feels thread cont from >>708256624
The stories and information posted here are artistic works of fiction and falsehood.
Only a fool would take anything posted here as fact.
Only a fool would take anything posted here as fact.
feels thread cont from >>708256624
>>708291967
It isnt okay, enough?
now story, what have you done
And to the anon who said about is it ok to leave someone even if it will hurt them to save more hurt later on.
Why only 2 solutions, why not better yourself instead of giving yourself only 2 options.
What do you b/ros drink right now?
>Cheap whiskey and beer
>>708292453
>>708292601
I can't
Don't know why
Maybe I got hurt too much in the past
Maybe I'm just an asshole or psychopath
>>708292601
well, currently just stealing beer now and again to take the edge of this pain
>>708292601
i got some wine its all i can afford atm
>>708292750
you should try at least
>>708292750
what did you do that you will soon be irredeemable. If you don't try to make yourself better and you find yourself in the shit later on, you got no one to blame but yourself
>>708293076
I tried so many times
I thought she could save my life
I know it's selfish but it was my last straw
At the point you realize even this person who is everything for you can't change you you're lost forever
>>708293283
relatable :/
>>708293934
you shouldnt give up, honetly
>>708293508
I know
I don't blame anyone
I know what I did and won't change anything even if I could
I have to live with it
I only have some feel if I reading some of these threads but most of the time I don't feel anything at all so it's ok
>>708294395
you're being too harsh on yourself
>>708294395
but what did you do
>>708294272
I think it's too late
I live for right now and die soon so everything is ok
>>708294685
it's never too late
i kinda just feel like im becoming that edgy fucker that i hate. I mean, ive started drinking and shit, considering weed, generally just sad and confused. And i cant really say anything about the shit that goes on because people are like "youre too young to have these problems" or "just being a teenager". Just an uphill battle
>>708294990
how old are you? because you're probably at that age where it's fairly normal. Most people go through the over emotional stage of their teenage years, I did, and now i'm over it and now studying at uni a degree in something which to me sounds so interesting. I know you've probably heard 'youll get over it' but in most cases its true
>>708294826
Before her I thought the same
Do you ever met a person you would do everything for only to get a smile
Not even that
At the beginning I had did it just to get a "hello" from her
>>708295389
im 14, turn 15 in December. Yes, yes, im a young fucker. I understand that this is all normal for teens, but man, it just seems like everything is just happening to me. None of my friends are at this point. Life just sorta dumped a bunch of shit on me, and was like "well buddy, there ya go"
She broke up with me today. After 7 months. Feels bad man.
been awake for 18h now, before that slept for 5h, before that slept even less i think, i feel dead inside.
Can sleep a lot if i go now but won't sleep because of stress, i have to go to the university and do stuff i really don't like, so i'm just a dumb faggot
Feels bad man to be so stupid to stress over unimportant shit
>>708294990
i know this fucking feeling too well
>depression since kid
>mental ilness is common thing in family
>be the clusterfuck of ocd and anxiety
And people ask why the fuck i'm sad
just dont give up m8, it eventually can get better
>>708295641
thnaks man. Just trying to keep holding on
>>708294990
You have to be 18 to be here newfag
>>708295624
She stopped my doing drugs and drinking. She made me happy.
She's gone.
>>708295762
do people follow rules?
>>708295422
you obviously should get yourself together and get her
>>708295624
She was my reason to live.
>>708295604
>people younger than you are taking over the board
>mfw getting old
>>708295604
Everyone has it at different stages, I had it when I was 16/17 and for a short time when I was 18. Life will throw shit at you, and it'll be awful but it's something you have to get through, can't just go 'well stuff got a bit hard, time to give up', shit happens to everyone, and once you grasp this, more than just acknowledge it, you'll see that this is just a normal part of growing up, but it's usually not until after that you'll realise these things. I was the same and I ignored what people told me, but now that I can look back, I can only agree
>>708295961
yeah, kinda hate the fact that being this young sorta means people dont take anything you say serioisly
>>708296011
yeah, i keep telling myself to just get through high school. Just keep on slogging and it will get better. I hope
>>708295916
She hates me
It's better how it is now
But thank you for trying I really appreciate it
>>708292750
You can't be a psychopath, seeing as you are showing remorse and empathy.
