's no or never, start talking, ask her if she wants to go somewhere for old times sake. And if she says no don't let it kill you. I guess that's my advice. Nice trips hoe.
>>710218733
hurts like hell fuck man love sucks
>>710214331
she's just making an excuse, she knows it's ass backwards, women.
>>710219270
it's been a few weeks. Part of me thinks that way...and part of me thinks that I should just say fuck it and let it go. It took me that long to work up the courage to call her and when she just texted me back it rubbed me the wrong way. I probably will just let it go for now. Thank you for reading. I hope tomorrow is better than today.
>>710218791
same situation bro being lonely sucks so much i fucking hate it
>>710207424
So, my phone is worth more now having been cracked, repaired, and cracked again?
Any chance you lI've near San Jose, California so we can fix that. It's a fucking Longshot but still.
Guys there is a fucking Goebbels Quote up in this thread
<---- thats Goebbels 1940
>He was Hitlers right Hand
>i dont think Its a good idea to use quotes from a mega-Nazi in a feels thread
I meant to say live instead of ll've
Sry i forgot the pic due that shit recaptcha
>>710220234
Anon, we know. We know who he is, and that's the point.
>>710219080
dude! she could just be nervous, just thank her man, text or call or face to face, it's about saying it.
>>710220429
Dreamboat tbh glad he didn't an hero
Yes this is the point
I dont think that that Holocaust asshole even had something like "feels"
>>710220686
>holocoaster wuz reel tho u gaiz!
gtfo with your kike bullshit.
>>710220686
No, anon. The point is that he was depressed and alone, didn't have the energy or will to get up in the morning and considered suicide, and about 10 or 15 years later he becomes arguably the most or second most important man in Germany. And we know who he is, even today.
This is 4chan, so no one gives a shit what he did tho, lol chill anon. You're missing the point.
>>710220528
yeah i was thinking that too man. I was thinking what if she is thinking of me but is scared to say it. I dont know man. I honestly owe her my life in some fucked up way. But, im too chicken shit to say anything though Im not good at good at this this shit. I dont want to open myself up to being hurt again.
>be 21 almost 22
>dated girl for 4 years
>definitely in love
>cheats on me
>I end up forgiving her but she brakes up with me instead
>week later parents sit my family down and tell us they are getting divorced
>start taking loots of adderall
>numbs my life for about a month but realized the rest of my family is fucked up
>quit the drugs and basically start feeling everything a month or more after everyone else
>get a new gf that likes drugs
>get back on lots of drugs and get kicked out
>gf after a month of dating tells me she's wants to be a tranny
>we brake up and now I am back on drugs and still haven't delt with any of the things I should have over a year ago
>ex gf from before that one calls me today just to talk about her new boyfriend she's so in love with
>sit and listen like a bitch while high on cough syrup
>still high on cough syrup
Bob ross everybody after his wife had passed on and he was diagnosed with a terminal disease
Also bump
>>710221308
he took his sadness and made it into art. he funneled all of his megative emotions into it, and taught the world how to paint
>>710221218
she's got a heart of gold, i don't think she'd hurt you for thanking her. just don't hold high expectations. maybe her answering just brought back too much at once?
>Be student at Uni
>Get fraped by mate's girlfriend that I'm gay, Dad hears about it and disowns me
>Fast forward 3 days
>Meet a girl at a concert on campus, she comes up to me and asks to borrow my charger.
>Got talking, similar interests (Japan, Music, Gaming, etc) really got along.
>Plucked up my confidence and kissed her.
>Bought her a drink after concert and went to chat in Student Union
>Took her to quiet rooftop and talked and kissed some more with her on my lap.
>Ended up back at mine (she had nowhere else to stay and the first train wasn't for a few hours)
>She was nervous about having sex but I managed to calm her down and get rid of her fears
>Sleep together, great sex, after she tells me she doesn't want it to be a one time thing
>Instinctively ask her to be my girlfriend after 7 hours of knowing her, she thinks about it and says Yes
>Firstgirlfriend.wav
Date for 3 months, blissfully happy, best sex of my life, we go out on cute dates and go on romantic walks and shit, we play Skyrim together too, gaming girlfriend ftw
>She tells her parents about me 3 days into relationship, I get invited to meet them 6 weeks in along with her brother and grandmother
>I'm working a part time job on campus so I can look after her and provide for her and myself
>Work more hours than I should, 25+ a week, begins to severly stress me out (Typical day was 8:15 to 11:15am, 11:30 to 3pm, 4:30 to 7pm then back again next day for 8am
>Become sleep deprived, roll with it
>She wants to visit me over Christmas, Mum doesn't approve of the relationship so won't let her stay at mine nor is there space, can't afford hotel either (£100 a night), more stress on me
>We start to argue over the Christmas holidays, I attribute it to us being apart for the 1st time, figure that things will be better when we're back together
>Go and see her when I'm back at Uni before she goes on placement
>Visit her on her birthday with presents, take her out for dinner
Cont?
>>710221745
>Mum doesn't approve of the relationship
Makes not much sense.
First they hear you are gay, get disowned.
Then you are not gay, that's bad too.
