I'm in a bad way.
I can't even bring myself to explain what has happened. It just fucking hurts.
Feels thread.
sup bro.
>>708982494
The best medicine is to talk or be with someone close, even if it's difficult. Or at least try not to be alone, that can make it worse.
Unless there is nobody, in which case you've come to the right place.
OK I'll run through it. Fuck it.
>Newly single.
>On the dating sites.
>Tearing through women - different one every week - little to no feels are felt. Feel great.
>Meet a girl.... She seems different.
>Start only seeing her - delete my accounts and so on. -She comes off the sites to. We are seeing each other exclusively.
>Things are actually going great - wasn't looking for a relationship but we start seeing each other loads. Feels start kicking in.
>We get really close. Talk all the time. I am really starting to fall hard for this girl.
>>708979212
Just accidentally deleted my art collection while using Cleanmaster. About 3gb of drawings and paintings, mostly Renaissance art.
Also all of my Pepe and Wojack images, hundreds of them.
Anyone got any feels music?
I need it, I'll share some.
>>708983467
https://soundcloud.com/prodbykillerbee/iii-fantasy
>>708983601
https://soundcloud.com/paranoia_dude/night-of-lament
>>708983641
https://soundcloud.com/kendallmilesmusic/her_kendall
This one really gets to me...
>>708983717
>>708983641
>>708983601
>>708983467
That's all from me, anyone else got any feels music?
>>708983360
Cont.
>She comes over one Friday after work - we have plans over the Saturday. So looking forward to the time with her.
>We just chill, watch a film. Go to bed - 'make love', as gay as that sounds.
>She falls asleep in my arms, as she normally does.
>In the morning, she tells me her family are camping somewhere and she is going to go see them instead.
>I'm kinda cool with it, her mum has cancer so I get she wants to spend time with her, but I'm a bit mad that we aren't going to hang out.
>Things proceed as normal, we are both busy so don't see each other for the next week, but we talk every day, talk on the phone.
>Slowly, she starts to become a little distant. I'm asking her when she is free, and it's always excuses as to why she can't see me.
>This goes on for a week... Eventually I can't take it any more and ask her outright - what is going on?
>She says she isn't feeling it anymore - doesn't want to see me.
>>708984022
Fucking inhuman. I'm actually mad now. I'm sorry bro.
>>708984022
Shit man, I'm sorry about that... Is there anymore to the story, like why she didn't want to continue?
>>708984022
Cont. 3
>I am normally well equipped for this situation if a girl does this - I just say 'No problem' and cut them off immediately.
>For some reason, maybe it's the time I've been seeing her, I can't do it.
>I start arguing, pleading... 'How can you do this to me, cut me off in a fucking message' 'It doesn't make any sense' 'We can work whatever it is out' and so on.
>She is being super harsh and heartless - almost like it's a joke to her. Says it is getting too serious, she doesn't want a relationship.
>I eventually delete the chat, delete her number, delete snap, Facebook. The cut off begins.
>Later on she messages me - says she is sorry for hurting me and she feels really bad about how she has dealt with things. I'm out drinking so I tell her we will chat tomorrow.
>Anyway, I send her a message saying we can work it out, iand so on.
>She sends one back saying she just wants to be single, we can still chat but keep it casual.
>I'm cool with that.
>A few days later, I convince her to come over finally.
>She acts like a total bitch, saying she feels awkward, she can't see herself with me and she is friendzoning me.
>I tell her I'm not interested and we won't speak anymore.
She leaves.... 'See ya'. WTF
>>708984264
Oh... There is more
>>708984872
Bitches, my friend.
>>708984872
i guarantee if you woulda treated her like shit and said something like "ok, peace" she woulda came back. fuck these type of girls man, all they do is play with you.
>>708984872
Cont. 4
>Sunday. 2AM.
>We haven't spoken for nearly a week.
She calls me. She has been out drinking, but seems pretty coherent.
>Tells me she misses me - We chat and agree to talk the next day, but it looks like things are back on.
>It still seems really difficult to see her - we see each other for like 20 minutes here and there, but she doesn't want to kiss or do anything intimate Keeps saying it's too soon.
>I accept it - think things will work out.
>It isn't like before, but I put my concerns to the back of my mind and just try to be patient.
>We talk pretty much every day, all day.
>One night she tells me she is horny - we sext and I help to get her off.. She tells me she wishes she was with me so I could do all the things I was saying.
>I think this means things are slowly moving back to how they were.
>Fast forward to Friday night/Saturday morning.
>She is going out - don't here from her from most of the evening, which is pretty standard if she is going out.
>Get a message at 3AM.
>She just says the name of a local bar - she is a bit drunk - the messages don't make sense but it seems like she wants me to meet her. I ask her, and she tells me to come meet her at the bar.
>I turn up, she is pretty drunk. She says she can't remember inviting me and tells me to go home.
>Her friends convince me to stay.
>I see her swapping numbers with some guy - I ask her what the fuck is going on, we need to talk.
>She says no and pushes me away.
>I get a drink - I lose her.
>Eventually, I find her.
>>708983467
https://soundcloud.com/raybaboon
all of this guys songs
>>708986033
I'm in fucking tears as I write this.
