Can we have a feels thread?
I really just want to cry right now.
9/10 Gf left me 2 days ago
bump
I keep smashing stuff in anger and then crying. Done it 3 times already today. What the fuck is wrong with me
>>709676855
what made you smash shit up friendo
Why do I care so much about being loved? I just want someone to love me. To be someone first choice. Someone who gets excited when you make plans for two eating fancy dinners or just be a couchpotato together and watch movies. I just want to get beneath a warm blanket together with a cup of coffee during a cold winter evening. I hate always not being good enough. Making a fool out of myself and then getting shot down. Getting laid is easy. But what if what you want is romance? Someone to live your life with?
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EOAcRKZxjy4
>>709676855
>What the fuck is wrong with me
you're a pathetic fag?
after years of existing. i finally got a girlfriend
found her on Twitter. and.. it ruined my life..
She was my Cousin
>>709676938
I dont know anymore. I just wanna kms but my family would get really fucked up over it, so I just wont. Im literally getting pissed off because i cant kill myself, and because of the constant loneliness. I cant just go get friends because everybody just thinks im a huge faggot. I want to die so bad. My parents are really worried about me but they dont know how bad it is
>>709677087
nice
>>709676942
You should love yourself first. Putting your happiness in other people's hands is a silly and risky move.
Live, learn, breathe and laugh. Other people will notice and come by.
>>709676963
Thanks for this Anon, even if it is a little artsy and shit.
>>709677071
>going on /b/ just to insult people
My life may be shit, but its a hell of a lot better than yours. Hope you get better soon, anon.
>>709677210
How do i know i achieved self love? What kind of feeling is it?
>>709677210
so true
>>709677193
Well you only get to ride on the roller coaster of life once mate, you might as well hang on until it gets a little better.
>cliche attachment
>>709675810
>>709677432
kek
>>709675810
just found out my dog is gonna be put down, had him for 9 years
i just cant stop hugging him b/ros... :|
>>709677564
this
I'm doing it as we speak
>>709677706
> made his gf get an abortion
> crying about stupid dog
>tfw your drug dealers aren't even there for you
bye friends
>>709677948
?
my dump is done
You want feels?
Just got dumped becuse of religion..
Dafuq is wrong eith this world m8
>>709678311
your gf has found out that you're a muslim goatfucker?
>>709678283
good effort anon, although I read most of them before
>>709678571
yeah only really save stuff that made me feel sad
>>709678500
Nah man i am atheist she is chatolic
Does anyone else ever wish they could just check into a mental hospital?
Like... I don't think I'm doing any good where I am, and some days I'm genuinely concerned about my thoughts on other days. But I don't think I can afford to go anywhere.
>>709678843
Get loawn buy plane ticket to thailand and enjoj the peace
>>709678783
>chatolic
>all hail the chat bot
>>709677706
At least you got good memories to remember him by though eh?
>>709678783
femanon here
I'm a catholic too. I can't imagine sharing my life with an atheist. It's not really because of my religion. The thing is that most atheists are pretentious fools. Just saying.
>>709678843
Go do something with your life then?
>>709679269
You're not even trying anon
This picture has been on my mind more and more recently. For me, it is true. I could have been happy, I could have been fine. But not now. I don't know when I will be or if I will be.
>>709679375
Might not even be. I had someone pretty much kill a relationship the day they found out I was atheist.
Either way its not worthy of being rattled over.
>>709678984
Why would anyone give me a loan? And why would I want to go to Thailand? I'd be happier in a colder climate.
There are states within this country where I'd at least be closer to people who make me happy. Though I don't expect proximity would fix the way I feel about them, or the way they don't feel about me.
>>709679269
Yeah, they kind of are. I'm not that fond of Christianity, on the whole, but the same seems to apply to atheists, too.
They're like the vegans of the religious world. "Oh, you eat meat/believe in gods? Let me tell you about what an uncivilized barbarian you are."
>>709679269
Tru that. Sometimes when you're in an oppressive religious environment, you need that mask of superiority to stay sane, but a lot of people are just dicks about it for no reason
>>709675810
>>709679478
they say elliot roger took dat pic
>>709679686
Nice.
>>709679338
I can't. I'm so terrified to be out among other human beings, to have to talk to them, without a family member around as an emotional crutch.
