ITT: Tell a story that nobody would believe but is true
I used to be a pain killer addict in highschool but then I overdosed on what could be a gram (or more) of pure oxys, vics and hydros. Went into a coma and when I woke up I wasn't addicted to drugs anymore. Spent the next three years after highschool figuring out my place in the universe, society, dimensions, the after life, aliens, god, people and myself.
Literally have seen where we go when we die and how we have the ability to change what happens after we die. Meditation is literally a superpower that you can train. Religion killed spirituality. These are things I learned through straight first hand unbiased experience. I have also seen many paranormal shit like glowing green meteors covered in red fire and glowing white orbs pass me by.
It is crazy what you can discover in life if you are willing to go into the madness and come out with knowledge while still maintaining your sanity and dignity.
I know I might not sound interesting but I can pretty much answer any questions you have about life. ama if u want anons idrc either way I just want to help you figure out how you can help yourself if you want
Why come my dick smells funny?
>>709966975
how can i help myself then
I want to die help me fix this. Or is it not a problem
Is death an illusion?
>>709966975
I once woke up in my bed and saw a pure white flashing light that seem to come from everywhere at once. it would pulsate slow then fast, rapid, then slow again and repeat. I would look around the room and could not see where it came from, my mom had the same experience but she said she levitated off the bed and freaked out grabbing the bed sheets. My siblings don't believe mom or myself and I didn't believe mom until it happened to me.
>>709966975
>inb4 off topic
where was this photograph taken?
it did things to my emotions and I feel like I must enquire
>>709966975
this is called drug induced hallucinations, you may have brain damage that altered your perception.
still dont wanna risk it though, how can I make god happy and go to a nice place after im gone?
>>709966975
>be me
>13
>go to Bali for the first time
>stay at beach resort
>get up one morning and smash my head into the shower by the pool
>leaves a massive gash that probably needed stitches
>didn't go to the hospital because it would be expensive as fuck
>leave the cut on my head
>go out shopping later that day
>walk past a massage shop
>old Indonesian later walks out the shop and rubs me on the arm
>"what happened baby?"
>I tell her
>she replies "you need to be more careful, yeah?"
>I just kinda smile and go about my business
>she goes back into her shop
>an hour later the gash is completely gone
>no idea how
I tell this story all the time and no one believes me. I'm not into the supernatural and I'm a total atheist. I've got no idea how it disappeared.
>>709966975
What happens to someone who has taken their own life? Does the sorrow with which they had carry over? Or are they at peace.
I lost my virginity to two hot girls at once in a bath tub, this was when I used to work at a nightclub and I had to stay the night in the motel right beside it. No one believes me when I tell the story of how I lost my virginity but then again I never tell them it was actually pretty bad, I couldn't even finish.. luckily we were all a bit drunk and the morning after they were cool about it.
>>709968352
What do you need help with in your life? Is their anything bothering you?
>>709968459
>>709968484
Basically if you are 100 percent confident in how you want your personal heaven to be and you have pure thoughts and heart you can make your own heaven for yourself. Or you can become your own God that can become an even stronger God. It depends really on how strong your soul/will is and how bad you want it. If not then your soul just gets recycled. Basically multiple religions are semi right in some aspects.
>>709968459
Why do you want to die? What is wrong with your life? Being scared of death is a problem but wanting to die is a problem. What's wrong dude?
>>709968638
Not sure.
>>709968683
>drug induced hallucinations
yes partially. I can delve more into but I am kind of lazy and it is ALOT of typing to fully explain what I mean. So if I don't have to explain then I won't but I know for sure that my thinking is not delusional or an illusion created by myself.
To go to a good place after you die you need strong will power and need to either conform with other individuals on the same wave length as yourself or have a strong enough will to forge your own reality in the after life. Other wise you get recycled. This all partially has to do with making yourself happy. It is not about making god happy.
>>709969082
Blackness. Nothingness. Imagine a black hole that is nothing but black. The blackest black you can imagine made from nothingness with nothing. No peace or sorrow just nothing.
>>709969041
Even scientists aren't Atheists. There's definitely a designer. Is it all powerful and all knowing? Who knows, probably not. it's probably an alien race of some sort, recently scientists have began to believe we are in a simulation created by an alien intelligence. I challenge you this. Ask the creator "Regardless of religion, if something, someone exists, prove it to me and show me a symbol that I ask for" Make your request, it can be any symbol you want. Ask to see a pink unicorn or a geometric shape and you will see it soon. I did this and was shown what I requested 15 minute after asking.
I have seen a green meteor quite recently while driving thru Arizona.
>>709969041
That is beautiful anon.
>>709969442
What if you dont?
Also, most scientists call themselves atheists or agnostics..
>>709969442
Not who you responded to, but if aliens created us what created them?
>>709969786
ah yes, that one.
"we are so complex, we must have been created by a complex designer"
"well if the designer is so complex, who designed him?"
thats why many scientists think we had an uncomplex designer, namely, the big bang.
>>709966975
Yay you made another thread
>>709969285
>Blackness. Nothingness. Imagine a black hole that is nothing but black. The blackest black you can imagine made from nothingness with nothing. No peace or sorrow just nothing.so are they concious?
because I would get really fucking bored there.
Also im terrified of the possibility of hell, should I kill myself one day just to be safe?
>>709966975
you figured out God? You sound a tad bit pretentious...
>>709966975
very interesting thread op
can you answer some questions i have about life?
how come some people become famous? I feel like they definetly think differently than the average joe but what exactly happens?
also destiny? thoughts about destiny and fate and if they are real?
>>709969285
>recycled?
Like reincarnation?
FUCKING AWESOME!
I think reincarnation is my favorite after-death hypothesis, you dont have to stay in one place, you can become other people, animals, ect..
I really wanna be a wolf or a fox.
>>709966975
how do i stop Cthulhu from winning the Great Battle of the 9th dimension?
Hey op im very interested.
Whats going on with the meditation super power? i been feeling an urge to medidate out of nowhere. What do you mean by super power?. Can i be a god and control my own universe?