The fuck?
>>710221238
>>710221238
you listened? damn, that ain't being a bitch, you just took it on the chin?
>>710221238
* BREAK
* LOTS
fuck
>>710222055
Listened to her bull shit about her new boyfriend when I should have just hung that shit up but I was pretty high so I just sat there idk if that's bad or what I'm just fucked up right now and felt like a pussy letting her sit and tell me how happy she was with someone else
>>710221745
spill dude
>>710221238
>>ex gf from before that one calls me today just to talk about her new boyfriend she's so in love with
lol you are on pussy ass bitch
>>710222315
nah man, she wanted anger, she wanted to get you where it hurt, if you just let it glide over trust me, she's seething. she's a bored psycho, you should block her bro, fr, she sounds like my stepmom, would totally do the same shit and she's a crazy fuck. you dodged a bullet
>>710222431
That's what I'm sayin feels that way
>>710219282
i understand exactly how you feel. im the same way. i just got married to the nicest, sweetest girl ive ever had the pleasure of sharing a bed with and on top of that shes due in 2 months with my baby. i should be extatic about were my life is atm but i just cant seem to find the will to even out down my dope habbit. i know im probably gunna lose the kid, and her ass well. but i just cant seem to stop myself... i just dont care about anything. i dont understand why i keep self sabatauging like this.
>>710219019
>.or she may never speak to me again
aaand you would lose fucking nothing.
of course if she is hooked on Chad now, it may be futile.
definitely tell her your feelings, you don't lose anything, but sure as hell talk with her first about stuff.
>>710219282
You sound pretty fucked up mate.
I am not sure further separation would do any good for you.
Also, why do drugs and shit?
>>710222489
Good idea anon she's a bitch honestly but insists on calling me every once and a while to let me know how great she's doing, I barely say anything she just talks and doesn't ask me about me, but I'm kinda glad cause I'm a mess
>>710217070
>>believe next four years I'll probably have a gf
Bro, honestly?
This happened to ... a fuckton of people.
You are not alone.
(Happened to me as well, ha!)
>>710221603
dude her heart is pure. No denying that. I think you're right about it bringing too much back at once. I seriously froze. I remember hanging with my friends later and they kept asking "you good tonight man?" and stuff like that. I would type out paragraphs at a time but then delete them. None of the paragraphs were the same. I did that for about a week and then said "whats the point?" she has to know what shes done for me. She has to know that after all the dust settles, I needed her much more than she needed me. She is local. She could call too. She could stop by. She could text. So while Im sitting here destroying my brain over her, I wonder if she even thinks of me. I think about her all the time and just assume she doesn't give me a thought at all. idk man. Thank you for listening. Im going to say something one day. maybe. ha. but when I do...ill be back on here.,,looking to thank you like I wish I could thank her. fuck.
I know they say it's better to have loved and lost, but I'm not sure. The other night I came home from work early to find my gf being fucked by somebody else. I think I would rather feel lonely than this morning whatever this is. Idk what it is all I can describe it is like getting your heart ripped out of your asshole then shoved down your throat. Lonely was so much better.
I'm only happy when I'm not sober.
>>710222815
move on bro. for you. and to stick it to her.
>>710221745
>Don't study for my exam because I'm visiting her, fail an exam for the first time at uni
>Kinda my fault because all I did was sleep and watch Anime when she was at work (Student Nurse)
>Go back to Uni, girlfriend doesn't talk to me much, replies day late because she's working 12 hour shifts according to her, gets me a bit depressed
>Day before Valentine's Day, I go out with the same mate who's girlfriend fraped me, my old housemate who's down for the weekend ends up coming back to mine cos she has nowhere to stay for the night
>We talk in the kitchen about life then go to bed, I offer her my bed then sleep on the floor
>She can tell I'm uncomfortable and invites me into the bed because "Nothing's going to happen"
>Ohshit.jpeg
>I end up spooning her for 5 seconds because of the feeling of sheer loneliness then sleep on the other side of the bed
>Valentine's Day comes, 1st time having a gf on the occasion
>I go all out, buy her lots of gifts and a ring from Pandora
>She gets me nothing
>She wants to go to Chiquito's but I figure it will be more intimate if I cook for her
>Get my housemates to stay out of the kitchen in the evening
>She doesn't like what I'm planning to make cos of pastry (Chicken en Croute), she ends up cooking
>Retreat to the bedroom, about to bang, tell her that old housemate stayed over... that she stayed in the room, that I was on the floor, that I ended up in the bed, that we spooned but but nothing else happened
>She gets really angry and goes through my phone looking for evidence of cheating
>She doesn't find anything, goes to talk to her best friend outside for 40 mins
>Fuckshe'sbreakingupwithme.gif
>She comes back in and starts playing Justin Beiber - Love Yourself
>I tell her that I never cheated, imploring her not to break up with me nearly in tears
>She forgives me, we fuck, all's good...
>Not. Over the next few days, girlfriend starts to say I cheated on her, really stresses me out
Cont?
>>710223299
Yeah it's time, we broke up last new years so I let her ruin a year but fuck that not next year.