I'm not entirely sure what's happened to me, but my fear of rejection, failure, and abandonment has become a crippling anxiety that makes it difficult to properly do anything with my life. I'm terrified that someone may laugh at me, or dislike me, or take advantage of my kindness.
And that's why I think I'd be better in a safe environment, away from all of that, without being a direct burden upon my family anymore, and hopefully a more solid support structure than them that could maybe ease me out of it.
>>709680051
If you're that sensitive then you need to harden the hell up anon. Most people care about what others think or say about them but not to your extent when it literally rules you life.
Go talk to a shrink and work on ways of improving your self esteem and dealing with anxiety rather than just trying to box yourself away.
>>709680051
You will grow out of it. Now you're just a stupid confused kid. Nothing to worry about.
>>709680260
>You don't need mental health assistance, you just need mental health assistance.
Uh... alright then.
>>709680462
I'm... I'm 31 years old...
>>709680592
You 31 years old and still dealing with this stuff? Go get yourself sorted for fuck sake.
>>709680592
>>709680051
> I'm terrified that someone may dislike me
>I'm 31 years old
>>709676280
Mine fucked someone else yesterday.
My best friend baited me into believing something could happen. She begins to date some guy and decides to move in with him after two weeks. I move on and four months later (present day) after I stopped talking to her, she messages me again wanting to talk. I don't care about her pain anymore. I'm numb and feel like I should be guilty.
>>709681945
"either you choose me or you lose me"
Don't fall for the bait again anon
So, what is your go-to music when you are feeling the blues?
Mine will forever be this
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yl8f2mWB6X8
I don't know why, but every time I hear it, I feel my like the world comes to a stop, like time has frozen entirely. Like I am in power.
>>709680788
I don't know where to go and I can't fucking get them to acknowledge me for disability so I can actually have some means to pay for it. My family's supposed to be helping me with this but it's slow getting them to do a goddamn thing because I'm struggling with anxiety, but they're just being flippant about it.
>>709681101
Fuck you.
Christ, I thought this was a feels thread, not a "lol u suck u fukin cunt" thread.
>>709677744
fuck
>>709682253
Probably because they think it's a little late in your life to start having these issue. Get working online where you don't need to deal with people face to face and save up enough cash to go and see a psychologist. At age 31 you shouldn't be your families burden anymore.
>>709682253
Go to a doctor anon, speak about your problems.
Trust the schizo-freak on this. If you don't get sorted out, you'll end up killing yourself and loosing everything you have ever loved.
I lost my daughter, my wife, house, car and friends because I tried to end my life because of the voices in my head kept tempting me with the sweet release of death.
Get your shit sorted, and go to the doctor before it's too late.
>>709679269
Yeah you've obviously have met the asshole fedora atheists, not the ones that don't give a shit.
I can't stop thinking about this shy girl
She may or may not be interested.
I can never tell with her. Some stuff can go either way, while other stuff is typical with girls who are interested.
And I did try getting with her. Left in limbo
It gets harder everyou day. I try not to grow bitter but I'm now realizing I'm the only one around my home that has it this shitty. I know it's just a rough patch, but when the fuck does it end?
>>709682993
>I can't stop thinking about this shy girl
yeah, me too. She's 12 but man you should see dat ass
>>709683692
>living in his comfy house
>still complaining about shit
I've got a little story to share if anyone is interested.
>be roughly 2 years ago
>mum is a sociopath who never really wanted me, I knew this all my life
>fortunately I hadn't spoken to her in a long time, assumed that she was doing okay
>I discover that I have a brother who was put up for adoption roughly 10 years before I was born, hes only half related to me as my mum got with a lot of men
>he messages me
>he seems okay, starts saying stuff like "I'm thinking about speaking to her (mum) more often, she seems sad?".
>"Do you think she'll be alright with being a grandma? haha".
>ohno
>I let him get on with it, but warn him that she's not the best of people
>Apparently, she flat out rejected him - said she wanted nothing to do with her two grandchildren, and that she didnt know who he was till he explained etc. etc.
>a year passes, no longer with his wife, he lost custody of the children and now he's all on his own
>stops contacting me
>deactivated his facebook account
>seems as if he disappeared
I still haven't spoke to him till this day, I hope he's okay.
