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Do you guys ask yourselves why?
Why do we suffer?
Do we deserve this?
What did I do wrong?
Hey, y'all got any song recommendations (preferably one with slower beats to them)
>>703953550
because the flowers never grow in the places it doesn't rain
>>703953647
What style man? Hip hop, rock, alternative, or what?
this is my senior year of highschool i never really talked to anyone i saw this new girl lost looking for her class was about to help her out and show her around but to beta and of course some fucking chad showed her around i really want to talk to her but i'm scared today i saw her hanging out with the fucking chad
>>703954044
The flowers on cactuses would like to disagree
>>703953550
I tend to only ask myself that when something good happens to me. An example being whenever she would text me or laugh at a joke I made. I ask, "Why did she have to be so kind to me?" It might be pitty or just common decency but it does brighten up my day a bit. And I hate that because it makes it harder to forget any feelings I have for her, and causes me to continue a self-hatred. Down, inside, I know that the only person to blame is myself
>>703953647
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=k4hf9f-XOxo
favorite song
>>703954217
Yeah I agree with you dude
>>703954077
Alternative or hip-hop/trip-hop preferabl, but contribution is fine
>>703954156
oh boy, buddy you better believe it rains in the desert.
Cacti don't grow in the sahara for the most part because it ACTUALLY doesn't rain there.
>be 25
>talk to girl for a while
>shes 19
>text often though it seems i mainly start the convos
>been wanting to hang out with her for weeks
>she moved 40 miles away and is only home on weekends, but busy with family stuff
>monday
>eventually she says that the next weekend i should go over and order pizza and play games with her
>im ecstatic
>thursday
>check IG to see whats new
>she post a pic of one of my coworkers
>shirtless, looking fit and shit
>mentions something about a date
>i what
>i message her about it
>ask if theyre dating
>she says no, it was a joke
>i let it go
>friday
>check her snap story
>shes hanging with same guy
>im pissed
>saturday
>she post another pic on IG
>its them at the theater together
>theyre dating
>sunday
>not one call or text all weekend
>not even an apology
>delete her off sn and ig
>she never says anything about it
There was a lot of feels mainly cause I legitimately felt forgotten. I don't understand how someone can do that. Straight lie to my face. i wasn't subtle about liking her either, i cut all the bullshit. She was basically giving me false hope the entire time. I think that's the worst thing you can do to a person. Those kind of people are a waste of time.
>>703954360
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_Wr7cr6ldy0
>>703953647
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=76PHzENMQ04
>>703954488
Girls that age are retarded. You shouldn't have given a reaction, girls feed off of that shit.
You guys are my only friends and probably the only ones I will ever have. You guys are my brethren.
>>703954233
>>703954523
>>703954505
Thank you
>>703954360
You probably already know Beautiful by Eminem. Also by him, When I'm Gone, Mockingbird, You're Never Over, and somewhat Not Afraid (at least for me it's feels-y)
Some of my other go-to songs: Mad World by Gary Jules, Gone Away by The Offspring, Lose You by Pete Yorn, If You're Gone by Matchbox 20, Give Em Hell Kid and Famous Last Words by MCR (yeah yeah I know... listened to them in high school still do occasionally). Nostalgic is a good new song by Simple Plan. Under The Bridge by RHCP.
My music isn't for most people but that's the contribution I can give.
>>703954156
thanks for the giggle
>>703954435
>Being this retarded
>>703954523
holy shit this is amazing man thank you
>>703954934
Thanks will give the new one a look through
>>703955301
>>703954799
No problem guys
This is why I don't want to say anything to my crush
>>703953550
First, understand that your outlook is not a consequence of your reality unless you allow it to be. You can choose to seek a silver lining.
Second, make up your mind about your outlook. If you cannot choose to try to be positive, you'll have a much harder time finding contentment.
Third, look into existentialism and nihilism.
There is no meaning without contrast. Without sadness, we can't know joy. Without joy, we can't know sadness. In order to experience and appreciate the good, we must also experience the bad. For without both, neither exists.
Fix your gaze on the positive. Find the silver lining. Even suffering is a gift.
>>703954726
I didn't react. I completely dropped it. I was pissed, but I never showed it around her. i wanted to see if she would at one point remember and mention it. She never did.
But in turn it allowed me to date this other 19 year old for a bit who I later found out was in lesbians with original chick. Also banged.
but god damn I still get pissed thinking about it. Its unbelievable.