>>709966975
That's honestly really beautiful to hear
>>709970555
Damn i got trips. Anyway. How to enter rabit hole and get out in full pieces? just by coma? too risky to try, maybe maditation? please halp me op
>>709966975
op im really obsessed with becoming attractive
how do achieve? will meditation help?
how do i sell my soul to devil and get whatever i want ?
also how to get rich hehe
thnx xoxo
>>709966975
>These are things I learned through straight first hand unbiased experience
>unbiased
Cute, thanks for playing. Here's a copy of the home game as a consolation prize.
bump
>>709966975
While in the 5th grade playing with a friend in some woods at the school, a meteor about the size of a grape plopped onto the forest floor right where we were looking. We saw the trajectory, looked back along it thinking someone threw it, but no-one was in that direction. I picked it up, it was warmer to the touch than our hands (it was a cold Fall day), and had sort of the texture of pumice. My friend kept it.
>be me
>few months ago have a dream/experience
>in bed but don't feel like I'm asleep
>get intense feeling like the one you get on a roller coaster but lasts like 5 seconds
>wake up on table in room with no corners or edges
>I'm in my underwear and its cold
>get up and go to winder
>look out and I'm looking down at earth
>instantly back in bed and not tired
Dream or abducted? I have chills just writing this. It felt so real.
>>709970754
Not op but im down to go down the rabbit hole and not come back. If op aswers your stuff he should be able to tell me how to not come back
2nd bump
>>709970379
People become famous because they have gone to the extreme level of personal mastery and are willing to be innovative without caring about what other people think about themselves (to a point). It all comes down to dedication, will and your own goals. Destiny is a real thing just by coincidence or because of fate sometimes. Destiny and fate can be changed at any point and you control both of them. You choose whether the destiny you were meant to have becomes reality.
>>709970435
One thing I haven't figured out yet is animals. They are somehow slightly different form humans but more raw/primal. I have not confirmed yet whether we reincarnate into animals.
>>709970555
You can be a god and control your own universe if you work REALLY hard at it and find the real truth. But this is only after you die or phase out in this life by your own choice. Meditation super power you can heal, project yourself, light things on fire, see a few seconds into the future, gain instant flow, have unlimited memory or go into the spirit world
>>709970976
meditation will help you be your truth self and gain a higher reality. it will make you be more attractive to girls because they can tell you don't need them. it sounds silly but bitches subconsiously know power levels and base attractiveness off of that. if you up the power of your mind bitches will flock. trust me when I walk around at school I get hit on all the time and I don't care haha its fun but tiring because I don't have energy to flirt or try with them all cause im lazy when it comes to that.
>>709971402
why would you want that?
>>709971450
So by meditation you mean this stereotypicall ammmmmmmm sound? right? or nah? tell me im going to do what ever you tell me to
>>709971138
Either the alphas or omegas abducted you
>>709966975
I have deja vu several times a month. It has happened ever since I was little. Just recently I've gotten better at catching it happens and play the scene out before it does in my head rather than realizing moments after. Most recent was yesterday. They are never elaborate, mostly just everyday stuff. And no, I don't believe it's some psychic special snowflake phenomenon or religious experience. I'm honestly not sure what it could be
>>709971453
Lifes boring. Ive done enough.
>>709971138
Either we had the exact same dream or we both have visited the mothership
>>709971450
>meditation will help you be your truth self and gain a higher reality. it will make you be more attractive to girls because they can tell you don't need them. it sounds silly but bitches subconsiously know power levels and base attractiveness off of that. if you up the power of your mind bitches will flock. trust me when I walk around at school I get hit on all the time and I don't care haha its fun but tiring because I don't have energy to flirt or try with them all cause im lazy when it comes to that.
This is true, i have realized that i dont need girls as much as i tought, and suddenly i had this 20/10 super hot bitch, in my bed but didnt even bother to fuck her, it was way to easy to be fun
>>709971727
Can you explain what the room looked like to you?
>>709971138
You weren't abducted. You either happened to astral projected by chance or you experienced sleep paralysis or a lucid dream.
>>709970754
You need to center yourself through some extreme pain or an extreme source of light. You need some way to piece yourself back together through any circumstance. I naturally have had my own personal life experiences to fall back on but yeah. For yourself I would say use the light of the entire universe and goodness/heart to center yourself. Think and imagine in your mind everything good/pure/holy to bring yourself back.
>>709971595
Not OP. But the aumm is generally used as a focusing mechanism. It's supposed to replicate the vibration of the universe. What you should focus on first is your breathing. Just breathe in and out and relax your mind. Don't engage with your thoughts but don't (actively) try to push them away. Just be a spectator of your mind. Try researching Buddhist/Zen meditation. Zen is what will get you into flow state
>>709971450
thanks for answering op!
how do i start meditating? i have an urge to do it and i know i should do it. i believe it can help cure my anxiety and depression and overall laziness but how do i even start?
>>709971595
>>709971948
No. meditation is literally seperating your mind from your body, and your mind from your soul. all it takes is quiet concentration in a comfortable position thinking about your connection to the universe. there are many ways to meditate and the thing that works for each person varies person to person. research, try and find out what works best for you personally. don't depend on how others say you should meditate. just use what they say as general very vague guidelines.
>>709971450
You've figured out God, but haven't figured out animals? If you have God down, shouldn't animals come pretty easy like? They shouldn't be anywhere near as complex as anything even closely resembling God. So what's the deal?
>>709969285
So literally pic related?
Kys you fucking moron. Holy shit.
>any questions about life
All I want is enough money to live by myself in a small home and have a little spending cash without having to work ever again. Working to live isn't living and being so poor it restricts even basic needs isn't freedom. How do I find my way to this way of life? I feel like it's not completely ridiculous. Help me wise OP
>>709972140
i second this question
my niggas, screen cap this, im going to meditate for a year and post results, will soon post a thread telling that is the day for me to begin
>>709971948
Or you can just go on youtube and look up guided meditation. Thank me later.
how do i fight the system? I dont like being oppressed both mentally and spirituality so how do i fight the reptilians that call themselves the goverment?
i CAN BELIEVE IT'S NOT BUTTER
>>709966975
No story, I just learned the Czech language in 10 months
I speak a latin language btw.
>>709972210
Buckle up
>>709972091
So the closest conclusion I can come to is that they are use without the bullshit. Meant to give contrast and reason to our lives as intelligent lifeforms. Animals definitely have a purpose and a soul but I am not sure if they are on the same levels as humans or if they are beginner humans in a sense. Either way I am a vegetarian because they do have a place in the universe it is just hard to tell because something is off about them. I think that animals just haven't evolved or are not meant to evolve ever. Idk I will find out eventually their purpose just hard to tell atm.
