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>im schizophrenic
AMA
>>703990028
can you distinguish reality from thought?
like do catch your self tripping out?
>>703990123
most of the times, sometimes i cant, like last night when i literally ran home because i suddenly thought i heard something in the bushes
>>703990207
cool!
>>703990422
ye boi, shits tite
I just woke up ask me nothing
>>703990028
i am too but i don't believe you what else happens?
>>703990773
what else happens when?
>>703990833
you're done.
>>703990028
how did it start?
Is your alter ego a 6000 year old magician or a rough guy named Hank?
>>703990028
I am schizophrenic too.
No I'm not.
>>703990028
How do you feel throughout an average day?
>>703990833
tell me all your symptoms now
tell the damn fuckin stupîd symptoms already
maybe i'll tell mine if anyone wants.
>>703990901
it started when i was like 15, i just stopped feeling and started hallucinating nearly constantly, not long after this started i started to see things moving around, then i got extremely paranoid, and after that i thought everything was fake for a while. Then i got meds, they helped for a while but then i stopped taking them because i dont trust them
>>703990028
What's this pic from?
>>703990028
have you ever had a conversation with someone you made up in public? what did you talk about
No, you're an attention seeking faggot on a anonymous message board.
Get fucked kiddo.
>>703991118
youre an idiot. just take the fucking pills kid
>>703991118
what things were moving around? Like spirit, vision or object irl?
What were/are the visuals in your hallucinations in other words?
>>703991015
>>703991097
i have constant mild hallucinations, they spike sometimes and then i start seeing animals/people lying on the floor where there are none
i am quite delusional, i never trust anyone because i think theyll report what i say to my enemies
im paranoid, i never go outside when its dark because of how afraid i am of it
im emotionally numb
i cant think properly/at all
thats about it i think
>>703991135
i havent, i talk to myself sometimes, but thats mostly in my head
>>703991212
nigg i dont want to
>>703991314
i think this answered my question. >>703991135
im guessing no?
>>703991300
tiny balls of light and objects irl
>>703991314
I need sauce on the Christian Bale pic lad
>>703991435
i just googled schizophrenia in google images lel
>>703991470
Eck
>>703991314
Could you believe what people told you when you were a kid?
>>703991706
kid like 10 y/o?
most of the time i think
cant really remember much before the age of 12
>>703990028
No you're not. You're an edgy teenager fishing for attention.
>>703990950
Ronnie Montrose ftmfw
Is it just you in this thread?
>>703991903
and you think this because?
>>703991976
yeah
just ignore the the 16 posters, its just me
Feels like the whole world literally revolves around me. However someone called me a clown today and I was like "alright."
>>703990950
Wouldn't Ian Hunter's "You're Never Alone With A Schizophrenic" been a more thread-appropriate choice?
>>703991793
I had a psychotic episode 3 years ago, but never seen any orbs.
I asked myself with a lot of intention wat it is like (cuz i was thinking its just a retina effect, like you stare a lamp too much)
then i fucking saw one orb close to my face going up, and 10 seconds after i saw another one in the angle of my room. Like really the space.
It is disturbing i admit. I wouldn't want that everyday or even for hours, that would indeed make me crazier than what i am.
My guess is it's just the brain fucking up a connection somewhere. Don't hold a grip on it or it will get worst. There is no blame for what you can't control.
>>703992626
it could be just a fuckup in connection somewhere if that was the only thing i see
i see literal bodies lying on the floor sometimes
fuck, still so many people who don't know the difference between multiple personality disorder and schizophrenia
>>703992928
yeah right
annoying as fuck
>>703990028
are you schizophrenic?
>>703992928
The one sounds more cartoony
>>703992957
not original
seen this at least 5 times
>>703991300
name of your medication..
>>703993317
zoloft and cannabidiol
>>703992626
name of your medication
>>703992846
for the bodies lying around, is it superposing with element of reality ?
One night i had that, i saw a black kid (you know the black starving kid) and it was just a pack of paper.
>>703993317
i had 6 for a time, then i reduced to 20mg zyprexa (+20kg) then 10 and 5.
I stopped them and i went batshit crazy from january to june. (i'm actually doing better since i fucked this fatwhale)
>>703990207
You're not schizophrenic, you're just a cat.
>>703993495
topkek
>>703993472
most of the time when i freak and look at the body nothing is there
>>703990028
Have you ever had a argument with your alter ego? Did you fight? Did you win?
