Feels thread. What's on your mind tonight, Anon.
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Feels thread.
What's on your mind tonight, Anon.
>>709605092
i want to move back west, but ive got little to no money and i may be wanted for crimes
but im lonely as hell and have no friends or job opportunities here and am generally unhappy
>>709605092
What the fuck is wrong with me?
>>709605221
Why do you want to do that. Family?
Fucked up with girl I love yesterday Not just that but it led me to thinking how I dont want to be alive and all this whiney bullshit self loathing stuff.
>>709605940
What happened?
>>709605292
no my family is here, and ive genuinely enjoyed being able to spend time with them while ive been here
i cant really explain what it is thats drawing be away, ive made a lot of good friends back west as well as it just feels different
i feel out of place and mostly just alone
Not a whole lot right now. Just trying to find a normal life
>>709605535
dude this is fucked up damn
>>709606144
We're all trying to find one too, Anon.
I see my cousin about every 2 years or so even though he lives like an hour away from me. We grew up visiting each other almost every week. We have so much in common yet are different at the same time.
Yet for some reason, I feel like he's my rival. He's always been better at me in things besides maybe looks, because me and him actually look very similar except I dyed my hair. He's more muscularity than I am. He lives out in the country, I live in the city. He goes outside a lot, I stay inside a lot. Our personalities are the same.
>>709606181
>>709606223
Hopefully you guys can. Just a long work week, and I'm not sure what else to do but work.
>>709606426
what gets me is that its seems as if hes looking at the other polar bear, but the way in which hes positions suggests that he is intelligent enough to realize that it is not real. which is even more fucked
>>709606485
Same Anon.work all day and come home to talk with my friends on 4chan. and play vidya on the weekends. repeat
A vicious cycle
>>709606803
atleast youre not like me and sit here and sift through bullshit thread after bullshit thread all day until the real people finally start talking
>>709606058
I'm at a shit community college right now and for around three months but the only thing that's kept me sane is this girl i met there. we've been getting really close even though she has a boyfriend at a real college kinda long distance and finally two days ago we skipped class and set up my hammock in the woods near the college (yeah I know it's stupid) and for three hours she laid on my chest and we talked. She said quote "I'm glad your friends didn't come I really just wanted to be alone with you" and I just broke and had to tell her how I felt and she told me she loved her boyfriend more. I just really suck as a person and I know that I found someone so perfect for me that the fact she doesn't like me means noone else will.(I know that sounds whiney but I don't feel like going into too much detail why I feel like that)
>>709605092
>Just had my first kid.
>Been trying to make things work with bf.
>Things have been rocky the past 2 years.
>Suggested abortion at beginning of pregnancy
>He said no
>Treats me like shit.
>Begin hating myself after years of fighting with depression anxiety.
>everything comes back.
>every day gets work.
>tell him I want to move home (13 hours away)
>took a lot to build up the courage to leave.
>starts acting like he loves me
>tells me he doesnt want me to leave.
>i just want to be happy to be able to raise kid in a decent setting.
>by no means am i threatening to take away any rights or even file child support.
>Self conflicted with wanting to be happy with myself again and around my family who havent even met grandkid.
>also don't want to hurt him even though i feel like he's playing victim and doesnt really want me here.
>>709607027
got me
>>709607292
Also, no job because maternity leave.
no family or friends
gets mad when i finally start gaming with old friends online.
>basically can't do anything right.
>>709605092
Last major girlfriend falsely accused me of rape when we broke up and runs her mouth whenever I start seeing someone else.
They always believe her, always leave.
My friends know her friends, or know people who know her friends, it always gets back to her somehow.
Third time this has happened and I just want her to leave me the fuck alone.
>>709607292
gets worse*
>>709607099
Chin up anon I know you will find another perfect qt3.14 for you out there. You can't catch them all
>>709606803
75 hour work weeks add up fast. It's silly, but all I want is someone to be happy to see me at the end of the day
>>709607545
I am happy you are in my thread Anon :)
>>709607292
How does he treat you like shit?
>>709607633
Thanks, it means a lot
>>709607667
before i told him i wanted to leave he kinda just put me down made me feel bad about myself. tried to change who i was to suit his life. we had mutual friends and when i was pregnant we ran into them in the store and wouldnt let me say hi or anything. was ashamed of me even though he wouldnt get abortion. didnt tell his family till i was 6-7 months. gets mad when i talk to any friends from back home. only wants me to merge to his life with no regard for what i want.
>>709607537
Thanks man. I'm just going through a phase and i know she would get me out of it so mabey that's why im so focused on her. Fuck how much I still have to see her for the rest of the year tho.
>>709608114
Leave him. I know how scary that shit is and if your worried about the kid trust me nothing will go wrong as long as your strict with him. Are you working?
>>709605288
I have 2.9 primary and 3.6 secondary.
I think the test is bugged : ^)
>>709608552
I have been applying places near my house so i can save money on top of my tax return and leave then. I wont leave unless i have to money to set up an apartment etc. I refuse to move with my daughter and not have a plan or somewhere to live. but yeah i told him i refuse to raise her in a broken home. but my whole life I've put my S/O before myself and i just dont have it in me anymore. i just need to keep the strength to leave when the time comes.
>be me an autist who wants to check how big his dick is condom fitting style
> have flight in the morning go to bed after checking dick size it fits
>lvluprarecandysound.exe
> leave condom and wrapper in headphone box in plain sight
> wake up a little before my flight time get rushed in the shower and have to leave automatically
>forget condom in box
> panic ensues and i just ignore it
im waiting for a month long time bomb to explode hopefully noone opens the box
>>709608778
I grew up with a dad who would beat the fuck out of my mom infront of my sister and i regularly because they made each other so miserable but also loved each other. I can't do that. i mean it's not that bad right now but i mean who knows how itll be in a few years.
The timmy story is sad
>>709608778
You can't move on with anyone like family while you save up? Shit can get dangerous if you're living like that. Idk Just please don't fuck yourself up by waiting.
>>709608986
Basically, I finally learned to tell myself that I deserve better than this. It's taken so long I literally can't allow myself to be broken down again because I don't know what will happen or what I might do. I'm so miserable that if I stay I feel my daughter will be better with a dead mom who people will only tell her good things about than a mom who's constantly depressed and can't offer a healthy relationship.
>>709609221
My sister has a lot going on in her life and my parents live in a motel in OK. I have a room mate set up it's just a matter of time to save. I want to have enough to get a place and still have cash to fall back on if something happens. that's why im waiting for my tax return i should be getting 6-7k
>>709607292
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0dYlvdLdK9w&list=PL3ijqrxN0o7PQ2In989Sd2nefaoKuqfWC
>>709609273
Growing up with a depressed mom is still 1000% better than growing up with a dead mom that makes no sense neither does beating someone you love. After you've been in a shit situation for long enough its hard to remember what normal life is like but you won't always be depressed.and i k ow it sounds cliché but do art or pick up a science or read some philosophy. Just make sure you never fall for anyone similar to your current mate.
