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INTO THE BOX MONKEY TIME TO FIGHT
Dads birthday today. The first time I've ever remembered. He died 9 months ago. His paper obituary read loving husband and devoted father. I wanted to put - Obese, alcoholic, bully, ruiner of dreams, wearer out of doting wife, self centred, hateful piece of shit.
Last time I saw him alive, I punched his face so hard he hit the ground and then I climbed on top of him and strangled him until he went purple and couldn't call me names anymore.
I carried his fat ass in that coffin to the crematorium where I watched him burn his way down to hell.
Human fat crisps up really well.
Happy fucking birthday Dad. You really were a cunt.
>>708443075
Lol xD
>>708443075
thats some heavy shit
fuck your dad for being such a dick im sure it lead to a lot of issues and I hope you are okay now
>>708443266
fuck man this is the only feels that ever made me sad I miss my old dog :(
>>708443075
My ex's dad just died of cancer. Similar story. Her and the whole rest of the immediate family were like, "Meh, couldn't have happened to a worse asshole."
>>708442921
can someone post the girl who talks about how she basically fucks upgrades and fidelity and how she's an opportunity whore
man
i'm not feeling well today
>>708444018
at least the guy has something to drink and a cake
>>708443075
hate him on your behalf
Anyone lurking?
>>708443266
>708443266
Why.. man..
>filename
>>708442921
>Be me
>Few friends in elementry school
>Find and play runescape 2004 im in 4th grade
>Bullied a lot
>Now its 8th Grade, find a friend group
>Riding bikes around small town, building forts
>Happy.jpg
>Right after freshmen year, move to new city
>Find shitty people to chill with
>Move again midway junior year
>Find GF senior year new school
>Move again right after i graduate
>no friends
>>708447562
thats fucked man
>terminal illness
>girlfriend admits to not wanting to be with me anymore
Looks like I'm dying alone.
>>708448671
>yfw
>>708448671
>>708448933
>also yfw
>>708448671
Tough things, what's your illness anon?
>>708448933
Cancer fucking sucks man.
I don't feel good either, if it means anything to any of you. You know that person that changed everything about you, that was just.... perfect? That person just fell into my life one day, and made me feel again. I lost her recently. I may see her again one day, but that's just wishful thinking at this point. I'll never know if she still thinks of me, or if I had as much of a positive effect on her. But here's hoping. I love you Cynthia. Thank you for loving me. I hope you find happiness. Maybe if I'm lucky I'll even be able to help.
Well, these dog posts are making me tear up, so I might as well participate.
My dog Bowie died a few months back. We also have a cat named Lizzie. They were virtually inseparable, and when my grandparents came to live in my house with their small dogs, he would protect her. They would lie together and Lizzie would often lick Bowie's head. He got older and older, developing a gray beard, and a bad hip. Eventually, it was time. I was away at school, so I didn't get to say good bye, but that's just part of it.
After Bowie was gone, Lizzie seemed to have a mental breakdown, resulting in her taking on some of Bowie's traits.
Lizzie was never friendly toward us, but now cuddles with us on the couch, much like Bowie used to.
She was never afraid of thunder, but Bowie was. After Bowie passed, Lizzie hides in my closet whenever a storm passes over.
My theory is that Lizzie could not handle the death of Bowie, so she took on part of his personality so that he would "live".
Picture is them. Sorry if this is poorly written, I'm sailing up the Intracoastal, so I'm fairly tired.
> grandpa died last week
I knoe everybody says their grandparents were awesome. But the only reason im alive is because of him.
I dont know what to do with my life anymore. I own a house. I have money. But I feel so empty.