Cont. 5
>She is grinding with some random guy on the dance floor, making out with him.
>I rush over - try and pull them apart. I tell myself she is so drunk she doesn't know what she is doing.
>He holds on to her - I try to say she is drunk, get off her.
>She pushes me away, starts kissing him right in front of me.
>I tell her we are fucking done, I walk out the bar.
>I don't know why, but I couldn't leave. I go back in.
>She is grinding against someone else now.
>Starts kissing him.
> she goes round the dance floor and grinds and makes out with about 4 or 5 different men.
>I keep trying to stop it from happening. She keeps pushing me away.
>I give up, and just stand at the edge of the dance floor unable to look away as a girl I care so much about grinds and makes out with 5 different guys in a row.
>she starts trying to come on to her friend, who has a girlfriend. I take some sort of comfort that at least nothing will happen there.
>We all leave. I don't know what to do.
>I hug her - she hugs me back. She is so fucking drunk.
>I tell her 'You have no idea how much I care about you', holding back tears.
>Her friends ask her if she wants me to take her home.
>'No'.
>I just leave - I can't take it any more.
>>708986424
thanks anon
>>708982494
Melancholy
>>708986740
Fuck dude, that's some harsh shit. I'm sorry
>>708986740
I messaged her a bunch saying she has broken my heart. I don't get it. I'm so confused. We need to talk.
I didn't hear from her at all yesterday.
I know that I can't continue to see her. It's over. It has to be.
But what has happened has truly broken me. I feel terrible. I don't know what to do.
>>708987038
I guess I just want someone to help me make some sense of why this happened.
>>708986740
Why would you stick with that? Basic bitch right there
Does anyone have the rest? benn looking for a while now
>>708987117
How old are you?
>>708987206
bump
>>708987213
30. She is 21.
I probably just need too man the fuck up. I get that.
I've been properly cheated on before - been through much worse.
But idk seeing it like that - it's just ruined me.
>>708987117
Try to talk to her one more time, she was drunk you said. Maybe it can be fixed.
My Girlfriend "broke up" with me a last week. She never actually said we were broken up... She just got weird for some reason. I tried talking to her, I'd catch her walking on campus
>babe, we need to talk.
>There's nothing to talk about
>Wtf.jpg
>There is, I need to know what's going on with you baby
>Stop calling me baby
I look at her with tears welling up
>A breakup is a breakup
Tears roll down my face
>But I love you
>It's all in your head Anon
>Stops walking, calls her name, she never looks back.
>Leans against a pillar crying softly. >Friend walks up
>What's wrong Anon?
>She's gone
>Friend hugs me
>I start bawling like a baby.
I lost the one thing that made me happiest. I still think about her everyday. Cont?
>>708987431
She's young, you're at the age where you're trying to find a real relationship. These girls aren't smart enough to get this shit yet. I'd give yourself some time
>>708987552
Thanks bro. I love the positivity.
I'm going to wait to see if she messages me - what she says. It will take a lot now for things to be fixed. A miracle in fact.
She may of been drunk, but her behavior was so fucking unacceptable. As sad as it makes me feel, I need to just move on and find someone that won't do that shit.
>>708988022
Bro, unfortunately, as I have been reminded so brutally, women can be fucking brutal heartless bitches.
>>708988042
k good luck man, hope u end up happier
I wish I had someone to hold me and tell me everything is going to be okay
wow im in the wrong thread, i got like halfway through it before i realized this wasnt a YLYL thread
like none of this stuff was funny i just thought this thread fuckin sucked
>>708988022
Cont.
>Stay there crying my eyes out for a good hour
>Friend stays as support
>Talk about her relationship a little
>Cry more, and hug her
>Time to take other two friends home
>Doesn't speak to either of them
>Drops first friend off
>Drop second friend off
>Cue the tears as they walk into their house
>Drive home bawling
The weekend drifts by, don't see her at all
>Sees her in the morning
>Gives me a look
>She turns away in disgust
>"What's wrong?"
>Ignores me
>She walks off, starts talking to some guy
>See them hug intamately
>Decides to go about my day a little jaded
>Gets a text
>"Your friends are talking shit"
>"I'm sorry, blah blah blah, If I could make them stop I would"
>"You can Anon"
>Instant anger
>Don't text back
>Don't talk to her
>Later that day
>I see her and a dude walking up the stairs
>She's wearing is jacket
>Pissed.jpg
>She never wore mine
>Calmly say hi to her guy friend (also my "friend")
>Obviously they're boyfriend and girlfriend
>She couldn't even wait a week
I still love her, I still cry over her
>>708983467
DO I
>>708988022
rough man
ill keep listening if you wanna keep posting
>>708989693
what a cunt, if it makes you feel any better im missing her too anon
we'll make it, times supposed to heal all wounds
>>708982494
aight, I got nothing else to do.
