High functioning alchohol thread >share your stories
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High functioning alchohol thread
>share your stories
>>707651307
Ditched by the woman I loved with all my heart a year and a half ago. FFXIV is the only thing that's kept me going. Still work my job as a Tier II IT rep, pay my bills, take care of my daughter on weekends I have her.
Anyways... I feel dead inside, suck down either a 750 of grey goose or a 18 pack of fat tire a night. When the kid is around I'll cut back to a six pack when she's asleep but I can't go a single day without it.
>>707651307
during highschool and college, starting about 11th grade i would bring a travel coffee mug with a screwdriver in it to start my day. Have a hip flask I carry around to add to coffee etc. long trips = vodka and water in water bottle. that kind of thing. hardly drink at all now though, ever since I started chemo.
>>707651897
What do you do to kill the pain of going through chemo?
>>707651782
Same here anon at the train station right now it's funny cause all my friends are drug addicts and I don't want to hang out with them so I drink alone at the train station
>>707652144
i have toradal and percoset. as much as i want. on bad nights when the pain is keeping me awake I take a xanax and an ambien.
>>707652358
Best of luck to you /b/ro. I cannot fathom having to deal with that shit. I've been given all of those meds for fucking myself up on a motorcycle and Xanax for my anxiety but still, fuck me.
I love drunk stories, keep em comin
>>707652573
Get drunk and create your own fun filled adventure you lazy twat.
>>707652698
I'm broke, why do you think I'm at home browsing 4chan you namecalling assfuck
>>707651307
just a tip from an old pro, "High functioning alcoholic" is not sustainable unless maybe you actually never get drunk. I was doing quiet well being lit all the time whether at work or not without anyone noticing for a long time or so it felt but at some point you cross a threshold without noticing it. I wish I never drank the way I did. Still picking up the pieces from losing my job, losing my place, crashing my car, etc. Things go downhill real fast when your income and get a ton of unexpected bills shoved down your throat. Just tread lightly folks, thats all I'm saying
>>707652834
When I said lazy twat I said it with love bro. Pull the tampon out of your ear.
>>707652555
meh, these things happen. i'm ok with it. just finished my first round of chemo this week but my numbers are up. I get a PET scan on Monday to find out if I have more cancer.
>>707652966
when you *lose* your source of income and get a ton of unexpected ... (edit)
>>707652972
I love you too
>>707651307
Been working outside as a sawyer for years.
Find that I'm much faster with a saw when I'm drunk, but there's a balancing act.
Flask in my toolbox. Nobody knows (don't think they do anyway).
>>707652966
been going for over 20 years. I don't get drunk in public though. save that for when im at home and not going out again.
Drinking rum atm. Not much of a story to tell. Happily married but i drink due to social anxiety. Wifey puts up with it bc i'm a happy drunk. Its come to the point where i need quite a bit to even sleep at night.
>pic semi related (was drinking a. Gin martini a while ago)
wish I could still drink. nowadays I get 2-day or 3-day hangovers from 2 drinks. I used to be able to put away 5 or 6 without feeling it the next day. drinking water in between drinks helps a bit, but it's not enough.
>>707652573
>be 14
>at friend house with 3 other friends
>friend swipes 12 pack of beer and 40 of jack daniels from parents
>we get drunk as fuck playing halo 3 and shooting pool in friends basement
>gets dark outside
>decide to go outside and walk around
>take booze with us
>were all hammered already
>walk over to elementary school
>sit on jungle gym and get more hammered
>decide to break into portable
>break into portable
>break shit
>throw everything around
>smash television
>wipe our asses with random papers on in students and teachers desk
>piss on everything
>write curse words and draw dicks on blackboard with chalk, did same on walls with black permanent marker
>throw chairs and desks everywhere
>friend pukes all over teachers desk
>other friend takes a shit in a backpack that some unfortunate kid must have left there overnight
>smash empty whiskey bottle on blackboard
>leave portable
>smash a few windows on the schools main building
>go home a continue playing halo 3
>>707653986
that's not high functioning though...
am i turning into an alcoholic? i'm 18 (legal drinking age here),
i drink about 4 or 5 days a week and drink alot when i do. entire bottle of vodka or rum, or 12+ beers, ect...
>>707653986
Damn. You guys sounded like real pricks. I hope your friends are dead and that you die soon.
>>707654203
drink alone?
>>707651782
Careful with the vodka, anon. Beers and mixed drinks is one thing, but when I started chugging straight vodka is when I started down the real dark path. That's when work started getting missed, friends blown off, that kind of thing.
The lighter hangovers of vodka are deceiving. You're getting towards the path of hobo drinking and you may not even realize it. Try to stick with beer. It takes longer to drink and tends to be. Ore self-limiting, since you can only fit so much liquid in your stomach at a time.
>>707651782
>>707651782
>>707654322
Not that anon, but what other ways are there to drink.
>>707654198
He said drunk stories, not high functioning alcoholic stories.
>>707654285
Yeah my friends and I did alot of dumbass shit when we were in highschool. Lots of window smashing, throwing stuff at moving vehicles, spray painting cars...etc
>>707654322
yep, i dont really have many friends so its almost always alone
>>707654487
not that anon either, but
>with friends
>at a bar with strangers or other barflies
>sneak a bottle or flask into the movies
>>707653051
What kind of cancer did /b/ give you?
>>707654203
If it's every week, than yeah, you're alcoholic.
Been sober for 4 months now after 6 years of drinking 1,5 Litres of Bourbon and Whisky every week. Didn't even notice how the shaking started or my blood pulsed.
>>707654423
Vodka is a once a week thing as I enjoy beer more and it seems like there's less risk of me getting violent (I'm always alone so it's mostly just me smashing my own shit while being aggravated with my foibles).
>>707654203
You're 99.9% of the way there from how you describe it.
>>707654423
no vodka is good for drinking in public. A halfway decent vodka can't be smelled on your breath when mixed with something. The trick is to only drink until you feel relaxed. save getting buzzed and or drunk for when you are alone or at a drinking function.
Am I an alcoholic? I've been drinking a mixture of a case of beer, couple bottles of wine, sometimes a fifth of scotch, everyday for the past 6 years.
>>707655120
Since it's already at a regular basis, yeah.
>>707654650
stage 3 colon. lots of fun.
i have a shit paying job but on the weekends i go gambling, play vidya poker until i hit a 1k royal flush, pig out on sushi, crab legs, take remy martin platinum shots i guess my life ain't too bad. still too beta to pick up a girl or hooker at the casino dance clubs tho
I'm a recovering alcoholic.
You start off functioning fine, then eventually at some point you become non-functioning. It could be 10 years, it could be 10 months, but it happens.
>>707651897
why do you try to sneak it into shit? people that you try to hide it from can smell it anyway.
>>707655403
well i've been going for over 20 years and it looks like the cancer will kill me before I become non-functioning. though, as i stated earlier I stopped drinking a lot when i started chemo.
>>707655891
Buy a crotch rocket bro, go out going a glorious 170mph. Give the people at your wake something to talk about.