I've been looking for a thread all day to post this in. In some previous threads, I've posted about how my girlfriend was murdered about a month ago. Two days ago Police arrested a man and he's pled guilty. A lot more relaxed now but still feel sick all the time.
>>708295624
>>708295788
>>708295949
Some one?
I know that feel /b/ro
>>708296343
in Leeds?
>>708296395
Yes, do you know of it?
I have too many computer games to play and too little time to do it. This makes me sad. Anyone else feels the same?
>>708296469
remember your post
>>708296279
>Adaptation
But even if I'm not I'm not a good person at all
I don't want to hurt anyone anymore
This is the only solution to do so
>>708296528
Thanks. Do you have any problems anon?
>>708296239
how is it better if you are unhappy
I'm furiously angry at people with small, screaming children in restaurants.
This shit should stop, make the kid silent or GTFO.
>>708296680
Because I know how it hurts
And better hurt myself than anyone else
>>708296865
fuuuucck. That hit with me anon. Feel for you /b/ro
>>708296390
I don't. I'd rather go through a breakup than spend another day as a kissless virgin.
>be me 4 years old half white kid
>have 6 half sisters
>live in disfunctional home
>get physical and sexually abused by one of them
>mom goes away when I was 7 , didn see her since then , Im 21 now .
>became social anxious and autistic teenager cuz traumatized
>find 4chan , and starts liking incest stuff
>lose virginity with my cousin at 17
>wants to fuck my younger half sister
>she doesnts want to so I leave my 3rd world country
>just want to kill myself.
sorry for my shitty engrish,RIP engrish I guess.
>>708296175
Theres always a door to something better. I did shit in my A Levels and i'm now studying Artificial intelligence and Robotics. Never thought i'd get on this course in my life, but i'm here, and I felt like shit when I got my results and thought there was nothing out there for me
i remind myself this pain and sadess means im human
>>708296640
just some relationship stuff, general loneliness, nothing fatal; but thanks for asking.
Hope you will feel better.
>>708296865
it's not right, you're being way too pessimistic.
>>708297164
well, i mean, i plan on joining the Royal Marines. It doesnt require me to even finish high school, but i want to go SF. Means college is on the table. Just tell myself once i get there, ill be happier. I feel like its where i belong(yeah, sounds a bit edgy or whatever, but hey)
>>708296955
Drink my last beer that I can't afford now and then go to sleep
Good night /b/ro
>>708297332
Maybe
>lose job
>it's a temp job, not very important
>start crying anyway, not entirely sure why
>>708297369
Goodnight anon. May you find that happiness that is missing
>>708297353
Ah yes, the military route. Please don't focus too much on it and fuck up your grades thinking 'whatever i'll join the army'. I went through it and about 8 of my friends did too, now none of them want to join. You might feel it's where you belong, but imagine your problems now and multiply them by 30, that's the reality of war and the life of a soldier
>>708295604
Shit man, I know how you feel. I'd give you advice, but I've got a feeling that we've both been through roughly the same shit.
>>708297478
Thank you
>>708297222
I think I'm doing better. I'm able to go to work and stuff. Not that I did much, but I've pretty much avoided contact with everyone except her family, they truly felt like family. I visit her grave most days, it feels right, y'know?
>>708297570
yeah, i want to keep my grades up. The special forces dudes like you to have at least a degree in something. Its just what i feel like i want to do. National pride and shit, but also. I see these guys go off, get shot, blown up, all that. I dont want to sit back and let them go. I want to join them. It isnt just some easy option, its "this is what i want to do, and im willing to die for this flag and the man on my left and right"
>>708297641
Shit, do I say 'shit' too much? Shit.
>>708297641
hey, any advice is appreciated. Anything you need to get off your chest anon?