>>710223099
Join the club dubs fag
To deal with depression i retort to cigs, hardcore drugs, and alcohol. Just helps me get to a better feeling
>>710222046
My dad basically disowned me (he's a reverend), said some horrible shit but once he found out it was a frape, he understood and made me post a statement on Facebook saying that I'm not gay.
I left the frape up there because it was literally this:
>Im gay
Thought it was funny and super obvious it wasn't me, he and the people back home took it seriously, not really techno literate
>>710222973
she's hoping the best for you, as will i man.
>>710223449
you know what, you shouldn't block her, just don't answer and see how her messages start sounding. she'll crack, it'll be a good laugh
>>710223779
Haha better idea because she's definitely a narcissist so that would pissed her off a lot more. Why she still calls I have no clue if she's so damn happy. She cheated on me so it doesn't make much sense hoes will be hoes
i dont understand why anybody tries to cope with the suffering that comes with life.
maybe i'm wrong, but i feel like i'll only be happy when i dont have to worry about things anymore
>>710223981
she just feels like if one person thinks she is then it's true. crazy bitches man.
>>710222985
try heroin.... it helped me
>about a month and a half ago
>in a relationship
>just got to college
>busy as fuck, haven't talked to gf much
>realize relationship is deteriorating, i still love her
>try to fix it, she ends up crying and breaking up with me
>i feel nothing
>no sadness
>no tears
>nothing
>am confused
>butiloveher.jpg
then
>today
>learn a friend of mine attending a different college died
>i've known this guy for 5+ years now
>all i can think of is how he posted a picture of him with three blunts on his snapchat this morning, and the old "i smoked three marijuanas and died" meme
>still feel nothing
why?
>>710215396
If you genuinely think you have a problem, talk to your school councilor. Sometimes they can be helpful. The girl probably isn't capable of helping you, and you think she's helpful because you like talking to her. If you're into her ask her to hang out. If she says no you can get over it. But if all you do is message her on Facebook about how stressed/depressed you are, it WILL NOT go over well. She might support you because she's a good person, but being so forward about your problems is unattractive as fuck
>>710223324
>Apply for placement in London but don't get it, gets me even more depressed
>End up sleeping all day and not eating at all, not showering, basiically a zombie
>I only leave the house to go to work, don't even go to lectures or practicals anymore
>Girlfriend isn't talking to me as much as before, don't notice it but we're growing apart
>Fast forward to Mother's Day (UK)
>Haven't been talking to Mum throughout entire relationship with girlfriend
>Talk for the first time in months, don't argue either
>Feeling really good so make a nice Instagram post about her, link it to Facebook
>My girlfriend sees and says I should thank her for all the times you've phoned me to slag off my girlfriend and shout at me about my life
>We start to argue, I instinctively defend my mum even though she's in the wrong
>Girlfriend says she doesn't want someone like that in her life
>Says she feels that there are too many things that will prevent our relationship from working, (I'm black, she's white) says that she thinks we've been drifting apart and that neither of us are truly happy anymore
>Breaks my heart because all I wanted was her happiness
>I try my hardest to convince her to give us another shot but she's resolute
>I accept the break up and try to move on
>Start going out just so I can drink to forget
>Start looking for fights with random people
>See a guy getting arrested and nearly join him
>My mind starts to deterioate, I'm really not taking the break up well
>I end up going back home to London
>Go out for a meal with family, end up making a scene at Vapiano's in front of everyone (screaming at the manager who's being racist to my sister)
>Get told off by my oldest sister for making a scene
Fuckthisshit.mp4
>Go out clubbing in London with some friends
>Stash my friend's grinder so he won't get arrested by the bouncers
>Take a random pill (probably ecstasy at Ministry of Sound
>Have the best night out of my life
Cont? (It's getting somewhere, trust me)
>>710224939
have at it anon
>be me
>10th grade
>we have a new colleague
>kinda cute, let's call him P
>sits in front of me
>kinda getting interested in him, even though i have a boyfriend
>we get to hang out sometimes after school
>tells me some really deep stuff about him
>falling into the b8, getting attached to me
>one day, he tells me he wanted to tell me smth
>oshithelikesme.jpg
>hanging out after school, tells me the biig secret
>he has an insane crush on his deskmate
>ahok.jpg
>decided to help him since he's a lost cause
>encourage him to talk to her more
>kinda hurt but it ok
>he's 100% out of her league, tells him, he completely ignores me
>started to get sexually attracted to him
>he starts ignoring me to hang out with girl
>girl specifically told me he's in deep friendzone
>completely stops hanging out with me
>ok
>10th grade over, he promises me we gonna keep in touch
Cont?
>>710225269
getting attached to him*
>>710223562
>made me post a statement on Facebook saying that I'm not gay.
thank fuck my dad hates facebook.
does anyone else suffer from mental illness to the point that it destroys relationships with the people you love?
Earlier tonight I entertained the thought of killing myself for the first time in years and I have to say that it was somewhat attractive. I don't know if I'm just starved for attention or I just enjoy manipulating those around me, but I find myself becoming a more horrible person by the day. I don't know what to do anymore and just want this cycle to end.