>>709684197
When I said home I just meant the relative area of which I live around.
>>709684356
so you're homeless, right?
I'm disappointed every morning when i wake up. I was so full of hope when i finished high school. "Oh boy university sure will be great. It'll be a whole new start. I'm gonna be really social, meet new people do something i love and mayby even find a girl".
Reality is I'm living my live as a shade, always pressured by the studies. When i have freetime I stay home alone and play video games until late in the night until I'm exhausted enough to sleep. No friends. No girl. Not even my family gives a shit anymore. Shit I'm too pussy to quit but wish every night that I won't wake up.
>>709684537
I'very bern on a friend's couch for a bit, I'm sure it won't be forever
Hope this helps
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YMGVMtnxXEw
>>709684679
whoi gives you money for that fancy life of yours?
>>709684726
stop lying, faggot
Was in a long term relationship with a girl I met in school. Spent most of the weekends together and also travelled alot. One day she mentioned that she was going to study abroad, but hadn't decided yet.
Long story short, she got the chance to study in Austria, which she took.
Received a message on new years eve, she was dumping me and moving to Austria for the rest of her life.
>>709685014
Still living with my parents so them. I'm working part time but can keep most of it for myself. Not even spending it. Saved 6500€ now and have no idea what to do with that shit. Only things im buying are video games.
Yeah, I feel you guys...I can relate but it irks me when people complain about things that are in their power to change.
>>709677706
Sorry /b/ro that sucks the dogs dangles.
>>709677706
Tried to kill myself 20+ times, on meds and in a mental hospital. Hate my life
>>709685165
I have no reason to lie, I see why I hardly post now. I'm sure life could be worse, but i just haven't had a lot of good 6 months. Thanks for responding.
>>709685376
>>709677210
Fucking amen.
>>709685339
I'm only willed to try so often you know. This "you have to get up one more time than you fall" bullshit just isn't doable. When life tells you no repeatedly over such a period of time you lose the will to try again.
>>709677630
much better
>>709677630
Thank you. That actually made me feel slightly better
>>709685510
How the hell. You can't tell me you're that fucking stupid. If you really wanted to you'd have made it at some point. You're just crying for attention but no one cares.
>>709677706
I'm sorry b/ro. Went through that with my dog 3+ years ago and I still think about her everyday. Nothing can be said to make it easy, but just remember every great day you had with him. And know that he loves you. He won't have to suffer anymore. Having a dog is a life time of great days and one that's really terrible. I'm tearing up just writing this -- my heart goes out to you b/ud.
>>709685793
It hard to do it when your in hospital
>>709677210
this anon gets it
>just want to talk to someone
>go on steam
>0 friends online
how
>>709686302
Live in a small village. Nothing tall here
>>709684679
>>709685279
you're pathetic, it's not even funny anymore
>>709686451
>Nothing tall here
Not really bad it what's got me down today, lost my charger today, bought a new one ($20 inreally dodnt want to spend) and lost the new charger before got home
If any things got you down turn off all the lights, get some headphones and listen to anything by the artist Nujabes (I'd start with the song Reflection Eternal) and just sit in the dark and appreciate the music
>>709686449
that's horrible
>>709686449
>>0 friends online
it's more than enough reason to get depressed
>>709686449
Tell your name and i'll add you
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=B_K6z3HiRAs
>>709682044
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lmGqG3grTrg
this is mine
>>709675810
I spent all my money on cookies and now I'm broke and probably pre-diabetic.
>>709677744
That gave me shivers.
>>709687749
keked a little
Anons, I think my intuition and decision making skills are broken.
I can't stop making terrible decisions, but I never notice it in time. What should I do?
Self help shit tells you to be your self and trust your gut feeling but everyone hate when I am my real self and my gut feeling wants to ruin me.
>>709687614
that is some crazy shit
>>709676942
I feel you anon.
Everything seem so meaningless if I can't find a person to have a life with.
>>709677706
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=byA3JAdqPQk
I always cry to this
>>709688008
when thinking of all your wrong decisions, play this song. It should help.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MK6TXMsvgQg
>>709682044
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BqFftJDXii0
>>709688276
That made me laugh, thanks anon.