>Dropped out of school at 15
>Spent the next 6 years barely leaving the house
>Numerous girlfriends, always pushed them away
>Forced to celebrate 21st
>Meet sibblings I was separated from 15 years prior
>Love them to bits
>Skip forward a few months
>Move in with next girlfriend
>Cheats on me
>OD, end up in hospital
>Brother comes to see me
>Starts calling me "dumbass"
>Becomes a trend when we see eachother
>Cut into forearm tendon some weeks later
>Survive and break up with bitch
>Move into 10x10 box for 6 months
>Sister offers better room while she housesits
>Depression kicks back in and end up in psych ward
>Sister comes to see me every day until I'm released
>Smokes weed with me sometimes
>Talk more like old friends than sibblings
>Housesitting ends, nowhere to go, couldn't find anything
>Try to sneak out 1-2am the day I had to leave
>Sister spots me, in tears asks if she can at least have a hug
>"You don't have to go just yet, you can still sleep here for the night"
>Hug her and go
Continue?
>>708295961
Fuck off gramps
>>708295604
modsmodsmods
I got questions lads.
I met this girl in July. We hit it off, she takes my first kiss, we have a great time, talk day and night, we are almost right there. I ask for a relationship, she cries and says no since I'm leaving for the Marine's.
Late August, we get in an argument. We don't speak at all the entirety of September and some of October. Suddenly, she started texting me and snapchatting me like we used to. However, not as consistent.
What is she thinking possibly? Was she bored? Does she want to continue with what we had? Did she want to catch up? Can you /b/ros help?
>>708297845
I think that's noble, but you need to understand the politics behind the war, you aren't fighting for your country, you're fighting for some rich guy who will only profit from you signing up
>>708293283
well shit, that's my post. i guess lll answer any questions if anyone has some. -Adonis
>>708297793
That's good that you feel better. Keep on that anon.
>>708298265
i understand that. Its just, other guys are still going to war. I dont want to be seeing all these guys go off and have all this happening to them. I want to be able to say, "hey, i joined and did my part. I decided that these guys are who im willing to fight with and die for" The politics yes, may be fucked up, but that isnt why i choose to join. It because of the men around me when i join
>abused by mother since birth, pretty much
>physically and emotionally
>father didnt care, or rather, was too afraid to care
>mother abused him too
>mother abused my older step brother, he ran off to stay with his dad at 15
>i was my mothers new target
>dad left my mother
>mother took her anger out on me
>did everything I could to protect my sister
>got tired of mothers shit, left to stay with dad
>left my sister alone with my mother
>regrets
>sister ran off from mother in the middle of the night, alone
>she's scared of the dark
>she was 8 years old
>shit seems to get better being only me, my sis and dad
>dad gets new gf
>she's abusive too but only towards my dad
>sis and I notice it
>i start feeling depressed
>start cutting, A LOT
>drinking
>wanted to do drugs but had no friends
>dad breaks up with gf
>im still cutting and depressed
>dad gets new gf
>she abuses him
>my cutting gets worse, stopped drinking because i no longer had access to alcohol
>go to therapists and doctors
>get medicine
>brand new "Not to be tested on people younger than 18" medicine
>i was 14
>dad continues having abusive gf's
>one of them kills herself after dad left her
>dad now has a gf who has a daughter who is a total fucking idiot
>me and sisters relationship with father is amazing, we can talk about anything
>still i feel depressed
>still im sat here at 00.40 at night, in a feels thread
>mfw i have to get up for work in 4 hours and 20 minutes
>>708298117
Go ahead, anon- most of us have time to spare
>>708295604
haha. you're literally me from 4 years ago. take a look at >>>/g/ and >>>/pol/ (but pol only if you need more confidence because you have gotten some aspergers from >>>/g/). This will literally change your life to the best. I am not joking
>>708298117
>>708298846
>Two days and nights wandering the streets
>Get paid (benefit) and bus into Auckland City
>Buy food, smokes and booze
>Hand out food and money to homeless and cute violin girl
>Make her take the money from my hand instead of dropping into case
>She seemed annoyed
>Not sure why I did that
>Sit out back of train station
>6000mg of quetiapine chased with vodka
>30 minutes basically passing out
>Police arrive and start checking me for weapons
>Someone spotted me taking them
>Ambulance arrive
>Don't remember the ride, just the pain in my chest
>Wheeled into hospital
>Hunched over in agony, heart is killing me
>Probably passed out
>Woke up and explained to cute nurse when she wakes me to change my IV "I thought I saw you inside a TV juggling"
>She shrugs
>Wake up 6:30am
>Doctor taps on IV line to wake me
>Instantangryjustadddickmove.jpg
>Have a go at him
>Told it's time to leave
>No psych team this time
>Barely able to stand
>Almost collapse putting shoes on
At this point I'll mention that cheating bitch gave my cat away.