>>709608622
link?
>>709609763
Art and writing have always been my go-to's but I just have 0 motivation for anything. the first thing to make me happy has been using discord and chatting with friends from back home which is bothering him but I can't give up the one connection i have. I know i need to leave i won't back down this time. and im just terrified of becoming my mom it's my biggest fear in life. I was fighting needles out of her arm at 10 years old from her trying to kill herself. i would fight to never do something like that around my child but I know how bad my depression can get and it just terrifies me that i could fall back down to that even with my daughter. i just completely hate myself. but im trying so damn hard to keep it together. also im only 20 he's 26 i still have a lot of life i should be spending with my family and friends.
>>709605092
That GIF is either used in this video or comes from this video.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CG6gpwYH1DM
Beautiful song, perfect for a feels thread (as is the album Didn't It Rain and Jason Molina's music in general).
Anyway, I've gotten back in touch with a friend from shortly after high school. We'd hang and burn once in a while, but we've both been hanging pretty much every other night the last month, and I'm pretty sure I'm developing feelings for him. Don't think I'm gonna say anything about it, though. Probably won't go anywhere.
Any advice would be nice, all the same, whether on whether to say anything, what to do to distract from it, shit like that.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=O4l8aEwEr64
Hope this cheers someone up.
Lonely.
>>709610273
I kinda get where ur comming from I have really bad anxiety which leaves me i
n bad situations all the time and every day I feel really unmotivated. Damn 20's really young for all that shit but that just means that once you've left him you have nothing stopping you. Use that fear of becoming like your mom to motivate you. Always be better.
>>709610753
It's >>709610290 here.
I used to get really lonely, even when with dear friends and lovers and family. I'd find myself overcome with dread when snuggled up to an ex a few years ago as I realized how truly alone each human being is in this world. You can never truly know another person, not near as intimately as you know yourself (and even then, many people don't know themselves as well as they should, myself included). It used to cause me great despair, but once I realized other people are just as alone, a spark of light trapped inside themselves, millions and billions of atoms away from any other one of those sparks, it gave it a tragic beauty that I've come to appreciate.
The loneliness of that sort never goes away once you realize it's there, but it can become a beautiful loneliness, as can all negative emotions and ideas.
>>709610771
I've read this so many times hoping I would wake up to something better than this.
>>709610966
that's what im trying to do. i just fell for him so fucking hard ill be alone for the first time in 2 years. im terrified but excited to be happy again. thank you for listening to me. i have no one i can talk to about this who has the time except one person who i feel ive over-vented to.
>>709611361
Same anon. Why can't this nightmare be a nightmare
>>709609586
I would draw a picture of her being happy, not me
>done with life, don't really care about anything
>attempt to kill self countless times over the span of about two years
>keep it a secret from everyone
>meet girl and think I'm in love
>tell her about everything, she had depression problems before so helps me
>after about 6 months of dating I found out she was cheating since day one and that she never really gave a fuck about me
>whatever
>couple months pass by, suicidal again, but different now
> I don't even want to kill myself because I'm upset anymore but because I just am done going on, I don't feel any emotion anymore, I've always been so sad and wanted to just not feel the pain anymore but now that I don't feel anything it doesn't feel right
>>709611361
>>709611493
What's really distressing is I had an overdose in 2012 that resulted in me being dead for almost two minutes, and I've only started seeing these memes SINCE the overdose; even before I first saw it I always wonder if I'm in a coma.
It would explain the increasingly deranged behaviour of the world at large. Even my friends are starting to wonder; it's not uncommon to hear them say 'the world has to be a simulation' or, if they're high enough, 'maybe this is purgatory or hell or the matrix'. Distresses the shit out of me.
>>709611362
No problem it's 3:30 am and I know it'll be a sleepless night anyway. Just remember to not focus too much on being happy. People expect that when they are living a happy life it will always be filled with strong rushes of emotion. But it takes more time than that.
>>709607292
honestly this sounds like my fiance's story almost except not a 13 hour drive to her family. when i first met her she was in your place except the kid was a year old. when i was just friends with her she was with a guy who was emotionally and i came to find out physically abusive. every time she tried to get away he'd either threaten her or play the victim. she only held on cause they had a kid together.
honestly dont pay him any more mind than you have seriously. Living in a hostile environment like that isnt good for the kid first of all, and you need to think about yourself ok? get out of there when you can please
>>709611750
And is more subtle is what I mean to say
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IUzqLYd6UUk
>>709611750
I love you, Anon.
>>709611939
I will, I'm glad she's with you now.
>>709612098
thanks anon, and if this is that femanon, do what she did. learn to love yourself again please. I know it can be hard to leave someone you care about but sometimes you need to be there for yourself. take some time off from any relationship and learn to like you again, get all the shit he filled you with out of you. you cant be that old, there's going to be a day when someone will come along who cares about you and will treat you right.
this goes for everyone out there who happens to read this
Do not be with someone just because you dont want to be alone. You all deserve someone who makes you feel like youre special and that you matter. get rid of the cancer you're with and find someone who makes you want to be a better person or makes you feel like a better person. dont settle for less than you deserve
>>709607099
Dude. If you feel that way, now imagine how crushed her boyfriend would feel like if you did do something with her, especially behind his back like that.
Knowing the pain that you're going through, would you honestly want some guy you don't know to feel much worse than that? Or do you just not give a shit about his feelings? Just gotta move on. There are plenty of women out there. It hurts.
Feel as if my relationship is slowly dying off. Have a large family but haven't talked to most people but my brother in like a year. Find myself just getting high everyday not knowing what to do anymore wish I could just find meaning in something
I've known this girl since she was 5 years old. I never viewed her as more than a friend. We are extremely close, we understand each other in ways no one else can. We were both abused by our parents almost every day growing up. Nether of us had any clue this was going on because her parents were always cool to me, and mine were great to her.
When we found out later in life what happened to us, a bond developed between us. We wanted to help each other. We told each other we loved each other. But I never viewed her as more than a friend except for a brief time when I was in a really vulnerable state. And those feelings tend to disappear when you become less vulnerable.
Anyway, she got married, and I didn't feel bad about it at all. I was happy for her. Never got any heartache or any of those feelings you get when you want to be with someone but she's with someone else.
Anyway, over the course of her marriage we became closer. And I guess eventually there was a part of me that wanted to be with her but those feelings were suppressed. She was happily married, not to mention she's christian and I'm not so there was really no point in wanting to be with her, it was pointless.
Then recently she got divorced. And all those feelings I mentioned that I had suppressed, well, got unleashed. And my heart made me fall for her. I love her more than anything.
But, with the religious differences, I can't see us ever being together. I can't see myself being able to make her happy.
And that's what I want the most - for her to be happy. Even if it means we can't be together, even if it breaks my heart, even if it kills me inside. If it means she'll be happy, that's okay.
It still hurts like fuck though.