>>707655120
Yes.
>>707655700
depends what you are sneaking. decent vodka in orange juice smells like orange juice. Usually carry scotch in my flask but I don't really hide it. I'm not stupid with it either. But at work I stick to vodka as described above.
>>707656089
prolly not having a funeral. I don't give a pink flying fuck what's done with my body after I die. Though my wife reserved a plot for me at her family grave area. So long as everyone (even the kids) get ripped at my wake I'll be happy.
I have been drinking 3 tall cans a day pretty much this whole year. Right when I get off work.
>>707656491
shit, i've been doing that for last 11 years + day drinking. get on my level son.
>>707656491
Tall cans of what? You're either a pussy or just a normal working man.
>>707656175
>decent vodka in orange juice smells like orange juice.
I meant you can smell it on your breath/body
Xanax is similar to alcohol, and I find it much easier poppin pills than swallowing alchol (and much more discreet. Nobody knows I have a problem and today was supposed to be my first day I was supposed to cut down reduction (saw a psychiatrist to get it properly done)
>already poppin the pills like candy to hide suicidal thoughts and how much I hate myself
I drink heavy every night, even now I am drunk. But during my work day I stay sober
>>707657024
like i've stated earlier in the thread. can't smell decent vodka on the breath if you mix it with something.
>>707656670
Not steel reserve, bud light. I do white collar work, but am first generation non peasant.
>>707657026
look into MDMA therapy
>>707653919
it's the worst when you lose your tolerance but still binge drink occasionally, ungodly hangovers and near pants-shitting for a week
I drink 4 tall cans of coors banquet before I goto school in the afternoon, then come home and drink 8 -14 more...
Most of my energy feeds into writing, and studying..
I dont suggest doing this, I don't really know what i'm doing most of the time, or why I do what I do - i'm just an observer of what habitually takes place...
The conscious fog is what pilots this decaying soul case.
>>707656632
Getting fat too, you have any weight gain?
>>707657365
You're a gigantic pussy. I would have had more respect for you if you drank the steel reserve. Since you're white collar go try some IPAs or ales.
>>707657311
I can't smell vodka on my own breath so other people can't either
not really high functioning story but feel like teeling it
>highshool
>few weeks ago
>figure out Ex i still love is going to leave shcool for a college in new york
>its the same school I wanted to go to but I didn't have the confidence to apply
>One of her friends that she's probably fucking now had been there for a year
>Others in her friend group are also applying to all go to the same school
>this was basically my dream to do this with my Ex or someone like her
>I feel worthless and destroyed.
>go home and drink a bottle of single malt whiskey I hid in my closet
>drink maybe three glasses before im out
>shit posted on 4chan until I passed out in bed
I haven't touched the stuff since then but I think about it time to time
>>707657560
got up to 170. 140 after chemo.
>be 20 yrs old
>inherited a bunch of money so i got my own place
>get blackout drunk every night
>start buying heroin again
>convient and cheap so I start buying every night
>still on this path
doesn't seem too bad right now because I have no parents worry about and I'm holding my job fine. whatever
>>707657659
lol good point but i've tested it with other people
>>707657591
What lubricates you?
>>707657509
You should like read books or something. If you keep doing shit for no reason your life will just get shittier. I recommend you find something in life that is filling for you other than drinkin
>>707657820
You do realize your lifes going to crash soon right?
>>707657591
Not trying to drink more, just wondering if I should change?
>>707651307
>software engineer
>get hired by company through a buddy I knew in high school shortly after finishing college
>turns out his work output was so abysmally slow that our boss had ridiculously low expectations for what classified as "work"
>on top of that, hired to work remote
>proceed to spend the next three years day drinking and playing video games, spending maybe a couple hours a week doing real work.
I guess at this point calling myself "functioning" is a bit of a misnomer, because if I ever get laid off and have to find a real job I'll be screwed.
>>707657958
Toilet wine, motherfucker.
>>707658029
Thanks, but I am productive, I read many books..
I don't seem to have motivation to be productive without drinking.
>>707658029
>>707657509
Plus, use something different to reward yourself with.
Life is full of shitty events - as soon as you got over one of them, go pat yourself a bit.
It won't be fucking valhalla, but it'll do.
>>707658141
yeah bro. i guess i'm i've been an alchy for a while. was going to meetings for a little while but stopped. heroin has never been so easy to get. idk i guess i'm just waiting for things to crash like usual.
>>707658141
who gives a shit if we get oc ?
>>707658268
gdss?
>>707654203
Yes.
>>707658323
Thanks bro..
Our habits tend to be altered by the rewards from certain actions.. like I said, I just don't feel motivated when i'm not drunk.
Tell everyone I'm a connoisseur, collect and drink. Recently finished a bottle of pappy 15 yr. I have some Weller 12 on the way. It's good to have people buying it for you
>>707657381
Have to wait till I get off my effexor which is an SNRI I heard it is a bitch getting off of.
am I an alcohol? i drink about 20 beers on fridays/saturdays (20 each day) but nothing through the week for the past few years
>>707657958
I like summit, a bunch of the shit New Glarus puts out (Moon Man ale is my personal fav), fat tire, some of Sierra's stuff.
In the summer if it's hot as fuck I'll have corona's with the gf.
>>707657820
Anon is fucked amirite
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>>707659000
Fat tire and the Sierra stuff being the items you can get nation wide. The rest of the stuff is kinda region specific. Just go find what you like, samplers 12 packs from local breweries are a good way to test your tastes.
>>707659000
My boy said some chron-dawgs in the summer!
I Work taking care of a disabled adult and the job is in his family home so I have to see his parents throughout the day who are HOPELESS alcoholics. The mom drinks ATLEAST a 750 of vodka a day and never eats. I get to work at 10 am and she's ALWAYS already drinking. By 2pm she usually passes out drunk then wakes up again around 5 to keep slamming drinks. I cannot tell you how many times I've seen this idiot blackout drunk, slurring and falling over shit or falling down the stairs.
The other week she got so drunk at a bar she couldn't find her car which was in clear view and 10 feet infront of her. Me and the husband had to pick her up and then when she got home she was so fucked up she fell into the kicthen table knocking shit over and screaming about how she was being abused(shes not.)
This woman lost her job 9 months ago due to drinking on the job and FINALLY got another jon that started monday. She was fired after the first day from being drunk at work.
This is the end game of being a hard drinker. Its like when you grind to max level in an mmo, being this drunk all the time is the end game content/raids of alcoholism.
>>707659385
my fridge beer is hamn's. because it tastes like every other american piss water beer and is $13 for 30 cans. But I also drink various craft beers.
>>707659726
Hamn's is a good value proposition, I'd give that a pass. If it was Pabst I'd have to blast you for the hipster shit.
>>707660043
After hipsters went cray over PBR, I don't even look at them now.
>>707651307
How do we feel about lucky 13?
>>707658617
No prob.
Same went for me for over 6 years straight.
Changed it by turning towards cinema, ice-cream and games.
