feels thread - alcoholic/alcohol abuse edition
what are you using to kill the hurt tonight, /b/?
everyone's welcome, you don't have to be a drunk like me
got some polish beer, Zywiec
alcy here but not feeling too depressed tonight so gonna ride these good waves with the help of the beer
>>707501055
good to hear things are going good, anon
this is one of my rougher nights in recent weeks so i'm a bit jelly
Bump, I know you're out there /b/ros
>>707501165
Yeah, my depressions seems to always lurkin, cigarettes for me
Vodka and lemon water for me
How are you?
It's one AM and I'm sitting in my bed, drinking Tullamore
I have work in the morning so right now I'm just trying to get a good buzz so I can sleep well.
Got some feels coming I think, might stay up for a few more hours to enjoy it. At least I get a chance to feel alive, and not so numb and lost that I feel during the days.
>>707500862
tater vodka
Headed home to go pound some beers. Got a gram of weed (indica) for when I wanna sleep and take my sedative. Wake up tomorrow at 6am. Hope the hangover isn't as bad as today's was/is.
this.
pure with ice or in a Sangria
>>707500862
Usually Four Roses (Small Batch) is my go to drink. However, tonight I'll be drinking a shitty fifth of Bacardi that some dingus got me for my birthday. I mean, it tastes like shit, but I'm an alcoholic, so fuck it.
caribou lou later after i finish studying for exams, shit fucked me up good last time I had it
>>707501165
im being a hypocrite here cuz im probably just projecting and would rly do the same thing as u are, but u prob shouldnt be continuing the cycle. gotta stop the alcy depressive loop
anyway, back to this zywiec
i cant drink without having suicidal thoughts so ill have a bowl of cereal for tonight
How do youz guys deal with your hangovers. I can't be drunk at work so hair of the dog is out of the question.... drinking beer btw some 5.5% and some Sapporo Japanese piss.
>>707503496
yeah, i'm more of an alcohol abuser than an alcoholic
funny story, was in a 3 year long relationship with a true alcoholic. she developed the physical dependency, I could stop and suffer through my depression if I really buckled down and did it.
was getting her help, quit for 2 weeks. found out as i was in the waiting room for her to get admitted to detox that she had been cheating on me, got a text from her co-worker's fiancee. That was about 3 weeks ago. been having a bit of a rough time ever since.
>>707503156
it's 7:00, i just "broke up" with a girl I was seeing because she only wanted to be fuck buddies and I caught the feels for her.
what do you do for work?
1.5L of 'santa marina' pinot grigio. warning: contains sulfites.
lost my ID so i have to rely on others for alcohol.
but i hate alcohol anyways. I want drugs. dont need an id for those. im not even gonna post what i was about to say though.
>>707503709
i don't get hangovers really. i'll usually drink half a fifth over the course of about 8 hours, so i really just maintain a steady buzz instead of getting drunk.
>>707503863
post it anyways, you're among friends and fellow fuckups here
>>707503815
yo that's fucked up. but hey, at least you found out. fuck em, deal with the little head bullshit u got going on no for a little longer, then forget all that shit and leave the negativity behind. ur at the rough part of the process but its only up and up from there on out
>>707503709
100% effective hangover cure:
1-2 headache pills
bacon, egg+cheese
1 large glass water
2 hits cannabis
symptoms gone within 30 min
alternatively, drink 2 large glasses of water and 1 advil before passing out drunk and you will never be hung over in the first place
>>707503960
I can't do that man. I need to be like 9/10 blasted and need that high to fall asleep.
>>707503960
i like cat tranqs
meow
>>707504030
yeah, that's what i'm trying to do. tonight's just a rough night 'cuz of the new girl drama. c'est la vie, i'm glad it happened. if i can find a girl that's as cool as her within a few days of my breakup, i'll find one even cooler soon.
>>707504253
I smoke a lot of weed, take melatonin and occasionally do some opiates at night. I meant over the course of 5 hrs btw, i'm canadian so i thought a fifth was more like a 1.14l bottle
The original function Junkie here...let me tell you about this day as though you want to hear it...wake up call hock up wont answer my call, most likely mad about some something that i have no control over. Hear crazy noise coming from pipes in house go outside and the water line coming from the main to the house is broke...so dig that shit up, have to wait until morning for all of the water do drain out of hole to patch the pipe...its all good though have half an opana and about 5 mg of OC waiting on me im just waiting until later so i can really enjoy it..pro tip...always start looking long before you need it..pill heads are a moody lot...
>>707500862
My girlfriend left me yesterday.
It started out as just for sex, but she really seemed to love me. So I forced myself to love her back.