>>709612576
I do... and I'm not narsissitic enough to think I deserve her more or anything she just kept telling me she wasn't happy with him and was acting like she wanted me to do somthing. I'm already not the best at social situations and I couldn't understand what was going on
>>709612886
does her being christian make her unfuckable or something
>>709606803
I never knew how antisocial I was 'till i went into college. I've tried to be social by going to events and even joined a couple clubs (rpg, vidyagame, and movie ) but still the don't have any close friends as my roommates do just acquaintances
>>709613385
I don't care about that, it's more about her believing that god is real and the solution to life's biggest problems while I don't believe in the existence of god and will never be religious again. And thinking long term, assuming she stays christian, if she ever has kids she's going to want to raise her kids christian and going to church etc and I'd have ea problem with that. And I don't see the point in going with someone who I see no long term future with. It'd only fuck up what we already have, and we both really value the special relationship that we have because of our history, because of what we've been through.
*sigh* I wish I could go back to when I didn't want to be more than just friends with her. Wanting someone you can't have is one of the worst feelings in the world.
>>709605092
I went to sleep but forgot to die, damn.
>>709605092
im pissed my pot dealer didnt come through tonight. Had to spend my overnight sober. why cant dealers be fucking reliable?
>>709613834
it's called compromising. are you seriously such an edgelord atheist that the thought that you may have to go to church one day makes you not want to get with this girl you won't shut up about? so stupid
>>709608573
It's lonely out in space.
>>709613971
Religious differences are a major issue in relationships. I haven't come across a couple that was happy or stayed together where one person was religious and the other wasn't.
>>709605092
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=T3RkGnZ-LYY
>>709611675
god that hit too close to home
>>709609193
Why am I breaking up now wtf
>>709611705
Never give up brother.
>>709613834
I'm in the same boat anon. Friend of mine who i've had a crush on for ages got married about a year ago. Marriage went to shit pretty fast. She refuses to leave because she feels the guy shes with is the only one that could ever love her.
Plenty of people have tried to convince her to leave but she wont. It kills me to see her just get more and more depressed as the days go on. I won't lie I'd love to get the chance to be with her but at the end of the day I just want to see her happy.
Hey /b, I posted in a baww thread 2 days ago with my story. I was posting from my car at 4am where I got 2 hours of sleep.
I wanted to let you know I got the job and start training next week Thursday. Not much has improved in the last two days. I'm staying over my friends house on an air mattress, 100% not complaining.
Sidenote: I've been coming to 4chan since 2008. My first major break up was in 2009 and even tho I don't post here frequently, /b has ALWAYS been there through every break up I've ever had. It's almost like I come running to /b whenever shit doesnt work out. It really means alot to me.
Pic: Girl that broke me 2 and a half weeks ago.
>>709605092
I feel that all of the connections I have with people right now are too shallow, almost more professional than friendly. I no longer interact with people who I have a significant history with and I feel lonely because of it. I desperately want to connect with someone /b/. I crave the feeling of camaraderie that two people feel when they are either best friends or in a relationship and I am just not getting that right now. I know it sounds pathetic but fuck it and I also know that there are people reading this right now that have way shittier lives than I do, but I felt the need to put this out somewhere.
I wish i Mattered. But I don't know how to matter.
>>709611744
There is a YouTube video called "why Elon musk says that we are living on a simulation" or something like that, is quite good
How the fuck can any of us complain.. we have PC's.. we sleep in houses.. we have food. We are the privileged 10 % of humanity. So you haven't got your dick wet in a pussy, so you're a social fuck up. Stop being such a little bitch.
>>709615350
Just because people are worse off than us does not mean our problems do not matter.
>>709611705
Is there a longer story? You're not depressed because of the chick in your story. You're depressed at the start of the story. So what happened?
My gf....
I miss how things used to be just a few months ago. She was crazy for me. She always used to write me long letters or messages saying how much she loves me. She used to tell me good morning and good night every day. She used to fullfill every need and desire i had.
Now she's cold and distant and i feel friendzoned with my own gf. i know she fell out of love with me. I know it was my fault. I hurt her a lot and didn't know it although she told me. I was stupid.
And now I'm fucking up even more. I know what to do. I know what I'm doing wrong, but I'm weak i guess now and have become needy because I'm scared I'm going to lose her.
And all that does is push her away more.
Im too available, too loving, too nice. I'm essentially acting like how a girl should act. I'm acting like a desperate fool. I wonder if she even respects me anymore.
And like i said, i know what to do to win her back and to fix things. Just act like a man. Stop being so available and needy. But it's been so hard lately.
>>709615596
This.
First anniversary of her death is getting closer...
it's just a day so I'm mad at me that it should feel stronger now than it did a month ago, and that it's supposed to feel the strongest in a few weeks...
I feel like I'm just going to spend days in my room while some people are struggling to survive...
I feel ridiculous and I hope my heart disease take me every night, but every time I wake up.
What. The. Hell.
>>709605092
"He only loves me naked or in my dreams"
![969011922[1].jpg](https://i.imgur.com/3yitRK6.jpg "969011922[1].jpg")
>>709615746
Not the picture I wanted to post, computer is going full retard right now.
>>709615350
>Thinking monetary wealth outweighs emotional wealth
How fucking stupid are you, be honest?
>>709607027
Hit me hard
>>709615725
>Describing me
Listen bro. Take it from me and listen to me, before she breaks up with you...Everything you said that you know what to do...Say fuck it and DO IT. STOP being helpful to her, Stop trying too hard. Be the MAN she wants.
I get it, its not easy. My now ex-girlfriend wouldn't even sleep in the same bed as me, would give me the silent treatment, argue over petty shit...And it was so emotionally draining, all I could do is try to over-compensate.
Give her time to get over her little bitch-fest. Don't give her reasons to hate you or blame you for anything. Ride it out.
>be me
>Freshman in HS
>meet really nice girl
>We hit it off
>We say we love each other
>We hate our lives
>life already sucked back then
>we would talk about what we'd go after shitty HS
>where we'd go
>who'd we leave behind forever
>fast foward 1st semester Junior
>We've started fighting
>One fight get's serious and I start screaming at her. I say to her, " You can go fucking drop dead for all I care. I don't sweat the small stuff"
>poof
>just like that
>she's gone
>moves to another state
>hundreds of miles away
>Feel kinda good for the first few weeks after our breakup
>feel "liberated", "free"
>quickly realize she was the only girl I liked in my school
>realize no other girl actually gave a rats ass about me
>quickly spiral into a more severe depression than I already had
>heart is broken
>thepain.killme
It was a game of Russian Roulette,
But with a twist,
One person, one gun, one bullet,
A gun in his hands,
Death on his mind,
It was suicide,
With each pull of the trigger his death gets closer,
The excitement,
The adrenaline,
The suspense,
It was unexpected,
Yet it was expected,
It was loud, deafening,
It was silent,
It was over.
His life was over as soon as it had began.