But that's only "my" solution.
Everyone has different interests, so you'll know best, what interests you the most.
I drink a lot. I drink anything that has alchahol. Yesterday I put down a $6 fifth of vodka. Dont give a fuck. I drink a lot of beer as well. I work everyday and have fun. I've been drinking at least 5-7 days a week for over 12 years. I started drinking at 13. And no I don't count the first several. Only drinking 2-3 days a week doesn't mean shit.i hate you. God is dead.
anyone here like toro y moi?
good drinking songs.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=k0X4U96OnpA
>>707651782
Pussy. Can't even finish an 18 pack when your daughter is around.
So I drink about every day, but it is only like 2 or 3 beers in the evening, and I usually go out and party on the weekends where I'll drink into the wee hours of the morning. You guys think I'm an alcoholic? I think I could not drink on the weekdays if I wanted too, but not sure about the partying on the weekends. Thoughts?
>>707652972
Don't tell me what to do you ass bag.
>>707655260
I wish you luck anon
>>707653358
Is your wife's name Amanda?
>>707657041
Atta gurl!
You ladies are awesome!
>>707657774
You have to drink alcohol more than once to be an alcoholic
I drive a bus of kids to school everyday, loaded. Yea I know it's dangerous but I mean it's really easy and the kids are way more fun to talk to when I'm intoxicated.Sometimes they even bring me muffins and other snacks in the morning which is really great because I usually don't like eating breakfast. I'm pretty solid though. One time I even drove them to school in a blizzard - psh! I mean it was like 7 inches. Hardly a blizzard. But that day I drank about a half of a fifth of Jack and man it was totally worth it. Just sayin. There are people out there who function as alchohols out there and we can do just fine.
>>707652834
if you're broke, i can't imagine why you're paying for internet and for devices to browse the internet on.
alcohol is cheap as fuck compared to internet.
>>707662496
Hell yeah, man!
I work in a deli and slice meat n cook. Drink pretty much all the time. People talk about how much beer they can drink and I'm like... I can't even get buzzed off beer... :( honestly I'm pretty depressed tho. One day I got kicked from work for telling a customer that a specific meat was "fucking dank" and eating potato salad while sitting on the deli floor. Other than that I have never go too drunk at work
>Be me, 25 (years ago)
>Have first day off in a year to attend to contractors fixing my house
>Had a very bad year so far
>Thought work might be closing doors due to economy
>Wife still in college- more debt, oh joy
>Get phone call, insurance isn't covering home damage
>Get another phone call, father had massive stroke, in ER unresponsive
>Driving to hospital, wife gets phone call
>Her brother and father were in a car accident, banged up, car totalled
>Get call from work at same time
>Bad news. More and more.
>FFW 10hrs
>I rarely ever touch alcohol. Might have one beer a month.
>Friend of mine brings me to a restaurant to help get my mind off hell day
>Spends $90 on drinks for me, trying to get me drunk (mostly mixed drinks and shots)
>Literally zero effect
>Afraid I'll get alcohol poisoning before feeling effects of alcohol, call it quits
>He drives me back home
>I stayed up until 4am playing music
>Go to work at 6am, unaffected
Probably should have been dead. Waitstaff at the restaurant kept coming over and checking on me and were astonished I was unaffected.
Turns out I can't feel the effects of alcohol.
Beat that.
>>707660043
i hate that. i've been drinking pbr forever and get shit for it. it used to be the cheap beer at the bar, usually a buck for a beer, and that's why i drank it. fucking hipsters ruin everyting
>>707657774
>didn't have the confidence to apply
That's the dumbest thing I've ever heard. Just apply.
>>707654634
>at a bar with strangers or other barflies
Highly underrated drinking experience tbh
>>707662969
Shut the fuck pussy, drink some more odoulls
>>707662496
I really respect this. Props to you anon for doing your thing and making a difference in their lives.
>>707663139
>shut the fuck pussy
I thought this was a "high functioning" thread. I must have been mistaken.
Don't like my story? Then don't believe it. Truth is the truth.
Drink beer nightly and occasionally whiskey mixed drinks. Don't get super drunk anymore but buzzed every night, although it takes more to get me there now. Only during the day on days off. Worst thing i ever do is drive around the block to get some fast food. Typically smoke or eat some cannabis too. I'll sneak some weak edibles during class sometimes and make the commute back home feelin stony. Makes driving fun, just get lost in music. Driving drunk however always feels a little sketchy.
>>707663302
Ill drink you under the table kitty cat ;)
>>707663007
Hipsters ruin everything. Back when I was in college, there a was dive bar a few blocks from campus that was literally run out of someone's garage (New Orleans, don't ask me how they got away with it). When I went back to visit a few years later they had replaced dollar schlitz cans with two dollar PBR and everyone looked like a goddamn lumberjack. Worst case of "you can't go home again" in my life.
As a guy who just turned 21, how do I go to a bar without friends or family? I wanna get to know the local bars but I have almost no knowledge of beer, like drafts and the like. How do I get started?
>>707663683
By using your fucking feet.
I have to drink almost every night because being drunk is the only time I don't suffer from recurring nightmares and memories of watching my girlfriend die in a car crash.
http://vocaroo.com/i/s0zw8DSP0ork well im totally drunk and i made this rap
>>707662969
bro find ur tolerance for science and report back here, just pick up a bottle of vodka or liquor whatever.
>>707663838
Blinding yourself to the problem will not solve it.
Talk to someone about it, anything else. You will thank me later.
>>707663820
>mfw I didn't think of that
>>707655120
If you've actually been doing this, shouldn't you be dead?
>>707663959
Truth
also: i did my master thesis while being drunk. I turned out to be the best master thesis my authors read, got 24+/25 and a place to study in PhD. I did the work on one 24/7 bar mostly in the wee small hours.
I didnt take the PhD place, and i whiped my ass with it one time because i was out of toilet paper. The pipes got stuck. I had hangover
>>707663683
Excellent bait
>>707661528
>>707664317
For real I'm being serious. I've asked around and everyone shrugs my question off. Why can't I get help on this? I just need advice. I look like a child and don't wanna get my ass beat so I'm afraid to go to bars alone
>>707664459
why would you get your ass beat? google some local beers, go to a local bar which should have said local beers, sit at the bar, order a drink, and sort of hang around until someone talks to you, or buy someone a drink
>>707663683
Do you live in a state or area with a bunch of microbreweries? If not, no one gives a shit about your knowledge of beer, just order your drink and don't be a weirdo.
>>707664562
>>707664459
This. Visit a bar of your liking regulary and people will start to give a fuck about you. Or they don't. Not much else.
>>707664562
>Buy someone a drink
I'm so fucking sheltered I don't know how to do this properly
>>707664659
SC charleston area, local breweries and the like
>>707663683
Seriously, as someone who also just turned 21 tonight.
Go to the bar.
Look at their beer selection.
Buy one.
Drink it. Enjoy.