I really did start to love her. And then she leaves me.
Don't have any alcohol.
But I've decided to smoke every cigar in my humidor so maybe it'll kill me.
>>707503815
Sorry about your girl, anon.
I'm a dumbshit who slacked off when I was supposed to learn shit and get good grades, so now I'm doing garden work for about $6 per hour (I'm not from the US) and I have applied for a bunch of other jobs that don't really require the presence of a thinking being. I even got a mail today that said "Hello anon, thanks for your application" but it didn't say anything about me being invited for an interview or not so I am not sure how to feel about that.
Tomorrow I will spend nine hours pulling weeds from the pavement outside a workshop. But it's something.
What do you do for a living?
>>707504462
a fifth is 750ml
>>707504572
>2012+4
>buying pills on the street
come on anon, you can do better than that, i know you can
>>707504833
yeah i googled it after i said it, that's what we call a 26 here
>>707504572
5mg of oxy? that's not enough to even kill a headache bro
>>707504694
damn dude, that sucks. judging by the quality of your writing you're a smart dude, so you'll get out of the shithole eventually.
I'm a student and work at a chinese restaurant, formerly was an office worker doing B2B sales for a manufacturing company. realized it wasn't fulfilling so decided to go to college at the ripe age of 23.
>>707504675
you're just gonna give yourself a sore throat /b/ro. no substances around at all to abuse?
>>707500862
Kraken rum straight, and a 6 pack of reds wicked apple ale. Not only to numb tonight, but to feel like shit in the morning and give myself more encouragement to kill myslef
>>707505004
well i want to get a scrip..i do live in pillsville USA..but i stink of dirty pill head a bit too much for that...i mean is there some other alternative i am not seeing here...and stay get clean, thats what my brother always says and if that was a real option i would have taken it along time ago..
>>707505184
quit you, you think i dont know that..thats why im waiting until later...
>>707505390
just get a good hookup for H, cheaper than any opiates you're buying in pill form and if you're not buying tar you can still snort it. if you're getting tar just smoke it
win/win.
>>707505184
I'm afraid not.
No oxycodone.
No cough syrup.
No wine.
No whisky.
No beer.
What happened to when the pharmacies sold Laudanum? Get me a bottle, I'll write The Raven all over again.
>>707505620
that really sucks dude. if i was you i'd just slam a bunch of benadryl or gravol and knock myself out for 12 hours
>>707505556
well gl with that i guess
>>707505390
darknet you can get 10 roxy for ~$115... but i have never done that myself. know people who have tho. do research.
or just stay clean. opiates are hell.
or you can buy fire poppy seeds on amazon for $24/5lb. 1.5lb made to tea will rock your world. almost killed me with a tolerence. suggest to start @ 1lb. 'we got nutz' brand. I stopped doing it. But works insanely well. look that shit up. its what stopped me from buying off the street, and is easier to taper off when you decide to quit. dont be a retard and die or else youll get it banned for everyone else.
>>707505571
i did buy some weed of off a guy who i think slings ye ole H, but that seems like a really bad line to cross..ill just make what i have last as best as i can...maybe pill head mc wont answer my calls will pick up in the morning..
>>707505821
That's what I'm considering.
She dumped me over the computer while I was at a hotel with some people.
I couldn't even find a room to be alone in and process it.
I walked and found a stairwell, and I sat down, but then the place had to be evacuated because of a gas leak.
>>707505184
If/when the day comes I can unfuck myself and decide what to do I hope to go to college some day too. I'm only 21, so there's still some time to look around for something that I feel I can really stick to, or so I like to think.
Good to hear that you're on the right track!
I'll be downing a fifth of Jim Beam tonight. I've been saying I'm going to quit this time for 15 years now.
>>707504462
Fuckin eh. I'm living in coastal BC. Where do you reside fam?>>707504161
I can't stomach food while hungover. Try again
I got some Stoli, only some left though, after that I'm going to drink straight licor 43
I used to have a prob with fapping. Trust me it gets WAY better when u quit (or just slowly reduce).
oh coors light, you're the blight of my life
i drink you down almost every night
you abuse me as i abuse you
my bodys been broke, my brains split through
and when the last beer is drank and done
i hope its the last time ive seen the sun
the fun we've had and fun we've hadn't
my sad you drowned and heart you gladdened
ill hold you tight and ill keep you close
just like a noose that's wrapped 'round my throat
and when the last beer is drank and done
i hope its the last time ive seen the sun
i also write ninja turtle x yugioh fan fiction if anyone is interested. basically instead of finding a pyramid necklace, yugi finds raphaels sais and turns into a kick ass turtle to fight evil. instead of ninja fighting though, they throw cards at each other like gambit from xmen. im not sure what the sais do yet, probably some ultimate attack or something.