>>703993649
So it's a shadow or object in an angle that you interpret as a body? (cuz i was wondering wat it was and i actually had this 5 minutes ago, believe it or not)
>>703993696
i dont have an "alter ego"
i do speak to myself sometimes, and have arguments with myself, its 50/50 who wins
>>703993830
not really
i just see a random body lying on the street or something
>>703993919
yeah but you are not directly looking at it, that's wat i meant by angle (in the angle of your vision)
>>703994010
oh yeah i dont look directly at it
but its still probably hallucinating induced by schizophrenia
>>703993472
name of your medication?
did you like that alucinations ??
did some time you allucinate whit a girl or something like that you now fuck and that things?
(gif related)
>>703994148
ok one thing that i've learned from this kind of brainshit
don't give a fuck. Cause each time you are ackowledging the situation you're brain doesn't see it as negative and will do it more.
It's like ocd this kind of shit.
You just say "huh", then you go on
>>703994261
man wat the actual are you talking about
>>703994376
ill try, but being extremely on edge and paranoid all the time doesnt work well with seeing random bodies lying around on the floor
>>703994261
RIP english
OI OP OR ANYONE ELSE WITH EXPERIENCE
my Gf is Schiz. She doesnt like to talk about it which I respect, what sort of things can I do to hhelp? What wouldd you want a your significant other to do to help?
Some good answers and I'll show you her tits.
>>703994551
i wouldnt want to be reminded of it
i just want to be normal and have an SO to cuddle up with
the best months of my life were with a girl who didnt know i had schizophrenia who just treated me like any other guy
is she on medication?
if no try to keep her talking so she doesnt sink away into thought/hallucination
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FzoXQKumgCw
Are you sure?
>>703994488
i guess yeah
i had visions that i considered not mine, wich led to intrusive thoughts that i finally considered from other people, and that 2 acquitance of mine were reading my mind and telling me shit about what i thought
i'm not cured, but i got from more than 6 hours of discussion with 2 person (alone) to : in fact it's just my brain and sometimes (like for 2 min in a day) i think it's not me.
I hope it will get better for you my friend
it's just brainshit
>>703994834
yes
I can happen if I consume your medicine as a drug ?
>>703994851
thanks man
>>703994781
toppest of keks
>>703994876
you will feel dumbed down
>>703994876
its just antidepressants and antipsychotics
the antidepressants will get you addicted and the antipsychotics wont have any affect
>>703994514
shut up, im learning faggot
>>703995021
you're learning how to take advantage of delusional person?
Hey man, it's God here. Just thought I'd let you know I'm doing the antichrist thing with you for the lulz. Humans think the darndest things.
>>703994986
I would like you to tell me how are your dreams, killing people in them ?? and if you do so in a unique way without equal?
>>703995346
What?
>>703995442
Its just normal dreams i think
Cant remember any special ones
>>703995346
not cool bro, that's my delusion :(
for real
anonymity makes you strong to shit on people
My father is schizophrenic, he uses to get better and then stop taking his medicines :/
Atm, he is living with my grandma, but he keeps messaging me at whatsapp with very strange subtexts. QUESTION: Are the medicines that bad?
>>703995835
clearly not good enough
>>703995835
They arent
But like me, he probably doesnt trust them
Youre his son, he most likely trusts you, try to persuade him to start taking them again
>>703995960
>>703995979
I see your point, but I was talking about collateral effects, because, the little I have talked with him about the disease, he complained most about how bad the medicines make him feels, like sleeper etc...
Do you guys pass through the same side effects?
Lso, that's the main reason why he stops the medicine.
>>703995835
oh and btw, i worked as a designer in a pharmashit idk wat, doing charts and watnot
the risperidal and zyprexa, and all neuroleptic in fact just do a 32% of improvement
The placebo was around 25%
The chart was done in 2014 for a new med, that was at 33% but with less secondary effects.
the 10% is just that the brain is actually going slower, so you cant be as much crazy.
>>703995675
It's a common one.
>>703996250
Look at cannabidiol, it has almost no sideeffects
you cant trust anyone... Everyone is a potential threat.
>>703996405
I know
>>703996444
Checkem
>>703996405
You only need to worry if they discover your secret.
>>703996315
wat? That the meds are not doing anything?
Cause at the time i was taking my 7mg zyprexa everyday, and smoking weed. The data were real, i did them to sell the new meds to a company.
In fact when i stopped zyprexa i also had to stop weed. I'm just saying they have little effect, and chimist mostly know how to inhibit your brain. They are not curing schizo disorder, they lower the brain activity so you can understand the reality
This fucking thread again...