Adopted grandma just died a few hours ago and the family doesn't consider me to be a member of the family so they didn't tell me. I didn't know she was sick. She was all I had left and I didn't get to say goodbye
>>709616182
Sounds like a small reason for her to just up and leave. We all say shit when we're upset and thats definitely the time to ignore words. Women are too sensitive I suppose.
How long ago was this?
>>709616182
cont'
>2 years go by
>It's been 1 1/2 since HS
>Miserable as fuck still, no surprise
>look her up
>apparently she forgave me
>says she'd like to try it again
>feelssogoodman.jpg
>She's already dating some dude
>she says she has no reason to dump him
>ask her, because I'm pathetic, how long it might last
>8 months - 1 year
>realize she's hundreds of miles away in a different state
>I'm an 18 y/o NEET
>I need money for this
>deathcameearly.jpg
>we've been texting off and on for maybe a week now
>she hasn't responded in a while
>about to go to bed
>phone rings at 3 AM
>No one, NO ONE calls me at this time
>who the hel-oh shit
>it must be her
>feelsgoodman.jpg
>look at phone
>Alarm - Snooze - OK
>collapse
>cry
All these stories of loved ones dying in labor.
This is my biggest fear and i think about it everday. I've dated several women and for the first time I know I'm in love with my Amy. I know she loves me too.
Love can be a very scary thing but im happy I can experience it.
Pic related
>>709616182
I had a somewhat similar situation, told my friend to "go to hell" when she was at a particularly bad point in her life.
While you're situation is different from my own id say work your ass off to try to get back in contact with her. It may take some time to get back within her good graces but work at it, show her you care. Once things settle just go with it and see where it goes. Biggest regret I have is not even making the attempt.
>>709616409
That fucking SUCKS.
Bless you.
I'm going to be a massive wreck when Grandfather dies, he's been like a father figure to me all these years since my real father wasn't around much. I don't blame him though, my mother is a terrible person.
Nothing especially bad, I'm just bored and restless. I was hoping to meet up with a couple of friends I usually hang out with to have a few drinks and the like, but they're busy. So now I'm stuck at home posting on here instead.
>Be me
>Best friend of 9 years is in a shitty relationship for 5 of those years
>All friends tell him to leave her
>Even me
>One week my friend and another mutual friend of ours is all over at his place
>Acting funny, kinda dickish
>I ask him what's up
>"We're adulting"
>Literally wat
>Me and his GF get kinda pissed off and leave
>Spend whole day with best friend's GF
>Talk about friend mostly
>Get back to her place after a day at the beach
>We fall asleep in her bed
>I fell for her
>Keep it to myself for months
>Friend was pissed at me but didn't stay pissed, didn't know about me sleeping in the bed
>He finally broke up with her after she cheated on him with another dude
>Flash forward another month
>I call her drunk and ask her to pick me up
>Hit on her hard core
>She put on a movie, still hitting on her
>She pauses the movie and looks at me
Do any of these Baww stories have happy endings?
>>709616466
then don't put them in danger by impregnate them.
Simple right ?
But nooo, humans HAVE to procreate. Humans HAVE to fuck.
Well enjoy virtually condemning your 'loved' one to death.
>>709616686
ing*
>>709615923
If he's stupid enough to think and say that then I guarantee you he's too stupid for his honest answer to mean anything at all.
>>709616684
yeah dude, doesn't the op explicitly say happy stories only in this thread where people talk about what makes them depressed?
>>709616684
Baww stories with happy endings typically end with people not being on here.
I wonder why she tells me she loves me when it feels like it's not true
Been with my girlfriend for 6 months and started falling for a girl in one of my uni classes. Girlfriend thinks I'm alpha and omega. Feel like an absolute shithole of a human being for even thinking about someone else.
>>709616560
Yeah i did,
story continued here
>>709616455
Thats my current situation, got an job interview soon.
Im fucking a nervous wreck atm
>>709616662
what happened next bruh
>used to smoke a lot
>have to go clean for a few weeks so I can pass a drug test
>probably shouldn't smoke anymore anyway, plan to not smoke again for a long time
>only time I genuinely have fun anymore is when I'm high
>>709617112
my cousin in 11th grade is like that now.
It's really sad, I don't know what to do.
>>709616686
Multiple reasons.
These are just a few.
A baby will shape both of our souls.
Both of us have always dreamed of having a family.
When we grow old we want someone to be there for us because they love us.
Having a baby will give us both hope.
Its a life experience for both of us.
To let a new life experience the joy of life and also the worst of life. Simply enjoy their own existence.
So the both of us can embody love for each other.
Just a few. We also know a hundred reasons not to have a baby. And yes even the whole pollution and destruction to earth so you can save it. The risks are insane but at this point theres no stopping it.
>>709617112
>>709617193
Been there; done that. To cut a long story short: I beat nearly all of my problems with the help of LSD.
>>709617112
The key is to use drugs to enhance your existing happiness, not as a crutch to find happiness.
I typically smoke less pot when I'm depressed because I don't want to feel dependent on it.
>>709617273
>to solve a drug problem do more drugs
wat
>>709616919
It may take some time, and even then she may not leave the guy. Just gotta stay hopeful but understand that maybe in the end its better to move on.
Just kinda have to wait it out and see what happens. Keep up the contact, but don't over do it. If it's looking like shes gonna stick with the guy it may be time to move on, shit will be hard but out of the 7 billion people on this rock someones gonna be the one.
Best of luck with the interview man, just had one thinking I'm not gonna get the job, been working for a bit now.
>>709617242
seems fair, I can't comprehend it. ( which is why I'd never ever make that decision. )
But it's not like I'm in a social position to ever make this choice either.
Good luck to you and anonette.
>>709616662
I forgot to mention, we made it back to her place after I called, we were there a few hours.
>Says in a sexy-ish voice "What do you want anon?"
>She kisses me
>Kiss her back, feels like forever
>She gets a phone call
>Break the kiss and answers it while I rub her back
>She hangs up and tells me she has to pick up her boyfriend
>Ohfuckwhatdidijustdo
>Too horny to actually think
>Too drunk to want to stop
>We kiss some more, confess a lot
>It's working
>Tells me how she'd like to be with me and we kiss more.
>She says she'll try to dump him
>Gets my sister to flirt with him
>Not working
>End up hanging out with her boyfriend, and my sister all day
>Her bf even comes to me later that day and says he was jealous of me
>"I'm nothing to be jealous of dude"
>He says I'm right (dick)
>Hit on his GF some more
>Go home, I tell my cousin who happens to be friends with her BF, tells me she's cheated on him
>She cheats a lot
>See her the next day and asks if she really meant what she said
>Says she just wants stability
>Fuck
>Cousin took her bf for a walk (to buy some drugs)
>Cousin wants to expose her to him as a cheater, says if she was free she'd be with me, so I take the chance
>Cousin sends her nudes to her bf from my phone
From this moment on, it goes downhill and fast.
>>709617497
>to solve a drug problem do a different drug that works better for you
where's the confusion, retard?
>>709617737
and obviously to the condemned to live to be.
>>709617535
Yeah I'm too lazy to update the feels post I sent, she's single now.