Fuck
>>708443726
Dude, same. She was almost in the same position, too. I wasn't even able to be there when she finally went under because I was half way across the country. My little sister called me when she hurt herself thinking that she only dislocated her leg. And my first thought was "She's a tough dog. I know she'll be ok." And then later on my dad called me to tell me that she was gone. We found out she had some weird bone cancer that dissolved the leg she broke. When my dad told me, all I could think was "I fucking jinxed it." I loved that fucking dog. She was the best friend I've ever had. She didn't deserve what she got
>>708449660
>dog died that we'd had for years since I was a little kid
>she just went to her bed, laid down, then died peacefully
>we put the dog bed with her body still in it in the garage
>my dad got home later that night and went to see the body
>go in just as he's leaving
>he sniffles
>only time I've seen a hint of him crying
>year or so later
>other dog starts getting old
>starts slowing down
>has arthritis or something
>wails and whimpers at night in pain
>sit with him one night not knowing how to feel about that he'll die soon
>stay with him until he relaxes a bit so he can sleep
>one day I come home from school and he's not there
>parents had him put down while I was at school
>didn't get to properly say goodbye or be there when he died
>next few years miss the hell out of him being happy to see me when I come home form school, still do
I miss my dogs so much, could have used their friendly faces as things got harder into my late teens, I loved them so much dogs are so loyal and loving, in some ways more so than people, never take them for granted guys
be with girl who is super cool
>kinda
>she wants to get married after year and half of dating
>relationship went the way of me ignoring my friends and not really going about and doing anything
>come to think of it
>this has been pretty much middle school
>ive been in a relationship pretty much all of my life
>21 now and i feel like i am going to piss away the good years where im independant and dont have enough responsibility to really fuck up life yet
>dont want to wake up when im 40 and realize i hate the person im with and resent not doing anything when i was young
>start having existential crisis
>want to break up with girl
>but dont because i dont want to hurt her or fuck anything up
>>708451168
I feel this right now, with a girl that I feel could be the love of my life and I won't find anyone else like her.
But I've pretty much had to give up going out drinking and hanging out with all but two of my friends.
I don't want to hurt her or fuck things up by doing those things anyway because I love her and she loves me but I still want to live my life
>>708451543
Then live your life with her?
>>708451639
She doesn't want to go out and hates drinking in clubs and bars and just wants to stay in with me watching movies and shit, classic date nights, which is cool and everything but fuck me some of the best times I've had is going out drinking with my friends
>>708442921
I envy people who are depressed because they feel like they don't fit in or are persecuted or what have you, because they can solve those problems, and failing that, they have a way out (or so they believe).
But when I get hit with a depressive state, it's always because there is, fundamentally, no way out. I think about how there's no God, or no afterlife, and how I'm gonna die, and the earth will eventually disintegrate and the sun explode and the universe itself go out. And there's no solving that, or finding an escape; I'm going to lose everything and everyone I love, nothing I ever do will mean anything, it's all a joke and will come to a complete and utter end.
What the fuck do I do with that kind of thought lodged in my head?
>>708442921
>That feel when dubs
>>708451877
It sounds like you have a fear of death as well as a case of rock bottom depression
>>708451877
Accept it? Sounds like you haven't.
>>708451849
I mean you guys cant always be sitting at home watching movies.
She's gotta let you go out like once a week. Or even a couple weeks right?
>>708451849
I think one thing you have to look at is what direction are your friends going? Are they getting into serious relationships or want to be in one because once a relationship happens, this is going to happen. Theyre going to leave just like you did. Their priorities shift.
Dont fuck up a good relationship because you want to live like you did and then didnt have any friends to hang out with soon after
>>708452037
Just the thought of me being out upsets her and fucks her up, she's got deep issues and is super attached to me. Last two times I went out she was quite upset and angry about it, not so much angry at me just angry that she can't spend as much time with me as she wants cause we can only see each other a few days a week.
>>708451543
the one thing that sucks is its not just going out and being with my friends. I want to experience new things and find out who i am and to learn what it really means to not have to worry about anyone or report back to somebody and having to compromise how i think i want to live my life. she doesnt like doing anything. and getting her to try something new is almost always painful
But like. thats it. shes fucking cute and she isnt a whore. but is an amazing person at heart. and i just cant bring myself to do it
>>708452220
Yeah that's why I don't mind too much since all my friends went to uni anyway but the friends that did have relationships came out with their SO who was already part of our group and I was already friends with
>>708452714
If that's real I don't know how the fuck he's still going
suicide is starting to become an option for me and i'm so fucking scared
>>708452036
Easier said than done. I mean, of course it is.
Hell, it gets to the point where half of me is stuck in that shitty black with nothing to do but quietly panic, and the other half is simply angry I'm still dealing with it when I should be able to just sit here and watch a retarded comedy on TV without seeing or hearing some completely innocuous sight or statement that causes the mental dominoes leading to "Fuck, it all means nothing"
It's my belief that maybe eventually, humankind as a species may get to a point where it can not only face that kind of information without deluding themselves with some kind of Iron Age spirituality, but overcome it and continue with their lives. But I feel like where I am now, I'm at some sort of shitty "missing link" stage where I'm mentally unable to look at reality and think "The guy who made this shit not only cares that I'll live or die, but that if I jack off I'm an abomination", but also incapable of dealing with the ramifications.
Is it because I had religion imbibed so fundamentally in my upbringing? Could I have prevented it?