Today was my birthday, a few friends organised me a surprise party together with my niece (same age as me, we've grown up as siblings basically)
It's the first birthday party I've had in 6 years. It's left me even sadder than before, a girl that loved me now tries to avoid talking to me and she was there probably just because her best friend was.
Said best friend is so fucking close to me, but she has a boyfriend and knows that I'm nearly in love with my friend, and she has been trying to get me past my depression and convincing me that I still have chances with my friend and I haven't fucked up everything.
How do I tell her now that it's FUBAR? Am I supposed to just tell her "Nah, your best friend who you thought I was meant to date won't even talk to me because I'm a depressed autistic piece of shit so give up on me like I've already done"? I can't do that, I just can't dissappoint anyone else, she's too good a friend for me to dissappoint her, I can't just ask her to give up on me, but if she doesn't I'll dissappoint her too anyway...
I hate social life /b/, I want to stop worrying about all of this shit but I can't, I am literally uncapable of letting it go, even tho I know I should not care, even tho I know I should worry about more important things in my life, the fact that this is an issue makes me hate myself
>>709677855
>tfw you're a pasty, scrawny, curly haired, ginger kid who also wears glasses
>>709688537
>few friends organized me a surprise birthday party
How nice that you have friends anon.
>>709688537
Ask her How does she know? Ask her if she is just saying you have a chance. Because if she and the other girl are as close as you say, she obviously has insight into whether or not you have a chance. But you have to get her to tell the total truth to you. and Don't be a dick about it.
>>709677790
story of my live, pretty much
>>709678092
This guy
>We played terraria everyday for six months
>we were playing one day and he told me he was going out of town and would get on when he got there
>his cousin who I was also friends with told me that him and his family died in a car accident
>the guy in the car was a drunk driver and fleeing from the police
>fucking cried for hours
>never forget
>>709688537
>being 6 years old
>posting on /b/
fucking reported
>>709688939
Fuck man, that's tough. I can't even image losing one of my few internet buddies.
>>709689239
made me kek
>>709679686
Kek
>>709682044
http://youtu.be/VEpMj-tqixs
>most of the closest friends i've ever had are/were suicidally depressed
>always get too emotionally involved
>more than once i was forced to stop talking to a best friend because i felt like i was trapped being their lifeline
>one friend disappeared one day and i never heard from them again
>try to make new friends who don't want to kill themselves
>seems good at first, we get along great, they seem normal
>they let me in and tell me that they want to kill themselves and cut all the time
>can only think 'oh god, not again' and feel like blocking them and running away
>can't do it, another person ends up depending on me
>want to help my friends but have no confidence and feel like i make things worse
>love my friends but feel like i would be happier if i never met them
>>709689744
I've never met a person that is truly happy. I'm convinced that no matter what whenever you get too close to somebody you're going to learn that they aren't happy. The human race isn't happy.
>>709681770
hhaha cuck
I'm just gonna write this down for you folks, not because I was nearly an hero this week but because I have no idea why?
>Be me
>Normal day
>Normal work
>Just driving my van
>It hits me
>I don't know what or why
>But it hit me hard
>I'm usually a little depressed
>But this was different
>I had no explanation for it
>However it was crippling
>I just all at once felt great sorrow
>I felt like I've spent my whole life doing battle with a bear
>Everyday a fought back
>I'm under attack from a fucking bear
>But this day (Tuesday)
>I just felt like the bear had won
>I was still alive and kicking
>Yet the bear had eventuality won
>Why would it not?
>I felt so tired and so mauled from battling this bear
>I just felt like this was the day
>This was the day I gave up
>Accepted my fate
>I was in a mess
>And the only way out was to let the bear finish its job
>Que huge depression
>I honestly felt like it was the end of me
>>709689744
Just out of curiosity, do these friends share any resemblance, personality wise, with your parents or close relatives?
>>709690037
>Driving along
>Resisting the urge to just pull the wheel
>I had a little weep to myself that day
>Honestly felt I couldn't continue.
