Feels Thread
What's on your mind this Friday night, Anon?
>>708849524
Just turned 40, still look 24, still act 17, still feel 13.
Very weird.
>>708849848
Well the good thing is you look young still :)
No Anons with me tonight
>>708850290
You're wrong brother, when I find a feels thread I stick around until 404.
>>708850290
What ails you tonight, anon?
gf is an alcohol. sick of it. she's getting dumped this weekend. too bad, had potential
>>708849524
just want, her to realize im everything she wants and needs
My ex married and I'm a fucking retard for breaking up with her.
>>708850400
The more I read this the more depressing it gets.
>>708849949
Need someone to spot these feels.
>>708851455
Oh just depression and loneliness.
Atleast I have the internet
>>708851726
That sucks Anon but it's best for you to not have a person like that in your life
>>708853059
Tell me more about it, since when did you start feeling depressed
>be married with kids
>miserable
>numb to work
>pay bills
>love my kids
>hate wife for making all of our lives just a little harder every year
>but love kids, so I stay
>meet another woman
>don't care
>she cares
>don't care
>we talk
>care
>talk more
>care more
>says things and does things that wife has never even thought of
>care a lot
>talk about being together
>tell wife
>wife is miserable
>kids can tell
>I can tell kids anxious but they don't know why
>tell other woman I can't be selfish and hurt my kids, I can't even hurt wife cuz she helped me bring kids into world
>woman says she understands and that's why she loves me
>woman miserable
>have fight with woman so that she doesn't love me anymore and moves on
>no more talk
>no more care
>all for my kids, and they'll never know
>>708853517
Stupid question. Do you see yourself telling your kids when they mature?
>>708853682
A father never burdens their children with that kind of stuff. I just want to raise them right, send them off to be strong, independent and resourceful people.
And then, as corny as it may seem, my watch will end.
>>708853472
For a few years now. Never had any friends, family doesn't really care about me. No self esteem. Bad sleeping schedule, maybe insomnia I'm not sure. I'm terrible at social interaction and get really nervous.
Girl I've been with for 7 years just said yes when I asked if she would marry me, I had a rush, we fucked like rabbits all day until she fell asleep, but right now /b/ros, I'm having doubts, I mean this woman has hurt me so much, and it depresses me to think I'm about to spend my life with her, but at the same time it's the best thought. Ive always been suicidal until she came along, I still am at times, but she's always right there, I'm just worried one of those times she won't be there, people can only take so much, you know?
>>708854070
you're not alone /b/rother. I'm in the same situation. The only thing that keeps me from becoming an hero is hope that it might get better. Hasn't happened yet but maybe someday.
>>708854162
What kind of problems are you and her having exactly?
>>708854354
I had that once. Not anymore. I won't go out of my way to kill myself but if given the opportunity I think I would. It's a weird feeling
>>708854582
For the last few years nothing major, but before then she had told me she was raped numerous times by different people, and something about it sounded off, and it turned out she was running off with exes and fucking them because I was gone at my parents in another state, we ended for a bit and wound up back together, worked through it, and haven't had an issue that I'm aware of since, but it fucking hurt knowing she did that much with other guys, I tell her I'm over it now because it hurts her knowing it still bothers me, but it does, I don't think I'll ever look at her the same
Hey /b/rothers, i normally only talk once in away, and i have great depression and social issues...but i have been with this girl for 1n1/2year going to be 2 soon. I ment her today for the first time, all i mainly did was lay on her lap while she played with my hair....we done a lot but that was the best thing, i felt so damn happy. I found that girl we may not be together forever but i will try to make close, you guys will find the one soon too. Hopefully when you find your girl and talk to her dad for the first time it doesn't involves him holding his damn gun the whole time
>>708854905
She didn't go with me to my parents because we have animals that no one could take care of but her, and I like a clean house so I wanted her to stay and clean up, I was only gone for a week
>>708849524
Fear. Things will change Monday, my daily routine. I remember that every other minute, it rolls around and slaps me in the head. Have to get up and get out the door and work at a new place. Not excited about this change at all. It feels like a fucking death sentence.
>>708853517
Jeeeeeeeeeezuz.
>>708853517
This is what i fear with my new fiance
I've been with my gf for 8 months, and she was there with me during my 6 months off, but 2 months ago I started uni and we've grown apart so much, now I met this girl that likes me and says we could be something one day, I know I'm a dick because I kissed her yesterday, we were at a common friend's house and we kissed, the thing is, she doesn't want a commitment right now, even though she has expressed in her most sincere way that she wants to someday marry me, and the problem is my gf isn't making me that happy anymore, I lost my virginity to her, and we've only done it once because of all of her anxiety issues. I'm feeling so conflicted and I'm home in my room, thinking about this crossroads I'm at, I could stay with my gf and be half as happy as I can be if I was in a good relationship, or break up with her and hope the day this girl wants to be something more comes soon, or even just forget about both of them, but I wouldn't be able to forget the girl because we're in the same group of friends. The anxiety and general depression that my life is spiraling down just to crash is killing me and at this point I really wish it would.
>>708854905
How long ago did that stuff happen? It seems you still have trust issues with her. Being in a relationship like this isn't healthy
>>708855844
It happened 3 years ago in February, and Yea it made it worse because it was a week before our anniversary, while I was helping my parents I was shopping for her gift
>>708855008
Good luck Anon. We're all gonna make it, eventually.
>>708850400
Damn never thought of it like that
>>708850290
Your not alone /b/rotha. Sorry im late
>>708854182
I'm honestly going through this right now and it hurts like hell
>>708856894
It's okay Anon :)
>>708849524
>oldfag
>hate where I live
>miss ex constantly
>have no friend's/limited fam here
>want to dump GF
>shes boring AF and driving me nuts
>want to move back to my old city
>too poor to do shit
>>708857052
I got her into playn darts. Now i dont go to the bar where we used to play. Its not that i might see her there, it because the place reminds me of her. And how i would lose on purpose just to see her happy.
Hang in there dude your not alone
>>708853915
I understand. My dad made the opposite choice. None of us kids talk to him anymore.
>>708854070
Ill tell you this my good fellow, I might not help. Think about this. It is better to be lonely, than to be surrounded by people you can not connect to
>>708857276
Maybe if you didn't have your gf, you wouldn't be so poor
>>708857276
Sounds like what i almost did, no car, no money hardly, almost took off to another state for some girl, still think about it daily, but if I do and it doesn't work out, how do I get back? Cant afford a bus or anything, as much as I want to go, as much as I feel this is the woman I'm gonna marry
>>708854182
I feel this man, you are not alone. I long for that deep connection to form one day, but it has yet to form.