I'll always miss you Lucifer
Continue
>>708298117
>>708299179
>Orderly's escort me outside, say they'll call a cab
>Notice I don't have my personal belongings, just clothes
>"I need to go back in, I left my stuff"
>Orderly's block me
>"No, you need to call a cab, do you have somewhere you can go?"
>"No I don't, and what am I going to call a cab with? my phone and wallet are inside!"
>Few minutes of screaming later they let me go back in
>Storm out and have a smoke
>Can't think of anything to do
>Mind is cloudy, legs can barely stop trembling
>Quetiapine fucked me pretty good
>Decide to walk to train station
>Actually catch train this time
>Feels nostalgic... used to catch train from home to town to see girlfriend
>Mood improves a bit, memories of happier times
>Get off at my old stop and walk to grandfathers
>Grandfather is at work, bitch bother is there instead
>Sit outside for I don't know how many hours
>Grandfather finally comes home
>Few more hours later he comes to talk to me
>Explain situation
>Allowed to stay on couch for a few nights
>Arrange a place to stay in south island
>Grandfather pays for ticket
>Cram all of my belongings into a box (PC) and a bag (everything else)
>First time flying, girls on either side of me try to pretend I don't exist
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>>708299179
cont.
>>708298117
>>708299179
>>708299900
Shit at green text
>Land and meet new room mate
>4/10 but nice enough
>Start dating
>Start going to see shrink for depression
>She starts getting aggressive
>Yelling at me every day for stupid shit
>Arguing with me as a bad idea, I switch off and just attack a weak point
>One day she comes to me with a knife in one hand, bottle in the other
>Call cops, not for my safety, for hers
>Tries to kick me out, my name is on the lease
>Getfucked.jpg
>Break up with her
>She starts screaming at me even louder, ugliest crier ever
>Say's she'll go to anger management
>Don't give a shit, done with her
>tardmodeactivate.gif
>She starts smashing her head into a doorframe until she collapses
>Ignore her, back to playing vidya
>Visits to shrink become more and more frequent
>Loudred decides to give me 2 weeks notice
>Talk to psych team, they helping me find a place
>Tell loudred I'll be leaving soon
>"You need to give ME two weeks notice before you go then"
>Lulwut? She already gave me 2 weeks notice
>Find a place, psych team says a few days until its ready
>Loudred throws my stuff outside and calls the cops
>Still a few days to go until place is ready
>Homeless for a while AGAIN
Continue
>>708297845
The thing about the military is that you're one injury away from being unemployed. Grades are vital for a good plan b, so even if all you wanna do is military remember to work hard at school.
Also the military sucks and SF is so hard it's unbelievable you will be pushed beyond your limits every day.
>>708298329
Post face
>>708300852
yeah, that totally wasnt part of my initial problem tl;dr take my word for it because im not an attention whore. -adonis
Hey, Alyssa.
Isn't it funny how karma fucks you up?
All these feelings you made me feel 6 months ago.
Now you feel them 6 months after.
Funny, isn't it?
http://imgur.com/gallery/lLCtX
>>708298117
>>708299179
>>708299900
>>708300603
>Get new landlord to at least hold my stuff for me
>Spend next 3 days wondering streets
>Found a night shelter I can stay at
>Opens at 8pm, free meal and a bed
>One of the nights it was in the negatives, everyone absolutely freezing
>Cute girl shares blanket with me
>Trades medication with me too, codeine for tramadol
>Old guy with leg infection collapses, ambulance comes
>Don't see him around anymore
>Place is finally ready
>Move in, old bed, fold out couch, table, shower, toilet, sink and fridge
>I've lived in worse
>Set up power and internet, start eating properly
>Playing lots of vidya, it's my escape tool
>Feel like I'm finally on top of life
>6 weeks later - Billing finally activates
>Fuck
>Went from $80 a week for food down to $30
>Boots start breaking, wear them until they're completely falling apart
>Buy $5 pair
>Power bill goes up 30% because of new system
>FUCK
>Stop washing clothes to save on laundry
>Depression gets worse
>And worse
>Stopped washing dishes and taking out trash
>Can't be bothered anymore
>Stockpiling SSRI, got enough to coma a room of people now
>Currently writing greentext for /b/ro's
>Pile of trash next to me, pile of trash and dirty dishes in kitchen
>Drinking from filthy mug
>Rolling smokes from smokes that I find on the ground
>Starving 2-3 days of the week
>Don't know how much longer I can do this
>>708301141
>Implying your word has value
Pics or you're just an uggo lying on the internet
>>708298117
bullshit
>>708298117
>>708299179
>>708299900
>>708300603
>>708301603
My baby sister.