How many of you fuckers are in there?
>>703996590
Just you.
>>703990028
post doctors/psychologist attest or gtfo
>>703995599
I would like to know which is what has worried you more in what you wear with your illness ?
>>703996566
fuck i badlinkek
Not OP but some schizophrenia pills make you lose ability to have cum when you ejaculate and also slows your metabolism which makes you fat. As a schizophrenic my episodes go fucking crazy if I forget to take my meds so I guess I have to suck it up
>>703996703
No point in psychic attacks you if you can no longer spread your genes anyway.
>>703994931
you were in some state of panic and terror or some tranquility, you are transported to a happy place?
>>703996703
When i take medication i use CBDe
It doesnt have those side effects
>>703994876
YOU BECOME SUPER NORMIE
REEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE
>>703996675
What i wear with my illness?
>>703990028
Hi
I come from a schizo family where the precedent generation went batshit insane at 25yo.
I recently started talking a lot to myself, and creating a persona in the process, wich is now part of me. I'll turn 25 in 3 month.
I could say we are two in my head but the other part just serves a purpose and never took control over me. Just like a tool.
Am I crazy?
>>703997024
You just need to go outside and get some sun.
>>703997104
I live outside.
>>703997024
Yes
>>703990028
Are you schizophrenic?
>>703997257
Possibly
>>703997024
Don't worry about it, you could just be schizotypal or something. In fact, that's far more common.
>>703997017
I want to know is what happened to you almost died of fear?
>>703997767
im sorry, im off my meds, i cant think properly
youre not making any sense m8
youre asking if i ever almost died of fear?
if yes, yes last night and some other times
Have you ever decided to use even go want to do like?
>>703998030
What
>>703998119
I'm speaking schizophrenic.
>>703998232
Toplel
>>703997902
which is the most amazing thing has happened to you?
>>703998232
That actually sounds like something that might come out of my throat
>>703998266
Having a girlfriend who didnt care about the schizophrenia
>>703997518
I was never delirious, and I never had hallucinations outside of sniffing cloth detergent when I was 15.
I was beaten up and humiliated as a child.
When I stand up too fast I tend to get all my muscles weak and go blind (I see whiteness) for a second or two. Also ears ringing. What the fuck.
>>703990028
Roses are red. Violets are blue. I am schizophrenic and so am I
>>703998744
Everyone knows violets are blureen.
>>703999296
sorry dubs of truth
>>703990028
literally just Googled the symptoms of Schizophrenia because of the post where someone said it's commonly mistaken for multiple personality disorders or whatever
I legit exhibit every single symptom.
have a history of schizophrenia in my family as well, my uncle's schizo.
I'm not saying I believe I'm schizophrenic, nor am I trying to diagnose myself.
however, it's odd because I've always had mental health issues ever since I was a teenager. but I've never had a concrete answer as to what I actually have. or I've been told I have lots of different things at the same time like depression, anxiety, ADHD, asperger's etc.
but yeah, schizophrenia pretty much sums it up and I am legit so much like my uncle as well.
>>703999691
Schizophrenia is like cancer the sooner you get it checked out the better my man
>>703999818
But then you don't get to become a god.
>>703999942
Yeah and all the psych ward stays and therapy and meds and shit honestly worth
>>703999818
yeah, gonna speak to my mother about it (she's always supported me in my mental health issues) and probably gonna make an appointment with my GP soon.
the hallucination thing is weird though, I never really thought much about it but like, I see things that aren't there quite commonly.
for example. the other day I walked past a crumpled up bin bag with some red leaves coming out of one end, on the floor and until I got up close to it for some reason I saw a dead bird with no head instead of a bin bag.
I used to hallucinate loads when I was a child as well. especially when I was ill. I'd hear, see, feel and sense things that weren't there. I was majorly paranoid off and on as well.
another example is when I had a stomach bug, I remember walking to the doctor's with my mother and being frightened of a branch laying on the floor, until I got up close to it I didn't see a branch, I saw a massive insect, like a giant preying mantis or something...
>>704000163
The path to godhood is not meant to be easy.
>>704000222
^^^ me again.
if this thread gets taken down due to post limit, could OP make another thread? I feel like I could do with someone to talk to about this.
>>704000300
Yeah sure
>ITT people pretend they have schizophrenia
>Because schizophrenics have insight
>>704000353
thanks!
>>704000418
You can take acid and get the same effects.
>>703990028
Do you hear that?