>>708857512
Thanks bro, glad to know that someone feels the same
>>708857604
my thoughts as well
>>708857636
I can at least move in with old friends but dont want to without some extra cash. Just feel trapped daily here... more cows than people...
>>708857587
But I wish I did though
I have 4chan but it just isn't enough
>>708857836
You gotta do what you gotta do to make yourself happy /b/ro
>>708857947
yeah I know I do. I need to just figure shit out. Feel bad for the GF but I'm not happy and cant take it down here and to top it off she will never move anyways.
I start taking antidepressants tomorrow. I'm scared more than I ever have been that they won't help but make things worse
>>708858155
Yea thats how this girl is, my family doesn't like her but I'm close with my family, and she doesn't want to move either, nor does she want to come with me whenever I would visit family, that's the main thing keeping me here
>>708857864
Lets see, can you keep a conversation going for longer than 2 minutes?
>>708858232
Last time i took them I felt really weird, like I wasn't myself, so I stopped, I only took em two times, realized I was better off without
Found out my company is gonna lay off a bunch of people. I feel like im safe but i wont know for sure till monday. im fuckin angry. Not just for the fact that some good people are gonna lose their jobs but that ill absorb the extra work. First thing i did was start slamming shots of vodka when i got home and doing lines. Went out bought metal gear 5. Been getting fucked up plaing and checking shit here on smoke breaks.
3 weeks ago ( 2 days after my bday ) she broke up with me. I had just told her about my depression about 2 weeks before that dreadful day
She asked why I never told her sooner and it was because I once told her when we had dated before and she left. I was scared it would happen again and it did.
I love her very very deeply and this halloween would have been a year that we were back together.
Since we broke up I have been such a mess, no human contact in the past 2 weeks, got a call for a job interview and couldnt bring myself out of bed..
I miss her so much guys... like too much, its made my depression so much worse and I dont know what to do anymore..
>>708858443
On here. Maybe. Not in the real world
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=p2o8QptSAYk
not muchh
>>708858457
That's what I'm scared of, I don't want to be drastically different
>>708849524
All my friends are getting apartments, settling down, have careers, lots of money, etc. And I'm just sitting here doing nothing. I have no skills, no drive, no motivation, no money, and I am like a 4/10 at best. I have nothing and never will.
Anybody here get ghosted by a gril? 10/10 gril likes memes and the same music, super cute. We flirt talk a bunch and then she just disappears. Idk why
>>708859016
Atleast you have friends, Anon..
>>708858874
holy shit. thats my day ruined
>>708858628
Have you practiced before? I bet you have, eg? See the reason why i find it so curious is becausw i was once in your situation. I practiced and became a clown. I can now speak to anyone without hesitation. The thing is with speaking more, youll get to hear more. The more I listened the more I began to feel sick of how demented or crazy some people can be. I cant relate to many people, other than us fellow anons. Now I feel lonely, I cant really express my true self with anyone, or else theyd think Im weird or something. As for the family part the same applies to them. They even tell me "we know so little of you anon." Hell, im no faggot, I have a gf. You dont have to speak to anyone anon, keep to yourself Id say. Or else you might end up like me
>>708849736
I distinctly remember when first I had that realization. I was walking down a crowded street and passed by a dirty old man. First I thought "lol, check out that weirdo" But then it hit me; Someone has to BE that weirdo, every day of their lives. It's that guy, and he's a person just like me.
Sometimes I get sick of being myself and I feel like others around me must be sick of me too.
I did it. After sub-par HS, with barely any friends, I got into college. Following my dad's footsteps, doing a prelaw program and doing really well.
Push hard, do tests and courses on the side, able to graduate a semester early. Helps with the financial burden and finally actually make some friends (that I pay for, fraternity shit)
Cue to today. In the passed month I have alienated most friends, missed a single assignment failing me in a class so I will now graduate on time or late, and no word on law school acceptance
my grades are slipping, my depression is coming back stronger, and my parents are disappointed in me
meanwhile my 2 closest friends, well
one is in the hospital after downing 2 bottles of pills with a bottle of wine
the other is AWOL after she said she wanted to die
tl;dr i am a failure and my 2 closest friends committed suicide
>>708859227
this was me from 19-22, where i currently am
plenty of face books "happy bday man"
but when I tried to make plans, hang out, even just grab a damn coffee or beer
nothing.
I'm surrounded but so fucking alone all the time
>>708859227
you need to post part 2 when /b/ came along and showed him love.
I used to post in these threads when I was 17/18
I thought 5 years later id be happier
/b/ why the fuck aren't I happy?
>>708859081
I think they do shit like that because they get scared. Their not all heartless
>>708860539
Maybe that's it. It was going so well, and then just nothing. We were supposed to hangout today.
>>708860539
that or alot of girls like the chase, they love tugging on emotions and once they know they have you they just disappear.
>>708860318
happiness is something you can never have it's only an illusion giving off from your brain to distract you for a minimum amount of time.
there is no such thing as true happiness
Why isnt anyone talking about death? Were all going to die one day. Isnt everyone else scared? How do i get over it too?
>Be 9
>Go to Universal Studios with cousin
>Always looked up to him
>Buys me a toy from a toy store in citywalk
>I go home happy
>Two weeks later he is killed in a drive by shooting
>I know he was involved in the bad crowd
>Hurts to know it
>Still hurts to this day
... Maybe this doesn't mean anything but stay away from that shit.. it only brings pain to a family..
>>708861156
>we're all going to die one day
that's pretty much all there is to death
>>708861156
fear of death is really pointless, like you said "we're all going to die one day" so let it come when it comes. Best we can do is live our life and find a reason to smile for, be it a significant other or even just a dog, something to show love and devotion to will always help.
>>708861156
I wish I was scared of it, maybe it'd give me something to live for. But death is just death, there's nothing much too it. It happens and it's just there, they're just dead.
>>708861340
>>708861468
>>708861451
Guys. I dont want to die. Im fucking right crying right now. I dont ill ever do anything great but i dont want it all to end
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=u9jRv1cnjDA
I don't know why this always gets me in the feels especially when he walks out of the dooe
>>708861875
I dont think ill*
>>708861875
https://youtu.be/HuKB0_t3J0A
We're all gonna die
>>708861875
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HuKB0_t3J0A
I don't know if this would help but if you could find the full episode somewhere it should help a little
(maybe I could deliver but can't promise anything)
>>708862168
Lol, we both thought of the same thing
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SkJGLCleFmI
I may be a weak fag but this shit always brings a tear to my eye
I feel like Stan. It feels like I shouldn't vote. Like why choose between a shit sandwich and a giant douche.
>>708862168
Thats the second youtube video i was shown but this one might have helped a bit. If i love someone will i feel content when i die? Giving up on living forever
>>708862758
https://youtu.be/BOksW_NabEk
This one's pretty rough too, but God damn I love it so much
>>708862570
How to combat liberal offspring
There's something about words that can describe utter hopelessness and emotion.