Is it just me? Or does it seem like everything is pretend sometimes? Like everything is set up just so you can fail? The only times I really feel happy are when I lay awake at night in the dark and imagine what it must feel like being dead.
man i dont even know if this is the right place to be complaining about this shit you guys all seem to have it way worse than me...
ive always been a crybaby I guess
maybe thats why everyone i ever loved left me
>be me
>enlist in the army
>tell best friend of 3 years im leaving in may, she completely cuts contact
>try my hardest to at least get a response from her
>404 response not found
>iscolate myself, drink and resort to chatrooms and facebook groups for interaction with people
>meet a girl named misty, pic related
>we hit it off super fucking hard, she likes all the same music i do, i make her laugh all the time and she does the same for me too
>we talk for about a month before we decide to make something long distance work
>we skype every night before i leave for basic
>plan to have her come to my graduation
>get there, immediately begin writing letters to her, drill sergeants think im a faggot
>request to be stationed in cali where she lives
>get the shit smoked out of me every time i send a letter out
>pray for incoming letters and after 3 weeks they start coming, rarely but they come
>she writes me the perfect love letter, saying "I know things are hard right now, but one day you and I will be together. We'll make this work."
>read it every night before i go to sleep and every morning when i wake up. that shit saved my life.
>week 7 the letters stop coming
>week 8
>week 9
>week 10
>we get our phones back, immediately call her to find out whats been going on
>straight to voicemail
>go to ait, no phone for 2 weeks
>write her a flurry of letters hoping she's okay
>a letter comes
>her father
>"I'm devastated to tell you she overdosed on heroin on august 6th, the funeral was beautiful. i wish you could have been there to see it. she talked about you all the time."
>didn't even know she had a drug problem
>get to my duty station in california 3 days ago
>nothing to do
>fuck my life
>>708990838
Very true.
I love the support here guys, thank you.
I still see them together everywhere on campus. I can see how awkward she gets the second she sees me. She can barely look at me and she hides behind him like I'm going to do something bad. I still shake that bastards hand too, I hate seeing them together. But I still want to be her friend, I don't know why...
>>708991383
holy shit
fuck anon
dude you alright? i cant even imagine what that must be like.
>>708991383
oh you got me, asshole
>>708991383
Everybody dies anon. But know this, you made her happy the last days she was alive.
>>708991383
Jesus christ anon!
If you need someone to talk to outside of /b/, let me know.
>>708990135
Alex V?
It's weird. I've been pretty depressed for a large portion of my life and I never seem to know why. Sure there's been some shit that's happened to me and has dragged me down a lot but I usually move on, however the sadness is still there. It just feels... Empty I guess. I feel like I'm missing something and it keeps me up at restless at night. Does anyone else feel similar?
Here /b/
>Meet girl
>Be Junior in highschool
>Start getting to know her and realize she's everything ive ever wanted, right infront of me.
>We argue in those "you're amazing" fights, cuddling and pecking each other on the lips as we hope that time will never end.
>She's innocent, become first on everything
>Never have sex, but sleep together a few times
>She wants to wait a bit longer before sex
>Promise to save ourselves for each-other
>Something fucks up
>She has controlling friend
>Breaks us up
>"This is alright, it's just life"
>"This sucks.."
>"Ill be good soon, just leave me alone for a bit"
>"Please.. Come back"
>Be trying to get her back every day since breakup
>"MAYBE IF YOU WOULD CHANGE"
>welpfuckit.png
>Try not to think of her, but never can get my mind from it
>Friends start to worry about me
>Go from being that one always happy friend to the person that friends worry about me being dead the next morning
>Stop leaving house, sulk around in the dark all day
>4 months later
>Start hanging with stoner friend
>Never smoked in my life
>He's the only person who gets me to leave the house
>Passes me some pills in a bag
>"Here bro, will make you happy.. I promise ya"
>Put them in pocket and thank him, but not bother with them
>Look up pills, got Xanax and oxycottin in high dosages.
>"I don't need this shit"
>Things start to get worse
>Stoner friend starts getting after her right after saying how fucked up doing something of that sort is
>See her push him off constantly so not worry
>5 months later:
>She's still single
>Thisisit.png
>Build up courage and a long note
>Walk over to her and hug her tightly, she nearly cries on my shoulder
>Tell her everything (barley remember it, apologies, but usual sappy sad letter shit about how much she means to me)
>"I-I can't.."
Cont?
>>708993296
Please
>>708993296
yeah keep going pls
>>708993296
Yes plz
>>708993296
Yeah why not.
>>708993296
please continue
>>708993296
Continue
my feels post
>20 yrs old dude
> Depression problems since i'd broke up with mi ex 3 years ago
>getting drunk with my ''superior friends'' to feel better with myself
>today was a birthday of one of my friends
>im totally useless and everyone has a speciallity in something
>we went out with some friends and some girls that we know
>totally in love with short red hair
>got totally drunk to have some forces to have a chat and seduce her
>get totally cringe and dance behind her but without talking
>try to chat to her but she ingored me
>ask to her to dance
>she didn't listen to me
>ask her again
>she looked me with cringe face
>me,totally triggered and desesperated
>gtfo to don't feel like a shit
>now i wanna try to kill myself to don't have the eggs or the necesary speech to conquer a woman or simply have a friend
please give me advices to kill myself or try to get a better life without depending with this shit
>>708987117
Don't deal with crazy. Life is too short. There is ALWAYS better out there. You just have to decide WHO you want to be loyal to in a way that even if there is better, you'd still stick with your partner.
help
>>708994407
Waddya need help with, brother?