Story Time... >Be me, 3 year old >Crackhead mom shitty low income housing, welfare baby > Get cat >Cat is a beautiful white furred cat named Isabel >Be me, love cat. >Cat got pregnant from other cats penor >5 Kittens born >4 white furred girls >1 Brown Furred Tabby. >Ignore the white kittens, focus on Tabby >Dub him oddball. >Oddball becomes my best friend >Besides stepping on tail once, I love the cat, do everything with him. >Mom tells me she is selling the cats. To a farmer. Fucking bitch. >Grandparents step in, say they would take one cat. I got to pick. I told them that obvious choice. >Go apeshit bananas, keeping cat >Live with grandparents 5 days a week, spend most of my waking moments outside of school with Oddball. Renamed to Gunther. >Mother leaves Canada at age 7.... >Gunther gets sick, throwing up blood... >Don't know wot do? Continue?
I know that this isn't as severe as other people's problems in this thread, but here it goes.
My ex left me for another man almost a year ago. She was using me for my money and near the end of the relationship she was trying to make me purchase her jewelry on credit. She also didn't visit me or even call when I had to spend a week in a hospital. I actually called her from the hospital and asked her if she knew what was going on with me and all she said was "kinda, I hope you feel better."
We were together for almost four years before she left me. She's a piece of shit who manipulated the fuck out of me to get whatever she wanted. The fucked up part is that almost a year later I still miss her. I don't want her back, but there's not a day that goes by that I don't think about her.
I know this is bullshit and other people have it way worse than me, and I feel very guilty about even feeling the need to tell someone, but it is what it is. I'm not expecting a reply, I just thought I'd get it off my chest.
>>708453668
>be me
>always planned/accepted I'll commit sudoku by the time I'm 20/early 20s if my life is still a train wreck
>20th birthday is less than a month away
>still don't have a job
>still have a sense of oncoming doom
>still see no hope in the world
>still feel like I'll never have purpose or meaning
>still see my life crumbling before my eyes
>Getting scared that I might just do it just to save a lifetime of numbness and nothingness
>>708450558
I know how you feel, anon. Let me tell you a story of my own
>Be 2006
>Be a young boy
>Had a very old cat, roughly 18 years old
>Had been there since before I was born
>Love my cat with all my heart
>One day get the news that he's terminally ill, got told it was throat cancer
>A few days later, be walking home from school
>My mom and brother came driving from behind me, stop beside me on the road
>Mom is in tears, ask her what's wrong
>They had taken my cat to the vet, had him put down
>World stops spinning, time freezes
>I forgot what happened next, but they both drive home, I arrive a few minutes later
>See my cat's cage in the hallway, cat is inside
>Walk up to the cage, open it
>Break down and hold cat in my arms for what felt like hours
>Heartbroken for days
I teared up reading your story and was reminded of this. Real feels.
Also, sorry for long post. Bad at keeping things short.
>>708454047
Learn to greentext you fuckwit
>>708454065
I found true love. It was fucking fantastic.
Then >>708451877 >>708453933
This fucking ride never fucking ends till it ends. FUCK.
Had a dream last night
Like most dreams, some scenes are vivid, but others are vague
>Me, in some sort of private school
>Most everyone there are dudes
>There's one girl that they all like, and he has red hair
>They all chase after her
>I follow as well, but see that she slipped into an alley behind a building
>I go in, and see her staring at a highway
>I make some sort of remarked about how strange it is that all these people are driving with an important purpose, and how it's kinda silly that they were chasing you in the grand scheme of life
>She looks at me and says "But you were chasing me, weren't you anon"
>I reply "But I found you"
And then I woke up
I don't have friends or any romantic chances irl so I made them up in a fucking dream
>>708454815
She*
I wonder how it feels. To have friends. To not spend every day wishing that you weren't different, to know what it is to hear, see and walk like everyone else, what it is to find love, what it is to find hardship, dedication, emotion of any sort.
Being born deaf, getting crippled in a car accident, losing an eye... I wihs I could do something but fantasize about being the people outside my window, living the lives they live. It's always fun for a while. Until they see me and walk away faster than they approached.
>Give me a reason to wake up every day.
pic related, I like ducks.
>>708454815
I've had plenty of dreams where I make or know friends who I love more than life itself, only to wake up and quickly forget them.
But never the feeling of loving somebody so completely... fuck.
>>708453933
You don't need meaning in life (and to a ways, it really does mean nothing), I've always "gone with the flow", I've always been agnostic, my parents never asked me of anything, accept to be happy, and not die; I've learned to start hating everything (accept the stuff I love), my dad has joined me in the hate, so I got that going for me.