>>708849736
have that often as i try to be aware of my surroundings and being mindful
>>708862758
>A few pop-ups
but this one might be good www.watchseriesgo(dot)to/link/thevideo.me/5620065
I guess I have a story for anyone who wants to listen.
It's been years but I'll never stop thinking about a guy I used to work with (I'll refer to him as Frank). I was poor going into college and to get some money I applied as seasonal firefighter with the California Department of Forestry and Fire Protection. I meet Frank at the station and right away you can tell he's a decent guy, bullshits a lot, has something interesting to talk about, and can really make you laugh. Frank was a pretty bro-tier guy.
One day Frank's wife comes to the station for reasons I no longer remember, she brought his daughter too, who was maybe 3 or 4 and Frank kind of showed her around the station. His family left and he kissed his wife and daughter goodbye.
At a later date we were called to a structure fire and when we got there the captain said we need someone on the roof to make cuts and poke holes to ventilate the building. Frank volunteers to go up. As Frank is walking along the roof of the building I see him fall through the roof. The chief who is now on scene tells us to get him out of there right now. After searching for a while we find Frank in the master bedroom and his SCBA alarm going off, and we pulled Frank out of there and give him to the paramedics. I can still see in my head his flesh peeling off when they took off his coat.
I decide to see Frank in the hospital a few weeks later. I walk in and see Frank has third-degree burns almost all over his body. His face is melted and deformed beyond recognition (as cruel as it sounds, think of a feral ghoul from Fallout 4). I talk to Frank for a while and wish him well, I didn't want to keep him up too long because I could tell he was in serious pain still.
After a few months as the fire season is coming to a close and we're getting ready to get laid off Frank comes by the station. It was great to see him up and moving again. You could tell though that Frank wasn't the same. I'll continue in another reply.
>>708853517
>>708853915
>Dad cheated on mom
>had a bastard child from a 3 year relationship
>25 when I found out
I don't hate him but he stopped being "Dad" and just became another human being among all the other ones that I can't depend on or look up to.
It's been months since we last talked, I want to talk to him but I have nothing to talk about so I haven't.
Props to you for not being impulsive.
>>708863370
Continues plz
>>708856515
I really like when you said this I don't know why, every one of us fuck ups on /b/, straight to the top /b/rothers
>>708849524
>Be friends with amazing girl
>Friends for almost 5 years
>She's everything I want in a girl
>Spend every single day together
>Laughing and having fun
>Going out to dinner all the time
>Playing video games non stop
>Watching movies together
>We laughed together
>We cried together
>Came extremely close to kissing multiple times
>One day she asks me to come over
>I drive on over to her house
>"Anon I want you to meet someone"
>Thinking it's her grandfather that's in town
>Suddenly this Mexican guy walks in
>Looks like Pedro from Napoleon Dynamite
>"Very good, nice to meet you sir!"
>He shakes my hand
>"Who are you?" I ask him
>"He's my new boyfriend, we met in class!" she says
>Suddenly feels like my heart shattered
>Holding back tears
>They start holding hands and kissing
>Nearly pass out from heartache
>Act like I got a phone call and rush outside
>Drive home screaming and crying in my car
>That was almost a year ago
>I never talk to her anymore
>Still hurts
We were so close, I guess I just kind of assumed we were together, we always cuddled on the couch and went out on little dates, and she used to write me these little love notes saying how much I mean to her and even one talked about wanting to kiss me, and then suddenly fucking Pedro comes out of nowhere.
>>708862888
Had to stop watching when the baens were half gone.
My hope of living forever as a robot or something isnt happening is it?
Im going to bed. I just feel empty now
Am 23 virgin. never had a gf nor do I know any girls at all. Only got 2 friends and they are not party fuckers so it is impossible for me to meet females. idk what to do.
I am also very afraid of girls
Im slowly dying
Anyone get that suicidal sad feeling like your gut aches and you just feel very sick as you have nothing to look forward to?
>>708849524
I'm starting to understand that nobody will ever truly see me.
I feel and see things in people, I know what they feel and even what they'll if I'm close enough.
People don't see me in the same way I see them, in the way I feel them.
My destiny is a life of hiding my true self, every ounce of negativity will be kept under wraps until I go in the ground.
Maybe I want to die. I'm not sure, the last thing I want to do is hurt anyone.
>>708864366
well necessarily if you were able to upload your brain to a computer it wouldn't be you.
It would just be a simulation of you. It would mostly be for friends and family to remember
(sorry to make things worse)
>>708864432
Take classes at a community college maybe
>>708864614
And I'm drunk at the moment, so some of that may be a little lacking in consistency
>>708864366
You'll be ok man.
>>708864641
I already completed a college course. almost all the girls dropped out halfway thru so i never communicated with many.
i aint spending money on another college course
1. I've never posted in one of these before but here goes, sorry I'm not gonna green text it...
I've always had anxiety/depression weird, fat though my friends seem to think I have body dismorphia so I'll say a little over weight. 2 years ago I hiked from Mexico to Canada along the pacific crest trail and it was amazing and life changing... I came back to work and met this girl Sarah, who knew about the trail I did (which is uncommon where I'm from) I grew to really like her and eventually managed to ask her out, she said she was interested, but wanted to get to know me better first, it turns out she also had never really dated. She's smart, caring, beautiful, amazing. We went to a movie and it was alright, I was awkward, she was also sort of awkward, I asked to hang out a few times more, she said she had things to do and she's bad at texting, not sure if she was trying to sort of sluff me off without hurting my feelings or if she was interested still and just actually had stuff to do/ was also awkward. Anyway we saw eachother at work, she eventually became my boss, I kept having a crush on her but our relationship went a little weird. I was saving up to go on another long distance hike and pretty miserable and going through the worst depression of my life, I sort of fenced my self off from the world and eventually got up the courage to reach out to her just for someone to talk to. She really helped me through it. I in the meantime met another girl while Sarah was unavailable to me, fell in love with her, her name is mollie. I became pretty good friends with mollie and eventually asked her out, she said she was interested but didn't want to date another comedian (I guess I haven't mentioned I do amateur stand up) we were good friends I asked her out one more time again she gave a half sort of no. Mollie and I became incredibly good friends after a while, she started dating another guy who I no longer really care for, nowadays I'm pretty well over my crush.
>>708864573
Yea, when I'm feeling really depressed I get it. I'm not gonna do it or anything, but I just feel empty and anxious and alone
>>708864185
This right here is why people need to vote for Trump
GET THAT WALL BUILT SO PEDRO WILL STOP STEALING OUR GIRLS!
