Feels thread please. >be me >be curling in bed with a
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Feels thread please.
>be me
>be curling in bed with a pillow
>imagine it's my cute little girl, my realest lover
>stroke her hair and cuddle her
>she'll never go, she's the one for me
>talk to her about my whole day or my achievements or just to boost my ego
>tfw real girlfriend was never like that.
>>706961724
Ew.
Op here
Just to add: i feel i'll never find that imaginary person or real love
>>706961724
why date someone youre not happy with
>>706961724
If you weren't happy with her, why cry over it.
>>706962407
It used to be good some time ago.
>>706962602
I'm happy with her. It's just that it doesn't really feel dreamy.
Also have rage attacks that fuck shit up
>>706962805
how long you've been together?
getting drunk here, /b/ros
>>706963313
3 years
>>706962805
It doesn't feel dreamy because this is the real fucking world. Get over yourself and all the fantasy you read growing up. All books do as a kid is give you unrealistic ideals about women at an early age that slowly festers into a mental illness that makes you hate them for not being what you expected them to be. Trust me it's the biggest reason I'm still single.
>>706964572
Why still single then?
>>706964572
This. And it is a metaphor for many other situations where it is important not to get overly attached to things.
>>706965072
I indeed do feel i'm the more attached part of this relationship
Fresh OC
>>706965213
Well let me tell you something.
If you really do love your girlfriend and you put in effort to please her, then by common courtesy, she should do the same.
Therefore, if your girlfriend is not returning the love, then there is a problem with the relationship.
Remember, men and women are equal, none deserve to be innocently underprivileged and none deserve to be special snowflakes.
Stefan explains it well:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XExL-Xf6rDo
She's always in the back of my mind..
I miss her /b/..
>>706965566
>>706966044
Where is she now?
>>706966105
Thanks man
>>706963868
im with you this night anon
>>706967471
Well, that's all i need too those times.
>>706967586
thanks, anon
since when are feels threads so shit?
mimimi I cant get over her mimimi, how old are you 16?
>>706967980
Are you 40 and cucked?
>>706965566
I'm going through changes
i'm fucking done
i've been trying my god damn hardest for years and still lose out to people who are smarter, more talented, or socially intelligent than me. i have nothing to show for my immense effort, all i've done is wasted so many years.
i can't escape loneliness and feeling of isolation. i can't even hold up a fucking conversation. and i'm really tired man.
whoever said "it's all gonna be ok" to me 10 years ago can go choke on a dick. fuck you.
>>706961724
i have feels anon. Things like this make me thankful for what i have.
>Work in auto parts plant, in close quarters with others on assembly line
>not the funnest job but good pay benefits ect
New guy comes on line last spring, well call him rod.
>Rod turns out to be a hard worker, always smiling, cracking jokes, even on our worst days >turns out rod's little girl had been murdered a year or 2 back
<rod lost his wife, hit rock bottom, found another girl, remarried, Got a new job (Us)
>Things seem to look up for him, but rod keeps missing time. Problems at home he says,
>apparently his 6 year old told child services his new wife hit her
>word down the grapevine is hes about to be canned. Bosses hands are tied
Its just hard to watch someone whos already rebuilt their whole life once, slowly lose everything again...
I haven't told my family the truth in 4 years. About anything. They still haven't caught on.
>>706969103
sorry for my shitty greentext
>>706968753
Seriously don't be so harsh on yourself. We all have many different weaknesses...it's just that some people have a talent to only so their goods.
>>706969103
This is just deteriorating ever reading.
Some people are just going through the hardest of times and are not worth such bad life.
I just put down my cat today. I've had him with me since I was 4
>>706970714
RIP... What was his/her name?
>>706968753
if you really want to change things you have to start with yourself. nothing will gonna just change and everything is better. you have to set the startpoint and try to improve yourself.
if ppl smarter try getter yourself smarter they werent born that smart they did something for it. same goes for social intelligent. Only if you say to your self that you are done and a loser you will be a loser. And yeah "its all gonna be ok" is a shit sentence. nothing will just change, nobody is watching over you and helps you getting great success its your fucking thing to do this. And I am not just speaking to you I am speaking to everyone here. You are alone responsible for your success in life not matter what job/relationchips/health.
>>706970714
I know that feel
one of mine was put down Christmas Eve 2011
>>706971096
His name was Stumpy, because he was born with a deformed tail. Motherfucker was a beast cat, who still kept on kicking despite being 16 years old and went blind.