You don't need to care about anything, just try to figure yourself out; I haven't, but thats ok, you don't seem to have either, but thats also ok; love of people haven't, and never will. And by the way religion isn't the source of the problem.
>high school
>get schedule, realize I have no lunch period
>whatever, I'll eat during health class
>butwaittheresmore.wav
>no lunch means no time to see my friends
>never seeing my friends means drifting away from them
>freshman year is alright
>next three years I'm completely alone
>go to college
>don't bother to make new friends because I've convinced myself that I don't need them
I sort of know that I do.
>>708455292
Is this copypasta?
>>708455351
aww nooo
I need somebody to tell me to stop wallowin in self-pity and do something.
>>708455577
Oh. Well, ever thought about getting a pet duck?
>>708455438
*love of people haven't
*lots of people haven't
>>708442921
>>708455741
inhumane. they deserve to be in the wild. not trapped in here, like I am.
At least I live in Canada and can collect disability pension... but now I'm a leech on society...
>>708455735
Yo dude you need to stop wallowing and shit like go outside and listen to frank ocean or some shit
>>708455929
>>708455577
>>708455292
Just fucking kill yourself faggot. go leech somewhere else you dumb filthy disabled tard nigger.
>>708455929
Fair, I respect your view on pet ducks. And I wouldn't say that you're a leech. You'd be a leech if you could go out and get a job today, but since that's not the case, then you're either forced to accept disability pension or not have any kind of income.
By the way, if you don't mind me asking; how old are you?
>>708456248
Is it summer already?
part 1
>>708456271
21... born deaf. Father in prison because of conflict with me, he hit me with shovel, eye popped out at 16. Mom died in the same car crash that crippled me on my way to university at 19... I'm 22
>>708446856
dear lord what is the name of this comic I love it
>>708456497
and part 2 so do i win?
>>708455438
>And by the way religion isn't the source of the problem.
Maybe not, but it was pretty much the catalyst. Just a random night waiting to fall asleep and it all hits me that so much of what I was raised with makes no sense, can't be reconciled, and can't possibly be true. And when one of the foundations of your upbringing and psyche turns out to be false, the whole fucking building comes tumbling down.
I've come to a tentative conclusion that alot of it really is simply having had a screw knocked loose in my head from the personal enormity of my whole revelation. The pieces can be put back together and I could find some closure, possibly... probably need to hit off with a shrink.
>>708456523
sorry. said 21, but 22. im not the best at typing.
>>708455459
>no lunch period
what
>>708447562
Fucking hell man if that's oc I hope ur ok
>>708447359
Dear god ..
>>708456737
Not oc but I've felt that feel before although she didn't directly say it
>>708456523
probably fake. and gay. amirite bois?
>>708443266
ok i understand ur point we love our dogs man but seriously letting your dog eat anything other than raw meat is fucking with its stomach
>>708456908
that last frame though...
>>708456908
In the new comics, they retcon it so Freeze is actually just obsessed with the first woman to be cryogenically frozen and convinces himself that they're lovers. It makes it half sadder, and half just more stupid.
we have a feels on wheel telegram group if anyone wants to join. Usually silent, has folks from feels threads telegram.me/joinchat/DTvISUEwvQQLaDeLU6wFEw
>>708456523
Damn dude, I know it doesn't mean a lot, but I'm sorry. For that much to happen to one person... I honestly can't believe it. I honestly hope things are okay for you now, all things considered.
Also, sorry for any typos or whatever, feels are taking over from all the shit posted in this thread.
>>708457223
My gf told me she loved me as I plowed into her prone-bone bareback a couple hours ago.
>>708455975
>frank ocean
Leave dude
>>708443266
Reminds me of the 3 cats I used to have when I was a kid.
Peppar, Precious and Stanley, I miss you everyday.
>>708457337
it's ok. thank you Anon. I'll be lurking...
>>708457337
You've made me feel better tonight. Which is more than anyones done for me in 3 or so years...
>>708456535
eh this is just a pity party anyways :P
>>708443266
FUCK, MAN
Nothing gets me like dog feels.