>>708994259
big fucken deal, pussy fag, this is normal teen shit, ffs Barely NOT Barley. dumb cunt.
>>708993296
>>708994259
Ill cont in another thread soon, have work early.. Gotta sleep, take care my fellow /b/ros.. Hang in there..
>>708994858
anon did you delete the second one?
>>708994501
The girl I like has these mood swings. She shows affection one day, mistreats me in the next.
I haven't slept for two nights now and my saturday was shit
It's been a year and I still think about her every day. Sometimes I wonder if this feeling will ever go away. Sometimes I wonder if I'll ever feel that way again.
>>708991087
>Like everything is set up just so you can fail
>society
>>708982494
Well. Whatever you do, dont buy the cheap, easily available components for an exitbag.
If you do buy them, dont build it.
If you do build one, dont use it.
Dont consider the quick, easy solution to your heart-hurt. And certainly dont drink alcohol before you make any of the above decisions.
>>708994991
This
The more you contemplate the decision, the more you'll either want to do it, or the more you'll realize you don't want to / shouldn't do it
Gonna bump with some pics
Feeling pretty down
>>708995979
>>708996108
>>708996171
>>708996259
>>708996316
>>708996382
>>708996419
>>708996455
>>708996108
Fine, easy.
>>708996171
No, it isnt. Existence is great!
>>708996316
Duly noted.
>>708996353
Frankly, would you want to speak with someone that needy?
>>708996382
I can!
>>708996419
I dont get that one.
>>708996455
I'm not.
>>708996520
>>708991383
Hahahaha, goddammit you suck
>>708996556
Haha, you saved a thumbnail.
>>708996532
well aren't you the bees knees. glad someone is happy
>>708996532
I see what you're trying to do, but taking a logical approach to solving these ideas, questions, and problems just ain't going to work. We don't want to heal, we want to be sad.
>>708986740
Holy fuck is that it? I thought I had it bad. I would have definitely caught a case if I saw my ex, who I still had feelings for, start making out with mad dudes in front of me like that.
You have to move on man. Any ounce of respect this girl had for you is non existent. She told you to go to the bar, embarrassed you in front of her friends, went out of her way to hurt you, then refuses to go home with you at the end. There is no turning back from that.
>>708987038
Sometimes people lash out when they get hurt. Reading back your story again its not clear what exactly happened to make her want to do that to you. Maybe she's just a horrible person. All I know is you have to move on. Fuck I hope this is bait, its one of the worse stories I've ever heard.
>>708996729
I'm just amusing myself.
You feel free to carry on. Be depressed :-)
>>708996896
Okay there's no need to be condescending now
>>708994256
you'll make it dude
theres someone wonderful waiting for you, that bitch sounds stuck up
man why the fuck do girls just throw all these nice things in for two seconds and do retarded shit immediately after once things get nice? like fuck, it doesn't make sense to me. what the fuck. this same shit happened to me and crushed me like a motherfucker. I didn't do anything to deserve it but women just want to do that without a reason? BECAUSE THEY CAN??? fuck this. I'll fucking smack a bitch if she tries to pull these games on me. I won't be anybody's fool.
>>708996978
Well, you have to admit the whole "we want to be sad, we dont want to heal"-bit deserves a bit of ridicule.
There comes a point when you just can't tolerate people walking all over you. She did something to deliberately hurt you? Cool. Never fucking speak to her ever again. I don't care how she makes you feel. If she can't even pass the test of being a decent person why would you want to attempt to have some sort of long term relationship with her. That's asking to be treated exactly how she treated you just for a really long time. Yeah that sounds great. Must be love.
>>708996764
I can give a bit more background that explains I think.
She was with a guy that was long distance, she was going to move to be with him. They were together for 2 years.
She arranged a job down there and everything.
One day he turned around and said 'I don't want this commitment' and so on. Broke it off.
They were going to try and sort it out - she was going to head down and see him. But he text in her in the morning and said 'I bought another girl back with me last night, so don't bother coming down'.
This happened April this year.
Make of that what you will.
I really wish this was bait, but it's all true.
>>708997614
Man, love will make you do some crazy shit. The craziest thing is that your logic makes complete sense, and the people this kind of thing happens to know that they should give her/him up. But I think they're afraid to be alone, afraid that that's the only shot at love they'll ever get. So they tell themselves it's worth the pain because the alternative is loneliness
>>708993175
Me too anon. The ride never ends
>>708997744
So basically you were the rebound?
In that case you should've known it wouldn't have worked out. No offense I don't want to be a dick because it doesn't justify what she did, but you're 30 its not your first rodeo.
When exactly were they gonna work it out? While you two were dating? Or did all this happen before you two met? If its the former it sounds like she dumped you to try to work it out with this other guy. Regardless she may have cheated on you that weekend she cut your plans short. I had a feeling another guy was involved girls never just break up with you for no reason. They have to be lying backstabbing cunts about it first.
I'm so confused right now
I can't sleep
punching myself didn't help
drinking didn't help
not eating didn't help
eating didnt help
playing didn't help
what would help will never happen
Everytime something happens, I get more self-destructive
I wish bad things didn't happen
If you're traveling the north country fair
Where the winds hit heavy on the borderline
Remember me to one who lives there
For she once was a true love of mine.