>>708864812
yeah well my life is so empty and i am antisocial
>>708864185
I'm Pedro, but actually my name is Juan
But no, I hate to break it to you but it was your fault. It's not that you were in the friendzone or some bullshit like that. Those times when you almost kissed were the peak points of the relationship yet you were too afraid to be rejected, so you shy away.
It happened to me and now that i've learned my lesson. I've become a love-whore moving fast and hard through relationships trying to find someone like her it's been 4 years now....
>>708864928
That makes two of us buddy. Most days I have zero contact with anybody
>>708865006
yeah well idk what to do with myself..
i forgot how to dance salsa in front of my friends FUCK!!!! WHYYYYY!!!
Continuing Frank's story.
Frank definitely went to extra measures to hide his face, wore his cap and sunglasses inside, didn't look at people when talking. I felt truly sorry for the guy, especially knowing there was really nothing that could be done for him.
I'm talking to Frank near his truck away from the other guys and ask him how he's adjusting to life and how is his wife and kid. Frank basically told me it was hard adjusting, and said that it was really hard for him to go out in public because he hated the way people stared at him. He would stay in the house for weeks, not doing much. His wife had a hard time adjusting to his health needs, the way he looked, and his constant isolation. Frank broke down and began crying. He told me his wife left him because she didn't see him as the same man she married. Frank also told me the thing he cared most about in the world, his daughter, wouldn't even walk up to him to give him a hug, she'd just start crying. The poor man couldn't even hold his own daughter anymore because she didn't even recognize it was him, she would call him a "monster".
I consoled Fred for a while and asked him if he wanted someone to just stay with him or if he wanted to come over to my place to try and get away from everything. Fred declined any offers for support, he always had a tough guy vibe to him. A few days later one of the guys tells me Fred killed himself in the middle of the night, I just sat there and couldn't feel anything except for pity and sadness. From one accident the poor man was mentally and physically scarred for life, lost all of his confidence, his wife, and his daughter. Sometimes I stay awake at night and think about Frank, wondering if maybe we had gotten to him faster things would have been different. Frank didn't deserve what he got. Nobody deserves that.
I'm married... and I fell in love with that girl, she's 5 year younger than me, she's also married to a guy that's been cheating on her, but she's taking the martyr part and she needs to stay with him as a punish. I tried to pull her out of her comfort zone, but only got her to cry, like no one else, and the only thing I did ... was to love her like no one else, with no limits or conditions, how did I manage it? We are all gonna die and I'm gonna live my life at it's fullest, fuck everything else, fuck my marriage, my happiness doesn't depends on it, it only depends on me. And that fucking martyr has taken away so much from me. I can't get turned on by my wife any more. I care about her, but it takes me a lot to get hard and fuck her. I've been increasing the rudeness but it's not working for me. I fell for a beauty that can't take me on her life and I'm married to an amazing woman that doesn't make me feel anything amazing or outstanding in my life... so Yeah, I'm sad and angry on how people prefer her shitty life instead of getting out of their shithole, the only thing I feel on my heart it's a burning sensation that goes to the right of my chest... it feels so Hot that if I can take it out, it will melt anything, it's burning me, and I don't know how to make it stop, do I keep trying with the married girl, with my wife or fuck everything and be single again?. Regret is not a part of me. And to that girl... I just want to rage fuck her brains out, so she can regret that she said goodbye to the beat man she could ever have. I'm mad and I don't know how to end my rage, a part of me wants to see her suffer on her miserable life, drawn by her beliefs, but I also want to make her happy, no matter the cost for me. I want her to feel free to decide what she wants, bit she's to afraid and that fills me with rage
I need all of you tonight, please just say you'll be with me in this time.
Please anons, my/b/ros
>>708864185
Stab them both in the night.
Works best with a carpet cutter
>>708865355
do you need Bune, Anon?
>>708865355
I shall be watching the last few episodes of Curb Your Enthusiasm which is the only fun thing in my life. I am feeling very depressed, knowing that nothing on tv ever comes close to this and Seinfeld right now (and since my life is so empty this all I got)
>>708865346
Damn. I always think if anything happened to me like that, I'd probably do the same thing. The thought of not being independent scares me.
>>708865657
no, I need some liquid courage and a good brain for once.
>>708862888
dem feelz
>>708865657
But thank you though mate.
>>708865355
We in this bro
>>708850109
How dare you put water in my eyes
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xyLT6Ft6pC0
Death, with no redemption,
We're all heading towards the end.
It is with us, from the dawn,
The dawn of our miserable lives.
We all live in a delusion,
As life holds nothing but death...
>>708865741
oh...
I don't have any of that. I lack in that department too
2. Mollie and I are very good friends still. Sarah and my relationship was a little weird with her being boss and my huge crush on her, I did lean on her for advice about Mollie, which may have been a mistake, who knows. Anyway I was getting pretty focused on starting my next hike soon, working myself like crazy working over full time and doing comedy late into the night. Sarah quit to work somewhere else a month or so before my hike, and I wanted to ask her out again but my anxious brain will latch onto any excuse not to do that and I thought it would be better after another hike, maybe lose some weight, be a little more confident. So we hung out a few times before my hike, and then I flew out to Washington and took a train to Montana and started hiking south from the Canadian border, certainly this would be as awesome as last time, it was... For the first week. I spent the next 3 months in varying levels of malaise, lonliness, depression, sure there were good times, but far outweighed by the bad. When I got to Colorado I made the incredibly tough decision to quit, halfway through my hike, with the intention of going back home to do comedy, pursue a relationship, sort of hoping that person would be Sarah. I got home, and fell into a really horrible depression. Sarah told me about her new boyfriend and that bummed me out but I resolved to stay good friends with her, not intending to just wait it out, like, she's a wonderful human and great friend. She helped me through this new depression, and a couple weeks ago I sort of made it through those woods, I was starting to get over the idea of a relationship with her and just enjoying being friends. Two days ago she texted me that she had broken up with her boyfriend, and it brought a lot of that love back up to the surface. Now I have to deal with the fact that I'm in love with this girl, I'm gonna give her some time before I say anything, but me being in love with someone has never ended well.
>>708865346
Thanks for sharing Frank/Fred's story. I hope you don't feel any guilt over what happened. Could just have easily been you. Just goes to show you should make the most out of life, you never know what's around the corner.
>>708865355
we are here /b/rother
nice dubs
>be me
>19
>took year off university
>working a part time
>no idea what I'm doing in life
>no drive
>scared I'll just drift through life doing nothing
This makes me think a lot, because I think she still loves me, she's just too
Stupid to realize it..