>>703955515
she looks like she's 12 how old are u?
>>703955477
So be a Buddhist cuck?
nah I'm fucking with you Il true dude thanks
But its all my fault and I accept that
What causes the pain for you guys?
>>703955583
already told you, 25. But yeah, shes small and cute as hell, but 19.
>>703955850
Fffffffffuuuuuuuuck. Right in the feels.
I was so close to making it guys. I was nearly happy. I met a girl and I thought I was finally doing something right, she could tolerate being around me. Few nights ago she spent the night, we didn't do anything more than cuddle but goddamn it was amazing. Most I had ever done with another human being. But it feels like she's been avoiding me ever since and I'm just terrified I fucked it up somehow. I was nearly proper happy and now I'm lower than I've been in a while.
>>703956345
Its going to be alright dude
>>703955933
Forget about the bitch, bro. Shit happens, stop obsessing about her and ffs delete all those pics.
Don't talk to her, don't talk about her, don't think about her. Time will take care.
You'll eventually meet another girl and she'll blow your mind out of your asshole and this one will stop seeming all that awesome.
>>703956531
nah u rite.
>>703956345
Unless you're withholding information, it doesn't sound like you fucked up. The trick now is to not psych yourself out and fuck it up.
You're thinking too much. Assume everything is fine. Go with the flow.
>>703956345
It's ok man, everything will be alright
Just stay strong
>>703956345
Step 1: Chill the fuck out.
Step 2: Text something along the lines of "what's up, stranger?"
Step 3: Take whatever happens on the chin
Step 4: Move on/fuck her brains out depending on the result of step 2 & 3.
>>703953647
Listen to a song called slide,by low
>>703953378
Fuuuuck. This. I've felt this.
>>703957088
Alrighty
>>703953378
I fucking hate this, even my best days I end up feeling sad and alone at the end of it all.
>>703954360
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vj_A8169wX8
This one gives me the bonies.
>you don't want to sleep unless you know you'll pass the fuck out, like sleep every other night, just so you don't think too much
I used to enjoy feels thread but now I can't help myself but to see them infantile and ingenuine. Projecting responsibility of your own failures on the world that was never tapered to fit you is not the best course of action to begin with.
>>703958647
Then again, I never considered the smartest when I came to decision making, and hearing from others (even if I will never know who they are) does ease a bit of the pain
Hey guys how are all of you today?
>>703958647
This is a place for people who are socially displaced, and we know that.
>>703959168
Support and acceptance does make it easier, but sometimes people just get dependent on it instead of fixing what's inside them themselves.
>>703959444
Nice trips
>>703959434
More like people who had negative experiences prior to present and judged themselves to be socially displaced. I was once like you. Turned out this is not irreversible.
>>703959350
I guess I'll just talk to myself, it makes me feel better anyways, hope tomorrows better for you and you can show that you can move forward instead of continuing to fall.
>>703953468
this is me, on point.
>>703959350
It was ok how bout you?
>>703952847
Goddamn this.
>>703959833
Why not vent here?
>>703959985
It was okay, I applied to more jobs today hoping to get accept, really want a car so i can get some sense of freedom.
>>703960015
I've been feeling very lost since I've admitted to myself that I'm probably depressed. Feels as though as the world is spinning clockwise and i'm spinning counter-clockwise. I dropped out of college cause it literally made me not want to eat or move. And i can't even see a doctor cause I have no healthcare atm.
>>703959791
I'm in the process and doing better. For some people they legitimately are however.
It's not the same for everyone.
>>703960371
That's cool couple of days ago I got a call back from a place I applied to months ago. If you really want try calling the place you applied for and talk to them still say you're there or whatever to come in an interview, it shows them you're interested and ready to accept the job
I'm about to tell you guys something,
>Be 13 at Knotts berry farm with classmates for graduating middle school.
>First ride was a small roller coaster first in line with friends.
>Look to my right girl I knew let's call her Jane, Jane' friend was whispering in her ear.
>Jane then asked me if I could sit next to her on the ride.
>confused.jpg
>"Ok" I said, we sit down on the ride she then asks me if I could put my arm around her.
>Confusionintensifies.jpg
>"Yeah, sure"
>Ride starts, grasp her arm
>Ride ends gets up and goes to her friend and powerwalk the fuck out while holding her arm.
>I feel like I hurt her with my Harambe strength
>Fuck
>don't see her all day at the amusement park.