>be me, 9
>go on vacation with the fam
>go to Australia
>we spend days at the beach
>me and older bro swim every day
>I suck at swimming so we stay near beach
>one day decide to impress brother by swimming to where my feet touch
>brother follows
>we're chilling and splashing each other
>suddenly look back and we're farther out than we thought
>I panic
>we try swimming back but we're getting pulled further
>see the lifeguard jump in
>I'm struggling and exhausted
>brother is too
>we are very very far out now
>"hang on to me anon"
>grip my brother's shoulders
>he's trying his hardest to swim in
>can't do it
>we start going under
>I let go
>gasping and shit
>idk what to do, I'm flailing
>suddenly feel brother again and grab on
>lifeguard finally gets to us
>drags me and brother on board
>they try CPR for him at beach
>he goes to hospital
>later dies
>that feel when you killed your brother
>>708448053
i could shed a tear
>>708450761
>word porn
>>708457412
No kill yourself
>>708457676
if this is true i'm so sorry anon. you didn't kill him though. don't do that to yourself.
FACT
>>708457973
On the other hand, he totally did and should feel terrible.
/S in case you're an idiot.
More Fact
>>708457676
Fuck. I'm so sorry anon.
AND A FACTARENO
>>708457642
Anytime, my dude. I wish I could do something for you, but I doubt there's anything I can do.
>>708457973
I've been told by everyone it wasn't my fault, but you never really shake the feeling. I just live for him now, do what I think he would have wanted.
>>708458402
Fuck off
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dTZQ2IB_x7c
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7iTfm0iEMUU
>>708458402
>>708458483
Nice Facebook mom pics
>>708458491
NO XD
>>708458616
THANKS M8 XD
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=k8yKTuvRmPE
>>708456451
what is this? is there more?
>dad left
>mom doesn't care about me
>nobody really likes me
>have one close friend which is on steam
>no friends irl
>dont talk to no one
>had a couple relationships but I lost interest
>all I do is sit in my room all day and play games on a shitty laptop and browse /b/
>>708459011
welcome to 4chan we are all hear for the same reason
>>708442921
>>708459011
think you have it bad? kek
>>708456523
>>708447778
God damned gooks
FACT
>>708459219
I don't have it bad I just feel useless?
>>708459407
>>708458634
>XD
Here's some A1 cancer
>>708459136
Fuck
>>708457676
Fuck. I'm so sorry that had to happen to you anon. I'm gonna go check in on my little brother now.
>>708443266
My dog's dying of cancer and this hit me hard
>>708459548
OOOOOOOOOOOOOO YOU MAD BRO
>>708459605
>i touch the window of my apartment every morning, 6:30am, and i tell her i still love her, and i want her to be happy.
THey killed ma dag :(
Story Time...
>Be me, 3 year old
>Crackhead mom shitty low income housing, welfare baby
> Get cat
>Cat is a beautiful white furred cat named Isabel
>Be me, love cat.
>Cat got pregnant from other cats penor
>5 Kittens born
>4 white furred girls
>1 Brown Furred Tabby.
>Ignore the white kittens, focus on Tabby
>Dub him oddball.
>Oddball becomes my best friend
>Besides stepping on tail once, I love the cat, do everything with him.
>Mom tells me she is selling the cats. To a farmer. Fucking bitch.
>Grandparents step in, say they would take one cat. I got to pick. I told them that obvious choice.
>Go apeshit bananas, keeping cat
>Live with grandparents 5 days a week, spend most of my waking moments outside of school with Oddball. Renamed to Gunther.
>Mother leaves Canada at age 7....
>Gunther gets sick, throwing up blood...
>Don't know wot do?
Continue?
>>708459852
>>708459907
NO
>>708459907
Continue pls
>>708460011
ok... dubs dont lie
>>708460091
dubs dont lie m8
>>708459907
Continue
>Take Gunther to vets, Crying.
>Told that if he doesn't get a lot of help, he will die
>My grandparents do it. For the cat, and for me.
>I cradle Gunther in my arms wrapped in a towel and feed him the medicine he needed to get better for 3 months.
>Go to get again
>Gunther will be fine
>Vets are amazed
>9\10 cats die from what Gunther had.
>Happy again.
>Be me, no friends at school, lonely Anon. >Get bullied like shitty beta, left out, not wanted.
>Go home and say nothing.
>Go lay in my room
>Gunther comes up to me and puts himself under my arm.
>I cry and tell Gunther every one of my troubles
> I tell him all of my feels
> The feels of never having a birthday party where someone showed up, the feels of having no father and a mother that abandoned me, the feel of being a liability to my grandparents who loved me so dearly
>Spend every day for 5 years like this
>Things going like usual.