>>708861156
I like thinking about the day that I will die. It could be right now, later as I sleep, the morning I wake up. tomorrow as I eat, or any other day. Death makes me feel alive, and it pressures me to live.
seeing my life slip away
>>708866324
>You hear that GameCube watch your fuckin' back
>>708864614
And nobody ever fucking cares because my feelings may as well be trash
Even here I'll spend my entire existence hoping somebody will take the time to give a shit.
I have a lot on my mind but I don't want to type it all up if no one is listening. Any anons out there down to read a story of what is happening in my life and maybe give some advice?
The closest people to and I've known the longest and I care about most are people I've never met but t have laughed and cried with them for the past 10 years. They are just voices in my headset, some of my best days were while hanging out and playing WoW with them.
>>708855973
I feel you. Almost two years ago now my fiance started to talking to this old friend of hers again. The whole month of December they spent talking about stuff they felt and had done. They were never together but they had made out and such. I had asked her at the start of our relationship if they had ever done anything and she told me flat out, no. She had left her phone in the living room and gone to take a nap after I got home from work. It was around midnight. I checked it because she had been acting funny. Saw all her text about them wanting to do things again and how they knew were each other were so it would be easy. The dude was having a baby soon with his girl. My fiance and I have a son. Shit was so stupid.
>>708866542
I got you Fam
>>708866447
also, video games in 2016 are fucking shit with shit campaigns
>>708866324
what do you do all day long besides work or school?
I think I just ruined my ex's relationship with her girlfriend with my dick for the third time, which is awful, but all I can think about is that I screwed myself out of a threesome.
3. I went out to be a good friend to her last night, another friend of hers and I talked about my feelings and she sort of implied that there's a chance Sarah is interested (not based on her talking to Sarah or anything) I don't like that. It's never ended well, it always ends in me being heartbroken when I like someone. I'm afraid if I wait too long to tell Sarah how I feel (toned down a little) she'll find someone else, I'm afraid that if I tell her that I still have feelings for her that she won't be interested and it'll hurt our friendship. I want this woman in my life, I really want to hold her and kiss her and watch shitty tv with her and talk about the world and have her love me back but I'm afraid. I've never been in a relationship, I don't know how to do it, i don't know how to flirt or really be romantic. I wish she had stayed with her boyfriend a while longer so I could have actually gotten over her. I want to be a supportive friend right now, I don't want to move in too quickly certainly, but I'm also now unable to sleep going over the thoughts of asking her out, and playing out scenarios in my head and preparing myself for when she says no. I sort of can't picture her reciprocating. And I'm afraid that'll crush me and make it hard to be friends with her. I don't want to have to cut her out of my life, she's the coolest person I've ever met and I'd be happy to be just friends with her if it weren't for my stupid feelings... That's it, that's what I'm going through.
>>708866501
you just need to find the right people that would give a shit. That's what the internet is for.
>>708866542
I'm up for a story.
I DON'T WANT TO SEE, I DON'T WANT TO HEAR, I DON'T WANT TO FEEL ANYTHING
CAN'T YOU UNDERSTAND, ANYTHING I DO, DOESN'T STEM FROM YOU, IT DOESN'T MEAN A FUCKING THING... TO DO WITH YOU
I JUST WANNA DIE, THROW IT ALL AWAY, NEVER HAVE TO FEEL AGAIN,
THE WAY YOU MAKE ME LOSE MY FUCKIN MIND ALL THE FUCKIN TIME
>>708864804
>>708865926
>>708866759
I suppose I should replied to the posts and put the numbers in... But here's all 3
>>708866542
I'm listening.
>>708865354
Same guy
She asked me to stop, cuz I'm compromising her marriage, just because she hasn't felt something so nice as love, as true love... but she's turning all of it into anger, not hate, cuz I still want to make her feel good, she's already fallen for me, but I got to do something about everything else, so she can break her shell and accept what she's been asking for... I just want to free her from all of this, from her all, but sometimes an arrogance can lead to something worse... I'm tired, I just want to hug her, but she thinks it's best to stop talking... it burns to feel this for her, but I don't know how to hide it I just need it out, I don't any more pain, from anyplace
>>708866759
You gotta try man.... all bullshit aside it sucks longing for someone. Tell her that you're glad she is in your life and everything you just said. The worst is she says I love you as a friend and the you know. Joke around with her call her sugar, pumpkin or some pet name.
>>708865354
>>708866959
make this into a movie script and take it to a director.
10/10 would watch
>>708858232
From first hand experience anon
they only help to some extent and start making things foggy and unenjoyable.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pCVlfqNTZ3c
>>708866662
Thanks!
Ok so let's see. About two years ago I lost my job. It was a good job at a decent company. Because of some stuff that happened right after I lost my job I ended up having my first ever manic episode. I went completely crazy and almost lost everything. Thanks to a little luck I was able to stay indoors for another year, but then I went super off the deep end again and I ended up homeless. I spent a year on the streets almost completely out of my mind when through a little luck I ended up getting comitted. I went to a hospital because it was freezing out and when I kept acting funny they started observing me and eventually committed me. Thanks to that I got on meds and got my mind back. They released me and a month later I managed to get off the streets through a housing program.
This brings us to today. I've dealt with depression my whole life and struggled to support myself. Because of the shit that happened when I was crazy, I am going to start getting disability.
I feel really happy because it feels like my life is moving towards stability. However I've been smoking tons of pot lately and I think it is catching up with me.
I am super confused because I don't know what to expect from my future. And there is this huge mega weird feeling I can't even explain. Like the direction my life was going before I went insane is now just totally gone. I am in a completely different place with different circumstances and people.
Not to mention I alienated most of the people I knew when I was insane by sending them super crazy Facebook messages.
It feels like I just woke up from a coma and now all my friends are dead. I just wanna smoke weed all day and escape. I get super scared sometimes.
I just really needed to share that. I'd love to hear some anons' opinions on the situation
>>708849524
What episode of simpsons is this?
This year I lost my dream job, my house, my boyfriend, and I'm also moving away from the area I was born in, and was setting up a life at.
The funny thing is I don't feel anything at all, in fact I feel 100% stable, in-the-moment even, but what concerns me is that I always find this to be an "Eye of the storm". He flies out in 4 days, and when I spend my first night alone in this many years, I feel it's going to crush down upon me like an vast, immensely black and unstoppable crushing force.
Ah well, here goes nothing, TO VALHALLA!
>>708864432
Coming from someone whose had a girlfriend for most of highschool and fucked her all the time. It's not worth dude, seriously don't waste your fucking time with stupid bitches. If you can fuck them sure but other than that improve yourself.
>>708867899
S07E08 - Mother Simpson
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vfGAleaUa2o#t=12s
>>708850109
Laughing and crying are the same thing. I am maniacally doing both! BAAWWAAHAHAHAHAH!!!