Continue
>Be me 15 or something, high school, girl I know since middle school let's call her Jane, Jane comes up to me when we were going to our classes.
>"Hey anon, can I borrow you jacket? really chilly."
>Was a little chilly for me too but why not.
>Give her the my jacket, says thanks and we go our own way. Didn't get it back till the next day.
>This should have been a sign that she may be interested or not, but I thought nothing of it.
>Fast forward 3 days
>Was sitting with my friends at lunch eating and laughing.
>Jane comes up to me and asks if we could talk in private.
>"Sure why not."
>We go behind the auditorium and sit down on benches.
>Says if I can keep a secret. Tell her "yeah have no problem with secrets."
>Tells me something that might have happened to her or did happen to her.
>After that asks me if I'm going to the dance next friday.
>Tell her no I don't really dance.
>Jane:"Oh, ok."
>According to my friends this was a sign that she was interested in me, but me being called fat and ugly when I was little I actually believed girls would not be attracted to me.
>>703957493
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qXElmiqzcI0
>23:45
>>703960371
But doesn't it feel good to actually acknowledge the problem? Knowing the problem is part 1 of fixing it.
Ever tried letting your negative emotions flow? Try to meditate for around 30 minutes, remembering every negative situation you've had in your life you think have affected you or even your perspective on life. Contemplate your loneliness since we all come into this world alone and leave it alone. If it causes negative feelings don't stop. Eventually you won't be able to hold your weeping back so just start crying, letting all of this go. Does wonders especially if you are prone to long streaks of low emotional response to anything.
>>703960391
More severe for some, that's true. But c'mon, not a lot of people on /b/ were literally held hostage for 25 years thanks to their protective moms.
>>703961201
sure
>>703961049
Yeah I agree a lot, it's awful thinking about how I pretty much felt nothing for years, not caring about a single real thing, it feels good to feel something again better than emptiness. Any tips for meditating, I thought you weren't suppose to think and clear your mind.
>>703960897
Thanks for the tip, I hope things go well for you too.
>>703961049
Of course most weren't, but the reason the threads are so big are because this place is better than just about anywhere else to talk to.Yeah, you have the typical kys guys, but no one can find out who you are. Other generations dealt with it too, but we have the benefit of this terrible terrible place.
>>703961505
You're welcome anon and thanks
Don't think I can hold on anymore /b/ros
requesting the greentext about the guy who enjoys being the clown and making everyone laugh
>>703960997
Actually that's pretty much it, till some few years back I just figured out that she was interested in me but was to blind to see it. I don't know if she still might be interested but she most likely moved on doesn't seem to have a boyfriend though. I have as a friend on facebook and all I know id that she is into religion and working as a nurse in a dentist office learning to speak vietnamese. What do you guys think should I go for it?
>>703961505
Clear your mind from your everyday business. Then focus on various situations that keep you awake at night, that have a sense of truth to them you don't want to accept (basically any girl problem), that drive you sad/make you mourn. Basically all this to provoke an emotional outburst. Who knows, maybe you'll feel like punching your pillow to death instead of crying. Thing is, projecting emotions into actions and feeling the negative spectrum will GREATLY increase your potential of feeling stuff on the positive spectrum.
In fact, feeling through (instead of simply understanding) the concept of your inherent loneliness, your mortality and personal responsibility may trigger a reaction like that too. But hell, that's what maturing is about anyway, so why not accept in now and move on?
>>703961538
Mostly those threads are big because people relate, everyone has bad stuff happen to them in life and in most western cultures being negative or sad is frowned upon. Not THAT big of a problem in the place I live in but it is still prevalent to some extent.
>>703962041
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dhZUsNJ-LQU
>hold on
>don't be scared
>you'll never change what's been and gone
Have you ever felt something within reach, that you can hold, but just something inside you stops you, or tells you you aren't good enough.
I have an app on my phone /b/, that is supposed to help after my last suicide attempt. It calls 911 or your emergency contacts when you select certain answers or let it know you're feeling wrong.
Out of all 6 emergency contacts i have listed not a single one answered, or bothered to send a text. In fact most sent me to voicemail.
I've had enough guys. This isn't for me anymore.
>>703962421
Okay thanks anon, I'm pretty tired so i'm gonna go to sleep.
I dont know if anyone gives a fuck.
And i know my problems are probably juat dirt on my shoe compared to what a lot of you are facing, but if you guys dont mind id just like to vent real quick because i just need someone please...