If you go when the snowflakes storm
When the rivers freeze and summer ends
Please see if she has a coat so warm
To keep her from the howlin' winds.
Please see if her hair hangs long
If it rolls and flows all down her breast
Please see for me if her hair's hanging long
For that's the way I remember her best.
I'm a-wonderin' if she remembers me at all
Many times I've often prayed
In the darkness of my night
In the brightness of my day.
So if you're travelin' the north country fair
Where the winds hit heavy on the borderline
Remember me to one who lives there
She once was the true love of mine.
>>708998513
No this was months ago at the start of the year.
I was involved way after they were together.
I just think that maybe she felt herself getting into a situation where a relationship could develop and thought 'I'm not down with this' and has just negated any feelings she may have had towards me in order to protect herself from, in her mind, getting hurt again.
Either way it has to be over, nothing excuses her behavior. As much as I don't want it to be.
I just want to rewind to a few months ago, with her falling asleep in my arms as I stroke her hair and kiss her forehead on a quiet Saturday afternoon.
>>708983467
Niji Naruto Ending
English Translation:
No matter how much time passes, I can't reach it
How many times more do I have to repeat these days?
Even if I do reach it, it doesn't end there
for even if I grasp it, the mirage slips and fades away
I get it, it's no good like this
Where did my self that ocassionally acted as my "ideal self" go?
I get it, if it's like this it'll end
Below a downpour, I'm circling the same spot
Since when have I been like this?
I've turned against that special existence like a "rainbow"
Even if I peek through the mirror, I can't see myself
The moment I noticed that, once again I fell into solitude
The one who pierced me was my past self who told himself lies
The things I dislike about myself have increased again
I get it, this words are my own
It's just that I've been soaking in the remains of the dead
I get it, no one but I
will cross the sky full of rainbows
What I'm chasing is a future crafted by myself
I've blame it on someone else again
I get it, it's no good like this
Is it fine to believe in my "future self" that I discovered with these eyes?
I know it, I have to go
to the other side of the rainbow, where another future awaits me
>>708982494
I hear ya dude. I'm in the same place myself right now. :(
>>708998028
I only say what I said because love has made me do some crazy shit too. I finally ignored my feelings and listened to my head instead and I've been a lot happier in life. It was probably the hardest thing I've ever done I am not going to lie... but it was worth it. Time fades the memories and you meet new people. I know that sounds stupid but it's true. People don't change. The girl that I loved is currently putting the second guy since me through the exact same thing. Whatever feelings you thought you had will fade when you take a step back and watch this person treat everyone around them like trash.
>>709000110
But what do you do when she never did anything wrong like that? When she was just about as perfect a woman a guy could ask for? I really wish I could hate her, but I can't, she doesn't deserve it
>>708999252
Man who knows. God knows I'm no expert but shes still a horrible person for doing that to you. Its one thing to lash out at someone out of angry or hurt feelings, its a whole different ballgame to do it intentionally and with purpose. She planned that whole thing out. She can deny it and say she was drunk, even so she got you to go there with the intent to hurt you in some way. It is definitely over. You have to be strong enough to end it. Even if she comes back you have to remind yourself what she did. If someone loves you, why would they put you in a situation like that? I hope you come out stronger from this. This is a pretty bad experience, along with the other anon who's gf ODs on smack. Good luck to the both of you
>>708996648
this. this is my life right now. 40 years old and my gf and kid (she's just turned 9 months old) walked out on me two months ago now. I don't think I can go the rest of my life not with my little girl's mom in my life. I feel for all of you younger guys going through shit right now cause most of the time NO ONE BUT YOU knows what you're going through. if ANY of you want to chat, need someone to talk to, or want to offer an ear to me, please, do not hesitate. we need to support one another cause this shit is the hardest thing I've ever faced.
Kik nsbrick88
peace
Yeah well whatever man I'm Fuckin stupid and even though I try and date other girls and work hard and just got a promotion I still can't get one girl off my mind. It's all the fuckin time all the time!
I know it's petty it's stupid and I can't bring myself to detach from it. Worse than a cocaine addiction
>>708986740
You avoided a relationship with a cunt. It hurts because you thought you had something, and she probably did too, but only one of you wanted it. But the truth is, being with her would have ended up hurting you more, if she wasn't emotionally or mentally prepared for a serious relationship she would have probably cheated on you anyway. She wanted somebody to want her, and that was it. All I can suggest is be more careful. There are ways to tell if somebody wants something real, and from my experience those are the most mothering girls.
In this case, if you don't ignore her from here on out, you're seeking misery and nothing else. That is all that will follow. Even if she gets with you again, you've already been disrespected by her, and that will stick. You'll either treat her like shit out of frustration, or be treated like shit because you're desperate for her. Just drop it and move on, it's a minor hiccup in what will hopefully be a long life of experiences, both good and bad.
Anyone ever think about suicide like just for practicality? Not like in the "oh my life sucks" way.
I mean because once we're dead that's it. No more feeling. We won't care that we're dead. And when looking at the world from an astronomical perspective, you begin to see how little we are, how little we matter. And we're going to die eventually.