>be me
>be 16
>best friend gets arrested on some bs charges
>write him in jail for two years
>he hits a cop in jail
>write him in jail for 8 additional years
>supportive when he's raped, beat up, stuck in solitary, becomes a nazi, etc
>many fucks are given
>he gets out but i live far away and cant afford to visit right away
>talk on facebook a lot, same taste in music, movies, etc
>he gets arrested again, 4 more years of writing
>released, i go to visit, first time since we were kids
>person i remember doesnt exist and he is a complete douche the whole time, literally fear for my safety and leave on bad terms
>poisoned member berries
>havent seen him since, will always wish life was different for him and am sad i carried him with me all those years
>>710224939
>Go home to face the music
>Parents aren't even there
>Decide to pack up all of my stuff and return to Uni because they obviously don't give a shit
>My oldest sis convinces me not to leave
>Stay and talk my shit through and how I'm feeling
>Dad falls asleep but fuck it anyway
>Decide not to leave home
>I'm still not in a good way mentally
>In no fit state to study
>I get taken into A&E a few days later
>End up in a psychiatric ward for 21 days, diagnosed with manic depression with a view to bipolar disorder
>First meal is Indian, the same as when I took my ex out for dinner on her birthday
>Rightinthefeels.webm
>Shed a tear or two at the loss of the relationship
>Come out of hospital, can never smoke weed again because of psychosis
>Get put on anti psychotic medication, Olanzepine, 10mg
>Been taking it ever since
>Had to repeat half of 2nd year of Uni (+£6k onto student debts)
>Don't go to lectures or practicals, barely in uni at all
>Not as confident as before
>Massive weight gain due to side effect of Olanzepine, currently around 230 pounds
>Can't help but think about my ex all the time
>Wonder if I didn't spoon old housemate if things would be different (one of the things she said when she broke up with me is that she has wavering trust in me)
>Wish I could go back to the point I had a mental breakdown and tough it out
TL:DR - My ex-girlfriend broke up with me (biggest factor was that my parents wouldn't accept the relationship, she was white and I'm black) and I had a psychotic episode/mental breakdown, 7 months later I'm still on medication and still not fully over her.
>>710225713
well, you did well, friendo.
he sounds like an epic fuckup, not your fault.
>>710225624
My dad doesn't even use it that much, it was one of my cousins who told his mum (my aunt) who told her husband (my uncle) who told my dad. Fucked up, right?
>>710226058
sounds like fucking bullshit.
people who love each other don't give a FUCK about parents.
my friend had his heart torn apart by a similar slut. she told him the same, "because of parents blah blah".
of course she is now banging some chad.
So yeah, you got played mate.
Fix yourself/your shit, stop with the meds.
It's stupid to kill / torture yourself over a slut who used a lame excuse on you.
Feeling mad feels
can anyone recommend me a tv series?
>>710226058
this is a total shot in the dark, but does your first name contain the letters DP?
>>710226186
Gotta love modern families!
Back to the main topic, I say the same as I said to the other fella.
This "mom, dad (insert random people here) does not approve", is the biggest bullshit excuse ever.
>>710226276
The Wire? :')
>>710208177
Lies they tell you to make you feel better, existence is meaningless, even more so when you're alone because you can't take your mind off the meaninglessness.
>>710226303
Never seen it, ill check it out thanks man just need something to distract me
>>710207277
read that last bit of text as kraut quotes for some reason.
>>710226454
technically, you are correct. It is a Kraut quote
>>710226276
black mirror, like twilight zone + tech, horribly depressing
>>710226058
>>710226058
why can't you smoke weed? i'm sorry this happened anon.
>>710206836
This is /b/ we dont do feels!!
>>710226349
Doing nothing sucks, just have to keep yourself and your brain busy.
>>710226377
It's a fucking awesome series.
>>710224686
There was already something wrong with the relationship, you missed something else. And you will feel shit for being alone, and think you miss HER, but that's wrong, you are just missing being with someone.
For the friend, I don't know.
When I was in College, my roommates were like brothers. When it ended, no one gave a shit about the others. So it's not that unique either.
>>710226553
Would rather not be depressed more than I already am, thanks tho anon
>>710226607
welcome redditor friendo!
sended some plebbit shekels!
LE NARWHALL
>>710226240
>people who love each other don't give a FUCK about parents.
thats what my rationale was, I poured my heart out to her saying I would take on the world for her but she wasn't having any of it, just came up with another excuse.
Funnily enough, she was having guitar lessons from this guy who ended up using her for sex so she ended up in hospital for a bit as well, things go round in circles I guess.
Yeah I might have got played, can't do anything about the meds (although my dosage got lowered recently) but I can fix myself anon. Thanks for the tough love.
>be me
>10th grade
>below average girl
>bullied daily, it only makes my social anxiety worse
>start skipping school because i'm so afraid of people
>one time i actually attend. gym class.
>go into cubicle to change because of scars and general fear.
>girls from my class start thumping on the cubicle door telling me to just slit my wrists the right way and end it
>sit and cry until they're gone, gym class ends
>none of my friends even notice
>start attending school less and less, friends get distant, don't even bother
>so deathly afraid of people i flinch when my mother touches me on the shoulder
>i take my exams at home in my pajamas, no help from my school
>friends never bother with me, i never see them again
>be 19
>agoraphobic, friendless
i'm pathetic, /b/.