I'm not being condescending it's just that simple.
fifth a day minimum here for six years, minus one clean week about four years ago.
just had to drive my shaky ass to the store to buy booze, going to try to taper. i am sweating, shaking, and lost my vision momentarily after vomiting and dry heaving. i can barely type this or hold the glass of vodka i am going to have to pound. i know i will not be able to sleep for a couple of days.
i'm embarrassed by this shit and could never talk about it with anyone in person. so, i guess what i'm whining about is that i'm no longer functioning.
>>707663683
I go to the local bar down he street and have two beers in the first half hour of my lunch, have something to eat and finish with another pint of local cheap beer, it's whatever they've got on tap.
I do this every day at work and it gets me through the last half of the day
>work stressful AF 70 - 90hr week job
>only companion i have to come home to is jameson
>drink 1 - 1.5 fifths a night
>drive to work still drunk the next day
>have a bottle in my desk for when i have to stay late (every other night basicly)
>despite obvious alcohol problem ive received 2 promotions in 6 months with the company
>tfw 23 and already on a downhill spiral
>>707664976
Came In just in time just walked into the board room and answered technical questions on a conference call. Had breath mints for the others in on the call from my side of he phone.
>>707664908
It blows my mind that people can consume this much alcohol and not die
quit weed, now im drinking 1-2 beers almost daily. is this how you become an alcohol?
>>707665363
Yes
Op here this is actually my first successful thread and I'm happy for the illusion of success I'm an alcohol Im pretty much a bicycle courier for a food delivery and work in the lower east side of Manhattan at night before I go to work I drink a pint of vodka and ride around les piss drunk was going down Williamsburg bridge at 70 mph and my face looks like a prize fighters yeah alchohol ruined my life I can't stop because I don't want to deal wit the guilt afterwards even then i grew up in a messed up doomsday religion as a child and have never seem to recover from it. I'm in hell but I write my books and try to stay positive
>>707664908
kek
>>707665363
2 alcoholic drinks a day will do nothing to you. more than that.... not good.
>>707665363
That plus time and an addictive personality, and yeah, you'll be an alcohol like the rest of us soon enough.
>>707665466
There is another way.
>Physics Professor
My profession as well as my reason for being an alcoholic. The theoretical aspect of physics is somewhat amusing, but the more comprehensible the practical aspects of universe becomes, the more insignificant my purpose in life becomes.
I'm almost always drunk, yet nobody seems to notice. Probably because I also take Adderall. I'm gonna die young if I keep this up, it's not good for my heart.
A neat story arose a month or two ago when I ran out of Adderall for the month, but kept drinking. I blacked out at one point (perhaps from compensation due to the lack of adderall) and a student of mine told me she knew I was drunk. Very bright girl, even my very latent alcoholism couldn't get passed her. We kept a good rapport prior, so I wasn't too worried I was blatantly acting different... Perhaps she's caught on to my subtle mannerisms, but I digress.
The following weeks she caught on to my habit, and eventually we started drinking after lectures together. Naturally, one thing leads to another. She's now fucking me for a leg up in class, no pun intended. Things get interesting when you account for the fact that her boyfriend is another student of mine, and that my wife knows this girls mother on a very personal level.
I'm in really deep, as I'm almost sure this girl is falling in love with me. I'm on some thin ice.
>>707664288
Ever ace an interview drunk
>>707665023
If it makes you feel any better:
Life is a continual process of decay. We are dying from the moment we are born. Everyone is on a downward spiral, most just don't know it or they refuse to accept it. People who do realize this are labeled depressed. Most consider them outsiders to the pack. But i?...i consider them prophets. Drink in peace tonight.
>>707664908
Been there bro, still there but get worse and feel sick almost every day
is drinking 8 shots of tequila (or until you're drunk) by yourself listening to music considered alcoholic if it is done like 4 days out of the 7 day week?
>>707653301
How much do you drink a day?
>>707664459
Yeah man," that's bait " dude here. I have a fucking mouth on me and have never even been in a bar fight or anything leading to one. Just go enjoy ur self
>>707665879
No, but it is considered begging for attention like a little bitch.
>>707665879
Depends, do you have cravings to do it and prioritize it above other things that you know are more important? Otherwise, maybe you just enjoy getting drunk and listening to music by yourself a majority of the week
>>707664779
Before you buy people drinks just try going out on ur own buddy, baby steps
Don't have time to share a story. Late for work.
But yeah, I drink every evening, about a liter of whiskey.
I don't get drunk, I just like riding the line. Sleep like a baby, wake up well-rested but thirsty.
Protip: Always keep 2 bottles on your nightstand, and make sure 1 is full of water. Also, don't confuse the two.
>>707665879
It's considered alcoholic if you drink regulary.
The amount of alcohol is just indicating the amount of shit you're in.
>>707659000
Nice trips. Moon Man is one of my favorites.
Just been quietly drinking 3-4 bottles of beer a night. It's not bad but I should probably cut back.
>>707656470
Are you scared of dying? Any of advice to those of us still here?
>>707666100
so 2-3 Mikes Hard Lemonades a day isn't really alcoholic, just means I'm a pussy?
>>707666022
ok mister.
>>707657041
that's how I was.. wasted ten years
>>707665023
ethanol is like for me a frat bro hes fun to see occasionally but i dont know if i would wanna live with the guy
>>707657026
good luck. Alcohol withdrawal is beyond horrible, but benzo withdrawal is supposed to be unimaginably worse.
>>707664779
I feel your sheltered pain man, but you're overthinking it. People go to a bar to relax and forget about the outside world. Chat up the bartender, if you're not a shitty tipper they'll usually be friendly enough.
any /b/'s get so alcoholic that you start drinking shit that you shouldn't, but do just cuz it has alcohol? mouth wash?
>>707666345
I mean, you might be an alcoholic if you absolutely can't get by without those 2-3 hard lemonades, but that means you're an alcoholic and a pussy.
>>707666686
I don't really get this. A cheap 5th has to be cheaper than an equivalent bottle of mouthwash.
>>707663525
right now drinkin' something called tequila herradura reposado, a bottle i bought in baja in 2005
>>707666778
I don't need it, I just enjoy drinking it. I also sleep better
About two weeks ago I got blackout drunk for the first time. I drank about a liter of 80 proof. I was on skype with friends and we all drank to point of being tipsy, but I just kept going. My friends were yelling at me to stop, but the drunker I got the easier it was to drink. It was just a repeating cycle. But apparently I threw up and passed out according to the accounts of my friends and the throw up on my floor, but I don't remember it at all. That was two weeks ago but since then every time I try to drink hard liqour I nearly throw up. I just can't stand the taste anymore. Will I build my tolerance back up soon? (Tolerance as in being able to choke it down and get past the taste, not tolerance as in how fast I can get drunk.)
>>707662496
This guy top kek
>>707666981
>I just enjoy drinking it. I also sleep better
Speaking from experience, that's how it starts.
>>707666686
no?