>The worst part
>It was for no reason, whatsoever
>I just wanted to kill myself that day
>And the day after
>Luckily I'm a bit of a battle bus
>No matter what life throws at me
>I keep on trucking
>However I was most definetly knocked off the road for them 2 days
>I felt so worthless
>I considerd how and why I should
>I almost did
>Guess what
>I'm still here
>Fucking up life as usual
>Just be a power house
> it will work for so long
>Blame my huge bout on it though
>If you keep sweeping things under the carpet
>Eventually you'll have a lumpy carpet
Just though I'd share and glad I'm still here guys.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GaUqpnHvua8
>>709690037
I get these random unexplainable waves of feelings too Anon. Something hits, and hits hard, like a realization, but it's usually only an instant.
>>709690083
my parents and relatives are basically the only people i know who DON'T want to die
>>709689744
>>most of the closest friends i've ever had are/were suicidally depressed
>>try to make new friends who don't want to kill themselves
>>they want to kill themselves
>>another person ends up depending on me
I can't stop laughing. That shit just can't be real
>>709686449
I don't have any friends to talk to either on PS4. Even though i want to I can't be bothered socialising
>Have friend on xbox from mexico
>always played battlefield 3 together.
>me and my IRL friends would play with him non stop
>One day he tells me someone is at the door
>hear yelling
>He turns off his xbox
>a few days later his cousin tells me he was kidnapped by the cartel
>status: Offline
>this happened in 2012
:( Hope he is ok
Feel like killing myself rn
>>709690088
I almost got myself run over by a car last week.
I'm not so sure I'm happy to be here, but who knows. Maybe things will get better.
>>709688580
Become a lepricorn and love to Ireland
this one is one of the must fucked up things I have ever seen...
>>709690662
*most
>>709690326
i wish
>>709690263
I see. Generally I keep meeting people that have issues similar to my parents, they are very fucked up.
Do you remember when this started?
What was your first suicidal friend? Maybe you didn't get over him/her yet and that's why you end up attracting similar people? Or maybe you are just too caring for your own good.
>>709690226
It really sucked though /b/ro. In them 48 hours I really thought I was gonna end it. No joke.
Then Thursday I just woke back up as me... Life is average again, but god it feels good.
>>709690451
don't
>>709690859
The first time I got the feeling I thought I was gonna kill myself. Not because I wanted to die really, it wasn't a particularly sad day. But the feeling made me think for some reason "Why not?" why not just kill myself. For the first time in my life, it felt like it was no big deal. I'm glad you're doing better anon.
you fags want to become really existentially depressed?
>pic related
most wont even make it till 90
Anyone else drive away from their life all the people that are nice and care about them?
I feel like I don't have the right to get involved with anyone anymore, I'm tired of hurting people.
last time i didnt wanna die was in 2014
>Be 19
>Meet really nice girl on college campus
>Don't care about looks
>See her every week for almost a month
>Become friends
>Try to build up friendship until I get the courage to date and start relationship
>Find out today that she has a boyfriend
>I depart to my next class, trying to hide my jealousy, discomfort, and anxiety
>She hugs her friends goodbye
>Doesn't give me one
>Realize that I barley know her
At this point, I don't care if I date a guy or even lose my virginity. I just want companionship. I want to talk to someone outside of campus.
>>709688764
She told me the story from her POV, apparently she liked me at first, but then I just fucked up here and there untill she lost interest
Worst part is what she didn't tell me, see I met this girl at the start of this year, and during the summer she went to a summer house and I went with my parents (18 atm so still living with them) to a house we have like 500km away from where we're living now that it's in the middle of no-fucking-where. We talked every fucking day, whoever woke up first texted a "Good Morning [insert kiss emote here]" to the other, did skype often and shit. Then this happens:
>Then one day, she starts talking to me a bit less, won't start convos anymore.
>I tried to fix this but couldn't.
>When I came back from there she was still on said summer house and I went over to visit her
>I talked more to everyone else there than to her.
>Fast forward two months
>Things have stayed more or less the same
>This one day I start getting my hopes up
>Her birthday is on 22/10, mine is on 27/10
>We are getting slightly closer
>I start dropping hints
>I fuck up, big time
>Laugh it off and go talk to her best friend who is close af with me too
>Explain the situation
>Anon she liked you untill you fucked up druing some convo back in summer
>makes all the sense, sounds like me the good ol' autist
>Fast forward a few days
>hanging out wiht my niece
>She's talking about that girl
>"Well, you know she's still texting with that guy she made out with in summer and blah blah blah..."