She hadn't seen him in a month and she broke up with him over the phone. She was actually going to do it through a text.
He started fucking crying.
This a feels thread so yeah, no happy endings and shit.
>>709617242
>Having a baby will give us both hope.
1. Don't have a kid unless you already have hope.
2. It sounds like you want to create another entire human so you can selfishly fulfill yourself.
3. Its gonna turn on you in 15 years, the same as all 30 billion humans who have ever existed, including you, so you especially ought to know better.
4. If you want a kid you ought to adopt to take some poor kid out of the orphanage/foster home.
>>709605288
Youre not the only one man. How do we deal with this?
>>709617748
>She messages me
>Pissed the fuck off
>Understandable tho
>I'm apologetic as fuck
>Making up a shit ton of excuses
>Nothing is working
>Having a panic attack
>She tells me she worked it out with her bf
>Probably lied to him
>She says she hates me and never wants to talk to me again
>Stop wanting to better myself
>Go out with my best friend, do some drugs, confess a lot of shit
>He knows everything
>Still the kindest person I know
>Actually messages her from my phone telling her that I do care
>He honestly tried to set me up with his ex, this fucking madman
>She's asleep so no reply
>Talks about his mom a lot
>She thinks he's a disappointment no matter what he does
>He comes out as a little gay to me, I tell him I'm kinda homo too
>No gay sex because we don''t like each other like that
>I cried a bunch, but that's about it
>She messages me back in the morning, thought I was drunk
>Tells me to never message her unless I'm about to die or something
>Still no messages
Where did I fuck up, guys?
Was it the nudes?
I left out a lot of unimportant info, but if you want certain details, just ask.
>>709618081
>>No gay sex because we don''t like each other like that
did you kiss though?
>>709617892
I think most of the time these don't have happy endings is because they went out and changed things and are no longer looking for the feels.
I'd say just kinda let things build, but don't go too long without going for it and asking her if shes interested/ wants to date. If no, well now you know and gtfo. If yes, show her you mean it and want to make it serious.
>>709618226
I would, but I think the last time I kissed someone I nearly killed myself through starvation.
If the drugs hadn't worn off I'd probably be thin as fuck right now.
I'm not against the thought though.
>>709618286
yeah, she knows im interested and she wants to try it again too.
She lives like 500 miles away so she said she'd visit a couple times before moving in with me.
We've done in depth about it but yeah.
She said whatever we do while she's here it doesn't matter, because she'll be have great company i.e. me
So who knows, maybe death with have to wait.
>>709617497
Since you haven't done LSD it's arguably pointless to try and explain; but I have been wrong before, so I'll try anyway.
LSD and other powerful psychadelics are on a whole other level compared to things like weed. People smoke weed thinking it makes them philosophical and introspective, which it does actually do to a degree. People drink thinking it helps them rationalise, which it can and often does. But neither of them come even remotely close proper psychadelic experiences.
If you're paying attention when it happens, which chances are you will be, it can really change some shit for you. It helps you to openly and objectively assess outside opinions and perspectives. It helps you solidify ones you might have already had after giving them your due dilligence and scrutiny. It can help you rationalise, accept and embrace so many different concepts that this thread would 404 way, way before I could come close to explaining even a fraction of it to you. So I'll just give you the broad strokes:
>I've seen it turn depression, self-hatred and suicidal thoughts that haunted me nearly every day of my life into little more than a small annoyance.
>I've seen it do similar things to people that were even worse than I was.
>It's helped me to develop and appreciate an affinity for all living things on Earth; even people and things that I don't like.
>If you are depressed, it helps you shape and/or reshape your opinions, ideas, perspectives and beliefs. So unlike a drug like an antidepressant, which really only treats symptoms and therefore you need to keep taking said drugs, LSD makes its mark and then BAM, that's how you are now. You could never do it ever again in your life and you'll still have what you already got from it. I've seen this work with people that have wasted countless hours and dollars on therapy and medication.
Really, it may not do that for everyone. But based on that alone all I can say is it's at least worth trying once before you die.
>>709618595
sounds like things are on a good course, just gotta go with it and make you're moves when shes there. Best of luck to you anon, hopefully she moves in at the end of it all.
>>709618749
thanks brah
>>709618903
I felt that hard anon.
>>709619078
I read this over and over again and i dont picture myself reading those words. Maybe that's how she felt about herself.
I stopped coming to these threads because things started to go well for me.
Long story short, it didn't last.
>>709618723
I took props and I think it's comparable, although I think my emotions got in the way because it was such a stressful time of my life (see above)
BTW, new guy here, just got interested in your LSD experience.
what's taking acid like?
>>709618903
Shit.
Shiiiiiiiiiit.
>>709619678
I'll tell you Saturday when I take acid.
>>709605418
I feel this. But probably under different circumstances.
Okay so this girl and I met over the summer at party in her house and we instantly hit it off. Things were going good and we went in a few dates. Then suddenly she just ended it cause according to her she wasn't ready for a relationship and we were getting too close and moving too fast.
We haven't really talked since then that was about 3 months ago and now all of a sudden I get an invitation to a Halloween party at her house. It was her friend who sent me the invitation not her but I talked to the friend because it seemed a little weird and out of the blue and the friend said that I should go.
What the hell am I supposed to expect. I don't want to go to the party with unrealistic expectations of whats going to happen but at the same time this is just too weird so I can't help but think about it....
Why invite me
we have no common friends, never talk anymore so i just dont get this.....
>>709618903
that's fine actually, this means that when I do it, I'm not going missing.
Went from being a fat 25yo virgin neckbeard to getting pretty fit,having a gf and getting laid on the reg in one year but somehow I still feel like i'm the same shit person :/
Man how much of a pussy are you. What I am saying is that you need to get some perspective. Your first world problems would make 3/4 of the world laugh.. there are 2 year old kids being bombed and starved ,, god gave you balls.. man the fuck up.
>>709620233
selfless bump
I see these fuckers in here obsessing over pussy and whatnot. If I only had enough money to live an average life playing vidya and learning new stuff without having to worry about working I would be as happy as anyone could possibly be. But soon I will have to go and work at something just to get money and it eats me inside to know I have to do this when all I want is to stay comfy doing my stuff, being alone is an acceptable price to pay and a positive for me. Money truly buys happiness.
>>709605092
For some reason i feel like war is coming. Not to me, but just in general.
>>709620233
FUCKING GO!
YOU MISS 100% OF THE SHOTS YOU DON'T TAKE!
GO AND DON'T FUCK UP, REMEMBER TO SHOWER AND DRESS NICE, BRUSH YOUR TEETH AND TONGUE, JUST FUCKING GO.
SHOW US A PICTURE OF YOURSELF IF YOUR SELF-CONSCIOUS.
I'M A LITTLE GAY SO I'LL TELL YOU IF YOU'RE HOT OR NOT.
>>709619665
What is props? I can't say the name is familiar.
>>709620538
I'm poor, if that helps.