>>707500862
Good choice bro, I love that stuff
>>707506497
thats what the cannabis is for homeslice
either way, you need to force it down. i forget why but the specific shit in bacon egg and cheese is exactly what a hungover body wants.
this is literally the only real answer to that question. if all else fails, drink glass after glass of water and take a fuckton of excedrin. excedrin specifically is great for a hangover. that bit of caffeine in it works wonders. cant believe i forgot to mention that, fuck advil.
Semi-alchy here.
Nursing a beer or two before bed. Moving in with my GF killed my ability to binge. Did it once or twice around her and she freaked out. It kind of sucks, as I still mentally wish I could drink, even if I don't anymore. It was my way of decompressing, relaxing, and wasting my life away.
Since I am not drinking much (other than an "acceptable" amount, I feel much better. Even got a promotion at work the other day. But I still miss being able to binge.
Can't wait, as she is going on a trip by herself soon, and I will be able to revert back to drink-anon. Netflix, 3 bottles of wine (or 10+ beers, or a bottle of rum), and a trip stumbling to the door to get pizza from the pizza guy.
Pretty much spent my entire 20s living like that. Don't know how else to live. Even with a good life now, house, GF, etc, I still miss it.
>>707506860
>i also write ninja turtle x yugioh fan fiction if anyone is interested.
No thank you
I'm a nurse, I'm drinking till I pass out almost every night just to feel like a human again for just a few hours
> be me 19
> in love with 13 yo
> she's the sis of a good friend of me
> shit is turning bad
> actually have feelings for her
> friend does everything to end it
> tfw u finally find love and this happens
>>707506497
northern ontario, about 3 hours out of toronto. comfy place, nothing for young people except the college though.
>>707505992
fuck man. at least it's over now though. typical advice, but there's plenty of women to play with if you just put yourself out there.
>>707505903
it's no different than doing opiates in pill form except for when you get a bad batch.
I'm just trying to get a good nights sleep OP
>>707507468
asshole ur 19 what can u possibly have in common? don't fuck up someone else's life because you're an emotionally stunted autist
>>707507475
Damn anon, if I were in t dot ide def slam a beer with ya.
Remove a bullet from my head
Extracting over confidence
Hidden so easy to pretend
Too bad the rush was found again
I can see the pictures on the floor
Sketches of what was there before
Three came from one little seed
The last one is all i need
I can hear the bottle on the ground
We turned the corner safe and sound
No thought of him as it was done
A clean execution
Cool like the ocean
Burned like a summer home
Fooled by the notion
That the sums don't add up at all
There's the line that is leading, clearly feeding all the things I don't believe in
But i'll step in once again
Cut in line to get closer to the source of all the things I'll never belong to
Step it up and sign right in again
>>707507475
Go jays?
>>707507755
fuck you
we just came to like each other.
I didn't want to feel the way I do either.
could be that she forgot about me in no time cause puberty, but for me, I never met someone I like as much as her
>>707500862
Crown Maple on the rocks.
Not going to get hammered tonight. Just far enough I can get some damn good sleep.
>>707507976
not really
her parents know about it but just want me to not do anything and keep away
>>707507997
This is an alchoholic thread not a fucking depression thread.
Goodnight everyone!
Started killing the hurt when I was 15. Rum and beer, helps me feel normal.
>>707508124
nigger, reality is beyond your ability to define
>>707508258
I also smoke weed and abuse both painkillers and antidepressants
>>707501055
Recently tried zywiec at a Polish festival, not bad but I've been looking for okicim for weeks now.
>>707507997
fuck you
you don't know what love is lol
if u were a big boy you'd know that her "being in love" with you was just silly kid shit, there's no way she could have meant it. ur an inconsiderate cunt lol
>>707500862
i don't like crown royale despite my leafiness
Friend bought me this and smoked me out. Can't complain.
>>707500862
Cheap ass whiskey, tried to kill myself last weekend, friend found me, maybe this weekend will be successful
>>707507468
Don't be a bellend. It's lust that you're feeling. Not love.
>>707509168
that's the spirit anon. better luck next time.
there's always tomorrow. you know what i mean, yeah? its better to have goals and try to succeed then not have any goals at all. I don't have any ambition or drive so i'll never be as successful as you. you who have the goal of death, still have a goal, with a clear path to victory.
i wish you well upon your journey.