>>707666686
fuck yeah when I was in rehab I drank hand sanitizer
>>707663519
>be careful driving drunk anon, only takes one time to ruin your shit. Just use postmates or something to order your food. Five dollar delivery charge is cheaper than a dui
>>707661659
Eh, I wouldn't necessarily call you an alcoholic but you have alcoholic tendencies, clearly. I'd say you are definitely in the red zone for becoming one. It creeps up on you...usually if you have to ask, you're already one, or are dangerously close.
>>707663838
I can't believe how terrible that would be. Sorry anon.
I have my own demons and drank every omg night for over a decade. Black out drunk. Well when I quit hisnyear I had cold sweat and the rest of the withdrawals but even worse I had this reoccuring night mares about all the tragedy I'd been drowning. It was terrible but after a few months it was by confronting them that I almost physically felt them leave me. It was a cleansing process. but I think it has to be done sober. Good luck anon
>>707667168
>The rage, the feeling of powerlessness, it turns good men cruel.
>drink at least 2 thirty packs of ice beer a week (and with liquor sometimes)
>work nights full time, and go to college full time
>paid my bills on time, saved money, and kept good grades
>weight fluctuated
>go to class and blue collar work still sobering up/drunk, ever day
>get the shakes if I didn't drink within 8 hours (after totally sobering up)
When I decided to move from that town, I ended up having to spend about 5 days detoxing. FUCK alcohol detox.
>>707665767
u ever do acid man
>>707665466
what books do you write anon?
I'm from california but go to nyu so I'm in lower manhattan. hope all is well. I'm a senior in college and drink about 500ml/day. it used to be more but ive cut down. will never quit though. life is too shit
>>707665767
is this a woody allen movie ?
>>707662496
Oh, boy. Hahahahahahahhahaha what the fuck man, I feel like I can't even be mad at this even though it's completely fucked up
>mfw I drive down to the liquor store and the cashier says "weren't you just in here a few hours ago?"
>>707667801
Withdrawal sucks eh? I went through opiate withdrawal and minor benzo withdrawal. From what I hear/read alcohol withdrawal is very similar to benzo withdrawal and is fucking horrendous compared to opiate dope sickness. You can seize up and die. Don't drink anymore dude, not worth it. Just smoke weed.
Sorry joining this thread late. Going on 20 years. Arrests, dui's, etc. drunk as fuck every night but don't act like as much of a disaster. Wife & 3 kids. Lots more to the story tho
>>707653919
This is normal from years of alcohol abuse. It's called reverse tolerance. Your body can no longer handle breaking down the alcohol so you get wasted just as bad if not worse as you would if you just started drinking.
Watched my mom go through this. She was able to drink a 24 pack every day which she did for about fourteen years. Then slowly she couldn't even do more than ten a day. Then six.
Then one day she was babysitting my daughter and went for a nap. I came to pick her up after work and my daughter told me that "Nani is taking a nap on the floor"
Ran into her room to find her corpse laying next to her bed. Mucous pouring out of her nose and mouth and collecting in a huge pool under her head.
My daughter had found her like that and covered her with a blanket.
Autopsy shows that her heart had grown too weak to pump blood through her alcohol dried nonelastic veins.
Drinking causes the heart muscles to weaken and enlarge. It also dries out the veins which causes blood pressure problems. Coroner said when she started to fall asleep her blood pressure lowered enough that the heart didn't have the strength anymore to move the blood. She had just enough strength to try and stand up before passing out and dying moments later.
I started drinking after that. 750 of whiskey each night maybe 3 or 4 nights a week. Sometimes I'll drink a 12 pack of bud platinum if I got off work too late for the liquor store
>>707666950
Herradura is dank, try grand centanario tho. Amazing for sipping
I drink every night
I'm drunk right now
But I'm not an alcoholic, my wife assures me
>>707668506
Your wife is probably having sex with someone else
>>707668390
shit nigga
>>707668710
She's right here with me. Just like every other day
>>707666990
Bro. Noooo wayyyy you have friends. What's your Skype handle?
>>707654590
>>707653986
Fucking retards, I hope you guys got your shit together
>>707668390
Well at least you learned....
Raging alcoholic here for 20 years. When I was in college it would take me til 2:00 - 4:00 pm to just get out of bed after a wild night. Now I drink twice as much & get up at 6:00 am. The body adapts
You need to start thinking about the daughter of yours anon
>>707668768
Tits or tell your wife to gtfo
>>707667813
No. I'm open to it's possible beneficial effects, but I am concerned on some adverse, possibly irreversible effects associated with it.
>>707652204
Not him but kudos bro have a safe night
>>707651307
>get drunk
>order sex doll from china
>instant regret
>weeks of worry that I would go to jail
>drink more
>drunk on day of arrival
>full body silicone
>fairly easy to take care of
>cosplay cloths galore weeks afterwards
>touhou
>vidya
>anime
>movies
>one night
>get drunk watching Toonami
>start slapping the doll for no reason
>its eye pops out
>pop it back in while still inside it
>oh shit lazy eye time
>fix it later
>flip it over and jam it in
>anus ripped
>but it stopped because the sphincter was like a lip and the hole is still fine
>go instantly soft midway through
>first time I ever got whiskey dick
>this has been bothering me for weeks
>finally an alcoholic thread to get it out
>>707668987
Drinking was my dads way of coping. He stopped drinking & he & his marriage went to shit. Watched it happen as a kid. I will never stop drinking
>>707668277
Yeah, few times I did alcohol detox, it sucks.
>Fever, shivers, can't keep food/water down, nightmares, shakes, insomnia, and withdrawals.
My ol drinkin' buddy back home had a stroke after I moved.
I'd watch him shake just drinking a beer. Came down with bad DT's when he was in the hospital. They had to dope him up pretty good, and tie him to the hospital bed.
After I detoxed and completely moved states and into a better environment. I MIGHT drink a few a day. I tend to refrain from hard weekend boozing, as it'll give me the shakes and withdrawals all day. I can't smoke weed, because of work (even though it's legal in this state)
>>707651307
When I was 13-15 I lived with my grandparents and whenever I would piss my grandpa off he'd make me sit at the table and drink a 40 of steel reserve he'd watch me until I finished it
>>707669235
I may be an alcoholic, but at least I can say I've never gotten whiskey dick from fucking a lazy-eyed sex doll while watching Toonami.
>>707669302
How old are you pal?
I dont drink, I prefer my mouth fedora
>>707669281
If drinking is what is keeping a marriage, job, or whatever else functioning, then maybe those things are good for you in the first place.
The most important thing is your daughter and your drinking is not helping her at all. She already had to witness her grandma die right in front of her. Sober up and cherish the things you have and fuck anything that requires alcohol to work.
Mine started back in high school in the early 90s with a "no sober weekend" challenge for the year between a group of friends.