>At school
>Get call from hospital
>Grandpa has less than 24 hours to live
>Don't know wot do...
continue
IM DIEIN HEAR XD
>>708460317
NO
>>708459907
Yes continue please
>>708460376
Nah
>>708460475
>>708460317
Yes
my ramen noodles spilled in the microwave and half of them were undercooked
>>708460652
congrats 4 u
>>708455735
Where is that goddammn buzzcut you said you were gonna get today? You need to look serious for the...stuff...you have fucking planned. Self-pity isn't gonna work, faggot. Do it right fucking now at 10:42 PM so you can get through with it and be done.
>>708460851
How the fuck are you still going :'(
>>708460837
>>708460902
>>708460652
>>708460317
>>708459907
>>708459605
>>708459588
>>708459011
>>708458615
>>708460981
LEL
>>708460317
>Grandpa tells me he loves me
>stayed with him overnight
> I wake up
>He started shaking
>Died In front of my eyes
>Go home.
>ffw a few months
>Grandma becomes an alcoholic
>No more tears to cry.
>Gunther comes to me
>He just lays with me through the night. I didn't deserve a cat like him. Ffw 1 year
>1st year of high-school, finally make friends
>Go home and play with Gunther every night, using a string and making him chase it.
>My marks raise, I start doing more.
>I am happy for the first time since my grandfather passed.
>Things go smoothly for 2 years.
>Grade 11 year. Grandmother ties to kill herself.
>I try to kill myself, twice.
> Gunther brought attention to my body both times. He saved my life.
>I stopped spending time with Gunther. He would wait outside of my room meowing while I was getting high.
>He would be at the door every day when I got home and I just walked right by him.
>He stops eating.
>Take him to vets
>He has an eating problem. Hypo-something... Forgot. Continue.
>>708461008
Fuck off faggot
>>708461104
>>708461136
>>708460855
Thanks buddy :D
>>708461252
>>708461312
You are the cancer /b/ deserves. But not the one it needs right now. Let us feel in peace.
>>708461418
here man
>>708461347
no problem
>>708456529chiara bautista skeleton guy
>>708461630
yes
Not OP but thanks for the feels guys. Good luck, I love you all.
>>708449318
me neither :((
>>708457223
people used to tell me they loved me all the time.
my friends.
my girlfriend.
my family.
but yeah, you're right
i wish i was more intelligent than most
>be me 18
>got on 4 chan at 11 pm
>looked on /b/ for a min
>found this shitty pity party
>posted some pity
>asked if I won
>no response
>lel.exe
>start shit posting
>shit post so hard I now have a folder dedicated to it
>saw other guy shit post
>shit post bro *wink*
>people get mad
>still shit post
>laugh my ass of
>realise I have been shit posting a pity party for a hour
>hit pic limit
>my face when
Been suffering from anorexia after I found comfort eating not helping. The pain of 2-3 days of not eating is starting to hurt me to the point that I puke. Been crying myself to sleep over and over again rarely sleeping without nightmares. Gotten to the point where I may take some blood thinners, coke and slice away with a snare around my neck so when I fall I hang myself. All I think is about this... Sad world we live in luckily I'll go unheard and not cared upon.
>>708462178
Sorry but anon that spilled his ramen wins this thread :( </3
>>708462178
>also realise I'm the reason this thread still lives
>probably going to make a sandwich
>lay in bed
>watch a movie on netflix
>sleep
>and then come back on tomorrow and use the pics in the folder to SHIT POST SOME MORE XD
>>708462276
i have all those problems minus anorexia...i understand to a certain extent..sometimes i think im the only one
>>708462406
LEL it k don't want to win at this point just piss of a pity party
>>708459136
well, that's my post if anyone has any questions ill answer them i guess. -Adonis
>>708462514
Chill out big lad
>>708462276
Go to a hospital now
>>708462551
so, how are you holding up now?
>>708462650
that doesnt help
Feel music
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KckCsw_JyJI
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=K2C6G3PCpqw&
>>708462855
Honestly, i'm depressed and conflicted, i don't want to ruin her finally steady life, by reuniting with her, shes been all over this country, and lives a far more depressing life than i do, so ultimately i feel the sting of not being with her, but she knows the sting of never truly feeling loved, i guess what im trying to say is, if shes happy i want her to be happy. -Adonis
>>708462498
Once you learn how to comfort yourself with pain its not that bad, lost loads of weight which I guess is great but not this way. (240/250 Varies down to 210/215 within a month n bit). Water really does help that and Rolaids. I have been comfort eating for years but within a couple of months my life has greatly changed.
>>708461104
Please continue...please, i'm really getting into this
/b/ros, my girlfriend of just over month just dumped me for no real reason. "Its not you its me" typical bullshit.