See, I'm not a pussy, I'm just fucking crazy!
Maybe hell will be warmer than this cold ground we walk on.
>>708867696
Well getting Disability is a huge step forward. Now you'll have an income. I'd say cut back on the weed a bit and go to a community college and talk to an academic counselor Andy maybe get an idea of what you like or love to do.i completely understand the wandering aimlessly feeling it wasn't until this year that I figured out what I want to do with my life GL and keep your head up you can do it
>>708868220
Why? Is it a money thing?
>>708854182
I've had this for the better part of a year, fucking hurts man
>>708866747
Stuff.
>>708868553
What are you doing with your life?
I really wish I could just turn off love, y'know? Cuz I really fucking love her; and I'm tired of hurting so fucking much.
>>708868254
DamonHusky?
>Just made out with a girl from hs
>super drunk
>wanted to say hi to /b/ros
>>708869027
>DamonHusky
No and I'm not this furfag either; https://youtu.be/YpcuQR1_ehI
>>708849524
Fucking feel like offing myself, I'm 21 and I've been stuck here in isolation for 4 years besides the docs..whitch I don't consider friends really
>>708868847
As cliche as it sounds I'm getting my degree in performing arts, acting and stuff
>>708869697
You don't know that. Everyone has something to offer.
>>708869697
I bet you have a killer sense of humor
>>708849524
I proposed to my GF of 3 years, she says no and decides to go off with someone else. 4 months later she needs help getting out of the relationship
I help her out of it and we become 'friends' she starts fucking other guys on dates and what not. I'm ok with it because she's we're no longer together and I'm doing the same to try and fill the void she left.
One night she jumps me and we end up fucking. A few days later she says she regrets everything and she proposes to me.
All I want is to move on in my life, get a house and start a family but I know it's not with her. I can't tell her no because I don't want to be alone. I can't say yes because I don't love her enough.
I just feel lonely, and I regret this trip I took. I regret missing my bus, forcing myself to spend $1000 on a last minute flight.
I also miss Kevin. He's never on-line any more but he was always one I looked forward to chatting with.
>>708870128
Say no b/ro. You're young and someone will come along. There is nothing worse than being in a loveless marriage..it'll slowly eat away at your joy and it'll be worse
>>708869944
I do, that is true but I'm a caring gentle giant, I'm smart but I dropped out due to surgeries,it's hard too explain my position..I both have hope but I'm tired of fighting and pain. I'm so sick of it but yet they want me to get a fusion at 21 it's gonna fuck my life if I accept and if I don't it's still gonna fuck me up
>>708870061
Lol that's correct I'm a smart ass by heart great guess
>>708870128
>and [goes] off with someone else.
This is what hurts the most.
But the other anon is right, tell her no and tolerate the loneliness and confusion you feel afterwards. It begins to hurt less after a couple of weeks.
Im trying to fight the urge to message her
Halloween would've been our 1 year and I wanna ask her how she feels about it.. should I?
>>708870635
Like a doctor giving a patient pain meds, good way of explaining it tho I respect your outlook and agree
>>708865888
Man that chord progression sucks, not the slightest bit dark or anything.
I haven't been happy in so long that I don't remember how it feels and I just cant carry on like this
>>708870635
>>708870339
No what hurts the most is that when I helped her out of that other relationship. She still actively chose others before me.
I know that the only reason that I haven't said no is because of what you said. I'm afraid of the loneliness and the fact that nobody else seems to be interested in what I have to offer.
But I'll tell her everything soon.
>>708870420
Shit man.... that sucks I know what it is to live in constant pain. Several years ago I had my gall bladder removed and the surgeon did a shitty job of closing me up and the incision opened and made a hernia to make matters worse it also pulled a piece of my stomach in and cut off the blood flow. So I had surgery to fix it and developed a pulmonary embolism and fell into a coma for 8 days. The spend another month relearning how to walk and feed myself. The very day I got out of the hospital the mesh tore open and the hernia came back......so there I go again back to the hospital. Nest part was my fiancé tells me she doesn't need another dependent she's looking for a partner...I've told this story here before. Just stay as positive as you can.
>>708849524
I don't know what to do, /b/. Court hearing just said that my son is in better hands with my ex wife, and she's denied me ability to actually see my child. She's got a restraining order against me. I don't now what to do anymore. I just want to see my son.
>>708871057
Listen..you say you can't go on..but look where your are..your here trying to work out your problems..you haven't given up..if you would you wouldn't be here..I know it's hard being alone..hell if you want I'll drop my kik and skype..but man if not you have too keep moving forward no matter the cost
>>708858232
Never took any kind of antidepressants, I feel like they don't work from seein and hearing other people take em.
Thinking about why she hasn't messaged me..
>>708871206
That's bullshit man. She has no right to keep you kid away from you. The only thing I can think of is to show th judge that he would be safe and well taken care of with you and petition to get court supervised visits and show them you're stable with a job and place to live. Wish you the best man
>>708871165
I try too keep going no matter the cost..I want to be normal but it may not happen..I'm both excited and scared for the future..I've nearly died of accidental OD I don't wanna die early ..and I'm really sorry to hear that, it's odd how you get so numb to things eh?
>>708871367
Thank you so much, hasn't fixed anything but the gesture made me smile
>>708871791
Sadly even if the kid is abused by the mother the mother has a 75% chance of winning, you can thank feminism for that shit
>>708871075
I just don't know what to say. I'm not ignoring you though
>>708870262
where was kevin from?
>>708871811
Yea it's easy to become jaded especially nowadays with the internet and seeing just how shitty people can be.
>>708871817
Don't worry, it was my pleashure, just try to find light in the darkness, it's still their like me :)
Skype:kamiofthewest
Kik:gameover169
>>708871984
No worries, I know what I need to do just going to take some courage and the right moment to do it.
>>708871977
Yea it's super fucked up how the court almost always sides with the mom. I wish they would take into account real men who want to be apart of his kids life.
>>708872205
Yeah, I believe that people can be the most kind and wonderful and on the other side people can be dark and cruel..and pain is horrible..I'd never wish it on anyone really
>be about 8
>living with my mom and dad
>we had three dogs (all rescue)
>clyde, nala, and bear
>clyde was the grumpy old man (17)
>nala was the hyperactive cuddle with humans kill everything else kind of dog (8)
>and bear was found in a dumpster eating basically everything (4 months ish)
>going back to nala
>as i said she would kill basically any animal that ended up in our back yard
>snakes, birds, rabbits, hedgehogs,rats (our neighborhood used to have a huge rat problem) even sometimes cats, basically anything smaller than a basketball
>now let's move on
>old library behind our neighborhood
>use to be able to just open back fence and walk to it
>one night it burnt down
>home depot buys the property and starts building
>over the course of about 6ish months
>lights blasting into ours and neighbors houses
>loud construction noises all throughout the night
>workers throwing beer bottles and other trash into our yards
>we complained and they ignored
>one day, without warning anyone in the neighborhood, they sent out rat poisoning
>rats starting fleeing into our yards
>nala decides to kill all the rats
>she gets very sick
>fast forward a couple of days
>she can't even walk anymore
>finally decides to take her to the vet and put her down
>i watch as they inject her and the last thing she does is roll on her back legs in the air wanting belly rubs
>legs fall down
>goodbye nala
>she wasn't the only dog in the neighborhood to die
>four other dogs died the same way
>nothing was done about it
>years later clyde started getting to old, going blind, slow, etc.