>>704000523
My music? Yeah i do
>>704000222
hey op don't forget about ^^^
>>704000222
You should definitely see a psychiatrist.
Im not one but to me it does sound like schizophrenia
>>704000222
Talk to a doc and they'll tell you what you've got, just be honest with them and they'll probably get it right.
>>704000715
this
>>704000715
ordinarily I'd agree with you but my past experience tells me otherwise, so I am a little edgy about going.
like I said in my previous post, I've been told I've had allsorts over the years. ADHD, depression, possibly bipolar, asperger's, dyspraxia...
but yeah I will likely end up going at some point.
>>704000910
also. y'know the "positive symptoms" the psychotic episodes
can someone describe them to me, preferably someone with personal experience? like, thoughts + feelings etc.
>>704000961
I've been around schizophrenics, at least the ones I knew were schizophrenic were quite aloof, had strange expressions that don't change, and didn't talk much. Honestly, I can't imagine those people discussing and explaining things on the internet the way you are. But I'm not a doctor.
>>704000961
well it differs greatly from person to person
but this is what i got >>703991314
>>704001322
its because its the internet
i have difficulty speaking a coherent sentence irl and am quite aloof
rip thred
>>703990028
Do these shoes go with this dress? Asking for a friend.
>>704002176
honestly i think the blue ones are better with that dress
Are you DJ Paulo?
>>703990028
I just spoke to my mother and she said this to me.
I don't think you're schizophrenic. The illness usually comes on after some sort of major breakdown... which results in hospitalisation. Most of the schizophrenics I've worked with (when going through a bad phase) feel persecuted, terrorised, and tormented to the point of emotional and mental exhaustion. They experience a great deal of emotional and mental anguish, which is clearly visible for all to see. These episodes can lead to self-harming, suicidal behaviour, and/or strange behaviours. An example is when Karl chucked out all his electrical home appliances because he believed he was being spied on through these devices, and that other beings were talking to him through the electrical humming of these machines.
It's difficult to describe the anguish of a schizophrenic unless you've seen it for yourself. I visited Karl when he was hospitalised just after his breakdown and the experience was shattering. He was in Broad Green Mental Hospital. It was the first time I encountered this sort of mental illness. He was rocking back and forth, was in extreme emotional distress because of the auditory hallucinations and physical delusions he was experiencing. In between these episodes he would reel off tales about experiences he'd had and would become very frustrated if I couldn't understand him. He actually had his own language, which he called Shin Vision. And... later on, he would sometimes make statements that were uncomfortably sexual... really inappropriate stuff... socially speaking. But he had no control over himself at that time so he would often do very bizarre things. The police had to break down the door to his flat a couple of times because his behaviour was so weird, and then he'd be sent back to hospital where they'd adjust his medication. This went on for many years until they found the right combination for him.
>>704003195
When Karl had his breakdown and was finally treated in a way that worked for him... I felt like I'd lost my brother. His personality was so different it was like talking to a complete stranger, like my real brother had died. To this day I feel uncomfortable talking to him because it's like something or someone else is looking out of his eyes. He's not my brother anymore. I never feel like that around you.
My feeling is... if you had schizophrenia we'd know by now. I've never seen you in the state that I associate with schizophrenia. Also, bear in mind that the most common symptoms used for diagnosing schizophrenia are the presence of delusions and/or hallucinations. However, if you think this is something that needs to be explored then go see your GP... or go to the Brooker Centre and ask to talk to someone there. Let me know if you need me.
>>704002289
Thank you! I'll "pass" it along.
>>704003057
yes
>>704003195
this isnt true for everyone
schizophrenia is a very complicated illness
its always present and without proper care you can break down
tell your mom you would feel better to if you saw a psychiatrist
>>704003195
>>704003230
the thing I feel she failed to mention though was that there are different degrees of schizophrenia, and it doesn't always suddenly appear after major trauma, it can be very gradual over a large amount of years
>>704003771
thats exactly what happened to me (OP)
>>704003195
>>704003230
She's right to some degree that people would have noticed if you'd experienced psychosis, even really introverted people that just keep everything to themselves act in weird ways when experiencing it.
But not everyone is super severe in the way she's saying, she's talking about someone at the worst point of their illness when they need to be inpatient because they can't function. Most of the time people with the disorder aren't like that.
Most schizophrenics come across as relatively normal while medicated, and heaps just have some minor issues with memory and focus and social interactions while outside episodes.
Though OP is probably just self diagnosed like most of these threads end up being.