>>710226280
Nope anon, sorry!
>>710226630
Trailer Park Boys is also fun.
But Wire is first.
Dexter is cool if you missed.
Adult Swim series are totally retarded, but nice because they just "turn your brain off", you can look those up.
Netflix made series are gay. Every episode have sex scenes, and gay scenes. And it's like a neverending story all the time. Ok, "Narcos" is an exception, you should watch that.
>>710226303
Thanks anon, I don't know why I couldn't see it at the time but it's a lot clearer now. Love conquers all.
I sleep 20 hours a day so I don't think about my shitty life. I've learned to lucid dream so after 4 hours of staying awake browsing/ b/ and eating I take a lot of sleeping pills and go back to my happy lucid dream world where I still have her and we cuddle and kiss and tell each other love you. I love dreaming.
>>710226688
>Yeah I might have got played
Remove that might from there.
As you can see yourself, it was a mere excuse only.
Just stop giving a fuck about a decisive bitch. Occupy your life, your thoughts with something, keep yourself busy.
But again, it's not like you have someone dying from cancer or something. There is nothing of value there. It's a simple slut, nothing more, it's pointless to even thinking about it.
>>710226695
> bullied daily
> friends
What kind of friends those were?
What did your parent say?
What did the school do after contacting them?
Why didn't you change schools?
Also, if you just go to college or uni, NO ONE GIVES A FLYING FUCK about your looks. In my former uni, fuck, 80% of them looked horrible.
Not to say you look like X or Y, we don't know, just saying no one cares there.
It's a thing in elementary/high school, but above that, no one cares.
You could still finish school somehow and go to the next level.
(Depends on country, etc... here you can literally just stroll in, write the final exam and finish high school.)
>>710226592
It affects my mind in a really bad way, I guess I'm one of those people who's really not compatible with it (had a really bad trip a few years back with some skunk, got really aggressive and paranoid about strangers). The doctor told me if I smoke it again the chances of me having another psychotic episode skyrocket, so my ganja days are over :/
Thanks anon, I appreciate that :)
>>710226841
but that's just making it worse.
you could make a different person just as happy.
and she could make happy you as well.
makes no sense to get stuck in the past.
>>710218436
Don't try to own anyone. If you love them they have already graced your life. Stay humble.
>>710226695
Come to North Carolina and be my mami
>>710226695
god my little sister might be heading down this road and i'm too afraid to talk to her..
>>710218436
> maybe there was something I could have done.
No.
>>710227165
>i'm too afraid to talk to her
why is that?
is she a serial killer?
>>710227096
She was the longest and closest friend I've ever had. Its almost been a year since she dropped me. Never knew why.
>>710227261
who knows, who cares?
the next true love you find will also be your best friend, that's basically how a serious relationship works.
>>710218791
i bought the game Gmod in late 2014, there's a gamemode on it called Trouble in Terroristtown, it's like counterstrike, but you have t work together to find out who the bad guys are.
a lot of people use voice chat there, so if you want to practice small talk you can always do this. i still play gmod to this day.
you don't have to worry about not having anything to talk about, because the game gives you plenty to talk about.
This thread has helped me just now, turning a bad and lonely morning into an epiphany about my miserable life. Thank to the anon who tried to help everyone. I'm in charge of myself and I will act like it. Have a good day and remember, you are all loved anon.
>>710226846
I see it now.
You know what anon? Today's the day I return to the active lifestyle I used to live.
I'm not gonna think about it anymore. Fuck it!
>>710218791
Just fucking work or something and meet people.
There is no other way, I am sorry.
That's the best way in my opinion to improve your social skills, talk to others, maybe even meet a girl or two and so on.
>>710227435
Good luck!
>>710227012
that's awful, hope you can rebuild man
>>710227261
So what? Without her you're just gonna give up and let yourself fade into nothing? That's all you are?
Fuck that man, you must have dreams and hopes still right? They might be hard to see now but they're still there. Are you so small and insignificant that one person can break you so easily?
>>710226989
>what kind of friends those were?
Shit ones, anon. But I don't blame them. They were just afraid of being the target themselves.
>what did your parent say?
My mum did everything to try and make the school do something. Nowadays every time she looks at me she just looks regretful. I can't stand it.
>what did the school do after contacting them?
Nothing. They said they'd talk to them. They didn't.
>why didn't you change schools?
Mental state was too bad for such a huge change. Also my grades weren't anything to brag about because I couldn't focus in classes.
I'll take that into consideration anon. I'm just extremely scared of people, what they're thinking about me, what they might say to me. I wish I could somehow take on the 'who gives a fuck' attitude but...
>>710227144
That's a long trip.
>>710227165
Please talk to her. Don't let her become like me.
>>710227165
Bro thats your little sister help her especially if she looks like she needs it
>>710226731
seen trailer park boys like 20 times over
im eastern canadian so
seen dexter and the wire is sick so far
Some netflix series are okay, I like aquarius as well as narcos
adult swim is the tits, thanks for taking the time to recommend some shit.