>we eventually had to put him down (he was 21 years old)
>barried with his favorite tennis ball
>first time i ever saw my dad cry
>fast forward to now
>bear is now 18
>he recently broke his hip
>can barely walk
>he's starting to pee uncontrollably
>he probably won't be here much longer and every day it's killing me
>i don't know what to do
>i can't see him go
Pic related (bear on bottom, clyde in middle, nala on top)
>be me 19yo
>dont know how love feels like
>had 2 serious relationships
Making it short
>i wrote to my ex from 7 years ago (we were just children)
>she has a 4 year relationship
>we see each other and fuck the first day
>kept like this for 2months
>i decide to end everything over a fight
>cant erase her out of my mind
I dont know how to explain this, why cant i get her out of my mundo even tho she has a boyfriend, it has beber been difficult for me to forget someone from night to day, i cant even sleep. I just wanted to get it out of my chest, even writing makes me feel better... This is not my body
>>708868077
You can do it anon
>>708870782
Probably not. Being single is kinda dope.
She should come back to you anyway.
I don't have any friends. None. There's something about me that people just don't like. I've never had friends, went to special ed classes until 8th grade so never really learned social skills.
I am miserable daily, when I try to make friends I just say weird stuff or talk too much. I think I have depression but I don't want to tell anyone about it because of the stigma or they will just say "oh it's just your teenage hormones" or whatever garbage. My parents don't care, and my dad is depressed too. He's really lonely too.
Never had a 'girlfriend' either, nor do I plan to, I don't see how anyone would want to be with me.
Almost 17, and I am NOT prepared for the real world. I'm so lazy, hate work, and have never talked to other kids outside of school. I want to have friends so fucking bad.
Always wanted to join the military, but because I was in special ed, and was on a few different meds as a kid, I cannot join.
So, I guess I'll just go into a network/IT kinda career. I just hope I'm not homeless.
I'm planning to live in an apartment and invest everything into a decent gaming rig.
I've had a shitty life and am horrified about becoming an adult. If I fuck it up there's always suicide.
>>708868077
tits or begone
>>708873424
>I don't have any friends. None. There's something about me that people just don't like. I've never had friends, went to special ed classes until 8th grade so never really learned social skills.
>I am miserable daily, when I try to make friends I just say weird stuff or talk too much. I think I have depression but I don't want to tell anyone about it because of the stigma or they will just say "oh it's just your teenage hormones" or whatever garbage. My parents don't care, and my dad is depressed too. He's really lonely too.
>Never had a 'girlfriend' either, nor do I plan to, I don't see how anyone would want to be with me.
>Almost 17, and I am NOT prepared for the real world. I'm so lazy, hate work, and have never talked to other kids outside of school. I want to have friends so fucking bad.
>Always wanted to join the military, but because I was in special ed, and was on a few different meds as a kid, I cannot join.
>So, I guess I'll just go into a network/IT kinda career. I just hope I'm not homeless.
>I'm planning to live in an apartment and invest everything into a decent gaming rig.
>I've had a shitty life and am horrified about becoming an adult. If I fuck it up there's always suicide.
Special Ed
I'm in love with someone I met from a 4chan board
I've known him for 2 years and I've had these feelings for him almost that whole time. They've only gotten stronger and it's so hard to keep to myself these days, I can't tell anyone either, including him.
If I tell any of my friends, they'd make fun of me. And I have no idea how he'd react if I told him. He's had a couple bad experiences with girls in the past and I think it's made him afraid of relationships or being around them in general.
I just want to get close to him and let him know how much I care about him but I can never do that, it hurts so much to keep to myself every day. I'm also terrified of rejection so as much as I want to tell him just to see if he feels in any way the same, my mind just tells me not to because being rejected would hurt more than being without him.
But it gets so much harder, keeping my feelings to myself, not knowing if he reciprocates, the loneliness, everything. I never know what to do. I never get to get this off my chest.
>>708873385
Being with her was amazing, I kind of forgot what being single was like?
You're right about not messaging her but not about her coming back we're finished for good this time round.. I dont know what messaging would do, probably for the better.
Thanks for answering.
>>708869661
Me toooooooooo nigga wuuuuuuuuut
>>708859227
who gives a fuck. stop trying to live other peoples dreams and start living your own.
>>708873509
>16
Yeah. System's kind of fucked up. In 2nd grade I wouldn't sit in my seat, so they gave me drugs, which made me act worse, made me sick daily, so my mom had to quit her job to pick me up from school constantly since you had to go home if you threw up.
The meds also made me really fat, that didn't help.
Because of my behavior, I had to go to a school miles away, 1 hour bus ride away, where I was put with kids who had 'attention problems' and with full blown autists who made animal noises all day.
Once you are in there, you couldn't leave. You literally had to EARN the PRIVILEGE of being in normal classes.
All of Elementary and Middle school was spent in tard classes, and I never had friends or social skills. They were completely segregated, never saw any 'normal' kids.
Plus, my house was in a trashy town with no kids, so I was alone there too.
Now, I'm on the honor roll with honors classed in a 'normal' high school, but still cannot make friends. Something about me. I don't know, special ed is fucked.
>>708873628
wait, girls use 4chan?
My father and i used to always go to lunch with eachother almost every Friday. No matter what situation we're in we went. One week i pay for the meal the next he would, etc. This started when i was about 14 (when i first got a job) up until i was 26. Our last meal together was on May 15 2015, And he paid. The following Wednesday he was shot in the neck by a mugger, he died in the ambulance.
Now every Friday i go out for lunch, and i sit alone. Wishing i could just pay for his meal one last time.
>>708873928
Niggers...
>>708873870
>girls
did you just assume someones gender?
what do you do when you want to cry but it wont come out
There's something about tonight... the wind, the cold, it's just depressing. It reminds me of when I was little, in my old room, with my old rattling windows. They scared me.
What happened?
>>708874089
sorry!
>>708872832
burn down the home depot
I think at this point existing is what bothers me.
I don't want to die, and the only time I really want to kill myself is when I have a headache.