>WHAT THE FUCK
>Start putting things together
>Realise that it's not just that I fucked up, it's that she wasn't interested in me, I was just some guy for her, back in summer she was making out every other day with this guy she'd known like forever
That's when it hit
>I. WAS. JUST. SOME. GUY. I was nothing to her
All the while our common friend is still convinced that I have a chance and keeps telling me that I should not go on, that I must get to her...
>>709689239
lmao
>>709691147
Poor you.
>>709691078
What's depressing about this?
>>709677706
I did the same thing three years ago, she had cancer and it it stopped her from walking.
But I don't think about how sad it was at the end. Only the good times we had for 12 years.
Just armour yourself for the worst and don't forget to smile. Don't tell people other than us how depreded you are/ sometimes are. Just smile and wave.
I nearly hit a bridge today because I had stayed up late drinking and was falling asleep at the wheel.
Nobody ever needs to know.
>>709688752
"friends", I think at this point I got 2 and only 1 of them is actually close
But don't be jealous, I'll probably lose them soon, I always do
>>709691203
>women
don't sweat it man
>>709677706
Sleep tight, pupper!
>>709691203
I can relate and hate this kind of shit. I'm sorry anon. I hope you meet a girl that you have a happy relationship with.
>>709677948
>caring about somthing you have never met, or a pet you have grown up with?
>>709691308
I'm bad at math too, Anon.
>>709691308
>>709690451
Who, what, why and where?
>>709691308
>>709691338
Meant for (You)
>>709690487
>>709691631
>>709691558
>>709691555
Still don't get it
>>709677087
Whats wrong with that?
>>709691730
>>709691555
I was serious, I'm actually bad at math too. I think it's like those multiplication table things.
i jerked off 4 times today and im about to do it again, why? life is a gherkin so i jerk it
>>709691750
The child becomes retards
>>709677706
stay with him till his eyes roll back in his head, anon. they say they are ''gone'' before they really are. they hear you. stay till they're really gone.
>>709691338
True, thanks anon. I already realized that opening myself up in real life only makes things worse.
Any good indie rock feels music? I've been listening to Melophobia from Cage The Elephant and Humbug/Favourite Worst Nightmare by Arctic Monkeys but I want something new
>>709691338
>Just smile and wave
in other words, act like a retard all the time
>>709691845
I learned masturbation is linked to baldness today
>>709691370
So you are like me then.
I hope you don't loose them this time anon.
>>709690451
Don't do it. There is no telling what happens next. Will you finally rest for eternity? Will you enter heaven, hell, or purgatory? Does everything stop after you die? Will every piece of unfinished business cling to you like a tumor? Is there even anything after death? No one knows. I understand it hurts to live, but ending it all won't it better. I don't what can make you any happier or at least content with your life. You have to be the one who finds your happiness. Isn't that the meaning of life? The Pursuit of Happiness. I'm sorry if I sound pretentious.
>>709676942
I feel the exact same, word for word. I don't know how to find what I am looking for.
>>709692055
lose*
retard.
>22 yo KLV
>ever since childhood, one of my main interests and obsessions has been romance, despite being male
>get along with women better than men and accordingly end up making friends with more women, but never dated any of them
>crush easily
>whenever this happens, write it off as me just being in love with the concept of being in love
>often feel as though all my emotions seem fake, like i'm forcing myself to have them because i enjoy being depressed or something
>don't know if i really enjoy the things i enjoy because i see myself as subconsciously faking all my emotions
>also feel like i'm probably too effeminate and self-hating for any woman to be interested in me
>probably going to be KLV forever
>>709691845
I masturbated 5 times and slept about 20 hours today. Get on my level.
>>709691974
Hey, at least retards are happy.
>>709692055
>>709692155
>>709692155
How dare I make a typo.
Also, checked.
>>709692174
You sound just like me
>>709691568
I've been pushed around and been called terrorist for about a year now and its getting to me.
I put on a fake smile everyday just to hide the fact that they're doing harm. Only one person knows this.
>>709691075
Thanks anon, I did honestly just pick back up.
However I've had the acceptance of dieing since the age of 15. I'm now 26, so over a decade.
My Dad died when I was 15 and it kinda fucked me up. I was suppose to enter the family business when I left school.