>>706971117
I feel you
>>706971337
>>706966044
same here
>>706966044
>tfw never had her but still always think about her
>>706966044
Same here dude, I feel you.
She is with another guy now, and I can't stop thinking about everything we had.
Can't get over it.
Anyone else accept the fact that they're going to be alone forever? For me, I think it's for the best: No one should have to be stuck with some emotionally unstable faggot like myself.
Ex broke up with me. Tried killing herself the same night. Missed texts and calls from her telling me she loved me and she was terrified. Didn't care at first cause she broke up with me. I got a new girlfriend within two-three days and I'm really missing her. My new grillfriend only wants to fuck all the time and doesn't shut up about sex and stories of her fucking and shit she's done. My ex in the hospital wasn't perfect but atleast I felt loved. She would hold my hand all the time. She never wanted to leave my side. She made me eat when I wouldn't. She stopped me from suicide twice. I don't know how much longer I can do this. I want to quit my job but can't because it pays rent, phone, Internet, drugs. I have nothing higher than high school education. I'm 23 and have no wife. No kids. Both siblings are married with kids. I'm so sorry mom and dad. I could have been so much better and I know you thought I would. You always believed in me and I went no where. I may end it tonight. Dont tell me not to. Let me feel with you guys for the final time.
>me happy with gf
>She goes off to college out of state
>The distance wears at us and we break up
>Keep talking though since we still are each others best friends
>Notice she starts partying more and more
>She's falling behind in her classes and skipping, even though her family took out a 10k plus loan for her to go
>Whenever I talk to it about her I get "fuck you let me live my life"
>Her roommate has a dad that supplies her with alcohol and Swishers and the rest are partiers
>Today
>She skips class and instead of catching up on anything she finishes her roommates bottle of vodka and is drunk as hell by 3pm
>We argue about it and I snap, tell her she needs to sort her shit out and that I just want her to just do good in college (her dad dropped out because he didn't feel like college)
>Get fucking told you don't know what you're talking about, argue to the point that she can't even think of a word to say besides fuck you
>Done talking now
I just wanted her to be safe /b/
>>706974461
>Both siblings are married with kids.
“Life” does not mean something vague, but something very real and concrete, just as life’s tasks are also very real and concrete. They form man’s destiny, which is different and unique for each individual. No man and no destiny can be compared with any other man or any other destiny. No situation repeats itself, and each situation calls for a different response. Sometimes the situation in which a man finds himself may require him to shape his own fate by action. At other times it is more advantageous for him to make use of an opportunity for contemplation and to realize assets in this way. Sometimes man may be required simply to accept fate, to bear his cross. Every situation is distinguished by its uniqueness, and there is always only one right answer to the problem posed by the situation at hand." --Viktor Frankl, Mans Search For Meaning.
Never compare your life to others. And honestly-- you sound like you might be looking at y'alls relationship through rose colored glasses. Your ex had to stop you from killing yourself twice, and force you to eat. So you were depressed for a LONG time, and it only got worse after she dumped you. You were already sad, and she didn't seem to be helping then so she won't help now.
>>706974301
are you me?
>>706961724
>Be me not leaving the house during this three weekend. Me and myself always just me alone with my thoughts. No friends, no girlfriend. I've never seen a naked women, outside of porn online.
>>706962096
Kek pain always wins. Everytime. Every fucking time.
>>706975591
I am you and you are me. Carry that with you wherever you go. Thank you, my friend
>>706967471
Damn that picture made me laugh until I started crying in earnest...
>>706976257
me too, anon
>ask "her" how she feels about me
>"no idea"
>we've been very close for months, loving
>"why"
>"I don't wanna think about feelings at the moment :D"
>"why cant you tell me if youre still interested in me, more interested or less interested? should be easy to do"
>"I just dont want to think about feelings"
it's over, right? hold me. shes all I had.
>>706970714
damn I know that feel, been through the same. you'll get over it, but you'll never forget this wonderful being. RIP! she's waiting for you in a better place.
>>706975160
i'm with you on that anon.
>>706977672
except i still feel like killing myself
Just leave me alone. I have a boyfriend now Idc if you hate it or like it, I'm not yours anymore let me be fucking happy
>got that text from my ex of 10 years today, we broke up 2 months ago.
>>706978002
Well when I find the answer to suicidal thoughts, I'll definitely let you all know.