>>709972127
Yeah it's like tbh but that is just the surface general ideas. Good beginner philosophical book but not great. Funny thing is I didn't even know this book existed up until a few months ago when I read it and I was like wow good read even though it was short.
>>709972461
Anyone that likes that book is either a woman or a complete and utter 95 IQ fucking moron dude.
>>709972140
>>709972198
Life doesn't care what happens to you. So you better be ready to put forth a shit ton of effort to stay comfortable.
>>709971666
same it used to be super common for me, sometimes i feel like ive already lived my life out and everything is a premonition like a giant series of already planned choices and i get deja vu
>>709966975
hi OP, don't really have a story but need advice been coming on here the last few days and just posting sexy pictures of myself hoping to get the attention of someone like you..
>servere anxiety/hypochondria , my head was out of control numb and it drove me to panic attacks
>finially took lexapro and klonopin , hate taking the meds still doesn't feeel right inside. everyone thinks it's anxiety
>weird dreams about my douche bag ex from three years ago despite me having basically my dream guy as my current bf
> dads an alcoholic pothead with no real job while moms an overly stressed hard worker that isn't happy with my father or her being the only supporter in the family.
>dropped out of school this semester and am not working
>my uncle melested me and sexually talked to me till i was 18. my dads brother he's a pothead too.
>i'm 22 next week wtf is wrong with my head and the past thoughts w/ the shitty ex, the uncle like why do i think i have a brain tumor and get panic attacks without klonopin .
Ok op I've got a thinker for you
About two years ago I started getting Dejavu on the daily, sometimes consecutively. I'd be walking to my room and boom, driving my car and boom, doing shit I know I've never done and boom there goes the dynamite. This slowly stopped happening but after it stopped I developed major depression synpotms and I lost the ability to socialize how I had before, I can't even have a good conversation with my best friend. Then about 6 months ago I had this dream where an angel or spirit was showing me my future. I woke up from this dream pretty freaked but sure it was just a dream. Later on I would recognize visions that the spirit showed me, I can give examples. Ive also had times where I felt come red to God or someone but I was high on cannabis for those.
Plz send help OP thanks
>>709972461
Well that was a funny explanation of animals that made little sense. Now let's hear the one about God.
Also, tell me about souls.
>>709972140
I have always wanted to live this lifestyle and I yearn for it. When I am close to dying I will move to a cabin in the woods to live out my days in the forest. If you want to live this lifestyle you need to save at least 10-30k and invest it and make ore money. If you save/made at least 200k you could never have to work a day in your life if you are smart about it and know how to survive minimally.
>>709972290
You fight the system by being the truest self you can be, living without fear and not giving into any society, rules, other people or anything. Live how you want and don't have fear and you fight the system. Be brave. You have nothing to be scared of but yourself. Pain and death are just experiences and things that happen. Don't be scared of shitty people controlling your actions. They utimately have no control even if they try to. They can never control your true self in the after world. Even if they tried to control or destroy you in the after life they would be wasting their time and gain nothing from it. If you are strong/brave you always win and fight the system by living by your own self.
>>709972642
Go back to being dead I'll find a way without a shit ton of effort I'm a lazy fuck
>>709969442
>Ask to see a pink unicorn ... and you will see it soon.
Not if it's an Invisible Pink Unicorn, anon!
>>709972937
give examples m8 i wanna read em
>>709966975
I've got one
OP is a faggot
>>709973178
IPU, I see you!
Bump
>>709969285
what do you mean recycled? I personally have been lead to believe that we are all living our lives to learn and develop as an entity. when we come back it is to learn another lesson, and some of the wisdom and things we've learned can carry over. I always thought my goal was to live my life in as good a way as possible, and try and get closer towards ultimate joy, happiness, and enlightenment.
>>709968638
Looks like scotland to me
I AM AND I ARE ALL WE
>>709972603
I said it wasn't a great book lol. Probably wouldn't ever read again but it is a good book for dumb people who have no inkling of how spiritual nature/philosophy work. Good for the masses to read and better further themselves.
>>709972769
You need to separate yourself from everybody around you and get out of the situation you are in. Stop posting pics of yourself. Nobody cares and it doesn't matter. You are only harming yourself by doing this and potentially endangering your life. You need to get off of all your meds for a while and deal with the shell shock of not being on meds. It will suck. It will take months. You will be sad/depressed/angry/weird/afraid. You need to work through the problems through your head and help yourself by going into the inner recesses of your mind. Honestly there is a lot I want to talk to you about and tell you how you can help yourself. Is there a way I can help you? I want to explain my personal story in further detail because we have similar experiences but it would take me a couple pages worth of writing to explain/help you more personally.
>>709971450
I really feel like there's something to you man. I hate to ask, but can you please give me advice on a girl I knew online? her name is Mollie M. I fell in love with her though I didn't really know her too well, but it felt like I read her soul. I want her to love me back, but she lives on the other side of the planet (I'm US, she's UK) and well..... idk if I want to find someone else. I wanted to make her my goal, even if I end up unhappy because of it.
I suppose if I got to know her for a while, I might get bored or something, but from the brief period of 9 months that I knew her, I fell in love. I just don't want to ruin my life on some wild goose chase, especially when i'm constantly going back and forth on all my other goals. (I'm trying to solidfy those and create a game plan rn, but staying on task is friggen hard.
Please help me bro, I really need it.
>>709971450
>bitches know power levels
kek op true shit
>>709973605
kek op tryna get laid
THE I IS THE TOWER
>>709972937
this is hard to explain but it seems you need to work through your mind and confront the things you don't want to confront. the things you keep locked away in your mind that you keep hidden in the dark. it will take a long time and a lot of work but you can do it anon. Work through the bad stuff and you will gain enlightenment.
>>709972954
>animals
yeah like I said I have no clue where they fit into the universe so take all that I said about animals as bullshit because I honestly don't know.
When you die you go into a giant ball of energy and go into your next life to learn and experience more. The goal is to become your own separate ball of energy/light/god so you can evolve your soul. If you do not do the things you have to in this life to evolve you get reincarnated to try again.