She's the only reason I'm still here.
>>708301871
Blood clots slowed the bleeding.
Doctor had to stick her finger under the skin to check if there were more before stitching.
>>708301191
Mfw the girl I had problems with is named Alyssa. Cali?
>>708301871
21st photo of myself and sibblings
I'm the faggot on the left
>>708301603
Life has dealt you some shitty cards my friend
I can only hope it gets better for you man
>>708302033
Blood thinners would of done the trick. Jokes aside I am happy you are here my fellow anon.
>>708292275
Sleep paralysis is getting worse again. The cold sweats are almost every night, the paralysis is weekly. Numbing myself with whiskey and weed isn't working anymore.
>>708302686
sounds like you need ambien
>>708302686
Go do some exercise like a run in the middle of the night. That shit always makes me tired.
>>708302452
I can only hope, if not then lets hope serotonin syndrome hurts less than quetiapine did.
>>708302568
Thinking back I don't think there was anything in the flat that would have helped.
Can't feel most of that arm anymore.
>>708298148
perhaps she just wanted to catch up
sounds like she misses you though forsure
its hard to tell what women are thinking or wanting lol my best guess is she does have feelings for you though.. best to just be honest with her.
>>708292275
>the only girl I could ever relate to propably forgot about me
>I still dream of her
You know what's worst?
I've idealised her so much that even if I'll contact and get along with her it is not going to be the same
>>708303015
Serotonin syndrome is supposed to be horrible and if you survive it all your pleasure centers turn off for good
>>708303328
is there any chance you two would be a couple again?? if yes atleast try
if no, give it more time and be friends with her
>>708303015
hey man just know that some random person through the internet across the world thinks it will only get better from here for you
>>708303168
There's more to it though. That month we didn't talk she started talking to another guy. I found out through a mutual friend. I haven't talked to her since yesterday, or snapchatted her I mean. Idk, but she said recently that we should hang out sometime soon. But that was a few weeks ago.
I don't want to snapchat her or contact her, because I don't want to seem needy. And I'm not, but I still have feelings. She knows i have them too
>>708302831
Already tried pills, shit hasn't worked for me.
>>708295604
I got 15 years on yah and all i can say is get used to it buddy.
>>708303594
Can't get much worse, 14 more hours til next payment and haven't eaten in 2 days.
>>708303464
I'd always heard it caused a coma, if it was serious enough you may never wake.
That being said, I don't want to survive another attempt.
Every time you survive you feel fucking worthless, can't even kill yourself properly.
>>708303644
I hate to break it to you but bitches need the d one way or another, and unless you're providing, someone else will
the best thing you can do is start interacting more, preferably in person
how long have you guys gone without thinking of becoming an hero?
for me i just can't quite remember the day i started thinking about killing myself.
>>708303919
my brain makes me think about it everyday, but I know I would never do it so i try to ignore it
everyday
>>708303901
We use to hang out daily. But since the argument it stopped. I know she hasn't fucked. Mutual friend again. I also don't have a car in the meantime, but she does. I just don't want to ask her to hang out and have no car.
We meet up Wednesday because of a program we are in, but besides that, not much interaction since the arguments.
>no reason to live
>no reason to die
>>708303919
been thinking of it alot anon
everyday i wake up, whats the point?
i got no phone so trying to get a job seems pointless, how do a get job with out a phone?? email me?? yeah doesnt work.
I want to kill myself but i probably won't cause its supposed to get better, right?