All anyone can say to that is see a therapist, and all that'll do is make you want to punch them in the fucking face.
>implying I havent tried that before
>implying it actually works and they dont just give you a RX to get the fuck out of their office
>>706978514
she sounds nice
>>706978514
She sounds like a whore
>>706961724
I fell OK, I guess.
>>706978514
great way to take a quote out of context, faggot.
you were probably spamming her phone, begging her to forgive you for something you fucked up with your own stupidity.
>>706978514
What did you send to her beforehand?
https://youtu.be/Bh3UJOHoxK0
Here we go
>>706978641
>>706978860
She was sometimes and she is a whore i will say that much. Ive fucked her a couple times since she got a new boyfriend tho. I can tell tbe story if anyone wants it
>>706979136
No one cares.
>>706966044
I know that feeling. She's like a soundtrack - always there enough to color your mood, sometimes at the fore, and more noticeable the harder you try to ignore it.
>>706978877
i hope this is original
>>706979032
>>706979053
Youre kind of right, i wasnt begging to get back with her but i was talking about finding her new guy
>>706979032
She cheated and i left just for the record
>>706979391
Well, there's your problem. Sorry that it went this way, but her being s blunt about it will be better in the long run.
>>706979543
Yeah, youre prolly right about that too. Shit still hurts tho
>>706979740
Trust me, I know.
I love you guys. I just wanted you to know.
>>706979136
Go for it, I'm reading
>>706961724
OP. All of my instincts are telling me to call you a fag, but please just get out of bed and stop feeling sorry for yourself. Seriously if you want something than go make it happen. You have no excuse to not achieve your goals. If you want a girlfriend than go get one. Just stop feeling sorry about yourself.
>>706979391
>finding her new guy
And what, kicking his ass? What are you, 12?
>>706980017
I especially love you for making me chuckle
>>706980017
I especially love you. For making me chuckle
>>706980137
>>706979911
I love you too, anon
> Graduate college, start working and looking for career job
> Spend a few years meeting lots of new people and traveling
> Meet that one woman that made it all good to have disappointments with your own life
> Get married, have beautiful daughter together, working superviser position
> Life doesn't feel so wasted
> Wife gets tired of her family, starts taking it out on me
> Be supportive, start taking extra responsibilities around the house
> Wife starts spending her money in other places, kind of unusual.
> Bills start to suffer punctuality
> Starts staying over at her mom's with daughter more frequently
> Starting to struggle to pay for bills, stress starting to build
> Come home one day, wife tells me she wants divorce
> Why?
> It's not good enough, you failed as a father and a spouse.
> Been working 16 hour days to support financial issues
> 8 months later, no rights to daughter, no wife, no home, no dogs, wife is with another man.
Which is worse? Never having or having and trying, then being told you are just a shit person. I'm in debt, owe money for a child I won't get to see for another 16 years, owe money for my ex-wife just because, and I was all ready doing what I could to support my family. This is an abridged version of the story, but, thinking about just going on the road by foot for 16 years and just waiting. I don't know.
>>706980085
I didnt say it was a good plan.
I was having fun, looking around, when suddenly this thread opened, and the feels came back again
God I miss her so much. Everything was going great. She loved me. I loved her so much. Then one day, she just disappears. She'd done it before. A few days at a time. Week or two. A month.
It's been a year now. No phone, nothing. I miss her so much. I don't know why. She's read my messages on Facebook. Never replies. I can't move on. I just can't. It hurts so much.
Every single night, I go to sleep knowing I'll see her again, and it never hurts and less. I wake up and I'm just cold and empty and alone.
>>706980582
If what you say is unbiased and true than you got the shit end for fucking sure.
>>706980582
I'm sorry that I don't have any good advice for you, but I just want to give you a little encouragement. Just because your wife did a shitty thing, it doesn't mean YOU are a shitty person. Good luck anon.
>>706980582
Goodluck indeed
>>706980906
>>706980887
>>706980582
Your wife is the piece of shit, not you. I'm sorry anon. Cunts like her give the rest of us a bad rep.
>>706969147
That makes you a sociopath. Srsly. Sorry anon.
>>706980855
>she reads them
Well at least you know she's still alive with internet access. So there's that.
You will survive my friend
Listen to some Lil B
>>706974301
Yep, that's me
>>706980887
It is indeed, anon. Don't want to contemplate suicide because that's too easy.