>>709616662
Me btw.
I've got my shit together, to a point, I'm just accepting of that.
>>709605092
Things are going alright now. Going to be living alone soon though so I'm not sure how I'm going to deal with that.
>>709605092
For the first time since graduating High School 4 years ago I will have an actual job that pays me money. I have am so stunned I don't know what to do. Sometimes I really do think the world is brighter than /pol/ makes it out to be.
>>709620538
>Money truly buys happiness.
Tell that to the miserable cunts on here that brag about their salary.
>>709620659
Propylhexedrine, from Benzedrex.
Props, for short.
>>709620233
im going thats for sure i just dont want it to be like this
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RI9eS4tVvZk
If its anything like that i might actually kill myself
>>709605092
I'm still hung up on a girl that dumped me three years ago. Not because I loved her, because I really miss the sex. She's an SJW feminist trans person, so, she's a HE, but I'm not attracted to her male perception of herself. I like the tits, pussy, and ass, not her feelings.
I just really miss intimacy. I have a hard time distinguishing it from actual affection. I miss nudes and erotic texts / facebook messages, I don't want to fucking talk about the Patriarchy and how GamerGate has singlehandedly triggered you into the sun.
I want you to 69 with me like we used to, swallow my cum, and don't bother me after that.
As unrealistic as that is, it's the only reason I miss her.
Posted in a thread like this about two weeks ago or so. Meet a cool, cute girl chatted all night. It was really unique...felt like I was chatting with someone who gave a damn. It was nice, not something I feel often. Just very chill and genuine kind of conversation.
Been a few weeks since she's popped online to Skype again. Probably just out living her life, maybe it's something she just pops onto once in a while. Last message I had sent was hoping her week and birthday went well last Wednesday.
It seems silly to even think about. I just talked with her once...trying not to think about it, but I can't help it. Maybe I'll never chat with her again, and it's not awful, we just met once...but...it's more depressing realizing how fleeting it all is, I guess.
Distracted myself pretty successfully through the week, but I'm probably just masking my own depression doing that. I feel more myself when I'm in "reality" and depressed than distracting myself fantasizing/fapping away at night to a piece of a life I don't have.
I don't even like porn for porn when I do get into it...I just like it because I can look at a picture or video and make pretend for a brief moment that maybe that look in their eye or smile was towards me.
It isn't even about it being a girl, even. I'd still be happy having the rest of my life knowing a chill bro I get to see every day, play some vidya or get coffee and talk about life in person. I still know some cool people in my life, but they're all pretty far away.
It all feels petty to even talk about; there's probably people way, way worse off than me. Guess I just needed to get that off my chest.
>>709620774
this was meant for this
>>709620608
>>709620772
Sounds like something at least vaguely prescription related.
>>709620774
Dude, I'm gonna fucking cry already.
Don't do this.
I already fucked up something and I want to fix it, but if I hadn't took the shot, I wouldn't know what I wanted in life.
I know from what I did, I want to better myself, I don't need money so it's an easy fix, it just takes dedication.
She probably had something happen before and she was being cautious, if it was her friend who invited you, she might want another shot, or she's trying to hook you up with another girl, whatever the case is, just try it out.
>>709620965
Nope, nasal medicine that's over the counter.
Cheap too.
>>709621063
i know im just scared you know? scared of what I might find out once i do go, I'm going for sure just nervous and scared because honestly i might not like what i find
>>709619665
lol.
emotions always come in the way
>>709621107
Over the counter nasal medicine doubles as a drug of recreation that makes you hallucinate and gives you moments of powerful, deep introspection?
Not saying you're full of shit, but that is hard to believe with nasal meds.
>New from Pfizer
>Clears your nasal passages, gets rid of itchy, watery eyes and makes you trip fucking balls
I just don't see it.
>>709619665
almost trips checkd!!
>>709620233
>Why invite me
One of three things is happening:
1) Someone cares about and likes you enough that they want to involve you in a potentially fun social event.
2) Someone knows what's going on in your head to some degree and is trying to play a cruel prank that involves you being severely disappointed and distressed.
3) Someone wants to invite you so that you can say no and they can prove a point of some sort.
I have no idea which though, so do it at your own risk.
>>709621259
My current relationship started with a "Wow, that's a great picture"
Work on yourself if you think you're unattractive.
Better yourself, take control.
If they're fucking with you, or leading you on, just leave man, don't let them do that to you.
You are in control of what you do.
You are in control, all you have to do is get them to see that. Show yourself off. Let them know you can do whatever it takes and then some.
What's the worst that can happen?
It's a party, there should be plenty of other people.
>>709605092
https://youtu.be/nHfy5N-fml8
Been having a three some with my wife'. And friend and im starting to care for her
>>709605092
I single handedly ruined a perfectly good marriage with a 7/10 for a -10/10 cum dump land whale
>>709621371
No for real, just read up on Propylhexedrine.
Walmart, $4.98.
Go to the wiki and read the recreational use section.
My experience lasted 6 hours, I was extremely talkative and emotional, it felt great.
The crash was about 2 hours of a minor headache. Maybe some anorexia, but it only lasted for about a week.
Just remember to eat and you'll do fine.
>>709605092
I can't get off the feeling of being lonely
I guess i am made that way.
>>709621547
shes a great person so I dont think its the second one,
1 or 3 might be true though
Should I cut it off or try moving her in which is what I would like
>>709621787
America needs to step up it's regulations on certain over the counter drugs tbh.
This shit is way too good for $5.
>>709605092
Maggie ill find you
>>709620233
>>709620774
One day you're going to die. For a while there may be a group of friends and relatives that survive you. They'll mourn your passing, remember good times they had where you were around and wish you were still with them. But then one day all of them will be dead also and before long it will be as though you never even existed.
Then one day, whether the Earth is destroyed or not, assuming we don't either find a way to live on another planet or at least in space, the human race itself will die and cease to exist. When that happens, it will be as if none of us, the greatest, the worst, the most popular or the obscure ever existed.
Then at some stage our sun will die and it will take our solar system with it; effectively making it as though our cosmic neighbourhood never existed, or at the very least didn't matter.
Then a long time after that, the universe will become incapable of hosing life of any kind; then after that the universe will die.
What you do, what you don't do; none of it matters really. You're basically on a ride or playing a game that's usually taken seriously, but is ultimately of no real importance or significance. Whether you ride the ride/play the game because you want to enjoy it, you want to win, you've got nothing better to do or you don't know of anything outside of it is irrelevant, because you're still a part of it. But just remember that there's no real reason to get too heavily invested and take it all too seriously.
None of this shit matters; but that's okay.
The girl I will probably never get with. That is all that is on my mind tonight and every night.