So why deal with all this? Why not just end it? It's where we're headed anyway
>>709001474
This.
I just miss her
>>709001786
me too man. anyone can Kik me if they wanna chat. bro to bro. nsbrick88 :'(
This whole thread including me should hang themselves with belts. Bunch of faggots man I swear to God.
>>709001651
You and I might have to come back over and over because with every death, there's always a new life. We might be forced into another life, just as we were forced into this one. So just make the best of this life, bro. You can end it, but there's no guarantee that you'll be staying forever locked away in oblivion.
>>709001474
Yeah although it hurts now, it would have hurt a lot more if we were together and down the line she cheated on me.
It's hard thinking of ignoring her, but you are so right. She hasn't messaged me since, I have to be strong and not make contact with her. Ignore anything she sends me.
>>709001926
That's true. I don't know, the conclusion I always come to is that if I'm already going to get there anyway and be there forever, why end this short hiccup of life so quickly? Why not stay awhile?
>>709001925
>belt
It's fucking painful man. Just use some rope/scarf and sleeping pills
>>709000352
I mean. You could do what I did and get a pet. I don't know how good of advice that really is but it worked out well for me.
>>709002205
That sounds so nice
I'm waiting for my parents to die
Then I'll off myself
>>709002205
All you fags deserve the belt.
Only women use pills, but it doesn't surprise me that you'd want to opt for the more faggotish option.
>>709002238
Kek
You were just a little sad if a pet saved you from suicide.
I just found out that she now has a new boyfriend. I thought she would be a slut. Full blown relationship though? Fucking blindsided. It works its way back into my thoughts every 20 minutes. I'm laying next to an incredibly sexy girl which I just fucked but still feel like shit. I'm assuming tomorrow will be worse. Fuck bros I can't shake this.
>>709002392
Yep you can't shake this. It's a new shadow.
>>709002392
I'd rather my ex be in a relationship than filling her cunt with a bunch of rando seed
>>708991383
mother of god
>>709002392
Kill, yourself, you stupid faggot cuck.
Hang, yourself, do it with a belt.
Die now, you stupid faggot
you stupid faggot
you should just die now
I was going to do a musical thing but I'm done. You're disgusting.
>>709002566
You sound like you're fat and have shitty facial hair
>>709002238
Lol man you don't have to talk me down, I'm quite happy living, I'm not thinking of committing suicide. My question was and is purely philosophical; just pondering the questions that people generally take for granted
>>709002618
You sound like you're fatter with even shittier facial hair and also you're a cuck.
>>709002566
I'm not disgusting. Dubs don't lie though. Also go fuck yourself I'm no cuck that's all I gotta say
>>709002696
I'm lean and I have decent facial hair, but I am suicidal:
>>708983467
https://youtu.be/5rvCQC12rA4
I don't come here often, not anymore, and I don't have a specific story to justify why I'm miserable, but a rambling blog post is going to follow this, it might be long or short, I don't really know, I haven't thought about anything specific to say, I just need to put things in to words to share how I feel and see if somebody understands.
To start off, I have a pretty good life. Not great, but I have a caring, albeit difficult, family. A girlfriend that has honestly been the only thing keeping me around. I live for her at this point, which is probably unhealthy but making her happy has made me happy. I dropped out of college, and avoided serious work because I didn't want a future. My Dad has symptoms of alzheimer's appearing, he's been making an effort to speak with me recently, something we never did much. My mother seems bipolar, but refuses treatment. It makes every day difficult, she was an alcoholic when I was younger, and I can't respect her but don't want to hurt her by telling her that, so I can be just as difficult. I did start work recently just so I could give my gf something. I want to take her to Tokyo and propose, we've been together 7 years. I'm not unhappy, I just don't think I'm living for myself, and when I think about what that is, I realise there's nothing I want if not to give the girl I love the future she deserves for what she has done for me. In all honesty, I don't want to be here, but I can't leave her behind. Without me, she only has her mum that favours her sister.
It's surprisingly hard to try and do things for a future you can't see yourself in, and to hear the person you love talk about the family she wants with me, to see just the idea of that making her happy, but feeling more and more distant because you can't feel that. I feel like I have so much, and I'm undeserving because maybe I'm not appreciating it enough. I'm just following the same beat as everybody else, but get less from it than they do.
>>709002792
Shave it and become a trap, I'll let you sleep on my floor.
>belgium
>middle school
>end of school, begin summer holiday
>get rapped by a pedophil
>actualy in jail
>i'm 20 years now
>>708991383
hisssss what are you doing to meeee hissssssssss
>>709002549
just the concept dude she's going to not talk to me because someone else when we did a lot together, shared a lot. That's life.
>>708982494
>>708982494
i dont fucking care
>>709002337
I mean that's not the entire story. But having a dog that depends on you and loves you unconditionally will give you a better reason to not kill yourself. Every time I get close now I just think what would he do without me? Where would he go? Would he have to be put down? Didn't cure my depression but gave me more of a reason to exist I guess. However much of a faggot that makes me.
>>709003093
Well then go away
https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=LpMuK2H76_U Song is relevant for anyone like me who just lost his girl.