>>710227219
don't know how to help, that side of the family hates me except her and my gma, we've always been kind of attracted to each other and i'm afraid of doing something with her i might regret. a lot
>>710227656
Thanks /b/ro, much love.
Rebuilding's taking time but I'm getting there. I'm getting there.
Broke up with girlfriend
sorta fucked up regret it later
nope
my fault i dont have gf now was dumb
hang around girl i was never allowed to see
is great
WAIT A SECOND
>Im actually having fun
>>710227699
>>710227702
i'll do my best, thanks
>>710227459
Just make sure not to get dragged down.
The world does not know about what you went through, so don't give up if you get slapped a few times.
Shit happens, so to say.
>>710227699
Meh, changing schools should have been still the best course of action if nothing else helps. I would not give a fuck about my kid's mind, bullying can lead to suicide and anything.
Anyhow.
As I said, try to finish school. Don't know how it works. And trust me, you can go on. In college/uni classes you don't even know people unless you talk to them.
Like, you could live a ghost life for years there, no one would care.
BUT, it's also a fresh chance to start a new social life, since they don't know shit about you. I also got picked on back then, felt like shit. Moved to a different city for my next school, it was the best feeling in my life.
i dropped out of highschool at 15, i haven't had sex in 7 years, i have 1 friend who i see once or twice a week, i sit behind my computer 12 hours a day, and it has been years since i've been to any sort of social gathering.
it has gotten to the point where i don't even want to hang out with people any more, what to talk about? how do you hide that you're pathetic?
worst part is that i know how irrational all this retardation is, but that i'm still too much of a weakwilled faggot to do anything about it.
no great tragedy just boredom, probably not going to kill myself but i don't know where i'll be in 10 years
>>710227722
seen True Detective? best show i've seen in a while
Hey /b/ im back... the girl troubles are continuing i see her around but she doesn't even make eye contact.. I want to ask her but im just scared shes going to straight up destroy me in public.. i know i said i would ask her if it is over but im just to scared to approach.. fuck my life /b/
>>710227722
No probs. BTN tracker is also nice to find new series. Wish I could send invites, but it says "disabled for my user rank"...even though I always seed.
>>710227779
Uhm, talk?
You can't just walk up to her and say "ok out with it"... you have to start talking to her, and see if she is even willing to open up.
And at least you will know her situation.
> we've always been kind of attracted to each other
Stop watching so much porn mate. Also it helps if you don't send dick pics after the first conversation... jesus...
>>710227974
Do you have a job? Save up and travel the world?
It sounds stupid but it might be one of the most worthwhile things you ever do.
I was a social retard until I saved up enough money to go to Europe where I lost my virginity and turned my whole life around.
>>710228027
To me it was kinda depressing...
but maybe that's just me.
>>710228065
No chance she is ALWAYS surrounded by people.
Also don't do it online, if she is an evil one, she can send the conversation to others, etc.
Walk up to her when she is alone, ask it.
>>710228065
Let her go man, it's not worth your effort.
>>710227974
>what to talk about? how do you hide that you're pathetic?
Most people just talk about work and random shit, while they work. Said this to the other anon, but having a job can help you talk to people.
Well, depends on the job of course.
>>710228080
I use eztv but been catching heat for it so I got kodi now and just stream it all.
>>710228230
i want to but what if its a misunderstanding.. im so fucking confused. i don't feel it is. but at the same time if she wanted to continue why would she not talk to me
>>710228306
>but been catching heat for it
meh, I always use some vpn.
most have "SOCKS5 proxy" that you can insert into your client, and that way the rest of your shit goes fast, and your torrenting stays hidden.
or, rent a cheap seed server.
you can just grab the files you need, and also seed 0-24.
It's gonna be a long one but here goes
>be 13
>2008
>mildly autistic
>didn't affect me a whole lot but I did learn a lot faster than other kids
>because of this defect I am homeschooled
>manage to still have social life
>my mom and a few other moms at church have a group and offer classes for homeschooled kids every august through may
>forces me to take her writing class
>she offers it after a writing class for little kids
>have to wait for an hour and a half beore I can go to class and leave
>over the course of the next few weeks I manage to get an 8/10, 14 year old gf
>let's call her Vi
>despite only being 14 she has a nice body, huge ass and hips, and a waist topped with boobs only god himself could've fondled correctly
>this is also the time I realized I love short (under 5') white girls with jet black hair
>that hour and a half I have to wait becomes the greatest hour and a half I could imagine
>september comes, get a 15" macbook pro for my birthday because upper middle class brat
>dual boot windows vista
>install Halo 2
>impress Vi with this somehow
>every day I have class I take this thing in and play Halo 2 while she watches
>she doesn't mind and is legitimately impressed with my mad ski11z
cont?
>>710228160
>>710228065
Sidenote: If she does not even look at you and stuff, at least if she tells you off, you will not worry about her anymore. It will be over, you will be free, finally.