>>709973605
OP, can you please contact me. I got a burner at [email protected] I could use the help.
>>709971948
Start by focusing on your breath.
It's harder than it sounds.
Most /b/tards couldn't last for 30 seconds.
>>709972233
Nice dub dubs, but guided meditation is for pussies. You want to get into the habit of doing it yourself... DAILY.
>>709973187
>see my basement standing from the back door, everything is reorganized
>a while later come home from work and whabam, standing in the same spot, looking at the same scene most notable thing moved was a punching bag
This next one goes a little farther
>gap between college classes
>go out to lunch
>always get food and park in a parking lot
>for what we reason decide parking behind the seedy drug deal/hooker motel is a good idea
>start eating
>flash to the dream
> in the vision I not only saw me sitting in my car but two seedy motherfuckers in a motel room directly across from me
>still in dream, I'm standing behind them looming out the window at me
>can hear them talk but don't remember what they say
>back to real life I'm eating my subway meal and I start hearing the conversation happening in the motel room
>some GTA V Trevor looking motherfuck come out of the hotel room and starts fucking around in his truck, sunglasses on, in the shadow of the motel room
>he's really fuckin around in there
>what the fucks this guy doing
>seriously this mother fucker has been in there forever
>btw he's not actually in the truck he's standing out side of the truck fucKing with shot in the cab
>it's a two seat can what could he possible have in there
>he's fucking watching me
>heads up, in the vision after the last scene I described the next is me dead in my car, gunshot wound to the head
>I'm outtie, peel outta that bitch
>probs thought I was a cop
And no I wasn't making this up in my head as it was happening, just gonna have to trust me on that
Need more?
>>709966975
A couple months ago i had just turned the light off and was lying in bed when i heard someone very clearly say my name and say hello, the voice sounded very comforting and welcoming but sent shivers down my spine. I know i didn't imagine it, what are your thoughts
>>709973669
Your brain is filling in the gaps that occur from her being half way around the fucking world. And it's filling them how it so desires. You're not in love with anyone you've never met.
>>709973605
just being able to talk to an outside source and get different perspective could be really really beneficial, my sorry all journey is of course really sparking up going through this as well, can we pass along emails or some other form of communication that would work for you ?
>>709974184
Well, we skyped a fair bit, and I honestly could read her personality quite well. You're very much right about the filling in the personality gaps, but I just don't know where to look for love. And I feel incredibly alone right now. It's fucking up the rest of my life dude
>>709973380
You are right but if you haven't gained all that you need to from this life you get recycled. You are not wrong.
>>709973669
Dude this is going to sound horrible but girls are another thing. They give substance and are emotional on another level. You are not in love. You need to go out and find real life women and practice. Read pic related. Pic is sad but true about the reality of how women think. Women are in direct contrast to how men are biologically programmed but their are
exceptions.
>>709974046
sure I will email you in the next hour
>>709974184
and tbh, I really do think I know her well. Not perfectly, and a good amount of my feelings stem from my own creation, but I did know her, and I guess I just made a concious decision to fall in love with her.... if that's even possible (probably not)
>>709974119
yeah m8 thats spooky, write all of them
>>709974308
Leave this place and go join the living. Girls are out there waiting to be sweet talked and sacked. I suggest looking anywhere females can be found. There are like 3.5 billion fish in the sea. Your odds are rrrrrrrrrreeeeeeeally fuckin good.
>>709974087
so focus on my breathing and then will my thought subconsioucly change? and then control those subconscious thoughts while focusing on my breathing? I really dont know what you mean by focus on breathing
>be me
>edgelord 80s metal 17 yearold
>at venue
>play guitar
>guitaring
>meet Taylor Momsen
>smoke weed
>slams her hamwallet on my penis
>she crys
>I cry
>do more of the weed
>slam
>she tells me she loves me
>gtfo
Never spoked to her again
I got dubs
True story
>>709974453
well truth be told, she's 19 and still a virgin. I don't expect undying loyalty, or endless love, but sex is not an end all be all for me in a relationship.
idk man, I'm sorry about writing so many responses, just I sometimes feel so fucked mentally whenever I think about her.
>>709974666
sit the fuck down satan.
>>709974666
Satan SHOULD have known he was getting trips...
>>709974141
sometimes being by coincidence or their own choice cross over into our minds/realities/souls.
>>709974188
sure just make a burner email and tell me what it is and I will email you back within the next hour or two
>>709974666
OMG this is legendary LOL nice trips haha
>>709974701
Don't let women get a grasp on you. Simple but true advice they don't matter only the things you do is.
>>709974640
bravo
>>709966975
i hit a guy on the face with a hammer repeatedly because he owed me 20$
I was a 16 year old heroin dealer and I quit cold turkey at 17 when my sister broke down crying calling me skeletor two months later I got raided. now I look around me and all of these wannabe gangsters are fucking retarded they don't know the proper rules.
>>709974897
I guess I just want a chick who thinks like a man, with nice tits who can give me kids. and likes sex but won't cheat.
>>709974897
>Simple but true advice they don't matter only the things you do is.
>you do is
WTF?
I think you're still on drugs, mate.
what do you think of the idea that we're all replaceable?
It's ruining my idea of a relationship and love.
>>709975065
Oh, is that all, princess?
>>709974453
thanks for the infographic btw m8.
I once heard a man fart, burp and snore all at the same time.
My grandfather is a repulsive fuck.
>>709975345
Kek
>>709966975
Im in a state where i want to kill everything because it all seems pointless. Pointless in the sense that I know anything i work for will never yield rewards that make life worth living. I continue thinking a miracle could still happen but even if time travel were real it would have to be one where this timeline becomes void because even the memory of this existence would ruin another. My life was slowly soured over time and I think im nearing a turning point of becoming a robotic psychopath to keep going. Everything I was told about life getting better as an adult was utter bullshit, was all just a tease. If i told anyone id just be diagnosed as chronically depressed which there is no rehabilitation for. All I have left is to try hard drugs and die.
>>709973605
I said anyone that agreed with its message even in the slightest is a fucking brain-dead Moron that should be praised for managing to wipe his own ass.
>>709975065
Ok if that is the case here are your options. Wait your entire life for this dream girl who may not actually ever exist in your life OR find a tranny or gay guy and adopt. Girls don't think like men unless they are genetically flawed.