>>708304223
I feel you Anon.
Just a perpetual state of nothingness.
>>708304196
try and think about why you two should be together why are you compatable? why should you be together versus anyone else. Thats what you should focus on
>>708303576
We never were a couple, I was always lonely and shy as fuck
I don't want to messenge her first, something tells me it's a bad idea
>>708304355
You can have my phone.
It's one of those pieces of shit drug dealers use and then toss, have it so doctors can call me.
Can't even get an interview, and the one interview I did get my anxiety took over and I couldn't attend.
>>708303837
14 hours probably cant come any faster and I know about failing an heroes but I think its a sign when that happens that its not time to go. Im not religious or any bullshit like that but maybe there was a reason it didnt work?
>>708304109
>>708304355
sorry you feel that way /b/ros. for me i already tried and failed and nothing has really gotten better since the year that passed since that
>>708304666
Nice trips satan
And I failed because I either didn't try hard enough, or just got unlucky, unsure which anymore.
Sometimes it feels like I just can't die, and that's distressing.
>>708304506
Its better to shit your pants than to die constipated
>>708304497
But what does that focus do? We are exact fucking matches. Literally same person in a different body. Everytime we hang it's a blast. She likes doing hood- shit with me, and with everyone else, she just goes and plays a few bowling rounds and eats. That's their night.
She explicitly said before she like hanging out with me before, and dropped a dude to tag with me.
Idk, I just feel like she's being dumb, but I'm being dumb for catching feelings I got over.
>>708295961
lmao I may or may not be younger than him
>The stories and information posted here are artistic works of fiction and falsehood.
Only a fool would take anything posted here as fact.
>>708304666
checked
>>708304836
rough beans man, ive tried to not give a fuck anymore cause whatever is gonna happen is gonna happen and i dont know why but its gonna be what should happen and whatever that is man, I hope we are ''happy'' about it
Does anyone have the Kim story?? I've been trying to find it for a while..
>>708304843
But this way I still have my dreams and imagination
And I spend too much time daydreaming
>>708304355
It doesn't always get better :/
But I wouldn't say kill yourself
>>708304597
Oh i have a shitty flip phone in which i cant pay for
and im in the same boat, even if I did get an interview Id chicken out cause Im also a pussy
>>708305476
It'll get better i just have to fucking do the thing, whatever the fuck that is, idk but one day ill get up and do it even if said thing is killing myself
>>708305713
I talk with maybe 1-2 people a week in person.
Every 3 months I go see a psychiatrist, luckily it's part of a free mental health system, I can't afford an actual doctor.
My ability to be around people is less than limited.
>>708306001
Im an extremely out going person with at least 10 really good friends.. her included.
when it comes to the public and random strangers I just dont know what it is but I just cant, so I feel you why you dont talk to people.
I cant afford a doctor either but live in canada so probably could force it if I needed. is it worth it?
>>708306274
The talking has never worked for me and I'm yet to be put on a medication that actually helps.
If you need a medical certificate for some sort of benefit or want to try medication then it's worth it.
I have one friend, he lives in Australia and I've known him for 10 years now.
>>708306506
Hmmm, Ive never been willing to take medication, I just thought the counselling might work. Theres universal healthcare here in canada similar to the UK and AUS but i wouldnt be covered on the pharma side
least you got somebody man, thats not the worst
>>708306965
I still have to pay for the medication, I've been told over and over to tell WINZ (Work and Income New Zealand) that I'm paying for it and get them to cover it.
I've also been told to add the cost of a bus to my appointment and back to my benefit since I walk an hour there and back.
Both of these things require me to set an appointment and have someone do stuff to my benefit.
I've been fucked by screw ups before, so I just don't try.
>be me
>age 14 or 15
>psuedo-popular kid
>bipolar, suffer from paranoid delusions, my life is scary but I can't tell anyone, I can't hangout with anyone, I can't feel anything except for lust and sadness, over and over
>qt3.14 ghost type girl, lurks halls, no one knows her name
>ask her name one day
>ask her out another day
>ask her to be mine that same day
>she makes my paranoia go away, she makes my thoughts stop, she makes my heart rhythmic
>I start to make real connections with people because she's helped me blossom, I can see who I really am when she's around.