>>703963406
You have my ears if it helps
>>703962878
Here's where im at /b/ros...
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XdIw6tEjyEg
>>703963406
go for it
>>703954799
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZIfPqcynsS4
My gf just broke up with me. Now I'm getting drunk
>>703963588
Im not anything special. Im not some great mind. Im not a snowflake unique among snowflakes, im not a jeart throb or a jock or a nerd or anything. Im just the weird guy that everyone likes because hes weird and doesmt care. The only problem is i do care. I care so much about people it hurts. And i still think im a selfish piece of shit. My sister is the only one in my family that gets me and im forced to sleep on my dads couch because i cant save up money because i spend it all on drugs to try to feel free. Every relationship i have falls through because i dont try anymore. I cant open up to anyone unless its shit like this. And i dont care if it makes me a faggot or anything bit every night that i spend in a feels thread i usually lurk bit tonight im posting.
I pray for you guys. Even if your athiest understand what that means to me. I ask a god that i still believe in for some reason that even if it means i never get to be happy again that things pick up for you mother fuckers. I cry and beg that you guys find happiness because wether i say it or not i love you guys. I do. I want to leave and follow my dreams. But i cant because i sold my soul to the army. I want to walk across america. I want to move to Alaska. I want a bog dog and a warm log cabin. I want to be free. And i know sje wont read this and i know you guys think im so loser or somethimg but goddamnit faith. I love you. I always will and ill nwver forget that night by the river. Or how i thought you were going to die and you told me i saved you. Ill nwver be what you saw in me but fuck it id give up everything in my being if i could kiss you again. But you were posion to me and i was cancer to you and we just cant work. If anyone gives a fuck about anyone just know every birthday every christmas every 4th of july and everything, i spent it with you assholes and if i do go through with it this time....well i dont regret a goddamn thing.
>>703964974
Good luck on getting hammered. Everything passes over time so brace yourself, your next relationship is going to be better
>>703965344
Thanks anon. It was my first real relationship, so it fucking hurts. Ill be fine in a couple days, just not not looking forward to the next couple of days
>>703965339
No one is really a great mind, a special snowflake or special altogether; you can become one, but sometimes thriving for it is no road to your own personal definition happiness.
Take care of yourself anon and learn to love yourself for what you are; remember that if you won't take great care of yourself you won't be able to take care of other people and express your love to them.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JQz_WjTn68U
>>703965630
You were happy for some time right? Happiness often comes with a price. Don't be that sad about it ending, smile that it actually happened instead.
>>703965934
Thanks anon. That helps a lot. Now im gonna go get wasted with my friends. Im sure this is for the better
>>703956451
Underrated.
>>703956451
Damn poor birb
I'll bump this thread hopefully we can keep this alive and some Bros are still lurking.
This summer was shit. In may me and my girlfriend went on break. It was a mutual decision because I was convinced that it would make us a better couple.
I wasn't always the best boyfriend. I mean I love her unconditionally and did everything I could to show her that. I was the nicest person to her and was there in the best and worst of times. but I was still a lazy, unmotivated piece of shit. And I think the days before we went on break that's when it started to hit me. How much of a let down I was and how accomplished she is I started getting worried that she wanted to replace me and became overbearingly jealous to the point where we got into an argument that was caused by me being crazy and going through her phone one nihht when she was asleep.
Cont?
>>703964974
How'd it go down anon if you're okay to share
>>703967658
go on man i'm listening
Well /b/, here's my story:
>be me
>13 at the time
>essentially fall in love with my best friends sister who is a year older than me
>friend zoned and I didn't even know what it was at that time
>gave me the usual "any girl would be lucky to have you" sort of thing
>always there when she broke up with a guy or needed someone to talk to
She got around around a lot but was too young to do anything
>always dream of making her my gf, but too pussy to actually do it
>2 years go by of never confessing how I feel to her but always having a close bond with her
>one weekend we go to best friends cabin with parents and sister
>she texts me that night "anon, I'm cold. Come in here with me:)"
>ohfuckyes.jpeg
>I go into her room and she uncovers her bed to make a spot for me
>I lay down and she kisses me, my first kiss
>we continue kissing and light touching for God knows how long, could have been 5 minutes or 2 hours
>best night of my life
>lay there cuddling when she finally tells me I should go because we're fucked if we get caught
>I agree and leave hesitantly
>fast forward a week and we're texting
>tell her it was amazing for me and I was glad she did it
>"anon... I'm sorry. I feel like I'm leading you on and I don't want to"
>heart drops out of my chest
>fast forward another week and she acts like it wasn't anything at all
>we keep talking and eventually both ignore anything ever happened
>fast forward to today
I still see here every now and again, but she's up in college and I'm still in HS. I always tell myself I'm over her, but every time I see her on either snapchat or real life, all these feelings come back. Still haven't kissed a girl since then, and I've only been able to talk to one other since then. What should I do?