>>707506943
I know those feels bra. I'm over a year sober now, still miss it though
>>707509579
or he could just smoke weed and not be a faggot
>>707510237
yeah but then he'd be a lazy fucking pothead with no goals. he's better off keeping having ambition. with a little drive to succeed who knows what he might accomplish?
>>707500862
I got a bottle of crown and a bottle of crown vanilla. My 11 year old puppy dog has taken a turn for the worst out of nowhere the past 4 weeks and could barely walk this morning when I left. Probably just gonna sit with him and cry honestly since I've been holding it in all day...
I was a huge stoner in my teens. Still am to a degree. The first time I got drunk , I knew I was an alchoholic. I'm 30 now. I've lost so many friends because of booze. So much money wasted. So much time wasted being...wasted. Feels so damn good tho.
>what are you using to kill the hurt?
Water.
Trying to quit drinking w/ varying degrees of success. Was doing good for about two months, but I fucked up and poured a drink (or three) last Sunday. Kinda regret it 'cause I ended up skipping my Monday class.
>>707510502
stupidest thing i have ever heard
'have goal to kill self' is not a real goal
its a delusion and a mental illness that needs to be addressed
i understand your perspective, but you are full of shit right now
this man's goal should be to get himself straight and work out his issues, and a drug that induces heavy introspection like cannabis would help with that.
sometimes you need to spend a few years as a pot smoking piece of shit to cultivate the vibes you need to not lead a miserable life. life is weird like that.
>>707510760
Trying is the first step man
>>707507666
I'm an alcoholic. Last binge I didn't show for a week of work. Saw shadow men and had weird sleep paralysis. My boss wanted me to go to rehab. I did and it was lame. No more heavy drinking. I just smoke weed everyday and occasionally have one drink. But anyways. I'm watching trailer park boys and about to smoke up.
>>707506860
Although ninja turtle yugioh crossover fan fiction is one of the dumber things i heard today, good for you man. At least you write. Not my thing but hey, at least you are being creative
>>707509129
fucking degenerate, cheers
>>707511074
dont be a roadblock to this mans goals. if he was unhappy with his goal he would change it. you're delusional to think that you know what's best for him. his goal should be what he wants it to be, not what you want for him.
sometimes you've lived long enough to know that you're not really living, and you're not going to cultivate vibes. life is not weird. its straight forward.
>>707510502
Smoking is introspective. All I realize drinking is badly I want to kill myself, so I drink until I'm in the hospital. I don't drink anymore. GLHF to anyone drinking now, Cheers!
>>707512086
agree to disagree
we are subjective beings in an objective reality. complicates things greatly.
im all for the right to die, but i talk to alot of people and ime its 90% delusion. whatever lol fuck it.
Poor Poor fag
>>707512981
yeah dude its not like it effects us any way, and dollars to donuts he aint gunna kill himself. shit donuts to dollars he aint gunna kill himself. i bet you a thousand donuts he dont fucking kill himself.
Been hardcore drinking for about 4/5 years now, 750ml of scotch a day plus 10 12 beers. I try to keep the buzz rolling all day. It broke up my marrage, caused me to lose my house, job. Pretty much everything. Got real fucked up back in july and stuffed a 12 guage in my mouth. Rolled my truck leaving the woods after deciding not to flip the switch and now im trying to put my life back together, still a drunk, still think about pulling the trigger every fucking day. Id give anything to go back in time
opa sta to moje oci vide
ne sikiraj se skonto sam jer sam bio prisutan
anyone here ever brew their own booze?
add 1/2 packet yeast to a bottle of (preservative free) apple or grape juice. dump oiut 1.5 cups juice and add 1.5 cups sugar before you do it. one gallon of (shitty) wine in 5 days. if you use champagne yeast you can get up to 20% but with store shit u will get ~10%
>>707513518
i love you dude. it'll all be alright, you're at your lowest now so it's only up from here
Used to drink straight up Bacardi two years ago when me and my then girlfriend broke up. Shit never got better after those two years.
>>707514778
gotta make sure the cap is cracked a (tiny!) bit so it dont explode
>>707515057
It never gets better but Bacardi stays the same
>>707513294
OP of this string of shit....used to be pothead, was happy as fuck, only drank on weekends, different bitch every week, few long term relationships with 9/10s, had to quit, replaced weed with alcohol....the consequences have never been the same.....rollercoaster to the bottom.....now settle for a 3.10.....don't become an alcohol anons.....it fucking sucks....will buy webcam and anhero this weekend, live streamed....only people I will miss are you faggots....and that's sad
>>707513518
This feel I know
>>707500862
dph and stolen alchohol