>And then the thoughts come again
>but it's okay, I still have her
>"Anon, I'm tired, I'll see you tomorrow"
Tomorrow never came.
>>708307715
she's a fuckin ghost anon
>>708308135
Leave psych-anon alone
And a futile thing, too. Futile. All futile. What dreams I had of my mate. Of another being looking into these eyes, upon this face, and recoiling not. But how could it happen? For the monster is not in my face but in my soul. I once thought that if I was like other men, I would be happy and loved. The malignance has grown, you see. From the outside in. And this... shattered visage merely reflects the abomination that is my heart. Oh, my creator, why--why did you not make me of steel and stone? Why did you allow me to feel? I would rather be the corpse I was than the man I am. Go ahead. Pull the trigger. It would be a blessing.
>>708308879
beautiful words
it is both a blessing and a curse to feel everything so deeply
>>708309306
if only they were my words, i cant take credit.
https://youtu.be/FPiu4QmJyWs
The person who got me out of a really shitty place and was there for me recently stopped talking to me because she got a bf, been that way for a few months. Its a tough thing to get through once you lose the only thing holding you up. Beneath the mask is just a simply broken person who just cant take it anymore.
Just cut again after 2 weeks of not doing it. Doesn't sound like much but yeah, don't know how long I can keep going /b/ros
>>708309664
>>708309948
You can keep going. Trust me.
>>708310030
Thanks b/ro
>>708310055
No where to go, once again im lost in the dark and lonely trenches of saddness and self hate.
https://youtu.be/u1UZHXB_r6g
>>708310055
Idk man, the periods of happiness that I experience are getting shorter and shorter. I'm fucking 19 years old, I should be out doing shit with my life but I'm sat inside playing vidya.
>>708310257
I'm this fag
>>708307715
If I can make it through Bipolar you can make it through depression.
Such a man is not strong than thy.
>>708309948
A bad habit I've so far managed to kick, unfortunately it left scars.
The worst part about it is I remember why each and every one of them are there, and it just makes me feel worse :(
My arm after getting stiches out from a few years ago.
It might help now, but it will only hurt you in the long run, however long that may end up being.
>>708310279
Im the exact same :/ she was everything to me but finding out i wasnt even as close as i thought to her broke me.
>>708310425
Yeah probably, sometimes giving up is for the best :/ this picture best explains it.
>>708310486
I really should stop but I just can't, mine aren't as bad as that but they're reaching that level and I'm scared
>>708310727
It's hypocritical of me to say, but if you can't kick it by yourself, you NEED to find help.
I can't feel most of my arm and my grip strength is almost non-existent.
Not all coping mechanisms are helpful, ones that leave something behind end up being the exact opposite.
>>708310512
Fuck man thats terrible but I'm the opposite :/
Gf is so into me and I'm worried I'm not gonna live upto her standards or she'll find someone better
>tfw ur done with life and u know u gona die alone by commiting suicide in ur late twenties or earlier, actually I'd happily kill myself tonight if I wasn't living with my mom, I just have to do it sooner or later, my dream is to kill myself, I'm not even arsed pretending I'm a normal human being lol I'm not even a fucking human Im Just a bag full of suicidal thoughts and depression that's ready to die, I'm thinking about overdosing on heroin or getting drunk and jumping off a bridge
>>708310930
I know, I know but I'm awkward as fuck and don't know how to talk to doctors or whatever. They'll probably just say I'm being stupid anyway so it's not worth it man
>>708310936
Yeah that feeling sucks, id do anything for her to talk to me again. Just say anything. Id give anything to go back to the times where we would actually have talks everydays and not once in a blue moon... the worst part is ill never find anyone as beautiful or sweet and carring as her.
I just want someone that loves me.
>>708311123
They won't say that, I've told doctors worse things than how I cope.
It's hard but sometimes you have to stick your hand out from the darkness and hope somebody can pull you through.
Thinking about it, I'm a major hypocrite.
I have every intention of killing myself at some point, but I want others to keep trying.
I suppose I feel like I'm two steps ahead of them on that road, trying to warn them of whats ahead.
Do a random anon a favour and at least try to get some help, yeah?