20 years later I wouldn't change a thing
I wouldn't
>>707669709
If a man needs to drink, maybe those things are NOT good for you in the first place*
hell if I was married to a psycho mom I'd drink too
>be me
>somewhat alcohol
>get home from party sunday morning
>am hungover, depressed, so keep drinking
>go too hard
>am blackout wasted by 4pm
>continue drinking till i realize im out of booze
>remember my friend left a couple beers in my car from last night
>stumble down stairs
>open car find beer
>suddenly, am extremely woozy
>havnt eaten anything but vodka all day
>literally pass out over center console in car
>hour later am being shooken awake by police
>so drunk i dont remember where i live
>cant even speak
>cops try to make me do line test, but fail so hard they dont bother doing the whole thing
Long story short got a dui! All for sleeping in my car. Kinda fucked, but honestly it was a wake up call for me. Realized i was making poor descisions because i no longer cared about my life, but a year later i am doing better. Only drink once a week now
>tfw I can only progress with women when I'm drunk
I'm hopeless otherwise and a mess. I'm considering getting a small flask to carry some liquor around with me at all times.
I don't want to have to live this life
>>707654203
You'll know when you are. For me it was my first withdrawals. Now I drink at work lol
>>707670115
>mfw I've thought about doing this too
>>707669302
how much were you drinking at your worst?
>>707663683
Just ask to look at the beer selection. Try different shit, find what hits the spot. If you don't like the one you get just force it down and try a different one.
They aren't going to laugh at you like you're some 12 year old and call you a "noob"
>>707651307
> be me
> get home from work 630pm
> drink 12 pack + 32ozer till 1am
> pass out
> wake up 3 or 4am
> puke whatever garbage i ate after dinner
> drink gallon of water
> go back to sleep
> wake up 6am
> explosive shit
> piss 3/4 gallon of water
> puke 1/4 gallon of water
> go to work 7am
> repeat
>>707664779
FUCKING SQUID
>love liquor in all forms
>maybe not devils springs by itself
>but cant drink beer unless its ice cold and borderline slushy
>even then a 12 pack does nothing to me for long
How do I get into beer?
>>707670538
?? Anon what?
Drunk 24/7 college dropout, make only 40,000 a year at 23. Really wanna die but i have an accidental child that i accidentally love
>>707670446
Dude there is abetted way. As a beer drinker there is no need to puke
>>707670446
God, why do we do this to ourselves. If there is such a thing as resurrection I want to o come back as booze.. the ultimate top tier troll.
>>707662969
Your $90 got you a few watered down flirtinis by the sounds of it
>>707670646
Get a sub and get smashed at the dive and go bowling. I'm sure you mean you're from goose creek.
>>707670446
Ugh I do not miss my old daily routine...
Wake up 7 a.m. for work, reach down and finish whatever drink I didn't finish by the time I passed out the night before. Start getting ready for work, do several mini-shots mixed with chaser to get me steady.
Hop in the car, can't forget the bottle of booze carried around in a plastic grocery bag. Extra grocery bags on hand to puke into while I drive. Stop at 7/11 for a chaser to mix with while I drink more on the morning commute.
Struggle through the first half of work while the alcohol slowly wears off until I can take lunch hour. Go to liquor store on lunch hour, buy a fifth of cheap vodka. Eat fast food and choke down multiple shots so I can be able to function the rest of the day.
Go back after lunch, wait for anxiety to kick in about being found out or whether I had enough during lunch to last me through the day. Finish work, get to car, make a drink for the ride home. Arrive at home, drink until I pass out, sometimes eat dinner sometimes not.
Every day. Fifth of cheap, shitty vodka. I regret this period more than anything else in my life. It nearly destroyed me. Never again will I go to that place I was in.
Drink everyday. Drunk right now. Easily drink 8-10 bottles of beer plus a couple shots. Wake up fine the next morning. It's killing me and I know I need to stop but don't. Yesterday drank almost a fifth of whiskey. Told myself in the morning I won't drink today. Now I've had half a bottle of wine twk beers and two shots.
>>707651782
Are you me?
>>707669235
The doll you ordered is like pic related? Can you please share the link to where i can get one of those
>>707670556
Literally just keep drinking it until it tastes good
>>707664459
Just go and order fish n chips and a pint and sit at the bar, if no one talks to you initially then just drink until you're the one talking to people. Alcohol = socialz
>>707666022
wat if anon is mexico
>>707671403
amazon, type in king mansion doll
>>707671660
Thanks m8
>>707662496
You're an inspiration to us all, and my hero. Cheers brah
>>707671227
Nobody likes a quitter.
So why did you stop?
>>707671153
Haha no shit amirite? Check the air vent in your dorm we always left notes in those. Good luck.
>>707668099
>mfw im best friends with all the employees of my neighborhood's liquor store and have a good rapport with employees at like 2 other stores nearby
>be me (19 year old college sophomore)
>gf of a year and a half goes to Calfornia for her freshman year of college
>drinking gets heavy from missing her
>she knows no one so goes to tons of parties to meet people
>up texting her when shes sad one night
>pass out at 3 am
>wake up to a million apology texts
>she fucked some dude she didnt know on the beach after he let her have a ton of rum
>SuicidalTimes1000.jpg
>down two handles of bartons in a couple days
>start going to class/work drunk
>boss doesn't care. says I work better when I'm drunk
>be labeled alcoholic by all friends/family
I ended up seeking help. Still drink way more in a week than the average person does in a month, but it doesn't feel as hard to control. Now I go to my alcoholics (were the university requires you to go if you get MIP or DUI) group every week and help teach stupid young college kids about the path they could be headed towards if they don't keep an eye on their drinking.
I drink a bottle of wine a week. Is that bad?
>>707670556
>>707671426
what they said ^^^
it's an acquired taste
>>707657820
sam?
>>707672171
At least you know you love sucking dick
>>707672147
I forgot the shit I went through after my dui. All the classes& the "victim impact panel" where you would have to listen to family of people killed by drunk drivers.
I would pick up a bottle of vodka on the way home.
>>707669524
>>707670285
I'm 22 now.
My worst was after I turned 21.
It was harder before I turned 21 to drink so hard, as I had to get friends to buy it for me. Had to ask different people so they wouldn't enable me.
My worst? Fuck man, I don't even remember. Things just get blurry after a while.
From all of the high functioning alchies and alcoholics, many have a troubled or rough past, including myself.
We're all running or trying to numb something else.
Booze can help for a bit, but it just makes it worse after a while.
It's a double edged sword. Might numb/make it easy to let feels out, but you'll pay for it later being more depressed.
You also get pretty depressed during detox.
I've known first and secondhand many guys who blew their heads off or wrecked their cars going fast, just trying to feel alive again.
i see double
>>707654203
One thing you need to know about alcohol is its a dead end, I've been there and only through quitting been able to save my life. It started in my partying years after school, it leads you nowhere and takes everything.
>>707672942
How old are you?
>>707671937
Woke up one day after having to call out of work again and realized that I was fucked. I had no choice, I had to stop or else I'd lose my job and I'm sure a lot of other things. I just couldn't live that way anymore...I couldn't even function normally. I asked my best friend to take me to the hospital that night. Told my boss I was in the hospital very sick and they were figuring out what was wrong with me...laid up in a bed there for four days while nurses IV'd me with benzos every few hours and was on a constant banana bag drip. Couldn't eat, was vomiting up black bile and blood, couldn't get out of bed to piss because I was shaking uncontrollably. Saw people next to my bed that weren't actually there. Sleep paralysis. Shakes, sweating so bad I was drenching my sheets.