>>709621874
You also said your friend invited you, not her. I never said she'd be the one playing the trick. However I'd rather you read my other post instead:
>>709622003
>>709605092
I hate myself. I'm trapped in this self fulfilling cycle of hate and failure:
this morning i had zero motivation to do anything
I was just laid in bed like 'why do i bother doing anything'
along the lines of 'i fail at everything so why bother trying; i'm not gonna do anything with my life anyway'
i stayed in bed thinking that sorta stuff for about 2 hours
i lack any motivation
i'm just filled with apathy towards it all and it's stupid and wrong but i can't shake it and I hate myself for it
i know i shouldn't
that's the frustrating thing
I KNOW all of what i should be doing, but moving that from knowledge into action is ridiculously hard because of how i feel
so I start doing something -> my brain tells me there's no point because I'll just fail -> I stop doing it -> then i feel like a failure
lather rinse and repeat until you've got a cycle of self-destructive habit that's difficult to break free from
>>709622070
sorry for the poor formatting, I copy & pasted this from a facebook convo i had with my friend because I didn't want to type it all out again
>>709605092
My gf takes care of me better than anyone else in the world could.
But I am so not sexually attracted to her.
She's well on the chubby side but I am not into this.
Sex is okay, but only because of her letting me fuck her ass.
She has a kid so her vagina's not tight at all, plus if she's wet there's an ocean of her juice everywhere (less friction to feel) and the smell is bad (at least for me).
>>709616182
Hey im in the same boat, we planned on having a kid together too
>>709605092
I'm autistic, living on my own, alone, retired, and feel great but everyone else wants me to do something. I'm completely content watching the clouds slowly slide across the sky.
>>709622237
Have you considered exercising with her?
Or dieting?
I'm a fatty myself but I've dedicated myself to bettering every aspect, so I'm doing my best to lose weight.
>>709622349
Then do that.
If you're happy, be happy.
If you strive for more, take opportunities.
>>709616393
So an infant killed itself? Like, fresh out the womb?
>>709622749
Only the good die young, I suppose.
>>709622749
I think it's referring more to how the guy who killed himself had only begun to feel alive as the adrenaline from the roulette kicked in
>>709609193
wow damn
>>709622356
She went to the gym for a month, but quit afterwards.
To be honest, she weights about 90kg.
I weight about 50kg.
She's nearly double me, she will never be the shape I find attractive.
>>709605092
>Why my dad left
>Why my mom doesn't love me
>Why I haven't killed myself
>>709623516
you weigh 50kg wtf dude you need to bulk up fam!
how old are you? 90kg aint even that bad tbh
>>709615071
missed the story, got a screencap?
>>709605288
3.8 primary 2.7 secondary
>>709622237
>>709623516
Sounds like you need to just leave her.
why cant i get over her, bros
>>709624752
Because you think about her too often.
You have to get over her by your own will.
You have to do it.
Life is amazing. I'm happily married, earning great money, and I'm a month away from the birth of my daughter. I'm very fulfilled in life, yet I can't stop thinking about my eventual demise and how it will render all of this as little more than a fever dream. One day there will be no concept of I, no ability to remember, and it'll be like none of this ever happened. I will become nothing again. There's an eternity behind me, and then my brief existence, and then an eternity ahead.
I was on meds and had therapy a couple years back, and CBT has changed my life, but it's difficult to apply it in this situation.
>>709624752
go score with some random lasses; worked for me. I was obsessed with a girl, she moved to the other end of the country for uni so I though 'fuck it' and pulled three different girls in three weeks. Now I don't care for her at all.
>>709624855
im too fucking lonely to be distracted. she was all i had, anon. maybe i dont miss her, but i miss the idea of her. why cant i be normal and happy and shit
>>709611750
I'm not really sad right now, just feel numb with this agonizing feeling somewhere deep in my gut without really having a physical sensation
>>709605092
I'm still thinking about my ex...after 2 years post breakup....after he beat me up...and left me for another...i havent had a date since
>>709626056
As in he knocked you around emotionally or he literally, physically beat you up?
>>709605092
I just miss her
>>709605288
4.4 Primary, 4.3 Secondary
>>709625048
>>709626559
when I look at her profile I see nothing because her brother took it down when she died...
If ill ever be able to be successful
>>709626376
Physically : beat me up at his home for skipping college to see him, kick me in the streets, slapping me.
And emotionally : he said he doesn't care if we break up, he left me when I was the most depressed(my mother died at that time), told me I'm responsible for all the bad things in my life,etc.. then he left me and immediately got into another relationship
Watching my girlfriends dad quickly die from terminal liver cancer. Was fine for a year and shit just hit the fan
I think my girlfriends cheating on me. There's nothing solid to tell me so it's just my feeling, she doesn't even have any guy friends tbf
>>709611705
I feel that brother. I think about suicide every single day and it doesn't come with feelings of sadness. I look forward to it, I just want my life to end.
>>709617112
Anon, what you need to realize is that drugs are never the solution for happiness.
You're probably young (I'm gonna assume you're in your late teens or early 20's.) and these years are filled with a tremendous amount of existential doubt and questioning your self worth. It's a trademark of these years. I guarantee you, if more people still felt like how they did in their teens there would be a lot more suicides. When we were all younger, we all had definitive answers to what it was that made us happy, our parents embrace, playing our favorite video game, watching a favorite tv show, whatwvee. As we get older, a direct answer to what it is that makes us happy and complete becomes more and more transparent as time goes on. So that's my read of you /b/ro. I think you're uninspired and bored with your life and you have pursued rituals to the point of becoming habits in an attempt to make your life have more joy, but the joy always runs out eventually. Stay off the drugs my guy, I had the exact same crisis you're going through a little while ago, except I wasn't happy on drugs. I was even more paranoid and depressed than I was clear headed. I kept on thinking "fuck, I'm doing nothing, in this room sitting on this couch that I sit on with my 'friends' 3 or 4 times a week at least being unproductive" i started to realize my friends weren't really my friends, and that I needed to get out of my comfort zone. I've been clean from everything for little over a month and I feel the happiest I've been in four years. Find a hobby, start painting or writing or reading.
>>709628223
Excuse me Less and less transparent**
HAHAHA YOU PATHETIC LITTLE FAGGOTS! GET A FUCKING LIFE!
>>709605092
my mind is pretty blank since 2000
so nothing is on my mind.
>>709628273
how many brothers fucked their sisters and daughters their fathers before this thing was born...
>>709628273
This. Most of everyone's "depression" comes from being NEET's barely out of highschool who are miserable because theyre lazy and not used to being on the worlds time and not their parents. Everyone's in charge of their own destiny. You can make life as easy or as hard as you want. You can be held down by your past adversity or you can overcome it.
>>709605092
I thought this girl liked me in my math class. Turns out she doesn't. I should have fucking known but a small part of me wanted to have hope that someone would like me. Fuck I'm pathetic.
>>709626056
>>709628574
And when I say most of everyone's I mean most people in this thread.
i miss her
>>709628948
why did it go upside down, why does the world hate me
>>709628991
>>709628948
She's fucking Chads in Australia right now
>>709629099
ahaha funnily enough, we're in australia. do you reckon she looks like the kinda one to fuck chads?