>>709975213
Seriously the more care you put into yourself and only caring what you do in life the more women start to care about you.
>>709975250
You are only replaceable if you allow yourself to be someone who can be replaced. Forge yourself into someone who is truly unique then you will never be replaced.
>>709966975
Why doesnt she love me back?
>>709969442
the scientists who believe in a creator are often shunned and soon end up wit no job lol.
>>709974897
okay OP i made one [email protected]
thx for taking the time
>>709975548
Yeah, you're definitely still hitting the bong
>>709970234
you should live truthfully and happily.
>>709975566
Why does she have to love you? Why can't she love who she wants?
>op thinks the alchemist has a good message/meaning
>He is still getting replies
>>709975345
up yours nigger
OP could you please send me an email? I don't have any questions currently but would like someone to come to for these types of things.
Tim.thorton125@gmail
>>709974897
What cross over into our minds?
>>709975858
This is one thing I never quite got. Why is suicide considered such a taboo? regardless of the religion, or the spiritual person.
If a guy wants to opt out of this life, and he's really thought it out, why shouldn't he? Sure you can say it's a waste of life and potential, but think of how may of those you see everyday in Walmarts around the country.
>>709968638
i think thats hadrians wall
Its a long story but tl:dr i fell through ice 3 times then slept on the ice until morning when i walked back to town got frost bite and hypothermia almost lost my feet
>>709972737
I feel this a lot too, but I feel like I've seen it happen in my dreams. Like never anything super significant but details of a situation will be really familiar.
>>709971450
ive come to these same conclusions by thinking about it and not meditating but then felt insane and stopped looking so deep into things.
the thing about bitches is 100% true tho im positive they can sense power levels in males and find them more attractive w that.
>>709976127
"Beings". OP is a fucktard that failed English, but thinks he's the chosen one. Which reminds me of a really great song called Rosetta Stoned. OP is the guy in that song! This one's for you, OP.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uytWxYKSupI
>>709974897
thanks OP, today you weren't a faggot
>>709972769
Okay, not OP, but stay on your meds. They've been prescribed to you for a reason. Take them. Separate yourself from your family, if necessary. It sounds like a toxic environment, and that's not good for your mental health. Here's some advice: Family's a sinkhole. Get out while you can, and only see the people you really truly care about.
>>709971666
saaaame when i was a kid id have deja vu moments or see something in a dream and itd happenldays later. usually nothing important or specific though.
which made me think life is predetermined and im bound to fail
help me I dont care. I have enough energy to get up in the morning and do things sometimes but mostly I just exist, why dont I care???
I'm a 5000 year old egyptian pharaoh's spirit living through the body of a 16 year old japanese boy.
>>709976022
HAHA! Then dont be such a needy girl
>>709975462
No you don't anon. Send me your email and I will tell you why. I have a lot to share with you and it will take to long to type on here. There is hope if you let me help you and help me share my own story and experiences. I was at the point you were at a few years ago.
>>709975547
Alright
>>709975566
Because you haven't earned her love and maybe were never meant to be loved by her.
>>709975835
I don't do drugs anymore. I drink very occasionally to celebrate for social fun but I am going to quit drinking for the rest of my life very soon here. I am on track to become a career firefighter so I legit can't smoke anymore. But smoking is a waste of time even though I gained my use out of it and learned alot from smoking.
>>709976005
The Alchemist has literal entry level shit in it. It is literally bare bones spiritualism/philosophy. Definitely is like the babies guide to this shit. But it is not deep at all stupid people just like to think it is.
>>709976127
Just passing by interference with other beings/dimensions.
>>709976424
Yeah I had to cross the point of insanity and center myself to get more knowledge but it was worth it.
>>709976517
OP here. I don't think I am the chosen one. Anyone can walk the path I have taken and am taken. I know that song well and I am the furthest thing from a paranoid hippie who has a giant ego. Btw you should look up the inspiration for why they wrote that song it is actually pretty funny/crazy
>>709976708
What are the things you WANT to care about but don't actually have the energy to care about? What in your heart would you want to become reality but you don't have the power to do as of right now?
>>709975548
Well my mother thinks like a man, but she seems to really have her shit together. Granted, she had a tough as fuck childhood, but I strongly doubt she's flawed genetically. Not every single healthy woman can be a vapid cunt
>>709976593
Thanks bojack
>>709976775
what do you recommend as an intro into how you got the way you are? Any sort of books, classes, things you'd recommend? I'm trying to be more spiritual in life and center myself properly, but idk if I'm being true to myself.
>>709976946
Hey, it's the truth.
>>709976893
fuck it, nevermind
>>709977015
So you're being true to yourself by copying someone else? Why?
>>709977180
I wanna live a good life dude, I just don't know what a good life is, and I'm doing a bunch of stupid shit that I don't think is appropriate. I'm just asking for guidance.
>>709977147
Yeah I completely agree with it. I was just humored by a bojack quote.
>>709966975
I spent 3 years doing nothing and got something out of it
>>709976593
fuck but i do care about my family , i am still going to take the lexapro no prob but i need to get off the klonopin been taking meds for only a month now
>>709976910
Of course that isn't the case. That is why the women that actually think like men and are tough and not genetically flawed are in high demand and hard to find
>>709977015
Um I did a lot of inward reflection, self reconstructing and personal life/universe meditation. The more you look at life, yourself, other people, nature and the universe in an observational context the more you gain. Subjectivity will kill any kind of spiritual gains you make. Read Carl Jung for a sort of guideline into how you can rework your mind and center yourself. You have to be willing to dig deep into the brink of insanity though. Mostly everything I have learned has just been through wanting to find out more about everything that exists in the material and immaterial world and by sheer chance/coincidence. Keep plugging and if you are brave and want to find the truth you will find it
>>709977378
Yeah pretty much life is funny that way but at least I didn't take years and years to find out what I needed to unlike some losers who remain stagnant their entire lives.
>>709977261
Guidance, okay. But people have been acting as if he's got all the answers to every mystery.
If you really want to live a good life, you already know what you need to do. You have a conscience and a heart. Follow them.
I snorted 180-220mg of DMT and tripped balls, ending up after in a hospital and then jail with a felony charge
>>709972769
Klonopin is dangerous for long-term use. Please taper down your dose and use something safer. Not a benzodiazepine.