I had accused her of cheating and didnt find anything on her phone. Only a conversation with her and her friend about breaking up with me and afraid of she did I was going to hurt or kill myself. It pissed me off no doubt and we went on a break because of my trust issues and having to sort myself out and get my shit together. After about a week I started to see the unmotivated loser I was and started getting everything together while
Seeing her here and there but when we see eachother I felt the spark is gone. Well in her eyes anyway.What we had just wasnt there. My insecurities eat at me all the time and She's probably found someone else or at least wants to. Or just be her own person and explore her life.
We're both young and fell in love as teenagers so I can see overtime why she'd get sick of me. Everyone else in my life has so it's nothing new.
We were supposed to meet up last friday and talk. I was going to call her out on some shit. She seemed like she didnt care and was getting along fine without me around. I was going to break up with her just cause there's so much better for her and it's best for us.
She hasn't replied to me at all since last fucking Thursday when we made plans.
I'm just a mix of emotions. I'm sad and angry and idk what hurts more keeping her around or letting her go.
I've been just focusing on myself lately getting college together and even finally got a gym membership but I still csnt shake this.
Should I just wait for her to text me or should I go in for the kill?
Ugh fuck.
>>703969150
Meant to reply this to part two to
>>703967658
Sorry dude. >>703967991
>"how are you?"
>"I'm here."
>"ok but are you happ?"
>I can't help but laugh
>"no. I'm not happy."
I grasp at those fleeting moments of light but invariably I am drawn back under. Beneath the surf it’s calm, quiet, cold. I hang in that stasis, bubbles rising around me and the waves crashing above my head, and I struggle to feel anything. The air is burning in my lungs but this is serene and somehow feels manageable. I could die here. I think that would be alright. I’ve come to accept my own mortality and I’m ready to go whenever the time comes. I’m not asking to die, Death can take his time, but I won’t be surprised. Then, just like that, the panic returns and I claw for the surface, claw for a few moments to feel anything other than this.
My greatest fear is that I will one day find that it has been shallow enough to stand in this whole time.
I'm thinking of breaking up with my gf. I feel days on end lost and unhappy. It's not her fault. She actually tries to make me feel better. I just think one of these days I'll snap and will just make her suffer. Only thing keeping me floating Is the next trimester's mdma.
honest opinion of a sperglord beta, you should just end it, now, it will only hurt both of you in the long term, take that gym membership and start lifting and running until you can only focus on the pain and not on her
>>703967958
Nothing major, just slowly growing apart. Both of us saw it coming. It doesnt make hurt any less. Btw, im fucking wasted right now
>>703953468
>you get attached, fast.
yep. fucking hate it
>>703969795
lots of people use switching off as a defense mechanism, then alternate between apathy and rage at their own apathy. what helps me is getting invested in projects and working out, although it doesn't help 100% of the time.
do you exercise? if yes and it doesn't help, have you tried therapy?
i love her /b/ what do
>>703970857
Anything but nothing.
>>703970577
Eh. I hear you bro. Kind of in the same boat right now. I need to go out with some friends and drink again.
>>703955850
dude
>>703970821
I work out some. I also throw myself into projects. Like really hard. They become my life for a few days. Sometimes even weeks. But then it's over and it's hard to find the money to start a new one. Art and writing aren't as self-actualizing as making things, but they help. I'm doing alright, all things considered; some weeks are just harder than others.
People most likely arent going to read this and its such a pussy thing to bitch about and i know its not that big of a deal but for some reason i feel really hard for this one girl and its so weird, she acts like she likes me a lot and mentions sexual things to me very often but she also wont text me back for very long periods of time and when i compliment her she just blows it of in a way, she doesent talk to me and i dont think she likes me as much as i like her.. and its depressing..
>>703955850
coool good shit
>>703965339
It's ok, anon. We're here for you, and we'll give you whatever support we can.