>>710228083
for some reason that doesn't sound like fun to me anymore, i really have no goals and ambitions.
i don't know why i posted here cuz i don't know what i want
>>710228239
i have a paperjob which is obviously nothing to be proud of, the conversation will steer towards hobbies eventually.i really can't hide that i'm a loser without lying.
thanks for the advice guys, appreciate it.
>>710228313
Exactly, she doesn't want it to continue otherwise she would pursue it.
Break your own heart kid, don't let her do it for you. I'm not saying that no one will ever like you in that way, I'm just saying that in this particular case it's not going to work for you.
Relationships have to be easy from the start, if they aren't then it's not worth chasing it. I spent many years bugging the wrong girls because I thought I could turn them around.
You'll know when it's right.
>>710228463
alright..
>>710228405
sounds like a weird story m8
>>710228510
It's the main reason I'm fucked up today.
>one day, right before my 14th birthday
>getting rekt by some brutes in legendary
>die
>gf starts making out with me
>tells me to follow her
>close laptop, do as told
>she walks me into a bathroom
>starts taking off her clothes
>autism is kicking in
>I fucking apologize and try to leave
>thankfully she stops me
>pulls my shirt off
>unbuttons pants
>backs me into a wall
>starts making out with me
>after 10 mins of this she sits me down on the toilet with the lid closed
>gets on top of me
>tells me to put it in
>do as told
>it won't go in though
>she's noticably uncomfortable
>grabs my dick and positions it under her vag
>literally drops onto it
>blood everywhere
>she's still riding me though
>cum in 2 mins
>inside her
>didn't think of the possible repercussions of this act
>tells me happy birthday
>she gets off and we clean up
>walk out
>I'm an awkward mess at this point
>had sex though, so I can't be too bad off
>don't see her until the following tuesday
>>710228487
>i really can't hide that i'm a loser without lying.
Oh boy. Do you really think people don't lie?
Just pretend you are interested in what they do, what they like, shit like that. While it may feel weird at first, it's what everyone does.
And it will make you feel good, because you are having a conversation.
And the more you talk with people, the better you get at "filtering your loser shit".
>>710228502
Worked for me. Can be heartbreaking, but then I finally was free, felt great afterwards.
>>710228487
What do you want from your life? What do you think will make you happy, keeping in mind that what's happened in your life has already happened at that you can't change.
What can you do today that will set you on the path where it's possible that you might be able to achieve happiness?
>accidentally got friended by a hooker... "You know you don't have to leave right away. We can hang out for a bit if you want."
>accidentally got friended by a myfreecams model... "I want to talk about my feeling in private chat even though you're paying per minute"
>accidentally got friended by a sugar baby... "I don't want to sleep with you anymore, but you can take me out and buy me stuff if you want.
All I want to do is bust a nut to/in/on some sloot, brah. Why does life suck so hard. Literally can't interact with women without them catching feels.
>>710228630
This.
Legitimately everyone in life is lying their asses off half the time and just try to make themselves seem more interesting than they really are.
It's a skill like anything else in life and it's necessary to use it once in a while.
>>710228590
>it's december now
>our fucking becomes a regular act
>unprotected, of course. figured I was shooting blanks
>parents on both sides of this relationship are completely unaware of the sinful acts
>they're so unaware that the only person that actually knows we're dating and not just friends is my 8 year old bro
>some stupid dance is coming up
>I don't dance
>by this time I'm going through my goth/emo/faggot phase
>wore dark bootcut jeans, black boots, and black hoodie
>all I listen to is SDRE, Deftones, Mineral, and American Football
>the last thing I want to go to is a christmas dance
>no choice
>mom forces me to go
>says my Vi would like it
>ask her if she wants go with me
>ofc she says yes
>dance comes
>parents drop us off
>we decide that we're just going to drink coffee and laugh at idiots trying to dance
>for the next hour this is what happens
>get bored
>we sneak out and wander around the church
>obviously we fuck in various spots
>thankfully I'm an athiest so I feel no shame for doing her on an altar, among other places one could feel shame for fucking on in the house of god
>we go back to the dance
>sit at a table with her older sister
>everything going fine
>and then
>sister looks at me
>"I know what you're doing"
>fug :DDD
>try playing it cool
>"what are you talking about?"
>"you know exactly what I'm talking about"
>well that's checkmate for me
>Vi looks like she's going to kill her
>I can't imagine this going well at all
>autism is reaching boiling point
>need to break the tension
>"at least we don't do it all that often"
>wtf did I just say
>sister gives me confused/disgusted look
>Vi breaks out laughing
>her sister isn't all that pissed anymore
>holy shit it worked
>just wants me to buy condoms and not fuck in church
>asif.jpg
>parents come to pick me up
>return to regularly scheduled unprotected teenage sex
>>710228630
And anon, this lying is not a bad thing.
Trust me.
Roll
>>710229139
>making album during 8th months
>the fuck knows how to promote
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bxZLV5pVxhw
>>710229184
>>710229212
>>710229260
>>710229203
Not sure if srs
>>710228630
i'm OK with 1 on 1 conversations, i worked in a restaurant for a while and know how to make small talk.
but how am i supposed to build a close relationship with someone if i lie about my life.
they'll find out eventually that i don't do anything.
to be honest i think the fact that i cannot function in a group; is what is fucking me up. i just shut up and leave ASAP. every party i have ever been invited to, i left as soon as i could.
wanna hear something pathetic? i'm afraid to get a girlfriend because she'll want to go out to bars with me and do stuff.