>>709002392
Haha don't worry bro, you won't even notice that it hurts anymore....like right now ahaha
>>709002566
don't be a prick dude. you wanna be a fuckin twat start your own thread -- "this thread is for stupid faggots who just wanna rundown other human beings that are going through some tough times right now"
tldr; kill your own self man.
>>708982494
Why not just hold on, and drop the whole world out to a trash can concentrating on something neutral you like to do? At least for a while. Then you can return as a fresh man.
Escapism helped me several times: to quit drinking, to avoid drug addiction, to bring the fuck out criminal scum friends company. In the return it results in lazyness and permanent depression I can survive. Try it, there are no problems, that can't be solved using endless lingering.
I'll kinda keep this short and greentext cause I can't focus now but the gist is:
>met her on tumblr
>i was 21 she was 19
>i was living in denmark at the time
>she's in germany
>talk more and more through tumblr messages
>move on to kik
>talk every single day, conversations getting deeper, staying up all night talking
>she's going through a rough depression
>her ex is still hanging out with her, being a rapist dickhead
>work her through that
>started talking beginning of 2014, ending of the year i moved to france
>all through the year she sent me little packages with chocolate and mix cds
>she became my best friend and i hers
>somewhere around november she tells me about a date she had with some random twat, and she went to her place but halfway through she changed her mind and stuff
>she told me she always had intimacy issues
>i felt insanely jealous but couldn't understand why
>beginning of 2015 she asks if we should meet, i was completely clueless as to why she'd want to meet
>we met up in march, in london, spent the most fucking amazing week ever
>in the evening we watched a movie, then cuddled as in icea-breaker, went from that to fingering and handjobs in 2 hours
>she was the first girl i ever fingered, went down on, got a blowie from, etc
>she told me that was the first time she didn't go cold during or after
>long distance relationship
>by mid october the sexting dies down, but it's fine, i know she had issues with sexual stuff when i wasn't there
>works out until january this year
>have huge fight february, don't talk for a week
>she tells me that she would be really happy if i visited her
>i do, in march, celebrate one year
>have a lovely last day together, waking up next to her, having some awesome sex, a king like breakfast, watched a movie, went into town, went to the zoo, took film photos of her, go home, take a bath together
>one week later, on the 1st of goddamn april, she tells me she wants out
>she basically becomes a lesbo tumbrlina leftie cunt
>>709003665
you're a beta bitch and that's why you are one off from trips
Nothing will be like it used to be
>>709002839
Least you got your girl man, it is super unhealthy to be doing what you are doing cause if she leaves you are gonna be devastated. I just got out of relationship where my happiness was pretty much fully invested in her and it was such a bad idea man, such a bad idea..
>>709003665
April fool
continued from >>709003665
God damn it, I mean, she was such a lovely girl, perfect mix of shy and lewd, submissive and equal, and she was such a sweet little soul, full of kindness and love and understanding, and she loved me and my shitty fucking jokes and my shit body and she was lovely and we made lovely plans about living together in a small apartment but that's all fucking dust now.
I know I didn't act perfect, I had times when I was too jealous, and negative, and not as patient and understanding as I could, and for no reason. I know she would have never cheated on me. That's why I loved her so much, I knew she wasn't the kind. And it was never the case.
At the second visit, when I went to her home, in April, I told her for the first time that I loved her, after I gave her a short story on stardust and how we are all stars and all that gay shit, when we were stargazing in her garden. She cried for 15 minutes and wouldn't let go of the hug after I told her
One of the first things we chatted about was one my hoodies, at she told me the turning point for her, from simple chatting to crushing on me, was when she had a shitty cold day and I told her I'll one day give her my hoodie (lol i just tried to get nudes at that point ). And the first time we met up, I gave her my hoodie. And she always pranced around in it when we were in our room. Nowadays, keep thinking "what is she threw it away ? and all the postcards and letters and all the shit we sent eachother"
I mean, I fucking resent the present day her and I wouldn't stick my dick in her, but if she went back to how she was...I would.
I'll probably never live something like that week in London.
We stopped talking since July.
I really miss her. I miss my love, and my best friend.
I thought a lot about it but I went out and got a tattoo, a soundwave of a voice message she sent me once, in the good days. Just a simple "good night *nickname*, I love you"
I miss my love and my best friend, /b/.
>implying
>>709004331
jesus christ you're a fag
>>708997363
For some people, letting themselves feel sad is a big step toward letting things go.
I can also vouch first hand, feeling sad is a step up from feeling nothing. Which is what happens when you bury your sadness long enough. Especially while pretending to be "happy"
Am i the only one who comes in these threads hoping for some good old feels and gets dissapointed with all these failed relationships bullshit?
Like really, don't you grow up after the puberty and realize that there are other things to worry about in life rather than a failed relationship? The 3/4-years ones are kinda a different story but you getting too clingy just after a few months is just fucking... ehhh.
I have this special talent where I can make any girl sick. I just need to talk her into a date, and when the day comes, she's sick. Always. It must be my special talent.
>>709003974
>>709004981
im sorry if i hurt your feelings but you are getting such hung up over one girl
theres literally billions of them, none of them are unique or special
>>709005155
Yeah, I don't fully understand how people get so invested in short term relationships. I think that desperation for a connection is sad in itself, and that leads to this stuff.