>>706980906
Much appreciated. I will do what I can from here.
>>706981080
And thanks to you, anon.
>>706981165
I'm pretty much resolved now. And yeah, she definitely turned out to not be who she was initially. I just worry about my daughter the most, repeating the cycle and what not.
>>706981350
Could just be a family member on her account. She was always sick. Always. Immune system shot to shit. Hospital for weeks at a time. You ever see The Wind Rises, Miyazaki's final masterpiece? It's like that, except I didn't do anything with my life, and I couldn't be with her.
>>706974461
Old-40s-divorced-fag here.
How about you stay away from both of them for a while. As in, no contact. You need a breather. You may also need to evaluate the type of women you are attracted to, drama-types?
Take a few months, trust me, they ain't going anywhere. And they're a dime-a-dozen on the street.
Any bar.
>>706981340
It started off as just an experiment, but then I realized how easy it made their lives. Now it's just a reflex. If they're happy in ignorance, who am I to shatter that by telling them how I honestly feel? Sociopaths can't feel emotions, but at least I feel enough to protect their happiness.
>>706981548
I assume you fought for custody as well? Children from broken homes do face a lot of challenges in life but as long as you're there for her when she reaches out to you, she should be fine. Our court system seems to favor the mother over the father in every scenario, and it's a double standard that females abuse the fuck out of. They fool the case workers into thinking they can provide a better life for them when in reality they'll be even more unstable and unpredictable in the future and the kids suffer more than they would if the dad had won. Its a fucked up system, and I'm sorry you won't be able to see her for a long time. I hope you get joint custody some day, somehow.
>>706981759
>I feel enough to protect their happiness
By taking away their ability to make reasoned choices based on what happened/will happen rather than what you wish them to believe.
What happens when someone calls you on it? What if they already know, but are frightened of you? Maybe they see through you.
Itt autism, whatever I'll add my share, two pals are back from their study/ work in other countries, call them and another friend who's here and decide to meet today to see each other and watch some football (soccer), wait til 18:00 no calls, ask one of them what's up over messenger since I don't have the others new numbers or Facebook, he says he'll check. 2 hours later I ask him the same and says 2 of them are too busy to hang, call the third guy he's also busy but tells me they went out yesterday before calling me anyway. Why do people enjoy wasting my fucking time, I actually had other plans for once but canceled them to hang with those idiots.
>>706981598
I didn't because I'm not a weeaboo fag. If her familys handling her affairs, then why wouldn't they get back to you in particular? Unless they have a good reason to have the ever loving shit out of you, they'd at least let you know if she'd passed away or not. I mean you can see her wall, right? They'd post a big paragraph about how loved she was and how she's no longer "with us due to xyz". If she were dead, you'd know. And you can always google her name to see if her obits been published. I do it all the time with estranged family members. Its easier than it should be.
>>706982193
>reasoned choices
That assumes that they'd use reason, or logic, to interpret these things. They accuse me of doing that too much, being cold and logical instead of emotional. If you tell someone that you think about murdering them constantly, what response do you seriously expect to get from them? Other than shock, awe, and fear mostly. There is no response to that, that I'd want to hear from them. So if they don't hear that from me, I don't hear their response, and everythings fine. All I have to do is buck up and get over it, and everyones fine.
We're talking about people who've been in mental hospitals before. Including myself. They're not suited to handle the truth, because its already landed them in a psych ward many times over. They think I'm fine, I think they're happy. Win win.
Rip thread, with our feels.
For we may have sinned.
For we are just people.
bump
>>706984342
Bump.2
>>706961724
t least you have a girlfriend.
>>706984563
Woah
I'm going to type something, it might take a while...
>>706968709
same, anon, same
>>706984835
this
every girl I've ever liked hates me
>>706974301
Yup same here, I'm selfish with my time too so be unfair really. I'm more worried about doing shit on my own, like retiring than anything else.
>>706985163
Well, not hate, more like not interested in me. Seems just as bad though.
>>706961724
>>tfw real girlfriend was never like that.
Real girls have their own problems, both internal and external.
She might be supportive when you have an issue, and maybe not.
In general, they have all the same failings as anyone else, but most are also entitled little princesses that will expect far more of you than they will give in return.
And just like kittens grow up to be cats, gf's go on to become wives.
That said: I keep going back to a relationship that's unbalanced, if not outright abusive, just because it's better than waking up alone every morning.