>>710228631
i want to have fun, i don't have a '' main goal '' and my brain just draws a blank when i think of it.
thanks for the advice guys, think i need to work on my retarded social anxiety first.
>>710229301
>>710229412
>>710229306
true story bro
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9HyFXc5dg3o
Anyone else have a plan? Let me share mine
>bullshit my way through uni
>pretend to get certificate
>pretend to get a real job
>probably just make coffees
>wait till parents die
>no one left for me to disappoint
>kill myself
>be forgotten
>???
>be happy
>>710229315
You don't necessarily have to lie about everything you just sprinkle the truth a little and make it sound more glamorous than it actually is. Don't exaggerate that much but just tell little white lies to make your life seem more interesting than it actually is. The more you put yourself out there the more stories you'll have to tell and the more encouraged you'll be to go back out there to tell those stories. It's a snowball effect.
The cool thing about having a gf is that they're cool with the real you. Fix yourself first though before you try to get a gf.
Make a list of things you want to do before the end of the year. Go to the zoo, go for a road trip, have one drink at a bar. Start small and work your way up. It's ok to do stuff by yourself.
>>710229493
You're putting in so much effort already though. Why not actually graduate and get a job? You're already halfway there, you're just afraid to fully commit.
>>710229678
too late, final exams/reports are in 2 weeks and I havent done been to any of the classes since week 3.
This is my second time repeating a year and im going to fail another class so im going to have to wait another 6 months to redo it and then another 6 months to finish it.
>>710229580
solid advice, thanks.
>>710213241
Some people need to know when they are being a burden, people don't owe you anything no matter how invested you are.
we sit here staring though the eyes we were granted when we were born. they say a persons soul can be seen through their eyes.. But that's one belief, beliefs don't exist we are like everything else. when we die it is the end. no matter how we reason it our brain shuts off like a computer. our minds cease to exist we just stop. We try to tell ourselves that our existence means something but out lifespans are less than 1/100000 of the earth lifespan.
When my father died of cancer. I was young i was silly.. But i was unaware to the fact that he knew his lifespan. He knew he was dying. But he only told me he was getting better. The day after my brothers birthday was the day he drew his final breath.. I hadn't seen him in over 5 months and i still live with the fact of the things i wasn't able to tell him. sure he was a drunk.. but always a happy one.. He always tried so hard to keep us happy. I still think now wondering what it would be like if he was still alive.
My mother was never a happy person. shes a drunk and a vicious one.. on several occasions she beat me and my brother and used basic needs like food and water as a pressure point to hurt us with. once i called the police on her and they eventually came. they told her it wasn't alright and referred child services to the house. they told me they were powerless to remove me from the home. I stayed there and things only worsened. i hadn't eaten for atleast a day and i had been locked out the house. At that moment i always wondered why i was chosen for this.. sitting on a veranda outside of a ruined house with water overflowing onto the deck.. only then i learnt the block pain..
I haven't cried in 4 years.. i frequently feel nothing. it scares me..
>>710229797
So quit your course and find an easier one.
If you were gonna quit you should've done it a long time ago. You've already put in blood, sweat and tears. Why not put your foot down and decide that you've had enough?
Why not just decide that you can do this? No matter what you'll be successful? Others have done it, why not you?
>>710229000
>American Football
Not bad man
>>710229882
No sweat man, I had suicidal thoughts from when I was 12 to 21. At 21 I had no friends, never had a girlfriend, threatened to be expelled from uni and had no job.
At 21 I decided that enough was enough and that if I was going to kill myself then I should have done it back at 12. I essentially turned my life around. I went to the gym almost everyday. I forced myself to introduce myself to people at uni.
Today I'm a consultant, and have a few good friends. I've traveled around the world and woke up this morning with my girlfriend lying with her head in my chest.
It's possible, but it's hard. You got this though bro, no one can stop you but yourself.
>>710210110
Don't get it.
>>710215396
Wow dude I'm struggling to maintain a healthy weight and I'm inspired by your story to try and do better. keep on moving forward brother
I'm a 20 year old overweight virgin with no will to live. no relationships/little friendships/ little success at work/struggling in college and living in a place where I'm unhappy
>>710232280
I can't seem to find the motivation to fix my sleep schedule or work to maintain a healthy lifestyle
>>710221745
>family finds out you're gay
> gets disowned
holy shit. i hereby declare solidarity
>>710226058
Damn
ITT: self pitying beta faggots who think the world owes them shit.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=p37_Ux1G_BI
>>710233590
its ok tiger, u can let it all out
>>710233648
what?
crying like a little bitch on a chinese image board?
nah.
>>710209614
Look up RSD Nation... They look like pick-up gurus at the surface, but they really teach you how to live life as it should be. They teach you to burn away your negative thought loops and remind you that your mind is only primitive.
>>710233590
the World owes me fucking happiness
and a qt gf