>>709629285
I'd like to cum on her face, all over these cheeks and these teeth
>>709629638
i remember asking her about it and she told me she'd never even tried to masturbate before
>>709605288
3.8 primary, 3.7 secondary
>>709627037
Damn.
I'm in a happy, loving relationship with the girl of my dreams. She's great and I'm convinced im going to marry this woman.
But I'm afraid of my own mortality, I have several pretty harsh health issues. The last thing I want to do is start a family with this woman, and die at 35/40 and leave her on her own.
>>709631640
Boohoo. You get to be happy and die early. You're blessed.
Another feels song for the feels thread.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Dw2reSBdwPM
If anyone has some advice for what to do about the situation I wrote in this post lemme know.
>>709610290
>>709610290
>>709631996
Don't shit on your own front lawn friend.
>>709607537
If anyone wants lots of feels, watch Skins UK, first 2 seasons. Every season after that is overdone and ech.
Not sure If this Is feels but I've never had a pet before I'm mean yeah I've had a few dogs and cats but my mom would always give them away and make bullshit excuses that were obvious..
Like my dog Rambo He was so fucking amazing I loved the shit out of that dog I bottle fed him and slept with him (I would put his little doggy bed on my bed and we'd fall asleep together) but like I said.. my mom gave him away and I didn't take it too well..
>>709632252
Skins is so fckin sad :/
>>709629285
>>709628991
>>709628948
You just need a rebound, mate. Its like a cloud of nonsensical infatuation being lifted off your head, replaced by mild puppy love. Go visit a bar tomorrow and talk to some babe, you won't regret it.
All these shitty teenagers with their lost """love"""
fuck off. you don't know shit about love. I've got real feels. I feel for the decline of our mother earth, via retarded humans ruining everything they touch. Deluded by their own aritificial numbers game monetary system and throwing their lives away (and killing millions of animals, and ruining acres of land, and fucking up the atmosphere) for a house and a hot tub. Fucking dumbass unappreciative humans piss me the fuck off. They all drive cars and none of them understand how it works. Same with cellphones and computers, and fast food, and shelter. All these fucking useless people fucking up the world for everybody.
does anyone here depend on one friend? His name is matt always been there for me, we play a lot of csgo and talk a lot we actually have a lot in common like the same type of music and shit I guess were both depressed I dont know I'm pretty sure he has a lot of friends no worries but I don't actually have any friends he's really my only REAL friend
I need some feels songs guys.. give me the best ya got..
>>709634157
He probably just sees you as a buddy. And he will leave you.
>>709605217
fuckin douche,this is a mouse .not even a white one . and this thread is not YLYL
>>709634157
simon?
>>709605092
I haven't seen my crow friend in a few days.
I feed him popcorn on my lunch breaks and he almost always comes and chills on the hood of my car.
I fear for him.
In high school, I would always talk to the social reject in the grade above me after school and at lunch times. He had no friends and was basically the cohorts joke, but even though he was insufferable, I talked to him because i was afraid that, if I didnt, when I became like him, no one would talk to me.
Every day I talked to him until he killed himself.
Karma doesnt mean shit.
>>709634387
damn this sounds kinda nice actually I might do this one day, I mean the whole feeding part the dying part sucks ass.
>>709605092
Weed
>>709634387
:((((((((((((
>>709605092
birth is sarrrow ,life is sarrow ,and death is sarrow-buddha
but its we only we human who have capability to turn this sarrrow into happiness .. use that power like a knight to extract happiness from this sea of sarrowness universe is made of.. be the change you want to be this world
>>709634622
It's pretty cool, they don't always bring you things but the company is nice.
My buddy was the only one of his friends who would come anywhere near me, so I gave him food for it.
He'd come sit on my car whenever I was in it.
I don't know if something happened to him, or if he's mad that I give him more love than his friends :c
>>709634674
Jajaja
My grandfather. He died a few days ago, and we found out today that it could've been prevented if he went to the doctor's and complained of pain that he was probably lowkey feeling. He just didn't swallow his pride.
>>709607930
oh my god...
>>709605092
Today its been a year since we lost our Child. After 36weeks of pregnancy, It suddenly died. No cause has been found on the baby's side or on my girlfriends.
>>709610753
thank you so fucking much
>>709635206
It didn't want to feel
I love you guys
>>709605535
I dont get it?
>>709636203
R-really?
Recently single, out of an intense and shitty long term relationship. Overweight and plain. Working hard at the gym and eating well but results are slow. Not a shred of self esteem since last relationship. I used to be able to at least get a one night stand but can't even snag anyone online anymore. Like holy shit - theres usually at least one desperate guy looking to hit a plain ass girl that also reeks of desperation but nope ... I did it to myself, I know. But loneliness feels bad man. Pathetic and bad.
>be me
>meet this girl online
>she's amazing, an awkward ball of adorableness
>4 months later
>at this point me and her friend have started calling/ texting each other every night
>her other friend shipped us so hard
>I shrugged it off
>she disappears for a week
>she comes back
>we get in an arguement
>we break up
>we stay friends
>One day i get a bit depressed (dont remember what for)
>i show it and she just goes on talking about some youtube bullshit
>next day i get pissed
>we get in an argument
>turns out for the past 2 months she didn't love me
>saw me as a annoying sack of shit (not her exact words but might as well have been)
>ohwelllifegoeson.gif
>i start seeing why me and her friend got shipped
>me and her friend start dating only 2 weeks after i broke up with her
>she just got out of a relationship too
>2 days later we break up
>she didn't want our relationship to rebound
>okgoodpoint.jpg
>like 2 weeks later we get back together
>another 3 days and its over
>cont
>>709636666
checked. i know it's sappy and i don't really know you at all anon but it'll be okay. we have 4chan in common, so there's that. i'm waiting on the okay times myself, but i'm sure they'll come. time heals all wounds. godspeed
>>709636814
>she wasn't gonna be able to talk because of school
>ohwelllifegoeson.gif
>be now
>miss her
>she was my cocaine
>all together 5 days
>but some of the best days of my life
>now I'm depressed
>going through depression along with my best friend
>we've both been so close to suicide
>but we can't leave the other alone
>and the twist is
>this all happened online
>>709615071
my girl ened with me two months ago man im distraught ...i think bout ending it all every day she is already in a relationship with someone else and its tearing me apart dont know if its rebound and it will last but its awful...she says she still loves me and hates that she hurt me but cant do "us" anymore ....hurts so badly i wouldn't wish this on anyone
>>709636271
Old man eating by himself with a framed picture of him and his dead wife.
>>709605092
i never felt so alone and empty
i had it all last year
>great looking gf
>promising career
>close friends
>etc
>>709605288
Uhhh I got a 1.4 and 1.3.....
>>709617970
>>709608622
Definitely not bugged
>>709621787
I just went out and bought some. Should I only take half my first time or all? I'm worried about the vascular constriction.
>I've spent the last 600 fridays alone
>>709637140
>gf leaves you for another guy
>job wasn't permanent
>friends won't answer your messages
>etc
>>709637140
i know those feels