Which I did. But he was suppose to teach me. Place flopped without him and we sold the place for 50k, it was once work 500k or more.
I realised that I made a big mistake and now it fucks constantly my mind since 6 months. A girl wanted me really bad but I was too dumb to realize it at the moment and now she has a bf. Fuck my life. I'm 20 btw
hada weird crisis today of realising that I'm going to die, regardless of anything I can do that at one point in my life there will be someone turning a switch off and that's my existence over for eternity, knowing I can't ever again feel, see or touch even my memories are all fucking pointless because at the end of the day it'll be gone.
pretty gay I know but it sometimes gets to me now and again.
>>709676280
Likewise 2 days ago. Fucking sucks. Couldn't sleep last night
>>709692433
bide your time, anon.
she may dump the bf
then you're in.
if not, fuck it. LIFE GOES ON!
>>709677706
Can you ask the vet to put him down @ your home? Don't take him to a place where no dog wants to go.
>>709692405
Well I mean it's one thing to accept death, another to accept killing yourself. Is what I mean. What kind of business was it?
>>709692433
All the guys I ever wanted were not interested, too dense, hated me, or gay.
Fuck everything, my tits aren't even nice. I wish I was a man, at least my depression wouldn't get worse as fuck every four weeks.
>>709691075
Sorry just realised I talked about myself the whole post. My strategy is to just be a battle bus. Keep ploughing forward anon regardless.
>>709692433
being 20 you're definitely too fucking old to move on and find someone. Your life is over, bro, become a monk or something
>>709676855
It's called puberty. You can expect a lot of changes in your body over the next few years. You'll probably have a health class to teach you more about it soon.
>>709690938
wtf shopped?
Any cute animal requests?
>>709692646
stfu, you tard.
best place to be is the controlled environment of the vets.
you want anon to remember killing his dog in the fucking house?
KYS
>>709692820
really?!?!?
>>709692571
What kills me inside is realizing that I'm not as good as I thought I was and that I may never be able to make anything great by myself and will eventually just die like another worm.
>>709691974
... but I'm not a rapper
>>709692846
Pigs please.
The last thing I remember enjoying, actually enjoying, was talking to this girl in a study hall because it's the only time anyone's actually flirted with me.
This was three years ago.
>>709692820
>>709692846
>>709677630
would be better if they were all young still, (time of death)
>>709675810
don't salute me or my son ever again
>>709693011
you were veterans, you absolute fucknut
>>709692768
Plz tell me what to do i work now in IT and I don't even see girls anymore. How I should move on, I have no Idea where to start.
>>709692896
Don't worry, anon. As long as you don't suffer, death is merely an embrace for all of us. We all die. Slowly, day by day, bit by bit, until, one day, our candle can burn no more.
>>709693154
they*
What's the point in anything?
I just wanted to be able to live in Japan to be close to my hobbies, go to concerts and events.
But teaching english is a no go since it's not my first language and my accent sucks and Japan doesn't even want anyone from my country there. Why should I even work on my art? It will never have that feeling of legit nip art or ever stand a chance on being adapted to anime.
>>709693054
kekededek
>>709693223
die in a fire, edgelord cuck
>>709692847
>doesn't know vets carry all the fucking equipment they need for every and any fucking animal once they get a call
>>709693054
brilliant!
>>709692721
I would like to drink a beer with you. I really need to talk with a person who has similiar problems like me. It is really frustating.
>>709683257
mi general!
aquà anon pinochetista reportándose.
version 2.0
spot the difference
>>709692637
Thanks anon your words help me
Gn folks
>>709693154
we waz veterans n sheeit
>>709693358
>controlled environment
did I say the sparsely equipped house? no
retard.
Oh My God Can Somebody Please Explain to Me How /b Went from a Hacker Forum to Some Place Where Teenage Little Dick Boys Cry and Sat FEELS Thread?
It makes me wish you were felt up by your uncle, or maybe had something terrible INSTEAD OF BEING SOME RICH PUSSY BEGGING FOR ATTENTION.
Fuck You.
I personally could not give a shit or even a damn about your namby pamby predicament.
Fuck Off and Get A Life!!!!!
>>709693336
a loose seal bit his hand off
Lucille
>>709693388
Me too anon, shit sucks.
>>709676855
Are you the "break shit guy" from the "ger drunk?and why thread?