Absolutely zero percent of it was worth it.
>>707652966
feel ya nig. I/m right there.
<gr>Cheated on my baby momma/ lost job/ currently feeling out life on my own terms with new girlfriend/ hoping for the best but not optimistic.
<gr>oh also have literal cancer (testicular, spread to lymph-nodes but in remission ) and don't care but still want to hold on for my little girl.
>>707673670
How's your life now?
>>707654826
Blood pulsed? I drink a lot and think that might be starting to happen with me
I'm a senior in high school and I started drinking a lot now since my dad moved out. He was a big alcoholic so he left all his whiskey and rum, which I put into everyone of my drinks. I carry a water canteen full of rum everyday to school, I always take swigs of it during snack and lunch. My life is bleak and dull yet the rum always seems to lesson this. My days are fading around me and i'm drowning in a pool of my fallen aspirations and hopes. I treat my mother like shit, just because i'm in so much pain. The one thing keeping me going is this beautiful sophomore girl who I see like twice a day between classes if i'm lucky. I've never spoken to her, but we have exchanged glances a couple times. Knowing that she knows I exist is all it takes to crawl out of bed. This girl that I know nothing about has become a beacon of light in these dark times. But I know ill never have her, so whats the point? I'll end it soon, planning on getting drunk and driving off a cliff( many cliffs where I live), but the thought still scares me. I guess i'm a coward, and because of this i'll always be alone.
>>707674186
It's better in every single way, honestly. Every aspect has improved, some larger than others. Drinking is still something I struggle with...like pretty much all others, I've had my relapses, although my hospital trip was two years ago now. I will never let myself get to that point again, but it scares me because I know I have that demon inside me. Takes a lot of effort to live with that fear, but it's a lot less effort than trying to maintain living while being drunk 24/7.
>>707674482
I think it says a lot of you that you managed to catch yourself right before it could have ruined you.
I have a question though. I've been drunk for ten years and quit for a month a little while ago. I found that my life got worse. I didn't wanted do anything, dumped my girl, just everything really sucked and I got really depressed and suicidal. Do you think some people just can't live sober?
>>707672797
Im really not trying to troll but something struck me kinda odd with something you wrote. You knew people who blew their heads off just trying to feel alive?
>>707674971
Top kek
My dad was a functional alcoholic. Always did his job, took care of us, and still drank from breakfast to bed. Me, I choose to drink only at night, after work, and never before 9pm on weekends. I get too drunk if I don't follow that, and I fuck shit up.
>>707674901
So after that month did you start drinking again? If so, did you regret the things that you did while you were sober for that month (like dumping your girlfriend)?
It took me a long time to really get back to "normal" after I detoxed. Granted, I had a couple small relapses thrown in, but I'd say a good solid 7 or 8 months of readjusting. During that time I learned a lot, but also had a TON of residual anxiety, doubt, shame...had to rediscover a lot.
If you started drinking again after that month, I would say that you simply didn't give yourself enough time to adjust. A month is a long time to be sober after drinking for ten years, but it's not nearly enough for your body to correct itself. You were feeling that way because your body was still changing (positively).
I understand your point, and in some ways it makes sense, but honestly no...anyone can live sober. But you have to want it. That seems daunting and tiresome, I know, but seriously dude the alternative to wanting that is wanting death. Because sticking with drinking will lead to your death, and before that it will ruin whatever it can.
After (the moment) I get my paycheck tomorrow, I plan on buying a few liters of cheap wine, forgetting all about the past 6 months, and shitpost wildly on various social media outlets.
The past 6 months are a result of drinking and various other drugs. Many mistakes were made. I ended up losing my car, my friends, my apartment and I dropped out of college. I had, seriously, 5 more classes to complete before I got my degree.
On a scale from one to granola bar, my life had gone full nature valley.
The thing is that when I'm sober I can't stop feeling regret. I'm going to end up killing myself either slowly or accidentally. But I know that i'm going to die by my own hands.
I'm a shit worker when I'm sober. I'll stare off into the ether when i'm receiving instruction and will just completely fly off the hook at the first hint of difficulty.
Sober dreams usually involve my time in Iraq and will fuck my mind up for days.
Unless I have a steady flow of some mind/mood altering substance I'm pretty much worthless as a human being.
>>707653051
Hope all is well bro
>>707675800
So true that it will ruin whatever it can. I feel like it's a cancer that eats everything around me and then begins on me. It was mostly the anxiety that you mention that made it so bad for me. I did start drinking again after that month. I think I'll man up and go for longer this time.
>>707657774
>>highshool
>>few weeks ago
>>707652204
When're you going to board the train?
>>707666686
fuck yeah on probation i went through like 20 of those 5L bottles
mixed vodka with seriquil - woke up covered in bite marks from my roommates really drunk girl friend, then went on to play bass for my church (about 3 hundred people) 2 hours later still drunk.
I was drooling and my roommate doesn't know, and she doesn't remember a god damn thing.
>>707669151
acid is life
>>707677261
Yes, that's what I'm worried about
12 years drunk, 2 years off the liquor on Oct 22. Cold turkey, free will. Painful, but worth it. lost 50 lbs over 23 months. saved thousands. life is boring as fuck sober, but everything is clear. its fucking poison. sober sex doesnt hold a candle to a good liquor fuck. make your own choices.
>>707668390
I can sympathize. Im 20, ive been living with my mom for the past 6 years alone while she drank her depression away. Found her corpse last year.
I'm drinking something like twenty pounds of beer on the 24
Red win fucks my shit up
fuck liquor, but props for golshlager
>>707651782
Bro - get help for your daughter's sake
>>707651307
>work in health care with cancer patients
>kind of like hospice
>fifth of jameson every night almost
>go to funeral of one of my favorite clients
>emotionalbreakdown.suicide
>go an hour away to a city and get blasted fucking drunk
>spend all of my cash on booze
>angry because 4 cigarettes left
>go to leave parking lot
>20 bucks plz says the machine
>open wallet
>two cartoon moths fly out of my empty billfold and give me the finger
>lift automated gate with drunken retard strength
>speed off laughing because fuck everything
>bash passenger side mirror off of another car
about 2 minutes down the road
>dui's are for quitters
>speed off into the night.
>go to friends house and pass the fuck out in driveway
this is the second time I've sideswept a car shitfaced and then fled the scene. It's been a month and I still havn't gotten a letter or call or anything about the parking lot incident. quit my job and went back to working as a cook because cancer patients are fucking depressing. got drunk at the resteraunt before coming home tonight. The cause is gone but the depression and compulsive drinking and chain smoking and fucking anything willing has stayed. this isnt even my worst story
Its not uncommon for me to go a week, maybe two, wifhout drinking as a resting period, but more often than not im in the midst of a binge. I usually find some reason to day drink on my days off or i just sneak it for my wifes benefit, and there is rarely anything that can stop me from cracking a beer in the shower in the morning, nothing more satisfying.