There are two other girls that are interested in me but they're both manic and drug crazy, what do?
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=A3qBbLyRixg
>>708463054
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=k-c4cMGYXQs
here's some other feels music
>>708461104
>Gunther is very sickly
>Moving less
>Doing less
>Eating less
>He still gets up every day and waits for me
>He starts to get better
>we’ve been giving him meds.
>Vet say he will be ok. Just bloated stomach.
>Two months pass
>Wake up >Gunther is meowing quietly, and has trouble standing.
>Its just gas. Ignore it.
>Come home. Gunther is at the top of the stairs, laying on his side. Staring at me with his beady green eyes.
>Rush him to vets in my grandfather’s old car
>Rush him in. Tears in my eyes. "HELP HIM!"
>They come out. Tell me he has a tumor. Couldn’t see it because of the bloating.
>They are going to out him down. Let me come in. >He meows one last time, puts his paw on me and passes away...
>I'm crying, how could I let this happen.
>Vets tell me he should have died weeks ago, that no cat would be able to walk none the less meow in this condition...
>"He must have really loved you Anon, he was a strong cat" He waited for me even the day he died and I ignored him. I told him all of my sorrow, all of my happiness. He was there keyhole life. From my first memory until a few years back. I was going to be a drug addict, a drop out, an alcoholic, but no more. I'll do my best. For him. I refuse to be like everyone else. To feed in. I'll be strong. I'll be an oddball. That's it for me tonight. I can't write more
btw Im the shit poster hear to say some edgy words before I go gotta finish the full hour
>the world sucks and everyone needs to get over it
>I hate my life and you hate yours
>our best bet it to live till we feel accomplished
>for me seeing my kids become adults
>then I dont care for life to behonest ill kill my self in the middle of the woods and become "one with nature or some shit"
>and when I do die
>no tears
>only booze weed and a fucking party
>because I love my family and the know I want them to be happy and to not cry for me but remember me
>also tell each other who im gonna haunt btw ima fuck with my family so hard when i'm dead
>like if you place something down that shits guna be gone for a week and your going to find it in the weirdest fucking place
>anyways
>live till you feel good about it
>then end it
>go out on your terms
>because then no one can hold you to anything you didn't want then to
>stay happy guys
>THE SHIT POSTER!
>>708463067
I cannot seem to escape my own thoughts. I have so many demons in my brain attacking me every single minute. I wish i could stop them. I am caged inside my own brain
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Mgv88ZLi6LY
>>708447175
Bruh same
>>708463334
First ever feels story that made me cry...Thank you
>>708463346
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Y1D3a5eDJIs
>>708463060
that's quite mature actually, you know how much you want to be with her. id bet more than anything, yet you understand that conflicting her for this would be more damaging, and would only serve to harm her, so you stay in pain for her sake. Damn, wish i had that much self control.
one cannot simply escape from ones brain
>>708463334
Jesus Christ, that's hard stuff. I hope you'll be able to keep pushing on anon :(
>>708463733
sure you can! Become a sociopath, rekt threads, leave feels threads, begin taking a third person perspective on everything. Your mind cant control what no longer exists.
>>708463368
Music, drugs, pain, hobbies, food really in the end you will find something to help you. Personally I've found this is helping. In the end it really doesn't matter if we die. Just another dust particle from a star.
It'll be a sad day when I go for my good friend. She's the reason I haven't. I told her about these things 2 days ago and shes helping me. Forced me to eat today for the first time in 3 days. Forced me to tell her I wouldn't do it. In the end, you have to find a reason, I've found mine but I don't think thats enough.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=13gxiapsaRs
>>708463644
well, arguable mature i love her theres no doubt, but im sure her husband does too, i dont ever want to ruin the life of the person i love, i guess my own pain will always come behind her happiness, after all she's the only person who ever made me feel purpose, its fair i do the same. -Adonis
Funny thing, this is the place I feel most accepted. 4chan. A place notorious for being full of shitty people.
Here people actually listen to what I have to say and often enough agree with me or at least willing to discuss. IRL people will just talk over me, ignore me, or try and make me feel like shit for having an idea or opinion even if I can back it up. People normally do everything they can to tear me down. I've also had more people try to cheer me up on /b/ than have ever tried it irl. 4chan has straight up saved my life sometimes by simply being full of bros willing to treat everyone equally including me. Sure it's damn sure not the equal the tublrinas like but here you're a fucking equal.