>>709973033
It's possible to build a tinyhouse for about $30k or so. Requires land, though. Best not to be burdened by an excess of possessions, either. The bigger issue is finding how to occupy your time and maintain social connections.
>>709977485
well two things, 1. Mollie sort of thought like a man, which was part of why I found her so appealing
2. I found myself trying to be objective about everything and i ended up becoming a /pol/ack for a few months. It was at a time when I spiraled downwards into depression, I lost a lot of people and didn't have anything going for me in life. I've been borderline fucking crazy before. I've had to see shrinks. I just don't want to be so open minded that I turn into a fucking nazi again, but I also want to find the truth, this world is fucking nuts, and I am somewhat too.
>>709966975
>These are things I learned through straight first hand unbiased experience.
That is quite literally the most anecdotal and biased sentence you can formulate. Are you a potato? You sound like a narcissistic fool in a solipsism conjured delusion.
The only thing left for you to do is write a "self-help" book and then preferably, kill yourself.
Disgusting, anon. You're truly disgusting.
>>709976775
Op is just a psychiatrist phishing for clients. Or he is just trying to get you into their cult. If there was something they could tell you to change you life hed just say it. If they get your email it makes you feel like he cares personally though they will just lead you to cookie cutter expensive medical rehab systems to make you numb, might work for ya though.
>>709977485
Any good books you would recommend?
>>709977569
people have egos that get in the ways of their conciense. And very often it is subject to pride, greed, anger, and countless other emotions. I want to listen to my heart, but it very often gets in the way, of logic and morality >>709977485
so I was thinking maybe OP can help with that.
>>709975946
dats deep mane, i guess its not about me, you're right
>>709976742
go to bed, Yu-Gi
>>709977842
If you don't put subjective thinking into how you process the world around you, you can gain a better understanding of how everything works without human bias to cloud the way that you process things.
>>709977869
Nope. Just a young career firefighter that likes helping people and making the world a better place by showing people how they can be happy. Why would I charge or try to scam people?
>>709977904
The Book of Five Rings
>>709972769
Kik? :3
>>709977931
Why keep pride, anger, and countless other negative emotions in your heart? Because that's what's easiest to keep there. But no one can change that except you. OP or myself could tell you read this, do that, practice this until we were blue in the face, but YOU have to do the work.
Op tell me why I feel so detached from this world all the time like I don't belong when I elaborate on it long enough in my mind I start to have panic attacks
>>709978394
you're right man.... it's hard though when you see the state that the world is in. And when you aren't happy with yourself it just compounds.
Truth be told, I should probably just find some slut to fuck and have a few beers instead of being such a piss head.
Just kill yourselves the world is overpopulated and is the cause of all your pain. Dont wait for WW3.
>>709978342
Da third ring of powr NIGGAH
>>709978394
You know what, I was gonna spend tomorrow sitting in my room watching shitty action films and jacking off, but I think I'll try and find a party now cause of you. I gotta just start taking action in my own life.
>>709978394
thanks magne..... I didn't expect to have an epiphany today browsing a Polish finger painting forum.
>>709978655
How can you just "find a party". Fuck I wanna find a party.
>>709976196
everthing happens for a reason my friend
if i had to say why suicide is taboo id say naturally we're supposed to fear death because we dont know what comes after it. i like to believe that if i do enough godly shit i can become a god of some sort.
>>709978352
kik's for Black people and 10 year girls.
>>709978504
Because you haven't found your true self and are scared about how the universe, society, and other people work. If you want me to further elaborate and help you I can write you in detail if you make a burner email. I am just tired and going to bed soon so send me your email and I can help you further. I have a burner email I made just for this kind of shit.
>>709978707
idk, but there's a street carnaval in West Hollywood, and I have some normie friends who might go with.
Ask any normies you know or just flat out google it. I'm under 21, but I happen to have the luck of being born here in LA.
>>709978744
YOURE A BLACK PEAOPLE
>>709978342
Well, congratulations, you're a moron.
This:
>>709974453
is subjective thinking.
So how do you claim to have a better understanding of the world without human bias when you've done the exact opposite?
You should just stop your pseudo-intellectual bs....
I pretended to be a girl online for six months.
The twist?
It was someone I knew, I was busted, and Now I go to sexual therapy and I had to move.
Pretending to be a woman gave me all the influence and power I craved, and I just kept going and going..
>>709978835
Annnd I just remembered how I don't like parties lmao. Gl tho
>>709978873
Faggot
>>709978710
One quote I always loved, though I think I might be misinterpreting it in the past few years is "just because perfection is unobtainable is no reason to not strive for it"
improve yourself, keep taking steps to become something greater. and eventually, whether it's in this life, or your next reincarnation you'll reach it.
One piece of advice though is to always be humble. not a push over or a pussy, but just ty to avoid pride, it's the root of all evil.
>>709978977
Cool Beans
>>709978856
ur right im stupid af lolll idc what you think random anon I'm too tired to argue or explain myself. if you want to argue with me further shoot me your email and I will answer when I wake up
>>709976775
You're a fucking retard, holy shit
Alchemist isn't entry level to anything, its pure fucking garbage nobody should use it as a starting point, ending point, anything at all. Its "message" is something only absolutely retarded down syndrome women could take seriously
Op feels guilty about something does this to make him feel better.
I saw a alien or some kind of unknown thing
>be me
>16ish
>coming back from a acid bender
>high on the weed
>in van
>sudden stopped
>radio goes to static
>no one says anything
>be me in back
>What the fuxk
>lean and look out front window
>white thing
>humanoid like
>staring at us
>more static
>friend can't drive
>wait
>wait
>runs into trees
>radio goes to classical
>no one says anything
>drive away
Basically only ever talked about it once. None of us know what we saw and it's not describible. Still don't know what the fuck happened but we never drive that way again and will never go neat those forests
>>709978873
That sounds like an awesome story of intemperance that spun outta control. Would like to hear.