But a lot of things feel really pointless. I'm not really fond of being another replacement for someone who died in this world. Just so that I can die and someone else continue it. All while some faggola gets to be the guy pulling the strings.
>>708874092
Don't cry.
>>708874143
Ill have you know I identify as an apache attack helicopter, thank-you!
>>708873650
I messaged my only ex after two years come to find out she's had a boyfriend this entire time.
Girls just act like cunts like these guys starting fights to break things off. Really not worth it.
You should check out /adv/ and feel like you're above everyone else. Give some advice. Take smoe advice. find new bands and music. watch movies you've never seen before. Start smoking, makes you look cool. Learn a new skill or pick up a new hobby. Play an old game you used to love. Learn to cook or build shit. Learn to mix drinks. Go buy some books or rent some books about interesting shit that you have an interest in. Do some art. Look at women more often. Focus entirely, everything in your will, on bettering yourself or the things in your life, no matter how shitty things can or might turn out to be. You got the power to be a total complete fucking badass motherfucker that gets money and bitches. True love is overrated, but real love is as well. A cunt once told me that love just is. I love cooking and music, so god damn much. And I have plans with my life. I cannot possibly let any woman come into my life and fuck that shit up. Gotta think about the girl wanting all this I mentioned as well. I don't wanna go funkin some girls groove out of whack. Live ya damn life m8. Let the girl go. There are some reeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeally awesome people out there, even girls believe it or not. Let her go. Watch her fail. And decades from now you should think, "At least I didn't stay with that one girl."
Dude, you don't deserve the right one. The right one deserves you.
>>708849524
that outside pc people are nice
inside pc men share porn, insult each other, project reasons on why they´re not man enough on others and hate on all hobbies in general
humanity is full of shit and i dont feel sorry for anyone anymore knowing they´re twofaced bitches
>>708859016
this for me too. sucks anon but I'm here too
>>708874457
I needed that, thanks man.
>>708874383
That isn't an Apache! That is a Bell AH-1Z Viper!
>>708873628
Does he play Runescape?
Because if not you got the wrong one.
Sorry.
>>708873448
https://youtu.be/4m_8TBZDDKY
>>708874583
>Anonsfirstdayontheinternet
>>708874776
That's what my ex identified as, miss her alot
>>708874735
You think it stops there?
Nah nigga. Can you think about living the rest of your life? I'm talking, 60+ years. That's like 3 lifetimes of fucking, working, relaxing, fucking, working, relaxing, learning, fucking, learning, working, fucking, fucking, living, fucking, learning, and fucking, and learning some more and fucking some more and fucking a little more then working some more and relaxing to boot. God damn BRUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUH we got an entire life to live. I mean do you take any drugs and do you have disabilities? Do you have an impediments that can keep you from achieving realistic goals? I know a guy in a damn wheel chair who acts. he's also a fucking genius. And as many women who eyeball me everyday and would fuck me given the chance, this guy probably gets more pussy than i do.
God damn playa pimp. believe me, I cry too, and I love these threads. And as alone as I've been almost my entire life, you gotta learn to keep yourself entertained. even when alone. If no one in the world cares about you, then what have you got to lose? Speak your mind and build your own opinions and beliefs and live by your standards and expectations. Do drugs and drink. I enjoy being alone, but i also enjoy being with others if the feeling is right. you gotta see this world as your own. The world got nothing on you. People should hate you. You should love them back. Conquer this petty new-age bullshit.
>>708874802
No..other games though.
>>708874947
bbbbbrrrrrrrrr brbrbrbr ppppssssssh psssssshhhhh pewpewpewpewpewpew rrrrrrrrrrrrrrrbrbrbrbrbrbrbbbr
*swooshswooshswoosh*
>>708874832
probably should call you retard faggot virgin elliot rodger now when you posted online for no reason
In time they will misread his gait, his moon mad eyes.
>>708875462
>https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Cw3xFNb2iBo
>/soc/
>>708875523
ooooooooohhhhhhhhhh
life is meaningless
>>708867899
Here, I uploaded a better version.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=A4ibRBc4Lcw
>>708876096
Because you can't wish yourself into a girl so you can have lesbian camp sex with your favorite cartoon characters?
>Tell me about it.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SBOVkptjJhE
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NOG3eus4ZSo
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Yag41F7eCLU
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=X1ag8kapwUk
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ocYXidJHJ-Q
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OczRpuGKTfY
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IXdNnw99-Ic
>>708854905
Maybe reconsider marrying this girl if she's a known multi-cheater like bro thats fucked if it were me I wouldn't get into that relationship.
>>708849524
>Be a hopeless loser on welfare
>Should be on disability but doesnt have to courage to get a note
>never leave the house
>No human interaction outside of my family
>Unable to function like a normal person
>Both parents are old,sick and sad.
>No hope for anything getting any better.
>All my days spend in front of my screen >Check youtube subscriptions every 10 minutes
>Check 4chan
>Play games, gives me some feeling of accomplishement.
>Order some cheap chinese shit from ebay that takes a month to get here.
>check the mail everyday.
>Stay up until mail time just to see if i got mail.
>Now i dont like not having anything in the mail because i dont have anything to look forward to.
>Been like this for some years now.
>Im going to stop writing here because theres no point going on.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yP2KRoFlSEc
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lZiNtbgm9oM
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mcXYz0gtJeM
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yXlULkwhgrc
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=z4o683oc6Qc
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zwFS69nA-1w
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6PMxpdPLm-k
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VMnyUfxPvmo
I posted this in multiple threads but my girlfriend died a few months ago. This is the girl I was gonna marry, she told me how she wanted kids and a house in the country (cheesy i know) but goddamn I was gonna do my damnest to make it happen. Every day I wake up and remember there's nobody else in my bed, I only sleep every other day or so because my body decides it. I truly want nothing else than to die.
>>708880000
>>708880115
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SF3IktTk_pQ
>>708849524
I saw her tonight. She's already with someone new
>>708880261
of course she is.... of course...
>>70884952
My closest friend, the one that saved me from killing myself, I think is becoming annoyed at me for being such a loser. Hate myself even more now, I dont think I have anyone left
>>708880115
Were you here yesterday as well? I think I might remember you.
>>708880556
Yeah. I keep posting because there's not much else I can do
No matter how much effort i put in to better my life nothing changes.
>>708880754
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Extreme_sport
>>708863370
keep going mate
>>708858058
Everytime
>>708861995
I'm glad I'm not this open with my friends. If they ever don't want to teak to me I just comply.
>>708861156
Nothing to be scared about, brother
When it comes, we'll face it
>>708849524
That it's actually saturday morning
>>708862758
You will die, anon
So will I.
And you know what, it's okay.