4chan is something special, even though we're all a bunch of complete assholes we're assholes together.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7IkvAb6THQY
>>708463930
trying to find a reason, but it is quite hard when you look all around you and nothing is really real. our society, our things, our "freedom" . it scares me knowing how many people out there are pure sheep
>>708463875
youre right. but it is hard when i literally dont beleive in society...it is all an illusion of freedom. I wish this world was a different place sometimes
>>708443266
cried
>>708464034
I get what you mean. Imo people tend to come to 4chan when they feel cast out, this is just a place for us to feel a part of belonging to something. And people that are here in each thread are where they want to be. People in feel threads are here because they need to feel or want to be of help to people who are having a feel, whereas IRL people are just going about their days and don't give a shit about us.
Hope some of that made sense.
>>708464143
the scary thing about sheep, is they never recognize they are part of a machine, they spend their time believing their viewpoints are special, becoming greater pawns. they think they have original thoughts not some indoctrination or subtle advertising done through celebrities or other media. Sheep are terrifying, because they don't think.The apparent ease of mass manipulation, and its power is what makes sheep perhaps the most dangerous thing in this world. -Adonis
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=80214E8FuBo
>>708447620
Why does that hurt so much?
>>708464143
If I may ask, what bothers you? Is it just the shear fact that everyone seems the same? They are just like you. Trying to find a reason, trying to complete their dreams, their goals, their wishes and there happiness. In the end yes it doesn't matter if we die we'll be forgotten blown into the sky but answer me this. Why. Why take it and end it this way? I've gotten to the point of no real return. She knows she's helping me but in the end I just think its time for me. Either way mate, in the end everyone is slightly special. They have their own personalities their own hopes and dreams. We are not just sheeps among the fields. We are me and you.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kWChhdIgT6Q
>>708464443
of course it does, its so socially awkward to console someone in real life, we all share this "man-up"mentality, here when someone is hurting, they aren't in pain in solidarity, that's why people like all of you have saved my life.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KnrGMHhnqrw
>>708464866
please stop sharing your generic music, unless you have something that doesnt follow some "feels formula", give me an original sounding sad song.
>>708464649
I wish i could save the world. but im not that special. If i could i wouild start a revolution. This world needs a reset button. The rich are controlling everything, not enough people are awake. Everyone i know is attached to their phones, in public, no one talks to eachother. there is a huge lack of communication...People fake their own life on social media trying to validate their own existence
>>708464836
I'm glad we could help you anon, feels good to be helpful
>>708465134
well worded, i share that sediment. -Adonis
>>708464706
What bothers me is the fact that everyone i know lives in their tiny made up bubble. The world of the naive. I would love to be able to live in that little perfect world bubble. Yet i cant, I know all the duffering in this real world is real...
>>708465166
Just by reading the posts of other anons, you help bare their burdens, you were never worthless, to me your as worthwhile as anyone, you are truly my equal friend, im not talking about tumblr equal, i mean i recognize you as equal.
>>708465278
Oh, I don’t know. Is it that we collectively thought Steve Jobs was a great man, even when we knew he made billions off the backs of children? Or maybe it’s that it feels like all our heroes are counterfeit. The world itself is just one big hoax. Spamming each other with our burning commentary bullshit masquerading as insight; Our social media faking as intimacy. Or is that we voted for this? Not with our rigged elections, but with our things, our property, our money. I’m not saying anything new, we all know why we do this. Not because Hunger Games books makes us happy, but because we want to be sedated. Because it’s painful not to pretend, because we’re cowards.
Fuck Society
>>708464997
whatever man you're free to post your own shit
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_DxBx4FyTqY&
we live in a kingdom of bulllshit
>>708465287
If I may ask you one more question. What made you feel this way? The world is not perfect rather its quite bitter and painful but why not just do what you seem fitting? I have had this crippling depression for years now since I was 16 now 23. My realization that I am going to pass and be forgotten has comforted me loads. This world is not perfect but its what you make it to be that makes it worth living. In my case its my good friend. She knows I know but in the end I think its long over do.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uUWrcFpmI5U&
>>708452714
10/10. Where are these girls?
>>708447359
>>708447562
Delete this
>>708465769
I wish i could do whatever i want but instead i have peoiple looking to me for answers and i dont want to let people down...i care too much about other people
>>708465287
We all want to see a perfect world, one which is free from the destruction we all see. i wish it just as much as anyone, but you have a gift, you've seen through this mess of political lies, third party/opiniated lies about the world, you see the world for what it is, so each time you think about wanting to live in this world, realize, you were given a gift, the gift of true objectivity. -Adonis