>>708987038
Sorry for being a dick. But you met her on a dating site. Did you really thought it would last? She was probably the female version of you, fucking guya and moving on. Its timw for you to do the same. Move on
>>708991989
A dog that loves a good time and some fine jap beer. Lucky you.
I remember first wanting to die around third grade. I've always been depressed. Tried/wanted to kill myself since third grade. Went through the stages of dealing with grief. Landed on depression fairly early on. Been here ever since. I'm 21. No prospects. Living with family. I'm sedentary, staying in m room all the time, I neglect hygiene because I'm by myself. Twice a week appointments at the therapist and Friday dinner at my Uncle's are the only things I ever really do. I stay in my room all day, using media to distract myself from reality, because if I let my mind alone for too long, the depression sets in. I don't try. I'm not even sure I want to be better. I just want this shit to change one way or another. I know I'm the only one preventing myself from changing, but clearly the part of me that doesn't want to is stronger. Feels like I've been in Limbo for years now. I just wish something would give me enough of a reason to change one way or the other.
>>709006084
Life is not a fairy tale and nothing will change by itself, set yourself some goal to pursue (something like a hobby that can actually feed you) and everything else will just sort out with time.
>>709006517
I know it isn't. I'll fully admit it's whimsical thinking at best. I know exactly what I'd do. I know how I'd change for the better. I know that all I have to do is write a new pattern/habit into my brain and keep at it til that's the default. I just apparently don't want to enough to overcome all of the reasons I don't try anything anymore.
>>709006735
Im the same way, ive done things lot of things ... even some stuff too but i always fall back into this depressive state where i do nothing
>>709007335
I haven't done anything with my life. I had to test out at 16 because I couldn't get myself to do my homework and that alone tanked my grades. Tried to go to 3 classes at a local CC, and it didn't take for the same reason. Didn't even last a month. I've been stagnant since that. I moved with family, but it's just a different room. My few friends all had lives that had gone on without me. Rarely saw each other and I had to text them first if I'd even have a chance of response. So I'm either going to have an epiphany or die like this, at this point.
>>709006735
yes. you are right. you have the power to change anon. I believe in you.
>>709006084
anon. find this book. you CAN change your life.
>>709009000
my trips have spoken. everyone in this thread that's still here. get this book. I'm just getting started but I'm sure it will give me the power to make my life better.
>>708996259
@understands
>>709009054
Only works if I want to change more than I don't want to, anon. Appreciated the thought, though.
>>709009223
do you want to change?
>>709009262
Apparently not enough.
>>708982494
Even when i have someone, i have no one
>>709009303
I hear you man. I'm right beside you. I have to. you have to. we can do it. how old are you? I'm 40 anon, and believe me.. it won't get better until you decide a change has to be made.
>>709002839
>meditate
>find out what you want, what you truly want
>do it
>>709009425
do you meditate anon? I've been thinking about this.. and actually reached out to a former coworker/friend that I know does this.. we were supposed to get together so he could teach me.. that was almost a month ago.. no contact since :(
>>709009407
I don't HAVE to. That might be part of the problem. I have food, shelter, and a means to placate my brain. I can afford to stay like this. I'm pretty well off, all things considered.
>>709009572
That's for now, your parents aren't going to support you for the whole life tho. And don't get the wrong idea, i myself am never looking too far in the future (i never plan anything for more than 6 months ahead since who knows, i might die any time), but it's all about being independent and being able to survive on your own.
>>709009572
well I didn't mean like that. but wouldn't your life be better?
>>709009512
yeah, not as often as i probably should though.
i'm not sure if it's something you can teach since it's so personal. The biggest tip i got was to focus on your breathing and the idea of letting things go.
There are a few good apps out there that could probably help - eg. Smiling Mind
>>709009819
yeah, I meant more like offer guidance like you just did. I thank you for that. I will look into this tomorrow.. I mean today after I've slept. ha. what does it do for you?
>>709009819
andddd I just downloaded it. now I won't forget to look it up later today. :)
>>709009787
I know. I'm not expecting them to.
I literally won't eat unless there's food in the house that's easy and appealing to me. My definition of easy varies based on mood. Sometimes I can't even be fucked to nuke something for a minute.
I clearly don't care enough to do things just to survive.
>>709009796
Sure. There are plenty of things I don't do that would make me feel better. Welcome to the world of depression.
>>708997363
You're in the wrong thread anon.
>>708988042
Don't, man. Just don't. You have been dumped. She wasn't for you. Stop clinging. It's hard to move on, but it's a lot easier than to stand another attitude from her, trust me.
Consider this. Whatever happened, happened. You still have the memories. Time to move on and find more girls.
>>708983467
Drake mate
>>709010411
dude. I'm in the same boat. trust me, I know what it's like.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=u9Dg-g7t2l4
check'em
Sometimes I want to give it all up. But then again, what's life if you give up ? Probably I'm sadistic and I like to suffer... But I consider that pain only makes you stronger, once you get over it.
I don't know about you guys. For me, some days are bright, some are dark. It's like a cycle. Probably this is what it's like to be in hell. Life is weird, is funny, sad, everything.