>>709692958
It's hiiigh noon...
>>709692055
Thanks anon, but it's hard to keep people around when you give up on yourself
>>709693577
>has feels in a feels thread
>>709691884
Don't have kids.
>>709691974
Yes, surprisingly you are correct. Retards can connect with other retards, so integrate yourself.
People will like you much more for been like them.
>>709693285
imagine how you would feel if your only purpose in life were to live on fucking pluto?
>>709675810
dont you 404
>>709693577
>I personally
surely you don't mean you?
>>709693577
>hacker forum
do you know ANYTHING about 4chan? what are you even doing here?
>>709693577
>Hacker Forum
Go back to re ddit cancerous new faggot.
>>709693662
Cute.
Do you have more pigs?
Dude here's the deal- I get it that /b has become a bunch of teenyboppers.
I get it.
Het /b is what the people and users make of it.
It's just that once upon a time /b had a much more- how can I say - well, it just had more.
>>709693977
>>709693577
what the hell is going on?!?
>>709693859
"don't feel sorry for me or my sons, ever again."
>>709693804
>live on fucking pluto
Why wouldn't you choose a real planet or a closer one like Mars to live in?
>>709677926
Death border people like to go down slow
Jim Morrison
>>709694091
>much more- how can I say - well, it just had more.
>>709694101
I'm only asking for pigs to distract myself from wanting to die, fuck off anon.
>>709694185
rather poetic for a fat paedo cunt
>>709694134
I don't know
>>709682044
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pltgaBtcPHg&ab_channel=EnragedSephiroth
>>709694247
What a satisfying gif.
>>709677432
You literally kill yourself after it ends. That's how you know you achieved love.
if u da last damn survivor of your old platoon
u betta smash dat like, as they play the funeral march on bassoon
>>709693977
Yup...also. Checked
Let me join in:
be me
I beat my dick a million times a day because the girl that I like is with some asshole.
I'm also not sure if I want to keep on living - please- strangers in /b convince me to keep going on.......
(excuse me while I throw up)
OMG /b I have decided to suck dick.
But I'm not gay - am I???
What is your salary?
Look what I can put up my ass...
It has a timestamp - if /b wants me to I will put this up my ass, etc......................
>>709693662
Bitch i came here to cry and you make me laugh.....you win this time piggy MCcree
>>709694247
>>709694410
>you will never be as happy as these piglets
>>709694553
>you will never be a piglet with a qt piglet wife to call your own
>>709694471
>>709694553
one built his house out of straw
little pig little pig let me in
not by the hair on my chinny chin chin
My fiancé recently told me she's not completely over her last relationship yet, and that she doesn't know how to feel about or love anymore. I've been crying non stop for hours, what the fuck do I do?
>>709694654
>you will never take cute couple pictures with your piglet wife and have strangers on the internet thinking you are adorable
>>709694553
>>709694654
>>709692718
>it's one thing to accept death, another to accept killing yourself.
I don't wanna say what my business is anon.
Truer words have never been spoken though, when that little string snaps and that fine line is crossed. Dying and KYS are 2 different things. But I'm still more than happy to drink and smoke myself into oblivion.
>>709694850
>I've been crying non stop for hours
have some respect for yourself
>>709694850
Drown your night away with booze
>>709694665
>>709695000
nice quints
Why is this song so relatable?
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=b039x8hDl5Q
I just want be to taken care of and unconditionally loved.
>>709679478
just no.
Realize that you are kind and loving individual and that she is not where you are right now. Maybe you will be one time - it's a looooong time and maybe what should be will be. But always keep looking forward and make new friends - leads to girlfriends and you might just never miss her again - even though it does not feel like it right now- that can change in about 1 day.
>>709692896
Just a tip from me, lookup somethings in the internet and if you find something good who is interesting for example Robots, learn it. You will get better at it and everybody will go wow when you make sonething brilliant.
>>709694989
How fucking precious.
Does anyone here lives at a farm? I'm thinking on working at wwoofs to feel less suicidal.
>>709692376
This seems like bait.
But incase itis not, I still love you anon.
I mean you've fucked us in the past but I'm not gonna blame you when you had no part in it. Sorry you get tarred with the same brush.
>>709694865
You're right. That's why there are
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