I don't know if any of you anons taking this faggot seriously know the alchemist, but its a book that was written exclusively for the sake of being able to tell whether or not someone has down syndrome and a sub 90 IQ. Anyone that thinks it has a good moral/message in the slightest should be placed in special ed. OP likes the book. For the love of God do not take anything this faggot says seriously, you will deeply regret it in life
FYI the moral of the alchemist is "if you believe in yo dreams they will come true even if you don't try (:"
>>709979136
Why would i do that? I have no desire to continue speaking with you. You've already shown me plenty of what I thought I'd see.
>>709979274
Nope not at all. You are just projecting what you think about me and making assumptions. I just genuinely like helping people in one way or another. I have nothing to gain form it other then bringing more light/goodness in the world.
>>709979491
Alright love you dude keep at it I know I sound retarded but I have reasons for the things I say/do. Safe travels dude.
>>709979352
go back to those forests, don't be a pussy, bro.
go back during the day with the same exact people you went with and go in the forest it ran off to and explore that shit
>>709979433
Lol that is not the moral of it. It is if you don't believe in your dreams and try they will never come into reality.
>>709979572
He should probably bring a gun though
TOPkek I love how all these supernatural, otherworldy, mystical events happened to people after a drug bender or a serious head wound
>what did you expect
>>709979646
like unless you want a machete enema
>>709979646
and walky talkies
>>709979621
You couldn't even understand a shitty concept off a piss poor book for Oprah book club?
Why should anybody in this thread take you seriously you fucking moron? The thought of someone doing so is genuinely frightening
>>709979548
I'm sure you do have reasons for the things you say and do. Most of us do. Doesn't make your biased human thinking correct.
>>709979723
and even more guns
has anybody ever seen an alien? I'm curious
>>709979894
I see some everyday. They come buy yoyo's an sheeken from the deli.
>>709979894
Probably, but it can likely never be completly proven
>>709979729
Lol you have sure keep on this thread for a long time dude. If you don't like what I say or think I am retarded why don't you go and spend your time more wisely? You are literally losing brain cells by talking to be apparently so go use your energy more productively.
>>709979801
I still have more to learn but other people can do or learn what I have done and come to the same conclusions. Whether you believe that to be true or not doesn't matter.
>>709979384
>So basically I made a twitter account just to join the Smash community and be in on the Smash fad [End of 2015 faggot stuff]
>I start off easy, just tweeting replies only, nothing too exciting really, make a few friends I talk to.
>Then some randy asks if I'm a dude or a chick.
>I was 15. I was also very, very retarded. I said I was a girl, and back then I didnt know why, but I figure it was probably for the follow.
>"Post pics or fake"
>"DM Me"
>I gave him the first picture I could think of for him to fuck off. My best friends picture. I regret everything after this point.
>"Wow, you're beautiful"
>I liked that. A ton. It felt good, even if it wasnt for me.
>So after a few messages, and a follow, I continued the appearance of a girl because the guy would get suspicious.
> More Men Came. I got a ton more followers at a fast rate, a lot of love, It was intoxicating.
>I lived for every single little message that said "X has followed you"
Cont? Or is it just too fucking dumb?
>>709980023
Lol OP here. Who do you main? Melee?
OP, what are your thoughts on masturbation?
>>709979621
What if your dreams to not try. Never to try anything because to try is to fail.
>>709980019
I'm responding because I genuinely fucking despise you. You're a complete fucking retarded moron spreading bullshit to other gullible victims and just ensuring they become miserable in later years. You're genuinely a piece of shit but I dont think you're smart enough to even realize it.
>>709980010
I mean any aliens that don't speak Spanish.
>>709980112
I main Ness in 4
>>709980149
christ dude, who shit on your cornflakes this morning. OP just said he thought a book was okayish. No need to claw out his throat.
>>709980023
fuck yeah! you're 1000x more interesting than OP. How did you get busted? Why did you have to move? Is the sex therapy court ordered? Spare no details!
>>709980149
your hostility isn't very credible just sayin'.
i'd rather believe OP for his calmness.
>>709979572
Fuck That. It was the most uncomfortable feeling I've ever felt being around it and I will never step foot in those woods
>>709980332
hes not calm. Hes quiet and "mellow" because he's fucking brain-dead. I urge you not to buy into his bullshit if you have any ounce of self respect. I'm going to bed now.
How do I comfort others and make them happy?
>>709980120
Not good. You have to get to the point where you don't have the urge to masturbate at all and feel that it is a pointless thing to do.
>>709980139
wut lol
>>709980149
Cool at least I'm a moron who made a random /b/ tard rage and waste his time :)
>>709980209
I like ness in 4 and considered myself maining him for a long time but the fact that you pretended to be a girl and only play s4 make me want to puke. Please play more/other smash games. Continue playing 4 but don't pretend to be a girl any longer lol. People like you are the reason Smash 4 will die in 5 years and why people look down upon the smash 4 community. Just chill, play smash and don't start drama.
>>709980332
but the thing is...I agree with hostile guy. OP is a fucktard. He's a pretentious hypocrite and it's pretty obvious.
wanna buy some snow crash?
jinteki.industries
Op you know what's up man peace to you my brother <3
>>709980604
sorry wrong thread
>>709980475
I am deeply curious how the actions of masturbation might be reflected in the future.
>>709980626
fuckin white people smh
>>709980485
he's not though. And how do we know you're not samefagging?
>>709980708
>>709980737
How do we know you're not?
>>709980644
but those sick dubs say otherwise.
>>709980668
Right? Not like you have idle hands when you're jerkin it.
>>709980436
By helping them and being a light in their life. Helping without expecting anything in return. You need to help people just for the sake of wanting to help them and for nothing else. You can comfort others by providing them with pure love and your true self. If you extend your helping hand to others and are genuine others will notice and be comforted in the fact that someone cares and is truthful.
>>709980485
The things I say come out pretentious but I am the least pretentious person you will ever meet in life lol. I can't deny that I am a hypocrite sometimes but I am working on that and that is part of the journey. I am still very young so hopefully in the next 5-10 years I can say the things I want to help people without sounding pretentious and not being a hypocrite.
>>709980668
Masturbation just isn't good for your mind, ego and it clogs up how people (and especially women) view you.
>>709980626
Thanks dude. Good luck on your travels/journeys and stay safe!!! :)
>>709980737
Oh yeah he is. If you can't see that, that's not my problem.
>>709980297
Alright then, I'll continue lol.
>A couple months of this roleplay went by, meanwhile my social life has completely destroyed itself due to me not getting off the fucking computer.