You can read my 5 part shitty greentext for an example of what lead me here, maybe you'll see something familiar and can try to change your course.
>>708311407
I know this gonna sound hypocritical as shit but why not message her again man?
Take the plunge see what wrong and shit, at the end of the day you wont feel any worse than you already do
>>708311407
>tfw you know youre lost without her
>cant ever tell her how badly i really love her
>know even if i do ill never be able to give her what she wants
>cant make her happy if i cant keep myself happy
>give up
>>708311604
It's strange to find someone that cares that much about me even if it is a random anon
I'm gonna see how it goes but I need to go to the doctors anyway, could always bring it up I guess
Thanks for caring when no one else does man
>>708311556
We all do /b/ro, in the end we're all Greed.
>inb4 weeaboo faggot but hear me out.
Greed spent his life trying to fill the emptiness inside with money, women and material things.
In the end it was friends that cared about him that he needed, he was finally happy with what he had, and it was something as small as friends.
>>708311691
She most likely wont reply, sadly. I have before and its generally no replies. I feel like im more of a burden to her. Ill always be there for her but im starting to feel expendable
>>708311907
Anytime /b/rother
>>708312099
Aww shit dude I'm sorry. I think you've gotta try and move on, find a new girl and fuck her for a bit just don't give up.
Always remember you're worth something to me and the others that stay up to talk until 2/3 in the morning
>be me
>be lame, boring, virgin, skelly, etc.
>get unusual amount of female attention lately
>go on date with qt 9/10 because she thought I was attractive
>wtf.jpg
>date goes poorly cause I'm a nervous wreck
>gets invited to her party anyways, this saturday
>party gonna have cocaine, lsd, alcohol, weed, etc. gonna be insane
>also get invited to another party, same night by different girl
>7/10, old hs friend
>typical ABC uni party, lots of drunk/naked girls
>good chance of sleeping with someone at either party
>tfw I dunno which party to go to
>tfw I don't even wanna go to a party
>tfw I'd rather stay inside
I feel like such a loser, which I totally am, but more so than usual. When did my esteem drop so low? when did I become such a pussy? Why am I not motivated to bang qt3.14s? I know I'm complaining about things most of you would love to be a part of, so by all means, throw all the shit you want at me. Im tired of being such a fag and yet I've never been more comfortable with it.
>>708312379
>>708312694
Double post
Sex isn't everything Anon, better to find someone you actually like being around.
>>708312665
Yeah i suppose, itll be my birthday tomorrow just another year alone. Ill take a shot in your name brother.
>>708312665
I just want to thank you, it was nice to see that in the end someone cared to talk to me.
I really wanna talk to you agian. I dont like that we just make awkward eye contact in the halls. I miss listening to you talk. Its a shame that i know i wont man up and say something. Theres this voice inside my head always telling me im not good enough. Im starting to think its right.
I dont know what to do.
>>708313146
Happy birthday for tomorrow, don't give up yet, who knows maybe next year will be different.
Anyway got work in 4 hours, I'm heading off, I'll drink to your health tomorrow comrade
>>708313544
Goodnight bud, ill make a thread tomorrow around this time if you want to connect.
Never had a gf
never been to a dance
never been kissed
have bedbugs
had lice
abusive dad
live in the ghetto
>>708313487
Where there is desire there is gonna be a flame, where there is a flame someones bound to get burnt, just because it burns doesn't mean you're gonna die, you gotta get up and try and try and try.
>Feels like a total faggot for liking a Pink song.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yTCDVfMz15M
>>708313654
Hell yeah man, I'll wish you happy birthday properly, night /b/rother
>>708313821
age bro?
I'm sorry its come to this my love..
https://youtu.be/AjKbw1Cqpt0
>>708314047
junior
i may not be fucking on the verge of killing myself but i'm sad af about my phone being dead, it's one of my hobbies to root and such but now i have stay up all night so i can go to school.
You don't know what you have till you lose it.
>>708314419
Others problems don't invalidate your own, remember that.
The worst thing in your life is still the worst thing in your life.
The mentality of "someone else has it worse" is fucking retarded, because it means only one person is allowed to be unhappy at any given moment.
Parents with a child dying of cancer don't invalidate the guy dealing with bipolar disorder.