Thanks OP, now I need another shot. :^(
Why do all you cucks make every feels thread about some whore you never got to fuck
>>706985638
you keep going back because its the easy way out and you're scared of being alone. you're just wasting both y'alls time with this back and forth shit. leave and be done with it. you'll thank yourself in the end, when you find the right person. WHEN, not IF. she's out there waiting for you to get your head out of your ass and man the fuck up.
>>706985040
Here we go
>be me, 17yo, no friends or loved ones.
>almost no social skills.
>got into some international whatsappgroup with people i don't know.
>most are normies, some girls don't leave a day after joining.
>ff 6 months, i'm almost 18yo.
>group is shrinking and slowly dying, i began talking with people from that group in private, even though it's very hard for me to keep a conversation going.
>i get a bit close with some people, even a few girls.
>ff 2 months, i'm 18 now.
>still talk to some guys and girls.
>i get very close with the most shy girl of the group, i realize i kind of like her.
>ff another 2 months.
>she broke up with her bf because she just didn't feel anything for him.
>we both want to meet eachother, we're only 600km apart.
>she starts feeling lonely and feeling a craving for sex, something i felt my entire life...
>turns out she wants to sleep with me and i want to sleep with her too.
>she barely has any emotions, doesn't know what she wants, and has bipolar, but from what i can tell, she likes me too.
>i was always the most introverted person, but with her i can open up a little.
>we talk a lot, have both sexual and romantic-ish desires for eachother.
>i'm sure i feel something for her, but i'm not going to decide if it's love or not when i haven't met her.
>i miss her, especially when i'm alone in bed, and i've never missed someone before even though i've been in situations where everyone else misses everyone they know.
>i hold my pillow every night, wishing it was her.
That kinda was it, untill i remember what is missing
Dead
Rescue bump
>>706987461
i don't get this
did you meet her or not? or is this person imaginary?
>>706987461
that's a cute love story, anon. i hope you guys manage to meet someday.
@others: we have a small telegram group going with folks from feels threads, you can us here, it is anon.
telegram.me/joinchat/DTvISUEwvQQLaDeLU6wFEw.
Depression is a son of a bitch.
This isn't very feelsy, and the type of stuff that would be labeled "weak" or not good enough to be contributed to such a thread. But I'm going to anyway.
There's a girl I'm in love with, her name starts with a J. (Well, it really starts with X, but I prefer J.) So, J and I met about a year ago because we had mutual buds on Facebook. When she added me initially, I believed she was just another meme posting faggot who just shared everything she thought was funny, and I believed that she was just going to be annoying.
I was wrong. I accept it, check her page, and the first thing I thought when I saw her was: "Wow. She's... much better than I expected..."
We added each other on Skype, and we became somewhat okay friends. Our chats were usually short, meaningless and somewhat awkward. We start talking more and more, less and less awkward each time. I'm in love with J at this point. She lives in Florida, though. I tell her, and she sends a picture of Josh from Drake and Josh.
Continue?
>Healthy young male
>Amazing family
>Loving and caring gf
>Promising future
>Wake up everyday with next to no energy
>Have to force myself to work through the day, and it feels like I'm just going through the motions
>Have very frequent and vivid thoughts of suicide
Why the fuck do I feel this way? I am blessed to have the people I have around me and the future that is to come but why the fuck do I feel so stupidly depressed?
>be me
>don´t know how to feel about myself
>there are days where I have the biggest ego
>there are days where I don´t want to move because I might throw myself of a bridge
>endless circle that I can´t get out of
>>706991619
Are you doing what you love?
>>706961724
I'm on an distant relationship
I do this thinking of my gf
>>706980582
Seems like a very one sided story. I know there's always bias for the mother to have custody, but for you to be completely denied requires quite a serious reason, so there's def shit you're not fessing up to.
>>706975160
>Never compare your life to others
Don't think of a white elephant.
This one always gets me, worth the read.
Here's what I get when I talk to myself
>Anon, you're gay.
Yea, so?
>How would they react?
Who knows.
>What if you get kicked out?
...
>Does being gay affect your political and physical preferences?
No?! I'm a guy for fuck's sake. And I won't turn into a liberal. Both parties have favor in them, right?
>This will affect your position and appearance in societ-
TO HELL WITH ALL OF THAT SHIT
>Really? You're shy personality says something else.
The biggest and heaviest question of alll:
Do they need to know?