>>704004222
not self-diagnosed
ive been seeing a psychiatrist and psychologist for about 2 years now
>>704004496
Well, congrats on being the exception then I guess. Most of these threads end up being
>I have "insert mental illness here" AMA
>Anons ask questions
>OP gives hollywood tier description of illness and blatantly misunderstands either what the illness is, or how the particular symptoms present and work
>>704004714
topkek
yeah those are fucking rage inducing
>>704004222
not everyone that has schizophrenia has noticable psychosis though? especially if they're introverts, who don't really have any kind of social circles. how can anyone tell if people have meltdowns in their own home in their own presence and only re-emerge socially when they feel better?
>>704003817
is there any chance you can describe the gradual changes you underwent, and when you started to realise something was up?
>>703992928
One's real, one's fake. Easy enough.
>>703990028
Fucking fuck. I had a psychosis after partying to hard for a while. Auditive, visual and could even smell shit.
Now I am considering if I may have schizophrenia. Because I can see shit and hear shit that isn't around, even though I am sober.
I get panic attacks etc at times too...
Am I like you? Going to a psychiatrist soon...
>>704004957
well i always was emotionally unstable as child (according to parents) but in early teen years i started to stop reacting to thing how one is "supposed" to react, i started to feel "numb" emotionally. that lasted a while and then i started to see some sort of discoloration when i looked at something for 3 seconds+, that got gradually worse, meanwhile i started jumping at every shadow and noise when it was dark, i stopped trusting people close to me and started getting paranoid about everything. right about then i got severe insomnia due to hallucinating quite vividly in the night and being afraid of closing my eyes in bed, because of this i started seeing a psychiatrist (because the other doctors couldnt find anything) and she came to the conclusion of schizophrenia after a few meetings. i started taking medicine, but stopped after a while
>>703995675
Just kill yourself you retarded faggot. Why are you still around?
>>704005417
did you do something like mdma?
>>704005417
You just suffer from natural retardation and the drugs made it more obvious.
>>704005457
>>704005417
if you did it might be something like HPPD
>>704005418
shiiiiiiit man.
I had loads of "behavoural issues" as a child. I was diagnosed with allsorts, like the stuff I listed above, I was put in the special needs classes in both primary and secondary schools and put on ritalin in secondary school because I was constantly "acting up." and was uncontrollable. it was around the my time in primary school that I was hallucinating a lot as well, particularly when I was ill and they were most often the kinds of hallucinations I mentioned earlier. I did have some auditory hallucinations as well from time to time though. like hearing creepy jokerish laughing or something.
I've never trusted people, at all. and that's gotten worse as I've gotten older. I literally don't have any friends anymore, I only speak to my mother. avoid the rest of my family. and this is generally because I "know" that people don't give a shit about me and that they all have their own agendas and seek to use me to fulfill them in some way. even my mother tbh, I suspect her of only supporting me as a sort of insurance policy so she gets support later on in her life.
I have severe social anxiety in general though. unless I'm having one of my REALLY good days where I don't give a fuck about anything, but those days have been described by my mother as manic days because I'm so up it's like my head's in the clouds.
and as for my sleep. that's up and down as well. I've never had a real sleeping pattern. sometimes I'll barely sleep for days then other times all I'll do is sleep.
>>704006775
not physically (except when i jump at something and hit my head or something)
>>704006826
look up paranoid personality disorder
you should also see a psychiatrist
if you dont trust him/her remember that if he/she ever tells anyone about what you talk about you can sue him/her for hundreds of thousands of dollars
>>704005457
Nope, speed. Then 4-fmp. But it wasn't until a lot later. I know it may have been the drug causing the psychosis, but I may have had it underlying for quite a bit as I have battled depression etc for many years.
>>703991118
>I'm paranoiac and I don't take meds cause I don't trust them
I probably would do the same because you may learn to live with yourelf but learning to live under meds means learning to be a drug addict, so I would try to live by myself, I guess
>>704007300
then it could be something like major depressive disorder
>>704007300
and it could still be HPPD
>>704007465
its not that i could get addicted, because i rarely take zoloft, but when i do take medicine i use CBD most of the time, which you cant get addicted to
>>704007465
Good job falling into 'textbook unmedicated schizophrenic stage I'
To start taking meds again and have shitty side-effects again, turn to page 72
To stay unmedicated, go more nuts and end up in a locked ward on higher dose depot meds turn to page 43
right guys i think im having a psychosis rn so imma stop posting for a while