I work a shitty job in debt collections at a call center and i frequently pack beers in my lunch and a drink a few on each break/lunch in my car just to keep up my BAC. when i get home my wife cant never tell ive been drinking, then i can continue drinking at home, averaging a total of 15-20 beers a night, though i usually dont bother drinking on mondays or tuesdays.
I started and enjoyed drinking because ive always been painfully shy and it allowed me to be able to have fun socially, but i also always really enjoyed drinking alone as well for some reason. Started around 18 and now im 28 and i would say the only realy bad thing about it is the weight gain amd the hugely increased anxiety i feel whenever im not drinking, especially hungover. Also my memory has suffered immensely.
>>707665314
Or kill a carload of my family members
apparently i'm like the best drunk any of my friends/acquaintances know. i'm routinely at least half in the bag by the time i get to work for closing shifts, and even when i open i've usually had at least two or three beers while getting up and getting ready. despite all this, my bosses fucking love me and there's been some talk of giving me a promotion of some kind.
i drink alone at home and go out to bars and have had occasional blackout nights, but the one thing i've NEVER had is someone tell me that i'm being an asshole and need to stop. i hang out with friends who DON'T drink and i never bother them, and these are the few-and-far-between type people that are true friends and would say some shit. they routinely call other people we know on that, mostly my older brother because he's kind of sloppy drunk.
my weirdest story that i can think of is one night i went to a bar while already a bit drunk, got fucking blitzed while i was there and woke up on my floor without remembering coming home. that's all well and good, but when i got up to take a piss there was blood all over the fucking walls and around the mirror. i have no idea how it got there or where it came from to this day.
>>707681174
jesus
>>707679119
i'm with you on the resting periods, though mine rarely go longer than like a day or two. i also am right with you on the "painfully shy" thing, though the prime reason i drink is that i like alcohol and how i feel when buzzed/drunk.
>>707680267
i get where you're coming from too, but one thing that i've done is deliberately do things to make it so that i'm as little a danger as possible to people. for instance, i don't own a car or even have a license because i know, if i did, i'd eventually drive while i was fucking hammered at least once and could potentially kill someone.
>>707681390
what, about the blood?
>>707681626
yeah, i'd be paranoid as fuck.
>>707681970
fuck if i wasn't for a day or two.
there was no blood on me at all, which also freaked me out a bit. i checked newspapers for any stories about some wild shit going down in my area and flat-out asked some of the employees at the bar what happened (framed it as , "did i act like an asshole/walk out on a tab/etc). nothing ever came of it, and this was like two or three years ago.
anybody else got some bizarre shit like this?
>>707651307
im 23 been stabbed got a bottle to my head broke my nose was in jail tonight
>>707682461
Could be from an ulcer if you drank a lot lol. I've puked up a bit of blood a few times
>>707682729
that's another thing i thought of, but it's never happened before or since. can ulcers go away real fast?
>>707682714
are you a raging douchebag or what? most people who get fucked up that much, especially when you're that young, are fucking dickheads. either that or you're absolutely hanging out in the wrong places.
>>707651782
So it doesn't get better? My slut wife cheated on me. I miss my son. Fuck her man.
>>707655109
You think that but as a former alcoholic in aa I'm here to tell you it's not true. Everyone can smell it but they don't say anything, sorry anon but alot of us thought vodka was odorless
>>707664908
you lie, seriously. i dont bleeive you
>>707666990
you're a funny dude, you get so drunk htat you make a fool out of yourself and hten think your a alchoholic. fuck you, you're a child, seirously, are you even 18?
>>707672869
me too, fag lord
Since everyone else is asking, am I an alcoholic? I go through 8 beer and a bottle of rum a week
>>707652966
Literally this.
> Be 19 high functioning alcoholic
> Have great job at a bank
> Start work hammered, high, or on xanax, usually all 3
> Go on lunch, pick up friend, drink jack straight, smoke a blunt, do lines
> go back to work, finish
> go party all day
> Go to second job as a barback, drunk, high, on pills
> Finally leave, collapse in bed, get up 3 hours later and do it all again
That was literally every day for about a year until..
> Apparently long term xanax+jack all day leads to memory loss
> Who knew?
> Fucking up at both jobs constantly
> Lose the bar job
> Drink more, fuck up at Bank more
> Completely forget I have a car payment, gets repod
> Literally next day lose my bank job
So was left with no car, shitloads in debt, and no job. 7 years later, completely sober, and have a great career, so it worked out in the end.
Started drinking at around 9th grade high school.been an alchi ever since im now 24.Had to cut down a few months ago hot so drunk I passed out on my way home literally blacked out and slept on the sidewalk.Fucking rock bottom.Have more stories if anyone is interested.They're really emberassing.
>>707651307
>grew up always around alcohol
>i started buying pints of taka on my 21st birthday
>drank every day since
>go to grad school
>4 drinks a night turns to 12 drinks a night
>drinking tall cans in parking lots between seminars
>when i graded students papers i would slam an 18 pack because "their writing is so shitty you gotta be drunk to read it"
>started going to seminars drunk
>meeting with advisor drunk
>no one said anything
>they could probably smell it
>fuckit.jpg
>i am the shit, you cannot fuck with this
>things went downhill
>started stealing from everyone i knew.
>i would drink anything that was in the house (lived with a lot of people)
>angry outbursts
>thesiswritingtime.gif
>cant even function anymore
>wake up at 11am, go to 'work,' flip out from stress, start drinking while working, say fuck it all, then just get hammered and go home, drink until 3am.
>repeat
>committed sexual assault that i dont remember at all
>no recollection
>all my friends hate me
>gf leaves me
>i dont even know what happened
now im two weeks sober and i live in a different town.
>>707651897
fuck man, that's heavy. i wish the best for you. how old were you when you were diagnosed and do you think it could have been prevented if you didn't drink so much?
>>707685320
dude, if passing out on the way home is rock bottom then i hit that like five years ago.
and embarassing? try this on for size. i got fucking wrecked at a local bar when i showed up to see this band i know. my apartment was like a ten minute walk away and i couldn't make it, sat right down in some grass and just tried to wait it out. i woke up without realizing i'd even fallen asleep when a cop car pulled up in front of me and gave a little bleat on the siren.
the cop got out and asked if i was okay, this that and the other. i told him i was, that i lived right over there and was walking home but had a little too much to drink so i was trying to clear my head. dude was super nice about it, actually gave me a ride home the last like hundred feet or whatever it was. when i got up to my apartment, i saw the alarm clock near my bed read fucking almost 5am. the bars in my town close at 1am, so i had fallen asleep in a parking lot for four fucking hours like one minute from my apartment.
>>707664908
rough spot m8. lots of people are going through the same shit right now though. AA meetings man, there are a lot of people who are in your position. its harder to do it alone, easier with a community that will support you whether or not you succeed or fail. the meetings are everywhere