Hey, i am putting together a discord for people that feel alone and feel like they dont really have a place where they can speak their mind, stop by if you feel alone tonight and want someone to talk to
https://discord.gg/W8pTW
Beta cucks: the thread. This shit should be kept to /adv/ or something.
Last night I dreamt that I lived my entire life from approximately my age to death. It was like that Roy game from rick and morty. My new next door neighbor became eventually my girlfriend and one year after, my wife. We moved to northern california and started a vinyard, and eventually I died. After I died I only dreamt about the early days of our relationship, mostly me spooning her and her doing cute things, the first time we met, etc. The worst part was that at first I completely forgot about the dream. 10 minutes later and I was eating breakfast and it all hit me, It's like I died and came back to my old life. Honestly, after having this dream I realized that I have never really loved someone like I loved her. NOw i just feel awful. Going back to my reality after living such a life of playful happiness really hurts
>>706974817
Most people don't want advice from others even if it is really good advice. Let her go.
>>706991478
Moar please.
>>706966044
Too true. I wish I could forget what he meant to me and me running off to see him
>>706968709
>>706985041
What changes?
No matter how hard I try to convince myself that I don't need anyone, I hate being alone, I'll post a greentext with this.
>Be me
>4 at the time
>Know girl named Krishna (No she isn't an arab) from the neighborhood, first friend ever.
>Her mom is friends with my mom, drops her by so she can work
>Play with her all day until she comes back.
>First year of pre-school, joined late, like, in January
>Excited at first.
>Fall to the floor while running
>Some kids laugh
>2 kids approach me
>Help me get up
>First friends I ever got wihout being, like, destined to.
>By this I mean, they approached me, I didn't.
>Spend My first 10 years of life with them, deveploping feelings for Krishna, Growing closer and closer to my buddies.
cont.
>>706995682
I'm trying to join but I can't get into my account.
>>706997840
Cont
>Krishna's mother got a new husband with a decent job,doesn't work anymore, Krishna doesn't come over anymore.
>Still buddies at school, can live with that.
>Our classmates are huge fucking assholes
>one of my friends was and still is fat, not like morbid obesity, but chubby.
>I'm skinny as fuck
>Ha! you guys are a 10! you're a 1 and he's a 0!
>This pissed us off, as kids we were
>They do the same with Krishna, we maybe were too close.
>Push her, in terms of, "Ohhh, you like Anon don't you? we're telling him" and such.
>And again, as kids we were, this pissed us off.
>She cuts me off
>Asks me to stop talking to her so they stop
>I hear my heart crack on my insides, but hey I got my pals so fuck it I guess.
>2 years pass
>12 at the time, cringey edgelord, anime gamer shit things
>Of course, before it was hip and cool
>Little to no contact with her now
>Still have my friends
>She looks rather depressed
>Still doens't want to have anything to do with me
>To this day I have this But why face
>One of my friends talks to her
>Has problems at home, can't remember exactly what
>She's pretty much and emo by this point
Cont?
>>706995682
>invalid or expired
=(
>>706993675
Unfortunately anon the system is just that fucked
Hell maybe she lied she certainly sounds the type
>>706999679
Sorry, https://discord.gg/DTXXw
>>706998655
Eh, just make a new one. Not that hard. We're lonely in there....
>>706962684
I feel you. My last relationship was like that.
She dumped me 2 weeks ago.
At least my pillow will not leave me heh
>>706996777
Fuck anon...
>>706974301
Yup basically. Its not that I'm not attractive and shit (girls like me), I'm just a socially awkward sack of shit, emotionally unstable etc. Plus every girl I like likes my friend or some shit.
>>706971337
Fag
>>706998787
>My friends name was Nico
>Krishna and Nico grow as best friends.
>Did I just lose the only person I ever loved right in front of my eyes?
>Hopefully not
>They still grow together, by now we have new pals at school.
>They fight left and right, hug left and right, talk about anime wich was a strong bond between them, If I remember, Krishna was into Mirai Nikki and my pal into Gurren Laggan.
>My classmates still annoy most of us, this time, them.
>She isn't cutting him off.
>Oh well.
>It's love, I guess
>My only friend is now, who we all call Pancho, and no, he is not a Mexican.
>We are eachothers only companions until we finish 8th grade.
>I don't change schools, even tought I should have
>OH BUT MY FRIENDS MY BESTO BUDS.
>Fuck I was stupid.