>I only ever left to eat and take showers, I barely even slept. But anyways, I was doing the same old braindead shit, with the ":3" and the "uwu" constantly, and my follower count has slowed a bit. I got into some drama with a smashboards writer [The one that plays Marth, he's into some fucked up shit, like chastity cages] and that was pretty much the highlight of my week.
>I started "Edating" multiple people, and by that I mean just regularly text fucking them over DM's [and sometimes publicly] and regularly giving them my friends pictures.
>It was basically nothing to me anymore, I had grown so accustomed to it that in my mind I was This persona while tweeting. I was not Joe [samplename lol], I was fucking Mary Fucking Jane and I loved it. I loved the attention, the niceness, the shallow af gifts of 10 bucks over paypal, I loved it all!
>I loved it so much I stayed in my room at christmastime.
Continue?
>>709966975
What's on the other side anon?
When I was in high school, I had a really, really bad case of psychosis. Auditory/visual hallucinations, night terrors that resulted in mental and physical strain, loss of time. Not fun shit at all.
Anyway, there were a few occasions where I would either black out (had some insomnia issues at the time as well), or just lose hours from my memory, and would find myself in different places. I once woke up in the woods outside my house without a shirt. And then another time, I regained awareness in an alley in Philly (lived 20 minutes from the Benjamin Franklin Bridge).
Fortunately, I had my wallet on me, and was able to catch a train home. But still, very freaky shit.
>>709981024
Look through this thread I have already answered it
Fuck it, I'm going.
>So I skipped christmas, and my mother got super pissed at the fact that I would choose my computer over my family.
>My mother took my phone, wrestled it off me, really, and looked through it to see what was the big deal.
>She finds.
>The fucking.
DIRECT MESSAGES.
>Have you ever seen someone truly go apeshit? Like actually Go insane with the anger of a thousand suns? Has that person ever ran to grab a Pan and try to break your head with it?
>That was my mother.
>Needless to say, I got a few bruises and I stayed at my dads house.
>I eventually figured out that my friends found my account over vacation and were planning to fucking kill me.
>So I went to school after two weeks.
>Math teacher saw my scars, pulled me aside and asked what had happened.
>I am a faggot for playing the victim card.
>"My mother"
>DCYF was called, they came, and my mother wanted to literally twist my head off, but she convinced them that I was the problem with all the sexual twitter stuff.
>tfw when you literally have to take the same classes as sex offenders
Continue?
>>709966975
op, you there still?
>>709982660
would like to chat if you're free to. I have Kik
>>709981923
Shit dude, I'm sorry you've had to deal with that. Dealt with an extremely abusive ex back in Q1 of this year, so I know how it feels to have to lie about unexplained bruises.
Please continue, friend.
>>709982849
I kinda deserved it tbh
>So not much else to say besides the fact that the days before I moved were filled with people trying to kill me and shit, having my best friend look at me in disgust and file charges, and having DCYF treat me like a fucking retard.
>I took a test for sexual abuse because a Classmate accused me of pedophelia from a joke post I made months before.
>I go to a therapist every week to try and figure out what the fuck is wrong with me, and even she gives me dirty looks from time to time.
>My parents basically disowned me, They wont even look at me now.
>My siblings think I'm some sort of monster wholl rape them if theyre not careful.
>and I only got internet privileges about a month back, still cant use twitter, though.
>My life, ruined.
By an Obsession over Likes and Retweets
>>709983445
shit, man. So, what was the deal with your friend though. What, did you shop her face in pictures or something? Use pictures she sent you for twitter DM's? gimmie them deets, pl0x
>>709983652
I used her old pictures until I ran out, she didnt know until I was caught.
I am human trash.
>>709969041
Maybe you hit your head so hard that you dont remember what happened too well
>>709983895
>logical thinking anon
>>709966975
When I was in middle school I was in a chat room on Talk City sometime in the 90s and there were obviously some of the 9/11 hijackers speaking about their plans. It had to be them, they said things in detail about it, speaking in poetic language, in that of classical Arabic, Quranic Arabic describing what would happen.
>>709983724
Well, I will say this, you've definitely got your work cut out for ya, but I wouldn't consider you trash by any means. A really close friend of mine used to do the same thing, actually. I don't remember the specifics, but she had basically made an entire family up, and make fake facebook accounts for them all, all to fool some schmuck. She was also pretty young and in high school at the time, too.
Now, she's gotten out of that weird ass phase, and we get high and drunk together a lot now. She's super chill. She does have bipolar disorder though, and apparently also a pretty heavy case of MPD, but I'm not sure how relevant those are to the whole fake FB accounts.
>>709984403
You might be right, But I probably will still stay up at night because of it =/
It's great your friend turned out ok :)
>>709971450
>Destiny is a real thing just by coincidence or because of fate sometimes. Destiny and fate can be changed at any point and you control both of them. You choose whether the destiny you were meant to have becomes reality
HEY OP READ THIS IF YOURE STILL HERE!!!
You sound a bit like schizophrenic to me.
Look at my picture and read the section under cognitive. If you think this at all applies to you, go talk to a medical professional about it. Not meaning any offense here OP. Think about it.
>>709984653
Give it some time, find someone that's willing to be there for you, despite the shit you've caused, and you just might make it out. I'm sorry to hear that you've gotten yourself into this situation, but it's by no means the 'end of the world'. Try to make it known to your family that you're making a change to improve yourself (when you're ready to), and they just might move on, too, even if it's not much.
And she's still super fucked up, don't get me wrong, but at least she isn't a chronic liar anymore. She's honestly one of the realest motherfuckers I've known for the last 4 years. She's my fucking boy, and I love her for that.
Also, for whatever it's worth, I wouldn't mind being some schmuck you can vent to to help figure shit out. My kik is th33z, and my discord is unkle sterben#1439. Gimmie a DM if you're interested, fam.
>>709985171
Thanks, man, I'll definitely consider itm
You're a cool dude, most people would kill me if they could.
I hope everything goes well in your life, you definitely deserve it.
>>709985436
Unless someone has personally affected me, I always try to leave an open mind with them. Feel free to message me on Kik if you want, lad. I don't mind learning more about you, lad.
>>709966975
Opie u still here?
- meditation tips&hints, gimme gimme