>Middleschool
>New people get in,some people get out, standard stuff.
>My original pack of 4 friends is still part of the class.
>My birthday Approaches
>Always did stuff for my friends, play them Happy birthday on my guitar, have the class sing to them with me, write "Happy brithday" on their desk and put some balloons on them.
>I really cared about these people.
>Feeling left out at the time, only want them to sing me happy birthday
>Parents sing me
>Cool but I only wanted my friends, my parents loved me unconditionally due to my good grades, and beacuse they're my parents.
>Day passes
>They didn't sing me
>Nobody even said happy Birthday to me
>They all forgot
>I even told them like 5 times during the week
>Eat pizza with my family
>Most empty feeling I've ever had.
>Friends become distant with me and get new pals
>Went from the "WADDUP MY NIGGA?!" to a simple "Hi" followed by nothing.
>That Hi goes from Hi to nothing.
>Too autistic to get friends, I get anxiety around strangers, I just felt safe with those people.
>They all seem so happy wihout me
>They al filled those empty spaces with someone else, and I can't
>Become A+ student
>Just like that, I said I would get the best grades of my class
>>706976257
Age? I haven't see one either and its sad as fuck. I'm 17 but shit, still. Just wanted to know if I'm the only fucking one
>>706974461
>attempted suicide twice
>"I may end it tonight"
>suicidal ex in hospital for failing suicide
>suicide suicide suicide suicide I'm so sad I want to commit SUICIDE
This is the perfect example of attention whoring emo bullshit glamorizing suicide for attention. Shut the fuck up. I know it's a feels thread but you are retarded and I don't think anyone should care about your problems.
>Have friend in school
>Shes hot
>Find her nudes on here
>Fap furiously all the time
>She doesn't know
>Feelsgood
>>706978595
I feel you /b/ro. I went to a therapist, who sent me to psychiatrist. Only thing that helped me. Wish I never went, that way I'd be dead rn. Whatever I guess
>>706967471
FUCK
>>706995352
>sitting there watching a guy sit next to a gravestone for an hour or at least long enough for candles to burn out
This is so fake I cringe everytiem, why would they all sit there for an hour just fucking watching him? A whole goddamn hour. Wtf did they do? Talk about? Christ...
>>706967471
what's your e-mail?
>>706961724
i have been eating only spicy food and drinking chocolate milk and sometimes water for a week now, i can feel that feel right now.
>>707000968
What's this?
>I eventually do
>Have everyone say that I will go far, have good things in life, that they would've killed to be as smart and determined like me during their youth and such.
>I feel nothing about this
>Ask myself why, I'm not happy?
>Why am I not satisfied?
>What else can I ask for?
>Depression hits me
>Psychologist and such
>Pyshocologist says I may be autistic
>Sawitcoming.png
>To top all of this, Nico and Krishna are till together, and everytime I see them I get this bitter flavour of jealosy on my mouth.
>I try to take as much advice as I can, but nothing is really useful it all feels repetitive and null
>I try to convince myself that it's just the age and everything will be better in the future
>Meet this one guy, that's on the same boat as me
>We somehow click and become buddies
>He is always depressed, just like me
>Doesn't come to school for one week
>He killed himself beacuse depression was too much
>Can't blame him, he had it worse than me
>There goes my last buddy
>My "Friends" don't care about me anymore
>The year passes, Kirhsna and Nico failed, Pancho passed, some of his friends did, some didn't
>I had no one say to me "I'll miss you"
>Dad beats me up and gives a shitload of pills, always tells me to man the fuck up
>I know it was the only option, but I wasen't able to do it.
>Mom believes in me
>She tells me to please pickup myself sho she can be ok
>Someone cares about me
>I'LL FUCKING DO IT
>goin well in my next year.
>Still no friends
>No hopes for the future
>I expect nothing from myself
>Hide so I don't worry my mother
>Recently,her lungs hurt really badly, I'm scared it may be cancer
>Most likely is.
>She is all I have left.
>All I want, it's to hear a "No" From the doctor
>Never tells me if she does or not even if I ask
>Oh god she has it doesn't her.
>Can't get friends
>Can't feel love anymore
>Hardly enjoy life's pleasures
>Suicide seems really tempting
>Won't do while she is here, I'm not breaking her heart while she is looking.
End.
>>707000968
>dat bottom right one
Bump
>>707003688
I'm still here too
>>707003743
Nice, how's your night going anon?
